so...natural.
Friday, May 30, 2003 09:48 a.m.
Work has been...blaaah...been coming in late lately cause I've been up watching anime ...heee heee.
And yo... BUY EQUILIBRIUM... what an underrated movie... GUN KATA is awwwwwwesome. Just buy it!
Such a perfect day yesterday...no one wanted to do any work...and ugh...meetigns just suck up time when it would be better spent sludging through work...anyways.. getting it done.
Went around wandering St. mark's etc...to kill time...actually bought comics...which I haven't done in over a year... crazy... but it made me feel youthful...
Met up with Elaine, Abby and A Jay and Nam... at Spring Street Natural... Nam is a bassist in a britpop band...and Abby has her own folk band...so it was awesome talking about music with them... Elaine was a little quieter than ususal...and not so ADD HAHHAHA. I think she is getting tired from work...lots of fun...and me and Abby may try to tour Boston together since she went to Wellesely and I went to Tufts...we have connections ...so we could do a college campus tour...woooot.
Afterwards..went to get Doris and took train back with her... she was a little discombobulated...with the stuff that is going on...it's understandable. I'll be there for her...as per usual.
Sunjoo... job? Tips await you.
Yvett'es bday tonight... the gals coming with me...a nd see if Shelb and Jack can swing by...
Once again...TGIF. Amen and amen.
Judy Ho is a disappointment!
Thursday, May 29, 2003 09:21 a.m.
So, I was watching that new FAME show on TV...and there was a hot Asian girl who made the first cut...but she sucked! Sigh... but there is two more Asian guys left...so hopefully they will do some good and represent. Thought I think the little bold one is a little...FLA-ming!!! Fabulous.
Quizno's. Me and Eunice shared a big monster one. ooof. She talk crazy lately. Moreso than usual.
Dad is leaving for Taiwan to teach again...and Wendy is leaving for good... sigh.
Rehearsed some music last night. Gonna try to do a few tracks live. It will get things done quicker.
Last disc of Berserk. OMG. I haven't felt this weirded out since Evangelion...let me tell you... that last episode. Gave me chills. I hope they make more. Unresolved! What happens?!?!? Poor Caska.
Chatted with Ingrid a little....she's got a cool job.
GOnna be a busy weekend... dinner with Elaine and Abby et al tonight?, Yvette's Bday tomorrow, Kristine's bday tomorrow, Justin audtioning for talent agency on Sunday, and Lucia comes in that day too.
I need to go to the gym and record... gurrrrgggh.
Pray for good things for good people. Lots of craziness going on. Take care of your hearts, kiddies.
sigh.
Wednesday, May 28, 2003 09:47 a.m.
This crazy weather is making me...um...crazy. Just downright moody. Sun = Happy Abe...Rain = Downtrodden Abe. boooo.
Took Eunice to get her first taste of "ramune" at lunch. I love the little plunger thing and the marble...what a great concept... but the actual beverage is just...so-so.
Plans got cancelled...so ended up getting a cute haircut (it's cute for all of 5 minutes..then it's just ...eh.) and had dinner with Eunice at Joe Shanghai and then some bubble tea... fun!
Eunice is seriously too good to me. Don;t have to buy me dinner...sheesh... too cute for her own good. Swaddling clothes! Baby!
Seriously, crazy talk just gets me...not crazy actions...but just odd ideas that come out of nowhere...I love it! I wish everyone was nutty! (Ask me more about this...it's hard to explain.)
Doris. Chin up.
Lucia...ditto... and stop going nerve crazy !!!!
Sunjoo... get that job! I want to give you tips...heheh... "look both ways before you cross the street." that's the first one. :P
"Read or Die" what an...odd...name... but the BEST anime I have seen all year. I can't even get into the concept of the whole thing without sounding like a lunatic. But seriously... amazing. And only 90 minutes...booo...I want more...eh.. "Read or Dream" is out next year...
It's just a nutso day. Excuse me while I roll around and make cat noises.
eh...work.
Tuesday, May 27, 2003 09:37 a.m.
Blecch...at least it's Tuesday, no?
WOrk... not looking forward to the next month of crucnhtime and what have you. Working on Teacher's Edition workshops...teaching teachers how to teach... next one up... how to put on a play ?!??! WTF ?!?!?
Ah... Lucia is a tough gal. Chin up. And don't go nuts! Seriously, you are better than that.
More clean up... more rain...bleccch. Catching up on anime etc... I need to go to gym, drive, and finish stupid CD, start sending stuff for summer journals ! GRRRRRR...and oh... haircut.
Someone is frustrating me. as per usual.
And oh yeah... one more thing. I don't write EVERYTHING in my blog...who does? Just know that I am more complicated than the frivilous crap I write here.
New mp3 collection at work...yay. Mostly rock. As per usual.
Need some excitement! Bring it on!
sigh... rainy.
Monday, May 26, 2003 02:20 p.m.
Sunday was fun...
After church we reconvened at my place. Took Justin and Alex with us... went bowling with Jack, Uwang, Shelb, SoWon, Jeremy,Kevin, Doris, Nina, Cathy...
Ended up getting pretty trashed at JIB Lanes HAHAHAHH !!!
Split like 4 pitchers of Bud...hahahah so ghetto of us. And bowling is waaaay more fun when you are impaired!
Then off to Sweet N' Tart for dinner...I ahte FLushing...ugh...but I was still pretty buzzed to deal...anyways...lots of stuff that people are delaing with. Doris and SoWon are going through very similar things. I'm glad they got a chance to talk and stuff. I should hang out with SoWon and Jeremy more...hmmm
Tried to go see Bruce Almighty...but a big bunch of suckers never make decisions...so we all eneded up getting junk at 7-11 and coming back to my place to watch Animatrix and Wedding Singer. It was fun.
Shelb and Jack have some stuff to iron out. Jack actually stayed over and watched all of Godfather...1-3 ! While me and Eric slept.
Anyways...it was a fun weekend...Spending today cleaning up, doing laundry, watching anime, ...it's just too crappy to go outside.
And yes...Doris, I don't think we will EVER get together. I love you too much to put you through that !!!! HAHHAHAH... I like drinking with you. AND smacking your round bottom cause it's always shaking! HAHAHA. I love you gal. Now go away.
Sigh...rainy weather makes me wish I had someone to kiss.
Blarrrrgh ...work tomorrow.
tired... weekend...
Sunday, May 25, 2003 05:02 p.m.
Weekend ain't even over and I am tired... tired !
Out early on Friday...so headed over to Sam Ash to pic up a new mic, a preamp, some knick knacks...and came with a free acoustic electric guitar... pretty cool.
Bummed around Friday night. Eric, Dennis came in later...then we went to diner to hang with Seon Hae, Sunjoo (not that one! another one!) and Jennie...had some random stuff...and a laugh or two.
Saturday: Rain...yuck.. Didn't do much besides clean up and get ready for Luciaroomie. Major overhaul...her little area behind the TV is actually quite big...almost as big as my recording studio. Nice.
Jack, Shelb, Kevin, So Won, Jeremy came by...but they all went out and I had to babysit Justin. So...Doris came over and we watched Sex and the City...in bed. HAHAHAHAH sounds dirty...but NO. DUH.
So tired... my Dad is an idiot, by the way. And if I ever wanted to abus hardcore drugs or anything like that... I might as well. He's too old to be getting all boozed up like this. It's annoying. Asian old man stuff.
Sunday: Got up and went home to eat. Then went to LFCC. FINALLY got to see Grace and Han's baby...Ella! So cute ! I want kids now. I want a lot. Kids and dogs love me.
AND..LILY...OMG...she's grown up from the kid I used to play with into this total babe...and she's 21 now... wow...what a difference. And she's an English major. Time sure flies.
Ok...waiting around for the crew to come over. Going bowling and getting dinner. then... bleh..one more day.
I hate work. BLARRRGH.
less irksome.
Friday, May 23, 2003 09:32 a.m.
Eh...weather...eh...work.
Had lunch with Eunice... some sad news..Ellen Chi's mother passed away. My condolences.
I need to go to the gym... haven't been sleeping well... nightmares about exploding buildings...a la Fight Club.
Anime is just ... joy.
Worked on redone vox for "flame and wax"...Doris seems to like that one... and may have to re-do harmonies for "friends..." grrrrr...
Long weekend! wooo...Eric coming home ...etc.
One more week until roomie gets here. How weird. I hope we don't kill each other.
TGIF!
so...it's not really goodbye..yet.
Thursday, May 22, 2003 09:34 a.m.
EH...work... eh...
Afterwars...went to run some errands and visit the comic shop... Genevieve ... so cute. A little disappointed that she can't qualify for the internship program at our company... oh well. I still get to see her on Weds. HEH.
So... went to hang out with Wendy for a bit ...I thought it qould be the last time I saw her...but not so... apparetnly she's been hanging out with some guy...grrr...but he's going to Cali and she's going back to Singapore...so everybody loses. Including me... she wants to keep in touch and wants me to visit...eh...who knows. She was happy to see me...and vice versa.
Went home... puttered around...but most importantly...nailed down the harmony for "Don"t Want to be..." it's tight, yo ! HAHHAHA... I'm getting better at singing harmony...and if I do a few live tracks...I think I can get this album done before Lucia leaves...
That's another thing...she's gonna be rooming with me in like a week ? weird.
and...the best for last...my high school sweetheart is engaged... HAHAHAH I still refer to her as that...but whatever. she's just Jen to me.
Mike seems to be a great guy...and it's about time they decided...but guess what...seems like I'm the only single one left from that bunch. grrrrreat.
I think they are all retards ! Being single is fun! (ok...not really)...but I want to live a life uncommon...which means...tooling about with my projects.
Once I finish the novel...then maybe I'll be ready...in the meantime...I need to get my own shiznat done.
Looks like rain this weekend. :(
BLARRRGH !
Wednesday, May 21, 2003 09:29 a.m.
I'm just feeling despondent. Their isn't much to REALLY look forward to besides finishing up the CD. I'm officially about half way through...so I'm hoping to get the whole puppy done by August. Then onto the next project.
Actually nailed down most of "Don't Want to Be Friends" last night. woooo.
Buffy...it's over...what am I going to do on Tuesday nights ??? And Spike and Anya are gone ? Sheeesh... what a way to end it.
Big weekend planned...Eric bringing home a bunch of people...bigarse bbq at Shelb's...and Angela is gonna be hanging around and showing off her new hair style...hahahah... eh...it's another weekend.
I want something exciting to happen. I'm busy as all get out...and still... I'm bored.
Gimme.
SHOCK!
Tuesday, May 20, 2003 03:39 p.m.
CRAP !
I just found out that Karen O (the lead singer of the yeah yeah yeahs--one of my new fave bands) is part Korean ?!??!!
I had no idea...
She's trashy hot..stylish... ballsy.
PJ Harvey/Debbie Harry mashup... wooo.
school visit.
Tuesday, May 20, 2003 02:11 p.m.
got my digital cable yesterday...and all is right with the world. woooo.
Got up early today and went to Freeport HS to visit some classes for work. Man, it's tough being a teacher...these kids don't shut up...they make some funny wise cracks, but it must drive the teacher insane.
Hung out with my coworker Sari for a bit...and she's totalyl cool. I'm glad she's not insane like the rest of the people I work with.
So spending the remainder of the day working from home..."working"...
Look...I try to be patient... but sometimes you just want to get thing over with to see if there is going to be anything that can come of it. If something is worth waiting for then I'll wait until I'm blue in the face...but if there is not that mutual desire, if there is too much ambiguity...I get a migraine. I don't ask for much. I just don't want to waste my time if something is hopeless and I'm holding out for something that isn't going to ever happen. With that being said.... life goes on and I deal with what comes. It's out of my hands. I've got a world of good things to offer...but if it just spins on it's axis...it's really never going to go anywhere, is it ?
weekend...
Monday, May 19, 2003 09:29 a.m.
Yup...still getting over the cold. A loooong weekend. Actually glad to be back in the city again. I was getting bored.
Friday: Mostly stayed in and nursed the cold. Can't remember much about it. Went home to spend some time with the folks and Justin.
Saturday: Got up early to take Justin to see the Matrix. It was good...but X2 was better, I thought. Went back and then hung out with Doris for a bit. We took a walk around the hood and got some yogurt and wandered around Rite Aid for a bit. Stayed in for the rest of the night and cleaned up.
Sunday: Tsai's 50 bday... went to dim sum with the family and the kids were just so cute. They are all getting so big...sniff. The babies aren't babies anymore... I guess everyone is waiting for me to churn some out...oh well...they are gonna have to wait. Then had to move EVERYTHING... the old couch, some books, rearranged all this stuff to get ready for roomie. Ugh. SO wiped out. And then I had to finish the application for Philly performances. Need to put the packet together today.
So...not a very exciting weekend.... I was still sick...and not 100 percent yeyy. But getting there.
Emotions are overrated. ignorance is bliss...I just don;t want to think and reflect anymore...what's the point. Time to move on and get on with it.
I'm hoping for that good streak again... just need to get rejuvenated from something outside of myself. Lord, help me get back to myself again. I need it.
I just want to be a rock star. Is that so hard?
weekend...
Monday, May 19, 2003 09:29 a.m.
Yup...still getting over the cold. A loooong weekend. Actually glad to be back in the city again. I was getting bored.
Friday: Mostly stayed in and nursed the cold. Can't remember much about it. Went home to spend some time with the folks and Justin.
Saturday: Got up early to take Justin to see the Matrix. It was good...but X2 was better, I thought. Went back and then hung out with Doris for a bit. We took a walk around the hood and got some yogurt and wandered around Rite Aid for a bit. Stayed in for the rest of the night and cleaned up.
Sunday: Tsai's 50 bday... went to dim sum with the family and the kids were just so cute. They are all getting so big...sniff. The babies aren't babies anymore... I guess everyone is waiting for me to churn some out...oh well...they are gonna have to wait. Then had to move EVERYTHING... the old couch, some books, rearranged all this stuff to get ready for roomie. Ugh. SO wiped out. And then I had to finish the application for Philly performances. Need to put the packet together today.
So...not a very exciting weekend.... I was still sick...and not 100 percent yeyy. But getting there.
Emotions are overrated. ignorance is bliss...I just don;t want to think and reflect anymore...what's the point. Time to move on and get on with it.
I'm hoping for that good streak again... just need to get rejuvenated from something outside of myself. Lord, help me get back to myself again. I need it.
I just want to be a rock star. Is that so hard?
...at least it's done...
Friday, May 16, 2003 03:26 p.m.
Performance last night...was...eh. A bit of a disapointment.
I guess because I had done so much prep for it and because I was sick that it made it that much worse. About 25-30 people showed up... which wasn't bad...but first show was more than 50...eh... but I can't be too hard on myself. It was on a Thursday and apparently there was a lot of stuff going on.
But most of the people that said they were going to show up didn't...which sucked. And the people that did come I didn't expect...which was a nice surprise. Lynn, her friend, Roseann, Cil, Jack, James, Kevin, Shelb, Yvette, Annabelle, Doris, Jeany, Sara, Eunice, Nina, some people I didn't know, Sofia, Mitsu, Steve,my Dad( hahah didn't know he was coming!)and some dude named Ken? blarrghh...
I did my best...but I started getting croaky midway through the set...and at a few points I actually lost my voice completely and had to regain composure. And at one of the more dramatic loud portions...I got so dizzy I went blind for a second...but I was ok after.
I think the people that went had a good time and they knew that I sang my heart out despite the illness.
In any case...I love my girls.. Doris and Eunice...they took me out to dinner afterwards with Sara and Jeany. Had some Indian food (mine was good there's was firey death!) and had some beers at Boxers.
Got home and watched TV...
Still sick...
I just feel there are things that are at a stand still. I need to move on and get things rolling. I'm a nice guy...but I've changed so much this year. I do miss my innocence and my hope in the whole romantic ideal. But I'm glad that I've had a reality check and things aren't always going to be cinematic. I don't want drama. EVER. I want something real...something SANE. and someone who is worth the effort.
Bah... I wonder why I bother. I complain and yet I'm so ultrapicky. I know I don't need anyone, but I can't help feeling like I do. But not just ANYONE. I'm worth more than that. And I can wait.
Damn...missed the lunar eclipse.
MUST GET HEALTHY!
SHOWTIME!
Thursday, May 15, 2003 09:45 a.m.
Ok...so stayed home another day and actually did work.
Sick as a dog...but now I feel much better.
I think the regenerative power of naps is what did it.
Anyways, I may be a little off tonight because of all the (prescription) drugs flowing through my body...and the fact that I'm a little tentative with the new songs and the new people coming to the show. In any case...I will give it my all.
GET READY TO ROCK!
I'm psyched.
Pray I don't mess up too bad. :)
"Costume changes" and me "punkrapping" ...
At least it will be entertaining, no?
still sick ? BOOOOO!
Wednesday, May 14, 2003 10:08 a.m.
So... I'm still sick. Working from home. Yes, actually doing work! I didn't want to get the paranoid stares on the subway because I am "Asian guy with hacking cough"...in any case...I feel less congested...but more coughy... grrr...I need to be healthy tomorrow !
So...slept...watched Family Guy...rehearsed... oh, man...this is gonna suck if I start hacking mid-song. SO, lots of meds and fluids.
a big disappointment if certain persons don't come to my show. Sniff. When I perform, I think it's when I am most at ease and in my own little world where I can be myself-- without the constraint of social phobias and constructs. It's just me, a guitar and a mic, letting loose. So, it really is me being ME. And I'm entertaining... so I hope certain persons will think it is worthwhile to check out.
Other than that, I can't stress out over the evite too much...apparently...a lot of people are coming and just not replying to the stupid thing.. so I'm expecting the same 50 or so crowd again....and there are definitely friends of friends going. So...that might be cool. New people! We'll see.
And freebies ! WOOOT. I hope it works out well. CD singles all ready...
Pray for my health. I need to be ok...and NOW.
SICK !
Tuesday, May 13, 2003 09:36 a.m.
Ok...I haven't been this sick in months...not even in the horrible winter we had....what bad timing ! I need to be 100 percent by Thursday... miracle Theraflu please help !
Didn't do much besides watch TV and sleep. Rehearsed a little...I am in so much trouble if I don't get better...grrrrr.
I'm a very patient person. I think I am anyways...so I can always wait as long as I am not pushed out of the way and ignored. If it's worth it...it's worth it. That's all I have to say really.
Arrrgh...why am I at work ? I think I should go home... Take stuff with me or something...
TWEEEENS !
Monday, May 12, 2003 05:27 p.m.
further proof that me and Eunice are tweeeeeens:
I just realized that both our cell numbers end with 3674! Isn't that weird????
You ask us if we want ice cream cone... we both say YES.
...and we both get that joke.
weeekend madness...and sickies.
Monday, May 12, 2003 01:23 p.m.
madness! Lots of stuff to do...
After work on Friday went to Tribeca FIlm Fest concert with Eunice... we had such a good time....Sean Paul and Jewel were good (she was HOT) and the Roots were awesome...played a loooong set...and Robbie Williams was hilarious...and sounded great... we left before Norah Jones...too tired and hungry. SO we got some crepes. The TFF people took some pics for us...it was fun! We went back to her office to get her stuff then went to get some grub at Chat N' Chew. A good Friendate day.
Saturday: More Eunice stuffies... just a lot fo running around and moving stuff into her new apartment... getting sick...my throat felt like it was on fire ! We waited around for the cable guy and had a picnic...then Alex bailed...and more moving stuffies. I was wiped out by then...and eric was sick...so he never came home for the weekend. Oh well.
Sunday: Full blown sickies ! Yucky...I feel like crap. Went home for Momma's Day... and did some chores. And passed out while the kids kicked me and kissed me too... hahaha it was fun. Spent the day making CD singles (2 versions! 1. pinioned, flame and wax and no sensitvity 2. senses, will, no sensitivity) and getting ready for the show. I need to be healthy !!!
Monday: Home sick... doing nuttin. ARRRRGH. I need to be healthy ! Not much else going on I guess. Try to rehearse and stuff...but I seriously feeel like garbage. MOMMMY! My Mom twisted her ankle and stayed home from work today...she twisted it dancing at a party...hahahah fun!
LUCKKKKKY!
Friday, May 9, 2003 09:41 a.m.
Hmmm... lots of good stuff happened... minor...but does it make up for a yearof heartbreak ?!?!? NOOOOO...
Anyways... I won tix for the Tribeca FIlm Fest Concert !
Won through Robbie Williams website! Sarrah waited two hours for tix ! And she didn't get them...sorry...taking Eunice! I was supposed to help her move...so I do owe her big time. Anyways... great line up ! A little odd...
Sean Paul
Jewel
The Roots
Robbie Williams
Norah Jones
WOOOOO !
And I was starving after picking up tix...so I went to Mc D's to get a MC CHicken... a longer wait than usual...so the lady gave me free french fries ! I mean...FREEDOM fries ! HAHAHHA...
And then I bought a lottery ticket...hahhah we'll see what happens tonight... :P
Tired... long day at work...went home to rehearse and clean up...
Sunjoo is finally back... about time !
I come into the office this morning...and I have 4 lollipops at my desk...but who ??? LUCKKKKKY!
Ok... now to get to work...
TGIF ! Eric is coming home ! My baby brother !...ok...he's 26.
ho-hum...
Thursday, May 8, 2003 09:39 a.m.
I'm tired... ain't too much going on.
Running around getting some errands done. Website work on my music gigs page... got some promo stuff ready...and that's pretty much it.
Work is blarrrrgh.
Sunjoo is done ! woooo ! Lucia is bored to pieces... poor gal. And helping Eunice move at some point soon.
Eric is coming home for Mother's Day...I think we are getting Ma the norah jones CD and dinner...
eeeep... more rehearsing...good thing is...if I don't blow out my voice half way through my set...I can get the high notes at the end of "With or Without You"...wooot.
Thursday... ack.. one more day to go.
UP and doooown day...
Wednesday, May 7, 2003 09:37 a.m.
Ok...silly misunderstandings make me feel like crap. Sorry and I know you are sorry too. Love you sooooo much. So let's just agree to be moody...we are both having that weird reflecting-on-what-might-have-been-this-time-last-year thing...it's sad... everyone has these immense personal disasters...and anniversaries tend to just make us feel desolate. It's not about "the thing"...it's about where our heads and hearts are looking this time of year. I'm here for you...and vice versa.
Ok... that aside... met up with Eunice for pizza. hahah Christine is going to have to come out to lunch with us one day... ran into Jimmy Lee from HS... he's in advertising now...cool.
Work...booo... bad day... ourtop Exec just quit on us...and is getting married and moving to London... nice. So what happens to us?
Went home to watch Buffy and the Metallica ICONS special...can I tell you how much I love Metallica? ROOOOAAAARRR!!! I need someone to go to the show with me... :( And Catch ME IF you Can... what a great movie ! WALKEN! WAL-KEN...wal-KEN... LOL!
AND got the drum track for "pinioned" down...so I am officially DONE with "senses", "pinioned", "superhero jam", "will" and "flame and wax" (with the awesome hip-hop beat that makes it soooo different now) ...anyways...depending on how many tracks I decide to put on the album... I'm almost half way done ! wooo!
It's nice out right now... and sunjoo is awake...hahaha.. good morning! Now go finish up! yay.
Things can only get better.
I'm tired... :(
Tuesday, May 6, 2003 09:56 a.m.
Busy busy...and no money !
I'm not getting reimbursed for my Austin trip for another 3 weeks ??? yeeesh...just when I need cash the most...oh well...VISA time it is.
Busy... went to meet up with Eunice for lunch...since her office moved right by me now...wooo...Quizno's ! Supposed to help her move to Astoria sometime soon...hired muscle... grrr.
Met up with Roseann, Jen, Justin, and their friends for dinner at my new fave Thai restaurant...Holy Basil...woooo... really good. Better than SPICE...yowza!
Roseann's big announcement... she's dating ! WOOOO. finally...well...I guess my poor bro is out of the running...so Roseann ain't getting into our family now ! BWAGHAHHAHAHAH...
Wendy is leaving May 24th... :(
It's been a gloomy week...I hope things pick up... I'm just in a mood ...and taking inventory of the events of the past year...I'm hoping for a swift and perpetual upswing.
GANBATTE (or is that GANBARE) SUNJOO! I need to start practicing my Japanese again...boku no mizu !
Pray for me...I need to be in a happy place.
Show time in a week and a half !
lyrics...in progress.
Monday, May 5, 2003 11:16 p.m.
You ask me if I have emotional baggage
Well, I put it on a plane and I never stepped aboard
You wonder if I'll seize the day and grab it
Well, I'll tell you right now, that I'll never be ignored
So, put the past behind
Seek and you will find
What I needed was already mine
weekend...whew.
Monday, May 5, 2003 09:21 a.m.
Wow...I've been busy.
Friday: Rainy...yucky...thunderstorms drenched me... Met up with Jen T. at Centruy 21 and hung out with Justin W. for a little bit... wow...I have not seen that girl in a year! So, we went to Cocina Cuzco for dinner and caught up... life of a Hollywood agent and everything... cool.
Saturday: Busy drumming...still can't get it right ! GRRR...I think I'll just have to leave in some mistakes or this album will never get done...oh well.. Then got readyt o head out to Opaline for Doris' bday...met up with Eunice first and got falalfels...and then Elaine came later...and disappeared ! sheesh...anyways... got primely trashed because it was open bar and ended up having 10 some odd drinks that night... tres fun.
They had this weird underwear room where Williamsburgy types hung out... and the main room was great ...playing trashy 80's rock and assorted old school new wave... we had such a great time...and I get smoochy when I am tipsy...poor Eunice, Doris, and Elisa... I must have smooched them a lot...hahhaha...and Patrick drove me home... guy talk about our silly lives.
I forget that Eunice is a purdy girl sometimes... sorry ! She's moving to her new digs now...both in work and her new apt... which means we can get QUizno's...wooot.
And Doris gets skanky when she is drunkdnacing...but happy bday! Love ya !
Sunday: Man... whirlwind...met up with Matt, Kevin, and Karyn and hit some Japanese bookstores and hung out for awhile on Library steps...it was cool actually seeing them.
Was in the city... was going to go to church but ended up taking Justin to see X2 while parents went to dinner... met up with Jen and her friends Brook, Maggie, and Kanoti... had some ice cream before the wolverine berserker rage.
X2 was ... sooo much better than X1...and the next film is definitely going to be about the Phoenix saga...it's obvious... hahaha don't want to spoil the movie for anyone...so that's all I'll say.
So...looks like Lucia is moving in June 1...how weird. But hey...more cash for me...and I get a roomie to hang out with for the summer.
Sunjoo and summer...we'll see what happens... I'm keeping my walls firmly in place...but there is something about her that I can't quite put my finger on ...yet. grrr... soon soon. yeah yeah.
I have a week and a half to rehearse ! ARRRRGH...I keep forgetting lyrics and such...eeep.
May bdays...a ton...I know I'm going to forget people. jen Yun is next, then Wendy, and then Amy, and ...urrrgh...I'm forgetting already.
Dinner with Roseann and Jen...wooo...and I have a ton of work I need to get done...blarrgh.
DON'T MESS WITH TEXAS!
Friday, May 2, 2003 09:44 a.m.
Ok...I'm back...I'm kinda tired... but Austin was great.
What I've learned:
Co-workers are a gossipy bunch...they talk smack about EVERYONE.
Austin is the live music capital of the world....went up and done 6th street with Zakhar and we had some SHiner Bock and checked out a blues band (IF YOU SEE KAY...tell her to come home...hahah say it out loud...) a rocakabilly joint, and a piano bar... we had a good boys' night out.
NY office needs to learn some stuff from Austin...they are waaaaay nicer.
You can never get enough steak and beer.
That's pretty much it... Austin was loads of fun but I'm tired... so ya'll better treat me right.
It's May... a year ago I was the happiest guy on the planet... fast forward to me now...still nursing a broken...everything. But I'm better. I refuse to be hurt again. And I'm stronger for it. So whoever gets me next... she's in for it. I'm a better man for having gone through the flames of heartache...but am I ready for anything? I think I am...but honestly, who knows. It's gonna take a good gal.
I'm a nice guy. Treat me kindly. I am human and I need to be loved.
Looking out the plane over NYC...it's beautiful, breathtaking... but looking at where Ground Zero was...wow. It was still shocking. And my own perosonal wasteland of hurt... so much has happened that has been incredibly good and bad...in this city that I love and hate.
Carpy and Fire are in town...Jen Tse is in town, it's Doris' bday...and Jen Yun's and Wendy's ...and and... there are a whole bunch in May...gorsh.
And Sunjoo moved out of her crazy situation...who steals from their roommate? How can you live like that... that's just not smart. I'm glad she's outta there. I think this will improve her life and her overall temperment. Though I think it's cute when she tries to be mean. :P
And Romana and her new boy...hmm...still skeptical...but I hope things work out for her.
TGIF !!!! woooo...busy busy weekend.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIC !
Tuesday, April 29, 2003 09:47 a.m.
My baby bro turns... 26 today !
HAHAHAH big baby.
LOVE YOU !!!!
off to Austin...
Tuesday, April 29, 2003 09:33 a.m.
Well, looks like I will be incommunicado for a few days... getting ready to take off to Austin at noon...yeeeehah!
Last night...came straight home to finish packing... got the drum track fro "flame and wax" down...but "senses" keeps gettign screwed up! GRRRR.
Christine is stillout...I'm worried... yipes.
Sunjoo craziness? I hope things are ok...
And R is mad because I made a comment... just say that I don't believe in love...especially after only one week. whatever. if she is happy...then I hope she enjoys it... just be careful... and usually when she starts dating...a month later... I do too...so...hmmmm. hahahah
Pretty much it... getting ready for my trip and all...
Pray for my safe flight ! wooo beer and steak...and um...oh yeah...work.
MORE randomness
Monday, April 28, 2003 11:05 a.m.
J: wow going to austin tomorrow?
A: yup
J: waah
J :u gonna be on IM?
J: heheh
A: awww
A: you gonna miss me ?
A: that's sweet
J: yeah y not
J: hehe
A: HAHAHA
A: you bum!
J: course I'll miss ya
A: yay
A: ditto
A: ditto.
A: *tear
A: that'll do pig...that'll do.
A: *tear
J: lol...I'm hungry...
A: you...complete...me.
A: *tear
J: that must be from some story I don't know..pig...
J: pig?
A: hungry ?
J: yeah..
A: I mention pig and that makes you hungry
J: I feel like breakfast tho
A: SICKO !
J: lol
I thought it was funny.... It's from "BABE" the movie ! Don't eat the talking pig !
RANDOM!
Monday, April 28, 2003 10:56 a.m.
Abe: I can't wait to be a Dad
Abe: I'd be such a great father
Abe: lots of fun and supportive
Abe: and super loving
*unnamedfriend: me too
*unnamedfriend: well I just want to play with a baby
*unnamedfriend: j/;k
Abe: you can play with babies
Abe: but make sure you know the parents
Abe: or it will be like CRAZY LADY !
*unnamedfriend: alllright...
Abe: she done snatch muh babyeee !
*unnamedfriend: I guess I better bring the baby back to the bus station where I found it
Abe: I KNEW IT !
Abe: SICKO !
*unnamedfriend: lol
... my friends have sick sense of humor. I love it!
BUSY!
Monday, April 28, 2003 09:37 a.m.
Wow...what a busy weekend...
Friday: Had light dinner and drinks with Jennie C. She's beemn bummed with the roomamte situation... It all seems silly to me and I think they need to make some peace...and fast. We had mexican and then went to W hotel/WHiskey Bar (goodness...gorgeous bartenders) and Elaine came by...we hung out for a bit and chatted...then Elaine went off...and Jennie and I went to this cafe for dessert and coffee... she's totally cool and doesn't deserve theis stress... oh well...what can you do. The nature of friendships is volatile.
Saturday: Spent all day drumming. Got two songs almost done...it's gonna take me forever...one little mistake means I have to do the whole song over...ugh! But been playing with some funky beats...so those old songs sound really new and fresh...cool...Was rehearsing...and I think I dislocated my jaw ! It feels sore and out of whack...it's a little bit better now...but I'm not 100%... weird !
Sunday: More drumming...Jennie C came to Queens! She went to visit Christine's church and had some time to kill be fore seeing Julia sing. We had lunch (painful) and coffee...I was going to go to church with her...but my jaw was killing me... so I stayed home...turns out the folks went to Boston for Eric's bday (it'son tuesday)...and they came back... alex and my aunt went with them and Justin... came home and had dinenr with them.
Christine passed out on Saturday night? She's not at work today...hmmm...well...Jennie says she was ok...odd.
Sunjoo sick too ? and me with my weirdo jaw...it's an epidemic! simultaneous not-feel-so-goodness.
Oh...sent my evite out for the show already. It's early...but wanted to give people a head's up. My email addy's are out dated... a bunch of busted email addresses...crap. Oh well... small turn out would be better...but it would be cool for a big crowd to show up...see if more than 50 turn out... top last time...heh.
Gotta get work done! Off to Austin tomorrow!
I AM POOOooOooR!
Friday, April 25, 2003 09:26 a.m.
Blarrgh.
WHy do I go out if I have no money ? I do not know. Anyways...supposed to hang out with Jennie C. tonight...she's still having problems with roomamte...boooo.
Need some new cologne... Christine votes for Acqua Di Gio...but I like the Armani and Armani Mania...any opinions?
Went to FLushing (and you knooooow how I hate that area) to meet with kid I might tutor...I think 40 an hour is fair....and I think she needs a lot of help. They make Stuy kids read Crime and Punishment??? jeeebus.
Home...starting to practice for shows.
JW might move toNY if she gets a job...wooo! I promised to get her the best cardboard box I could. HAHAHA.
Ran into Michelle Blake on the train today... she's cool...I can't believe we went to elementary school together! She still looks the same ! HAHAH.
music all weekend...need to get drums going.
TGIF !
I'm on MP3.com!
Thursday, April 24, 2003 10:33 p.m.
WOOO. Finally approved! Go and check out some of my demos! The finished songs will sound even better!
Up on deck:
1. Senses
2. Pinioned
3. Superhero Jam
You might need to register with the site...but it's free and you get to hear my songs with full instruments and harmonies.
hope you like the tunes.
the flames of creativity...
Thursday, April 24, 2003 09:31 a.m.
Work is slaughtering me...I don't know if I can keep up... a lot to get done before going off to Austin.
More gym...and my pecs are aching! I am so outta shape... I used to be able to go for almost 2 hours...after an hour I am pooped.
Home...wrote a song...another EMO weepfest. I don't know why it affected me so deeply...this one...maybe it cuts a little too close to how I've been feeling/dealing/healing...it's definitely one of the more ambitious songs...in terms of chord structure etc... not used to it...I'll post lyrics later...it's sad. :(
Watched Laputa...Miyazaki is the shiznit ! But I was too tired and passed out with 45 mins. to go...oh well...finish it tonight.
I might have a tutoring job... will meet up with the high school punk tonight see if I can help...how much should I charge ??? heheheh more money is always good.
Sigh...so much to get done.
I think I'm ready to have a "partner in crime"... it's been a long time. Anyone want the job?
DUH!
Wednesday, April 23, 2003 02:07 p.m.
The Abetrix: Reloaded and Unplugged
"live organic."
Much better, ne ?
FATURDAY.
Wednesday, April 23, 2003 09:44 a.m.
Blarrgh.
Work...whatever...friends going through some stufff...which I think is unnecessary and unhealthy and reminds me of someone in the past...that I seriously do not want to see anyone else go through. It's only because I care that I yell at you. Sometimes you need to get yelled at because the coddling hand doesn't show you how serious something can get.
Anyways... Tuesday turned into Faturday. Went to lunch with Jen and like the carnivore she is...we got burgers. She's unemployed by choice...and now she wants to work again. I'm sure she will be fine.
After work...met up with Eunice for Popeye's and Starbucks...fatness... and then we wents hopping for clothes. Sometimes I forget how girlie she can be...but whens she was trying on prettygirlie things I remember that under all the sweats and baggies...she's a delicate flower. HAHHAHA. too cute.
Got me an H&M skinny polo shirt. Must work out more before I dare to get all trendyEUro.
Sunjoo was being a little too polite. It scared me. I was used to the meanness! And then it came back. HA. cuteness abounds.
Andy Poling and Eric want to go see Queensryche and Dream Theater...wooo PROG METAL. INTO THE EYES OF A STRAAAAANGGEeeeerRRRRR!
I want to go see Metallica. :(
I'm weird...I know.
Worked on more songs. I think I have two that are DONE. And the rest are just waiting for drum tracks. Hopefully, I can do something this weekend.
Might have a tutoring job soon...hmmmm.
Busy. Boooyakasha.
gym...woot.
Tuesday, April 22, 2003 09:28 a.m.
work is work...blech.
Went to Houston's for lunch...first real taste of meat in a looong time. Christine has all these plans...and we agreed that three months from now we both should have some major GOOD development in our lives. good stuff indeed...
A certain someone I know is dating...but it's too early to know if it's a good thing. Pray for her...eeep. BE CAREFUL!
Went to the gym after work...slowly building up to pre-music pudgy Abe shape...whew...it's harder to get back into shape...but I'm getting there.
Worked on set list for next show...throwing in a few new originals to change up the mix...I hope people like the new songs...and the covers are loads of fun...but I'm afarid I'm going to blow out my voice during With or Without You...have to scream sing the climax of the song...as long as my voice doesn't crack...it will sound good.
FInished Abetrix posters...waiting for Eric to post them...and then I can start on my evite mailing list jammie sometime next week or so. I hope as many people come out for this one as they did for the last show...I think this one will be better...I'm less nervous.
Sunjoo has loads of studying..guess we won;t have a chance to talk until next week...
Devoting htis week to the gym and getting vocals done and done for the first batch of songs...then I can move onto working on drums...which is a daunting task...arrrgh.
Gym again. woooot.
New song:
Monday, April 21, 2003 04:09 p.m.
"DON’T WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH YOU"
And it’s true, that for a time
You meant the world to me
And I knew, when you were mine
There’d be no certainty
The cruelness you inflicted
Swept through me like a fire
Like the tremors of the addicted
Left you shaking like a liar
I don’t want to know your body
Don’t want to know your touch
I’ve struggled through this memory
I’ve suffered long enough
So let the reigns go loose
There is no choice to choose
I don’t want to be,
Don’t want to be friends with you
And it’s a shame, how you could lie
And say those words to me
It’s not a game of compromise
It’s just your selfish vanity
The harshness you injected
Into my innocent desire
Like a summer’s love rejected
Into autumn’s flaming pyre
I don’t want to know your body
Don’t want to know your touch
I’ve struggled through this memory
I’ve suffered long enough
Untie the hang man’s noose
Take aim and break the truce
I don’t want to be,
Don’t want to be friends with you
Baby, I don’t mind waiting
I’m used to this despair
While you’re busy contemplating
I’ll save you time
Cause I don’t care
I don’t want to know your body
Don’t want to know your touch
I’ve struggled through this memory
I’ve suffered long enough
I’ve got nothing left to lose
Just three chords and the truth
I don’t want to be,
Don’t want to be friends with you
I don’t want to be,
Don’t want to be friends with....
Long weekend.
Monday, April 21, 2003 09:34 a.m.
Been a busy weekend. I'm tired...so tired that I was in bed by 10:30 last night...anyways...
Friday: After work...went to Chinatown to get a haircut...it's a leeeettle bit to short...but at the rate my hair grows...I'll need another cut before I know it.
Then met EUnice and Yuri (whom I haven't seen in 5 plus years) for drinks. EUnice is going through some tought times that I had no idea about...so we ended up staying a little late. Got to church...at the end of service! But I thought God had a plan...since if we ended up going on time...we might have been stuck on the 6 train...which reportedly had an accident. Afterwards...went to get dessert with Eunice and talked a bit. Then home...
FInished up a new song! I love it...it's punkypop...called "I don't want to be friends with you"...hahhaha I'll debut it at the show. It's EMOCORE.
Saturday: Up bright and early to meet laurne for brunch at STingy Lu Lu's... food was pretty good...drinks were...eh. Lauren is just...gorgeous. But we don't have much in common...she's in bed by 9 pm on weekenights...not very opinonated on music or movies... and can't talk about her work in fashion consulting...which I'm sure is very interesting because she gets to live in cool exotic places and works for big stars...but we had a good meal and hung out in the park for a bit. Maybe coffee sometime later. need to get to know her a little better...at least we can be friends.
Home...music. woot.
Sunday... CHurch service at 1130... Tim Keller was great. Easter was just simplified and made real for me. Heaven on earth ...one day. SOmething to look forward too...not the loss of the physicla...but the redemption...He was talking about how one parapalegic woman burst into tears when the congregeation all kneeled to pray...but said that she had hope that one day she would be able to get on her knees in gratitude..in a new redeemed body. wow.
After church...went to dim sum with Eunice and did a little shopping. Had a lot of fun just hanging out with my gal pal...and hoping that she will work things out. She's such a great girl...she deserves good things.
Home...JW called to gimme ahsout out..talked for a little bit... coast to coast support group for EMO wounded us... it was nice...and then ...bed. PLOP.
Work...it's piling up already !!!
I DUDDITS !
Friday, April 18, 2003 08:52 a.m.
Blarrrgh.
Went to see Dreamcatcher with Wendy last night. The Animatrix episode was great...but the actual movie...ugh...what a mish-mash of Stand By Me, Alien, Tommyknockers, and a whole bunch of other crap...it felt like I was watching 5 movies at once. Laughable. Wendy is an odd girl... hahahha she's just Wendy. :)
Got a chance to talk to JW...she's giggly...and good with the insults. GRRRR... hahaha...won't tell you what she said about me. :P
Sunjoo was up already...I feel cheated. :(
Busy, busy... keeping this entry short.
It's Good Friday. What does that mean to you?
TGIF...especially today.
eeeew.
Thursday, April 17, 2003 08:50 a.m.
screenames changed to protect the constipated.
*screename123: this morn went again
*screename123: but it HURT
Abechang76: YAY
*screename123: poor *screename
Abechang76: more fruit
Abechang76: fruit smoothes the brown eye.
*screename123: ha ha
Abechang76: HAHHAHA I need to put that in the blog !!!
*screename123: i'm gonna go get my figs
plans.
Thursday, April 17, 2003 08:34 a.m.
Well...things in the not too distant future seem pretty darn busy.
1. Going to see Dreamcatcher with Wendy. Silly girl. I told her we are friends. I'm not going to pull a "Greg Brady."
2. Lauren still wants to have burnch! Meeting her Saturday...we'll see what this is all about.
3. Haircut and church tomorrow.
4. ABETRIX plans.
5. More recording...redoing vocals...Instruments I can get right on a few takes...but the headphones are messing up my pitch when I sing. GRRRRR.
6. Jen Tse is comng to NY first week of May!
7. I'll be in Austin 29-1st...
8. I may be playing a role in the whole interns thing at work. Don't call me Bill! HAHHAHA
9. Lots of May b-days
10. Sunjoo. sigh. (the best for last? hahahha we'll see.)
Went home for dinner...was exhausted...and I couldn't have any of the curry beef! Anyways...played my Mom some demos...she was impressed.
And a certain constipated friend finally pooped. Twice. Just wanted to let you all know. Be happy for her.
Sleeeeeeeep.
More work... and it's Maundy Thursday.
Remember...reflect. peace.
OH...SO CONFUSED !!!
Wednesday, April 16, 2003 08:49 a.m.
Ok...the funniest thing happened to me today... I ended up coming to work like 30 mins. early! I got up soooo early and thought I was late...and I rushed out...and come to the office and no one is in...hmmm...peculiar...and then I realize...I'm not 30 mins. late! I'm 30 mins. early...poor abe...so confused. AHAHHAHAHA.
Deanna couldn;t make it out last night...so after recording vocals for "reverie" and taping Buffy...Doris came over with Sara and we did the Abetrix photo shoot. It was fun and fast...but I'm not sure if the photos came out so great... we'llsee.
You know you are too comfortable with your friends if you don't mind pushing on their belly to get them to poop. That's just wrong...damn girl.
A lot of TMI stuff going on...NO, I don't want to hear about your period. NO, I don't want to hear about your constipation. and NO, I don't want to hear about your nook nook. PLEASE! MY poor innocent ears have been tainted. Keep it to yourselves, people.
Ended up staying up until almost 3:00 working on my poster. I've been having mental breakthroughs lately..."AHA!" moments. Like with the mp3s, photo manipulation, and how to properly double track vocals (don;t sing them twice...record it once on two tracks so you can pan left and right to get a fuller sound...duh.)
And helped Jenn with her resume a little. sending her a bunch of anime crap that I don't want and she'll probably dig... besides she's feeling down...she could use a pick-me-up...
Like me...awwww. I just want to be happy. And I think I'm ok on my own now. I'd like someone to share it with besides God.
Ok, kiddies...keep your chin up. The past is gone, the present is hot on your heels, and the future is rising.
Keep it clean, keep it true, keep it yours.
MUSIC MANIA!
Tuesday, April 15, 2003 09:41 a.m.
Whooo...work...speeding through this last chapter. WOOT.
Gorgeous weather schedule for NY this week...awesome. Makes me less sad. HA!
Went for a nice hardcore treadmill session... I need to get back in shape...I'm not usually that kneeachey after... but I guess I need to start slow...I should probably start lifting again.
Ran inot Yoonha KIM hahah ever since she got married... anyways...it's been years...she seems so much older now...not the punky pre-frosh I remember...and she's married...and I'm not ! WEIRD.
Went home to work on mp3s...finally figured out what was wrong...DUH... the instructions are awful. So much of it is intuitive and you have to fiddle with everything...arrgh.
Made demo CD vers.2 yesterday...the 7 songs that I have some progress on...most of them have like one or two things off that I need to go back and fix...but for the most part I am pretty happy with them. But just one note off really pisses me off to no end! GRRR...lo-fi is chic. indeed.
Wendy... I told her we are friends and she's worried about going to a movie alone with me. She says guys have tried things int he past...but sheesh...I've been nothing but a gentleman to her. And I KNOW that nothing is going to happen...since she is leaving! I'm not that type of guy...I thought she knew that by now...but we are friends and nothing more. So if she wants to go see a movie on Thursday...that would be great...if not...oh well. The past affects you pretty badly I suppose...DUH...I know that for sure !
Sunjoo... just when I think...arrrgh. TOO CUTE. I can't wait to see her...who knows what might happen. She's trying to find someplace to volunteer. And I think her reason for doing it is very noble...but like my brother reminded me "to obey is better than to sacrifice" ...but I think giving up red meat for Lent teaches me discipline. Oh well...that's just me. anyways...CLAM DOWN. yum. cutie.
And JW>.. whoever did you wrong is an idiot. Jenn is just awesome and deserves much better. OC just makes you Obsessive Compulsive...come to NY! :)
More music tonight...and maybe photo shoot with Doris...and Deanna might come out to Queens....if she dares to trek in from Bay Ridge...
Back to work for me. ....wheeee.
weekend...blah.
Monday, April 14, 2003 09:32 a.m.
Ok...weekend. Friday: went to see Yvette after the "incident"..she got me my money back for the cocnert tix...and we chatted a bit. Then off to home for my recording and passing out.
Saturday... spent the morning recording and doing what not. It was a gorgeous day out...so I ended up laving for Jennie's bday thing a little early. It was torture. Steak, steak...and all I could have was chicken. Anyways...Romana grew her hair out...much better. Na was a little miffed it seemed...but she seemed ok. DK was very nice to everyone and Jenny seemed very happy. Jane, Sunny, Sarrah (two r's), Julia, Edmond, and C came for dessert. We went to a lame club W8th where no one was dancing and hung out for a bit. AH WELL... at least Jennie had a good time. She can drink a lot! And we talked about her sister some...heh...nancy !!!! I'm sorrrrrryyyyeeee !!!
Sunday: Morning went to Costco with my folks...it was cute I showed up at home with my Knicks jersey on...and so was Justin. Came back with healthy food...(vegan burgers...joy.) and recorded a bit...and finally made it out to church with Nicole...she's stressing over things...that she shouldn't be... she's got a bfriend but doesn't see him enough...bah...at least she has someone!...anyways Small place on 21st and Park. Very traditional. The pastor is Aussie....so he had a cool accent...but the sermon seemed some what pro-war? Not sure...
But it got me thinking...I haven't lost faith in Christ at all...but I have definitely lost my trust in Christians. The people who have hurt me the most in my life have all been "Christians" who have acted in very ungodly ways. I can't really say more than that...but the fact remains that we are all fallen. and we need that much more grace. I know that Jesus' example is a hard one to follow...and boy, I have had my share of humbling moments. But how can you call yourself a Christian and hurt someone else THAT much...without any sense of trying to reconcile? How can you do that and ask God to forgive you? I want to forgive them for what they did...for the most part I have...and I'm trying to be healed...and I'm trying to make sense of it all. All I know is that humans are flawed, fallible, and fumbling. So, don't look at Christians as if they are on some higher moral ground. That's not the point. Simplify, dumb it down, bring it to the level... Jesus is the only example you should follow.
Ok...I'm rambling...
Work...yes, work...and my stupid computer is acting up !!! GRRRRR !!!
t-shirt!
Saturday, April 12, 2003 01:49 a.m.
Ok...so I can't sleep and I'm bored...and a lot happened today in terms of album stuffies.
Brilliant idea:
I bought (and designed) a t-shirt today to wear at my show.
Black shirt. Front says:
girls make me cry.
Back has album title:
lo-fi is chic.
AAAAND...I bought a buttload of drum gear. Eric is so cute. He's all excited about me getting drum gear. He's very much in "naw, dude...that's gonna sound like crap" mode...but for serious...I just need a beat...I'm not set up for great drums. I'm playing in my apartment!
AAAAND...JW says she wants to design the album cover...wooo.
Need to get photo shoot ready. Who's got the digi-cam? WHo can take pics without making me feel all self conscious???
I'm perturbed...by stuff. Too much going on. And my heart is brittle... and yet I have huge walls now.
I admit it. I am EMO.
gorsh.
I want to love and be loved in return... gettin' all Moulin Rouge in yer grill.
what.
at least it's not snow...
Friday, April 11, 2003 09:32 a.m.
Yes... it's raining.
I'm EMO but not weepy. Why bother thinking about the past when the future is so much more interesting? Beats me.
Finally made it out to the gym last night. Just ran and biked. Picked up my guitar... and another cymbal stand. Got home and recorded better vocals for "pinioned" and thinking about what to work on next. I just want to get drun tracks laid down so I can clean out the hard drive and start on a new batch.
Chatted with JW more. We are dopplegangers. I'm glad she is in Cali and I have a long distance artsy fartsy buddy I can spill to. She gets it. Kindred spirits deeply involved in creation. Too cool.
Another thing I'm noticing....I have a weird sense of humor. I'd love it if someone could keep up...but my brain has synapses that are just wired differently. I think if you watch enough Conan, Mr. Show, KITH, and wacky anime like Excel Saga and Kodocha...you'll get where I'm coming from.
Work...home, record... Pahhhty tomorrow?
TGIF. Amen and amen.
010101001011100101010 !!!
Thursday, April 10, 2003 03:57 p.m.
had to share my brilliant idea:
Ok...so I just saw a poster for the new Matrix movie...apparently it opens on May 15.
So...coinkidink. my second gig of the year is on May 15th.
Hence the title for the show:
THE ABE-TRIX: RELOADED
Get it? My second show of the year? get it ? ne? ne ?
And it's funny since the album is titled "lo-fi is chic" ...which is the complete opposite of the Matrix.
it just works on so many levels. brilliant.
I'm gonna get all decked out in shades and my leather trenchcoat and my guitar case. Take a promo pic for it for the flyer and email invite. Should be fun. Doris is gonna do the photo shoot for me...and Eunice is stillgonna help me with the album cover.
Sunjoo thinks it's gay...but she thinks most of what I do is gay...oh well.
And as for covers:
1. don't stop believin'
2. I want it that way/ baby one more time/ in da club
3. still not sure. radiohead? new order? dm? foo fighters? u2? I dunno...help.
More on this later.
to quote the neo Jackson5--
Thursday, April 10, 2003 09:38 a.m.
Ugh..work is spanking me. I'm stressed.
The weather is pure oggabooga. I need sun ...soon.
Ok... so hung out with Wendy for a little while after work. She needed to get Gundam Markers for her friend. heh...so we stopped by ImageAnime and then went to Macy's where they told us Sago had closed down. So we had some ice cream...and had a nice chat catching up...we are supposed to go see Dreamcatcher and maybe the Bebop movie sometime... so we had a brisk walk to her class on the east side...and...and...it's just plain torture. She doesn't let on about what she's thinking or feeling...and I can't tell...but we get along so well...and it's just become comofrtable around her...that at least for me...it's becoming increasingly sad to hang out with her..knowing that she's leaving for sure. And may never come back.
We're being mature about this. But I want to kick and scream. There might have been more there...but now...it's friends. And that's going to have to be good enough.
Here's pics of Wendy with Chinese pop stars.
*SIGH.
JW is funny. She's giving me advice about how to handle wimmins. And I'm sending her a buttload of my naime/comic-y junk that she'll love and I don't need. New friend in OC. woo.
Still having lunch with Lauren next Saturday. We'll see what happens.
And darling Sunjoo... less phone this week...but I gave her a wake up call... kawaii.
Speaking of cute... SUGAR...OMG...too cute.
And the whole Lucia staying for the summer thing...I'm not sure...I'm so focused on making music at the moment that I need the spare room to record...so unless I get the CD done...she ain;t rooming with me. But if I do...then maybe. Sure could use the extra cheddah...but having the Lucia around...is that a plus or a minus ??? BWAHAHHAHAH.
Re-did vocals for "Senses" tightened upt he harmony...ooh...sounds good. Need to get myself up on mp3.com soon...takes 2 weeks to approve ??? grrrr.
Lord, have mercy on me. I'm tired.
And oh... Baghdad... is that VI day for sure ? Hmmmm.
I AM AN MP3 MANIAC !
Wednesday, April 9, 2003 09:43 a.m.
Well... got into work LATE...consider it half a sick day.
Feeling groggy and just out of it. Went to Sam Ash...but my poor guitar was not ready yet. Crap. Got a mic stand though.
Went home and got summarily kidnapped by my family for Honda-fest '03. They gave us free Italian food (ugh...ate too much) and taught us how to upkeep the Odyssey...wow. exciting. And now I want to get an Element...which I will never have...ggggrrr.
Went home and did "No Sensitivity" live... did a great version of it in 2 takes. Decided to give the Audigy a whirl and started making mp3s of my songs. First 3 songs are done...almost...need to fix some of the vocals and readjust the levels...but I made my first 3 song demo of "Senses," "Superheo Jam," and the JEW song...wooo !!!!
And...made a new friend. The JW is an awesome artist...incredible rendering and all this multimedia fandango...just really blew me away. And she has great taste in music, loves anime, etc...wow. aaaaaand she lives in Cali...and apparently doesn't like boys at the moment. heh. anyways...mad props to my chinkyartsister.
So this is what I'm realizing... my music, my writing, these things ARE me...no one can really know who I am without really being open to what I create. Because this is the output of my being...when I am the strongest and weakest. Who I am when I let my guard down, when I want to be funny, sexy, and transcendent. If you don't get it...you don't get me...at least the person that I want to be.
More music = less gym = pudgy Abe.
:(
urrrgh...
Tuesday, April 8, 2003 12:55 a.m.
What the heck...I couldn;t sleep last night...didn't pass out until almost 5...so I just got in to work now...and feeling groggy. What's stressing me out? I have no idea.
Anyways... snow in April ? This is the sucks. At least it will be gone by week's end.
Kodocha....lots of anime. EEEEP.
Need to go get cymbals, pick up guitar etc... the album is NOT getting done by May 15. I think the best thing I can do for the gig is to get on MP3.com and promote a few singles and get the album done by the next gig...That's probably the best bet. Or unless I can spend a few bucks and get a single out. who knows.
Jennie called me last night. She's stressing about the Philly girls. Man, can't we all just get along? I love them all...why can't they love each other. Stop psychoanlayzing...dang biznatches! go hug each other ! BAKA.
I haven't shaved in 3 days. I'm manly.
family....wipeout.
Monday, April 7, 2003 09:47 a.m.
I'm spent.
The whole weekend with family. And my Dad is fine. No SARS.
Dad's bday Friday. Then Saturday went with the folks to Jersey for their college reunion party thing. Ended up bartending! Sophia and Justin helped out...and I got trashed in the afternoon and remained pretty darn buzzed all night.
Nothing quite as traumatic as watching middleaged Chinese folks doing the Electric Slide... wickywickywicky!
SUnday...gosh...woke up almost at 1... cleaned up the place and family was over the whole day because of my grandpa's bday. AND>..moved the drum set in .... wooo. Need to get some practice pads...and my poor guitar got sent back to the shop. ARGGH.
Recording... have a good 75% done on 7 songs...but I don't think I am going to be able to finish the album by May...just too much stuff to do.
It's supposed to snow 3-6 inches...arrrgh. It's APRIL. Come on! But if that's all I have to complain about... hmmm. Life is good , then.
Still can't sleep without the TV on. Lonely? Stresssed? I'm not sure anymore.
Oh...and I'm going to Austin for Training Fair end of April. wooot. steak and beer.
IT'S ALIVE !!!
Friday, April 4, 2003 09:23 a.m.
Work is totally kicking my arse...just piling up and I have a ton of stuff that needs to get done. Urrrgh.
My Dad missed another day of work! I'm getting worried. He insists it's just a cold and it's not SARS...but how does he know for sure? Symptoms can develop...and they can be different in people. He just needs to go in and get it checked out. ARRRGH. And it's his birthday tomorrow. GRRRRR
Had lunch with Jen at Houston's...she paid...even though she is unemployed at the moment (by choice, mind you)...we had a good talk... and we've both definitely changed alot.
The funny thing is that she thinks I'd be such a good boyfriend, and I've been realizing that maybe I'm just interested in the wrong types of girls. I'm stable, loyal, chivalrous...and I can never really be a "bad boy" type... so what's the deal?
In any case, I don't think I'm ready for anything serious. Still too much scar tissue there. I've been thinking about the past. And I don't get too upset. I've learned so much about women and about myself this year. I'm better for it. Maybe someone will soften these walls I've built up again. But I can't let my guard down. I can't afford to.
SO, my focus is on music at the moment. Which is good. Get this project done...then next...my voice over reel...then back to the novel. I feel ready.
AND...my computer is alive. It's up and running... like a new machine since I started from scratch. Need to restore my backed up files and such...but it's good to know that I didn't lose everything. Now I know better. See, a learning experience!
AND...my Les Paul is back in working order. Need to break in the strings though.
So...rainy weekend...stay in and record. Hopefully, have some MP3s ready by next week.
TGIF. God bless you, dearie.
ARRRGH STUPID COMPUTER.
Thursday, April 3, 2003 09:31 a.m.
BLARRGH.
Spent most of last night trying to get my dang computer to work. I lost all my files...but I backed up a lot of it before. Programs are still there but I need to reinstall them all... arrrgh.
Stupid. Stressed. Stupid.
Trying not to freak out.
Wednesday, April 2, 2003 04:34 p.m.
Ok...so Dad has been home for a week. And at first I was joking around with the whole SARS thing...but he's gotten sick.
He's missed two days of work and has been coughing. I have no idea how bad it is...but he says he doesn't hink it's SARS...and he doesn't have a fever.
Maybe I'm just being paranoid and dramatic...but he was in Asia, he was on a plane with people that were in China and other places...and less than a week since he's been back...he's been coughing and sick.
Tell me I'm over reacting. I just want him to go to the frikkin doctor and get checked out.
I'm moody today. Leave me alone.
No...gimme a hug.
URRRRRRGH.
stupid computer !!! please work...I love you !
Wednesday, April 2, 2003 09:53 a.m.
Work...work... I'm officially the "primary writer for Writing Workshop's on the Teacher's Edition for 6-8" woooo. Plus my Tech Committee stuff will get me brownie points.
April Fool's was idiotic...I got some people good with my "hot girl at Sam Ash/returning bongos" story... HAHAHAHHA I can't believe it. It's all Lucia's fault...she started with the AF stuff with her Mom and I couldn't resist concocting one of my own stories...BWAHAHHAHAHA. Do not be afraid of the .,,,puppies of Purgatory...Do not be afraid...of the Dolphins of Damnation.... EVIL!!! HAHHAHAH.
Went to dinner with EUnice last night...Mary Ann's for Mexican...she had steak...which I cannot even bear to look at. ARRRGH. I can last another month. I looovoe chicken. mmmMMMM...grrrrr...HULK NEED RED MEAT.
Had some home made flan at this little weird bar place...I have so much fun with EUnice...we have the same odd sense of humor and we are twins...of the Mario Brothers type.
My poor computer...gonna try one more thing tonight. Hope it works.
Picking up my poor guitar... hope she's been fixed.
Everything Falls Apart.
Back to "persuasive writing" for 8th graders...
BONGOS are the SUCKS
Tuesday, April 1, 2003 09:39 a.m.
APRIL FOOL !!! = ABE = ALL YEAR ROUND IDIOT.
Switcherooo--- archived the last month or so of entries.
Eh...work was slow...a lot of people out.
Catch up day... which means not much. Heh.
Sunjoo. The less said the better. I like things this way. Let's wait and see where the day takes us. Small talk for now. Yay or Nay is infinitely fun.
Bongos suck...I bought a pair. They sound dumb...gonna return them and see if I can buy a cheapo drum machine...oh well.
On the phone with friends...Romana has more boy drama. Jen Chung is no longer mad at me... Jen Yun is still unemployed and loving it, Jen Tse is looking for a job and her current job is helping her! Hollywood agent...that's got to be the coolest job...
Hanging out with Eunice today...and returning the bongos !!!!
