blaaargh... this is how November ends.
Tuesday, November 30, 2004 09:26 a.m.

Yup...another month goes by and not much has happened. I'm taking into account how this entire year has gone...just a year of false starts and waiting around for the other shoe to drop (where did that saying come from anyways?) Seems like a lot of people I know had some major changes this year...while I've been pretty much locked up in stasis...some things have happened... but...none that are really getting me to where I want to be.

Work has been sludging along...trying to get stuff done and over with before due dates... I'm not sure how long I want to be here. I'll have to seriously think about this over the holidays.

Not much else going on... little things here and there. Thinking about recording a few more covers for the website... getting other stuff done for the CD while I wait for the art...and just taking care of some other obligations.

*sigh...it's one of those days... just little things yesterday were ticking me off...hope today is better.

Keep on, keepin' on...whatever that means.

back...
Monday, November 29, 2004 09:24 a.m.

Yup, back at work faced with a ton of stuff I need to do before this book goes to print. I have until December 7th to get all of this stuff done...ugh.

Yesterday went by in a blur basically... I was so out of it from the night before. I was tossing and turning until like 5 am...just couldn't sleep... worried about work and all the other things in my life that haven't exactly been going well.

Got up and went to have lunch with the family... and got some donuts and coffee and went back to the house. Moved a lot of furniture and got my mom's new dinner table and other things all set up. So groggy and ended up going home to try to do a little more work. got some stuff done but i have a bunch of stuff I need to finish before it goes back to art today...

Had some leftovers and was in bed around 1030... so tired. Watched some anime and just passed out... which brings us up to speed...man, got a busy week ahead... arrgh...loads to do. let's get it done! The countdown begins !

Hope you all had a great weekend. Now, back to work!

*whipcrack

early weekend post...
Sunday, November 28, 2004 12:20 a.m.

Just got home from Christine's wedding.. had a really good time... still up and wanted to get this blog entry in before I forget all about Thanksgiving weekend and stuff.

Weds. and Thursday: Left work at 1 and picked up some comics and went to get haircut.. lots of time ... rainy and crappy outside.. Eric picked me up and went home and started cooking... a lot of stuff just kind of melded together..I can't even differentiate days...since a lot of it was random people over playing Halo and what not.

Thanksgiving Day: Cooked lots of food...I did mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes, spaghetti squash and other assorted stuff...Eric handled the turkey and stuffing...and the rest of the family brough ziti and what not...lots of Italian food for a Chinese family actually..pretty funny. The kids were over and we watched tv and ran around...

Friday: Thursday night and Friday was spent feeling really sick... my sinuses were just intolerably achy...it was terrible...awful headaches and stuff. I was supposed to go to my HS reunion...but I ended up sleeping most of the day... I actually wanted to go...but I was so friggin out of it...and I had to be well for Christine's wedding...there was no way that I could miss her wedding...she would kill me! So...stayed home... uncle alan came over and we played some...you guessed it... Halo 2...and then my aunts, mom came over and ate some leftovers...pretty much it. Until Eric came back with a whole bunch of people.. Ricky, Michelle, Anice, Jeremy and Sowon...came over and watched Kill Bill 2... watched some Please Twins (Sequel to Please Teacher) anime...and passed out.

Saturday: Eric went to Knicks game with Shelb...and I was home cleaning up...doing work.. watching Tenacious D...and getting ready for the wedding. Romana and Cliff got here just in time and we got ready to go to the ceremony in LI... we got there early and waited for Jennie and Sarah...and then...we all watched Christine get married.

Christine was a beautiful bride...and I'm happy for her...I still can't believe it...but yup. she's hitched. Her husband...looked terrified at the cermony...but hey, who wouldn't. Sunny and Jane were bridesmaids...more on this later.

The pastor was an older Korean gent...kinda FOBby...but his sermon um...referenced some thing he heard about a woman wanting a man that had the "face of Denzel, a bod like Tyson, Jordan's checkbook, Babyface's romanticism"...um...aren't those the lyrics to "What a Man"?...pretty funny...and then the guitar/piano song was severely out of tune... not sure if they were playing in ddifferent keys or what...I'm sure Christine was cringing...

Got a little lost on the way to Terrace on the Park (the Queens/ Flushing version of Tavern on the Green)...had horsdevoures and wine and hung out... Jennie is awesome. I love her to death...she has such a great heart, is smart, cute, and just an all around sweet person. Sarrah...don't know her well... but she seems very cool. Something about her is just... I can't describe it...except it's a very understated hotness.

I'm glad I got a chance to meet Cliff finally. He seems like a really nice guy... he and Romana are cute together. I'm glad that she finally found someone that treats her well.. after all the false starts she's had in the past...I'm glad this one is working out well.

The food at the reception...was pretty bad. But it was fun...I swear... Chinese and Korean old/middle aged people are exactly the same...they all LOVE TO DANCE...and they all know the ELECTRIC SLIDE! So weird... And yeah...there was a girl there named Liz...that reminded me of Sue... ack... it still haunts me... but what can I do except move on and just get on with it.

Sunny...sigh... she's going through some changes. Let's leave it at that. And Christine...is apparently going to St. John's for Law School in January... how weird is that???

Anyways...the evening went on and we all did some funky dancing and I had my first Midori Sour in ages... reminds me of old club days...and just as we are saying goodbyes... a certain unnamed someone was sitting down... I offered my hand in handshake mode...and she pulled it close to her ample bosom...and felt up me arse...sigh....hahahah...and I got Sarrah's phone number... we should hang out.

And Jennie is headed to London for a semester...between her and Cindy being there...I really must go visit. It's been nearly ten years...so I've really got to get back there and visit my old haunts.

And now...back home... sitting here with some Tenacious D in the background...and Jimmy, Jack, Shelb, Yvonne (wtf??? eric's ex from JHS!!) and a pile of work that I need to do tomorrow. Ugh. It's been a very interesting weekend...and this upcoming week...oh man... lots of stuff to do. I hope things go smoothly until Christmas time when I can relax...man, it's been a tough year... I'm still reeling... I've opened up old wounds...and healed others...I'm still cynical and just... colder, but I'm hoping things get better.

If you know how...please tell me. But yes, I've got a lot to be thankful for. If you've been reading my blog...you know who and what. Amen and amen.

God is still good.

Thank goodness for the little miracles....and the big ones.

Muah.

Why I love Goth Girls.
Wednesday, November 24, 2004 09:22 a.m.

Ugh...things are not going smoothly... I got my book back from copy edit...and it was barely touched. Ok, either the guy was lazy...or I am AWESOME...chances are he was lazy...so...at this point... the proofread better go a little deeper.

HUGE Best Buy day... I only limited myself to Harry Potter, U2 and Evanescence... everyone else was getting Seinfeld and a ton of other music goodies that came out... I saw this very flamboyant guy pick up the Golde Girls Season One...go figure.

Speaking of Evanescence...man, I love Amy Lee... goth girls in general... you know my thing... the whole dark, dark hair and makeup and pale, pale skin...combined with that world weary introspective attitude. And Amy lee is a little chubby and plus she can sing...and she rocks...sigh.

I'd love to date a goth girl...but one with a slightly sunnier disposition...and not into Wicca or anything like that... hahahah

I'm feeling better...but the sinuses have been acting up. I totally sound like a coke fiend...but I'm not. I told Chris..."Yeah, I better stop taking lines... gotta quit the coke." And he was half listening and he said "Stop drinking soda...it's bad for you..." totally wasn't listening to me.

Anyways, we are out at 1:00 today! Thanksgiving weekend should be hectic...still not sure if I will end up going to my HS reunion... since I'm feeling crappy (in oh, so many ways) and I have to bring work home...and I have Christine's wedding to go to also... dang.

Anyways... Happy Comics Day...and Happy Thanksgiving Eve to you too.

feeling better...
Tuesday, November 23, 2004 09:19 a.m.

It's been just about a week and I think I am feeling a bit better. Less groggy and I think I can function as a normal person again.

Not much to talk about...this week has been basically about recupperating and not getting worse. DVDs are just about the only thing that can numb the brain and body and ease me into something resembling comfort.

Buffy Season 7...the last one! And Mr. Show... that's about it.

Day and a half to go...and it looks like I'll still be taking work home..craptacular.

New U2 and Harry Potter out today!

Happy Best Buy Day.

ugh... not much to say.
Monday, November 22, 2004 09:19 a.m.

Ok... it's Monday...back at work... not much to talk about...I feel like I am in a daze...still sick... nowhere near 100 percent yet.

It's definitely the flu. I had some pretty gnarly back and stomach cramps from coughing and what have you...and just slept a lot...Sunday... I think I was unconscious for most of the day. Just want to be well for Thanksgiving...the reunion (if I go), and for Christine's wedding...

Stay healthy, kids... being sick is no fun.

SICK!
Friday, November 19, 2004 09:44 a.m.

Oh man...I've been out for the past two days...haven't been this sick in ages. I have flu/cold or something... all the regular symptoms... I'm back at work now...but I doubt that I will make it through the day.

Actually did some work in my feverish state... not sure how I managed to get through it...but was actually quite productive.

Sat around watchin anime and Kids in the Hall... I beat Halo 2!!!! It's safe to say that there will be a Halo 3...and I beat that hard level of Frontline that I couldn't beat for the longest time... I guess being sick helps my gaming reflexes...very odd.

Anyways...it's Friday...and I'm going to try to get some work done before I pass out.

TGIF! Quick week coming up...should be interesting.

should we even go into it ?
Tuesday, November 16, 2004 09:17 a.m.

Ok... well...work is work... trying to get my book back to art in time... it's a stretch but I'm going to try for it...I have all day today...even though I feel sick as a dog...ugh.

Ok...le's just fast forward: I had a date last night... let's call her "M" Yes, I met her online... yes, this is in response to all of my friends telling me to be pro-active and "get out there again"... and yes, I do feel kind of weird about it.

In any case, on paper (well, online) we have an incredible amount of stuff in common, same taste in music (Scarily the same), in lit, similar family background (she's half Chinese, and half German), same pop culture references... so much so...that it made me extra nervous what it was going to be like to meet up.

So...we did and well, things went well. She's actually pretty close to what I wanted in terms of the "chubby girl, who was really pretty" I mean... she was gorgeous. A little chubby, but that's perfect for me.

Anyways, we had dinner and dessert ...and conversation went ok... I was getting sick so I was a little out of it...and couldn't really eat much sushi... in any case...we also had dessert and talked some more (she told me a little too much about her friends and not enough about herself, though)...

Well, I thought things were going well...and we sat in Union Square park to talk a little...and then she kinda dropped a bomb...basically... ok... to save everyone the embarassment (mostly me) ... let's just say it's something I've dealt with in the past.

So, no...I'm not gonna post about it...if you really need to know what happened... you know where to find me.

But let's say... the Abe-jinx is still active... yes, we'll probably hang out again after Thanksgiving...and I'd love to be friends with her...but anything else... I'm not too sure about... and you know how cynical I've become...so ... take it as you will.

On top of it all...I'm sweating like mad and I've got a cough...ugh.

Happy Best Buy day.

where did this weekend go?
Monday, November 15, 2004 09:35 a.m.

Wow...that was fast. Quick recap:

Friday: Not much...still working on editing my book. I'm glad that it was in pretty good shape when it came back from art...and Friday was a pretty wet and gloomy day anyways... so I got Season One of "Red vs. Blue" and watched with Chris... pretty funny stuff. Justin came over later (he saw Monkey King at NYU with my mom and aunt and cousin) and played Halo.

Saturday: Justin slept over...so more Halo and other stuff. Found out that he couldn't do the VH1 shoot because my Dad didn't file the proper paperwork. So, he was a little upset..the kids came over to hang out with him and Chris...and I had dinner with Grace at Perbacco...nice little Italian place...and Grace paid for dinner...which was really nice. She's just flat-out incredible...and gets more gorgeous everytime I see her. She was sick with what might have been carpal tunnel's and some mystery ailment...but she is ok now. Shared a really good bottle of Riesling...and tried to catch up since we hadn't seen each other in months. Went to Venieros and had dessert and went home to play with the kids.

Sunday: Ugh...sick...my throat is burning! Quench the burning! Went to Fortuna to have dim-sum with the family...and built some bookshelves for my grandparents. VH1 all day... Bands Reunited with Scandal and Vixen! and Nina had a surprise bday. Happy Bday, Pretty Martian!

Ok..loads to do...more to say... wait until tomorrow?

Happy Monday.

at least it's Friday...
Friday, November 12, 2004 09:37 a.m.

This week seems to have come and gone really quick...but lots of weird stuff happened this week... in the big and small sense.

I got my NC writing book back...which was GREAT ...but that just means I need to edit it. It's actually in pretty good shape at the moment. But I have at least 75 pages to go through today...urrgh.

Had lunch with Doris at Grand Central... it was pretty hysterical...just giglling like baboons basically. Life is just hysterically weird...and you can't really articulate why.

Home... Joey, Survivor, Halo...built an Ikea lamp for my grandparents...had to give them my old lamp because the Ikea one was way too "lean-y".

Other than that...just trying to make it through the week. *plays "Working for the Weekend" by Loverboy

You want a piece of my heart!??!?!

TGIF, you daft punks.

HALoOOOOoOO!
Thursday, November 11, 2004 09:44 a.m.

Well...another day of work come and gone...and comics! The Identity Crisis killer was apparently revealed...let's just say...it's a fallen hero...not a big gun...but someone that has been very important in the past.

Met up with Sowon and Jeremy after work to talk about more album cover art stuff. We might even get a chance to see the Spongebob Movie premiere next week... we'll see.

It's so odd how they've just become "Sowon and Jeremy" ... I can't even imagine a time when I'd be "Abe and ___"... it just seems so foreign to me at this point.

Home... watched some TV...and played some more of Halo 2...dang...this game has me hooked...so much fun...and I haven't even tried the multi-player mode yet.

Other than that... it's more work and other types of stress.

Justin is supposed to be in the Veteran's Day parade with his ROTC group...maybe I'll have a chance to see him later.

Wow...Thursday already?

urrrgh...queasy.
Wednesday, November 10, 2004 09:41 a.m.

Couldn't sleep last night. I guess I was feeling sick since I did have a fever...plus I freaked myself out with Ju-On (which wasn't that scary while watching it) and being too pumped from playing too much Halo 2.

Yeah, I did go out on a Best Buy run. Which probably wasn't such a good idea since I feel sicker today. In any case, it was worth it...Halo 2 is AMAZING! So much fun to play! I seriously can't wait to play some more. Just better and more of everything.

My mom and Justin came over for a little while...and I just cleaned up and did my thing all day.

The internet is a funny and wonderful thing sometimes...hmmm more on this later.

It is freezing in NY today...and it's going to be almost 60 degrees tomorrow? What gives?

Happy comics day... Hail, Master Chief!

JEW-fest 2004! ... and some deep thoughts.
Tuesday, November 9, 2004 12:42 p.m.

Yeah...I took the day off today...just feeling tired and a little bit under the weather. It's a little bit of everything really.

Work has been stressful lately...and I think it might be like this for a bit...I just need to relax and just get what I need to done...done. Grin and bear it. Get the books done. Hurrah.

Making friends with my coworker Allison...she is super-liberal Chicago Pearl jam fan...pretty cool so far...went to Astor Place after work... picked up "The Office-Special" the last of the series...I can't believe it's over...12 episodes and 2 specials...that's it?!??! I really want more. There's a little bit of David brent in me...and a bit of Tim...the whole Tim and Dawn thing... man, sweet story. Dawn reminds me of Emily a bit actually...haven't seen her in ages, either.

Met up with Eunice...had beard papa's (original is still best flavor, had lots of sushi (played sushi chess, will have to teach you) and headed over to Webster Hall for Jimmy Eat World! Recover...the opening act was pretty good...a bit like Thrice...metal/EMO...but the lead singer was such a dink. Parked out on the couch for the other opening band...too tired...and then went back for JEW!

Setlist (something like this): Bleed American
Your New Aesthetic
Blister
Get It Faster
Nothing Wrong
Lucky Denver Mint
If You Don't Don't
Drugs or Me/The World You Love
The Middle
Seventeen
For Me this is Heaven
Polaris
Kill
Rockstar
A Praise Chorus

Pain
Sweetness

Pretty awesome show... the weird thing with JEW is that...I lvoe the music and the band...but the three times that I've seem them live...they have been at really low points in my life...I don't want to rehash the past two...but right now... man, I feel like I am going through another quarter life crisis.

The new job...maybe it's just me learning the ropes...but I'm just not happy here... I'm stressed out and not loving the work...not having anyone to talk to (I miss Christine and Emily and my other coworkers) and not working with literature...it makes me sad...and I heard the word "career" and I freaked...this isn't what I want to do with the rest of my life...really.

That and the lack of a girlfriend (which isn't so bad) but the fact that my girl FRIENDS are slowly being "taken away from me"... most if not all my close friends are dating/have been dating...and it just makes me realize that in the end...I'm eventually going to be alone. It's weird...but a little piece of me falls in love with them...some more than others...and I do get that flame of jealousy when I realize that someone is taking up there time...it's totally illogical...but I guess I just miss having them around. I mean, my close friends...they are kind of like a girlfriend (without the benefits...well...hmmm) when I don't have one. It's complicated and simple at the same time.

And the thing that sucks the most is that...I can't help them with advice. I mean...I can't be objective about it, because I love them so much and I see the beauty and the preciousness of my friends...that I doubt any guy will ever match my expectations of who they really deserve. I'm always going to be like "he's not right for you because of X, Y, and Z" and sometimes I'm REALLY right (like my friends are for me when I date Miss. Nutso) and sometimes I'm wrong because I don't get to see the other things. In the end, I'm sad that I can't really be a good friend in this aspect. I'm too biased and I care too much. "Sure, why not go on a trip with a guy you just met a week ago! Only 7 years older than you, not a problem! Yeah, move to another country! Sure, you can fix things! Oh, he has an Asian fetish? Just say 'meloveyoulongtimeeee'!" The sad thing is... those all apply to someone I know. But apparently things are working out for them...and I'm still by myself...so seriously, who knows? Apparently, not me.

And it's not like I could date any of my friends. I could never do that unless it was something serious and we knew that we were going to get married eventually. I value my friendships too much to muck it up by doing something daft like "trying something out"...and honestly, I don't know if I'd really be compatible with any of them now... since I have no idea who I am at the moment. I don't trust my own judgment really. Ideally, some girl with a good head on her shoulders will whack me upside the head and just be like "you. come here." That would be grand.

I don't know how to explain it... but it's also the whole companionship/ availability thing...without the looming specter of "oh wait, you have a boyfriend, we can't really be this close anymore/ spend time like this" thing... I mean...I HATE being the third wheel... for example, Elaine wants me to hang out with her and Barry all the time...but it's weird... 3 is such a lonely number (well for one of the 3). So, I feel funny hanging out with a couple and then I'd feel funny just hanging out with my friend now. It's illogical! I'm nuts! But still...the whole male/femal dynamic is weird and tricky...even if it's just friends. Who knows what the third party is thinking?

All of this is making me realize...that I have to get over the hurt and the fear (mostly from the past 2 years of dating psychos) and just get out there again. I just need to muster up the courage and the confidence again...and just find who I used to be.

I really hate the way I am now. Cynical, cold, and just not wanting to deal with people. I used to love going out and just having fun...but this cloud of feeling sorry for myself/ angry at where things are going (or have gone) needs to stop.

I'm a great guy. Loving, smart, funny, talented. (That's my David Brent side coming out) But I just don't feel like I am. (that's my nega-Abe side)...

So what's going to help? Better times at work, meeting new people (aka hot girl/future wife), and doing things that I enjoy. Maybe I just need more guy friends (but my close guy friends have all moved out of state or ...ahem...are married now.) And they say it's hard to make guy friends out of college years...hmmm.

In any case...it's been awhile since I've posted any "deep thoughts"... I apologize for just blaaaarrgghing it all out... but in the end... I'm tired of this. I need a change for the better. Talking about it and just getting it out there is step one. Now, to do something about it.

Happy Halo 2 day.

JEW-fest 2004!
Tuesday, November 9, 2004 12:42 p.m.

Yeah...I took the day off today...just feeling tired and a little bit under the weather. It's a little bit of everything really.

Work has been stressful lately...and I think it might be like this for a bit...I just need to relax and just get what I need to done...done. Grin and bear it. Get the books done. Hurrah.

Making friends with my coworker Allison...she is super-liberal Chicago Pearl jam fan...pretty cool so far...went to Astor Place after work... picked up "The Office-Special" the last of the series...I can't believe it's over...12 episodes and 2 specials...that's it?!??! I really want more. There's a little bit of David brent in me...and a bit of Tim...the whole Tim and Dawn thing... man, sweet story. Dawn reminds me of Emily a bit actually...haven't seen her in ages, either.

Met up with Eunice...had beard papa's (original is still best flavor, had lots of sushi (played sushi chess, will have to teach you) and headed over to Webster Hall for Jimmy Eat World! Recover...the opening act was pretty good...a bit like Thrice...metal/EMO...but the lead singer was such a dink. Parked out on the couch for the other opening band...too tired...and then went back for JEW!

Setlist (something like this): Bleed American
Your New Aesthetic
Blister
Get It Faster
Nothing Wrong
Lucky Denver Mint
If You Don't Don't
Drugs or Me/The World You Love
The Middle
Seventeen
For Me this is Heaven
Polaris
Kill
Rockstar
A Praise Chorus

Pain
Sweetness

Pretty awesome show... the weird thing with JEW is that...I lvoe the music and the band...but the three times that I've seem them live...they have been at really low points in my life...I don't want to rehash the past two...but right now... man, I feel like I am going through another quarter life crisis.

The new job...maybe it's just me learning the ropes...but I'm just not happy here... I'm stressed out and not loving the work...not having anyone to talk to (I miss Christine and Emily and my other coworkers) and not working with literature...it makes me sad...and I heard the word "career" and I freaked...this isn't what I want to do with the rest of my life...really.

That and the lack of a girlfriend (which isn't so bad) but the fact that my girl FRIENDS are slowly being "taken away from me"... most if not all my close friends are dating/have been dating...and it just makes me realize that in the end...I'm eventually going to be alone. It's weird...but a little piece of me falls in love with them...some more than others...and I do get that flame of jealousy when I realize that someone is taking up there time...it's totally illogical...but I guess I just miss having them around. I mean, my close friends...they are kind of like a girlfriend (without the benefits...well...hmmm) when I don't have one. It's complicated and simple at the same time.

I don't know how to explain it... but it's the whole companionship/ availability thing...without the looming specter of "oh wait, you have a boyfriend, we can't really be this close anymore/ spend time like this" thing... I mean...I HATE being the third wheel... for example, Elaine wants me to hang out with her and Barry all the time...but it's weird... 3 is such a lonely number (well for one of the 3). All of this is making me realize...that I have to get over the hurt and the fear (mostly from the past 2 years of dating psychos) and just get out there again. I just need to muster up the courage and the confidence again...and just find who I used to be.

I really hate the way I am now. Cynical, cold, and just not wanting to deal with people. I used to love going out and just having fun...but this cloud of feeling sorry for myself/ angry at where things are going (or have gone) needs to stop.

I'm a great guy. Loving, smart, funny, talented. (That's my David Brent side coming out) But I just don't feel like I am. (that's my nega-Abe side)...

So what's going to help? Better times at work, meeting new people (aka hot girl/future wife), and doing things that I enjoy. Maybe I just need more guy friends (but my close guy friends have all moved out of state or ...ahem...are married now.) And they say it's hard to make guy friends out of college years...hmmm.

In any case...it's been awhile since I've posted any "deep thoughts"... I apologize for just blaaaarrgghing it all out... but in the end... I'm tired of this. I need a change for the better. Talking about it and just getting it out there is step one. Now, to do something about it.

Happy Halo 2 day.

"incredible" weekend...eh...not really.
Monday, November 8, 2004 09:26 a.m.

Lots going on...and at the same time...not much.

Friday: Not much besides work kicking me in the arse...and going home to take my Dad to the airport. Stayed up to watch tv and get my arse kicked in Medal of Honor: Frontline.

Saturday: Woke up pretty late...went to see the "Incredibles" with Chris and Justin...the movie was AWESOME. I think it's my favorite Pixar film so far... the whole superhero theme and just plain old Pixar magic...made it one of the best. Wandered around Forest Hills and my mom took us to dinner...went to a bucnh of packed places before we settled on Benihana... came home...watched "13 going on 30" which wasn't bad...and passed out.

Sunday: Got up a little earlier and did laundry and cleaned up... Was motivated to record some cover songs...so I banged out the "cry me a river" medley and "stare at the sun"...mixed them down really quick...and posted them on the website! wooo...productive! Feeling kind of weird and uneasy all day...not sure why... lots of Fox tv premieres... "Arrested Development" was awesome as usual and also the finale to the "Surreal Life" which was just odd. Wonder who is going to be on it next season.

Anyhooo... that was the weekend...not super exciting...but not too bad either... Another long week ahead...loads of work to do...and a few surprises.

Jimmy Eat World with Eunice tonight! wooo...JEWin' it up at Webster Hall!

Happy (ugh) Monday.

"incredible" weekend...eh...not really.
Monday, November 8, 2004 09:26 a.m.

Lots going on...and at the same time...not much.

Friday: Not much besides work kicking me in the arse...and going home to take my Dad to the airport. Stayed up to watch tv and get my arse kicked in Medal of Honor: Frontline.

Saturday: Woke up pretty late...went to see the "Incredibles" with Chris and Justin...the movie was AWESOME. I think it's my favorite Pixar film so far... the whole superhero theme and just plain old Pixar magic...made it one of the best. Wandered around Forest Hills and my mom took us to dinner...went to a bucnh of packed places before we settled on Benihana... came home...watched "13 going on 30" which wasn't bad...and passed out.

Sunday: Got up a little earlier and did laundry and cleaned up... Was motivated to record some cover songs...so I banged out the "cry me a river" medley and "stare at the sun"...mixed them down really quick...and posted them on the website! wooo...productive! Feeling kind of weird and uneasy all day...not sure why... lots of Fox tv premieres... "Arrested Development" was awesome as usual and also the finale to the "Surreal Life" which was just odd. Wonder who is going to be on it next season.

Anyhooo... that was the weekend...not super exciting...but not too bad either... Another long week ahead...loads of work to do...and a few surprises.

Jimmy Eat World with Eunice tonight! wooo...JEWin' it up at Webster Hall!

Happy (ugh) Monday.

more weirdness...
Friday, November 5, 2004 09:22 a.m.

Work is still kicking my ass. Trying to do a few things to make me feel better. Submitting some poetry to journals again, recording some stuff this weekend, getting focused on things that will not bring me down...well...hopefully.

Had lunch with Laura...just weird. Things didn't end on the best of terms the last time we spoke...and that was months ago...and she just proceeds to tell me all about the new guy she is seeing... serious TMI moments there. Just flat out odd. She's a character. That's all I'll say about that really.

Was supposed to have drinks with a friend...but had to cancel to go home and have dinner with the folks. My dad is off to Taiwan to teach at his university...he won't be back until almost December! Anyways... should keep an eye on Justin and Mom in the meantime...

Speaking of which...I forgot to mention that Justin is in the ROTC now! I can't believe that...so weird...have yet to see him in his uniform...but man...so weird...my baby!

Doris is off to Chicago for the weekend... man, I wish I could up and leave for some place.

Ali G movie was pretty funny...some very crass moments...but on the whole... hilarious.

Been reading Green Arrow/Green Lantern comics from the 70's...the "Hard-Traveling Heroes" era.. it's all "a very special episode" feel...

Anyhoo... been a rough week...I seriously hope things get better. I'm tired of feeling tired and down... but hey...TGIF, anyways.

hectic-ness.
Thursday, November 4, 2004 10:37 a.m.

Odd things. Got comics and went to McD's for some junkie food...and saw two high school girls on the floor...beating the crap out of each other. Dude!

Avengers traitor is... BS! What the crap.

Tired...sleepy...went home and FINISHED Medal of Honor:Rising Sun... that was quick. Played some guitar, watched some Smallville and NBA... the Lakers again...and the Knicks only lost by 6 to the T'Wolves...not too bad... but it's still not a win.

Other than that...work is driving me bonkers... we'll see how long I last here. ARRRRGH!

hectic-ness.
Thursday, November 4, 2004 10:37 a.m.

Odd things. Got comics and went to McD's for some junkie food...and saw two high school girls on the floor...beating the crap out of each other. Dude!

Avengers traitor is... BS! What the crap.

Tired...sleepy...went home and FINISHED Medal of Honor:Rising Sun... that was quick. Played some guitar, watched some Smallville and NBA... the Lakers again...and the Knicks only lost by 6 to the T'Wolves...not too bad... but it's still not a win.

Other than that...work is driving me bonkers... we'll see how long I last here. ARRRRGH!

why not put up a fight??
Wednesday, November 3, 2004 11:39 a.m.

He conceded. I can't believe it. I thought this was going to take at least a week and a half. What the crap?!??!

Speaking of crap...apparently some senator in Idaho won the election. His name: Mike CRAPO.

If someone with the name CRAPO can win...why can't John Kerry?

OH!-hio
Wednesday, November 3, 2004 09:24 a.m.

Crap. Not only are things not going well at work and in other areas of my life... but now we might have to wait 12 days until we know who won the election. 12 days is a small price to pay if Bush loses...but still. ARRRGH!

Work...bah...not gonna even bother.

A friend of mine lost her grandfather recently. Please keep her and her family in your prayers. It's hard to say the right thing at times like these. Sometimes just being there for someone is all you can really do.

New A Perfect Circle album is pretty interesting... covers of old songs...but really weird covers. Must listen some more....but on a JEW kick at the moment.

Speaking of which... I've decided to record and post some cover songs on my website. I have "No Sensitvity" up right now...the one I did a long time ago...and I'll record a few more others to post...need something to do while the album stews.

Voting was super quick last night...me, Chris, and Fred went to vote...and not one was really on line in our district.

More Medal of Honor...setting up recording equipment...and watching some NBA! YEAH! NBA season! Watched the Lakers and Nuggets a little...man, the new-look Lakers really are suprising me... they might be better then anyone expected.

And election woes...come on OHIO!!! It really is close.....now just wait and see. Don't lose hope just yet. ARRRGH!!!

Comics day! woooo!

tonight's the night...
Tuesday, November 2, 2004 09:25 a.m.

I really hope you guys are planning to vote today. I'll be going after work. I'm sure Kerry will win in NY...no fear. But who is going to be President...and will we know tonight? They say this is the most important election in our lifetime...it very well could be. Sometimes it's really weird remembering we are at war right now...we go on with our lives and just don't feel the impact. Anyways...go VOTE!

Work...ugh.. liking it less and less here. I just need to stick around for awhile and figure out what I want to do later. The word "career" frightens me. It's a "day job"!!!

Continuing my thoughts from yesterday... Yes...sometimes too much information is really bad... it's weird how some of my friends will tell me about their gastrointestinal problems and some people are hush hush about what they did over the weekend. It's just weird how people decide what they want to share. Everyone has some little censor in their head... some are MPAA strict...while others are Comedy Central...and then others are like the Playboy channel. Who knows. Which are you?

Sofia called me out of the blue last night...hmmm.

MEdal of Honor: Rising Sun...these war games...man..."killing Japs and Krauts" is that PC? hahah no...it's XBOX... geeky joke there.

Real World/Road Rules Battle of the Sexes: Ok...Tonya is the hottest girl...and Coral and Abram are sooo weird together. Battle for Ozzfest: some annoying guys on there. I hope the blonde girl wins...cause she's a chick bassist...and we all know how Abe likes chick bassists. (and drummers and guitarists)

I'm just feeling weird lately. Call it Election Day high.

Vote, ya bastiches, VOTE!

I am so boring.
Monday, November 1, 2004 09:16 a.m.

Weekend wrap-up. I'll make it quick. This halloween...I basically stayed home and scared myself silly by watching horror movies and Halloween themed shows on TV. PLayed some video games (still can't beat the last level of Halo!) and played a little guitar. The kids stopped by ..but I still have a ton of candy left over...oh, man...there goes my diet.

other than that...I've been thinking a lot about the nature of my friendships. Mainly...how close I think I am with some of my friends...and basically, trust. In the end...I guess I just need to be aware of just how much I can open myself up to people. I mean, from the spectrum of not enough info to waaay too much info. It's just hard to gauge other people. There really isn't any use in getting upset about it. In the past few years...I've just become colder and more closed off...with moments where I feel like I can open up...but on the whole...I think it's safer to keep the walls up. It's been very hard for me to trust anyone...when people keep letting me down.

I think my "live my life as an open book" philosophy just fails. There really isn't any point to it when everyone else keeps their cards close to their chest. And look at me being a hypocrite right here...talking openly about it!

Ugh... work, friends, family, all of it... unnecessary stress sometimes...just let it go.

F*in Monday!