YO STINKY.
Wednesday, March 31, 2004 09:32 a.m.

All work and no play makes Abe a dull boy.

Anyhooo... got lunch with Emily...just grabbed something to go really...

Work and then met up with Mom and Justin for dinner... Mom hated the potato pancakes and sent them back for an omelet... she was in a bad mood yesterday...hmmm...

Justin went for his Gatorade/Nickelodean audition...he's supposed to be on the phone with his friend "Stinky" (Ben Seaver's friend from Growing Pains was named Stinky!) and his sneakers come to life and then he wants to go out and play. HAHHAH. cute.

Got Brother Bear and Alice in Wonderland DVDs...Brother Bear was actually pretty good. A little predictable ...but aren't all Disney movies? And as for Alice...I remember being a little kid and having the hugest crush on her...hahahah.

Did you know that DO AS INFINITY sings the closing song for Inuyasha ?!?!? It's "Deep Forest" !!! woooo!

Crosswords are cool. Don't deny it !

what is up with the weather?
Tuesday, March 30, 2004 09:43 a.m.

Crazy! Yesterday was all nice and sunny...and now it's freezing and gloomy again. BAH.

Had pizzafest with Eunice... more craziness...and chipwich-ness. 2012 is the magic year, I say!

More work...more crosswords. My existence has gotten sadder and sadder.

Wandered around and bought a Swiffer WetJet...sad, I tell you.

Home...tv... appiled for a few jobs... pop culture publication...IF ONLY!

Serena is packing up for Disneyworld...she is coming back with a suitcase full of Mickey-goodness.

Justin has another Nickelodeon auditon...but it's pretty late tonight... not until 7. Hmmm.

Back to the grind...ugh.

quick blog...
Monday, March 29, 2004 09:30 a.m.

Just a few thoughts before I bear down and catch up with work...

Ok...when I watch Mao-Chan (super cute anime) I have nightmares... AGAIN...I watched it before I passed out last night and I had a nightmare about killing zombies. Makes no sense...and still... nightmares!

Loads of crap to do... off I go!

packed weekend..
Sunday, March 28, 2004 6:00 p.m.

I'm gonna have to catch up with a bunch of work so...I decided to blog about weekend now..

The rest of Friday... just went home to hang out with the family and assorted stuff. Babysitting Justin...if you can even call it that.

Saturday... got up and out to meet with Gary and Lisa...first time I saw them together since the wedding. Their photos came out...eh... but the DVD was pretty cool. Kaori came over and we went to Elmhurst for Penang...Kaori ordered the NASTIEST thing ever...it was horrid...I tasted it... twice...jsut to make sure it was as bad as I thought it was. IT WAS. Some anchovie noodle thing... blaaargh! And the Java Mee (no...JAVA YOU!) was good..except it was like NOODLES COVERED IN SWEET AND SOUR SAUCE! ACK. ANyhooo...we ate and sent Kaori on her way... probably won't see her until her wedding..

So Abe plays the third wheel and Gary and Lisa go to Target and Best Buy...then they come over and watch some tv... i need a woman and soon.

Went to pick up Amy from Chinatown...we had noodle soup (JAVA YOU!...ok...doesn't work a second time) and it was not S & S...and Little Italy for dessert...first time I had a "lobster tail" and it tasted EXACTLY the way I thought it would (saw it on Food Network) and it was SOOOO GOOOD. Must get another one. In any case... Amy went to stay with her friend Janice and I came home to watch anime and pass out.

Sunday... got up early and went to the 1030 (not 1115 anymore) service at Redeemer...and guess what...the church I went to gave a little presentation...they moved to Irving Place...not 23rd...so I guess I can go there now...whew.

So waht did I learn? I learned that I am still reeling from the compounded hurt that I was dealt with these past few years...and that God will ultimately be faithful to me. What do I know? I'm just a silly boy who made some bad choices with girls who had no idea what they wanted. What is the controlling element in my life? God knows, it shouldn't be romantic love.

So...what must I do... be good to my friends and families, take care of my shiznat, keep doing my music and the writing schtick, and trust in God. Pretty simple, huh?

Saw Irene... had brunch with Amy and Heather... pretty cool to catch up. Dropped Amy off at Penn Station where she went off to Philly to see Christin...dang I miss those girls.

Went to Forest Hills...where I got...a book of CROSSWORD PUZZLES!!! I am an addicted. I am an old man.

I've been super moody lately. I blame all the fish. 2 more weeks to go!

Sopranos tonight...then off to bed and work... ugh. I been away for awhile... time to get cracking again. YUCKO!

God bless your hearts, kiddies.

still no work !
Friday, March 26, 2004 12:09 p.m.

Well...I'm still at home. I took another day off from work..Chris is still sleeping...

Was trying to be productive and moved and cleaned a bunch of crap around the house.

Watched TV with Chris all day and just hung out. Not much else really. I thought Nina would be back but she stayed with my aunt...it's a long story.

Anyways... Serena was a dear and she got me crossword puzzle answers ! She gave them to me over IM...I was missing like 5-6 ...and had a few wrong...whew. It was driving me insane! Thank yooooou!

Amy might be in town tomorrow or Sunday... haven't seen her in months. And Yvette finally calls me out of the blue. What a maroooon.

Anyhooo...whoah...my allergies are bad today...and I got more housework to do. I think this is all procrastination. I should be doing something great. Oh, well.

TGIF!

weird gig !
Thursday, March 25, 2004 10:42 a.m.

Work has just been piling up... Orpheus and Eurydice and Gilgamesh...good, clean, literate fun.

Lunch...went to park and played new songs for Eunice because she couldn't come to my gig... the weather was so nice...and I don't mind playing outside... it was fun...and she got me bananas... ooohooohhhEEEEEEEeeee.

Gig was very, very weird... apparently some one stole a piece of equipment from the Green Room...so...I ran to Guitar Center and I tried to buy a cable...but the guy said ...with their equipment...it would never work... so I boughta little amp for 80 bucks... oh man.

Rushed back and got set up...and wouldn't you know it...that little amp sounded GREAT... and the new songs were really well received.

Alyssa (new co-worker) came and she seemed to really like my stuff... My cousin Chris came, Nancy and her friend Aimi... and that was it... kind of disheartening...and the green room crowd was weird... Chris told me that there was a couple on his side that were in the middle of breaking up...but the girl was laughing at my jokes... weird.

In any case... even though the Wednesday night crowd was relatively small... they were pretty good...and I made 10 bucks in tips...which was cool. This woman even came up to talk to me... Liz and her friend...they were talking to Alyssa and thank goodness they said only good things about me...cause they didn' realize she was my coworker!

Very odd.. played covers...Sarah (foxy waitress) and Mike (regular bartender) were very cool... Mike even did a little light show when I played "Don't Stop Believin'" funny!

At the end...I made...um...NEGATIVE $30 bucks...since I had to pay for Chris' beers because he had no money... and I bought that amp ! ...HAHHAH..but it was worth it because Chris was really impressed...he never heard me sing before...and he thought I sounded great...

More weirdness... Aimi studies music....so she had sheet music and she just came up and played piano...very odd.

Good thing Chris came...cause I wouldn't have been able to go home with all that equipment... and had a good talk with Nancy...haven't seen her since before she got engaged...

Home...Nina and Fred were over... and I made dinner for Chris...did crosswords...and watched the Lakers game until I was too tired and passsed out.

Chris is still sleeping...but I'm up and about.. I get to be lazy today...took an optional day...

SHould I even go to work tomorrow ? We'll see.

eeep... Gig tonight.
Wednesday, March 24, 2004 09:45 a.m.

Yesterday was super busy with work and meetings... I guess being busy is better than not having anything to do... but I'd rather be busy elsewhere.

Went to Best Buy with Emily...and went to look for socks for her. She said she was getting pissed off that I went to lunch with Eunice all the time... but what the heck ?!?!/ Eunice is one of my best friends... hmmmph. Will have to balance time accordingly...

AAAAAND...I finished my first crossword... officially cleaned out that puppy ! I should frame it...took eme about 30 mins. to do the whole thing...isn't it sad how I look forward to doing crosswords everyday... my goodness. I need a woman. hahahah!

Went home to practice... and just think... what should I be doing? Maybe I shouldn't play anymore until my album is done... and start cracking on the novel... is that going to be my "moneymaker" ...who knows.

Mark (former co-worker, gay, old) ...called... he said some pretty distrubing things to me... is it too late to call HR on him? That FRUITCUP!!! hahaha...

Poor Serena...she got a sty in her eye that makes her cry. May need to buy her an eyepatch... arrrrgh, me matey!

Is anyone coming to my show tonight? A lot of "maybes" but I haven't heard one definite yet... I really hope someone shows up... it's always a surprise...but I don't mind playing for strangers... oh well...this might be the last one for awhile...

Send me some good vibes...

Try to make it ok? I got lots of new songs and cool covers.

Bring cute girls, k ?

another day...
Tuesday, March 23, 2004 10:08 a.m.

Not much going on... just work and meetings and doing loads of crap.

Gig is TOMORROW...am I ready? I'll practice again tonight...I hope people come... who knows? This might be my last show at Green Room.... we'll have to see.

I actually felt compelled to work on my novel last night...wrote a really short scene last night... I'll try to write a few pages every week...at least I'll have something... hey, if I can blog everyday about crap...I'm sure I can write some stuff for my novel now...

Anyhooo... Amy might be in town this weekend...and I am still debating on what to do Friday... NYU alums meeting...or a day off ?

OH...and Justin is getting called back for that indie film table read thing...supposedly some kid from Mystic River is in it now...

Sigh... Tuesday.

whoah... heavy news...
Monday, March 22, 2004 09:42 p.m.

Grace is engaged.

She was the girl that broke my heart in college for lots of reasons...and now she is engaged.

I knew it was coming...but it was just weird to finally hear the news. I'm not sure how I feel...but I'm surprisingly ok.

I called her about a year ago...but I just got her machine. I wanted to apologize for how things turned out and all...but she never called me back.

In any case, the weird thing is...I was walking back to work and on the street right after I met Eunice for lunch, I saw this girl who kind of had the same posture/air about her... that reminded me of Grace... it's been a long time since I've thought of her...and then tonight Amy tells me that Grace is engaged.

Grace was one of my closest friends...we had a really odd relationship. It was love...but at the same time it wasn't. I know I loved her immensely... the story doesn't need to be rehashed...but a lot of things went wrong...and she broke my heart...and I broke hers in return.

She was one of the three that really made a huge mark...a wound on that part of me.

I miss her... I miss the old days... but they are really gone and long past. I've had my heart broken badly... twice after her... but her wounds have been healing for a long time.

It really does take the years, and months, and days, and minutes to cover over all the past iniquities and scars.

I'm still here.

I wish her well. I wish that she has a happy future.

I'll pray for you, Grace.

I am such a geek.
Sunday, March 21, 2004 07:49 p.m.

Oh man... see if you can find my quote about my favorite voice actress, Wendee Lee in this article posted on Anime on Dvd:

http://www.animeondvd.com/news/article.php?article_view=287

I AM GEEK! HEAR ME ROAR!

*snort
*pushes up glasses

weekend...
Sunday, March 21, 2004 07:31 p.m.

Supposed to have some meetings tomorrow morning...so i thought I might as well blog now.

Friday: Big fat snowflakes...and just busy with work all around... went out during lunch to pick up tix. Met up with Serena for dinner at Yuca Bar... she can be sooo cute sometimes...and then she can flip the script and just be soooo devious and evil. HAHHAAH. Dinner was ok... drinks were strong.. She bought a "Cute but Psycho" t-shirt with the bunny on it... how fitting. Lots of insults and punches were thrown throughout the course of the night.. needless to say it was fun. and juvenile.

Went to see "Dawn of the Dead" ... I thought it was a lot of fun... better than "28 Days Later" in some respects... it was just all around fun. Have to admit...I haven't laughed like that in a long time... movie was good...beating up Serena was better. :)

Saturday... just watching anime and practicing.. cleaned up the apartment and just puttered around. My voice is getting a little better...but man... after this week I must get my arse in the gym...cause I am getting winded after playing for only an hour.. I need to get in shape... winter is over, FATTY !

Sunday... man... I just got knocked for a loop today... I woke up at 1030...had breakfast...and was fast asleep at 1230... woke up at almost 3... what is wrong with me? The whole "sleep debt" thing is really sucky... have to catch up on sleep... that's about it. And more guitar-ing.I need to get my arse to church. Must remember to email and find out WHERE THEY MOVED TO !??!?

A year ago yesterday we went to Iraq ? In "we" I mean America... I still don't think it was the best idea...time will tell. Yay troops! Boo stupid Bush.

You know what sucks...that new N.E.R.D. song...it is ass. If you like it ...you are ASS. That song is just annoying. I expect more from those guys. disappointing. but the girl in the video is smokin' ... heh.

You know who is HOT? Anne Hathaway from "Princess Diaries" ... what is with me and my crushes on Disney film actresses? I am weird.

Ok...Sopranos and then off to work bright and early.

Weekend isn't over yet...and yet it is. :(

bad commute makes abe grumpy.
Friday, March 19, 2004 10:02 a.m.

The last snow fall of the year? Those were the biggest honking snowflakes I have ever seen... Angel dandruff...hahah.

Yesterday was...eh...work is the same...getting shoveled at me...and then lunch with Emily...she wanted to buy boots and stuff... so we traipsed around the city...and went bootless...but I got a sammich...woot.

Not much else going on... I just feel like an old man... I got a humidifier at work... and I do crossword puzzles... but my prostate sure is healthy !!! HHAHAHAH... well...at least I think it is. Where is my prostate anyways ?

Went to Red Lobster (of all places) with Moms and the kid bro... everyhting was good...except for the actual seafoood! The scallops were like mini-marshmallows...and the shrimp were...shrimpy. In any case... haven't been there since I was like 5...and I don't think we will be going back for another 20 years. Great service though... thanks Michelle!

Mad Mad House...wow... Fiona "the Witch" is HOT...but the show... the two Christians on it...they totally get picked on...but at the same time...shouldn't THEIR beliefs be respected... yes, do as the Romans (or freaks/alts) do...but at the same time... there needs to be MUTUAL respect...in any case...they can leave or get evicted...and Brent. got his last night...

Dinner and movie with Serena tonight? Oh man... she is a riot. We will be black and blue tomorrow... lots of punching.

TGIF !!! woooot! Enjoy the last bit of snow, kiddies.

Survivor!
Thursday, March 18, 2004 09:43 a.m.

Plays "eye of the tiger"...

Ethan...duh. It was obvious he was gonna get booted.

Work was eh... did a lot...and not getting compensated... I need a new job and soon!

And more "pizzafuntime" with the Eunice. We even looked at Army/Navy surplus stuff...they got some neat stuff in there. Like antibacterial tablets that you can put into "questionable" water... but what is killing the bacteria? and would you want to drink that ??? I think it's ammonia...eeew.

Not much ... just practicing... oh...stopped by Green Room... as spring approaches...it gets tighter in terms of schedule...I'll be lucky to even get a spot in the next few months...but I'll have to see... I have been playing with them for a long time...and Bonnie seems to like me...but apparently they have a new manager...so we'll have to see how that plays out.

Anyways... other than that... cathcing up with old anime... and cleaning up around the house... pretty much it...and oh...crossword puzzles.

I think Reva should move to Atlanta...good opportunity...don't regret not going! (and it's closer to NY than AZ..) :P

Anyone want to go see Linkin Park/Korn/Snoop dog?

Thursday...woot.

new obsession
Wednesday, March 17, 2004 10:33 p.m.

crossword puzzles.

I ALMOST finished the AM New York Monday crossword puzzle... ALMOST! I had to cheat a little... but I got like 85% of it on my own...and they get harder everyday, huh? "Irenic" means peaceful... I was like WHAT ?!?!? So, now you know... blahblahblah...YOOOOO JOOOOE !!!

The only other one I ALMOST ever finished was some dumb movie one...it was in one of those magazines you get free at Loews...

Am I dumb or what ? That NY Times commercial lady could kick my ass.

Dangnabbit! I looked at some crossword puzzles on line...and man...there is no way that ANY normal person will get some of those clues...I mean "Nautical for 'HALT!'"...I'm gonna have to grow a new brain. Dangnabrassumfrassum.

I shall practice. I will be Krossword King!

holla.

the snow will not relent !
Wednesday, March 17, 2004 09:48 a.m.

It's supposed to be spring...and yet there is still like half a foot of snow outside...and more on the way... we will be wishing for this cold come July...but oh well.

Didn't do much but watch TV, do some laundry, and practice a little...

I'm still feeling a bit rundown...and work is just getting shoveled at me... I'm not a happy camper right now. Camp Textapublish is the SUCKS!

Ikea has yummy cookies.

I'm not feeling very profound today.

urrrgh...sick !
Tuesday, March 16, 2004 12:15 p.m.

Wow...what happened...I got up at normal time and was just dizzy as all get out...and my throat felt like it was on fire...and then I go back to sleep...and now I feel fine. weird!

AND...there is like a foot of snow outside... wtf??? Random day...

Anyhoo... yesterday...more pizza kookiness with Eunice...the new girl at work (Alissa) started...hahah EMily is all upset she's not the new girl anymore...

After work... headed out to Ikea with my Moms and Justin... and just got some random stuff... came home and practiced a little bit...then off to bed...

And here I am. Am I feeling weak because I'm not getting enough iron? What food has iron besides red meat and spinach ? Must investigate.

Anyhooo...I think I feel ok now...we'll see.

Yucky outside anyways.

anyone want to see "Mean Girls" ?
Monday, March 15, 2004 03:09 p.m.

Ok... Tina Fey (wrote it too) and Lindsay Lohan in the same movie !!!?!?!?

@_@

*faints from excitement.

I must see "Mean Girls"... my little crush on Lindsay Lohan is one thing...but Tina Fey is like my DREAM GIRL...

Smart, funny, sassy, irreverant, AND gorgeous... man. I love me some Weekend Update.

Go to moviefone.com to see a trailer of the movie.

Someone go with meeeeeeee.

allergies are arrrgh!
Monday, March 15, 2004 09:30 a.m.

SIgh... my nose feels like it's on fire... it's been a headachey migrainey week. Not a happy camper.

Friday... finished Plato/Socrates and now back on Writing Workshop...weird thing is...it's different from what I used to do...crap. Have to reformat everything?

Lunch with Doris at Grand Central...yucky falalafels...but we had a good time... sometimes I think she is insane...and then sometimes she seems supersane. Make up your mind girl!

Friday...killed some time after work...walked around...but ended up getting to NYU a bit early...Russ is still Russ... Karla came early too..and then we were joined by Lucyna, Dayna, and Garret... hahah so 3 asians! weird... anyways... everyone seems cool...we will add more people next time we meet... but it was good to have a workshop again...

Writers are all a little weird or insane...or both... and isn't it a scary thought when I am the most normal person in the room? Oh... feel the fear.

Saturday... did nothing but laundry... headachey and nauseous... stayed in bed or watched tv...couldn't make it to Grace's bday party... arrrgh... felt so bad...but splitting headache gave me yucky feeling...and Mylanta stopped me from throwing up a little in my mouth...hahahah.

Sunday... shlepped the Lucia off on her way... I have to admit...I'm used to being alone now...it was nice to have a little company...but I prefer to just have my territory all to myself... then family surprise... mom, alex, opher, and the family came over and we went to Harvet Buffet.

Oh man...good thing I stuck to fish... just had sushi mostly... didn't even attempt dessert... good boy!

Sowon, Sora and their family came with Jeremy ... weird seeing them there... and Sowon's mom... first time I seen them since their Dad passed... but they seemed like they were doing ok...Good to see them...let's try to get jobs!

Funny thing... lots of dreams about my little bro...first one... dreamt we were in some Terminator post-apocaIyptic kind of world and I was going to fight the POD guitarist... I grabbed him by the shoulders and was like "WHAT DID YOU SAY TO MY BROTHER?!??!" and I was gonna kick his ass. We are, weare...youth of the naaation. hahahah.

Then this morning... dreamt he was a baby again in one of those zip-up felt one piece baby suits and he was wriggling around and dancing in the garden. He was making all these cute faces and just doing his thing...it was pretty adorable.

It's been a weird week...I'm sure this week will be even weirder.

Another Monday...arrrgh. Other one was

poor doggies...
Friday, March 12, 2004 09:43 a.m.

Yeah...Emily and Sean's dogs... so sad... went to the dog park with Eunice and we sat around and looked at the doggies running around...this one Benji-looking one came over ...and I thought he wants to make friends ...but he turned around and started shoveling rocks at me... grrr ! But all the dogs were cute...I want one!

Stilll feeling headachey and weird...read in the paper that the pollen count has been especially high and that allergies are going to be bad early this year... wow...fascinating.

Just started reading "Life of Pi"...so far not too bad...doesn't really get good until page 35 or so.. if you like animals and um...religion...this book seems to deal with that...it's funny and light...weirdo premise...more on this later. Oh..Em swiped it from the display case and gave it to me...awww.

Anyhoo... went home and just watched tv and worked out on the GAHM... Survivor was GREAT...yeah... SHii Ann got rid of Colby! "Don't underestimate my power!" HAHHAHA...and the reward...wooooow.

Mad Mad House is great too... funny...and they got rid of the annoyingtubbydramaqueen...whew...

Doris calls me around midnight and starts singing " I just wanna uuuuse yooour looove tooooniiiight" ...hahah it's from "Josie"...that Outfield song I play when I do gigs... she said she was in a bar and it reminded her of me...awww. And she was like "I'm on Saturn!"...I was like...wow...she is BLOTTO...but it turns out she was at "McFaddens"...hahah ...that made my day.

Anyhooo... had another dream last night...I woke up in the middle of the night...but can't remember...most likely it was about an ex...and I'm sure there were giant robots involved...hmmm.

NYU writer's group tonight... hope it's less crazy than 3 years ago...but they're writers...they are all nuts.

Eeerily quiet in the office...where the heck is everyone? It's 10:00 !

Whew...another week goes by. TGIF.

Achooo.

what I need...
Thursday, March 11, 2004 04:18 p.m.

Just a moment to re-evaluate what I need...

In terms of girls... it's gotten dreary lately...no prospects and no one to like... unless something completely surprises me...

But the ideal...someone who is sweet but sassy...witty but not snotty... with a good sense of humor and can dish it out...but has a soft side also....who likes the idea of having a big family and bbqs and going to concerts and shows....someone with a creative streak....who just wants to soak in the universe.

I'm just looking for someone that is cool, who will take care of me when I need it...someone who thinks my music and writing is awesome...someone who can tell me good bedtime stories...a cuddler and a fighter too.

And someone who likes anime and foreign films. :P

Some hot girl...but level headed also. Who likes making out in the rain and all the cheesy cinematic stuff that is so easy to make happen...but so hard to make meaningful.

The ideal exists...but it changes.

Right now...someone who won't puke on my shoes would be good enough.

save me from myself!
Thursday, March 11, 2004 10:05 a.m.

Yes, to quote Evanescence...I need to get my act together.

I had a dream abotu Sam last night...so weird...I was in a Japanese high school...and I was teaching...and she came in...and she had dyed her hair red...and she kinda looked like Lindsay Lohan (whom everyone knows I have a crush on)...and we talked...

She was being snotty and elusive and I asked her.."So what happened"...and she said "I just got bored of you, I guess"...and I chased her through the school...

Weird thing is in real life...she told me she thought I was a Renaissance Man...and she thought I was interesting...and she liked me... well, until she disappeared on me.

Anyhooo...not gonna moan and groan anymore...just wanted to share my weirdo dreams.

Dreary Wednesday... more pizza with Eunice...yay. Her haircut really does look good on her.

Work on Iliad is over for now...back to Plato...I'm such a nerd.

Worried about Emily...she looks so tired and her dog is dying...and she left abruptly at 3 yesterday... wonder what is going on... poor girl. *UPDATE...turns out she had to put her dog to sleep...same as my other coworker on Monday... weird. But her boyfriend sent her flowers... oooh. I wish I had a girlfriend to send flowers to...but happy occassions!...

Oh yeah... I think I nailed the vocals for "pinioned"... I was screaming into a plastic cup to get the right tone for one part...hahahah it's a little more agressive now...hmmm.

More Futurama... I love this show.

Not much else... achey knees and headachey...but I carry on.

Love me! You know you want to.

SNU-SNU!!!!
Wednesday, March 10, 2004 09:35 a.m.

What a dreary and depressing day it was... Tuesday was more like BLUESday...har har...even my crappy jokes seem more crappy.

Work has been intense and mind numbing...editing some Iliad stuff and still stuck with Plato and Socrates... when am I going to get that done ? ARRRRGH.

Had lunch with the L at Comfort Diner...and sent her on her way to do ... who knows...she traipses through the city...good enough.

Was just plain old feeling crummy... went home to watch my Futurama Season 3 boxset...and it made it all better... "death by snu-snu!" hahahah amazon wimmins.

One episode got me all choked up... I usually laugh out loud at least once per episode...but this one had a twist ending... "Luck of the Fryish" (actually won an Emmy for wriitng) about Fry's past...and his brother Yancy who stole his moves, his style, his stuff... and his lucky clover...Basically, Fry finds out that Yancy stole his name (Philip) and his lucky clover (he hid it in a record sleeve...Breakfast Club soundtrack!) and goes on to be the first man on Mars... So Fry learns that his brother is buried in a hero's plot in a cemetery...along with the lucky 7 leaf clover... and he goes grave robbing !

He later finds on the tombstone ...that it's his nephew...not his brother. His brother Yancy, names his son Philip in honor of Fry... because he missed him so much... OH MAN... and then "Don't You Forget About Me" plays...as Fry those the clover back into his nephew's grave....with a tear in his eye...it sounds ridiculous...and it's a ridiculous show...but it got me at that moment...you have to see it to appreciate it.

Kinda sad how cartoons get me all worked up...

Oh well, I need some excitement in my life...

Poor Emily...her dog has cancer. :(

Another NYU suicide? Last week there was an article about the first 3 in Rolling Stone...I wonder...

Dreary day again... it't humpday...

But check out my NEW FLYER for next gig:

http://www.geocities.com/abechangrocks

One word: HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

and you shall know...
Tuesday, March 9, 2004 09:29 a.m.

the power and allure of anime! HAHAH I got Serena hooked on Kare Kano...she watched 10 episodes last night...hhahah. ONE OF US! ONE OF US !

Not much going on yesterday... quiet and no one around...just doing my work like a good lil boy.

Pizza with Eunice was the highlight of my day...as it should be. Someone pay her to be a philosopher! That's what she wants.

SO tired and run down lately... just went home in the dreary drizzle and watched TV... DIckie Roberts was pretty funny...even if it was a little uneven... hahah Serena reminds me of Alyssa Milano...dark hair, kinda cute, small...but a bitch. HAHHAHA.

Galaxy Angel...cuuuute! They are all named after desserts! Hot spacebabes... man...anime is my best friend sometimes...how sad is that?

Anyways... not much else going on...Lucia is around and running through the city...going to have lunch with her today...

It's only Tuesday ? crapola.

the Lucia.
Monday, March 8, 2004 09:37 a.m.

The Lucia is back in NY...my Dad took the clunker (the Olds he got from my uncle) to go with me to pick up Lucia at LGA. So, yeah... NYC better be on the look out for the next week or so.

We watched the Saint on TV...and man...that movie is more ridiculous now then when it was out like 10 years ago... in any case...someone stop Lucia from doing accents! jeebus. hhahha.

The L went to visit her friend in the city and I was planning on recording ...but caught up watching the Scare Tactics marathon on SciFI...that show is ridiculous... scare the crap outta you... some people were crying or were on the verge of tears in that show...

And Mad, Mad House...whoah...I'm gonna have to watch that now... is the vampire Asian? and the witch is HOT... and they have like 2 Christian people on it...they actually seemed pretty tolerant of the "freaks"...hahah "AVOCADO!"

Chris came over and we watched some hoops and the SOPRANOS season premiere...wow...it's been awhile. I love this show...next week's looks like it will have more action...but it's going to be a slow burn...setting up the chess pieces, if you will.

Ugh...Monday... must get cracking.

odd weekend stuffies...
Sunday, March 7, 2004 01:29 a.m.

Yup...early blogness for the weekend. I guess I'll start with the weird dream I had this morning.

I've been watching this anime called the Soultaker...to sum up...one of the plot points is that loved ones who have died have been resurrected...in any case...I had this dream that my grandfather was alive...and a lot younger and he was in this hotel room (in this weird 70sish style hotel that I have recurring dreams set in) and he waschillin with my waaay younger (and hotter) grandma. I looked him in the eyes and asked him "Are you really my grand pa...or are you a Flicker?" (Flickers were a fragment of the soul of one of the main characters...anime is wacky...) anyways...he said "Of coruse!" but he had a weird, crazy look a-brewing in his eyes. I knew he was a "Flicker"...

The sad part was...this little boy...who was my Dad...was curled at his feet and hugging them. He looked so cute and happy. It made me incredibly sad. I woke up feeling this immense sense of loss... of how much I missed my grandfather...and how much it must have affected my dad.

In any case, the lesson learned...don't fall asleep watching creepy anime.

Ok...other stuff...let's start with Saturday... rainy and sunny...and then rainy again...was planning to record...but ended up cleaning and heading home to help my mom with a few things. Went to the new cheapo drugmart by the bank and picked up some necessities... then Dad came home and we went to Ikea to return something.

The big news...the Acura is gone. The car that is older than Justin...the car that I learned to drive in...is no longer ours. We've got the 1986 Cutlass Cruiser from my uncle...and man...it has like 8,000 miles on it... THAT'S IT!...and it's in pretty good shape... gonna get it all pimped out.

Anyhooo... Costco for some more groceries and back to my place. Justin is such a weird kid...he's in the reading bee...he's representing Ryan! Reading "Paul Revere's Ride" in an intercity school competition...he's gotten so tall..but when I look at him...I still see my baby.

ok...back tracking..Friday...I worked like a DOG... finished edits on Psalms and the Book of Ruth units that we are doing for our World Lit program...and then that was it for the day...

Met up with Serena, her bro John, and his gfriend Ming... went to Dragonfly...this pan-asian restaurant...the food was ok...but the drinks were terrible.

Ming is a very odd girl...very entertaining...but I was waiting for her to snap and break my glasses... there is a story behind this...I'll just leave the mystery for now. And yeah...she and Serena took pics of ...everything we ate. Odd? Cute? Kinda both if you ask me.

John is actually really laid back and cool. He's in the Marines right now...and will be for awhile. He gets to go to Okinawa for the next year. Wow...that's got to be an adventure in the making.

And Serena...what can I say... she's still pretty similar to the girl I remember...she's definitely spunky, loud, and opinionated. She's pale and wears all black...hahaha... and is the mistress of the dark (that wears marshmallow pink shoes. But the thing that causes the greatest disconnect...is the fact that she has the cutest smile...and yet...the coldest, dead stare I've ever seen. Stone cold. Shazam.

She's a lot of fun... likes to yell and beat the tar out of me. I wonder if she gets tired? KAWAIII!

Desert at Rocco's and walked around the village for awhile...it was fun...a lot of hootin' and a-hollerin'...

Well, picking up Lucia tomorrow. She's going to be here for the week... I wonder if I'll actually see her for more than five minutes? Writer's group coming up, more mix downs, recording, gym, coming gig, and jury duty prep (hope I don't get it!)...hmmm...

Oh...weird psychic moment thing... guess who was on SNL...Colin Firth (star of a certain someone's favorite movie...and the root of many bad memories connected to this and that) and Nora Jones (a person that reminds me of you-know-who)...surprisingly...I was ok with all of this. I'm moving on...and damn it... some hot, sassy girl is going to come and bludgeon me and claim me as hers. I am da shiznat. Belieeeeve dat.

And how cool is the Teen Titans cartoon? Man...it's totally anime style...great action, good jokes, cute babes...STARFIRE!!! and a catchy theme song by Puffy Ayumi. Cannnot wait for the DVDs.

More on Monday... must prep for the Lucia...meaning, tinme for sleep.

Gimme some sugah. I need it.

ANSWERS !!!!
Friday, March 5, 2004 09:43 a.m.

The madness ends. Thank you, Eunice.

http://www.iamnafets.com/index.php?password=&version=4&page=rag&company=&go=Add

Friday...woot.
Friday, March 5, 2004 09:53 a.m.

I need a new job! I'm getting pummeled...I'm mentally exhausted by the end of the day...all the research and writing...it gets pretty intense...imagine having to write a research paper...EVERYDAY...that's pretty much what it's like...churning out hundreds of pages a week...man.

Had Taco Bell with Emily...that girl can eat! She's off to Cape Cod until Tuesday...I think she went with her sister...though she could have gone with the guy...I don;t ask...she don't tell...let's keep it that way.

JUst went home and worked out on the "great American Hump Machine" that is my weirdo exercise bike thing...watched Survivor...I think Sue was overreacting... and the Apprentice...no more Omorosa !!! YEAH !!!

Other than that...not much else...uneventful Thursday... but hey...it's Friday now...dinner with Serena, her bro, and bro's gfriend...

TGIF.

ya know it, suckers!

ARRRRGH! Corporate logo game!
Thursday, March 4, 2004 10:40 p.m.

This game is driving me mad... sick thing is the guy who made it charges $4 bucks PER HINT. GRRRR.

help.

http://www.joeykatzen.com/alpha/ver4/

turn and face the strange...
Thursday, March 4, 2004 09:52 a.m.

What I desperately need in my life is some major changes. In terms of what I want to do with my life...this job that is sapping my spirit ...must go. I need to pay off my mountains of debt... and I need to get this stupid CD recorded! And whatever happened to my writing career? I'm making babysteps ...in the right direction...but there is only so much I can do in a day...

So... I'm taking care of my finances ... and working on the CD every day... and the NYU writing group that I'm starting should help give me a kick in the pants... other than that... I'm waiting for the thunder and lightning. Anyone got a winning lottery ticket that they want to give me ?

Work was work... went home tired and a little pissed off. Worked on some new mixdowns...I'm getting the hang of it... I think some of the songs are actually... done...and that means...no more noodling...it's pretty good as it is...I'm just being hypercritical...and I need to LET IT GO. I ain't no professional...no musical training besides 2 years of piano...sheesh...what do you want from me ?!?!?

Ok... anyways...my mom came over and surprised me with a buttload of groceries...I think she feels bad that I have like an empty fridge all the time and all I eat is tuna. HAHHA... but that's part of the Lent thing I'm doing...fishies! But she brought me REAL fish...so...I love my Mommy. I'm man enough to say it.

Other than that... just trying to get things in order. The little things are what makes life great...and what makes it so hard sometimes too.

Happy Thursday to you, my dear.

mini-psychic moment.
Wednesday, March 3, 2004 1:49 p.m.

Had a fish fillet for lunch...haven't had one in like YEARS...and I thought of Doris while I had it (cause she likes them.)

Guess what she had for dinner last night ?

Sheesh...just let me have some fun ! It's stupid...but I think it's cute.

no words...
Wednesday, March 3, 2004 09:38 a.m.

Got some bad news yesterday about Doris' family. Her cousin was killed in a car accident. What can you say at a time like this? Her family has been through so much recently... there really aren't any words. I'll be there for her...and I will be praying. Please do so as well if you are so inclined.

It seems silly to blog about the stupid things in my life now...but isn't that what life is about...the little moments that you take for granted... so my daily chronicling...is a testament to those little things. Life goes on. People live, love, get hurt, and keep going.

Not much happened yesterday...besides getting some School of Rock and new Get Up Kids ...both well...rocked.

Work has been hectic and will continue to be so... hencefoth...I must look elsewhere...anyone hear of any editorial openings?

Lucia is coming! Jeebus...this Sunday...haven't seen her in months and months.It will be good to have the L around again.

Did some more mixdowns... problem with the "boomy bass" factor...arrrgh. Have to keep tweaking knobs. sigh.

I was telling Emily how Doris and Eunice were myy Sex and the City gals... Doris is Carrie, Eunice is Charlotte (no, layers don't make you look like a cabbagehead!) ...which makes me Miranda.... but we have no Samantha.... sometimes I hate being one of "the girls" ... I'm a jerky guy deep down...I just have that other side of me around more often.

Can't help thinking about the bad things that happen to my friends... this thing...one friend with Lupus, one with Hep B, Gloria having to be in the hospital with the appendix thing... Man, some bad mojo around. Lord, bless and keep us.

Gloria sounds better and she's recupperating at home... she can even eat solid foods now. HAHAH.

Other than that...life is precious. Even these bad moments... we still have the potential to change, to be better, to learn about grace and mercy.

Take care, kiddies.

WINNNAH!!!!!
Tuesday, March 2, 2004 09:40 a.m.

Ok... well...I am $105 richer since I won the office pool AGAIN! Two years in a row ! Thanks to LOTR and some obvious front runners...and the luck I had with some of the smaller awards... wooot !

I had the oddest dream...really detailed...won't go into much...but the gist of it... I was in some FAME type of music school...went with my family to some weird place in Boston...was playing this large black grand piano.and since I'm supposed to be going to some music school...you'd think I be good...but no, I suck. ..and this little fat Chinese lady with a British accent comes over with the butler ...old white guy...balding muttonchops, little glasses...and he's supposed to clean the piano...and apparently he was a former movie star or something...and the lady goes to my family "for your information...this famous person...doesn't know what he's doing!" ...and he comes out with a tupperware bowl of water (dirty spaghetti sauce water!) and goes.."huh?" ...and I wake up.

Anyhooo...my day off was very productive... I did laundry...and did a MAJOR mixdown of most of the songs I recorded..."pinioned" is going to need new vocals" and "reverie" needs a touch up...but I'm going to have to learn to let go...because I can't spend all thsi time trying to clean up little mistakes. I need to move forawrd and start new things... and make new mistakes. HA!

Reva called me during the day...to yell at me about stupid men... she knew I was home and stuff... she's a kooky karacter!

And man...Average Joe got me all upset...I thought...man...that is so me... I always get rejected in the end...I never get the girl...and BWAHAHAH the tables are turned! (She dated FABIO! hahah but she gave that away on the Tonight Show)...man...if I was that dude...I'd be like..."FABIO ?!?!? I'll show you some real lovin'!" what a cheesehead....in the end she drops her whole "proper" demeanor...and gets rejected..."this sucks, this sucks so bad." ...hahah she was gorgeous...I mean GORGEOUS...but really... come on. what a marooooon.

And a litle Emily news...she was like " I realized yesterday, that when you weren't here...I missed you." ...riiight. And I gave her a hug at Dunkin' DOnuts cause she was acting all bitchy today...hahha... she just doesn't want me to leave this company...but I'm gonna go...soon as I can.

New Get Up Kids and School of Rock today...woooo... and I got 105 in my pocket... can you dig it ???

I knew that you could.

Archived! ...and playing hooky ?
Monday, March 1, 2004 12:40 a.m.

Well...I *could* go to work tomorrow. I'm not all that sick...but I admittedly do not feel 100 percent...been feeling sinusheadachey and bodyachey lately... anyways...I'm worn out.... I need a sick day.

Anyhooo... here's the rundown... not much going on really.

Friday... LOADS of work and meetings...didn't even have lunch until like...3. And just not feeling all that great. Weird mood swings lately...and too much time to ponder on the things that have gone bad the past 2 years or so...shake it off, champ!!! Went to drop some choco off for Eunice....just cause she makes things better. And she got the new hair cut...have to see it again!

Saturday... not much going on...Just chilling at home and "finished" Kare Kano...arrrgh! What a crap ending! Now I have to buy manga to see how it ends...arrrgh!

Alex, Justin and the family came over for lunch and some Spy Kids 3D action... I've been feeling worn out...so I crashed and took a major nap. Much needed, thank you.

TV... and that's it...I know...not very productive.

Sunday... went to city...was going to try to go to church...but gave up because I didn't want to wander around aimlessly trying to find where they moved. I'll email the pastor and see where those Anglicans have gone ! HAHAHAH I love British people...

Anyways...so I wander around and I get the Freaky Friday soundtrack...and the Superchunk DVD !!! Everyone knows that Superchunk is my all time favorite band...next to Afghan WHigs...ao this DVD has been a long time in the making...and I'm gonna watch the F**K out of it ! I can't wait ! CHUNK!

...and then I go and find the "Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen" soundtrack...ok...I have a problem. I have a crush on Lindsay Lohan who is 10 YEARS YOUNGER THAN ME ! It's the red hair (I have an admitted thing for redheads) and the TALENT...she is so talented... but it's weird since I remember her in the Parent Trap...and she was like 10 and I thought "that little girl is AMAZING!"...and now she's like HOT. OK...I have problems.

Anyhoo...I was thinking about going to church anyways at the last minute...or going to meet Grace a little earlier...and just as I am about to get on the train and finally decide (leaning more towards meeting Grace...) people start streaming out and someone says "fire, explosion, or bomb"...and I cram into a bus and head to Chelsea.

So...turns out that on the news...a homeless man threw a piece of metal on the third rail at W4th...(where I was!) and the sparks ignited trash on fire... I actually thought it might have been the homeless guy at my "work train station"...I see him and he pees on the tracks (avert your eyes) ...like a racehorse, mind you... and he also throws trash onto the tracks...but the description on the news didn't sound like him.

SO...I get a cup o' joe at Starbucks and kill some time. I meet up with Grace at El Cid for tapas and sangria (both were eh...) and proceeded to get quite buzzed. Man, I am such a lightweight...and also keep in mind, I haven;t been feeling all that great.

Needless to say...I babble on all night...And Grace gets frustrated with me...because of the girl situation...but in any case... she gets it. It's hard to find a girl for me...since I am weird and atypical and it takes someone cut from the same cloth to get me...

Also the whole concept of "I would date him/her but ____" when it comes to friends of opposite genders...you know? When you are close to someone and you obviously have stuff in common...so what keeps you from being together...if you are both single? I think it';s the X factor...there is something that you don't like and they don't like about you...something that is so intrinsically important...that unless it changes...there is no way.

Grace was like..."I want my friends to be platonic."

She's had some bad experience in the past...but anyways... I think that timing is important, that there are things that need to be resolved "on your own" before you can be good for someone else. Hence, Abe is in "betterment" land at the moment. I can't be good for someone else unless I can be good to myself first. And honestly, I need to be taken care of... I can't take care of another nutbag right now. So if anybody has got it together and wants to take care of a pudgy, romantic, idealistic, creative doofus...I'm your man. Oh man...I make myself sound horrible. :(

Anyhoo...had a nice dinner with Grace... man...she just gets more beautiful every time I see her ... PLATONIC! Sheesh. Her bday is March 10th...she's got some friends...hmmm. And she's going to run the San Diego marathon in the summer...wow. She's an impressive girl. That girl is a definite catch... sigh.

Anyhooo... trying to get home to catch the end of the Oscars...and the trains are all messed up...had to take 3 trains and almost 2 hours of commuting to get home...and YAY...LOTR... and hopefully I win the Oscar Pool...I got a LOT on the mark...woooo.

And Reva...that boy is kookookuhrazeee. You deserve better. Keep the sugar hidden! Polyphonic Spree? Oh man... robes do not flatter the bodaciousness!

OH YEAH...was feeling creative in the afternoon and ...I think I'm done with HALF the album! Just need to mix down..and I'll have like 6-8 songs DONE...so if I can finishe the next batch...it will be finished by May-June...or before...and then...the world is my oyster...hahahah...delusions of grandeur.

Wow...glad I archived. For a quiet weekend...I had a lot to say. It's probably the sangria talking.

Suckers gotta work! :P