someone needs a vacation...
Friday, August 20, 2004 09:18 a.m.

Wow...been here a month and I already feel burnt out...yesterday was another whirlwind day of getting loads of crap done. I hope that the new pub. plan for next year will be more streamlined and that things will not be so insane...it's weird coming here and in the middle of the craziness.

Got some disposable type clothes for the trip ...Old Navy, of course...

Eric was home...and he brought his friend James...he actualyl looks younger now...haven't seen James in awhile..

Shelb came over and we watched some of the Olympics...packed some more...and was just spent... of course...Eric ordered pizza.

Well...tonight is definitely going to be interesting...Jen is getting married. The first girl I ever really had feelings for (be it...high school puppy love) is getting hitched. I'm not sure if those feelings will resurface... but very, highly unlikely. But sentimental idiot that I am...who knows what I might say with a couple of drinks in me?

In any case, Doris will be with me...so I won't heve to endure sitting at the table with all of my married high school friends...sheesh. Am I behind the curve or are they just insanely ahead? Are any of them going to end in divorce? (Check with the blog a few years from now...)I still feel like I have a million things I want to do before I get married...a girlfriend...I can deal with...and I probably need one too.

So...I'm going to wrap up pre-vacation stuff here, head home, get stuff ready...go see Jen get married and then leave and forget everything for a week...

Not sure when I'll be talking to you again... but don't be jealous. It's only the Bahamas.

TGIF! God is good, kiddies.

booyakashaa!
Thursday, August 19, 2004 09:04 a.m.

Wow...major, major stress at work...I'm not going to be able to get this stuff done before I leave. No way, no how...people need to get back to me... man, it's weird... a month ago...I didn't have this much decision making power...I'm getting used to it...but I really don't want it. I'd rather be off in my happy little corner and be writing...but alas, they pay me more.

Ok...wedding... Doris is going with me. End of story.

Home...just exhuasted beyond exhausted...comic books and DVDs make me happy... Conan makes me happy. Ali G makes me go "boooyakasha!"...respeck.

Started packing last night...as wont as I am to do...I'm sure I overpacked...I always do this... pack and re-pack...I'm such a little bitch sometimes.

In any case, I am especially tired...and dreaming about work...I dreamt that I had to put in a translation of glyphs and runes found on the Liberty Bell...into the books I'm working on...I woke up and went ..."wait, I'm doing a math book...why would I need translations?" ...instead of "WTF ?!?!? Weird characters on the Liberty Bell???"...yes, dreams segue into my life.

Ok...things with Oasis (The studio that will press my CD) have been settled! The technical side is all a-ok...so I just need to do my part...finish up "scent of you" ...get the art and text together...and then... "lo-fi is chic." will be done!!!!

But first...wedding...and vay-k.

Abe's ready for a holiday.

Dudez-A-Plenti!
Wednesday, August 18, 2004 09:05 a.m.

Oh man...work was hectic, HECTIC! Not going to get into it or I'm going to flip out. On top of that...more stress about the wedding...since neither Doris nor Eunice is going on vacation...so who is going with me? ARRRGH.... at this point...maybe I should go alone...but Jen called last night and wanted to know who she should put down for the place card.

Anyhoo...DVDs release stress...ahhhh...and since I got paid...I don't feel so bad in terms of indulging. SO...I went home and watched my Conan O'Brien dvds all night...Dudez-A-Plenti was still awesome...and the Triumph at SW:AOTC premiere was hilarious...and kind of sad.

Sent out pics to SoWon and Jeremy to see if they can use those for CD cover ideas. I've got half a song left! Just need vocals and drums...and the final mixdown...and "lo-fi is chic." is done. woooooo!

Must pack. Must get clothes ready for wedding. Must scream.

urrrgh...I could actually sleep in...
Tuesday, August 17, 2004 09:00 a.m.

I've been getting to work like 10-20 mins. early...ugh! I need to time my commute a little better.

Anyways, yes...I had to move cubes...and yes...I'll probably be moving again in a few weeks... this isn't filling me with confidence nor do I feel particularly comfortable. In any case...even if I am in a smaller cube for the next few months...it's nicer than it was at HRW.

I'm like a block away from Ktown...but I decided to go shopping and get bourbon chicken...heh.

Home...tired... cleaned up a little. Played some Unreal II, watched some anime...and passed out.

Oh...also took some pics to send to Sowon so she can start work on the CD art...need to work on the inlay text also...urrrgh...I should worry about finishing the last song...

And...I'll be playing the AMPLIFIED show at the SIlk Road Cafe (teabagopenmic.com) on October 2nd...who knows...maybe the CD will be done by then?

Oi...that turtle is noisy.

A few days left...then wedding and Bahamas. You wanna come ?

uncertainty really sucks.
Sunday, August 15, 2004 09:16 p.m.

Let's have a recap...since Monday will probably be nuts.

Friday: Got to the new office and man...the place was a wreck...but it has the potential to look really nice...to make a long story short...there is a very high possibility that I will have to switch out of my cube...which I love... (it's pretty new and just huge) but because of poor planning and people bitching about their working area... there is a good chance that I'm going to go into a crappy space...yet again...it's not for certain...but there is a high probablility because I am the new kid on the block. All in all...they are not doing a good job of making me feel very welcome or wanted at the moment...and more insult to injury: my direct deposit still hasn't gone through...if my bank account is still empty tomorrow...oh man...I am gonna go bonkers. A lot of stuff was revealed...saw a lot about my co-workers revealed...

Heather...I forgot to blog about this...we might work together...so they ok'ed a lunch for us...man...that was expensive...and we had a good talk...she's a little high strung...so am I...so I think we would work well together. Packed and left at 2:30 on Thursday...sweet. On the way home...stopped by a pet store and got to hold a Torkie...oh man... 9 months old and sooo cute. I am in love with Yorkies...I want to get Justin one for his bday...but who knows. they are adorable...but at the same time...they can be boyish...hmmm.

In any case, left at 1... went home and picked up Justin to go see AVP...which was GREAT...the beginning was a little slow...but all in all... pretty cool ...saw the movie, ate, went and took Justin around...home for dinner and just passed out.

Saturday: gt up and went to Flushing...dreaded place of all places... for big arse lunch with the whole family ...plus others... trying to convince Nina that a semester abroad is just a once in a lifetime chance...my time in London changed my life and my view of the world...and if Nina has the chance to go...she should take it. Allthe kids came over...and we watched tv and played games...watched Kill Bill 2 and Love, Actually...a great movie for the most part...but toooooo loose...needed to be a bit tighter with all the subplots tying in together... and ugh...the dreaded, dreaded Colin FIrth...ugh...

Sunday: Man, I am so tired... got up and went to Georgia Diner with all the kids for LuLu's b-day...I can't believe she is a teenager now... I remember holding her when she was a chubby,fat baby...and when she'd play with Justin...they were so cute together.they still are...but bigger. Had lunch...came home and Justin hung out with Chris while I had a much needed nap... just completely wiped out. and oh yeah...we are taking care of LuLu's turtle while she goes to China with her folks. And it's a noisy turtle...dang rocks.

So much to do this week! Jen's wedding...need to get some stuff together for the album...and then...off to the Bahamas! And not to mention all the stuff I have to do for work ! ARRRGGH !

I don't want to go to work tomorrow...but I need to. I hobe the cube thing gets settled soon...and I get paid...I'll be happy then...if not...expect a grumpy blog ! ARRRGH!

And oh yeah...I still need a nice girl in my life.

booyakasha.

TCB-Takin' Care of Business.
Thursday, August 12, 2004 09:22 a.m.

Ok...had a minor flip out at work yesterday. It's just ridiculous to expect me to edit and write 500 pages of manuscript/page proof in less than three weeks...and I let them know that. They had like 3-4 people giving me stuff and they were not aware of my work load already...for goodness sakes...I don't even know the names of all the people here, haven't been paid yet, don't even have a decent desk...so...after talking with Michelle...my best friend...and Adriana, our newly appointed Exec. Editor...things were settled...and chaos was quelled back in her loathsome pit...hahahah how poetic!

So after a long day...broken up by a very odd discussion with Eunice about how "we only do the things you want to do!" ...basically, if you or I want to do something and you are agreeable and we have time...then of course! I love you honey! But sometimes Eunice wants to do things and I can't make it...whether physically impossible (going to Times Square for lunch is too far from 38th and 1st at the moment) or seeing Farenheit 9/11 (I wanted to...but I couldn't make it that day...and she never asked me about it after) or if I am just too darn stressed out (like yesterday) and I can't think clearly... then sorry... But I will try to come into the city more often on weekends...if it will help...sigh...it's like having a girlfriend with none of the "benefits".... HAW !!! I LOVE YOOOoOoOooOOU!!!

After work...it was POURING...but Jennie Choe was in town and we met up at LEMON for drinks. She's changed...she's trying to be more open and liberal...and kept saying that people thought she dressed like a prostitute??? Um...Jennie...you look like a sweet girl with a satiny shirt...and a CARDIGAN over it...no mistaking that. In any case, she's doing well, law school...and other big changes.

Then we went to KENKA for mor efood and drink...and guess who was there... GLORIA!!! It was so funny because I was just thinking about her today because I hadn't seen her online in awhile. She was sitting at the bar with Hiedy and her other friend Susan...which happened to be the anime freak friend she talked to me about...very funny.

Then Jennie's friend Suzanne came to meet us... ok...wow. SO CUTE! She's an event planner...so basically THE party girl. What a cool job. Anyhooo...we got a long really well...she loves Brit pop and the Smiths! OH MAN... hahah we all had a nice long chat...and it turns out she is single...hmmmm.

Jane came to join us and we had more food and drink...by this time I had a good 5 drinks in me...and I was pretty buzzed... but needless to say...we had a good time.

This is where it gets funny...we go to Suzanne's apartment...right by stomp...because she wants to give me an underwater camera she got from National Geographic...she knew I was going to the Bahamas (poor Chris will be home all alone! He's my guard dog.)... and she has a dog named KUMA ("bear" in Japanese) a cute, cute, white chihuaua...she basically picks him up and plops him in my arms...dogs and babies love me...

So then...Suzanne brings out the outfits. She knits and sews all these outfits for KUMA...it was really funny and cute... I was dying...and Kuma then bit Jane...HAW!

It was a really good time...I miss Jennie alot...we get a long great...and I wish she was back in NY...out of all of Romana's friends...she is the sweetest.

and Suzanne is cute...and she gave me a CAMERA...a CAMERA! How cool is that?

Home...drunk...sleeep.

Moving day! I am outta here and on to better digs.

was in a bad mood... ok now?
Wednesday, August 11, 2004 09:20 a.m.

ARRRGH...the little things add up to become big things...and the big things make everything look so small.

Please pray for one of Doris' friends... can't really give out details...but it's very, very serious.

Work was hectic again...did the bulk of editing on one project... 71 pages of ms...all edited...plus charts. And I did it all in 3 days...that's crazy. Some last minute touch ups and it should be good to go.

Went to Best Buy and Target to pick up a few things...got overcharged and had to go all the way back...and bought the wrong thing...arrrgh! In any case... trying to let the little things go...hey...I got a brick of sopa for 5 bucks and shampooooooo. It's all very necessary.

Home...trying to relax...anime just does it...how would I sleep without anime ? I have no idea.

One thing that I keep forgetting to mention...I think it's hilarious when Chris goes "WHAT THE CRAP ?!?" ...it's just funny the way he says it.

Talked to Romana for the first time in ages...a lot of major changes...but I think it's the right step for her. E-mailed Sunny and Jennie to say hi...turns out Jennie is in NY this week...great...thanks for calling me. :P Might hang out with her tonight.

Oh...before I forget...a quick note about a scene in the novel: "You're supposed to leave a note!" Yes, cryptic to you...but it's what makes the whole chapter...must...write...down...before I...forget!

other than that..work and more work. Getting ready for the move. Anyone want to see Alien VS Predator ? AVP !!!!

Mouse-y!
Tuesday, August 10, 2004 09:15 a.m.

Wow...what a hectic Monday it was. Work was fast and furious and I edited as fast as my lil' red number 2 could take me...

met Doris for lunch at Grand Central for some ok Indian food. The best I've had is still the stuff I had in London...and the places on Lex and near me are still decent. Doris did me a huge favor by lending me some cash before the rent check hits...I haven't been paid yet...and it's been three weeks here...and with all the concerts, upcoming weddings, vacation, and my anime addiction...it takes a toll...so Friday... I should get extra big paycheck for my three week tenure here.

After work...went to Ktown and met up with Elaine...turns out she has a new boyfriend...and they've already gone to Belize together! WTF ?!?!? I'm not worried...sincee Elaine is the crazy one in all this...but man, isn't it about time I had someone that I could just up and go away with? Man, this time last year I was dating around like a fiend... now...I'm just bored, tired, and trying to work...and oh yeah, the CD.

Anyhooo...off to Modest Mouse...they had one of THE WORST opening acts I've ever heard..."french toast"...my goodness...some good drumming..but the vocals were terrible. TERRIBLE...Modest Mouse was amazing...they sounded just...wow...better than on record...just the musicianship and the arrangements...at one point...Brock-y sang into his guitar! I've heard that guitar pickups can pick up sound...but this was the first time I've ever seen anyone actually do it...wow...gotta try it.

They played a lot of my fave older songs and the new album... and "Float On"...(the sellout !) got a big welcome from the dumb frat dudes who showed up because of the one song... urrrgh...

We were old and sat in the mezzanine...eating popcorn and drinking...elaine got trashed on half a cup of champagne...dang. Plus...she looked positively like an island girl with the tan she got. cute. and crazy.

Oh...one weird thing... this girl sitting inf ront of me ...I was like "hey, that looks like Sunjoo>" but she was waaay taller... turns out that SUnjoo went to see Modest Mouse on Sunday ! WEIRD!

We acted gay and got matching MM buffalo t-shirts...we will have to wear them together one day. that would be the gayest.

Speaking of gay...Mark had his interview here yesterday...the big fruitcup may have scared people away...I'll have to ask around.

I am so beat...tons of work...the move...all this stuff.

But all I want is to be loved, is that so wrong?

Shut up, you big dork.

busy and productive...
Sunday, August 8, 2004 10:11 p.m.

I'm kind of dreading going into work because I know it's going to be pretty busy and hectic with the stuff I have to do before the move and before my vacation...so I'll just blog about the weekend now...

Friday: Gotta love those half day Fridays! Working on the Texas book...I've got a bit of a ways to go before I'm gonna be done with that...and I'm sure other things will pop up before I get it done... oh well. Anyhoo... decided to go see "The Village" and met up with Eunice in her new neighborhoood... across the street from Bryant Park...still rife with bad memories... but eh... in any case...we went to the Loews and had some Shamalamadingdong jolts... it was an ok movie... but I would recommend waiting for it on video... some good moments...but I hate the way he edits the film...and honestly...I guessed the "twist" before I even saw a fram of film...I mean, I was hoping I was wrong...but nah...it's not about the twist...but about the storytelling...and it was...eh.

Eunice poked me in the eye and beat me up... deservedly so? NO!!!!!! aiiiieeeee !!! We walked around Times Square a little and went to the comics store... I was home by 730...and played video games...recorded an acoustic/live version of "reverie" and other random things...

Saturday: more cleaning up...watching TV...went out to pick up my guitar from Sam Ash for repairs...and just chilled... did another few takes of "reverie" and just decided on a tad aggressive....but vocals were too soft...take...but the guitar sounded perfect...eh... I just want to get working on "scent of you"...

Sunday: Got up kinda late...I need to make it to church sometime soon...no more excuses! ARRRGH! had a crik in my neck...ugh... and didn't do much besides clean up and mixdown "reverie"...my aunt and uncle stopped by...and I worked on some CD art concepts...sowon and jeremy will probably end up doing the cover for me...we'll see how things go. And that's pretty much the weekend...

Caught "Six Feet Under" and this show is overrated...ugh... too much drama (yes, I know...it's a show) but it doesn't seem organic and seems forced and contrived...and OMG Michelle Trachtenberg... she's too young to be doing stuff like this...ugh. Harriet! Dawn! NoOoOOoOO!

Modest Mouse with Elaine tomorrow...but um...she still hasn't called me back...where is she exactly? She better get back soon... arrrgh!

Sigh...I might go to sleep early... I'm just beat and I need to catch up on sleep.

busy and productive...
Sunday, August 8, 2004 09:59 p.m.

I'm kind of dreading going into work because I know it's going to be pretty busy and hectic with the stuff I have to do before the move and before my vacation...so I'll just blog about the weekend now...

Friday: Gotta love those half day Fridays! Working on the Texas book...I've got a bit of a ways to go before I'm gonna be done with that...and I'm sure other things will pop up before I get it done... oh well. Anyhoo... decided to go see "The Village" and met up with Eunice in her new neighborhoood... across the street from Bryant Park...still rife with bad memories... but eh... in any case...we went to the Loews and had some Shamalamadingdong jolts... it was an ok movie... but I would recommend waiting for it on video... some good moments...but I hate the way he edits the film...and honestly...I guessed the "twist" before I even saw a fram of film...I mean, I was hoping I was wrong...but nah...it's not about the twist...but about the storytelling...and it was...eh.

Eunice poked me in the eye and beat me up... deservedly so? NO!!!!!! aiiiieeeee !!! We walked around Times Square a little and went to the comics store... I was home by 730...and played video games...recorded an acoustic/live version of "reverie" and other random things...

Saturday: more cleaning up...watching TV...went out to pick up my guitar from Sam Ash for repairs...and just chilled... did another few takes of "reverie" and just decided on a tad aggressive....but vocals were too soft...take...but the guitar sounded perfect...eh... I just want to get working on "scent of you"...

Sunday: Got up kinda late...I need to make it to church sometime soon...no more excuses! ARRRGH! had a crik in my neck...ugh... and didn't do much besides clean up and mixdown "reverie"...my aunt and uncle stopped by...and I worked on some CD art concepts...sowon and jeremy will probably end up doing the cover for me...we'll see how things go. And that's pretty much the weekend...

Caught "Six Feet Under" and this show is overrated...ugh... too much drama (yes, I know...it's a show) but it doesn't seem organic and seems forced and contrived...and OMG Michelle Trachtenberg... she's too young to be doing stuff like this...ugh. Harriet! Dawn! NoOoOOoOO!

Modest Mouse with Elaine tomorrow...but um...she still hasn't called me back...where is she exactly? She better get back soon... arrrgh!

Sigh...I might go to sleep early... I'm just beat and I need to catch up on sleep.

almost done!
Friday, August 6, 2004 09:17 a.m.

Man, this week went by fast and...also kind of slow...I got another new project yesterday...Texas test prep stuff...oh geez.

Had lunch with Doris again...she's tan...and her hair loook really good when it's down. We were watching the Perfect Proposal on TLC...ugh...I can think of a better one.

Just went straight home after work...plain old pooped. Final mixdowns on "on the brink"...and it's done! Cleared from the hard drive and I'm ready to do an acoustic version of "reverie" and then the hardest one..."scent of you" would be next... after that...it's putting the tracks in order...getting the text and art ready...then off to the studios for pressing. All in all...I should have everything out and done hopefully in October...finally!

Funny thing is..the senior ed I'm working for, Daryl, mentioned that I should check out the Sidewalk Cafe and some other places to paly...but he asked me if I would be playing Teabag open mic again...I said "probably not"..the only way I would play is if they invited me to do the AMPLIFIED showcase where they have the best and pro-musicians play...guess what...I got invited!

it would be for the September show...and I'd have a 30 minute set... with 3 other musicians playing their sets also...singer/songwriter showcase... I'd love to do it...but if it's on Labor Day Weekend...I'll be in DC at Sabs wedding...oh well...maybe October?

Anyhooo...that's that...half-day Fridays! gotta love it.

"that's hot."
Thursday, August 5, 2004 09:17 a.m.

oh, Paris Hilton....I think she is an innocent pawn in Nicole Richie's insane quest for...who knows what. I still think Paris is hot...even if she isn't very bright and is shallow...ok...I'm just being superficial. :P

Work was pretty darn hectic...had to finish up stuff and pack it away...little did I realize...there was an entire book I hadn't even looked at...lucky for me...changes to the other book I mad could be carried over...so it was an intense 2-3 hours...but I got everyhting packed up and shipped. Hopefully the place we outsourced the design to won't F-it up too bad.

Had lunch with Christine! She called me out of the blue and we went to a random sushi place for tonkatsu...she's translating more Korean man-wha for CPM...dang...no free anime stuff for her, and by extension...none for me either. :( But I did get to see her ring...woooo!

After work... went home to find my baby there ! My baby is getting big...he's gonna be taller than Chris one day...and his voice is getting deeper and deeper...Alex was there too...he might go to Canada with my folks and Justin to pick up my grandma.

Played Halo and other Xbox games with them...dang...those kids are vicious...and Chris just plain sucks. :P

Other than that...not much else...haven't heard from Liz in awhile (Boston friend)...wonder how she is...and where is Elaine ???

Ok...meeting in a few... figure out what's going on here.

2 years and counting...
Wednesday, August 4, 2004 09:26 a.m.

I surprised myself...I didn't even notice what the date was until after work...2 years since it all came crashing down...and I forgot about it for almost the whole day...I guess that's a sign that I'm getting better? I saw her first name in print in two different places yesterday... isn't that weird...it's a pretty unusual name...in any case... I've been busy with so many changes...that I'm glad I can go about my business and not be too affected by it. Who knows how I'll react... I've gotten so much colder and steely these past years...but I'm still the moody bitch you all know and love. Send me your prayers and well wishes...because I'm coming out of her shadow.

In any case, I'm glad that Chris is living with me. Just having him around makes me feel a little less lonely...and we don't really get on each others nerves very often *knock on wood... so things have been good in that aspect...as for financially...I still haven't gotten paid yet ... not until the 15th...and apparently I forgot abotu Holt's payroll schedule and miscalculated... so I got paid for my vacation days...but not another paycheck...eeep.

I got Mark an interview here...who knows what will happen...and Emily...still holding out...why won't she join us? ONE OF US ! ONE OF US!

Home...so tired...ate...watched tv..."Dreamcatcher" was on...and it is literally the worst movie I have ever seen. I saw it with Wendy (remember her???) back when it came out because she wanted to see the Animatrix segment before the movie... and I remember laughing outloud because the movie was so ridiculous...basically... "stand by me" meets psychic powers meets assmonster aliens meets military conspiracy meets bad British accents meets mentalydisabled kidturningintotigermonster alien.... all of that is in the movie...and more!

and Eunice and Doris went to see "Harold and Kumar.." without me! I wonder if that's the first time they've been out without me...awww...I'm kinda jealous...but happy too...see, that's me being a moody bitch! They are both my babies though.

"On the Brink" is basically done..did a few mixdowns and they turned out better than I thought...a few more tonight and then...on to an acoustic version of "reverie" and...the last one "scent of you"... and voila... the hard part is done.

wednesday...wow...this week is flying... back to the grind.

stiff fingers...
Tuesday, August 3, 2004 09:14 a.m.

Ok...Monday was back in full throttle mode... getting pages and pages just edited and away. Taking care of meetings and making some decisions...which I'm not really used to doing. I'm more "afraid of power"...than "sick with power"...if you know what I mean.

went over to Doris' to have lunch...it's nice to watch tv in the middle of the day and have a meal...it was "afternoon deelightful"... haw!

Home...tried to finish up the drum bits for "on the brink"...but my hand is really jacked up... three blisters and now today they are stiff... urrrgh. made me and chris a bunch of pseudo-mexican food... it was good...and I am delirious.

I leave for work earlier now...and I get home later...bummer. But Fridays...oooh. Gotta love the half days. As long as it isn't boiling hot.

And news that Reva is coming to NYC ...in April... sigh...

2 more days of the heat and humidity and then it gets better. Hang in there. Orange alert...Lord, protect us.

I love NYC. Leave us alone!

the CURE for what ails you...
Sunday, August 1, 2004 10:00 p.m.

I'm just beat...and I have four blisters on my right hand...will explain after the recap:

Friday: AHHHH gotta love the summer hours. Went in and did my four hours of editing and admin stuff I needed to take care of...and was out of there. It was hot and muggy and I just ended up staying in watching Hellboy...which was pretty dang awesome...and playing Xbox. Not much else really..Just tired from my first week of work. BEAT.

Ok...well one thing... out of the blue...I though of "S"...I haven't thought of her in ages...because I guess I'm more hurt by "E"...but still... "S" hasn't been on my mind in a long time...anyway.. on the train ride, I just started thinking of her for some reason...maybe something I read or something I saw just triggered it...but it just washed over me and I got all choked up for no reason. I still miss her...I wonder how she is...and I hope she is miserable (I know it's wrong) ...and I wish I could see her again and just have some closure...but all in all...it was a moment that passed...and it may come again...but for now...I'm ok.

Saturday: Up and at em... cleaned up a little bit and then went over to Doris'... off to Curiosa 2004! Walked past a street fair and Doris got some corn for her and her friend Jen... we met up and went off to take the bus from 125th and Lex to Randall's Island.

It wasn't what I expected at all...it was just a great big field...and when we got there...Mogwai was already playing on the main stage...which was HUGE. So we got some Buds and walked around... portapotties are just nasty...but the urinals are fun..cause you can hear it DRAIN...hahahah. Anyhoo...second stage was where the action was at.

Melissa Auf Der Mauer: Ok...she is just SCORCHING hot...she is perhaps the sexiest rock star that I know of...but her music...oh man...it's not very good. She has one really great song...but the others...come on...one song was like horses neighing... but man...can she shake her thing and toss that luscious red hair...you know me and redheads.

AND...me and goth girls...only saw one really hot goth girl with this tubby Robert Smith wannabe...but there just wasn't a lot of black clad-alabaster-white skin girls-with dark makeup...crap!

Rapture went on and Doris was happy because she got some cowbell action... Doris was a little loopy...but cute...anyhooo... the main stage was just too huge...didn't even try to make it up front...but back to second stage for THURSDAY.

OH MAN...Thursday just rocked my world...Geoff Richey is just an amazing frontman..even if he dances kinda gay...but he throtles the microphone and tosses it like Roger Daltrey in his heyday. ANd he really connects with the audience and just jumps in there... just plain WOW. "signals in the air" was just killer. Kinda "dashboardy" with the singalongs...and the whole EMO-vibe...but it was just ROCK...Will buy more Thursday albums now...

Interpol...sounded good and drony and Joy Divisiony...but I hung back at the second stage for MUSE...the crowd was huge ...a lot of Muse fans...I was surprised...and WOW...Muse was just sonically amazing...vocals were pitch perfect...the sequencers and keys really added to the sound...and he's got some of the coolest guitars I've ever seen...custom metal and blue and chrome ones...and a shattered mirror one...wow... jsut visually and sonically on the money. "Time is Running Out"...was all that I hoped it would be....pure ROCK.

Doris and Jen were pretty buzzed from the wine they got by now...and we headed over to get some food...which was surprisngly not too expensive and a good amount of chicken fingery and fries goodness...anyhoo..time for the CURE.

Let's just say...the Cure is one of the bands I must see before I croak...Metallica is another one...but the Cure...wow... sonically and visually amazing... by this time we ran into Cindy Kahng and Pete...how we found them through the crowd...I dunno...but by this time...it was dark (a Cure concert in the sun? heck, no...) let me fish the setlist from somewhere:

Lost, Labyrinth, Fascination Street, Before Three, High, The End Of the World, Lovesong, Inbetween Days, Just Like Heaven, Pictures Of You, Us or Them, From The Edge OF The Deep Green Sea, alt.end, One Hundred Years, The Promise Encore 1: M, Play For Today, A Forest Encore 2: 10:15 Saturay Night, Boys Don't Cry

"high" wasn't that great...but all the old classics were amazing... heairng "pictures of you" under the clear sky...was just breathtaking...and it made me sad...and happy at the same time... the way the Cure should make you feel.

My only regret is leaving before I got to hear them play "a forest" ...crap ! I hope they do a live DVD...oh I should just get TRILOGY then...in any case... it was amazing... I had a great time. oh yeah, a drunk guy wanted me to high five him...and lots of weed and stoners tripping out there...kinda funny...and oh yeah...this guy that I am almost sure was James Uhm from Tufts...was there...he looked me right in the eye...and no recognition...maybe not...but man...he sure looked like him... anyways... got home relatively early and hung out with Chris and Fred...

Sunday: Ugh...just tired and dehydrated...didn't wake up until 1:00...ate.. watched tv...relaxed... and played drums so much that I got blisters...4 of them! ARRRGH! But "on the brink is almost done...I may need to go in and correct some drum things...but that usually takes forever...and I may make things worse...so we'll see what happens. Did laundry with Chris and that was basically it... oh...Jen called me (my Jen..) and was asking me where my RSVP was for the wedding...well...I'll send it soon...oh wow...she's getting married...I can't believe it.. another one...oh man... I'll stop here before I get depressed.

Work tomorrow...oh man...another week...and one more before the move...Lord, help me. I need strength. I've just been so tired and ...tired lately...

Well, that was the weekend...maybe more tomorrow.

HAHHA!!!
Friday, July 30, 2004 10:43 a.m.

HAHHAHAHAH !!! The poor kid...

http://www.looser.com/flash/never/

Thanks Gloria!

HAHHA!!!
Friday, July 30, 2004 10:43 a.m.

HAHHAHAHAH !!! The poor kid...

http://www.looser.com/flash/never/

Thanks Gloria!

more of week one...
Friday, July 30, 2004 09:15 a.m.

Wow...half day today...one of maybe 4 or 5 until summer hours are over...in any case...yesterday was pretty dang hectic as well. It's been nuts. I've documented my complaints...but otherwise things seem to be good.

Michelle is really great...she even said that I reminded her of her boyfriend...(who is half Viet)...and she's "dark Irish" I think...(meaning raven-haired ie. see the Corrs) in any case...she reminds me of E...just a teeeny bit when she smiles...which is a good and bad thing. Anyhooo...we'll be working together a lot. good times.

Went to Kenka to meet with Gloria...but I guess our wires got crossed...so she never made it...but I had EUnice with me and we had some good eats and drinks. She bought me dinner and I bought her a Grumpy Bear CareBears wristband. I should have got one for myself actually. ...hahah. And oh yeah, Eunice said she was going to "pinch my testicles"??? WTF ?!??! Stay away from my nads!

Home... watched TV with Chris...this TruelIfe thing on MTV...dang...interracial couples...and the white parents were still against it and saying all this racist stuff...and they were from Jersey! Man, get with the times.

Ok...I need to go do work...before my half day is finished...arrgrh...tons of it !

funny story...
Thursday, July 29, 2004 11:07 p.m.

I forgot to mention this...the other day I was going out the building and I saw someone going up an elevator...that looked like Vicky! Same hair, same height... well, I thought so anyways...but I was like "huh?!??!" ...anyways...I go "VICKY?!?" and the woman was like 40... and she was taller...and I was all embarrassed...hahah ...I'm IMing Vicky now...that's why I remembered.

I also sent in Mark's (old, gay coworker)and one of Emily's friends...maybe I can steal Emily over too...who knows. But the question is...do I want to?

HAHAH Chris is so cute...he ran into my room to wait for the new Exorcist commercial to be over...he's that scared! HAHAH... what a dork!

I'll blog about the rest of the day tomorrow...sigh...I'm beat and I need some love.

Should I be freaked out now?
Thursday, July 29, 2004 09:19 a.m.

Ok...I'm plunging into the new job...but while I'm doing simple normal everyday kind of edits...I'm noticing that the vendors that they use to pour thigns into pages are TERRIBLE.. and these books have a tight schedule. So, I'm trying to do my best...but if others screw up...it's gonna look bad. ARRRGH! But the good thing is...I get to expense stuff, I get to travel, and I have my name over everyone elses on them... let the freaking out commence.

Took a walk to Midtown Comics to get some stuff during lunch...and came back for more and more work...it's really a lot. Man... anyhoo... went home... chilled with Chris. Watched "Quintuplets"...it's pretty stupidfunny...I love Andy Richter and that kid from PUNK'D.

Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex or GitS:SAC as otherwise known...is pretty dang awesome. Yoko Kanno has some great music... and the stories are "stand alone" and the art...wow...only crap thing... bad CGI cars...ugh.

Ok...back to the grind...aiiiiieeee!

no reason to freak out...yet.
Wednesday, July 28, 2004 09:06 a.m.

Ok...so I have the daunting task of being in charge of these two booklines...right off the bat. It's supposed to be a minor revision...but it looks like it might be more than that. In any case, I'm going to keep doing what I'm doing and hope things will work themselves out.

Met Michelle yesterday...she seems like she will be the one I rely on for a lot of things here. she's in charge of a lot of Production management...so I'll be working with her a lot...seems very capable and sweet. good.

Loads of work... exhausting... tired...but stopped by best Buy to pick up Scissor Sisters and Hellboy... hope i get a chance to watch it soon.

Ok...I might not even get paid much more since I changed my W4 form...so maybe the bigger tax return at the end of the year will be better? I'm not sure. Ugh...I hope this was the right decision. In any case, I don't get paid here until the 15th...and my old company still needs to pay me for last work weeks and vacation. Man...I need money and soon.

Beat...just beat. Someone take care of me!

other stuff...and beginning of day two.
Tuesday, July 27, 2004 09:21 a.m.

So... after work went to meet up with Doris just to say hi. Haven't seen her in a long time. Her apartment building is only two blocks away from the office! Well, for now. We are moving on Aug. 12th...so I'm not going to be settling in for real for awhile. She gave me a turkey sammich. And it was good.

Still trying to figure out the best way for the commute here. Not sure which is the most efficient... I'll have to try it out for the next week.

Exhausted...but still tossed and turned all night. I got more sleep than the night before...but so much stuff going through my head still. I need to really rest up this weekend... or at least I'll try.

Anyhoo... back to the new job. Still making heads and tails of all of this.

Oh... my folks are in Jersey with my family... it's their 30th Anniversary... WOOOT! The real celebration begins next month in the BAHAMAS... Happy Anniversary, Mom and Dad! WO AI NI MEN!

New digs!
Monday, July 26, 2004 05:26 p.m.

Ok...I'm gonna keep this short and sweet...because I only got like 3 hours of sleep last night since I was tossing and turning.

The new digs are definitely cool. A lot more laid back in some aspects, but then again...a lot more corporate. But I really like it so far. People seem really nice and upbeat...and the one weird thing...this one guy...he looked so familiar... this designer ...and then I thought...NO, IT CAN'T BE.

The dude is an actor...he was on OZ! Isn't that insane?!?!? I recognized him... and was like...scratch yer temple...hmmm.

Had lunch with Adriana and Heather. Both seem really sweet. I'll probably be working with them for a little bit. And Steve...he's the genius exec. ed. here...seems really cool. A very hip, younger bunch it seems. It will take me some time to get used to all this stuff here. But I've already got two projects here...and I'll be assigning work to others and managing all this other stuff... it's pretty nuts. But it's a new adventure. I'm ready.

Now if I can get a full night's rest... that would be great. Later, kids !