scary? building collapse nearby..
Friday, April 26, 2002 09:29 a.m.

a building about 8 blocks away, partially collapsed after some gas/electric/chemical (?) explosion yesterday. A bunch of people got hurt and there were choppers and police and ambulances all over...kinda scary.

It was rainy and yucky but I got comics and nachos. C was "sick" in other words...she went shoppping and went to a volleyball game... heheheh ...shhhhh I've been "sick" and watched my anime shipment from Amazon ... Hey ! I had a headache too !

Got FRIENDS SEASON 1 boxset... a lot of episodes I never saw...and a lot of stuff that I thought was in later season...oh, well..glad I got it. But watched my KITH documentary instead... one part...Scott Thompson gets a robot dog (one of the expensive SOny ones) and uses it for a skethc on stage...he names it.. ABRAHAM !!! hahahahhah

Seal supposed to drop by to pick up CDs... and meetign Esther for the first time tonight... kinda weird since we've been "talking" (heck...i don't even know what she sounds like) for a month... so ...we are meeitng at the Superchunk (hahah my idea of course) section at Virgin Megastore. And don't try to fool me !! I know what she looks like!

busy, busy weekend too... uuuurrrgh. TGIF !!!

oooh. BEST BUY!
Thursday, April 25, 2002 09:18 a.m.

man... this week flew by fast... probably because I've been busier than normal. Especially with all the people popping out of the woodwork...I mean, what gives?

C ...what is it ? I just don't get it sometimes. When she's nice and sweet... it's miraculous! She has such compassion for middleaged Japanese guy eating by himself in McD's... but for me... more often than not, punchkick...me screaming like a little girl.

Too tired after my STP night to work out yesterday. So Best Buy it is! Dangnabbit! ANime is cheap or on par with Amazon stuff...so I cancelled a bunch of orders and just paid cold hard cash and got my DVDs then and there. Golden Boy was ecccccchi fun and hilarious! Kintaro has a heart of...dare I say...gold. :P

Esther... tomorrow. We shall see if you are indeed "hairyfatmanwithponytail" or the "cutebellyhugger" you are allegedly...ALLEGED-LEEEE...supposed to be. :P

More work and packed weekend ahead. More concert tix ???

pleased to meet you. nice to know me...STP!
Wednesday, April 24, 2002 09:23 a.m.

A Day of sludgy work...and then a quick dinner with Elaine (who might go to teach English in CHina!) at Gameeok. mmm suhrong tahng! Anyways... we got to the new Hammerstein at like 630,,,which was waaaay early...but there was a huge line already! In any case, they were letting people in ...so we waited around fro quite awhile. I guess Elaine got bored... and we talked about this and that...but then she kept grabbing me manboobs! I felt violated... and dirty...but at least they were buff! She says I keep getting smaller..which is always good.

Hometown Hero...opening act...sucked. Lead singer was like a protopunk ROger Daltrey. Odd...he spoke in English...but I could not make out a word of what he was singing.. "please"? "Bleed"? "baby" ??? maybe all of the above.

BUt STP...was mind blowing...it was a psyechedelicglamrockypunk thing ... one of the BEST shows I have ever been to. And one of the best sounding ones...give it up for the sound techs...sounded AMAZING. Crystal clear. Here's the set list (snagged from belowempty.com):

Shine On You Crazy Diamond (Pink Floyd Cover), Vasoline, Crackerman, Hollywood Bitch, Big Empty, Dead and Bloated, Atlanta, Sour Girl, Wonderful, Creep, Lounge Fly, Too Cool Queenie, Big Bang Baby, Trippin' On A Hole In A Paper Heart, Interstate Love Song, Plush, Down, Kitchenware & Candybars, Sex Type Thing.

Once "vasoline" started...it was all over for Elaine... she bolted right after the next song...the crowd went nuts...and we were crushed. *passesout*... but it was awesome...this is what I go to shows for! The p"pulling fans to sing PLUSH on stage was dumbdumb. My fave part was from Big bang baby, and trippin (which was the fiercest and best song of the night) and DOWN...wow.

The acoustic stuff in the middle was good...and Weiland's "Indian woman on acid" dance was funny. Scott Weiland is by far one of the best frontmen...he's lithe and slithery and angry and passionate. I need to work out more and get more Weilandy.

Anyways...other than STP... other weird and big stuff... FINALLY got EVA box...took 2 weeks to ship...but more weird is the influx of people getting in touch with me... arrrrgh !!! Remember when I was bored and lonely... well... when it rains it pours:

After S called... more people contacted me... Sabrina left a message, Joe, Seal, and Kate wanted to have dinner, Romana wants to go on vacation ? (um...no way.), mystery e-mail from Eileen, Grace Kim wants to hang out this weekend (before she leaves for HK...boo hooo), Esther hee hee, Jess Devine!!! (he's my guitar buddy from HS...he's a pupeteer at the moment...but he's going to NYU Law this fall...weird ! He introduced me to Superchunk, btw...I owe him!), and other random people.... whoo... where were you guys a month ago ?!?!?

anyways...work...work...and Best Buy and gym tonight...ack..and comics too. :)

wheeeee...delirious.
Tuesday, April 23, 2002 09:14 a.m.

what is going on...I'm definitely more giddy and being a chattybitch ...but I'm actually kind of stressed out and tense. I dunno... weird.

Work is yucky... gym is gym... but the weirdest thing happened. You know I don't believe in the horoscopes and paganthings assuch... But I didn't have a mag with me on the way home...so I bought the Post (ugh...I know...I only had a quarter to spare...so..) and I got on the train and flipped through...and I read the horoscope that basically said: Aquarians are smart and creative...but you will do something dumb today that you better not let other people know about. WELLLLLLL... I was on the wrong train. It wasn;t until 135th St. waaaaaay uptown that I realized I was on the C and not the E !!! I say "self-fulfilling prophecy"... duh.

I called her home... and got the right area code... she's in North Carolina ! What the heck ?!?!? I'm not sure if she is in grad school or married with a gajillion babies...I'm kind of scared to find out...and I'm scared to not know.

I'm really enjoying getting to know someone new. It's just really fun to find out that you can connect on different levels and be high brow and ...super low brow and bratty. ???? In any case... :)

STP tonight ...whoOOoOoOoOoO !!!!

To quote Mary J. Blige...I don't need no drama...and no HATERATION!!!!

weekend overload!
Monday, April 22, 2002 09:26 a.m.

whooooo boy. What a packed weekend...I'm not sure where to start...hmmm Friday. I guess I took a bit of a day off and went home for dinner. Eric didn't come home until Saturday morning...so I spent some time with the folks and Justin. Came back and cleaned up.

Saturday... urrrrgh... lots of stuff...but Eric came in...went home and had brunch...and then waited until Eric woke up from his nap. He basically spent the whole day sleeping. Then we had a big family dinner with all the babies... for my Grandfather's bday. After we had stuffed ourselves silly... we went home and Shelb came over for a bit. By this time I was pretty tired. watched SNL and some boxing then conked out.

Sunday. We went to CT to see my aunt's baptism. WOW..I can't believe it. It's been a long road....and I'm glad she finally did it. But I think she will really have to struggle to make sense of some things... it was also the anniversary of my other grandfather's death... so my dad was out of sorts. Anyways... Eric left after that...with a bunch of DVDs I gave him! He never gives me stuff when I go visit him...hmmmph. But it was in part his bday present... then went home...NAP...man...I haven't had one of those in ages. Got up...more dinner, more family... then home.

But the big news this weekend was... um... S called. Which is a total shock since she basically destroyed me 3 years ago. In any case...she left a long rambling message about how she wanted to see how I was doing and how she debated calling... she left a number...but I can't make out the area called. ANyways, the number didn't work. But she says she was going to call back...we'll see.

WHOOOO...all this and STP tomorrow... among other things.

when will this oppressive weather end ?
Friday, April 19, 2002 09:24 a.m.

another day in the 90's...ugh...and running around in the office...even though there is plenty of AC...it gets hot! Lunch was boiling... but got ice cream with C... gave me a stomach ache... dang heheh she wore overalls. Farmer Brown shucks (corn) !!!

more gym...and ended up getting Weiss Kreuz and Psychic Force used...dnag...gamestop is evil.

I've been spending alot of money on concert tix latley... I just wish someone had the same taste in music as I do... who wants to see Belle and Sebastian ???

Let's just say ...I shouldn;t get my hopes up or put tooo much into anything..keeping expectations low should be the norm. Does that make sense? I'm being vague on purpose.

Eric coming home today. He's getting like 200 bucks worth of DVDs from me... what a good brother !

BOILING !!!
Thursday, April 18, 2002 09:25 a.m.

what a day ...supposedly hit 100degrees yesterday ! That's just insane and uncalled for...why ?? why ??? It's down to 80 today...and tomorrow it's supposed to be even cooler. Rain would actually be good.

So...Sapphy didn't make it out yesterday ...and she says she's going to "make it up to me" ...we shall see, my dear...we shall see.

C is so cute... but she punches like an animal. ow.

Ended up buying a whole bunch of junk yesterday...my heat induced delirium...got comics, went to book off and got some artbooks and a HUUUUGE Leon/The Professional book...supposed to be rare too. And then got CDs... import stuff cheap... and Dashboard confessional...hehehhe it's so emo ... hahahha

Met up with Doris...she's in a weird mood...she felt like going home...took the train with her... maybe meet up with her tonight.

made some CD-rs for carpy... and an elaborate project for someone else... ahhhh you know who you are! I'm tempted to keep it since it came out so well. Mailing them out today.

WORK...arrrgh...lots of it again!

arrrrgh...
Wednesday, April 17, 2002 09:19 a.m.

man, I'm tired... not much besides work... and had lunch with Jen Lee... her husband is an apparent genius with photographic memory! scary !!!

Looks like my other friend isn't breaking up with her bfriend... working things out...hope it's worth the effort and pain...I'm cynical. :P

It's so weird how sometimes you connect with people and you've never even met them. I think God puts people in your life that "are your kind" that you just kind of end up meeting. Well, enjoying the discovery...

Ghost World was funny...but thoroughly depressing... please don;t ever let me get that snarky and hateful! keep me lovable and kawaiii !!!

IRC...turned into an EMOPUNK sludge fest for awhile...kinda funny... Jimmy Eat World...whOooOoO!!

I'm not too old to like Korn. hmmmph. And Superchunk is on tour this summer !!! FOR JOY !!!

not much....
Tuesday, April 16, 2002 09:24 a.m.

not much going on in my end of the world... most exciting thing was the drama my friend was having...deciding whether or not to break up with her bfriend... and I think she is still deciding...I guess I will find out today.

not much work... not much of anything else...besides C punching me for no reason... NO REASON! (I'd stilllike to believe they are love taps...but I think they are more hate caps...does that make any sense? is that LOGICAL???" whatevs, dude.

more gym...dang...I couldn;t tell how much weight I lost until I put on some of my summer clothes (it's really warm in NY now) and WOW !!! they are super loose... good for me!

Justin bought an Allen Iverson jersey...it's so cute...but I guess he's growing up and getting to that phase...he's gonna be all hip-hop like Eric... hahahha

Lunch with Jen noona and with Sapphy tomorrow? Must check to make sure.

Just got Ghost World... watched the featurette... looks really funnny...can't wait to see it...seems like my kind of humor.

Pilot Candidate is getting better not loving it...but not hating it either...confusing... why so many frikkin' names ???

not much....
Tuesday, April 16, 2002 09:24 a.m.

not much going on in my end of the world... most exciting thing was the drama my friend was having...deciding whether or not to break up with her bfriend... and I think she is still deciding...I guess I will find out today.

not much work... not much of anything else...besides C punching me for no reason... NO REASON! (I'd stilllike to believe they are love taps...but I think they are more hate caps...does that make any sense? is that LOGICAL???" whatevs, dude.

more gym...dang...I couldn;t tell how much weight I lost until I put on some of my summer clothes (it's really warm in NY now) and WOW !!! they are super loose... good for me!

Justin bought an Allen Iverson jersey...it's so cute...but I guess he's growing up and getting to that phase...he's gonna be all hip-hop like Eric... hahahha

Lunch with Jen noona and with Sapphy tomorrow? Must check to make sure.

Just got Ghost World... watched the featurette... looks really funnny...can't wait to see it...seems like my kind of humor.

Pilot Candidate is getting better not loving it...but not hating it either...confusing... why so many frikkin' names ???

weekend... too short.
Monday, April 15, 2002 09:24 a.m.

had a packed weekend that I am still reeling from... Friday was work work...and then lull... I actually had time to get lunch for Sapphy and bring it over to her...in the rain, mind you. I think picky eaters are cute...Sapphy does not like salmon....mmmsalmon.

Anyways...hung out with my noona, Jen after work at her office... Golf magazine! It was pretty fun...considering. Anyways, will have to make her hubby a mix of hair metal bands... and see if we can go see DefLeppard on tour this summer ! PHOTOGRAPH...I don't want your...

Met up with Christin (longer hair, thinner), Seal, Han and 4 month pregger Grace, Sung, Paul and Tom...had dinner at KGS and went over to Han and Grace4's for DDR and ice cream... Seal is probably the best player...but I schooled those kids on La Senorita. I didn't play much that night since I think most of the people didn't play very often.

Met up with Hand G, CHristin, Seal, and Paul to go shoe shopping for Christin. Ended up not buying anything for her... and had lunch. Not enough time with Christin. ...sad. Somewhat frustrating when people don't listen to you. I did go to school in that area for 2 years, I think I know my way around.

Went to Philip's bday party...10 years old! That tubby kid ! I can't believe all the babies are growing up... sniff.

Sunday... clena up, church, gym... Man...I think I'm going to stay at Redeemer. Anyways... came home and talked to Amy until I fell asleep. I miss having her around allt he time... we never get to talk very often. But it was good catching up. Developments in both of our lives... hmmm.

New blog friend !!! Adding Esther's to the side bar. She's amazing... I am thoroughly impressed. More on this later. Went to

PUBLISHED ...official!
Friday, April 12, 2002 09:33 a.m.

well.. our top Executive Editor came by yesterday and showed me the final proof pages of my poem, pic, and bio... I'll just say that it's ok...but heck...I can't complain. I'm right before Emily Dickinson and Carl Sandburg in the book. I'll post scans as soon as I get my own copy...which may be awhile. Oh, design used the second from last pic (without the background...weird.)

Even though things have been tense and rushed at work... I actually had a pleasant lunch with C ...and she was somewhat nice to me... vs. being mean and hateful...actually...she was a little bit of that too. :P DOPPLEGANGER!

Other than that... worked overtime... went home to clean up. Christin in NY...got a bunch of DVDs and CDs... ugh...gotta pay off my Discover card !!!

where does the time go ?
Thursday, April 11, 2002 09:16 a.m.

seems like I'm taking a real pounding at work...the day flies by so quickly since I have been so busy. It's been exhuaastingly hectic here for weeks. And when I'm not buried under a mound of paper... I feel nervous...thinking it's going to hit any minute...and usually it does.

more gym... taking the day off today...probably won't get back until Sunday...but who knows.

Got Mullholland Drive for free with my replay coupons...it was 25 bucks though... but it was covered.

I wish I had someone to share my love of GTO anime with...it's hilarious... but who would like it ?

Weird dream last night...ugh. I don't even want to talk about it...disturbing. Am I still hung up over things in the past ????

oh...frustration!
Wednesday, April 10, 2002 09:27 a.m.

I don't want to get into it. All I want to say is... you cannot hold someone else to a standard...if you yourself are not willing to do the same for yourself. My goodness, I just wish some people weren't so self-absorbed that they think that everything is about them. Other people matter. Other people ahve feelings. If you stopped to actually listen...you might learn that.

I'm sick of being "talked at" ... talk WITH me. It's called the art of conversation. I don't like lectures or personal lectures. I have to edit those at work! I'd rather have a "dialogue" going... you know what that means, right?

anyways...got pics of Tesla developed ...and had two pics of C on there. I wanted to do a shrine to the "meowpie claw" but she threatened to KILL me if her pic ever made it to the net. In any case, I think she's ADORABLE...especially when she is poised to strike.

QUick gym action...dang that elliptical machine. System of a Down and Slipknot have gotten me pumped lately.

GTO !! GTO !!! such a great show and manga...I can't wait for more !!!! ecchi...but with heart.

Fae is coming to NY in May ???

Lunch with Sappphy soon?

Should send carpy a CD with 'chunk and SDRE... EMO pioneers...he might like it.

ugh...more work.

urban legend...almost became real !!!
Tuesday, April 9, 2002 09:21 a.m.

KOWAI !!!!! I was a-frightened for my dear C's life... she was out with her church kids on Friday night and driving them home when a car followed her aggressively...she had to try to avoid the car and finally pulled over... the guy flashed a badge and asked some odd "police-type" questions...but then left and said he would return in 15 mins. THEN someone decided to call 911 and were informed it was probably some security guard on a weird power trip doing that... luckily she had 5 people in the car with her... scary, scary stuff... KIDDIES... whatever you do... never, ever pull over for an unmarked car... always call 911... unmarked cars are NOT ALLOWED to pull people over for stuff like this.. they are required to callin a marked, sirened car...IIRC... in any case... OHHHHH MEOWPIENESS !!! kowai.

More gym... and got Arc the LAd 1-5 for 10 bucks a piece ! WOOOT. need to get 6... and need to stop spending money. ack.

Christin coming for the weekend??

SOul Survivors... interesting premise...pooor, poor execution of plot etc... but Eliza Dushku...ow.

SPRING CLEANING!
Monday, April 8, 2002 09:22 a.m.

well, Dad'sbirthday was pretty good... it seemed more like Justin's b-day though...we went to Cocina Cuzco on Ave A and 4th... for good Peruvian food (which I paid for... hence the broke-ness this week.) and Veniero's for dessert. Then off to Toys R US in Times Square for Justin's Gamecube time... he went ice skating and had a 20 dollar cheeseburger in the afternoon with my mom...so it did seem like his bday.

Anyways... Saturday and Sunday were both uneventful...mostly.. Elaine came over on Saturday...w ended up going grocery shopping! sheeesh ... domesticated. She needed some stuff and my fidge was empty...so why not. Then we "watched" GLITTER... hahahah Mariah wasn't THAT bad...she lookedsluttyhot through most of it...but it was the script and the inexplicable SF/Matrix shots and edits that ruined it...and oh...the bad script...and oh, the bad acting... Mariah wasn't all too blame.

I learned to play "My Sacrifice" ...and it sounds pretty dang good.. It's pretty hard...and I'm a bit rusty...but I still have my metalchops!

Was supposed to go to museum with Elaine on SUnday...but I guess she got tied up...and it was too late to go to church. And I had to wait around to type Justin's report for him... so I ended up cleaning out my closets and putting winter stuff away, cleaning out my old concert T-shirts, ripping some MP3z and rearranging the CD collection... eh...boring.

back to work...yucko!!!!

I AM A CARDIO-MONSTER!!!
Friday, April 5, 2002 09:20 a.m.

work, work, work... I'm exhausted... so why do I torture myself at the gym ? I guess I am addicted. Endorphin rush and all... in any case... I'm really digging the elliptical machine.

Doris is looking for a domain name to make her own... I think sweetfreckles.com is cute... but... eh...she don't like it...she liked sweetarse.com though... (ahem...that was a joke, dear... you don't want a PRON-ish domain name...well there is always greekpitas.com ...ha.

DANG...Christine punched me hard... I'm actually sore. grrrrrr that girl !!! *shakes fist in general direction*

Taking Dad out for bday...Mom and Justin are out in the city all day...so we'll see what happens.

Museum this weekend ? I promised Elaine...but Yvette wanted to go tonight... so... too bad. Why don't my friends know each other ? *shrugs*

Ceres is done... it was good... but lots of HUH ,,,,moments. I was watching Urusei Yatsura last night before I went to sleep... man...had me laughing out loud !!! I love it !!! so dumb and funny. LUM-CHAN !!!

Megadeth broke up !!!!! I shall play Rust in Peace in tribute... God bless, MUSTAINE !!!! rock on, dude..

mas gym... of course.
Thursday, April 4, 2002 09:16 a.m.

more work... it never ends... piles and piles of manuscript...I'm tired.

It was beautiful weather... what a gorgeous day. Had lunch in the park with C and went to Nine West so she could look at shoes. Sometimes I forget she's a girlie-girl since she acts like such a tomboy and beats the hell outta me... arrrgh.

DIdn't plan on having dinner but my friend Jen wanted company while she waited for her train... anyways...she's gained a little weight since she got married. I say... once you tie the know... you are allowed to LET IT ALL GO... who cares? As long as you are healthy...

Got the Usual Suspects:SE for 15 bucks !!! Circuit City sale...go get it this week before sale is over !!!

Gym... I love the eliiptical machine now... I no longer fear it.

WHoooo...pray for the Middle East...scary. Lord, help us.

clean bill of health ?
Wednesday, April 3, 2002 09:20 a.m.

well, my doc called me last night and said my bloodwork came back pretty clean. Slightly high cholesterol ("you are borderline normal." ???) and my triglycerides were 175 when ideal is 150...so not bad at all. And it seems like my cough is probably allergy related, irritated by winter flu/cold also. So...no esophogram unless it gets worse. WOOOoOOOOO!

more gym...and blockbuster sale... yow... got abunch of movies I wanted to see int he buy 2 get 1 free deal. YEAH ! cool.. so the sale ends monday...and the woman said that THE ONE should be pulled by then. YES ! so... yay for DVDs.

I'm giving Eric my old Evangelion set so I can get the new boxset with remastered vol. 1... my bro doesn't really care and he's happy with getting all 8 dvds for his b-day anyways.

We going to Vegas or what ? Still planning etc...

Stupid gym bag zipper... gotta get a new bag already ! This is what you get for buying cheap stuff... I'm going to Modells. hmmmph.

Easter weekend...plus one!
Tuesday, April 2, 2002 09:15 a.m.

Well, let's rewind a little bit.... Friday we got early as expected and I went over to the gym and worked out... really worked out... did 3 rounds of cardio. And then went home and did laundry and watched a bunch of movies and anime. It was Good Friday... and I ended up praying and really reflecting inbetween bouts of wong kar wai and animated hi jinks.

Saturday...ack... what agorgeous day...but I spent most of it waitng on line for Jimmy Eat World tix...WHICH I DID NOT GET. I didn't feel all that bad since kids who waited since 8 in the AM didn't get tix...and I was only there since 12. DId finally talk to Jen...and ran into Grace in the street... I was dressed like a punk and she was doing laundry...needless to say we didn't recognize each other until we did a double take. Anyways...some light shopping and ended up back home.

Sunday... went to the 1130 service at Redeemer...which was pretty excellent. Went with Grace and met up with Doris and her friend. Went to Sarabeth's at the Whitney and had brunck with Grace... where she proceeded to tell me she is going to HK for the year !!! ack... but it's ok...I guess it gives me one more excuse to visit. Wow...we've actually known each other for awhile now...Then, over to my aunt's for an "Easter party" which was basically me and the kids, our family, and a few of her friends. Too much candy. UGH. If my family makes a big deal about the weight I lost...then wow...it must be pretty noticeable.

Monday....took a sick day... wasn't feeling all that great... but mainly just tired. Ended up taking Justin to Subway and then to see Ice Age and off to Flushing. Metup with Mom... ran some errands. And Dad came back from Taiwan. Justin got lots of goodies and I got some food. Oh...and Justin has taken up an interest in sports cards... hence.. my baseball cards have a new owner... And Elaine called....we need to hang out sometime. whew... that's about it.

Maundy Thursday
Friday, March 29, 2002 09:20 a.m.

well... lots of work... as normal... and BAKA CHRISTINE...laughed at my white, khaki spring coat !!!! IS it my fault if I'm fashionable??? yes it is... :(

Anyways... ended up getting comics... CHOBITS is great !!! I need to get lots more TP manga....oooh...they are so evil. All of it out on one day !

Then I went to Redeemer Service (since no Good Friday service...weird) and it was very nice... but the pastor got sick so there was no sermon. But a lovely foot washing ceremony ( for like 2 people, silly!) and Communion. Went with Vicky and met some of her friends....

Oh...also had a chance to talk to Ames and Christin...both doing welll and busy. Everyone seems to know that Grace is preggers... so no big secret any longer.

Ran into Lisa on the train...she had seder at her friend Beth's... I want to have Passover too...

Well, it's Good Friday... time to reflect and pray. But shouldn't we be doing that everyday? ACK... Lord, help us. We whine and bitch about all this insignificant crap all the time, when we should be grateful for what we have and what we don't have. Cheers.

TMI !!!! whirlwind....
Thursday, March 28, 2002 10:18 a.m.

boy... sometimes too much info... it just ...shakes you up a bit... Sometimes just hearing it makes a world of difference... let's leave it vague.

Gym ... Chris came with me... lazy bum didn't really work out... Got a bunch of stuff at Sam Goody and in the mail...whoooo... watched J&SB and some Hakkenden... weird...

WHirlwind of charts and crap at work... I am so not looking forward to more of this. UGH.

Going to church tonight... hope someone will go with me... I'm tired.

Why has Sapphy not been updating her blog ???? where is she ?!?!?

doctor...like I didn't know...
Wednesday, March 27, 2002 09:12 a.m.

well... most important news is I went to the doctor and basically he said... I have allergies and my cough could just be a result of them being bad this year. OR/AND..I may have acid/reflux disease...meaning HEARTBURN...which could contribute to my cough... in any case... allergy medicine, nasal spray, and an x-ray will get to the bottom of this. Truth be known, I did have some bad heart burn for awhile...but I think that was stress related...and it's ok now.

Good news ia... I apparently don't have high blood pressure... 110/70 ...is that good ? In any case...it's better than I thought it would be...

Got amazon shipment...which means Jin ROh is going back... and CCS movie !!! wish I had time to watch it... ack...maybe tonight. ... after the gym... but ack... stuff to do...

Elaine is back...concerts ensue !!! STP, Jimmy Eat World, others ??? MUST GET TIX !!!

Passion week... what about Friday ?
Tuesday, March 26, 2002 09:18 a.m.

well.. I still don't know what to do about Friday. The churches that I wanted to go to do not have service! How weird... but there is Maundy thursday service...so maybe that then.

Gym... some people are just weird... odd. Got my Jin ROh SE for $25 from samgoody !!! WOOOO !!! But Amazon shipped my order EARLY so I have to return that Jin Roh...ack... but man... what a great movie. It's an art film really.... and political thriller , yadda yadda... Sapphy was right...the soundtrack is great...the score is just gorgeous.

On some weird Ranma kick...all I want to do is watch Ranma and sleep.

Ack...work.

loaded weekend...and big news!
Monday, March 25, 2002 09:21 a.m.

well.. had a pretty packed and loaded weekend... actually pretty fun. and got some stuff done. Friday, after work was good since I met up with Seal at Cocina Cuzco (again!) ...but our meal was not as good as the one I had with Roseann...sad... but it was a break through... after living with Seal and knowing her all through college and now... we shared a lot of stuff that we haven't before. I guess as we grow older, we tend to open up more... and things aren't always light and carefree... but it's actually good.

We met with Kate at Venieros and pondered her job dilemma... then off to Ktown for kareoke and PUMP... which is harder than DDR and feels weird... since the direction arrows are not where I'm used to. ACK. DID NOT like it... I miss my DDR. Anyways...supposed to meet Seal for lunch today.

Saturday... gym, cleaned up the house and set up my speakers. It's a waste if I don't use them...but it's a pain to have to turn them on everytime I want to watch a DVD. Binged on movies... watched Made, Swordfish, and Traning Day.

SUnday... went to visit Pastor Ro's church...ended up being late since I took the bus too far... anyways... guest speaker, missed the first 20 mins... so I can't really tell.. but the big news... GRACE IS PREGNANT. Han is ... gonna be a poppa. WOW... 6 months and here comes baby.

DENZEL !!!! YEAH !!!!

STUFFED !
Thursday, March 21, 2002 09:20 a.m.

Sheeesh... what a busy day... had so much work crammed on me ... whooo... I think I got most of it done. Will need to calm down today and finish whatever I have left. Crappy rainy day too.

ACK...spent money on comics and artbooks at BOOKOFF...some tourists from Boston there... tried to give them some friendly anime shopping advice...but they seemed pretty cold... dang. Trying to be a nice NYer.

Had dinner with Roseann... haven't seen her in months. We tried to go to Malouk...but they were drilling in the basement and they didn't have a menu !!! Prix fixe meal... 6 courses !!! ack... (and it's next door to Last Rites...the place where like Slipknot and all the metal bands get there tatooos... oooooh.) so we ended up going to Cocina Cuzco...some Peruvian place along the way... and it was great ! Such good food...but sooooo fattening. The fried yucca was the best I ever had...my goodness.

Anyways...Roseann is a little monster. She ate most of her dish and like half of mine... AND she ordered more plantains ! AND..we went to Venieros for dessert! She paid for diner... "b-day" ??? I guess I owe her for hers too.

Apparently, Lisa has been getting a lot ofwork in Taiwan, modeling and acting... so she's like everywhere. And why shouldn't she be...she's dreamy !!! Anime girl come to life !...and John... well.. he tried. Lucky guy, though.

Eric, I approve. You can marry Roseann.

IM , e-mail, and phone calls from Brian, Jen Tse, and Opher... where did that all come from ??

Pretty much it...Still kind of misanthropic. I don't know what it is...moody... maybe too much testosterone from gym...or being sick so long... ack... Lord, help me. Calm my heart.

gym and... that's about it.
Wednesday, March 20, 2002 09:24 a.m.

Ok...I think I finally got this 401K thing HALF-figured out... in any case... I plan to get this done by the end of the week...I hope.

More gym... quick speedy workout...then dinner with Mom and Justin... Malaysian...blah. Saw Lazon... he got tall!

Having dinner with Roseann at that Mamlouk place Eunice likes...hope it's good. But it's yucky and wet outside... blecch.

Man... I love the Osbournes... OZZY rules... what a hilarious family... but CRAZY !!!! *cue opening riff of "Crazy Train"*

urrrrrghh... sore.
Tuesday, March 19, 2002 09:40 a.m.

More gym... treadmill for the first time and my godsister Cindy goes to the same NYSC that I do... urrrgh...legs ...stiff.

I will try to be happy for other people in their little victories...though I don't know what the problem wa sin the first place? Sheesh... I just don't get it... again, allowing others to make their own way. I will shut up know and just observe.

Must...cut back...on expenses. All around. Need to get my finances in order. Should I be thinking about getting a new job? I dunno....I want to hang out...I really do.. but finances... got to

FInished two poems yesterday during downtime at work. wow !!! Productive!

Please, Lord...let me have a good day... I really can't handle a bad one...not now.

oooh...tired and packed weekend.
Monday, March 18, 2002 09:27 a.m.

WOW... did a lot of stuff this weekend... Friday...went to see Fiddler on the Roof with Seal. Man, she gets better looking every time I see her :) ... we had a quick dinner in Ktown before rushing off... we were both kind of depressed about weird stuff... it's been an odd time in our lives. Anyways....it took forever to get to the Bronx...but it was worth it. Mariela was great! WOnderful singing voive and good stage presence. Too bad I didn't get a chance to see her afterwards... Seal had to get home... so I took the train back with her... glad I did...seemed a little rough. Some dude smoking weed in the train...

Saturday... third wheel time...but not so bad... took Gary and Lisa to NYSC with me... and Gary had a craving for fried crabsticks after... man...NAST. I cleaned up and rearranged stuff the rest of the day. Oh...Dad arrived in Taiwan...teaching at his old college for 2 weeks.

Sunday... jam packed... lunch with Mom, Justin, and the grandparents. Then back...to get ready for Redeemer...which KICKED ARSE. The new gospel choir was kind of bland...but the soloist...whooooeeee...she threw down and there was some worship up in there! It was really great to hear some real, nitty gritty soul. Then...more gym.

Blue Gender...dang...why did I wait so long to watch this... creepy, scary.. Starship Trooperish... loved it. Need to watch last 2 eps. on 2nd disc... Funimation... I bow to you. Much better than I thought it would be.

bad week... bad mood
Friday, March 15, 2002 09:27 a.m.

man...yesterday was a doozy... bad stuff at work... Justin repeatedly singing Outkast (cute for the first 10 mins...then arrrrgh!) and my Dad cursing out some old, old man (who said something racist after awhile... so I wasn't too one sided) ...and just general funk again.

Lunch with Lynn was good... weather was great...I reallly hope she makes the best use of her time in the UK and China...builds character.

Sometimes... you just need to shut up and let people make their own mistakes...isn't that the way it is? I hate the whole "I told you so" thing... especially when I'm the one saying it...

Guess I'm going to see Sapphy in Fiddler by myself...no one wants to go ! "Too far... I hate Fiddler"... I can't even bribe anyone...ugh. But I will be there !!! Sappphy !!!!

Other than that...I just want to be left alone. I am in desperate need of some sorting out. Lord, help me. Hey folks, pray for me...I really, really need it.

***MOMENT OF THE DAY---This totally made my day: I was out with C for lunch and on the way back... some Patagonia-sporty -looking woman with a lot of luggage went up to her and said "He's cute !!! You go !!!" HAHAHHAHAHAH that totally made my day. I feel a little better. :) Back to the regularly scheduled moping. :(

FUNK-DAFIED.
Thursday, March 14, 2002 09:38 a.m.

I'm still in an awful bad mood... I have no idea why...I'm just feeling a little lost and ...maybe bored ...and unloved? I don't even know....more un-drama from my "quarter life crisis".... or maybe my hormones are out of whack since I've been going to the gym so much ?

In any case... i need to take a break from the gym today... some "impulse buys" last night...CCS 8 included...had no idea it was even out unless C reminded me that she just got it.

Having lunch with Lynn...won't see her again until August... wow...that's a long time.

SAPPPPPPHY !!!! E-mail me with info about Fiddler !!! I'm gonna come and watch it just for you !!!

I just want to go home and watch TV... stay away from people.

day off... sleep.
Wednesday, March 13, 2002 09:23 a.m.

well... I'm all tuckered out from showing Serena around nYC... her friend actually took care of her on Monday after I dropped her off. She spent the day at Columbia and went to an NYU med party...she all growed up!

I took yesterday off work so I could show her around NYU...but it only ended up as a brief 20 minute thing so she could get admissions stuff. I probably didn't need to take the whole day off...but I got to sleep in. She's in Boston now... Eric should be showing her around sometime soon.

I am back at work now... and just feeling generally misanthropic. I just don't want to piss anyone off (for some reason...this is happening a lot) and I don't want anyone to piss me off... (ditto).

Oh...I'm getting published in the APA Journal. The poem I wrote for Justin... so...good news.

from LA to NY....
Monday, March 11, 2002 09:37 a.m.

what a weekend...my cousin from LA is visiting so we've been running around in the unpredictable NYC weather... running from tourist spot to trendy restaurant and back... and I ended up buying more DVDS. ack.

we went to Times Square, Rockefeller Plaza, Soho, etc... fun fun tired tired... she came to work with me today and passed out at my desk...Time difference and all...in any case... Serena is here to check out business schools... so during my lunch break... off to Columbia.

oooh...got a new Love Hina calender and got the last Kenshin one they had at Kinokuniya for C. I'm too nice to people that despise me.

Man...I love Def Leppard. Just thought I should mention that.

TEEEEEESSSSSSLLLLAAAAA !!!
Friday, March 8, 2002 09:43 a.m.

wow...again with the highs and lows... people mad and annoyed at me for... not sure why... drama with R and S... sheesh... should be chilll... what's up with that...and loads of work that surprisingly I got done.

AND TESLA... wow... i felt like I did when I was 15 and my aunt went with me to see them at the Academy... that was my first real rock concert...and here I am ...a decade later... and TESLA plays again... they all look the same...but Jeff Keith was like stoned out of his mind !!! He was truly acting the freak...but what a great set... mostly acoustic...but what the hey. "CUMINATCHA LIVE" started it all out...highlights: "What You Give", "Stir It Up" , "HEAVEN'S Trail" , "Little Suzi", "Love Song" covers of "Sympathy for the Devil," "SHow Me the Way", "Lodi", and "We Can Work it out"... and they close with ... "WAR PIGS" !!! great great show... Cat enjoyed it alot... we got picks ! They had a Tesla stamp and a replica signature on back... got to shake the drummers hand and took a lot of pics ... they better come out great... any case... one of the most enjoyable concerts I have been to in awhile... made me forget my troubles for 2 hours.

more work...loads of DVDs...hitting the gym...and my cousin coming tomorrow !!!

archived...and lots going on... eeep.
Thursday, March 7, 2002 09:37 a.m.

man...pitas was down yesterday...and I have lots to write about already ?

anyways... busy day... lots of highs and lows I guess... lots of work...but was productive... things have been going pretty well for Romana...hehehehh...and working out is always good.

need to change my attitude about a lot of things...it's all a mental obstacle and then it will trickle down to the heart.

Christine's grandfather passed away. Pray for her and her family. She seems to be doing fine... he lived a long life and he was at peace.

had dinner with Jen Chung... alot of fun... we've decided to round up a big posse and go out to an 80s club and live it up. She's an Assistant DA so she actually has a badge !!!! whoah.

Serena...my cousin from LA is going to be coming Saturday... I'm excited...she hasn't been to NY in like 15 years... and she's looking at business schools, so this could be a major change for her. In any case, we'll do the touristy stuff and just have fun catching up.

TESLA concert tonight with Cat... I am so psyched...I haven't seen tesla since 1994... and they were one of the first concerts I went to when I was like in 7th grade... man...I cannot wait. Should be lots of fun...

Must get my finances in order... no vacation for me this year. staying put in NY...working out... watching anime.