Take me to the hospital...
Thursday, November 13, 2008 10:45 p.m.

...is no longer just my favorite song by The Faint...but what happened last night. (ha?)

So, I was watching Top Chef and I get up to throw away my pear that I was chomping on. The rest was a blur. I've had this insane cough for the past two months that I have been neglecting because of work and everything else...and either I had a coughing fit and passed out and hit my head on the sink...or I hit my head mid-cough and got knocked out.

Good thing Chris was home and he ran in...I just remember thinking--what the heck just happened...I was face down in the kitchen...I could feel my leg convulsing and my face being ground into the floor...and that was it...

I got up and was a bloody mess. Chris called my dad and I went to the emergency room. I got my blood pressure, EKG done first... then I got an IV drip, blood drawn, a tetanus shot...and then a chest X-Ray and a CAT scan...to top it off, I got some bronchial dilator and some antibiotics.

Turns out I have acute bronchitis, no head injury, but a really messed up face that looks like I joined Fight Club too late.

So, I spent the day in and out of consciousness. I got my glasses fixed and my meds...and a ton of people staring at me. Tried to do some work over email...but it's hard to focus and my face hurts. Also a bit dizzy.

It was very scary. I was worried I had a seizure. I was worried that maybe I had a head injury or lung cancer...or who knows what else might turn up in my blood work. Thank God, I just got some antibiotics and bacitracin to deal with in the next few weeks.

The scary thing is...I realized that most of the time...I am on my own. If Chris wasn't home, if my Dad didn't just get back from vacation (my Mom isn't back yet and she doesn't know what happened...)...who would have missed me?

That terrifies me. How my friends are all so busy with their more and more "grown up" lives...how I don't really have any one who is there for me day to day...how there isn't someone out there who considers me their most important person. I'm scared of being alone now. Maybe that's not the right word...more...I'm frustrated by being alone.

All-in-all...I haven't blogged in a while. And this is what happens. In any case... work has pre-occupied my time to the point of neglecting my health. And I did have dinner again with TN...which was just ok.

Needless to say, I am out of commission for a while. I'll just deal with things later. I just want to sleep and watch tv at this point.

Elect!
Tuesday, November 4, 2008 07:47 p.m.

Ok. This is going to look funny until I go home and edit this. (Blogging from Starbucks on the Blackberry)

(**edited)

Yesterday was just a horrible work day. I flipped out because a freelancer was making wikipedia too much of a friend.

I also was still coughing up a lung. I may have walking pneumonia or something. I actually thought I was going to black out at one point.

And I saw S two days in a row. That just effin' sucks.

Anyways, I left work early to vote And it was insanely quick. Historic they say. I just want the day to end so I can hear the official results. Change. Much needed.

Oh and Fallout 3 is friggin amazing. I just want to take a sick day and play. How's that for democracy?

**EDITED for post-election results**

Wow. LANDSLIDE. Wasn't even close. I'm stunned. This is amazing...not just for African American and bi-racial people...but for all American minorities...and all Americans.

The next 4 years are going to be unpredictable...but I hope that "change" really is more than a catchphrase and that we will look back and see this period as an opening up of consciousness and a life-affirming period in our history.

Being this age, at this time, in NYC....it's amazing. I can't wait to see how this all goes.

date-o
Thursday, October 30, 2008 11:42 p.m.

What a crazy day at work. Meeting with TV network was lukewarm. I was just off my game today. I really need to be healthy and soon. Really affecting me.

Will have to dazzle in the follow-up. Hope there is something we can still do. It will be tough and a lot of work...but could be good.

But..my crazy dream project...could happen. One key player already likes the idea...and it could go somewhere if that hurdle clears.

Ok...the date-o. Met up with TN at my fave place. Had a beer, she had a coke. Man, she reminds me of Tina Fey...and E. Maybe because she is so short.

Very quirky and snarky. Totally cute in the way she just has random facts and opinions. She loves german chocolate cake, rice and beans, and the movie "Marnie"... she likes odd things. Flirted with her...and she was charming and cute. Definitely had a good time.

Surprisingly, she watches "Ghost Hunters" and we totally talked about random things. Had dinner, dessert, and took a walk. She said she had to drop in to see a friend who was not doing well...and she said we should try to hang out again next week. I hope I am healed up by then.

Had a good time and I'd like to see where this can go. Second date is the charm...taking it slow.

Kung Fu Panda tomorrow...but after morning load of work. Oh, man...Happy Halloween. Be safe and have fun!

love it when a plan comes together...
Tuesday, October 28, 2008 08:45 p.m.

I am STILL coughing up a storm and this freezing cold weather really is not helping at all. I'm just ready to be healthy again. Please.

Work has been going GREAT! My clients love me so far and I am getting a ton of potential future business because of their referrals.

My top secret project is going to be featured in a MAJOR promotion. WOW. And it might get me some really awesome PR at Comic Con.

Speaking of which...two of my other potential clients will likely be at Comic Con...and if they have announcements...I'll be there with them.

I wish I could divulge more...it's super exciting. But I have to wait and just grit my teeth until it's official and I get an ok to go ahead.

Anyways...I have a date with TN on Thursday. I hope I stop coughing by then. She's just really witty and funny. I hope we get a long in real life.

Kay from UK was here and we had lunch. He's a cool dude. Will hang out on Friday at the Halloween party...My Kung Fu Panda costume should be awesome. I'll be adorable.

Job is going super awesome... now I need a social life. Let's make it happen.

sick of being sick...
Sunday, October 26, 2008 11:27 p.m.

Seriously...this is getting ridiculous. I thought I was getting better...and then I end up passing out for nearly the entire day. I went to bed last night around 1...and then got up around noon. Ate, helped moved some stuff for my folks...and ended up sleeping from 230 until almost 630! And the coughing...it's different...I don't know if it is better or what.

Basically, I think I am stringing two types of being sick together. Ugh.

Work has just been more and more hectic... but I'm trying to keep my head above water and get all I need to do done. I have no idea what the calendar is going to look like in November...but I know chances are that it is going to be pretty crazy up to Thanksgiving...and then a few weeks before the holidays. Wow...so weird.

And yes, I need to think about New Year's and whether or not I am prepared to be alone again this year...or just really push hard and see if I can land someone before. Crazier things have been done.

SNL with Jon Hamm was awesome (Don Draper's Guide to Picking Up Women was hilarious!). And the Mad Men season finale was great. Elizabeth Moss is totally growing on me. She looked totally cute on SNL in her cameo.

Incredible Hulk was fun...nowhere near as good as Iron Man or Bats...but good. And I am totally digging "Threevening with Kevin Smith"...I love this dude. I must meet him one day!

Ok... another 5 days of craziness. possible date, Halloween, meetings, UK dude coming, paperwork, etc. It's gonna be koo koo krazy.

Bring it.

empty nest syndrome...
Tuesday, October 21, 2008 10:14 p.m.

My dad said "I've been having psychological problems lately."...oh, wow.

He actually said those words and admitted it.

All of it stems from Justin moving out, my folks getting older, them about to become grandparents...major life changes...

He said that he doesn't have much interest in anything lately. Wow.

Come April when the nugget is born...I'm sure he will be fine. So strange.

Last night--these two folks from a major comic book company took me out for drinks...well, it ended up me paying for drinks and them buying dinner since we had such a great time...but all in all--we have this MAJOR plan to announce a partnership that's never been done before...and we are hoping to loop in a megageek celeb to work with. It's such a HUGE dream...but if all the pieces fall into place...this could be a career maker.

It's going to take a long time and a lot of hard work, but it really could be done.

Funny thing is --my horoscope today was something like "you will be able to make great new partnerships with creative people"...hmmm.

AND...my big TV tie-in project is half done. Book one is off to the printers...book two is in production now. Whooo boy. I cannot wait to get these books in hand. Just awesome.

I need to stop buying toys. I'm stressed out and I buy things when that happens. Lately...a ton of Mighty Muggs and other toys. I must stop. GAH!

More work tomorrow. It's chilly! I love it! sTILL COUGHING! (hate that.)

Onwards and upwards, kids.

another week...
Sunday, October 19, 2008 08:50 p.m.

...and I am still not better. I am slowly getting rid of the cough...but it has been over 2 weeks and I am tired of it. Ugh. Just want it to go away so I can breathe normally again.

Week went by in a flurry of paperwork and page proof. The TV show project--well, book one is basically done. Should be getting final approvals tomorrow and then off to the printers. Wooo! Onto book two.

CCW was apparently mad at me because word got to her that I "never" wanted to get drinks with her? I was mad that one time and probably said something to one of my big mouth friends...and she probably heard about it way after. This was before she apologized...anyways, I've been nothing but nice to her...and if I voiced my frustration...then whatever. She was totally in the wrong. But, I got her a birthday present...and she was texting me to invite me to her bday party soon after. Water under the bridge. Silly.

I really need to decompress from work...but I don't see that happening until Thanksgiving or maybe even Christmas. It's been stressful and I just want to do well and close this all out.

A major comic book company is taking me out for drinks tomorrow. I hope we can find a way to work together...that would be awesome.

Still have not made solid plans with the girl...and I have not heard from her all week. Hope we are still meeting up...because, man...I need a date pretty badly.

Got some hand me down furniture since my uncle is moving...tons of crap in my apartment that I have to figure out what to do with now.

Baby Mama was pretty funny. And Speed Racer was actually much more enjoyable than I thought it would be.

Cough...please go away.

Ok, Mad Men season finale....then sleep.

again?
Sunday, October 12, 2008 12:13 a.m.

Ok, without fail...every year...I get sick for about 10 days in the fall and then 10 days in the winter. I am so sick of being sick. It's been about 9 days...so I hope tomorrow I will stop hacking. Ugh.

Insanely busy week with the "project" ...it's moving along at a fast pace and it all looks great. I cannot wait to announce it...and plans for more for 2009 have me excited. Will know more next week.

Haven't had much time to socialize with anyone at work...S is still getting up to speed at work and the intern is doing great. Subway or soup every lunch ...meh.

Went to see Blue Man Group on Thursday with ma, chi, justin, Jen (from Cali), Deanna, and SH, EF, KB, and CS from work...the show was awesome! Mix of music, art, tech, design, humor, social commentary....and one of the Blue Men came up and took a piece of Toblerone (prob a plant) from an audience member, had me throw it in his mouth (he caught them all)...and then he spit them back in my hand. The show was VERY interactive and would be scary for kids.... but man, I LOVED it...I'd want to see it again for sure! I'm talking to them again soon...so hopefully we will be working together next year.

I volunteered to do the "China" section for our Halloween office party...oh, man...what was I thinking? I better get cracking on this costume and decoration stuff...urrgh.

Weird thing... our associate pub's dad passed away, my friend in the office, her uncle passed, and SM's grandpa passed---all within like 2-3 weeks of each other...last two were days apart. These things come in threes? Say a prayer, if you are so inclined...

Weird moment...my old anime friend...I was looking to see if she was on FB the other day...and could not find her. I had not seen or heard from her in years...and then THE NEXT DAY...she calls and says she is in NY and wants to return DVDs she borrowed from me...like 7 years ago! Met up with her briefly...and chatted for a bit. Got back DVDs that I never thought I would see again. So strange.

Spending the long weekend recupperating...the financial woes have me a bit worried...but so far it's not affecting me personally. Just hope my friends and family are doing ok.

Supposed to meet TN soon. Not sure when...but looking forward to a date...it's been waaay too long.

Still coughing and feverish and I really wish I had someone to take care of me...ugh.

Nyquil...do your job.

Over and over and over...
Sunday, October 5, 2008 01:24 a.m.

A tiring but fun week. Let's just skip over the work stuff. Just a lot of it...and it's ongoing.

Gig with Josh went well. it was a lot of fun and I thought we both sounded great. About 20 people showed up...and even though a lot of folks that said they were coming didn't show up...it was still rocking. Nina came out...so that was cute. She got drunk off one Corona!

Our three duets went great. We did Creep--Radiohead, Friendship--Tenacious D, and Cry Me A River... video is on Facebook!

Afterwards. Big R and KY drove us home. Dropped Nina off and then we went to BK...where KY ate a whole TRIPLE Whopper by herself. I was in awe.

Thursday and Friday were both super crazy busy...and I was so tired. Was supposed to take Igor out for drinks...but was running late. I bought a round and then went to meet up with Elaine.

We went to this awesome Thai place called WON DEE...it was SO GOOD! But crappy little place and the food was so spicy. We ended up going to a gay bar with Chris and Tom...I just stayed in the corner and talked to them...

Off to Hot Chip and we stayed upstairs mostly. They sounded AMAZING live...better than they do on CD...(the CD actually kind of annoys me sometimes)...but it was a great time. Elaine is so much fun and she likes to drink!

Setlist:

Shake a Fist
Boy from School
Hold On
Bendable Poseable
Touch Too Much
Over & Over
Out at the Pictures
Wrestlers
(Crap Kraft Dinner)
One Pure Thought
Ready for the Floor
Made in the Dark
Don't Dance
No Fit State
Privacy of Our Love

Ok...so the internet girl will be known as TN from now on...and I am totally crushing on her wit at the moment. She is very clever...a bit nerdy...and I just hope this holds true in person and there are some sparks...sigh.

Anyways, went to Starbucks to see Justin work...then came home and cleaned, watched Iron Man, and felt sick...ugh. I cannot afford to get a cold right now! ARRGH!!!

Sleep...let's do this.