GAH!!!! HOT!!!
Tuesday, June 10, 2008 07:17 p.m.

Ugh...heat is just blech. I was in bed by 10:00 last night and aim to do the same tonight. Just flat out tired and feeling yucky.

So, the cat is out of the bag and I can officially announce that GLORIA IS FINALLY ENGAGED!!!! I'm very happy for her and will have to save up cash for (maybe) a destination wedding...and hopefully I can bring a plus one...ugh. In any case, this was a long time coming and I was just waiting for the ok to "unleash" (so much pun-nier considering that the proposal happened in the dog park). So congrats to Glo, Joe, and Jack (everyone's favorite Potcake doogydog.).

Licensing Expo--let's just skip all the meetings, the walking around, and the schmoozing and get to the part where I run into CCW (remember what happened last year?) anyways...she was at the show and we spoke a little. She said I look "exhausted" meaning I looked like @&^(! (basically, because I was there on my feet since 830 and sweating cause the AC was not cranked) and I said she stole my intern...she said she could "dish the dirt" with him then...and I said "been there, done that"...touche! Accent on the "e"...ugh. Anyways, I think a truce needs to be called. I don't mind being friendly with her...but never the way we used to be. Who knows.

I DID meet a certain Vulcan at the CBS booth (will upload pics) and my meeting with another network went decently...with a follow-up tomorrow...and a bunch of other ones...

Met this crazy, but kinda hot girl waiting for the bus. She was very friendly and chatty...but has a bfriend...oh, well.

Sigh...I think I have a weakness for strawberry/blondes with freckles or...how do you describe that...there's a certain coloring that some blondes have...like Marisa Miller. The skin tone and the hair...basically, I was very attracted to that girl from two winters ago...the one that gave me all the hickeys...but I digress.

HOT...UGH! YUCKO!!! Headachey and my feet are sore...more walking the floor tomorrow. Schmoozy-town!!!

wait...so that was the weekend?
Monday, June 9, 2008 08:55 p.m.

Friday: I spent three hours building shelves. Ouch. I love my friend...but it just had a weird vibe to the whole thing. We barely talked and I hadn't seen her in months. Just odd.

Saturday: Just tired from a full week of work and shelf building. Not much going on. Eric and Char came home and we went to a new Taiwanese place. Good stuff.

Sunday: Went to Jack and Angela's wedding! Superhot as it was the first day of our first heatwave this year. Man, I am so getting a new AC in my room this year. My folks, Justin, Eric, Char, Oph, Jen, Nina, my aunt all went and we saw people from Stuy, from junior high...etc. FY! She's still cute but a little weird and loopy...what did I see in her??? And DY...wow...she is still one of the prettiest human beings I have ever met in my life...and so married!

Had a great time drinking and drinking...by the beach...so it was like a destination wedding without leaving NY. UW was late so Alan stepped in to officiate...and J and S were a bit late...but the slideshow was still amazing.

Monday: Work...hungover and tired and I am aiming to be in bed by 10. Seriously, so tired and I have to be at the convention center early...hooo boy.

Here comes the heat...and a loooong week of schmooozing.

um...where did my week go?
Thursday, June 5, 2008 11:17 p.m.

One of those weeks where it just went on and on...and then what happened? Where did it go? I can't even remember all the things I ended up doing...hmmm...

Had lunch with RW from upstairs. Had a ton of calls, sample pages, boxes sent out, random work...and setting up meeting after meeting for trade show.

Highlight was seeing Kung Fu Panda with Glo last night. I seriously loved this movie so much. Better than Indy!!! Was so cute and the action scenes were just amazing. Saw it in IMAX and it was just ginormous! I am going to be KFP for Halloween.

Went to Korean afterwards and it was the BEST. I'm just going to that restaurant from now on. Had a good time with Glo before her bday. I don't get to see my friends enough. Happy early bday, hon! Have a good time at the zoo!

Been cranky all week with annoying work stuff (though I still mostly love it) and just with little things. Ugh. I need a break. I feel so tense.

New intern started today. She seems pretty adept ...but I could be wrong. This one looks like a chatterbox...but she's graduating college early...so she's gotta be smart right?

DVD big sale...but I am seriously limiting myself. Have to just cut it all off and watch what I have. Deals will always be there later. SOOOOO much to watch already. GAH!

Comics--Secret Invasion is awesome...and sad to say..I may be swaying back to being a Marvel Zombie...versus the devout DC head I was...come on Final Crisis! Please get better!!!

I actually do not know if I mentioned this but I saw Dave Gahan walking out of Bed Bath a few months ago. It was DEFINITELY him. Leather coat, tight black jeans, sunglasses...and a mop. So strange. He walked right by me and I wanted to be all fan-ish...but that would have been so awkward.

Playing benefit for China/Burma next Thursday. I want to donate more money too...have to do something. I've been avoiding the news...I just don't want to see how bad it was. Just hearing the numbers and seeing my families emails about it... ugh. Lord, help them.

Anyways, 1/2 day tomorrow and then going to GK's new place to help her build her furniture...which is funny because I will be dismantling display cases at work.

DORIS!!!!!!!!! Why do you not email or call me back!??!?

TGIF. Really. Next week is going to be madness.

nerdfest for girls...
Sunday, June 1, 2008 10:53 p.m.

...and I was there to witness it. Met up with AS and we went to see the Sex and the City movie. I have to admit that I really liked it...but seeing it in the theater with like 90% women, 9% gay men, and like 1% straight guys was a trip. The movie was a lot like the show and had some predictable moments and some corny moments...but overall...I did really like it.

Had thai and a stroll through the park. I have to admit that she's kind of a "good girl" very sweet and nice...and that is different from the girls I tend to like. But it was a good time and I enjoyed hanging out with her. I can definitely see us as friends...but beyond that I have no clue.

It definitely felt like summer today...ugh. Kinda muggy. Anyways, here comes Monday and a ton of work...oh boy.

life in the fast lane
Sunday, June 1, 2008 01:23 a.m.

Friday: Work was quick and I ended up getting a few things squared away. Went to lunch with AI and her friend SH. Had sushi/bento and had a very fun meal with the girls. SH has a voice like a cartoon character...very weird but cute. Kept AI company as she got a pedicure. Man, that looks painful! Then walked all the way over to Tompkins Square Park and had ice cream and a chat. AI reminds me so much of LY in a lot of ways. Maybe it's the hair or the unique outlook on life...but still. She's hot in that indiechick way...had a good time.

Came home and picked my mom up and went to MSG for the Eagles concert! I grew up on their music and "I Can't Tell You Why" is one of my fave songs of all time. Met a few people from the parent company and got stuffed on food and drink. Best moments were my fave song, the classics, and some surprise solo stuff...including "Boys of Summer" which was my ABSOLUTE fave song when I was a pre-teen. It was pretty awesome.

Setlist: How Long / Too Busy Being Fabulous / I Don’t Want To Hear Anymore / Guilty Of The Crime / Hotel California / Peaceful Easy Feeling / I Can't Tell You Why / Witchy Woman / Lyin' Eyes / Boys of Summer / In the City / Long Run / No More Walks In The Woods / Waiting in the Weeds / No More Cloudy Days / Love Will Keep Us Alive / Take It To The Limit / Long Road Out of Eden / Somebody / Walk Away / One Of These Nights / Life’s Been Good / Dirty Laundry / Funk 49 / Heartache Tonight / Life in the Fast Lane / Rocky Mountain Way / All She Wants To Do Is Dance / Take It Easy / Desperado

Had a really good time with Moms and a good heart-to-heart about a lot of things. It's one of those events that I will always remember. Glad I had the chance to share it with her. I heart my momma.

Saturday: Gary picked me up and we went over to his new house to prep lunch for our HS friends. His dog is so well behaved and cute...but sick. :(

Kaori came over and Unca A got to meet Dahlia for the first time. So cute and crazy red hair! Then Jen and Mike brought Timothy over...wow...babies. Gil came a bit later...but we all had lunch and played with babies.

Really, really strange. Talking about babies, mortgages, and spouses...I felt like such a kid. My life seems so different...and we've gotten older. Wow. And to think back in HS I was so madly in love with Jen...and now she is a mom! That just blows my mind...

To think what I would say to my HS aged self...the advise I would give...I'm not even sure what I would say.

Came home, watched some movies, cleaned up a little, rearranged the DVD collection AGAIN...it's close to what I had it a few months back. Why do I do this to myself?

Dinner and movie with AS tomorrow night...then back to work on Monday...hooo boy.

internets is watching!
Thursday, May 29, 2008 11:38 p.m.

Ok, so I'm not sure what to do. On a certain social networking website, there are newsfeeds of what your friends are doing. One of my teenage cousins decided to post some inappropriate material. I was really hoping it was a one off thing, but I clicked and was stunned. The page was just full of objectionable stuff. I mean, if you sent one of these "jokes" around in an email at work and HR got to see it....you would be fired on the spot. Seriously, it was that bad.

The problem is...I know I can't really say anything because it's going to sound like a whole "dad" thing (and the kid has issues in that department already) and I'm not sure what else to do. I'm sure kids think that these websites are "private" and only your friends get to see your page....but come on.

I mean, did the kid not think his family was going to see it. Or have someone in the family show and adult and be like "oh, the kids are so cute--they all have a webpage nowadays, let me show you...oh. my." What's even worse...what if an internship or employer or teacher...or...you get the picture. People do a web search the minute they get your full name for anything...sigh.

You'll notice that my blog is "semi-hidden"...but if you know what to look for...you can find it. Hence, me using initials of people in the past few years instead of full names (well, except for my close friends that I tend to mention frequently, you know who you are.)

Not to mention my "semi-cyberstalker"...that's a whole other story. He seems harmless enough and I take it he likes girls...so I am pretty safe, I guess. :P

Anyways, that's that. Not sure who is going to say something, but we'll have to deal with it eventually. Just not cool.

Weds: Work, phone calls, emails, sample boxes...yadda yadda. Made a bunch of appointments for trade show coming up. Came home and family and fried chicken. Blaaargh.

Cute thing happened. The girl I went out with recently...well, she started an online board game with me and we've been playing and chatting...and well, I'm kind of really warming up to her. We are supposed to have "cliche date night" on Sunday. Movie, dinner, drinks. Could be good. I'm digging it so far.

Thursday: Game continued. More work. And then took my intern out for lunch since it was his last day. He's interning at the competition....and it turns out that he will be working with a certain someone's group...yup, CCW is back! I just saw her at a wedding! COME ON! She's getting my intern! What the crap?!?!? Man, small world.

I told him to whisper to her at an opportune moment: "A says hi" and laugh maniacally and run away....I don't think he's going to do it.

COMICS! FINAL CRISIS!!!! Oh man. It's just starting and I know it is going to be nuts. I have to wait a whole month for more? Secret Invasion is really awesome too and I've been buying much more than usual. Yowza.

Speaking of which--one of the comic book companies I was pitching to. Well, this one is a biggie...but we can't do anything until 2009 or 2010 because they just can't deal with so many projects. Fair enough. But this woman I met...so nice. She has sent me so many awesome freebies. I am just stunned. I send her a few books, but the stuff she sends me is just so much awesomer. I am so grateful. I love this job.

GK is back in town! WOOOO!!!! So glad to have her back. I felt like something was missing not having her close by. My little circle of gals has kind of drifted because of work and relationship busyosity...but still.

Meeting up with her next week, and with Glo for her bday early since I have (ANOTHER FRAKKIN') wedding on her actual day.

Lunch with AI tomorrow (she is like hot, weird indie girl at our company)...don't know her really well and we are having lunch alone for the first time tomorrow. And she asked me...I'm a little wary cause she is a touch off the beaten path and may eat me alive.

AND...concert with my moms. It's a big 'un. My bosses boss is awesome. Crazy with the hook up on this one. Will reveal post-old school awesomeness.

AND...half day tomorrow.

TGIF, kids.

campfire stories
Tuesday, May 27, 2008 10:35 p.m.

Ok...not sure why this has been floating around in my head lately. But have you ever heard of salamanders living in fire? It's an old myth/folktale (and if you know Charizard from Pokemon...)

Anyways, when I was in Paraguay waaaay back on that missionary trip. I saw this salamander in the campfire scurrying around across the log. I freaked out and threw an ax at it (don't ask me why)...anyways, I was always wondering if I was seeing something supernatural or whatever (that whole summer was just...amazing. The things I saw and did there...just, wow.) but now I know (and knowing is half the battle)...that I was an idiot.

I don't know why I didn't think anything of it at the time...but hello...the salamander was probably hanging out in the log when we tossed it in the campfire...and he came out to see his whole world engulfed in flames.

I bet when he dug back in his log...he just cooked. So sad.

I kinda wish he did have some supernatural powers and escaped. But then I would get freaked out.

Ok, I need sleep.

summer hours...
Tuesday, May 27, 2008 09:12 p.m.

Started the week off with a 2 hour conference call that just went around in circles. Blaaarffgh.

Some very promising news from a few leads. Stuff that I am just super psyched about and fun. I hope it works out.

My bosses boss is awesome. I got some amazing tickets for upcoming shows....though there is one I thought for sure I would get...but it looks like not. But the other two make up for it.

I rand for 10 minutes and gave up because my allergies make me feel tired and cranky. Ugh. I'll give it another go tomorrow.

Pretty much it. Work and more work. Filling up the hours and waiting for some overdue awesomeness. Come on lady...where you at?

Memorial Day Weekend
Monday, May 26, 2008 11:16 p.m.

Friday: Half day was pretty cool! Got lots of work done and went to lunch with some coworkers (CAG included), then went to get some dvds, came home to watch tv, pack, clean up.

Saturday: Went to my aunt's house with the family and had some BBQ. Man, stuffed. Not much else. Just relaxed, enjoyed the weather, and watched my family slump into a food coma.

Sunday: Off to Jersey for Josh and Kim's wedding. My mom drove and she hung out at the hotel. Josh is a lucky dude cause Kim was gorgeous. Sat at his musician friends table and talked to a couple of his friends. Not bad. Drank a lot and I feel a bit hungover...but that could be allergies too.

Monday: I don't like hotels any more. I never get a good night's sleep. Came home from Morris Plains and watched tv, cleaned, and passed out for like 3-4 hours. I really think my allergies make me crazy sleepy. Anyways, not much going on. But glad I am not working on the weekends...but oh, that's going to come back soon. Ugh.

All-in-all...a relaxed weekend. These weddings are getting to me...I'm starting to feel it. The babies, the engagements, the weddings...I have to admit that if I have a second to think. I feel lonely. I'm not sure what to do about it any more.

Work is a good salve. Busy helps and I have more than enough coming up. Ugh. But yeah, I could use some help. What haven't I tried yet?

Anyways...let's deal with that later. Here comes Tuesday and summer hours.

Crystal Skull!
Wednesday, May 21, 2008 10:12 p.m.

Wow...work has been brutal with meetings, paper work and phone calls. Went to a huge meeting with a company and my boss basically took over. I saw some of the folks kind of looking at me because he started to ramble on a bit...oh, well. Mission accomplished either way and we may be working together after all.

Got to see Indy 4 special screening and it was awesome. Loved the call backs to Raiders and the Han Solo moment. Lots of action, funny bits, some cheesy CGI...but overall it was quite good. I did like Iron Man a bit better...but come on...compare this to Phantom Menace and you will be raving. People can be so cynical. Just enjoy it. It's Indy!!

Work--same stuff today. Phone calls etc... one comic book company may be very, very promising. Wow. It would be awesome to get this rolling. Let's hope the numbers work out.

My day flies by so fast now...busy is better. I have to admit.

1/2 day Fridays and long weekend...woooo! Bring it on!

Weekend
Sunday, May 18, 2008 11:35 p.m.

Wow...where did it go? Friday had a crazy busy day at work that I barely remember then went to banquet with my family. Ended up in a bit of an argument with Chris...but it was over pretty fast.

Saturday: Over to see KY and R get married! Went out to Massapequa and saw the beautiful ceremony. Ended up waiting for like 2 hours for Joyce to pick me up...and I ran into some nuts. This one guy at the pizza store across the street was demanding water for his meds...and then I took a walk around the block and this guy was like "What are you doing here?" I was like HUH? "Are you a Jehovah's Witness"....my exact words were "I just went to a wedding, dude." and he responded..."Sorry...God bless" and drove off...um ok.

Joyce was lovely and we went to her in-laws with Adam so she could get dressed. We got to the club a little late...had some drinks and enjoyed the reception. Saw lots of old co-workers there and caught up...and yes, I did speak with CCW ...just a bit. It was fine.

KY looked gorgeous and R was so happy...we had a great time there and got home ok. Joyce drove me...and she felt like she would yakk...but she maintained and all was copacetic.

Sunday: Got up and cleaned up a little. Watched "The Mist"...which was awesome and then took a crazy long nap... I keep doing this on the weekends...I guess I am just really tired during the week and I have to make up for it. Oh, well.

Pretty much it for my weekend. Work week ahead is full of phone calls and meetings and paperwork. But should be a little looser. Then off to Jersey for Josh's wedding...and then...hello summer hours!

Here comes Monday...wheeee...

tired...so tired.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008 10:35 p.m.

Sweet shazbot. Early morning meeting, color copies, files, author emailing about PR, yadda yadda...barfaroni.

Anyways, went offsite to meet with company reps for a major cable channel. Not sure if we can do anything or not...but it's possible once things are in place.

Close to getting books done...but paperwork needs to be filled out next. Oy. Rush rush on everything. Glaaargh.

Ended up having a last minute dinner with T since she was in the area. Got a great burger and then went to get bubble tea...ran into our mutual friend that we were talking about before...small world.

Tired. Plans for wedding this weekend...and I am taking Friday as a work at home day...urrgh. Just want to pass out.

Um...date tomorrow? I'm not super excited. It's nothing to do with the girl. Our interactions have been great and light so far. I'm just completely preoccupied by work and wedding obligations and planning ahead....urrgh. I need to chill out and just have a beer and some good conversation. Let's hope it's a great time. I need it.

I will TRY to refrain from making out. I promise.

WAAAAUUUGGGH!!!
Tuesday, May 13, 2008 10:09 p.m.

So close and yet so far. Files are still not perfect. Lots of back and forth and hopefully they will be right by tomorrow. GAH! I just want this over with. I need a break so badly.

And more things have to be rushed and more fires need to be put out. I just ran around all day in a haze. I can't believe I am functioning on such poor sleep lately.

Been reading "Into the Wild" so I picked up the movie today too. I have to admit, the guy reminds me of a friend (or two) of mine...which makes me sad. Someone who is social and liked...but still is kind of on the outside and does their own thing...and you worry that they are going to do something drastic one day for some kind of bizarre ideal--due to something long in the past. Sad story.

Found out that one of my friends lost her twin baby boys last year. I had no idea. We had been out of touch until recently...and wow. What sad news. You always hope to hear that people are doing well...you never expect something so tragic. Pray for her if you can.

Meetings tomorrow and more files exchanged. It's going to be nuts. Suit and tie tomorrow. Will go with the new haircut.

Off to bed super early.

almost...done....
Monday, May 12, 2008 09:29 p.m.

And yet...so far away. So we missed our disc to repro date...but apparently it's ok since production will shuffle things around. Yeesh. Ok..I'll let them take care of it. Main thing was that the client was happy with the revisions and once they are completely done...voila.

So...I was very tense and stressed out today...and I can feel it fading...but after tomorrow or Weds... that should be it. BUT...other things are bubbling up that make me want to yack.

Anyways, highlight of the day... awesome box of trade paperbacks came into publicity...and I got to grab a few. Sweet.

AND...weird...weird. I may be working with a certain heiress. Let's just leave it at that. Speaking to her rep on Monday. So strange.

Anyways, got a haircut. Cleaned up, watched HIMYM...and now I want to go to sleep super early. Wooo.

can I barf now?
Sunday, May 11, 2008 01:28 a.m.

So...my files are officially late. Coming in on Monday and I have no idea why everyone else is so cool about it. We are going to miss our date...so why am I the only one freaking out?

Anyways, just a long tiring day...I was beat...but went to meet T for the MCR/TBS concert. She was...an hour late. I ran into an old friend outside...and man, he just talks and talks. Urrgh.

Anyways, miserable rainy day but the concert was pretty cool. Missed a bit of TBS...but had a good time with T. MCR was pretty rad. Played everything I wanted to hear except "Thank You For the Venom"...which was weird. Other company people...turned out some guy's daughter and her friends...we didn't really interact too much.

Home...crashed. BSG was awesome though.

Saturday: Got up way too early. Did some chores...which reminds me...

My futon frame finally came off the rails so I decided to just throw it out. That futon has been in our family for like 20 years. (Um...I'm pretty sure one of my cousin's was conceived on it...weird.) It's the only thing I can sleep on comfortably. I can't sleep comfortably on bed springs...and I love that futon. Guess I'll have to get a bed frame.

Ended up taking a massive nap. Slept like another 4 hours...and I'm still beat.

Monday and Tuesday are going to be nightmares of stress. I am sure of it. Anyways, I'll just have to deal with it. I've really done all I could. I just hope things don't get too delayed. Sigh.

I just want to fast forward. I've been really, really not well because of this. I feel it physically...and I'm having like work nightmares and insomnia. Not good.

Mother's Day stuff tomorrow. And then...back to the work week. Help me, Lord. Help.

Blarrrffgh.

ugh.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008 09:30 p.m.

Files are late. In tomorrow. Client seems fine with it...but if it's not spot on...I don't know if we will have time to correct all of this.

Stupid paperwork and other random distracting things...makes we want to vomit.

Comics...sweet comics. Secret Invasion...awesome.

Lunch with KB and AI...had a good time and took them out for their birthdays. Everyone is stressed for different reasons, a nice lunch out is a nice temporary fix. But even fun stuff makes me want to hurl because each buzz of the blackberry means someone wants something else and it adds to my nausea.

Would I rather be doing this than any job I've had prior...um...hellz yeah.

Next week...stress will be less. But the pressure is on for other things. Am I ever going to be able to take vacation? Glaaargh.