don't threaten me with a good time!
Thursday, July 3, 2008 12:27 a.m.

Man, what a day...just phone call after phone call and email after email. A ton of paperwork that I got through by some divine miracle. Ridiculous! But very productive.

Managed to go out for lunch with coworkers and could eat normally (but tentatively) again. This girl who spoke a mile a minute talked to me about support for gay rights...but I could barely understand her...much less what she wanted. Money? A signature? Yeahbuhwhat?

And the big news...had to postpone on KHD...she was just too pressed for time and had to work tomorrow....and I am still feeling crappy. We are supposed to hang out soon...and she said she will have to deal with her "separation anxiety" from me...gosh. What the crap. I am confused as ever. But not reading into it...sigh.

AND...CAG. We had a smoke outside and she is so much cuter and up and weird when she is not depressed. She said she wanted to hang out with me outside of work and said we should get a drink next week. Man, she is hot.

BUT...KHD--seriously, I have it bad for this girl. It's not just the superficial. It really is the banter and the wit that separate her from the rest. In an ideal world...she's thinking of me now. A little shy and embarrassed, but excited that she knows I am thinking of her...Wow, I am such a loser.

Got comics after work, got DVDs, got comic supplies...and came home to my new convection/toaster oven waiting for me. It's the little joys in life, really.

So, working from home tomorrow (even though it is my day off) and off to Boston tomorrow night. BBQ, hopefully get to see WANTED, and hanging with the family.

Long weekend. Time to play hard.

(oh, the header for the blog entry--can you guess what VH1 reality show it came from? Tougher still--who said it?)

sick...in every aspect
Tuesday, July 1, 2008 10:11 p.m.

Ugh...stomachache, sore muscle, fever, chills...just a terrible night. But slept for just about 12 hours. Got up and worked a full day (pretty much) at home on email. Got a lot done and so much I have to do tomorrow at work.

Yes, I am pretty stressed about the whole KHD "talk" tomorrow. I'm thoroughly convinced it's going to be the standard "I think you are great and an awesome friend" standard deal. I just don't feel like I want to listen to it. I don't even know why I am so worked up. It's stressing me out...and it shouldn't.

I have to go with the theory that if something is right...it should be easy and natural. If it isn't well...it just was never meant to be yours in the first place.

Do I like spending time with her? Of course. Would I want more? Who wouldn't? She's amazing. And I would have been a fool not to try.

In the end...I can't give up on this. Someone out there is waiting for me. I know I am not meant for the solitary confinement. I just don't have the time and energy to have all these false starts anymore. I'd rather know than not know.

Me and my idiotic ways...someone out there has got to think this is adorable and desirable. Right?

Work...bring it. Keep me busy and not thinking about this stupid emotional whirlwind of crap.

Long weekend. Let's forget all of this for a while.

I feel like crap...
Monday, June 30, 2008 07:21 p.m.

...for more reasons than one. I seem to have a stomach virus and a fever. Left work at 4:30 and I want to go to sleep now. Ugh. Headache too. Not good.

And...KHD emailed me. She loved the poem and said she could never write anything in response so beautiful. She said she didn't deserve a "friend" like me...ugh. That dreaded word.

And she wants to see me on Wednesday. Why can't she leave it well enough alone? I feel embarassed enough as it is. If I get the "friend talk" in person...I may just hurl. Seriously...what the crap.

Going to bed. Sick. Cranky. Miserable.

why am I such an idiot?
Saturday, June 28, 2008 10:39 p.m.

So, I met up with KHD at the museum and she was cute as ever. We really only did have 2 hours...no cute surprise in store. Oh, well. We tried to go to the roof, but it was raining and they shut it down and we missed the last tour up! Crap.

We checked out the Superheroes and fashion exhibit...it was cool but very weird and haute coutre. Some neat stuff though.

She bought me an iced coffee and we shared a dessert. I took a couple of pics of her and she did the same of me. Which she often does. Strange. But we joked around and wandered a bit. It was definitely relaxed and fun....and then the rain stopped, by then the roof was still closed...so we would have to try some other time.

Went to Central Park and sat for a bit. Talked and then it got a little deep...I don't know how it got to the topic but she was saying how she didn't know if she could ever get into a serious relationship again because of her past...and it got a little heavy. Not long, but we were off.

Her best friend from home would be in the states soon...and she said she wanted me to meet her. And we are going to see Dark Knight when it comes out. And she's gotten more kind of...tactile? She touches my arm a lot more now...and it's subtle...but I'm not going to read too much into anything.

Then we got on the train...I was debating this (especially considering what she said about her ex)...and then she looked at me with those eyes and that expression (her head tilted down her eyes up, then her chin comes up and she just...it's as if she wants me to like her more and more. indescribable)...just so cute and I wonder if she even realizes it. So...I give her this idiotic poem I wrote about our night at the concert.

Yes, I am a moron. Yes, the poem was sensual and not platonic...and yes, I wanted to give it to her.

I almost took it back, but then she was like..."ooh, is it a poem?" and then she took it.

I grabbed her hand for a sec and kiss on the cheek and I exited out the train door.

Let the hailstorm begin. I'm a moron. I played it cool the whole time and then I caved when she looked at me. I could have taken it back!!! Ugh!!! I was tempted to just leave that stupid poem at home (but, what if...) when I talked to Glo last night...but do I listen? I'm a doofus.

But...we've known each other since February...and each time we see each other, it gets more and more...just "more"...and I am just worried that we are going to drift into the friend zone soon...and honestly, I'd just much rather know sooner than later. I just don't have the time to pine after another girl and play games.

I'm always going to be like this. I'll be fun and flirty and kinda jerky...and then I will hit a wall and just want to flip the romance over...or express myself in some way.

I don't do well with keeping things in for long...and come on..since February! Honestly, I just want to proceed to one thing or another. No more second guessing.

Take me as I am...the person I am going to end up with is going to be on the same wavelength as me. Period.

I've said this before...there is some girl out there who is going to think I am effing cool because of my talent, my skills, my job, my interests, and my geekiness. And that's just that. It should come natural and easy.

So, whether or not KHD responds or not---I'm completely content with her being my friend. I love her company, I love how fun and up for anything she is, I love her wit and sarcasm and goofiness...if she is "for me"...then I will know. If not, she's still a great person to spend time with. But yeah, I haven't met anyone like her in such a long time...and I would be so lucky if she felt the same.

In the end, I'm tired of being alone and just rooting for myself. I could really use some support and love. I am intensely, intensely stressed out and I don't see it getting better. I just want to be happy and with someone....why does it seem so hard for me to do this right?

Let's get this show on the road already. I'm ready.

my baby is all growed up!
Saturday, June 28, 2008 12:48 a.m.

So, my day off...was up pretty much at normal work hour time...and off to Hofstra for the graduation ceremony...that would clock in over 4 hours.

I BBerry-ed my way through most of it since one of my clients had all these changes she wanted to make...changes that would be really difficult to get done...oh, whimper. But we will see what we can do. Sigh.

Justin's graduation ceremony was good...the kids giving the speeches were just...blech. Really bad actually. Were we really that naive and know-it-all at that age?

When I graduated HS...Justin was 4 years old and I carried him around the whole time. He's in all of my photos from that day...my baby. Now he is going to college and adulthood. I cannot believe it. Wow.

He is my absolute pride and joy. I love him more than anything in this world and would do anything for him. Now, just want him to work hard and make us all proud. I am sure he will. God, watch over and bless him. Amen.

Anyways, went to buffet lunch where I did not feel sick and stuffed for once! Came home and did some major clean up and watched some tv...pretty much it.

So, heading over to meet KHD tomorrow. Glo says to play it cool and not say anything. Good approach. I will see if anything happens...it will be in the day time and things are always different in the light of day. And it could rain and it will be hot. Ugh.

My dream would be that KHD is supercute and planning some crazy surprise--as in..."I was kidding about just having 2 hours...I have this awesome day planned for us!"...but that is something that I would do...meaning, no one else in their right mind would do that. (Yes, I am a woman. I admit it. Leave me alone.)

Man, I just want some good surprises. Don't I get one? Come on. Please?

Well, work and comics and DVDs and a puke inducing short week coming up. Hoo boy.

"I am human and I need to be loved." You said it, Moz!

hot streak...
Friday, June 27, 2008 12:14 a.m.

Wednesday: Work is just going bonkers. Nonstop busy and taking calls and meetings. Met with a company that we have been talking to for almost a year...and we are reviving talks...and new properties. Will this stuff really happen? Unbelievable. Calls and emails and just managing people who tend to flip out...but so far...things are falling into place. Another science based book--really? More of this stuff just comes in every day.

Went to lunch with a bunch of the girls on the sales force and had a great time with them. I can fit in pretty easily...as if that wasn't news. Sigh.

Thursday: More of the same. Financials make me want to puke and I had to make an "executive decision" ...oh, well. Hope it pans out ok. Client is happy at least. And another call and more American icons and another TV network? Craziness! And authors throwing a hissy fit that I had to shut down...but whatever.

Mom, Chi, Niu, Lu came to the office and then we went to Union Square to hang out...and then went to Chat N' Chew...I love these kids. And I had a talk about internet propriety and the importance of getting internships. The babies are growing up.

Home...America's Best Dance Crew...ok, my faves are Super Crew and Fanny Pak---that one weird blonde in the group is so oddly cute to me.

Comics have been awesome this week. All the Secret Invasion stuff...and Final Crisis 2 just kicked all sorts of arse. Re-read Seven Soldiers of Victory to refresh my memory...and man, that was SOOOOO good the second time around when things made sense reading it all in like 2-3 days. Just really worked and the way it climaxed...if movies and TV shows did that...wow. Comics are awesome!!!! Grant Morrison is a genius!!! I am going to order like all of Doom Patrol now.

Justin's graduation tomorrow. Wow...my baby is graduating from high school. I can't believe it. My pride and joy. I'm going to do everything I can to make him successful in college and afterwards.

And...KHD Saturday...I am still so puzzled by this 2 hour rush. Why not just reschedule? Is it a good sign that she wants to see me...but that weird email? So strange. What the crap is up? Man, I just want to get to the bottom of this.

Work and everything has kept me so busy...and it's been great. I am really moving up and becoming good at this in just about a year...and if things really do come to fruition. Wow, I am going to make a mark soon. I'm hoping it goes in the direction it looks like it is heading. Skies the limit. Thank You, Lord.

TGIF. Grads and most likely some work tomorrow...

yeahbuhwhat?
Tuesday, June 24, 2008 10:23 p.m.

Kick-ass day at work where I got a ton of stuff done. Wrote another story and learned some tricks in InDesign, succesful phone call, some good meetings, good emails, sent samples away, expecting a ton of follow-up soon.

And then I emailed KHD to see if we are still on for museum day on Saturday...and then she was all weird saying she had to leave by 5 to prep dinner for a friend's bday party...and she wanted to meet at 3? Giving us only 2 hours at the museum...and then she got all weird saying "how long does it take to see an exhibit? uh!" WTF? I mean...that sounds so weird to me. Of course I want to see her...but this was so odd...and I'm wondering if I was a cute girl...and I had a surprise in store...would this be the way to go about it? Gah! What the crap?

And CAG...I bought her a huge box of Cheerios from Costco because I know that she eats that all day. I would have expected a "thank you...or that was so sweet"...but she was like "take it back!!!" Seriously.

BUT...MO at work. I got her some choco for her bday and she gave me a huge hug. Going out with her and some of the other girls for lunch tomorrow. I am one of the girls...goodness. Me and 5 other girls. Great.

AND the biggest surprise...remember how I thought I saw "that girl of the infamous night" last week. Well, I wrote her an email asking if it was her...and she replied. It wasn't...but she asked if I thought it was...why didn't I say hi? She went on to say that she still gets my emails for shows and she was going to grad school. Nothing really about wanting to meet up...but it was friendly enough. So strange.

Just a really bizarre-o day...leaving me scratching my head and wondering what the crap.

Starting to eat healthy. Salad for dinner and I can already feel the queasy veggie-belly...oh, man...and I tried on pants from last summer that used to be tight...and they fit??? I have not worked out in months! What is going on??? I am really puzzled.

Thanks for the FB message Eunice...we shall hang soon hopefully. Same goes for phone message to Glo...mayhaps inbetween July 4th and before Comic Con? Ugh...it's going to be crazy busy though because I have to get stuff crammed in because I am missing a week of work.

Weird day. I need a hug and some good advice.

the start of a beautiful...
Monday, June 23, 2008 10:35 p.m.

Work work work...and then a surprise meeting. One of my contacts from the major network TV station was in the building and we ended up meeting. Looks like I could have at least 2 major TV tie-in projects down the pipeline...and possibly more.

We had a great meeting and I obviously knew the property very well...and bam...they got the deep pockets and it looks like this could work.

I actually got kinda dizzy at work because I had so much caffeine and didn't go to sleep until like 3:00 because of all my napping.

Went for a Costco run and just came home. Glad to have some healthy food in the fridge...now I gotta do some laundry tomorrow.

Sigh. Work is awesome...but I need a personal life. Seriously.

sleepies
Sunday, June 22, 2008 11:43 p.m.

So what did I do this weekend? Sleep. I just took naps like crazy. Chris and Kelvin brought Fatty and Toby over...so we had some dog fun. Other than that...a lot of naps and tv and did some writing for work.

America's Best Dance Crew--I am glad that Fanny Pack is still in it...but the hottest girls in Distorted X got eliminated? WTF?!?!? That little shimmy with the shirts...wow. What a waste.

But man, Super Crew are the ones to beat. That ninja b-boy stuff they did was amazing.

Apologies to Glo--it was so late on Friday and it wasn't solid plans that I met up with JKL. Hopefully, next time I will know ahead of time. If you come out to San Diego...you can meet him and the cast there?

And the whole KHD thing...given a few days...I am sure the intensity will die down...and my fear of failure will kick in. Seriously, I am just plain tired of this stuff not working out for me...on the other hand...I have this intense hope that the person I end up with will be so incredibly amazing that she will blanket the world of regret I've carried for this long.

Am I stupid for believing this? Maybe...but I can't help but think she's out there and we'll be together one day.

So--if by perchance I do meet this girl. I'm wondering if this testament to this proverbial "her" is something I'll show her:

Witty, sarcastic, bright, whipsmart, sexy, rambunctious, a reader/watcher/do-er, pottymouth, social entertainer, self-deprecating, up for anything, likes to sleep with a human teddy bear, and someone I want to wake up next to every morning.

One can dream.

Ahhh crap. Here comes Monday.

Friday...I'm in love?
Saturday, June 21, 2008 03:00 p.m.

Whooo. What a day. Phone call, meeting, phone call, then took a walk with co-workers and LK asked why I was going back in the office and I said "I just have so much work to do." and she said..."that's like your favorite line"...but come on. It's so true.

Went back, wrote almost an entire kids book for client, bunch of follow-up emails, and prepped for next week's mass mailings. Left at about 7:00 to meet with KHD.

Met up with her at MSG and wow...she is just gorgeous. Those eyes, the eyelashes, that crazy infectious laugh. Amazing. Went up to the suite and it was pretty empty...then got bombarded with people from parent company...one of which I have a phone call with on Monday to discuss potential partnership.

Anyways, the opening band were pretty good and metal-y. Strange...and then the Cure came on. Awesome. Sounded amazing even though Robert Smith looks a bit like a fat lesbian wearing a black mu-mu.

Setlist: underneath the stars, prayers for rain, a night like this, the end of the world, lovesong, to wish impossible things, pictures of you, lullaby, fascination street, from the edge of the deep green sea, the perfect boy, hot hot hot!!!, the only one, wrong number, the walk, sleep when i'm dead, push, friday i'm in love, inbetween days, just like heaven, primary, shake dog shake, charlotte sometimes, one hundred years, baby rag dog book, E1: if only tonight we could sleep..., the kiss, E2: freakshow, close to me, why can't i be you?, E3: boys don't cry, jumping someone else's train, grinding halt, 10:15 saturday night, killing an arab

"Fascination Street" and "inbetween days" were my faves of course.

But the highlight was KHD. We had so much fun talking and laughing and just crazy flirtation. At one point I grabbed her hand and gave her a bit of the reflexology...and she grabbed my hand and did the same. Looked me straight in the eye with ...this LOOK. It was just insanely sexy and I just about passed out. I just said to her "you really suck at that". I did offer her a full body massage...and she said she may take me up on the offer for the right price, since my services don't come cheap.

She put her arm around me and kind of leaned over a few times...just too much. And our conversation was just a bit too overwrought with innuendo. She bought a brand new $1,000 SLR and kept joking that she wanted to take nude photos of me. I said "where you are from blackmail might be common with your nation of criminals, but here it is illegal." And then I offered to take photos of her nude and sell them on the internet. No slap to the face. Come on!!!

And when "Just Like Heaven" was on..we were singing along into my cell phone like a pretend mic...and I made her sing the line "because I'm in love with you"...and I was like "awww...thanks" and she was like "well, of course, obviously."...flirty. *blush.

Her boss asked her to write a script for a thing he was filming...and she didn't want to do it on the weekend. So she was like "I'll just tell him I'm having sex." I responded with. "I will touch your nude ankle and we will call it a day."...she responded with. "I'm not that kind of girl. They are completely covered."...gosh, so cute.

And we had a completely straight-faced conversation about whether she preferred vampires over werewolves and mummies over zombies. What other kind of girl am I going to meet who will humor me like that.

Afterwards met up to say hi to SH and her sister A! Finally got to meet her. 10 years younger but still likes all the stuff we like. Adorable.

Then KHD wanted me to go to her friend's bday thing..but she couldn't get in touch. So we met up with JKL (my actor friend) and his girl A. Went to Bonchon and had a few snacks and caught up. Cool to see him...but it was like 2:00 am and I was exhausted.

So, got KHD a cab and she wants to go to the Met next Saturday. She hugged me fiercely and gave me a huge kiss on the cheek. I grabbed her hand and kissed it. Got her in the cab...and she stopped and was like "You sure you don't want to hop in and drop you off somewhere." I was like "my train is right here..." UM... am I reading too much into it or was that a sign?!?!? GAAAAH! I'm an idiot.

Anyways, it might have been the booze. It might have been the music. It might be the summer. But considering all the banter, the stuff we enjoy, how she is up for anything (and so easily convinced--"I really need to go home and rest."..."Come on, hang out for a bit."..."Oh, ok!"), how insanely witty and charming she is, and just so so gorgeous. I think I have it bad.

She did mention that she was finally over her ex...which is a huge hurdle...and she was feeling good about that. And the fact that she wants to hang out more and more...and it is OBVIOUS I like her. It's a good sign.

I am treading very carefully because of the whole "asking her to wedding" embarassment...but I think she may be coming around? Or maybe I am just being a completele idiot about this and will look back on this blog and feel even worse about myself. I mean, is she like this with just anyone? Or is it just me? Who does she hang out with? Am I spending a lot of time with her and does she see me as anything potentially more?

Who knows. But I think when I see her next weekend. I'll know for sure. In the daylight and sober...and into the night...she might be worth the risk of embarassment again.

And if it works out...the story of how we met would just flat out be amazing and perfect.

And come on...the Aussie tie-ins. JKL the second to last time I hung out with KHD, JKL texted me about going to Oz just when KHD came. My friend who is in Oz at the moment emailed me when we were at Bon Chon...and this morning when I was watching Man Vs. Wild....the episode I was up to was about Australia.

Yeah, yeah...whatever. But you've seen the pattern before in the past of how the universe starts sparkling with signs that point to that one person in my life at the moment. Maybe it will work out this time.

I am a realistic optimist...and I know my heart is so fragile and brittle from overuse and abuse. But sometimes you have to go for it. You have to commit to the risk and try try try again.

Soon.

Inbetween Days...
Thursday, June 19, 2008 09:47 p.m.

Wednesday: Gah...can it get any busier? Intern management, work, emails, paperwork, samples...ugh...then went to agency and had three meetings for four properties! One celebrity, one magazine, one consumer brand, and one pet product...all could be possible. Wow.

One of the agents is leaving (the cute one) for another company...but good to keep in touch because business is possible at the new company.

Back for follow-up and in bed early...but didn't get much sleep.

Thursday: More of the same...and some surprise news...hmmm. Can't say anything yet...but next year could be great.

Cure tomorrow with KHD and may hang out with my celeb friend after if he has time...

Been watching lots of cool shows. Man Vs. Wild is insane! How can Bear Grylls (real name? Yeah right...) eat that crap ?!?!? Squeezing fluid out of elephant dung?!? WTF!

Comics: Ok...I blogged about the episode of Angel where Fred dies...well, the comics continue with the new season...as in it is official canon. Anyways, Wesley has died and he returns as a ghost. He is watching over his body in case he can be resurrected...Illyria has been flickering in and out and manifesting Fred...which is impossible since Fred's soul was supposedly gone forever.

So Wesley is concerned that he is affecting Illyria in a strange way...and then Illyria clasps his corpse and says that after all the pain she went through of loss and separation..."This time you are staying with me." Which isn't much in itself...but Fred's last words when she was dying to Wes were "Why can't I stay?" ...yes, I got choked up. Nerdtears.

Shut up.

Anyways, lots of stuff to do tomorrow. Call, meeting, call, writing books...and oh, my client has basically guaranteed business through 2011. AWESOME!

Lots of irons in the fire...could be amazing.

Oh and CAG has been supercute lately...I'm wondering if I should try something? Am I being stupid? Again?

And then there is KHD...sigh. I can't get over that one. She's amazing.

AND...I think I may have seen KM--from that special crazy night...I blogged about her not too long ago. But man, this girl looked so much like her...sitting close by to where I was standing on the train. Very weird.

Ok...so we get 1/2 day Fridays...but it looks like I am staying all day to get work done and go to the concert. Sigh...better than missing July 4th weekend...so, let's grin and bear it and get it done.

TGIF. Let's all yowl like Robby Smith.

reprieve!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008 08:44 p.m.

Monday: Blaaargh. Not feeling so hot. A ton of work. Felt dizzy actually. Home...in bed by 10...but woke up in the middle of the night anyways. Not good. Lot of internal tension in the company too. Really stressful day. I don't want to think about it.

Tuesday: Lucky boy! Phone call with client and they want to postpone the delivery of the books for another month or two! WOOOT! That means we don't have to cram over the weekend...and we have time to work out all the kinks in the meantime. YES!

A ton of follow-ups from the convention and one thing after another of possible projects. All or none could happen...but most likely a few gems will emerge. Good to be busy.

CAG has been really cute and snarky lately...and crazy european girl has been acting very odd towards me lately. Does she have a thing for me? I don't want to even get into it. I think physically she is very cute...but her whole outlook on life and personality...ugh. Not for me.

But CAG...arrgh. I've been so nice to her...and she knows it. Not sure if we are going to hang out or what...but it might be getting to the point where I say something. I just don't care anymore.

Though...seeing KHD on Friday...that might change everything. I mean...the connection I had with her was so strong at the start...but time and that whole weird thing with the wedding invites might have been too much. We'll see.

But no working weekends...wooo! (Though...that could change. Who knows.)

R.I.P. Tim Russert and Stan Winston. Sad.

Half day...then meetings...then possibly back to the office...and then comics.

jam packed
Sunday, June 15, 2008 01:11 a.m.

Thursday: Last day at Javits and I had a bunch of meetings that I have to follow-up on...too much to go into and it is all a blur. One could be a HUGE deal...I mean...multimultimillion dollar deal if it comes to fruition. Spent nearly a full day there and then stopped by the office to do some work and then off to benefit show.

Got to the bar and people were just late. Ugh. All the other performers did not show up until well past when we were supposed to start. Glo and Doris came, Eunice and Paul came late...and 2 friends from HS came also...bunch of other people there so it was cool.

Weirdest thing was my uncle sent a reporter from his paper. Got interviewed for a good half hour...and then a reporter from the rival paper came also (which happens to be Elaine's dad's paper...so weird. (Oh, the article appeared in Friday's paper. Pic of Glo and Doris in it too...)

Played a really good set...I thought I did pretty dang well considering I was so tired from the Expo and having not played in months...the other performers were great too (except the spoken word guy...I'm not into that whole slam poetry thing. I kinda hate it...too much to go into.) anyways, had to jet because had so much work to catch up on. Good to have my girls there...and T and her friends. All for a good cause.

Friday: Just a whirlwind. Had to get a chart going with follow-up plans to our CEO. Typed up everything...then went to lunch with the boss to catch up. Ended up staying late in ghost town office and did a lot of paperwork and prep for next week. My two aunts and Alex came and we took their books out and had dinner. Ended up leaving the office at almost 8:00 on a Friday!!! Crazy, but got a ton done...though I had to bring work home.

Another thing...KHD is going to see the Cure with me at MSG. She's so hard to pin down. She's all flirty over email and what not...and she keeps wanting to hang out. I'm pretty blatant about my little crush on her...and I thought that it was squashed...but sheesh...what the crap. Ugh. I really do like her a lot...but is this just friendship land? I don't even want to entertain this avenue of thought.

Saturday: Slept in...took work to the barbershop...got some done. Came home and then went to LI with the folks and Justin...and got a new air conditioner for my room! JOY!!!!! It was a pain to install...and considering we lugged it home in the thunderstorm...BUT the lovely cool air and restful nights coming this summer...TOTALLY worth it.

Father's day stuff tomorrow...and work. Oy.

truce?
Wednesday, June 11, 2008 07:53 p.m.

So...day 2 of the convention/expo...had some exciting meetings with several potential clients: network TV, magazines, brands, music, toy companies, etc. A TON of other things that I will have to follow-up on. Not much in the way of freebies...but man, my rolodex is getting pretty sweet.

The network people I met...the head woman was like "I love A!' because I was such a fan of her properties and really led the meeting....there is a high possibility that we won't do the project I am dreaming of...but then again we may and I may not be on it...in any case...an amazing contact with a ton of potential.

Ran into...CCW. I buy her an iced coffee and we chatted a bit about the show, old co-workers and friends...and a little a bit about what happened. I asked for a truce...since we keep running into each other...and reminded her of her last correspondence. Ahem. Selective memory...in any case. We will be cordial. boom. done.

Also got to see SWJ as her company was there and she had meetings also. So weird seeing her in this context...but may be able to get Justin an internship.

Tired...so tired. Rehearsed, ate, cleaned up, my mind is reeling about all the followups I have to do...and the fact that I have to write more kids books in 3 weeks...oh my. It's going to be insanely busy next week up through July 3rd. Gah...please help me.

More of the same tomorrow...and the benefit show. Bring it on! Please come out and bring cute girls. Thank you.