enjoy it while it lasts...
Monday, May 5, 2008 09:08 p.m.

...and BAM...it's gone. My somewhat light day today...well, it was a nice reprieve, but the UK is back tomorrow and we are down a day. I am so glad I worked on the weekend. There was no way I could have made it through today with all the other stuff I had to do.

Oh man...I am terrified of the craziness. I'm building up this monster in my head...and I really hope it's wrong and that things will go smoothly. Please, let me be wrong.

Anyways, work was work. Got some prep done and will have to get back to it throughout the week on other projects. But man, getting emails at midnight and having to respond...it's just frightening.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DORIS! Hope you had a good one.

Facebook is major time suckage. So is AIM. Man, I better not go on...even if it is unblocked at work now. Great way to kill time...but it can be so distracting.

HIMYM...awesome tonight. Mighty Boosh was too. I need season 3!!!!!!! But I have to wait until I go back to get it.

Scary moment this morning. My grandfather burnt some food on his stove and had no idea. No smoke alarm went off or anything... I was glad I was running late and smelled it in the halls. Really had me worried.

It's only 9:00 and I am so sleepy. Best get some early rest and get ready for the rest of the week. Oy. Lord, give me strength...

everybody's working for the (wait, it's...on the) weekend!
Sunday, May 4, 2008 12:20 a.m.

Friday: Goodness gracious. I thought I was going to have a relatively calm day...but no way. Got files back from client with loads of changes that I would have to type up to send to the UK because the faxes or Fed Ex would not work. Ugh...and we have less than a week since Monday is a holiday for the Brits...on top of that...I have a bunch of meetings/calls, etc...need to schedule.

Had lunch with the boss and he was going over our budget...oh, man...so much we have to do this year...and it is getting late. Just need this stuff to hit and get scheduled.

CAG...just super cute. Spent some time with her...but man, I don't think that's going to ever amount to anything non-crazy. I think she worries about money a little too much and in a weird way too.

Met up with Josh and two girls from our old workplace for drinks. I was so burnt out and tired...but I was missing his bachelor party this weekend...so I owed it to the guy. Had a fun time and got a bit wasted after 3 beers...but I tried very hard to sober up for T's bday...

Made it to Little West 12th (which is like really not intuitively near W 12th at all) and went to this super pretentious bar/restaurant for food that was not very good...but it was for T's bday...and I was worried she'd be all teary-eyed because events like this tend to remind her of her ex and that whole tragic thing...but she was really ok.

Ended up feeling kinda pukey and left early...went home and crashed.

I ended up missing J's bachelor party today and Doris' bday thing (and honestly, I never got invited...so I had no idea until I got a text asking if I was coming...but happy bday, ducky. I love you.) because I spent like 4 hours typing up manuscript...which is like the 3rd time I've done it in the past 2 weeks...because they can't get the frakkin files to work. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!

Anyways, it's Saturday night and I am tired. Off to bed soon. I'm burnt out and cranky.

oh...so that's the theme now?
Friday, May 2, 2008 12:16 a.m.

Well, got the files sent over to the client. 2 books almost finished and a week left to correct edits...but the UK has Monday off?!?!? GAH!!!! And one book...I have not seen anything AT ALL. Goodness gracious. Help.

Dealing with top-down freak outs on two other projects where I have to calm people down and rationalize for them. Just. chill. out. Meanwhile, in my head I am screaming and freaking out as well. Ugh. My stomach.

SS came in for an interview and she thought it went well...went to get food at one of my local hangouts...and we noticed that the waitresses were of a certain build, wearing tank tops, and short shorts...and it reminded me of a place that starts with an H and ends with an OOTERS. Will be back soon!

Got some organic gelato afterwards too..not bad, but overpriced.

Exhausted. BBerry is buzzing with more work email...but I'll deal with it tomorrow. I seriously want to barf. My stomach is a mess...ugh.

LOST...awesome. Man, where is this gonna go? Are they dead? Time travel? Bermuda triangle? WTF?!?!?

Looked up the lyrics to one of my fave songs at the moment. I heard it on the plane back and forth to UK and...I knew it was Goldfrapp...but it sounded so wistful and not electro dancey as usual...but loved it...then read the words and it's about a woman going nuts and possibly in the emergency room for a suicide attempt?!?!? Sheesh. I hope I just read it wrong. "A & E"...still an awesome song though.

I am addicted to Facebook. Wow, people I have not heard from since like 1994 are writing...so weird! Internet is awesome.

T's bday party tomorrow. Drinks with Josh and some old coworkers (cute girls?) tomorrow. Man, I need to cut loose...but I still have one crazycrazy week at least...and hopefully it chills out after that.

TGIF, TGIF.

I. AM. IRON. MAAAAAAN!!!
Wednesday, April 30, 2008 09:21 p.m.

Ok...before we get to the good stuff. Work has been...taking a toll. I actually had a panic attack last night...in the form of my shoulder and back just seizing up. (I used to get that feeling when I flew...so I know what it is...) anyways, 3 Advil and some Ben Gay and I was fine.

Just intensely stressful. People quitting, yelling, rushing around to meet deadlines...and it's not going to be over for at least another week or two. Not good.

Happy Bday to my bro and sis-in-law! Love you guys. Now go make a baby. Unca Abe wants to change diapers and get yakked on.

Ok...incredibly crazy day. But then...last minute I get invited to special preview screening of Iron Man...was going to go with my good friend from work LK and then...I get offered another two tickets...and Oph worked across the street, so he came...and then...KHD. Wow. She got off work early to come...

Anyways... here's the review:

Action scenes and the armor were just...WOW. I am rendered speechless. (ok, I did WOOOHOOO a few times.)

Robert Downey Jr. was brilliant. I may have a hetero-mancrush on him now. He was the perfect Tony Stark. (Alcohol problems and womanizing...check!)

Terence Howard, Gwenyth (too cute), and Jeff Bridges (in anti-Dude mode) brought their acting chops as well. Bad-assery all around.

Lots of easter eggs for comic geeks (War Machine and S.H.I.E.L.D....hello, sequel!)

Props to Favreau for doing a great job (and for playing the thankless driver Happy Hogan) and making...seriously...one of the best comic book movies of all time.

And as expected some sweet Sabbath over the closing credits. Take that, Guitar Hero drones!

It's gonna be HUGE. I predict huge, ginormous box office for this shiny flick.

An enthusiastic two thumbs-up. WAY UP!

Oh...and I got to meet one of my fave comic writers--Dan Slott! And I was inches away from the EIC of Marvel--Joe Quesda...sweet.

And two of my clients were there too...wow.

So, KHD had a great time and she was soooo cute. She wants to buy me dinner sometime soon. Very cool. We get a long so well...I just wish I wasn't stuck in the friend zone.
Anyways, bberry buzzing and have a work crisis to attend to. Blecch.

Tired...but good.

Oh, and I am addicted to Facebook now. It's insane.
Scary day at work tomorrow, but SS is coming in to interview. WOOO!
Top Chef and sleep...yay.

The internets has won.
Monday, April 28, 2008 11:18 p.m.

I caved. I am officially on Facebook. BOOOOO! I am so stressed out and have to sleep...and I get on Facebook now of all times. I'm an idiot.

What spurred it on...talked to Doris for the first time in weeks...and I was getting some invites but never took time to get on ANOTHER site...ugh. Information overload.

Anyways, what have I been up to? WORK and MORE WORK.

Went into the office on Sunday to work on files...and then ran into my friend. Scared the crap outta me...I thought I was alone and was seeing a ghost down the hallway. Jinkies, Shaggy!

Monday--stress over a project. There was screaming. There was quitting. There was me trying to calm people down.

Internal politics--my boss had a meeting...and said things were cool..."but watch out for that guy"...oh, man.

My good friend SS has an interview on Thursday with our company...would be awesome if we worked together.

Oh...and I got tix for MCR/TBS for the 9th...was thinking of taking T for her bday...who knows.

Stayed late at work to finish writing...came home and watched HIMYM and Deal or No Deal...the Star Wars edition...the models in the slave leia outfits...ZOMG!!!! That's like my nerdheaven.

Ok...must log off and sleep...sleeeP!!!

*whimper*
Thursday, April 24, 2008 09:37 p.m.

I really, really need to man up.

My boss came in and was like "wow, I've never seen you so stressed out before." Basically, he said I need to take a day off whenever I can...I'm dealing with some crazy time schedules and contract hell-ishness, and also internal stupid database crap that I really should not be doing...but there is no one else to do it.

On top of that...balancing all my contacts, figuring out wedding arrangements for like 4 weddings coming up...and just trying not to pull my hair out over stupid annoying things...URRRGH!

May 9th...after that...man, I need to get wasted, make out with a hot girl, and get me some friend chicken...and cuddle with a puppy.

Anyways, enough about work.

Girlicious...awesome ending and my three picks all made the group...bonus 4th member made it happen...and yeah, Tiffanie can get outta there.

HIMYM -- ZOMFG!!!! Ok...the real "Tiffany" cameo-ed and another Robin Sparkles video...but the last 3 seconds. Oh man...Is it weird that I think it is GROSS? Poor NPH...he's either an awesome superawesome actor who can maintain...or he was totally yacking at making out with CS...who I PERSONALLY WOULD ...goodness gracious...anyways....

Speaking of which...the Aussie/Kiwi/Brit woman that was giving our all day training sessions...sooooo CUTE. Like movie star cute...just wow.

Waiting for LOST...and passing out shortly after.

Friday? TGIF for sure...but it looks like I am going into the office on Saturday to work on files. Great...only one on the floor...creepy. Anyone want to keep me company? Please?

I been around the world...
Tuesday, April 22, 2008 09:48 p.m.

Gosh...where do I start? It's been a while, kids.

DC--Man, there are a lot of homeless people and folks trying to rip you off there. Ugh. Not good. Had a good dinner with Sabrina at this Thai place...and yup, she's preggers. Met up with clients the day after and really wowed them...this could be a million dollar deal in the long run. They loved the unfinished pages and seemed to really like me. Went back to the UK with good news.

London--flew in and was exhausted. Had good Indian food with Cindy, met with UK team(s) and got so much accomplished in a short time. Walked across the Waterloo bridge for recommended fish and chips...but it wasn't as good as my fave place. Internal meetings galore...blech. Who knows if anyone is really going to do what they say they are going to do. Eh, if we break down the barriers, I will be thoroughly surprised. But the Kiwis, Aussies, Brits are all awesome. Really like them...

Barely had any free time considering the meeting and work schedule. I did get some Brit DVDs, mags, comics, and snacks. Not much else really.

Home...sleep...and off to Comic Con! I will have to load up photos later...but cool stuff included: BSG panel with Col. Tigh, Anders, and Tori!!!

Wall-E sneak peek was awesome. SO CUTE! I want to see this.

WANTED and HELLBOY 2 panel (with the cast and Guillermo Del Toro!!!) were pretty awesome too.

First day was all work. Very excited to make all these contacts. Whether or not we can actually work on something with them...it gets tricky and political. Sigh...we will see. (Oh...and I got an Exhibitor's pass...ALL ACCESS...pretty frakkin' awesome.)

Second Day--More work, but got to go to some panels. DC panel with editors (got to meet this one guy I was emailing with) and then got to see Grant Morrison and JG Jones at the Final Crisis panel.

More work and oh...I spent like 300 bucks on some awesome art prints! Seriously...one of my fave artists gave me a few freebies to show the company. Apparently he screwed up a deal a few years ago...but I did put a good word in for him before...hmmm...

Highlight was meeting Blair Butler from G4! She really is cute in real life...and I may send her some books if she emails me. wooo!

Also...got an email on MONDAY from this one woman I had a great talk with about working on a project. Wow...could this really happen? Me on a comic book related project?!?! Let's see what happens...

Anyways, back at work and full steam ahead. I was so sleep deprived, but I got SO MUCH done...I just kept my head down and plowed ahead. Stayed until almost 9:00.

My folks had the day off...so they took Justin, Niu, and Chi over...I took them out to dinner and came home to crash.

Work work...CAG is still super cute...sigh. I really need a date. It's been so long and I'm starved for companionship. Seriously....I feel like a robot sometimes.

Well, Cloverfield, comics, and random stuff...awesome. But the weather...wow, that's a miracle. It's been gorgeous out.

Ok...tired. Off to bed early. Training and loads of work ahead. I may have to go in over the weekend...anyone want to hang out after? Someone buy me dinner, please.

pre-trip blues
Sunday, April 13, 2008 01:18 a.m.

Had dinner with the folks and got some soda from Target...came home, more packing, watched tv.

More of the same today...and just feeling a bit down and worn out. The job has been pretty good...but it's getting a bit exhausting. The trip will be a bit stressful and tiring, but it's a change of pace that I'm going to need. Coming back...looking at May...oh, man.

I think the reason the whole KHD thing hit me so hard was because I was embarassed more than anything that I was taking things so wrong. I just feel dumb...and on top of that...I heard that CCW (remember her from last year) was apparently secretly dating someone at my old work place (new guy that she actually helped get a job)...well, it ended...but it just goes to show my lack of savviness in the field and that I can be blind to just about anything...I'm just clueless.

And just thinking about how I am feeling and thinking about my future...I'm just wondering how long I'm going to have to do this alone...I think the bottomline is ...I miss waking up to a warm body, a beautiful smile, and just someone to hold.

I'm a total wuss.

It would just be nice to have someone thinking about me "in that way" again...but I'm holding out for someone that's going to blow my mind...I've been waiting this long...I'm not going to settle for just anyone.

Well, same old problems...but there really isn't a new approach. Waiting it out and just getting on with work.

DC here I come...and then off to London.

See ya, kids.

I'm an idiot...
Friday, April 11, 2008 03:19 p.m.

Eh...so KHD can't make it. Too soon for her to quit her job...and I think I was reading her all wrong. I think she was just being friendly by asking me to movies and dinner what not...but the whole wedding thing threw me for a loop.

Ugh. I'm actually embarassed.

What a maroooon.

It's not the game...
Thursday, April 10, 2008 12:52 a.m.

Oh man...what a day. Meeting and work and intern stuff...just a ton. CAG was super cute...but man, I gotta stay away from that.

Got comics then went to MSG to wait for KHD for the Knicks game. She is so cute. Just bubbly and fun...even when she is having a hard time of things. Just...I love spending time with her.

A few people from our sister company in the box...a little weird at first...but I got friendly with them really quick. Good stuff...might even do business with them.

So...KHD...had such a good time I barely watched the game. She talked about us going to see Iron Man and Batman, about getting dinner, concerts, dim sum...and I just asked her to go to a wedding with me...and she said YES!

I was even kidding around saying at some point she might have to make out with me...hahah no problem! I told her the secret word would be "vegemite sandwich"...too funny.

Weird thing is...5 minutes before I met up with her my friend emailed me about his trip to Australia...so weird. This happened before...Australia stuff and then I meet her.

Anyways, we had a great time. Hugs and kisses on the cheek and just...it felt like a date to me. I'm still not sure where her head is. I know she was hurt bad in a previous relationship...and I just want to get to know her and be her friend...if it really turns into something...wow.

And she bought me a book. I thought she was giving me this really deep book on philosophy...but it turns out it is deep...but an analysis of pop culture by Badrillard...wow. This girl is amazing.

Ok...not going to get too far ahead...take it slow. Just friends...for now.

Early meeting .... will last allll day...ugh. So much work to do before my trip too. ARRRGH!

Good day...mate!

have and have nots...
Tuesday, April 8, 2008 10:11 p.m.

Work week started ok...Monday was crazy busy but today wasn't so bad. A ton of stuff down the pike...but manageable, I hope.

We have another launch session tomorrow and Thursday...basically, new books are presented and we get to see what is coming up. Some projects may survive, while others don't... I've presented twice and one of my books is ready to hit the printers...so not too bad...I hope to be presenting some more things at the next launch.

CAG...man, she is struggling with money and where she is in her career...it's only her first real job and I think she is being way too hard on her self...me, my first real job was when I was what...22-23...and it took me almost ten years to double my salary...oh, man. Well, money/happiness...there isn't a time table. I'm not where I want to be yet...but it isn't too far away. As long as I am close to my goal by the time I am 35...well, that would be ideal. This year has been awesome and I don't want to get complacent or slow down.

Interviewed possible intern for the summer...my intern now is pretty good, but he may be leaving...crap. Anyways, I will have to retrain if we take the new applicant.

Mostly packed for my road trip. It is going to be exhausting...but should have some fun moments. Excited to see Sabs and Cindy...excited to be back in the UK...and dang...Comic Con...of course.

Pretty much it...Knicks game tomorrow with KHD...she said she got me a book. Cute!

And the wacky intern at other imprint...we are supposed to see a Broadway show sometime soon...good to hang out and make new friends...and yeah, she's pretty cute.

Off to bed early...running has been good...but I need to get my metabolism cranking again...aim is to lose 20-30 pounds again this summer...hooo boy.

blur...
Sunday, April 6, 2008 09:12 p.m.

This week went by in a blur of work. Just really busy. But I got most of my freelance stuff done...next round in a few weeks...oh boy. Hopefully won't be too bad.

Not much going on besides slogging through this stuff. Packing up for road trip next week and all the stuff I have to get ready for that.

Bye bye Destiney...I knew that was coming...and BSG premiere was frakkin' awesome. Worked from home on Friday...and man, there is a ton of stuff waiting for me on Monday. Gah...and I lost my metrocard...I hope they send me a replacement soon.

Dad's bday this weekend...so we went up to my aunt's place and had dinner. Eric and Char came down. Went to Kohl's and got a bunch of stuff...stuff to wear for ComicCon! hahah! Yay!

Home...more writing...should be it. Tired...marathoned a ton of Kenny Vs. Spenny...and actually have a lot of room in my suitcase for trip...good stuff.

Anyways, busy busy week and then I am off...sleep...sleep!

Chipmunks.
Tuesday, April 1, 2008 11:11 p.m.

Yes, I bought the Alvin and the Chipmunks gift set with three mini plushes. My mom has been bugging me to get this for her since it was out in the theaters...but I don't need no frakkin' excuse. That movie was adorable. Loved it...except the ending was kinda lame.

Anyways, work work work....but I have in hand the signed deal memo worth 100K by June 30. Ka-ching. More to come hopefully. I just gotta start cranking and cranking...

Anywhooo...Best Buy run, emails, follow-ups, etc. etc. Just a blur of a day...and I fell asleep on the train and missed my stop!

Came home and worked out too... another 30 minute run. Should get easier every day...and I should be able to lose a good 5 pounds or so before I go to London...I hope. Travelling lighter is always better.

Busy makes me tired...man, I have no social life lately...I need a date so badly. :(

Work! Just do it! It gets easier and easier...and hey...two more months and we get summer hours! WOOOOT!