Emergency room
Sunday, December 3, 2006 10:58 p.m.

Just got back from the emergency room...had a bit of a scare there. I was eating a granola bar and Justin took a bite. He had an allergic reaction....chances are it was from some brazil nut particles in it. Justin is allergic to pine nuts...so it's likely that the other one was the culprit. His lips got swollen and his throat started to get itchy. Doc gave him an epinipherine shot and some pills and he was fine an hour later.

Scared the crap outta me. But thank God he is ok...Lesson learned...dang granola bar from Brazil (Eric and Charlotte must have brought it back and left it at my folks place)...should have eaten it or thrown it away a lot sooner! I was in a weird mood all night too...and this just pushed me over the edge.

Anyways, things are ok now...but man, I was just a bag of nerves. That's my baby! Wheeew.

TENACIOUS
Sunday, December 3, 2006 01:04 p.m.

Friday: Not much work...and things with H were a little weird. I think she's a little stressed out with school and putting together this art party. J thinks I should maybe approach her after all this stuff is over...eh, we'll see. I'm in a weird place where I could go overboard or just give up altogether.

Anyways, Justin and Chi came and we had food court...hung out at the office and then went to the concert. The WORST opening acts ever...Super Floss--terrible "comedy" hip-hop act...just awful...and Neil Hamburger..."method" comedy...kind of like what Andy Kaufman did with his character...anyways...they both got BOO-ed!

Tenacious D sounded AMAZING...did some acoustic stuff...and then it went all rock opera...and they went to "hell" and formed a band with Colonel Sanders, Charlie Chaplin, and the Antichrist...so weird! The metal stuff sounded awesome though...played all of my fave songs...but they didn't play "Pick of Destiny" for some reason. Guess the movie didn't do all that well.

And the guy next to me...just smoked pot ALL night. And yes, I got major contact high. I was so dizzy after that...oh, man.

Anyways...weekend went by pretty uneventfully. Just finished my freelance...caught up on tv...going to work on some music stuff. Pretty much it. Work could be horrendous coming up...and then the wedding. Yipes. Lord, help me through the coming weeks. I'm tired and stressed out. Ugh.

karaoke
Thursday, November 30, 2006 09:47 a.m.

Work was ok...not much going on since our pages got delayed. Eh...what can you do. Got comics...pretty much it.

Karaoke time!...kinda sad cause a lot of people bailed...but it was Josh, Karen, H...and then Joyce came. Karen cracks me up...she was hilarious. I asked the girls to sing a Samantha Fox song (cause it was in Clerks II) ...and they were like...um...and then Karen sang "Naughty Girls"...and it was perfect...I was dying. HILARIOUS! H started doing these Indian dances...and omg...so cute. And Joyce...just sat on my lap. hahah!

Anyways, afterwards Josh had to get home...so I went to the diner with the girls. Had a good talk with them...and then it got a little blue...and then it got really serious about art and stuff. Afterwards, K kissed me on the cheek! that's new! And I gave H a big hug and Joyce gave me a ride uptown...she thinks H has no idea I like her...how is that possible??? sigh...le sigh.

Oh...weird stuff. The night before I went to the bathroom, went back to my room, shut the lights and got in bed...and then I feel..BOOOM BOOM...I was like...Chris isn't that heavy...I look under the bed and Krypto snuck under there! Scratching my mattress...stinky dog!

And then last night...I dreamt that Juliana Hatfield was all sweaty and strung out...and then I was all sweaty (in the summer time) and she pulled me close and we made out...and we were in like Vegas or something...lots of video games and candy machines...weird.

Drinks with Gloria tonight...haven't seen her in months...and Tenacious D tomorrow! woooo.

I am an editing machine!
Tuesday, November 28, 2006 10:05 p.m.

Yup...I edited 110 some odd pages in less than a day...I am an editing pimp. Some of it was BAD...but hey, I did what I could.

Got Clerks II (lunchkit set!) and Dane Cook's Vicious Circle...with free t-shirt! And one for Josh's bday too.

Been reading William Castle's autobio...and wow...it's just fascinating...his promotional chutzpah, the stars, and film's he's worked on...the prose was lacking...but it was just chockfull of great stories. I should be done with it tommorrow...fast read.

And um...H wore fishnets today. That is soooo my kryptonite. Seriously, even a fugly girl in fishnets gets a raised eyebrow from me...put a girl I actually have a crush on in them and I am totally a smitten kitten. Man, I wish she were easier to read...Joyce thinks she would be foolish not to like me...but J loves me...so I take it with a grain of salt. But honestly, if I got a clear sign from her...I would totally ask her out. This is so junior high. But all my past exes...serious, serious hinting that they liked me before I made a move...I hate being embarassed and it takes a lot for me to pony up and go for it. Why can't girls do the asking? It would make my life so much easier.

Veronica Mars...so good! Logan is an idiot...but I like him better than Piss...I mean Piz...what a dumb name. And a dumb haircut. No one is good enough for my Veronica!

Work, comics, karaoke tommorrow. I am so going to sing showtunes.

Monday
Monday, November 27, 2006 10:59 p.m.

Not much going on at work...though I did go to a meeting and it was...well, let's just say it looks like there is going to be a lot of red tape.

In any case, got an OOP Avengers comic I was looking for for only 4 bucks! Gotta love the comic sales! And hung out with H and Karen for a bit...I'm still not sure what I can say or do...but I dunno...just letting it coast for a bit to see if anything changes. After work...ran into H on the elevator and she had 20 lbs. of cleaning products (long story) and when we were leaving the building...the security guy made her go upstairs to get some kind of pass...man, she was pissed. I've never seen her like that...oh, well..everyone's got a dark side. Still like her though. :P

Went to meet up with Joyce before her class. Man, I do miss her...had dinner and tea...Alice's Tea Cup is AWESOME! I need to go back there! Anyways, had a good chat...and joked around...I'm her "other man"...but the scary thing is...if she ever did break up with her bfriend...would she seriously consider us? That's a story for another day.

HEROES was good! Charlie (the girl that was supersmart and dies...oh, man...she is so cute.)...what a waste...amd A;i Larter is HAWTT! yes, with two "T"s.

Expecting a TON of work tomorrow...arrgh. Busy week too...karaoke weds, Doris thursday, Friday...the D !!!

Going to bed early...yay.

Thanksgiving weekend
Sunday, November 26, 2006 10:53 p.m.

Just family...and dogs. Food. Work...working out. TV. That was pretty much it. Oh, and a lot of cleaning up and moving stuff around for the folks.

Eric, Charlotte, Shelb...mufru. And played Guitar Hero a lot...that game is addictive! And it gave me crampy hands.

Ho-hum...here come the holidays...wow...I can't believe Christmas is only a month away...where did this year go?

Monday...here we come.

Give thanks
Thursday, November 23, 2006 01:11 p.m.

Not much happened at work yesterday. Said goodbye to a few people, did some work, got comics. Got fried chicken and came home to watch tv. Still feeling under the weather...and the dang dog still pees everywhere.

So, what have I got to be thankful for...a lot. I'm still employed, my friends and family are doing well,...and I'm still alive. A lot of things could be better...and yes, they could be worse...but I am very, very glad that I'm just learning to be. Just be.

What's going to happen in 2007...crap if I know...but here it comes and I'm hoping it's time for a good year. I always felt that 07, 08, and 09 would be lucky years for me. We'll see if that finally happens.

No turkey today...maybe Saturday...but going over to the folks later tonight. I'm beat. Nap time?

ok...seriously...what is going on?
Wednesday, November 22, 2006 12:08 a.m.

Work was fine. Got a lot of stuff done so tomorrow looks like an easy day. Talked to Amber about music and comics...and then hung out with Cheryl a bit before she left. Her and Karen were so funny...they loved my haircut and thought I was hot. heh.

H came over just to say hi...and then I went over and talked to the girls some more. Cute. Lunch with Josh and we talked about the Wii...I may need to get one now.

Went back...finished work. Hung out with Cheryl...she is so cute. In tears...Peggy too. Both so adorable. We will see them next week at karaoke. So, it's 3:30 and H wants to go to Macy's...she left some odd voicemail anyways...I get out of work early and we get socks and a pillow for her. She is a very picky shopper...with expensive taste.

Go back to work...more goodbyes...this time for real. Poor Cheryl...she'll be fine. Then H wants to finish shopping and needs help moving stuff home from the office. Of course I help her! Anyways, we get back to her place and hang out a bit...then we go off and go to Crate and Barrel, Pottery Barn, BBB, Filene's, and TJ Maxx...she spent almost 300 bucks on stuff for her apt...and I ended up buying her gloves and some glasses (less than 20 bucks...but still)...in any case...we spent hours and hours together...and still I have no idea what she is thinking.

I was totally flirting with her...but I think she might be like "Abe is such an adorable puppy"...and not thinking that I might be serious. In any case, she cracks me up. She sings and dances in public and makes these wacky statements...but when she is serious...she can be so demure and smart. Really hard to figure her out. And yes, I think she is purdy.

BUT she would not have dinner with me. She said she wasn't hungry and normally doesn't really eat dinner...and she did have a huge lunch..but all I had was a salad and I was about to pass out. So...I get home at almost 11 and I am exhausted. woooo.

Short day at work...comics and then the long weekend. wooot.

work...not so bad?
Monday, November 20, 2006 10:56 p.m.

I ended up finishing all my work before lunch today. And I was all stressed out for nothing. Go figure. What stressed me out was seeing H...and at first things were weird...but then I went to set her up with itunes and things were ...kinda cute. She gave me this chocolate on Friday that I forgot to take...but she brought it in today...does that mean anything at all?

At one point I asked her if she had got my text...and she said "You underestimate my charms."...and I was like "You underestimate mine."...oh, snap.

Anyways, silly. Went to get a haircut and that was about it. Haven't been sleeping all that well..so I need to rest up because I have a bunch of stuff to finish at work with my supervising ed tomorrow.

Oh...my mom has started taking ballroom/salsa dance classes...every Weds. and Friday...how cute is that??

Something not so cute: I watched "Click" last night...and man...I ended up crying! That movie was so sad!!!! ARRRGH! And then at one point they played "Ultraviolet"...from "Achtung Baby"...and let me tell you...if you want me to get all goosepimply and nostalgic about high school...that's the song that gets me to no end. Oh,man. And Kate Beckinsale is HAWT.

Ok...I need to really stop being such a girl. I have to just deal and roll with the punches. Work...and then I'll talk to the dang girl...damn. If anything...she might be waiting for me to say something? Who knows.

Got freelance stuff and arrgh...most likely cooking stuff coming up. Oh joy. Yes...I mean that.

Oh...you have to do this (I made one that looks JUST like me): http://www.joystiq.com/media/2006/10/mii.swf

on second thought...
Sunday, November 19, 2006 10:20 p.m.

...yeah, I'm not going to give up so easily. And thinking about it..there is a chance that maybe she did want me to say something...to see if I would get jealous? On the off chance that was true...but then again...in any case...the fact is at this very moment I still like her a lot...and whether that just turns out to be a friendship or if this crush goes beyond that...well, I guess time will tell what's going to happen.

I just have not liked anyone like this in so very long...and one silly detail shouldn't throw me. so...wait and see what happens. If it is meant to be...it's meant to be.

Anyways, did laundry, cleaned up, did some work, worked out, rested and tried to get over this dang cold.

Called Joyce and Romana...Ro is doing well...hoping and praying her dad recovers in time for the wedding. J is a little stressed with work and school....but she did say one thing..."If I wasn't with Adam...I'd be all over you." hahhah cute...but of course, I expect them to get married.

Man, I need to stop thinking about work and work people. Ugh...I need a vacation...and a few drinks.

up...and down down down
Saturday, November 18, 2006 12:08 p.m.

Oy...what a night. Went out to drinks with co-workers at 3. Had some fun and boozed it up...talked to Brendan about life in Queens and stuff..He is superMorrissey fan! Even met him and kissed him! This girl Amber...she is complete comic nerd. She said she saw me in the office all the time but we never met...and then we talked about working for DC comics and all this other stuff...she was reading FABLES too! That is ridiculous! We have to keep in touch.

And of course H..talked to her for a good while...then when we were leaving she hugged and kissed me...then went out and asked me to go to another bar with other coworkers...of course I went...we went with this guy Chirag and met up with Paul. Had a few drinks then me, H, and Chirag went to dinner...we ended up sharing a table with this couple Alex and Lori...and we became friends! Crazy stuff!

Then, H, C, and I went to H's place to hang out for a bit...the place was insane! It was like the apartment in "Ghost"...just huge and spacious. And we played records...she even got me to dance with her a bit...I had a great time with her and thought we had a really good connection. C was a total tool. He drank too much and passed out on her couch...and I left. She hugged and kissed me goodbye and I was joyous...cause we made all these plans to hang out and she gave me her number and everything. I was euphoric.

So this morning I call to check up on her and what happened with C...so she says he left at 4 in the morning and that was that...but she also said she had a crush on him and she barely knew him! WTF ?!?!? She didn't really talk to him much...and he just seemed like such a freaking tool...just bland and boring and like dude...let's drink...breaking glasses and stuff. What an idiot...and she likes him?!??! I am absolutely heartbroken, upset, and disappointed...after a fantastic night...this is what happens the next day.

So I call J...and she says maybe it's best...since we have to work together...but she says I should be friends with her because maybe she has no idea I would have feelings for her...and if she got to know me...she might consider it...

Well, yes...I can be friends with her...but I am so disappointed...she is truly one of the most interesting people I have ever met...but man, she has the worst taste in men. I can honestly say I am so much better than this other guy...but if she couldn't see that...ugh. What the heck...I seriously thought we had a good vibe going...but maybe I really am that dumb and I can't read. The subtle touches the looks, the dancing, the hugs and kisses...was that all just purely friendly? I don't get it ...and it makes me feel like a complete idiot.

I am just fuming and feeling so pissed off right now. Arrrgh. I just want to punch something.

farewell
Thursday, November 16, 2006 09:49 p.m.

This past week has been exhausting, terrifying, fun, and sad. I've seriously run the gamut of emotions. I'm wiped out.

Quick recap of last night's karaoke: Joyce, Karen, Cheryl, Josh, Peggy, Lorelai, and H came out and it was just a blast...even though I am seriously ill...J did a great job with "Been Caught Stealing"...and Karen was hilarious (I know she can sing really well if she tried)...H well..you know. I talked with her about her trip a bit...and she had an awful time...dang, rude people over there.

Afterwards, went to diner with J, Karen, and Peggy...walked J to the bus...and got home at almost midnight. I am still flat out exhausted.

Work has been really busy...but we had a chance to get Ktown with Josh, Cheryl, H and J... so weird that people are leaving left and right...I'm not sure how I should act.

Anyways, some warning signs about the new position...I really like our design guy...we joke around..but he had the same feeling about this one person (who actually worked for me at my last job)...so yeah, have to watch out.

And then...the goodbye. I gave J a little care package...and we hung out for a bit. I didn't want to get too sappy...I know I'll see her soon. But then she walked me to the door and she said "I can't believe I'm not going to see you every day."...and just literally burst into tears. I'm not sure if I've ever seen anyone just shift like that so quickly. HUGE hug...and then BAM...I told her to "butch up"...and she said "I love you"...and like Han Solo...like a pimp...I said "I know"...

I find it all really funny...because I'll see her on Monday.

In any case...I have the highest hopes for her in her new job. I know she can do well over there and we will definitely be in touch. I love her to pieces...and this is for the best.

Yeah...I'm sad...but things change...and I'm hoping for better things to come. Just been a lot of hard times lately...and I think the good is just around the corner. Holding out for hope.

TGIF...it's been a rough week.

sick.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006 04:24 p.m.

Oh man, I think I have a cold. I'm taking meds now...but I feel feverish and my throat is sore. Ugh.

TONS of work and people moving out of the office...weird. And some old dude in design asked J out! OMG! HAHHAHAH!

Dad is home. DDD DVD sale and comic sales galore. I am doing my Christmas shopping early. But still a ton of stuff to get.

Biggest news: Had lunch with Cindy yesterday (she wanted Wendy's...so cute!) and she's moving back to NY for 6 months! Elliot is going to be here for work...so she decided to try to get a transfer back...or a new job. I hope it's longer...but it will be great to have her back around again.

Funny thing is...that one part in "My Humps"...the "spending all your money on me..." that reminds me of Cindy! Just the way Fergie sounds...not the words! I have no idea why.

Oy...karaoke time with co-workers and guess who is back. Yipes. I wonder if I am going to freak out when I see her...been busy all day. Oh, goodness. I am such a dork.

Comics...dang Civil War was good...Punisher saves Spidey! BofP new roster and 52 also! And can I tell you how awesome Fables is? Snow White is such a hottie.

PANIC!
Tuesday, November 14, 2006 09:34 a.m.

Ok...I am dangerously close to getting fullblown sick. My throat itches, I've been coughing, and sneezing...and Chris is sick too...arrrgh! Enough stress for one week?

I had a bit of a panic attack yesterday....I couldn't breathe and my neck and back just seized up...it was awful all day...but I managed to make my first edits and they went over well...so yes, I officially started the new job...even though not much has changed.

Justin got a callback from Verizon! He went in all by himself...here's hoping he gets it...national commercial! Anyways, he came over and I took him to get food and we went to the concert.

First off, Bloc Party did not play which totally pissed me off...but the drummer had a collapsed lung...so, yeah...poor guy. I still want to see if they will offer a refund or something.

Plain White Tees opened instead and man...what a bunch of posers. Crappy vocals and just bland music. I don't know why kids listen to crap these days. Jack's Mannequin was better...but the lead singer (guy from Somehting Corporate)...grew a beard, looks really old now...and his voice is high and reedy...very Broadway. And my gosh...one of the cheesiest front men I have ever seen...he had this "I'm so awesome" look on his face half the time. Only cool thing: he can sure rip that mic off the stand and put it back...and he can play piano standing up with one hand! Yeah...opening acts sucked.

Panic was awesome though. Very theatrical (like a high school play) costumes, circus motif, stage...and hot girls in lingerie that can dance and do gymnastics. WOW. it was like a burlesque show! And Panic sounded much, much better than I expected them to. Kudos...seriously...for a bunch of under20s with one album...they did a great job.

Ok...tired...really tired ...getting sick and work stress. Meeting Cindy for lunch, picking dad up from airport. I am exhausted. It's only Tuesday?!?!?

daymare
Saturday, November 11, 2006 09:35 p.m.

Friday: quick rundown...work was crazy...had to finish up with pages for Science...the last time I'd be looking at that...and then I had Reading stuff to do already! I'm editing and I don't officially start until Monday. Had to leave early and didn't even get a chance to say goodbye to Jon...

Left early and went to meet Justin at his audition...near meat packing district (which will be important later)...and the place was AWESOME...anyways, his Verizon audition went well...but then he went home and hung out with his friends...instead of going to Target with me. hmmm. Anyways, got some boring house stuff and went home to watch tv and pass out super early.

I woke up at 7 and went back to sleep...and that's when I had the "daymare"...yeah, it was about her. I was in Europe somewhere with my coworkers...but we were all in school for some reason. And she was there. Trying to get back together with me...and I just made all these really snarky comments...but she kept working her way in...and then finally...at some cafe...we ended up talking and then we...anyways, afterwards we went to a bar and I ordered a "jack & ginger"(ahem...you know who's drink that is)...and I remember taking a sip...CLEARLY seeing the class come up to my lips, tasting it, and realizing it was a dream. I woke up with my heart pounding and just feeling terribly, terribly depressed.

Yes, I still miss her. Yes, I wish things were different. And yes, I still hate her. All of this means nothing...and yet it means the world sometimes. I just want to forget her and move on with my life.

I think work stress, more change, being in the meat packing district (last place I saw her), and just feeling really lonely...made me think of her. At least I know the triggers and I can deal with the aftermath...but what I can't control is my subconscious.

So, yeah...this stupid work crush might help me through this...but at the same time...I don't have much time left to find a date for New Year's...and I guess I'll be ok with that....or I have to be. Work stress is good...keeps my mind off stupid things.

Anyhooo...I ended up taking a nap at like 1...and slept until 4. Woke up superdizzy and just felt like crap. It's not even 10 yet and I feel tired already. I guess I'm making up for a long (fun and stressful) week...but still. Some other news: G left her job for another one...man, she is getting paid! Cindy is in town on some last minute trip...not sure why she is around...but I'd love to see her. Speaking of which...Do I not know any single people anymore?

Next few weeks will be insane...and I just don't want to have to deal with more stress...new people, new work, shifting priorities. But hey, more cash. Ugh...I need to wake up...can't go to bed yet.

pinoy pride!
Friday, November 10, 2006 09:29 a.m.

Another day of work...not much to mention except Joyce is sexually harassing me. We went to get drinks with a bunch of people for Jon's last day (I'm gonna miss that Clark Kent lookalike)...and I sat with J, K, and Josh...and Joyce goes on about her plans for our "mixed race" baby...oh man. What a nut job...but I love her.

Went over to Nightingale...no Teresa! Some new bartender named Khammi or something...it was cool. LOTS of people ended up coming out. It was packed! Mark, Lorelai, Jay Amp, Matt Sia were there and this girl Kim was performing...the spoken word stuff was eh...but anyways...I was talking to Kim and her tall blonde friend came over to talk to me...I was like "she's kinda hot!" but then 10 mins in she mentions her husband...hahah oh well.

I was the first musical performer which was great...because I could play and just get out of there because I was so exhausted. Anyways, I did my two songs and it seemed like people loved it...gave out CDs...and of course...it's dudes who love me. This one dude wanted to jam with me...he seemed cool cause he had on a NERV shirt. Then this other guy was like...this has your contact info?!?...I hope he's got the hookup with some gigs and isn't a male stalker. hahahah!

Anyways, I got outta there early...so tired. Home at 1030...unconscious before 1:00. Good to have that out of my system. What a long week.

Oh...and you know how my hair falls out when I'm stressed...I noticed my hair has gotten THICKER. It's like a pelt! I wonder if it's the shampoo or what...but I did lose some weight lately too...weird. I guess the stress hasn't been all that bad.

Expecting a lot of work today...but I'll manage. Justin has a Verizon commercial audition today... hope he gets it...that pays major bucks!

Wooo...what a week. TGIF.

work
Thursday, November 9, 2006 10:46 a.m.

Still have a ton of stuff to do...and prep work for Reading. Oh, man...the easy days are gone...it is going to be crazy until the end of the year. Yeah, goodbye social live (not as if I had much of one lately anyways)...a STACK of stuff I have to read through. URRRGH.

ANTM: bye Anchal...you were superhot...but dumb. I loved you anyways...LOST: Kate and Sawyer....AND CAPTAIN MAL! Nathan has at least another episode some time later.

Another weird thing I started thinking about. Maybe it's nothing...but what do you think. Ok, my bday is 1/31. I went to PS131, I live in apt. 1N, the lines on my left palm...CLEARLY look like 1N! I was born in St. John's hospital...and I lived near SJU for a long time...and a minor thing...but I've worked closely with two women whose initals are JT. Oh man...I am so OCD.

Gig tonight...but I am exhausted. Urrrgh...just want to get it over with and sleep in this weekend...so tired. At least it stopped raining.

PLACEBO!
Wednesday, November 8, 2006 10:32 a.m.

Work was...actually really busy. I'm finalizing a few things and going to meet with the folks I'll be suffering with soon. Next few weeks are going to be very weird.

Met up with Nicole and we had Vietnamese and a good chat...then it was off to the show! The Nokia Theater is AWESOME...first time at that venue and it was GORGEOUS...brand new, clean, HUGE. great.

DJ guy was lame...but She Wants Revenge was pretty good. Played almost all of their album...and the singles sounded good...but the monotone/JoyDivision/Interpol-esque vocals got a little old.

Place went nuts for Placebo...they actually came on 15 minutes early! The setlist for most of their shows was:

Infra red
Meds
Because I Want You
Drag
Soulmates
Song to Say Goodbye
Every You Every Me
One of a Kind
Special K
Bitter End
ENCORE:
Running Up the Hill
Taste in Men
20 Years

But we were special and we got a few extras: Space Monkey, Without You I'm Nothing, ...and I KNOW and BIONIC !!!!

Awesome stuff...but I felt it in my knees and my feet...ow. Got a cool t-shirt and an awesome black and lime green wristband (oh...you know those are my colors!)

Anyways, got home around 1245, got showered, and passed out. Now, back to the real world...dealing with closing up shop in Science and moving over to Reading...

My friend Evan who works in Reading (and who I know from HRW) just told me his dad died...so it's been weird all around lately. He seems ok...I'll have to check on the dude.

Ugh...yucky day out there.

revelations...about people
Monday, November 6, 2006 08:40 p.m.

What a weird day. Anyways, I officially accepted the job today...and I think I start the new job on Monday...I think. Have a few hoops to jump through...but it is almost assured. Still hoping that there might be a chance that they offer Joyce a job tomorrow. I have grown attached to her...but at the same time...I know she won't be around for long. :(

Which brings me to H... yup, she's going to Reading...which means I can only admire from afar! She definitely makes my heart race a little. I wished her well and she gave me a hug! OMG...I thought I was gonna pass out! HAHHAH! But she'll be gone for a week...and then there is a possibility that we might be sitting near each other...or working together...oh no. How am I gonna do this? I just hope this is one of my silly crushes that passes soon.

Anyhooo...I actually had some work to do today and I did finish it relatively quickly...so I decide to check in on Kevin Smith and see what he's up to. Well, he's got this new webshow on mtvU called "Sucks Less"...and he has some of his UCLA film students on it...and I'm watching and watching...and then ...OMG...that's my friend CAT!

We went to high school together and did SING...and then we hung out a few times and even went to a TESLA concert a couple of years ago...and then she moved to LA (her dad was my boss at NYU...he was head of the English department...that's how we reconnected!) anyways...so she's got a year left and she hangs out with Kevin Smith and then she's off to do stuff for Hollywood. WOW...crazy stuff. I emailed her and she emailed me back... so hopefully we will keep in touch.

Rehearsed, dog stuff, and getting ready for the concert tomorrow. I CANNOT wait! First time at Nokia theater...and it will be like my 8th or 9th Placebo show? I saw them in the UK 4 times (twice with Suede, twice when they headlined), saw them at Virgin Megastore, saw them two more times in NY...so I think this is my 8th Placebo show then...woooo! So psyched!

Anyhoo...busy, busy week. Lots of stuff going on...and then next week...new job, Panic!/Bloc Party show...and then time to chill out and make sense of all of this.

eh...not much
Sunday, November 5, 2006 10:39 p.m.

Stinky dog woke me up at 730...took him out for a walk and then went back to sleep. I had insomnia the night before and couldn't fall asleep until after 3...so it was really rough on me...anyways...up by noon...and then rehearsed, cleaned up, and finished freelance stuff.

Talked to Stef for about an hour...and man, I am glad I have my own problems. No one can understand what goes on in someone's relationship except for the people in it...

Desperate Housewives...well, I thought it was going to be Tom... Nora was the obvious choice though...bleh.

Workstuff and whatever...going to give my offical notice that I am accepting the job tomorrow. Well, hope things work out for the best.

weekend.
Sunday, November 5, 2006 12:11 a.m.

Work was non-existent all week. I did not a lick of real actual work since pages were held up...and now on Monday..I'm going to accept the new position and start getting my stuff ready for the move.

Anyways... we went to Cafe 31 for drinks...and I hung out with Josh and the girls and H came in late...and immediately started talking to me. We talked for a while about her trip...and wow...I just think she is so interesting and pretty. I got her a refill of her J&G...and she made me take a sip... you know in anime...that's called an indirect kiss! hahahahha!

Anyways, Jon came in later and me and Josh had another drink with him...I think I had 3 or 4 drinks and I was sloshed...oy. It was a good release...and I was outta there by 5.

Not much else... up early today to wait for the cable guy at my grandparents...and dog stuff...and cleaned up, did laundry, got some stuff ready to finish with my freelance stuff tomorrow. Still really tired...haven't been getting enough sleep. My room is soooo hot...but the rest of the apartment is freezing...so...weird mix.

Anyways, big week..job stuff Monday and maybe karaoke, Tuesday is Placebo, and Thursday is gig...man...busy and tiring...but good. Now the new job...when it starts...we'll have to see.

Oh...a weird thing...my brother said that he ran into Eddie Griffin somewhere...and that night...my mom told me she saw (and LOVED) Undercover Brother on cable...and yes, I bought the DVD over the summer for like 4 bucks...cause I never saw the beginning and I remembered it was funny and had hot girls. Anyhooo...I also saw Caroline Rhea near MSG (and that lady was stacked!) AND this was like a day after I saw some commercial on Bravo about her new special...weird.

Maybe if I think hard enough Kari Byron, Kristen Bell, Stacy Keibler, and Caroline Dhavernas might just pop on by?

Or just that girl I have a crush on at work. :P Man, this needs to end soon or I am gonna have my heartbroken :(