Past few days...
Saturday, November 3, 2007 08:17 p.m.

Thursday: A bit of a minor fiasco. One of three potential clients (and friends) cancelled on dinner at Prune...so I didn't want to let our reservation for 4 go to waste. I was going to take one of my co-workers...I told them to keep it quiet since it wasn't 100% kosher...but dang it...those idiots talk. So...in the end I didn't take anyone...and it was good I didn't because some confidential business stuff was discussed.

In any case...Prune was awesome. The bone marrow, the buttery artichokes, the best lamb chop I ever had in my life, and an awesome choco cake...and business plans. Just great. And the fact that I got to see Cindy (who gets younger and cuter everytime I see her) just made the night great. I ended up waiting with MP at the Hilton to get her in a cab...and we had a good talk. I'll actually be there on Monday and maybe Tuesday for a trade show...strange.

Friday--Went to Olive Tree with bunch of coworkers (things blew over and I chilled out about it) ...and it was weird because I went there like 10 years ago with S...the burger there was awful and thus ended my awesome burger streak.

Bunch of crazy work stuff happened...3 major deals came about all of a sudden...one with an awesome TV property, one with a video game thing, and one with someone I contacted a loooong time ago that never would have amounted to anything...oh, and another idea that could be huge...yeesh. That's a lot.

Met up with Elaine, Barry, their friend Tom, Joyce, and Adam for awesome food at Kefi in the UWS ...got drinks afterwards too at some weird bar/lounge with a very mixed crowd. I thought Elaine and Joyce would hit it off great...and the same with the guys...and they totally did. I'm a great couples matchmaker apparently.

Saturday: Cleaned up, DVR catching up, watched "Blades of Glory"..which I liked a lot more than I thought I would (and dang...Jenna Fischer is so hot! Pam!!!), and getting ready for the trade show...but I still cannot sleep in for some reason. So bizarre.

So...been emailing this girl for a week or so...meeting her on Wednesday...don't want to get my hopes up...but she seems great...from her pics...just gorgeous. Works/studies in art related field, is tall, is intelligent...all seems great...but sigh...you know how these things turn out for me. But come on...one day...my ...um...day will come, right?

More tv, more work...more sleep. Repeat tomorrow. Next week is still going to be nuts. Yeeesh.

boo humbug
Wednesday, October 31, 2007 10:12 p.m.

Just to emphasize the Morrissey/Smiths love. Pretty much since day one of this blog...my little tagline here is from a Moz or Smiths song. Hmmm. the current one is from "Speedway" and I've used "HSIN" and "Bigmouth Strikes Again"...interesting to note. And I got a bunch of texts and emails from Amy...helping me out with a work thing today too...dang.

Ugh...been so tired lately. I'm just not getting enough sleep or something.

Work...just getting sample boxes, pitches, making arrangements for next week, setting up meetings, phone calles, etc..

Went to lunch with MO...ok...but still a little suspect?

So I need to keep my nose clean and just talk less. I am so paranoid about people talking about work stuff. GAH. Still have to be careful about what I say and who I say it too.

Left work early to avoid the Halloween craziness. But it was pretty tame anyways. Got a few dvds on the way home too...and watched Nip/Tuck...man, I love this show. Just hilarious and some awesome drama and conflict...over the top insanity, the whole brotherhood and the real love versus just alpha male douchebaggery...and the "call back"...continuity is such a major thing with comic nerds...and it creeps into everything.

Kid Nation is pretty good too...Alex is such an adorable kid with that snaggletooth, the glasses, the nerdiness. Taylor is cute but such a brat!

Reading Wolverine:Enemy of the State...best Wolvierine story I may have ever read...Millar is the man. Reminds me of Tzo when he was little he would call him "Mulverine"...hahaha! So cute!

Might have a date coming up soon...but dinner with friends/client tomorrow supposedly.

Oh...I put out some crappy candy and some kiddie comics...and a little sign for kids to help themselves. I looked out...and I put in some horror comics--Friday the 13th and Nightmare on Elm Street stuff...and THAT was all gone. Strange kids we got here in the building. And most of the candy was left. I figured they would have grabbed more.

Anyways, gonna try to sleep early tonight...but my DVR is a full baby. Should empty her out. Will watch South Park or something short I guess.

A new / old favorite...
Wednesday, October 31, 2007 12:02 a.m.

Never really liked this much...but now...it's one of my faves. Just epic...but small. Life, love, sex, death, the past and the future...

"Stretch Out and Wait" -- The Smiths

All the lies that you make up
What's at the back of your mind?
Oh, your face I can see
And it's desperately kind
But what's at the back of your mind?

Two icy-cold hands conducting the way
It's the Eskimo blood in my veins
Amid concrete and clay
And general decay
Nature must still find a way
So ignore all the codes of the day
Let your juvenile IMPULSES sway
This way and that way
This way, that way
God, how sex implores you
To let yourself lose yourself

Stretch out and wait
Stretch out and wait
Let your puny body, lie down, lie down
As we lie, you say
As we lie, you say
Stretch out and ...
Stretch out and wait
Stretch out and wait
Let your puny body lie down, lie down

As we lie, you say :
Will the world end in the night time?
(I really don't know)
Or will the world end in the day time?
(I really don't know)
And is there any point ever having children?
Oh, I don't know
All I do know is we're Here and it's Now

So ... stretch out and wait
Stretch out and wait
There is no debate, no debate, no debate
How can you conciously contemplate
When there's no debate, no debate?
Stretch out and wait
Stretch out and wait
Stretch out and wait
Wait
Wait
Wait
Wait
Oh ...

All the different songs Moz played in NYC
Wednesday, October 31, 2007 12:00 a.m.

Thanks to whoever did this on the Moz website. Good for me to have and remember:

All You Need Is Me / Billy Budd / Dear God, Please Help Me / Death Of A Disco Dancer / Disappointed / First Of The Gang To Die / Ganglord / Girlfriend In A Coma / Good Looking Man About Town / How Soon Is Now? / Human Being / I Just Want To See The Boy Happy / I Like You / I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris / Interesting Drug / Irish Blood, English Heart / Jack The Ripper / Last Night I Dreamt That Somebody Loved Me / Life Is A Pigsty / One Day Goodbye Will Be Farewell / Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want / Sister, I'm A Poet / Shoplifters Of The World Unite / Stop Me If You Think You've Heard This One Before / Stretch Out And Wait / That's How People Grow Up / The Boy With The Thorn In His Side / The Last Of The Famous International Playboys / The Loop / The National Front Disco / The World Is Full Of Crashing Bores / Tomorrow / Why Don't You Find Out For Yourself? / You Have Killed Me

How you Bee-n?
Tuesday, October 30, 2007 11:46 p.m.

I need someone to appreciate my cheesy jokes or something. Anyways...work went by in a blur. I really need to catch up on sleep this weekend. Just been so busy lately...and tired.

Jennifer and Amy both emailed me and texted me a ton today. Mozfamily is really awesome. hahahah! Really hope they do keep in touch though.

Intern problems...ack...seriously. Come on. Get it together. Just a heap of stuff at work that has to get done and I'd like someone to help more...

Went to Bee Movie with free passes...mom and Justin...one of my coworkers was there and we had a good talk. Hmmmm...revealing. Told me some stuff about what's going on. I best keep my mouth shut...but I am glad I'm where I am and not working with someone else.

Movie was really funny in parts...and kinda lame in others...but worth going. Went to Target/Best Buy to get Spidey 3 and stuff for Halloween. So tired.

Puscifer and Thursday albums out today...dang...lots of good music lately.

Oh...and I took cute Asian girl out for lunch today. Had a good talk...but still not as revealing as I'd hope it would be...but had a good time. Got hot choco...and saw cute girl working there too...dang...and ran into some girl who works on the otherside of the building...was she flirting with me? Did I say something to make her think I was? Ugh...I am an idiot sometimes.

I just want someone that I think is cool...to think I am cool. Why is this so hard?

Ok...work and Halloween hiding tomorrow. Pretty much all.

back to reality
Monday, October 29, 2007 09:42 p.m.

I actually miss going to see Morrissey and being in the crowd. The high that I got...awww...it's fading. Back to the grind.

Had a really rough day since I only got maybe 2 hours of sleep because Chris alarm went off and just didn't stop...ugh.

Crazy productive though. Made lots of contacts, started paperwork, got things in order, and just worked.

Took SH out to lunch...been having really good "burger luck" lately. Lots of good ones in the past weeks.

Home early...so tired. Ate, cleaned up, that's pretty much it. Need a good night's rest...Bee Movie free screening tomorrow.

Moz--last night awesomeness
Monday, October 29, 2007 01:36 p.m.

Sunday: Got up late, cleaned up, ate, got ready for Moz and left at a decent time. Got there and waited with Jennifer and we met some Scottish guy Ian who has been to 93 shows...anyways, Amy is a master...she made friends with a security guy and made her way to the front of the line.

Got in and was like 2-3 row...which was great...talked to Jennifer alot and she was just awesome. I really like her and I know I will keep in touch. Her kids love our books...so I will send her a bunch. Show started and was awesome as usual...with a bunch of amazing new additions.

"Interesting Drug"...blew my mind. Did not expect that...and "Girlfriend in a Coma" was awesome new add...and again "Please Please" and "HSIN"...Amy reached back and grabbed my hand. So cute. She looks like a little blonde Charisma Carpenter.

This one short girl grabbed my shoulder because she couldn't see, so I let her go in front of me and she almost had tears in her eyes...sheesh.

Anyways, things got crazy for the encore...and there was a rush and a push (ha... Smiths joke) and a shirt got thrown...and guess who had keys and the gumption to cut a piece off.

YES!!! I GOT A PIECE OF HIS SHIRT! The "Je Suis Morrissey" t-shirt he wears on the last night of the NYC shows...I have a piece. I shared it with Jennifer (she smelled it and it had his cologne and sweat on it)...she hugged me and was on the verge of tears for like 5 whole minutes. Wow...we are bonded for life. I gave a piece to Amy also...and saved some for Sarah too.

Afterwards...lots of hugging and randomness...ended up waiting by the tour bus with J, A, and Veronica...caught a glimpse as he got on...and that was it. All-in-all...just an awesome experience.

Went to Tick Tock diner for food with J and V and hung out. Joey was there...good kid...we talked to him for a while...then left. Will definitely keep in touch with some of these crazy fans...and possibly for business reasons also. Just flat out...one of the best weeks of my life. So many awesome souvenirs, limited poster, ticket stubs, photos, video, t-shirt, ads,...and a piece of his shirt...wow.

I always knew I would be a lifelong fan...but this week, with all the friends I made...it just made it all that more real. Fun. And Amy and Jennifer have texted me a bunch of times already.

Anyhooo..I got home after 2 AM last night and I am on my second cup of coffee...sleepwalking through the day...but still productive.

Fun's over...back to work...

But of course...here's Sunday's setlist:

Stop Me If You Think You've Heard This One Before / Billy Budd / Interesting Drug / Shoplifters Of The World Unite / Irish Blood, English Heart / I Just Want To See The Boy Happy / Girlfriend In A Coma / The Last Of The Famous International Playboys / Human Being / I Like You / Jack The Ripper / Why Don't You Find Out For Yourself? / Stretch Out And Wait / The World Is Full Of Crashing Bores / Good Looking Man About Town / Sister, I'm A Poet / Death Of A Disco Dancer / I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris / You Have Killed Me / Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want / How Soon Is Now? // First Of The Gang To Die

Viva Moz.

Morrissey - Friday and Saturday
Sunday, October 28, 2007 02:51 a.m.

Friday--Well, I dressed up in my little costume...and got some work done. Lots of work I have to do next week to follow-up on this deal. Just a ton of paperwork and financials that I know I'm not very keen on. Ugh.

Halloween party--went upstairs with some folks from our floor and had some drinks and food. Hung out with some new coworkers and they were really fun. Hung out a lot with Cute Asian girl...she is really, really cute too. But man, me and work stuff is not a good idea...even friendships...I need to start hanging out with lots of different people. Not wanting to get pigeonholed into any one group any more. I don't want the personal stuff to affect me.

Went with SH after work to wait on line in the rain for Moz. Met some more kids and stuff...who were into metal and Moz! So strange...but cool. Went in and made some new friends...Sarah and Pete from Myrtle Beach and Marjorie, Kevin, and Susan again. Rumors were true and Kristeen Young did get fired for her "Moz gives good head...uh...I mean cunnilingus" remark...wow.

Moz was awesome and I got to stay for the encore for the first time..."Je Suis Morrissey" shirt and rampaging fans charging the stage. Fun. Got lots of good pics and video. Hung out with SH after the show and waited for her train. She's really fun and really mature at the same time. I heart her.

Friday night's setlist:

Stop Me If You Think You've Heard This One Before / Billy Budd / All You Need Is Me / Irish Blood, English Heart / Shoplifters Of The World Unite / Ganglord / That's How People Grow Up / Tomorrow / I Just Want To See The Boy Happy / Death Of A Disco Dancer / The Loop / Jack The Ripper / The World Is Full Of Crashing Bores / Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want / Why Don't You Find Out For Yourself? / Sister, I'm A Poet / One Day Goodbye Will Be Farewell / I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris / Stretch Out And Wait / Life Is A Pigsty / How Soon Is Now? // First Of The Gang To Die

Saturday: Got up and cleaned up, did laundry, wrote my freelance article, and got ready for more Moz...went out and got on line around 530-6. Made more friends. Jennifer who is hardcore and has two kids and a husband at home, Veronica who got a Jamba Juice tossed on her the night before, and Kevin...skinny gay kid that disappeared when the show started.

Anyways, got up front and we got the limited edition poster...must get framed. Hung out with Jennifer and Sarah who met a new friend Amy...who happened to be a masseuse from a college that we were sending books to! Strange...she was really cute little blonde...and we got a long well. She ended up hanging with me all night. Rested her chin on my shoulder and was touching my arm all night. I chalked that up to concert fatigue...but then during "Please, please" and later for "HSIN" she grabbed my hand (fingers interlaced!) hahahah!!! She texted me a bunch of times since about Sunday concert and the after party...

Jennifer didn't go to the party... she hung out with Tony from Chicago...so she gave me her tickets...went with Kevin, Marjorie, Susan...and we got food and drinks at BB Kings...the burger was expensive but it was AWESOME!!

Sons & Heirs --Smith tribute band...AWESOME!!! Wow...I would actually want to go see them some time. Really spot on stuff. Stupid thing I realized...I erased a bunch of videos I took by accident!!!! ARRRRRGH!!! At least I have tonight to see if I can get some stuff. Oh, and Susan hung out with Michael Imperioli (Christofuh from Sopranos---I saw him at the Apollo last time) and some fat dude got into a tussle too.)

Left and NT (Cute Asian girl from work) wanted to meet up...but couldn't figure stuff out...eh...I dunno what is happening with that. And I'm having coffee with my cousin's cousin on Monday. Weird...anyways. More Moz:

Saturday night's setlist-- Best yet!!:

Stop Me If You Think You've Heard This One Before / The Last Of The Famous International Playboys / You Have Killed Me / The Boy With The Thorn In His Side / Irish Blood, English Heart / I Like You / Jack The Ripper / I Just Want To See The Boy Happy / The National Front Disco / Last Night I Dreamt That Somebody Loved Me / Why Don't You Find Out For Yourself? / All You Need Is Me / The World Is Full Of Crashing Bores / Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want / I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris / Sister, I'm A Poet / The Loop / Death Of A Disco Dancer / Stretch Out And Wait / Dear God, Please Help Me / How Soon Is Now? // First Of The Gang To Die

Oh and he did say this about Kristeen: "I CAN'T SEEM TO KEEP MY TONGUE IN MY MOUTH." LOL !!! So witty.

And yeah, I got corporate box seats for Van Halen...wooo! I love this job.

Moz pics... what a hassle...but awesome?
Thursday, October 25, 2007 10:27 p.m.

Got to work late because CVS screwed up my pics. Seems like half the pics look like mid-way through the next frame. And they could not center it on their machine. WTF?!?! Anyways...they turned out ok and now reside on the FLICKR page. Check it out and be jealous!!!

When I got home I cropped and resized the photo CD pics...not too bad...and tomorrow I will bring my digital...I mean...every other person had a camera there. So, I think it will be ok.

Had lunch with KB...very fun. I love her! She is so hilarious and unlike anyone else at work. Had a good time. Then tried to be super nice to MT...to see if that would change her attitude at all...hmmm...had a good talk with her on the way to Starbucks...so maybe.

I'm just realizing that negativity really affects everyone. I am going to try my darndest to keep a positive attitude...be confident and encourage everyone as much as possible. I think that might work wonders in the long run...we'll see.

Still really tired because I just have not slept enough. Going to bed super early tonight...and rest up for more Moz and office Halloween party tomorrow.

Yeah, my costume is kinda lame. Remember my black wings and halo? Yup...that again and gonna buy a plastic scythe thing...and an orange tie and all black. "Dark Angel" ? "Ghost of Halloween Past"? "Lame-Ass Costume"? yeah.

Hey, at least I tried.

Ok...is this creepy? My parents and I thought it was "family friend" met up at my cousin's wedding and wanted to set me up with the "family friend's" niece. Long story short. I got a bunch of emails and I finally gave in and emailed this girl...turns out...she is my cousin's cousin! EEEEEW!!! We aren't blood-related...but still kinda weird. WEIRD !!!!!

Kristen Bell on HEROES!!! So cute. So evil! WRONG!!!

Ok...TGIF.

post-show tired
Wednesday, October 24, 2007 10:25 p.m.

I am just flat out exhausted. Keeping this short. But had meeting, some sample boxes out, and my meeting got cancelled...so I wore my new suit for no reason.

Comics...and then got home early. Ate...watched ANTM...Heather, Lisa, and Chantal are still my faves...and ashyEbony left. She needs some moisturizer and a better attitude...oh, wow. I sound so bitchy.

Anyways, some work epiphanies. I'm realizing that I need to get away from the negative attitudes and just get psyched and be positive. My mood really is affected easily by little triumphs and defeats and what not. Sigh. I just want some positive energy.

Ooooh...Euniceblog! I miss ya, hon. We need to hang out soon.

Joyce called...still trying to get dinner settled for us Adam and Elaine and Barry ...man..I will be fifth wheel...but it will be fun.

Must sleep lots tonight. Oy. So tired.

And yeah...officially giving the dog away end of November. Sad...but it's for the best.

Disposable camera Moz pics should be ready tomorrow. I hope they came out ok.

Moz--Night Two
Wednesday, October 24, 2007 01:00 a.m.

Work was actually awesome...had three serious leads that hopefully will amount to something soon.

MT is getting on my nerves a little. But I still love that insane girl...and I've learned to keep my mouth shut at work...seems my friends there have big mouths. ack.

Moz night two...awesomeness again. Kristeen Young was adorable with her grape dress...but is she on coke or does she have a cold? Poor red nosed gal.

Hung out again with Kev and Marjorie...Susan came later. Met this kid Joey and this girl Jen who apparently is going to Fiji to shoot photos...might send me her portfolio. Everyone was really friendly and we were all bound by the love of our musical idol. I'm going to look back on this one day and be thankful I got a chance to go. Anyways...onto the main event.

Moz...just as awesome and a few new surprises tonight...but same stuff that was as good as last night. Best part was...there was only 2 little people in front of me...so I got some great photos and video. WOW...so close! "Jack the Ripper" and "The Boy With The Thorn In His Side", "Sister, I'm a Poet", "Why Don't You Find Out For Yourself" and "Please, Please Please..." wow...And there are 3 more nights of this left...wooo.

Setlist as follows:

Stop Me If You Think You've Heard This One Before / Billy Budd / All You Need Is Me / Irish Blood, English Heart / The Boy With the Thorn in His Side / I'm A Human Being / I'm Throwing My Arms Around Paris / Tomorrow / That's How People Grow Up / Jack The Ripper / One Day Goodbye Will Be Farewell / The Loop / Sister, I'm A Poet / Stretch Out And Wait / The World Is Full Of Crashing Bores / Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want / Why Don't You Find Out For Yourself? / Death Of A Disco Dancer / Disappointed / Dear God, Please help me (Auld Lang Syne piano interlude) / How Soon Is Now? // First Of The Gang To Die

Moz--Night 1
Tuesday, October 23, 2007 12:42 a.m.

Work was work...lots of stuff and some new leads.

On to the awesome...MORRISSEY NIGHT ONE!

Kristeen Young wasn't as bad as I thought she would be. She's pretty too...lots of screeching...but she's got a voice and the piano pounding was pretty neat. Drummer was awesome. He should be in a metal band! But piano and drums and goth...isn't that what the Dresden Dolls do?

MOZ!!!!!!!!!!! Opened with "Stop Me..." and then a bunch of awesome stuff like "Tomorrow" and my fave of all time "Jack the Ripper"...I was up so close and met some Moz friends: Kev, Marjorie, Susan...dang...they've seen a lot of shows!...Left after "Death of a Disco Dancer" and "Stretch Out and Wait" were never my faves...but they totally grew on me...and "Billy Budd" was pretty good too...Moz was funny and charming and sweaty. I got some good video clips...but pics were fuzzy. Blech. Left after "HSIN" because there will be more tomorrow...oh yes. And I need to sleep...

Will put up setlist as soon as the website lists it...but awesome. Just...wow. So close!

*UPDATE* Here's the setlist:

Stop Me If You Think You've Heard This One Before / Tomorrow / Sister, I'm A Poet / London / The Loop / That's How People Grow Up / Jack The Ripper / I Like You / Why Don't You Find Out For Yourself? / Stretch Out And Wait / The World Is Full Of Crashing Bores / Last Night I Dreamt That Somebody Loved Me / Billy Budd / All You Need Is Me / Death Of A Disco Dancer / Irish Blood, English Heart / Shoplifters Of The World Unite / One Day Goodbye Will Be Farewell / You Have Killed Me / How Soon Is Now? // First Of The Gang To Die

weekend...
Sunday, October 21, 2007 10:32 p.m.

Friday: Work etc...and date. Ended up going to a different restaurant with RH...and we had a pleasant time and some coffee after...but no spark. We could definitely be friends...but anything more would be so forced. It was fine...and I'd rather find something volcanic and real...then just settle for something. Sigh.

Saturday: Cleaning up comics, cleaned up bills and such, and watched TV...pretty much it. Just wanted to relax this weekend and catch up with sleep.

Sunday: More of the same...but woke up with my back and sides really sore. I wonder if all that cleaning did it? Strange. Took an insanely long nap...and that was pretty much it. Rewatched Transformers and Planet Terror...and both were just as good. Watched some Family Guy and DVRed stuff.

Finally making some progress on getting the bathroom remodeled. I hope by 2008...the shower won't feel like such a prison.

Chris might be giving Fatty away. I'm kind of sad...but it's for the best. Neither of us has the time or energy to take care of him or play with him...and it's beter for him to go somewhere where he will have more space. Awww...puppy!

5 Nights of MOZ begins tomorrow. I cannot wait. I listened to his new songs online and they sound great...and if he plays "Jack the Ripper" I will just go nuts. That's one of my fave songs of all time...not just of his...oh man. Just awesome...I wish I had someone to go with me all nights...but at least my friend will be going with me Friday. Maybe I'll run into someone I know there? Who knows.

Urrgh. Work...gonna be a fun but tiring week.

Ktown and comics
Thursday, October 18, 2007 11:00 p.m.

Had one of those alarm clock dreams...dreamt one of my co-workers was yelling at me and holding up two lunch boxes screaming "was this your project?!??" strange...

Work, emails, calls, samples, website fixes, customer service answers, etc...

Went to K-town with co-workers and took "CAG" out for her birthday. Coworkers think she likes me...but I don't see it...but who knows. Eh...got some comic book supplies and other things...

Came home and cleaned up...getting ready for date tomorrow...and just tired. I don't mind holing up and sleeping for a while...sigh.

Pretty much all. Other little things...but well, I'm tired. Optimus Prime, help me.

this time
Wednesday, October 17, 2007 11:50 p.m.

Work...plowed through the day with the same old stuff. Had a good conference call with hairdressers and it looks like we can do this. Spent the rest of the day working on sex book pitches and almost got it all done. I should be able to get it finished and sent to our publisher by Friday.

Got comics and hung out with friends at work. Going to take cute Asian girl out for dinner tomorrow with some of our work friends...got her coffee related bday present also.

Met up with Glo for drinks...which turned into getting ice cream. I love her...even though she yells at me...but I should listen to the "bitchy contingent" of my friends...since most girls tend to be more like them then the "sweet factor"...sigh.

Anyways, ended up meeting T for dinner and we had a good time catching up. I am sure she knows how I feel...but she said she didn't want to think about stuff like that for a long time. It's only been 3 months...and she is in no position to think of anything else...and I don't know what to do but be her friend.

She is so sweet and adorable...nothing like what she gives off when she is at work...and I love her as a friend...unconditionally.

Went clothes shopping with her a little bit...then came home to watch ANTM...

Lisa and Heather still remain my faves...and Ebony reminds me of CCW (remember her?) because I think she has the same gums...hahahah!!! Sigh.

Work, dinner tomorrow, date Friday...rest this weekend. OY. And MOZ on Monday...WOOOO!!!

Wednesday, October 17, 2007 12:12 a.m.

Work...gah! Just running around and doing the normal.

Best Buy run...picked up Reservoir Dogs 15th anniversary (I've bought this movie 3 times now) and Planet Terror...then more work...and then Target run where I got Transformers, Family Guy, and cleaning products...which makes me insanely happy. I have problems.

Anyways, just chugging along. Cleaning, laundry, getting stuff done in general.

Kristen Bell is going to be on Heroes starting next week...FOR JOY!!! And my friend on the show texted me hi today since he was in town for a charity thing...

And my friend Kaori gave birth on the 14th...my Mom's bday! Happy bday Dahlia! oh...and one of my clients did too...wow...lotsa babies. Unca Abe is gonna be busy.

Rash and sore throat are persistent...but I am confident that both will be defeated by end of the week.

Ok...Morrissey, Transformers, and date on Friday...gives me something to get excited about. Wooot.

date
Monday, October 15, 2007 11:08 p.m.

So got home pretty late last night...but got stuff unpacked and off to work.

Throat still hurting pretty bad...and I had a conference call, another call, some emails, sample boxes, and more follow-ups. Hopefully this stuff will pan out. Next 6 weeks or so is crucial. I really need to get some folks committed to projects and soon. Ugh. Pressure is icky.

Chocolate from coworker was nice.

Dinner with friends...other plans...

And date with MA...and it was decent. She's a writer with a book deal and wrote for a major newspaper...and she's writing a sex book...but not one you would expect. Had a decent conversation...and then she said her roommate...well, apparently I "winked" at her...but I have no recollection of who or when.

In any case, we had a couple of drinks and walked around. I'm not sure if this is going to be friends or what...but it was an interesting conversation...and even more so because I was delirious and sick.

Home...more work stuff I gotta do...and October just looks insanely busy. Hoping the holidays come fast and that good news is around the corner. Come on, good stuff!

shopping is not a disease
Saturday, October 13, 2007 10:16 p.m.

So after copious amounts of tea and cold meds...we ended up going to an outlet mall nearby. Can I just say that I spent 500 bucks...but it was well worth it.

I got a Polo suit, a timberland jacket, and timberland boots, a nautica tie, and a pair of steve madden shoes...and later...I got Guitar Hero II for less than 50 bucks. Awesome deals.

Ate lots when we got back...and just spent time with my family. My mom's bday is tomorrow...so not sure what we will do then. I just hope I get some rest and can get over this sore throat and shin rash thing that has me insanely puzzled.

Anyways, just kind of cruising on autopilot and not thinking too much...but I know the stress is going to start getting to me...oy.

Sick and in NJ
Saturday, October 13, 2007 11:53 a.m.

Let's rewind to Thursday.

Work...can't remember much...but got some stuff done. My throat was killing me though...ugh. And I did make a date for Monday though...eek.

Show...work friends came...cute Asian girl, IB, JZ, and their significant others...and my friend SS...show went well...no one else came since it was raining...or people just don't car...sigh. And Steve came late...apparently T had dinner with him after I left (sick and sore throat...couldn't stay) and she said he was annoying.

Oh...yeah, T looked amazing. I got home and she ended up calling me at 1130 and we talked for a while. I'm sure she knows I had (have?) feelings for her...but she is no where near over what happened. She made that clear...but I'm not sure we need to have that talk.

Stayed home Friday since I was feeling ass-sick! Just slept and slept and watched tv...pretty much the whole day. Then went to Jersey to stay at my aunt's place for my mom's bday. At least they had lots of cold meds.

Saturday: Up and had brunch...figuring out what we are going to do today...throat feels better though!

Meh...just trying to focus and think about work and other things coming up. Grrr...game face!

workin' the floor.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007 09:33 p.m.

Man...what a day. Got in sent sample out, emailed, emptied boxes, sales meeting, got the intern set up, and then off to Javits for trade show.

At first I thought it would be a bust...but I worked it and it looks like we might have a bunch of deals. I mentioned two projects that we did/working on...and these other HUGE companies either were interested in something similar or could put me in contact with someone who would be. So, a few hours later...I end up with 8 business cards and a ton of follow-up I gotta do.

And to think that the last time I was at Javits...it was at Comic Con...and I would get a contact at my company now.

Home early...rehearsed, ate, picked out my outfit for tomorrow, drank lots of hot liquid...and trying to fight off this cold or infection or whatever I have...and this itchy rash on my shin. Ugh! Why am I breaking down????

Stess, insomnia, sleep-deprivation, getting fat again, over indulgence in other vices...ugh. I gotta work out and/or sleep a lot this weekend.

Someone please come over and take care of me.

Ok...show tomorrow night. Whose coming? Come on! It's been a while.

back to work...
Tuesday, October 9, 2007 09:36 p.m.

And I am still not sleeping well. Got in and just went at it. Made some phone calls, sent out some boxes, sent out forms, made plans for Javits center show thing...lots of stuff that needed to be done.

Had Indian for lunch and that was pretty much it for the day... left and came home to practice.

My poor DVR is full. I have soooo many DVDs to get through also...and comics...goodness. I just don't have the time anymore. But someway, somehow...

Tina Fey is hot.

Ugh...my brain is mush. I wish I had something else to say...but yes, it's October. Let's get over this hot humid weather...and let the leaves fall down and the coats come out.

I love cleaning out my closets.

I love making sense.

Oh, Canada
Monday, October 8, 2007 10:10 p.m.

Friday: went to work for half a day and then got ready to go to Canada. My dad and grandma came to the office and took a look around. Pretty much it and then we were off. Watched DVDs and napped most of the time. Got to Toronto around 230...and ended up eating some awesome dumplings.

Saturday: Not much sleep and off to have Japanese buffet...then went to my cousin's place and met my new cousin-in-law Rachel...British and really fun. Met Derrick my other new cousin-in-law. Met his brother Aaron, cousin Christian, and other family. Then met up with Susan and her bfriend Rob at the banquet hall...Jenny and the rest of my family. (Oh...their hot neighbor was like 19...eeeek.)Then friends of family...and whoah...Jenny's friend got HOT! Dang! hahahh! Had Chinese banquet and then the kids went for drinks at this place Jack Astor's...man, Jack and Rachel can drink! Had a bunch of tequila and wine...and spent some time with the cousins...then went home at like 4 and stayed in Susan and Jenny's basement.

Sunday: Up and out for...more food. Went to Mongolian BBQ...and then went to the cemetery to visit my grandpa's gravesite. My mom and my aunts were talking about how they wanted to be cremated or buried...and just...the whole thing got me so sad and I started tearing up. Thinking about my grandpa and mortality and all that...anyways, we finished up...and went to Pacific Mall for bootleg anime. HAHHAH that changes the mood some. Went back to pack up and then went for Canadian thanksgiving...dang...my family eats a lot. Ate and then we were off....got in back in NY at like 7 AM. Slept and dvds the whole way back.

Best part...my uncle who is supercritical said I looked good and was in good shape. I didn't get the "fat talk" for the first time in my life! wow. I am stunned. And this was when I pudged out since I went to the UK too...dang.

Anyways, home...slept some...Chris shaved the dog...so he looks like a chicken. Got up, did laundry, went to Filene's and Kohl's with my mom and got some suits. Need to get the pants hemmed...but they look pretty slick. I needed something new to wear.

HEROES SPOILERS and SPECULATION....

Ok...I think Takezo Kensei is going to be immortal and live to our time. The immortality drives him insane when his love dies or something...and then he becomes evil and is the one killing off everyone. Peter somehow absorbed Sylar's powers....and that will play out later...oh...I forgot...there was something else I was going to say...d'oh.

And HIMYM... HELLO!!! Freak and Geeks guest star! And she didn't even share any screen time with Jason Segal...just like Alyson Hannigan and her hubby! TEASE!

OK..tired. Lots of stuff to do this week. Oy...What a September...here comes ROCTOBER...hope it's good. Sunday