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Thursday, February 1, 2007 10:49 p.m.

I...didn't really do much of anything today. I had breakfast...watched some TV and then passed out for a few hours. I still feel really sick...and I went home for dinner with the folks and Justin and got some Nyquil.

I am just looking forward to getting some work done...and maybe taking a few things to look over the weekend...just so my life is easier later...

I just want to be healthy again. Oy...

But...apparently this is going to be my year. So, I'm hoping the good stuff starts now. Off to sleep.

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Thursday, February 1, 2007 01:08 a.m.

Apparently, it is called a "golden birthday"...who told me this...well, more on that later.

I sweated through 2 shirts last night. The Theraflu really does it...in any case... horrible night's sleep. Got into work in a daze...but I got a lot done actually.

Birthday gifts galore! Karen got me a whole box of fun gag stuff like fake dog poo, chattering teeth, googly eyes, and all that...Cheryl got me a funny card and a bunch of scratch off tickets...I gotta go scratch...Josh got me Saw III !!! But it was Full Screen...gotta go exchange it...and then H...she got me these awesome kid robot figures...one was this scary green guy, and the other was a black skull guy, with hearts for eyes! AWESOME...and they were blind box figures and the punkrocklover one was SUPER RARE! WOW.

AND...the girls took me out to a diner for lunch...AND...Karen got me Spidey birthday set! party favors and plates and a table mat and all that....and a cake that said ABE ROCKS...awwwww!!! It was an awesome birthday...

AND it got better... guess who emails me. Yup. Her. She says she wanted to come surprise me ...but she had a job interview...and that she wasn't blowing me off...but she needs to explain...gosh, I hope it's nothing bad. I just want to see her again and see if there is anything there. Maybe she just wants to be friends? Maybe she got confused...there's a plethora of reasons...but she finally got back to me...and I'm hoping there is a good explanation...and I can either move on...or we can start something real. I hope it's the latter...but I realize I need to stop things if I see those red flags popping up. MUST!

Anyways, more stuff...the show. Got there to set up and Amber was the first there...she bought me a drink and then we caught up...then Joyce and more people...Doris, Livia, Eunice, Sofia, Dean, Gary. Amber's bfriend David, Laura and Sam, Chris and Jen, and Adam....and H...she came in late and I actually played my medley AGAIN...just for her...and the bartender...Flavia..she loved it since I put in some U2 "BAD" at the very end...anyways,I can't believe I managed to play so long and not lose my voice. I think the alcohol and adrenaline helped me burn through my cold. And I thought that my guitar skills with my metal shredding were totally on point tonight! And the new songs went over pretty well, I'd say.

Anyhooo...the girl didn't show up (there was a slim chance she would) ...but I'm kind of glad that she didn't...it would have been too much. In any case, it was a great night... had a lot of fun....got some mad love (H even gave me a peck....eeeee !!!!) and I loved catching up with some people I haven't seen in a long time...

I got a Starbucks gift card and a Target one also...so I will put it to good use.

Oh...and I had a good venting session with Gary...glad to have gotten all of it out. I missed that dude...but I think he understands now how hard it is for me to be single when his world and a lot of my other friends' are filled with couples.

In any case...the big question...what's going to happen with the girl...and will I be alone on Valentine's Day...we shall see.

Top Chef ...him? really?

Oh...Gloria...if you are reading this. I missed you tonight...but I know you are sick and also sick of hearing me talk about the girl...I know I know...but just for the record...some of my friends were jealous that I spent more time with you then I did with them...hey, sorry. Glo talks tv with me. :P And other reasons...I love you all!

Thanks for making it a happy (not crappy) golden birthday (yeah, she's the one that told me)...let's try to keep the surprises going...

gaaaah...I am so sick.
Tuesday, January 30, 2007 07:51 p.m.

I cannot believe I feel this way the day before my birthday. I'm not getting any better. I'm getting sicker and sicker! How am I going to manage playing tomorrow night and hanging out? I think I may need to just suck it up....and then collapse. I'm already taking a personal day on Thursday...and I just have to make it through Friday and heal up over the weekend.

Why does this happen to me? Never a silver lining...just the opposite. Ugh.

I'm on all sorts of meds and nothing is working. I feel absolutely miserable. Urrrgh. I want someone to take care of me...I feel like such a whiny baby...and yeah, that's all I have to say about that.

And H very conspicuosly told me about a date she had on Sunday...um...can we say fetish? She has the strangest taste in men...sheesh. Am I jealous? Not really. I give up on women of all sorts. feh.

I actually left work at 2:00...I just could not hang in there much longer. I am just flat out miserable...it's only 8:00 and I think I am going to go to bed.

And yeah, I am that guy. I emailed her and said my last words. I feel much better. I got what I needed to say off my chest. And hey, if I never hear from her...well, been there, done that. I'm used to this kind of crap already.

Theraflu...without fail...the 2nd or 3rd night I take it...I wake up in the middle of the night with the sweats...as in soak through my shirt sweats...and nightmares...I always get the nightmares...and what are they about? Yup, same old same old. Sheesh...subconscious will you just forget about the past already?

I'm ready to get better. I'm ready to move on.

Birthday...here I come. Whose with me?

great...just what I need.
Monday, January 29, 2007 10:25 p.m.

Full blown sick. Ugh. I have a cold with the works. Stuffy, sneezy, achey, coughy, dizzy...all of it. I feel like a Nyquil (orin my case, Theraflu) commercial.

I went in to work to get a few files done and printed out a few others. Left at noon and worked a little from home...only got to sleep for like half an hour because the dog busted into my room and woke me up. Dang, I have to seal up the door tight or he gets in.

I am really worried that I won't be better for my birthday/concert on Wednesday...on top of all the crap in my life already...this would just really ruin it. Man, it's going to be a tough few weeks... and it begins on the week of my birthday...just great.

Feeling miserable in all aspects of my being. Gaahhhh, when am I going to have someone take care of me already? All my life I feel like I've had to be independent...if it wasn't taking care of my brothers, my cousins, my folks, my grandparents, my friends... it's my natural role...but I am so tired...just tired of not having someone just take care of me and let me rest for once.

Independence is so frakking overrated sometimes.

I'm sick of this. I'm sick of myself. I'm just...sick.

great...just what I need.
Sunday, January 28, 2007 11:16 p.m.

Yeah, I got a cold. My throat is sore and I am full of nsot. I took a lot of meds today and it made me pee like a race horse...as if I wasn't feeling crappy enough already.

And I do think the universe tries to make a joke out of things...I don't look for signs..but goodness...TV, movies, even a dumb commercial today...all had these bizarre connections to the girl...I mean, some character with her name, some thing she said to me was quoted in a movie, and all these other little things. I think whenever something ends with a girl...I get all these weird little flashes...I can't explain it...and honestly, I don't look for them...but it's too strange to ignore.

Anyways, I just want to be healthy for my birthday show. I suspect I will be feeling miserable enough as it is...I don't need to feel physically ill as well.

Can I please have some happiness sometime soon? My birthday would be great if I could have a pleasant surprise...please...I'm so tired of feeling beaten down and disappointed at every single turn... it's just too much to take sometimes when you feel like a constant loser.

I want to be happy and bored for once, ok?

Yeah, work week starts. Waiting for the meds to knock me out any second now.

Promise things get better, yeah? Please?

Yeah, made a new guestbook if anyone wants to comment. Leave some love.

alone again
Saturday, January 27, 2007 12:46 a.m.

Work... glad that my friends at work at least give me something to laugh about. Actually, the highlight of my day was the fact that some guy picked up his cell phone while he was taking a juicy dump...and he was like "hey boss!" SPLLLLAAAAT! And then some girl called and he was like BRRRRAAAP!

Yeah, kinda sad how that worked out.

Anyways, I picked up some DVDs and just came home to escape the cold....and man, it was like 10 degrees today. So, I watched "World Trade Center"...and it got me crying like a baby at parts...but the saddest thing was that I thought about how if anything happened to me...I know people would be upset...but I don't think anyone would miss or need me to the extent that a spouse or girlfriend would...I mean...in the history of my life...I don't think anyone has ever loved me like that...and that made me incredibly sad.

When 9/11 happened...all I wanted was to get home to see Justin...and my family. But as I get older and I see people starting families for themselves...I'm worried that I may never get the chance for that. Maybe it really isn't in the cards for me. Some people live their lives without someone else...what if I am one of those?

Look at my history and you can see...this trail of abandonment and deception...I've become so expectant that something terrible is going to happen...that what if I do meet the right person and I'm "damaged goods" by then?

In any case, I just want to focus on work, music, creative stuff, comics, etc...and not think about this relationship crap...but that physical aspect...the yearning to be in someone's arms and to have someone smile at you in the moonlight...that's just...once you get a taste of that...you don't want to let it go.

So, when the right person does come along...I need to be ok with my past and ok with being open...my guard is going to be up like crazy...but that doesn't mean someone can't win me over one of these days. I hope that all these failed attempts just means that the one that works will be that much more awesome and perfect....that all this pain was for a reason. There's got to be some sense to the universe, right?

Even if it's just my stupid, little story...God still cares and writes it with something good in mind...right?

Work to do...rehearsing...yeah, looks like it's going to be a lonely birthday again...February is going to be tought too... here's hoping that some good comes out of all this.

yeah, it's official.
Thursday, January 25, 2007 08:35 p.m.

Not a word...not a peep. I think it's time to call this one over. I'm tempted to contact her again...but then maybe I should just let it go. I'm always aching for closure...but in the end...so what? What is that going to do for me? I'm just getting more and more bitter.

Yeah, less than a week away from my birthday and I'm feeling so incredibly down on myself.

Honestly, just when I think I'm regaining some faith in the fairer sex...it just all goes to crap again. Why aren't there any decent people out there? Am I really that naive? I thought I was so much more jaded than that.

Yeah, I'm pissed off and hurt...and it's not so much about this other person...I'm just disappointed in myself. I hate feeling like this ineffectual screw up who can't get this right for the life of me.

Other things going on...but I don't even have the strength to mention it.

I hate being filled with hate. It's unbecoming.

so, this is the sound of my heart breaking...
Wednesday, January 24, 2007 11:25 p.m.

Yeah, still haven't heard from her. And I'm assuming that if I don't hear from her by tomorrow...then that means I probably never will. I'm not sure what the heck happened and if there is some miscommunication...but I'm pretty sure she got my email...and well, that's all I can really do.

It's not so much the fact that it was "her"...but the fact that this seems to keep happening to me. My whole issue with abandonment...it just gets worse and worse as the years go by. Can you blame me? I'm not sure how much more of this I can take, you know?

It's hard for me to toughen up because there always seems to be something that chips down my walls. Disappointment after disappointment....when do I get to be happy for once? When can I find happiness that lasts for more than just a moment? Am I ever going to reach some kind of plateau and just be ok with it and secure in the fact that "someone else isn't going to leave me"...life just seems to be a series of cruel departures...gah...that sounds poetic. I need to use that one day.

Work is just...not even worth mentioning. Comics keep me sane...and had a few drinks and a long talk with Gloria. Made me feel a little better...but once I came home to an empty inbox...well, my heart sank a little and I just go back down the little spiral.

So, I'm not sure how this story ends...but if my life was like "How I Met Your Mother"...I'm sure this would be where my Bob Saget would have a voice over saying something that revealed the future.

This long story with all the twists and turns and peaks and valleys...I'm tired of it. I just want to be happy, secure, and loved for once. I was telling Gloria...you know how people joke about "Oh, I'm going to die alone."...well, what if that were true? Sweet Jesus...is there anything sadder than that? (Not to mention the chicken nachos gave me the worst stomachache ever! Gloria, are you ok ?)

So, yeah...tomorrow will be another day...and whether there is more heartache and sadness in the future for me...well, it's almost guaranteed isn't it? The perpetual "blue chick"...self-loathing, here I come.

One of my co-workers wants to set me up with her friend who apparently like Asian guys...so, yeah...I guess there are more out there...but I think I need some time to heal from this. I'm honestly reeling from how bizarre it's all been. I bet I'll be able to laugh at this (when it isn't so sad)...and that slim glimmer of hope that this will turn out ok...well, time to fade to black.

I'm gonna buy a buttload of comics to make me feel better...of course, it doesn't make me any less pathetic...but whatever. Someone get me some good bday presents! Um...Amazon or instocktrades or talesofwonder gift certificates? That would be awesome.

Ok, I need a hug. Any takers? I promise I won't cry too much...just a little.

a fool hopes...but
Monday, January 22, 2007 10:42 p.m.

Yes, I am a total girl and this stuff has been driving me crazy...but if I think about it...our email exchanges were sometimes days apart...we didn't make solid plans for our date until about 2 hours before we were supposed to meet....so it is possible...that she just hasn't gotten around to getting in touch with me...and things are still copacetic.

Or...things are about to end before they even really began. Deadline will be Thursday night at the latest. If I don't hear from her by then...well, I guess I play the role of the sucker once again. Why am I so bad at this stuff?

I'm just tired of having "stories"...I just want to have someone who sticks around and thinks I'm cool...and wants to make out. Simple, really....then why can't I get this crap right?

Sigh...thank goodness for comics and friends that put up with my whining. Won't you guys be glad when I'm happy and I finally shut up and stop being such a bitter old sack? And by "sack"...I mean "testicle".

Anyways...still loving HIMYM and Heroes...working out, rehearsing, totally forgot to finish my freelance assignment...will have to finish up tomorrow...and meeting up with Joyce for dinner on Wednesday... good times for now...but I just hope I don't need some consoling soon.

My cousin Susan in Taiwan said something to me once...and yes, it's my motto now. "Abe, stop being such a p*ssy."

Stopping...right...about...Now.

We'll see what the internet brings. Good news, bad news? Mercury is in retrograde...so, that's supposed to be bad right? Dang it...

So, yeah...I'm waiting with baited breath...sometimes knowing is worse than not knowing...but man, this is pretty bad right here.

Ok...gimme good vibes. Hope for the best. The "A" can't always lose out, right? RIGHT!??!? Yeah, thanks for the reassurance, buddy.

I am such a little girl.
Sunday, January 21, 2007 12:41 a.m.

Saturday: Had a weird nightmare about my grandparents. Red room, empty, just a couch and a table. I should go over there tomorrow and check up on them...just freaked me out.

Was up early...so I ended up watching the rest of Elfen Lied...man, I haven't finished an anime series that fast in a looooong time. Anyways...super violent, nudity, comedy, and romance...weird. Up there with GANTZ as bloodiest anime I've ever seen.

Watched "Lady In the Water" and "Ice Harvest"...Shamalamadingdong is a megalomaniac, I think...Ice Harvest was really good. Dark and funny...and sad too.

Finished BLACK...man, that last board took me forever to beat...and it takes like 2 hours to play through. DANG...fun game though.

Worked out, paid bills, started working on new freelance article...got a lot done. AND IT IS FREEEZING.

So...I'm waiting for an email back...and I keep thinking "oh, maybe she didn't get it since I got an out-of-office reply"...or maybe it got labeled as SPAM since I sent it from my website email...or or....maybe she's just not going to get back to me and it was all a mistake. I can't believe it hasn't even been a week yet...but I'm reverting to my old ways.

I can't really be emotionally detached after I've been "close to" someone...I guess I really am all EMO and girlie when it comes to that. Yeah, I can feel myself trying hard to be "butch" and "tough"...but when it comes down to it...I want that lasting relationship, I guess.

Ok...well, I'm giving it until Tuesday...then one last attempt...and then finally resignation. Well, by this time next week...I'll know for sure.

But yeah, I'm hoping to have a valentine this year.

"Grow some balls, dude." Yeah, I know.

Why am I such a girl?
Friday, January 19, 2007 02:51 p.m.

Well, it's been two days since I emailed her and I have not heard back. I'm not completely freaked out yet...but I'll give it until Tuesday. I know she has family business to tend to this weekend...but it doesn't take all that long to reply to an email right? Anyways...yeah, I'm a total girl.

Work...the big news...I get an extra THREE weeks on my project...that means no more working weekends for me! WOOO! And the vendor is late today...so that means...I did nothing.

Lunch: Had lunch with H at the diner the other day. I do enjoy her company...had a fun talk...Then food court with the gang yesterday...and sushi today...man, spending a lot of cash on food.

Weekend...free time to work out, watch TV, rehearse...just sleep. And trying not to freak out.

TGIF.

date
Wednesday, January 17, 2007 09:15 a.m.

Ok...work yadda yadda...some other stuff...but let's get to the good bits...or at least what I can share.

So...I met up with "KM" last night at Joshua Tree on Rest. Row...and yeah...we hit it off right away. She's a bit of a tomboy...but insanely brilliant. She has her masters from Columbia and works there in one of the PoliSci/Econ offices...anyways...we get to drinks and food...and she's telling me about her research topic that she is trying to get a grant for. VERY interesting topic...but not likely to be very mainstream...in any case...she gets me to help her with some research. So we end up going to this place a few blocks over...and.... yeah. It's a place I have NEVER been to...and well, now I can see why...but that's really all I can say. shhhhhh!!!

We end up having a few drinks and getting on great...so one thing leads to another and I end up...not going home. It was a very PG (OK... PG-13) night ...no details...but the date went A LOT better than I expected. In any case...date 2 ...sometime next week.

Interesting to note...her bro-in-law is Korean...hmmm. She swears that she doesn't have an Asian fetish...and I believe her. I really LIKE HER like her at this point...but still too early to decide what is what.She's absolutely brilliant, cute, sarcastic, outgoing, interested in my nerdstuff, and just really interesting. And yeah, GREAT kisser. Hungover...sleep deprived...and I've got some battle scars...um...hickeys. Yipes.

Ok...one weird thing...I told H yesterday that I had a date...and she started going on and on about some random guy she met through a friend over the weekend...the odd thing about it...her evening with the guy sounded EXACTLY like the evening I had with her! Dinner, the two of them talking, meeting the same co-worker at the bar, but most importantly....him asking her to do something...and then her not realizing...so...was that her way of telling me what happened between us? Was she jealous of my date or did she need to prove that she is out and about too? In any case...not much I can do at this point.

Ok...it's gonna be a rough day. I'm gonna try to deal and get some work done. Karaoke tonight too...oh man...I hope I can stay awake. Lots to process.

That was it?
Monday, January 15, 2007 12:31 a.m.

Weekend went by in a blur. I can't believe that's it. I watched a few movies, did some work at home...hung out with the family...updated my ipod...and now, I'm going in on MLK day tomorrow. Crap.

Anyways, my grandpa got a computer! He's online and reading the papers now...wow...futuretech!

Comics...just awesome...Anyone want to start reading? I'd love to convert people to the four-color way. As for TV...I got Nina hooked on VM and now hoping she gets into BSG.

Tuesday...haven't heard from the girl since Thursday..I still hope our plans are set...we'll see tomorrow. She did say she was a bit unmotivated in meeting people...but she's the one that wanted to get drinks. So, let's see what happens.

Urrrgh...feeling a little weird and restless...but work tomorrow. I hope I can be motivated and get a lot of crap done. It's going to be a rough month.

Pride...MLK. Play some U2 and remember.

TGIF!!!
Friday, January 12, 2007 03:12 p.m.

Despite work...it's been a blur.

Some highlights: Had lunch with H yesterday...everyone else was busy...so we ended up having sushi. Had a good talk...she's just so interesting and weird (in a good way)...I dunno. I can see us being friends for a long time...or just never seeing her again...it's one of those weird things.

The Office and Scrubs...hilarious... oompa loompa doompity DAWSOME...hahah! It's "steak sauce".

Lunch with H and Josh today... more weirdness...but good too.

Supposed to be getting a load of work...but of course it's late. And I don't want to have to come in on Monday and find out the vendor has not sent ANYTHING...come on...let's just get this going.

I did get two awesome things: Marvel Legends Icons Spidey and a Spider-woman...love 'em !

Oh...and yeah...date on Tuesday night. Trying to keep expectations low...but her emails are so witty and funny. I'm starting to hope she isn't too awesome...sigh.

TGIF...I'm tired.

work and other things
Thursday, January 11, 2007 09:50 a.m.

Wow...haven't blogged in a while. Basically, it's all about work at the moment. Pulling in some long hours and such. Just tired and kind of woozy (yea, part of that was from the "gas smell" on Monday...I left work early and went home at around noon-ish).

Highlights: Had "dinner" with Joyce and Krys last night (it was all hummus! at Hummus Place)...K backpacked through Europe after she got laid off and had an amazing time...I can't share her story...but wow...sounds like it came straight out of a romcom! WOW...just unbelievable. Had a beer and then it was time to go home.

Dates: Yes...possibly plural. Nina wants to set me up with her coworker...apparently she's gorgeous and loves all the geeky stuff I like like the Jossverse and BSG...so, I emailed her...waiting to hear back. The other: someone else I met online...too early to tell...but she wants to have drinks soon. Sounds like a smarty...and from her pic...CUTE. We'll see.

TV/Comics: JSA...wow...last page reveal gave me chills. "Kingdom Come" timeline meets with proper DCU because of a Legionaire...oh man, talk about nerdgasm!!! Red Sonja is surprisingly good and not just eye candy. ...and Animal Man died in 52? OH NOOOOO!!! Top Chef...waiting for the finale...and I have a ton of ANTM dvr'ed...though I may have to work over the long weekend...ugh!!!

Haven't seen or heard from friends outside of work in ages...where are you guys?!? I've been so busy...sorry.

I need to sleep in...one more day to go...arrgh.

my aching back...
Sunday, January 7, 2007 11:22 p.m.

Yeah...not much going on. Never really made it out of the house this weekend because my back is really sore. I did get my folks massive massage thing...I will put it to good use for sure.

Watched ANTM and played BLACK...rehearsed some new songs...and that was really it. Rested up because I KNOW I will be clocking in some serious overtime this week. And maybe next...but hey...another long weekend coming up and yeah, I may have to go into work...but I just need to hang in there for another month or so.

Speaking of ANTM...my faves have been Joanie, CariDee, and for some strange reason ...Nicole is super sexy in photos but not otherwise...and Joanie...that little snaggletooth was so hot. Why did she get it pulled??? sigh...

Had dinner with the family and I ate too much...ugh. Hung out with our cousin May and her baby Ruby...precocious kid...and the rest of the family.

How I Met Your Mother: Yeah...missed most of this season, but I'm hoping I can catch up...LOVE the show...Cobie Smulder...she looks like my dream girl: dark, dark hair... green eyes, pale skin... and Amy Acker is still so cute. She does remind me a bit of Eunice still..

Might see Joyce and Gloria this week...other wise...it's all work work work...I need to get out and do something drastic....ugh.

Well, there's one resolution...
Friday, January 5, 2007 10:01 a.m.

Ok...let's just skip to the date. So I'm supposed to meet up with "J" at this bar in the neighborhood. I get there early...wait around...and I'm like "Oh, no...am I getting stood up?!??" and then she comes out of the bar and was like "why didn't you come in"...well, the music was BLARING as it was karaoke night...and it was packed to the gills..anyways, her friend was with her...and then her friend left.

So, we go next door...we have a few drinks and some good conversation...which leads to dinner. And then we take a walk to Bryant Park. Things are going pretty well. I think she's pretty cute and she's laughing a lot...so..

Well, time to leave cause we both have work...and then she says she is "looking for THE ONE" and she doesn't think we have "that spark"...well, ok...and then she hugs me...and...

she kisses me and we end up making out on the street. Um...hello...mixed signals???

I liked her well enough...but too early to tell. And I don't know how someone can gauge if someone is going to turn out to be whatever after one meeting...but, hey...I'm always up for making new friends...and we may or may not see each other again...but in the end...RESOLUTION 1 is under way.

So, yeah...interesting...weird...and we are only in to the first week of January.

TGIF...seriously.

sick day....and ANTM marathon
Thursday, January 4, 2007 04:15 p.m.

So I worked super hard on Tuesday to get all my work done and I came home and was like BLAAAOOOW. Could not move. So I took a sick day, sat on a heating pad, watched ANTM and played BLACK all day.

not much else...oh except "HIMYM" is AWESOME and it inspired me to go out and meet people...so even though I have a "quasimodo finger" at the moment...I'm having drinks with someone tonight...I totally expect it to be disastrous...but who knows?

I'm ready to move on...ready to be proactive this year. Yup...that was "Resolution 1"...more later. Wish me a "hope it doesn't turn out psycho" kind of night.

Shaken...not stirred.
Tuesday, January 2, 2007 09:43 a.m.

Doesn't look like I am starting out '007 in a suave manner befitting Mr. Bond...in fact, I feel like a bad comedy sketch come to life.

Recap: I was at my aunt's house on NYE...adn I slipped on a DVD cover and fell. Banged my head and elbow...broke some jewlery box thing. Ugh. Wait...it gets better. So yesterday, I must have moved wrong or something and I throw out my back...ARRRGH! So, I can barely walk and I'm just slow...and I make soup and seriously burn my finger...soak my fingers for like 6 hours...and now I'm ok...but HUGE nasty blister on one of my fingers....arrgh!

NYE: Family this year...went to my aunt's house with cousins and the kids...pretty low key this year. Not much to write about...

NYD: Watched tv...soaked my finger...Ok, the girl that plays Robin in "How I Met Your Mother"...she looks like my dream girl... dark, black hair and green eyes...wow. That show is totally about me...the loser main character (only one that sucks) who says "I love you" to the girl on the first date...that's me. Wanting to settle down and get married...eh...what a moron. And then back into the dating pool...at least there are a few "Freaks and Geeks" and "Buffy" alum moments in the show...and yeah, Neil Patrick Harris is pretty hilarious on the show.

TON of work...try to get it done...maybe squeek out a sick day if I can...my back is killing me...arrgh.

More on resolutions later...if I can think of any.

New Year's
Monday, January 1, 2007 11:22 p.m.

I'm typing this one hand...be cause well..Iburned my finger pretty badly ...in fact.I'm going to stop right here since this is ridiculous... this year has started out with me getting hurt in a number of ways...pretty crazy...more when I am healed.