long weekend-o
Friday, August 29, 2003 09:09 p.m.

Yesterday was nice...got to hang out at home, do laundry, play guitar, work on some lyrics, and just chill out with the Simpsons.

Cooked dinner for Chris, Nina, and Fred... we watched the VMAs...and let me tell you... BritneyMadonnaXtina Kiss... shocking ! Britney is dang hot... sigh.

Not much else... BAAF on Saturday...taking Justin and Chi Chi. Gary's wedding coming up... and maybe off to Princeton? Who knows.

No work? OMG...what a weird feeling.

TGIF. *muah.

Vote for Azaleas!
Thursday, August 28, 2003 04:13 p.m.

Pretty self explanatory.

Go here and vote for Azaleas (Cindy and Cindy's store)

http://newyork.citysearch.com/best/ballot/8543/? cslink=cs_boc_lh_2_14

blarrrffgh.
Thursday, August 28, 2003 01:10 p.m.

Vicky's last day... so sad... Lamanna, Mark, Netcher, Gerald, Em, and I took her to Blue Smoke for lunch... hushpuppies and pulled pork hahah it was good.

I'm gonna miss hanging out with that kid everyday. But we'll definitely hang out sometime soon. She got all teary eyed... awww. :(

Tutored Tammy... we covered drama! We practiced a scene from ANTZ...she's learning a lot.

Went to LES for drinks with Alice...it's a small world...we know a bunch of the same people. But that was about it... eh. What can you expect. It was pleasant, but it's one of those things where you just kinda go..."oh..ok."

Went to YokoCho to meet up with the Cindys after the trunk show... Joyce, Gloria, Cathy, and Belle were there...and soem other folks...we ate lots of random stuff and drank waaaay too much. Gloria says she has lots of cute single friends that she wanted to set me up with. She said she would date me if she didn;t have a boyfriend already...hahaha. Had a reallly good time and ended up getting home at 1... couldn't sleep...so I took a sick day.

So...watching Simpsons all ay and cleaning up..Chris and Nina coming over for VMAs later...

I'm tired... sleepy. But I got a free day...make the most of it.

Vicky's last day...
Wednesday, August 27, 2003 09:08 p.m.

Yesterday... after work went to the gym with Eunice. I'm so proud of her... she did a good 45 mins. of hardcore working out. And has she got a body! MRRROOOWWWR. We ahd Teriyaki Boy after that. heh...

Went home... played some covers... slept.

2 people joined my mp3.com fan club? MAN... I don't pay for that service so I can't see who they are! GAAAH...

VIcky made me the best thing ever...this big card she made for me...collage of pics...and she wrote about all these inside jokes...man, that's the card I've been waiting to get from SOMEONE all this time...I don't need presents...I just need someone to tell me the time we shared meant something to them. I love that kid.

Anyhooo... more later. I'm a little frazzled... runner's high screwed me all up... and I didn't sleep very well.

AHHHH Em is so cute. she said I looked nice yesterday. I wasn't wearing black for once... the color of my soooooul.

NO work ? WHAT ??? IS the busy season over?

WOW!
Tuesday, August 26, 2003 10:06 p.m.

I have hit 222 plays on my mp3.com site!

WOW !

Who are you people ???

Check it out:
www.mp3.com/abechang

just another day...
Tuesday, August 26, 2003 09:04 p.m.

Not much happened yesterday... I left early from work... went home...played some music... watched some TV.

Young Frankenstein is pretty funny...it's "haha" funny... but Teri Garr...man...when she was young...she was gorgeous! "Roll in ze hay...roll, roll, roll...iz fun, no ? " CUTE !

Jenn got in a car accident out in OC....poor girl ! I will send you an anime care package of love ! So glad she is ok though...

Sunjoo...hard to figure out... mean and nice...nice and mean... seriously. My brain hurts trying to figure her out.

Talked to Laura last night...it's getting easier for us to be friends after we've come to an understanding...

Today is the last milestone. It's Esther's birthday... and it's the last day that I mentally marked last year... so Happy Birthday... I've hope you've grown up some and realize the things that you didn't before. I loved you fiercely and with all of my heart. It's a shame you weren't ready for something real.

I have to move on with my life. Channel all this energy into something good. Make myself the man I want to be and just be better. I deserve something good. And it will come. I just need patience and need to trust in the divine plan.

I'm waiting.

help with covers?
Tuesday, August 26, 2003 02:20 a.m.

Thinking about covers to do for next shows:

1. Hands Down-- Dashboard Confessional
2. High and Dry--Radiohead
3. Angels--Robbie Williams
4. Together or Alone--Sebadoh
5. If You Don't Don't--Jimmy Eat World
6. Bizarre Love Triangle--New Order
7. Who's Gonna Ride Your Wild Horses --U2

Any votes ?

Like the updates to the template?

another weekend.
Monday, August 25, 2003 09:16 p.m.

OK... the big scare on Friday.

After Justin finished shooting the educational video...he had to go to the emergency room because he had an allergic reaction to the pesto sauce in one of the sandwiches. I was totally freaking out... but my Mom and Dad were with him...and he got a shot and was ok. My poor baby... I told my Mom years ago never to let Justin have pesto sauce...he's allergic to pinenuts... ack. Anyways... he was in the hospital until midnight and now he is ok.

I had sushi with Eunice friday... it was nice. I love hanging out with her..though I have been feeling a little down lately. We ended up going to BBAND B to buy some home furnishings... man...one day I'll be shopping there with some lucky girl who is gonna move in with me... :P

Saturday... not much... working on some musci... kinda puttering around the apartment.. I lovethe 70's on VH1...man... I hope they have a DVD set of that and I love the 80s... MUST GET !

Went to Gary's bachelor party...buncha guys, steaks, beer, and poker...but NO STRIPPERS ! Man...I don;t think I ever will see one or go to a strip club...one of those rites of passage I'm probably never going to experience... oh well.

Hung out... jammed on guitar with Y-Ya's husband Matt... played cars with chruch boys from Ling Liang and LFCC... it was fun. But too much testosterone...which is why I was wondering why "Interview with a Vampire" was playing the background...kinda gay? YES.

Gary got some fuzzy cuffs and a book on "sensual love making" ... dude...he's gonna need it in two weeks !

Sunday: More music...cleaning up the apartement...then went to church... Calvary at 6...kinda Anglican... it was a good service...but I was so tired I was fallling asleep. I need someone to go to church with me on a regular basis.

Home...comics...tv... blarrgh.

Thinking too much... tomorrow is the last milestone... and then ...I really need to stop thinking about her.

Anyways... sex and the city... always seems to reflect my life... Carrie and her HS bfriend (Duchovny!) and he's nuts. So maybe Esther and her HS bfriend are miserable now...because she is nuts? BWAHAHAHAH... in any case... I deserve better... and saner. So... single ladies... leave me some digits. HOLLA.

I'm feeling pudgy...gonna go gym-ing with Eunice...but where is she today ?

OH... I got tix for Interpol and for Shania Twain... dude... Shania tix cost me $170 bucks... but heck...it will be worth it. But who to take??? hmmmm... "someone special" ? Come Oct. 15... I hope so.

Funny thing... Ciara ended up coming to my gig. But she hung out outside. She was too shy to come in! And now she's going to Prague for a year ! OMG !

Anyways...Mondays suck.

not psycho.
Friday, August 22, 2003 11:54 p.m.

Sunjoo isn't psycho.

She is a beautiful flower.

Better ???

NEXT GIG ...and other stuffies...
Friday, August 22, 2003 09:36 p.m.

First off: NEXT GIG !
Thursday, Sept.18 at the green room.

Went in after work to talk to Bonnie and book the next show. PSYCHED. Any suggestions for covers?

AND...Justin's audition for Nickelodeon went well apparently...and he's shooting the educational video spot today. Woo...They tried to get LuLu to audition too...but she was too shy! MAN ! Just do it, girl !

Work is insane...I seriously need to schedule a vacation.

Lunch...comics...more work... VIcky got highlights... BLONDE... she dyed them again... supposed to be red...like Ronald McDonald red...har.

Chris Roberson is a field recruiter for Blind Date now... hahahah seriously considering humiliating myself in public...

went back to get Tux fitted...some groceries... MR. Show marathon... man...Third Season was not as good...but I hear Fourth is awesome... but still.

Weird thing... Sunjoo ...of all people.. calls me at 1230 to give me her new number. Ok... the verdict is still not in... but is she PSYCHO or not... first off... she tells me that she is "eh" that signs my guestbook... because she says "eh" all the time...not initials like "EH" ( which I thought were for Eileen Hsi) anyhooo...she spends the whole summer at home...15 mins. away from me...and we don't hang out once... and she didn't want to meet me because I was too "emotionaL"... DUDES AND DUDETTES... it's one thing for me to vent in my blog...it's another for me to be all EMO in person...and the only time I am EMO is when I am performing... other than that...

Anyways... so ... I'm not sure what to make of it... on her Friendster page... "who she wants to meet" ...sounds like me...except I'm not a lefty. GAAAAH ! So frustrating... I used to think she was cute and spunky...and I liked her sassy attitude and creative spark...but now... maybe she is nutters. Who knows. We'll see when she comes home next...

TGIF! No idea what I'm doing tonight... maybe just home... *shrugs

tired...but Mr. Show makes my day.
Thursday, August 21, 2003 09:36 p.m.

Work was just insane. INSANE.

VIcky's bday... me and Gerald took her to Jackson Hole for obscenely large burgers... then he bought her a 40 of Colt 45 and drank with her in the closet...while I went to get cake for her with Em. Interesting.

Justin has another audition! A promo for Fairly Oddparents for Nickelodeon! And the audition is at 1515 ! MTV studios...how cool is that?

BUT had to go and buy a digicam at Best Buy to take headshots for him...it will have to do for now...until he gets the pro ones done... and hey...we got a digicam!

Other than that...I am BEAT.... doing all this stuff for Justin...but finally got to watch some Mr. SHow and just pass out.

WOrk and the gig has really been taking it out of me lately. I am drained.

Need to stop by the greenroom later and book next gig...

I'm getting bored already.

Waiting for something good .

seriously... best show...EVER!
Wednesday, August 20, 2003 10:24 p.m.

OK...let's just skip to the good part... I went over to the greenroom at about 6 with Vicky... we moved stuff and set up. The space is just a little weird and they can't move the piano...so I've got this teeny tiny corner to work in... anyhoo. Come 7:15 and people finally start to show up... it was a decent sized crowd.. but it was QUALITY that counted.

Started off with "senses" and by the time I got to the pop medley...I felt comfortable with the crowd... blazed through the first set and pretty much everyone stuck around for the second. hmmm who came... ok... Claudia, Sandy, their friend, Eunice, Doris, Patrick, Erin, Sara, Ginny, Michelle, Kate, her friend, Cindy, Cindy, Jenn, My folks, my grandma, Vicky, Emily, Natasha, Yvette, Annabelle, Grace, Laura, Jen, and the restaurant patrons.

Second set started with "pinioned" and closed with "with or without you" ... I think I scared someone when I got loud... heh... It was fun. Acoustics were decent...and the people seemed to really like my stuff... I think "only eternity" and "the scent of you" went over well...

The funny thing was... I was already unplugged and packing when Grace and Cindy came in... so ... people asked for an ENCORE! I ended up playing "reverie", "pinioned" and "love's brutality" again...it's really over...

Witty stage banter went over... eh. it was cheesy ...but still.

HAHAH...Best thing was...I got free drinks... and I GOT PAID ! $20 from the bar... and they asked me to come back today to book the next gig. AND I sold 15-17 CDS! wooo !

Laura said I gave her chills, Grace looked amazing after she got back from HK, Sandy was a little flirtatious I thought (ahem... handful.)... and Yvette was chasing me away from her sister. HA! It was a fun night over all...I should have hung out ...but went to Flushing to pick up the kids and have dinner with the family.

Then home.. Doris was telling me how she got shirts for Eunice, Yvette, Cindy, and Elaine... that were going to say "I make Abe cry" HAHHAHA...but the iron ons didn;t work... oh well.. but it was the thought that counts. I LOVE MY GIRLS!

Roomful of cute girls... and none of them like me ??? CRAP. EH... I'm doing what I love...that's what counts.

So... next show...more people? less? does it matter? I had a load of fun. That's what gets me through.

I feel alive.

wooo.
Tuesday, August 19, 2003 10:14 p.m.

work was work... got stuff done. that's all I have to say about that.

Had lunch with Eunice.. Best Buy and Italian... we can be so gross sometimes...trying each other's food..."take a bite of this" ...GLOMP!

Went home after work and just practiced...I'm still making stupid mistakes...but what can I do...just do it and see what happens tonight. I hope a lot of people show up for this one...if not...I'm sure the regular restaurant patrons will make up for it.

In any case... I'm psyched. I need to be doing this mor eoften.

Sabrina called ! Cuaght up a little bit... she's almost done with the law stuff...heading out to the west coast for a month... she'll be married next year ??? oh man... I need to catch up. :(

"alfieralfie" IMed me last night and we talked...he's dealing with some similar stuff... so I say ...more power to him. Hang in there, bro! Women are evil! Theyare cunning and have their mysterious wiles ! Be careful, dood.

Other than that...Van Wilder is a pretty dang funny movie...and the DVD menu... YOWZA.

Show tonight! Time to rumble in da jungle, kiddies.

Hope to see you there.

weekend of babies...
Monday, August 18, 2003 10:25 p.m.

Didn't do much all of Friday but lounge around... went home when power came back and watched TV and rehearsed... pretty much it.

Saturday.. was rehearsing when string popped...tried to restring my guitar but the strings kept busting..so I went into Sam Ash and got a pro to do it with 15 dollar strings...they sound gooood. but 3 times the price..oh well... went to Lu'Lu's for her 12th bday... bbq and a bunch of junk... opher was over and we played with the babies. They are all growing up so fast... I get all teary eyed now thinking about how big they are... All I thought of was when I held LuLu when she was a chubby bald baby...now she's becoming a big kid... sniff. I want to get married and have kids... ASAP.

Sunday... so tired...w as supposed to go to Ikea with Doris but she passed out. So I rehearsed... and was about to pass out and take a nap...but the family swiped me home and hung out with Nina and the kids.

I'm so beat... talked to Laura on the phone for a good hour and a half last night...things are better...a little weird...but i have things in perspective...

Saw the "Hawaiian punch splashed down my shirt" kid again... man... why doesn't his mom get him a new shirt or bleach that one ??? And she had a thumb up her nose ! YEEESH.

Too tired to type... need coffeee...

My show tomorrow. wooot. you coming ?

Bring hot SINGLE non-CRAZY wimmins. Thanks.

LIGHTS OUT !
Friday, August 15, 2003 04:50 p.m.

well... let's just say ...the BLACK OUT '03 was not a happy event for me. Lights went out a little after 4...and I had JUST gotten out of the elevator with Vicky and was IMing Cindy when I heard this BYUUUUOOOOOWWWHAAAOH sound. And the lights went out. Everyone thought it was just the building, then it was just our block...and then people started making calls. I got through to Eric and my Dad and they said it was a BLACK OUT...and it was more than just NY... OK...

Pulled out the mini TV and watched for news...and hey...POKEMON was on...go Charizard!...anyhoo... news confirmed the BLACK OUT (notice it is in CAPS) and that it WAS NOT TERRORISM...whew.

EM and VIcky had bolted the building by then...while the rest of the office talked about what we should all do... groups that were going to walk...etc... but then. We noticed someone was stuck in the elevator by our floor. OH BOY...w e tried to use some metal planks and hammers to open the door...but the building maintenance guys came and tried also...nope. Mark and Gerald stayed behnd to talk to the woman while the fire dept. came... the rest of us had to leave before it started getting dark... no streetlights.

So Crystal, Leslie (and David walked from his new job to come get her) and Andrew started walking uptown... but we parted ways soon after.

I went to check up on Doris and ran into her and lily just as they were leaving.. whew... she ended up staying in the city..

Ran into Jill Yip on the street too! wild ! It was just very odd in general...it was like 9/11 all over again...heading towards the 59th street bridge and all of that...but this time it was like MARDI GRAS... people were drinking and having a blast outside. man..I wish had beads to throw at girls!

Anyways... made my way across the bridge and onto Queens Blvd...and ran into Jeff Wulbrecht !..the other intern at work.. we ended up walking to 69th street... he puked. My mom came to pick us up... weird thing was...it was the same exact spot that she picked me up on 9/11. It just happened to be where I just arbitrarily stopped. Odd, that. And then this teenager...cute , spunky girl...was diriecting traffic. She was so tough. I have a crush on her. heh.

Anyways... dropped Jeff at home.. Julie and Garrett were home ok... and then checked on my cousins ..Chris and Nina were fine. Then went home to scarf some food and see Justin and my grandma...my Dad didn't get home until 1 AM.. anyways...things were fine.

I showered by candlelight and listened to news all night on my walkman.. rough.

And Sam wrote "blackout check" ... heh...cute. we'll get drinks some time later.

Other events: Had lunch with Em at the diner that I took Jeff and Vicky...same waitress ! She remembered that I got root beer! cute. and ran into Genveieve on the street ...Em was like "who was that"!??! I ddn't say..need to keep an air of mystery...besides "oh the girl that works at the comic shop that I have a huge crush on" sounds dorky. eh.

So here I am checking email and updating the blog to let ya'll know that I am ok. I love the internet. I am hugging the WWW right now.

Hope you are well blog readers! Take care...and appreciate the 'lectricity. *MUAH.

Let there be light. AMEN.

whoah...weirdness.
Thursday, August 14, 2003 08:35 a.m.

First off: Justin got another role ! He's playing "BOY 1" in an educational video about healthy friendships and bullies ? He plays a bully! He's in one scene and threatens some kid: "Are you with us or not with us ?" ...ooooh !!! He really has to ACT ! My baby is gonna be a punk !!!

Ok...I am officially getting SPANKED at work... waaay too much paper flying back and forth...and forth and back... well...looks like mid-September should be less hectic. I better get a fat raise.

Took the interns out to lunch...why am I so nice? Jeff and Vicky...how we shall miss their cheap labor!

I got in late yesterday...but I zipped out at 545...just too dang tired...but I got a lot done.. so ...eh.

Anyways... went to Sam Ash to pick up some music gear and stuff... went home to practice... Man...playing two sets... how am I going to keep the energy up for 2 hours... after a long day at work...I dunno...

Well.. the weird thing... "alfiealfiera" IMed me at home...claiming his name was "John Davis"...riiiight... but he hinted he was Asian... in any case... I gave hims some details about what exactly happened last year... and I think we both agree... I do need to move on and just wait for " someone hotter and with better brains" ...as the lead singer from Korn put it (heh...get it...Johnathan Davis)...anyhoo... he eluded to the fact that he may be in NY and may see me... so mayhaps at the show??/ or he may try to murder me ?!??! in any case... look to the blog ! the evidence is here !!!!

Then I did something stupid.

I just wrote "hi" and sent it to Esther's screename...the scary thing was...she was ONLINE... I took her off my buddy list a long time ago... so I had no idea... but I got freaked out and just logged off.

I have no idea why I did that... but even if she did reply...what would I say ? "I hate you/ I love you" ... I don't know... there isn't anything that she could possibly say that would make me feel better.... and if she is still with her HS boyfriend...or maybe she's engaged? or maybe she is pregnant and moving to Chile? I don't know...but the point is... I shouldn't care.

She was selfish, hurtful, and deceiving... and I deserve so much better.

I talked to a very drunk Doris for 2 minutes... and Eunice was up so we had a chance to talk... I felt a lot better and less freaked out.... I love my girls.

In any case... in the conversation...I said something that would make a great lyric: "I'll keep lying to myself until it's true." ... so... something good did come out of that.

Well.. the point. I'm moving on... I have things to do...and whether or not someone out there is what I am looking for...so what?

I've got my friends, my family, my God, myself... anything else is just icing. I'll just keep working on making myself better...and that gorgeous, brilliant, funny woman is going to walk into my life and just knock me for a loop. She'll bring me all the healing and understanding I can bear. ...and then we get the house with the white picket fence, 2 dogs, 4 kids, and a kick ass recording studio.

Well..I'm supposed to be having drinks with ... ??? I dunno...we'll see.

Watched "Voices of a Distant Star" last night...man... never thought that a story about two kids sending text messages across space to each other would get me so choked up... heh. "This message will take 8 years to reach him...he'll be 24 and I'll still be 15... but I need to let him know that... I still really, really like him!" AWWWW !!!

I'm alive. I'm well. Things could be better... but I think I like it here.

urrrgh.
Wednesday, August 13, 2003 10:42 a.m.

Yesterday was hella busy..so much stuff to do... and no internet to distract me! Crap... anyhoo...

Had lunch with Jennie Choe... she asked for the dirt on a certain someone...and I gladly gave it... I don't approve of this dude's methods... and Jennie's siser is a nice girl...she'll find out soon enough... but Jennie is doing well... and ready to start law school... best wishes to her as she leaves for PA.

Went to best Buy and H and M...got my CHuck Taylor's ... went home and watched "Irreversible" ... I had to turn it off half way... the movie is a revenge story presented in backwards chronological order... there is a HORRIFIC rape scene that goes on waaay too long. Monica Bellucci is such an amazing and courageous actresss... what makes this movies so tough is her ACTUAL husband plays her boyfriend in this... man... I can understand waht the buzz was about...but it's hard to watch...I'll finish it ...eventually.

But right now...I'd rather watch Mr. Show.

Overslept this morning.. I really need to get a full night's sleep... I'll try sleeping in the living room... sigh. This is bad...headachey...tired... blech.

late entry...
Tuesday, August 12, 2003 04:42 p.m.

Ok... let's just say I didn't have ANY internet access until now...you know how maddening that gets?

Anyways...yesterday... work is still blarrgh! And I didn't do much but go shopping with Vicky a little...

After work... went to the green room to sound check ... weird set up... I don;t really like it...but they have decent acoustics. In any case... I did my thing and one of the co-owners loved my music... whew... I'm glad... the show is in a week ! I hope people come...I really need a big turn out for this one..

I'm tired... I'll write more about the happenings of today later..

SIGH...

packed weekend...
Monday, August 11, 2003 09:33 a.m.

Ok... so Friday... went home to rehearse... recorded a bit... and Eric came home pretty early... just sat around and watched DVDs mainly... and had pizza and other crap...it's Faturday all weekend long.

Saturday... we went to sleep pretty late... but got up and went with the folks to Minado for obscene amounts of sushi... got a couple of DVDs...and went home to...digest.

Jack, Shelb, and their friend Lily came over with Popeye's...gaaaah. They watched TV for a bit while me and Eric put some finishing touches on "everlong" ...

Hung out with Justin and Chris and Nina for a little it...then I came back to finish up the CD...

So... "lucky insouciance" is done ! And actually...I think a lot of the acoustic versions sound better than the studio versions... mainly because there is less clutter around the vocals... and they ring a lot cleaner...but eh... we'll see... I hope people buy it. I worked very hard on it.

Sunday.. we got up late... went home to the folks place for brunch...yes...more food... gaaah... and hung out with the family for a bit... burning CDs and updating the music gigs website....and then dinner in Flushing... MORE FOOD... ACK !

Home... rehearsed...talked to Doris a little bit... apparently I have a "queer eye" and she wants me to go to Ikea to pick out stuff for her apartment... ugh... I am so NOT gay...

Weirdest thing... Sami Kim... girl I had a crush on when I met her like...oh...5 years ago... IMed me out of nowhere to tell me she was changing her email addy...and that she was engaged... well.. I showed her a recent pic of me (which is about 30 lbs. lighter than when she saw me 5 years ago) and she was like "dang...I missed out." ... DAMN STRAIGHT... oh well... another one bites the proverbial "dust" ...

Can't sleep!~ ARRRGH ! I got this huggable body pillow...but I think I am allergic to it ! CRAP ! It was a poor substitute anyways... sniff.

So... must practice... must stop by the green room and test out the sound. Please bring people to the show! I talked to Bonnie and Bettina and they are expecting me to draw a sizable crowd... so please... please bring yourself and friends!

Ugh...it's Monday. yucko.

LIVE EP !
Friday, August 8, 2003 02:27 p.m.

My brilliant plan.

Since I have so many alternate versions, live tracks, and cover songs that I can't include on "lo-fi is chic." I'm going to start pressing my own CDs... and selling them at my gigs.

7 songs for 5 bucks a pop...a good deal !

"lucky insouciance"

7 live and acoustic

1. senses (acoustic)
2. reverie (acoustic)
3. don't want to be friends (acoustic)
4. love's brutality (live)
5. no sensitivity (live)
6. everlong (live)
7. with or without you (live)

Just going to sell these at live shows. So come check me out live and gimme the dough !

on ABC and ESPN...
Friday, August 8, 2003 09:42 a.m.

Justin finished his FIRST commercial! The promo for the Little League World Series is going to be aired on ABC and ESPN in 2 weeks...He'll be eating pie, talking in Chinese about the in-filed fly rule, and representing Asia...WOOO. He's gonna get $500 bucks or so... but hey..how much did you earn when you were 12 !?...MY BABY! He making money !

Work was blaaargh... had to get tons done.

Eunice is so weird cute...we met up to do some shopping at lunch...and she was wearing these weird thick round black glasses...a la Harry Potter...and she was like "what? I got these at Lenscrafters!" ....kooky cute... more kooky though. heh.

Stopped by Cosmic Comics... Genevieve is sooo dang cute. sigh...gave her resume in to my boss...wouldn't it be weird if she worked here???

Home after work to have dinner with the folks and the tv star...heh... and then Justin treated us to Dunkin' Donuts... cute.

SO...Lucia is gone ....and in the aftermath...I'll be cleaning up and walking around nekkid. :P

Worked on some live and acoustic tracks...I'm going to be sellling an EP at my shows. Just pressing a few copies and trying to get some cash to fund the proper album. I have enough alternate versions and covers that I can easily get this done soon.

In any case...it's Friday...and I am in no mood to do any work. Eric's coming home today... wooo.

And more on this "past" thing... well... people deal with it in different ways... I happen to NEED to think about it and talk about it... because that is where I generate a lot of ideas for my music and my poetry. And it's a cleansing ritual in order for me to even be able to TALK or THINK about itnow...I couldn't even deal with it in a constructive way before. And now I'm gaining perspective...and at this point in my life...I can use what I've learned to help others not to make the same mistakes. And honestly...SO WHAT. No one is going to change me but me...and I have been changing. This is the way I deal.

A waste of time. But I feel like being shallow.

HOTTEST STARS (in Abe's mind...recently)

1. Daisy Fuentes
2. Shania Twain
3. Kelly Hu
4. Sela Ward
5. Penelope Cruz

Eh...it changes.
TGIF, ya'll.

WOW...IM.
Thursday, August 7, 2003 05:01 p.m.

IM hit-and-run from "alfie" AGAIN! wow.

alfieralfie: hi just wanted to say youre music is nice
alfieralfie: im just somebody that stumbled across your site, ive been reading your blogs and ive got to admit you're quite an interesting person
alfieralfie: but i still think you need to let go of the past
alfieralfie: and move on
alfieralfie: like you are beginning to do

thanks. wooo.
I'm getting better.
Trust me.

JUSTIN's first shoot!
Thursday, August 7, 2003 10:05 a.m.

So work is officially kicking my arse... there are papers flying everywhere. And my eyes are sore. UGH.

Spent lunch playing guitar in the park. I'm psyched for my next show...it's kinda scary since it's only a week and a half away...but I think I know the songs well enough...just the new ones need some touch up.

Tutored...and spent my money on Justin...got him metroid Prime...heh.

I have 193 plays on my mp3 site... WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE??? And why aren't you signing my guestbook...hmmmph.

Well...he's off to Prospect Park to shoot the promo for the Little League World Series...wooo! His first job...if it goes national... BLING!

Other news: Grace Kim just called...she's back from a year in HK...wooo! I've missed that girl!

Lucia is off for home today... kinda sad...but I get my apartment back all to myself too. All in all...it wasn't bad... but I think I need to live by myself. heh.

EH posted that I'm hung up on my past. I would disagree. I think I am AFFECTED by my past. And it's something that everyone goes through. If you look at my awful history with relationships...you can see why... the abandonment issues that I have... it makes me really distrust people now... but I'm working on that.

The past is something I am trying to deal with in a healthy way. My music, my writing...all the pursuits that I have undertaken are affected by my need to become BETTER. to try and move on and LEARN from my mistakes...and the mistakes of others.

I want to become a better person from all of this. And the way to do that is not to forget...but to process it...to confront it...to make fun of it...and to live with it. I'm not "hung up" on it... but I am dealing.

If anything... I feel like I've acomplished more this year than I have in a long while. It's a new road...and I'm taking this trip come h-e-double hockey sticks...or elevated H20... I'm just waiting for someone who wants to make the journey with me.

holla.

more GIGs !
Wednesday, August 6, 2003 09:33 a.m.

Work is ...blarrgh...but stuff is getting done.

Justin came with me to work so he could go to the Little League commercial callback. He said he didn't really have a good feeling about it...but in other good news... the educational video (where he may play a drug pusher!) is keeping him on HOLD..so he may get the official word some time soon. It's a start...and 300 bucks is pretty good for his first job.

Booked ANOTHER gig! This time for September 24th...at the Manhattan Theatre Source again... it's just practice for me to get out and play more. I'm confident enough that I don't have to make a huge spectacle ever time... they're my songs and I know them...I should just play as much as possible.

Went home and had dinner with the family...it was good to see my Grandma...she's doing well... seems happy. Justin made dessert! He cut up some cake and diced some apples...it was very cute. My Mom says he reminds her of me when I was that age.

Practice... narrowing down cover tunes...Going to try to do "Everlong" and "There is a Light" ...we'll see how that works out... other than that... "Pop Medley" and "With or Without You" again...since so few people heard them last time. In any case... need to pimp the show this weekend.

Twelve Kingdoms is AWESOME...what a grand scope and great animation... all you anime geeks...go out and get it NOW... sooooo good.

SIgn my guestbook on my music page ! GOGOGOOGO!!!

moving ahead.
Tuesday, August 5, 2003 10:06 a.m.

Well.. lots of thingws happened on a day that should have felt bad.... but I was feeling pretty dang ok.

Work is work...no big deal...

Had lunch with a certain someone from work...she's so cute! ACK... had salads and chatted a bit... but as another co-worker said "don't shit where you eat" ... which I think means... don't get involved with co-workers. I THINK... cause normally... I poo in the bathroom...and I never eat there... EEEEEW.... I know.

So... Alice cancelled on me due to the rain... which STOPPED!

Lucia brought me a book from her work place. They are artsy nudes... coffee table book...but um... no... I don;t think I will be showing anyone that over coffee. THANKS!

Went to the Green Room to see what was up with the gig situation... and apparently...IT IS SOOOO ON. Next gig will be August 19 at 7... so I'll be sending invites and such... and this time...food and ALCOHOL ... people will get trashed and belligerent...oh wait...that would be me.

Grammma Chang in the hizzz-ouse... she's here from Canada for awhile.

Ended up talking to Laura. I know I said I wouldn't... but a year ago today...someone I cared about did a cruel thing...and just LEFT. I don't think I want to do that to anyone else. I know how it feels... this is different...but it's in the same vein. So, I'm trying to be mature about this. I've been thinking about it for a month now... and despite all the crazy things that have been said... I think I can still be friends with her.

But I know that I don't want to be with her. I know that for a fact. I need STABILITY and that is something that she does not have... but I miss talking to her... and I think with that knowledge... and the fact that I need to do what I need to do... makes this attempt ...something that isn't so unreasonable.

In any case...I'm tired...Justin is here with me to go on his call back... so it's gonna be one of those days.

I'm doing well, thank you.

"reverie" up on mp3.com
Monday, August 4, 2003 09:16 a.m.

Yup... switched songs around again.

New song is up! "reverie" with full instruments!

My cheesy power ballad.,... but I'm very proud of it... especially the harmonies and the drums.

Go DL or listen to it streaming at:

http://www.mp3.com/abechang

weekend...and one year.
Monday, August 4, 2003 08:59 a.m.

Eventful!

Friday... Liz ...ugh. Let's just say... quite possibly the worst. Leave out the gory details... but I was physically FLEEING. Oh well.

Home... got a bag of cheap used DVDs... and watched Malcolm in the Middle all night. Is it weird that I think the mom (Jane Kaczmareck) is HOT??? I dunno what it is about her...maybe it's all the yelling. I like strong women... hahahha.

Saturday... working on music... and then went out to see Cindy at the store...hung out with the panty queens and just chilled.

Went to see Deborah's show at Red 356 ( I should book a show there...) Her friends opened for her band... Julie Danao was great ! She plays Mustang Sally...and Cindy Cheung did some comedy songs... which were hilarious... she plays the older sister in The Karaoke Show...Deborah's stuff was rock-y... which is awesome and we have the same sense of humor! She did a great job...and I hope we can do some gigs together... it would be great to expand my "fan base" ...my one fan and her one fan... WOOO !

Coolest thing was she gave me a plug for my album...cause I left flyers on tables...but the shout out was nice.

Afterwards...went to Shelb's housewarming...met some new people... people that were friends of Lauren's ! HEH...and this girl JO who wants to get MFA...and old school friends... HAHAH Jean WONG! cool.

Lucia is in Albany ???

Sunday...puttered around...watched the EYE...creepy... laundry, music, ... I'm geting really good at drumming! And listened to Tim Keller tape... just feeling cruddy...

The reason: one year to the date when she ripped my heart out. Go check the archives...I don't want to rehash... but let's just say...I am better.

Did I love her? Of course I did...Did she hurt me... incredibly so... but here's the lesson that was fittingly presented on Sex and the City last night... everything happens for a reason...and at least she didn't do it on a post-it (actually it was MUCH worse) ... but still...

I wouldn't be writing these songs, performing, meeting all these people, doing things I never would have done this year...if she hadn't turned my world upside down.

She was young, confused, and I was naive and tried too hard to hold onto somehting that was never mine. It hurts LESS now...but it still haunts me... would I trade all of this to have her back? YES... MAYBE... I don't know. I'm still trying to make sense of it all.

But I ... MYSELF...I'm a better person...I may not be as trusting and as open... but I'm stronger. And I may not believe in love anymore...but that doesn't mean it won't change.

It's going to take a lot of trust, honesty, patience, and one heck of an amazing woman... but it will be worth it when it happens. And I will be a better person when it does.

So here's to Monday. I'm having drinks with Alice...and lunch with the cute girl at work who is back from vacation.

Here's to not being afraid. Here's to healing. Here's to looking ahead.

I've put my emotional baggage on a plane. And I'm waving to it as it takes off the runway.

one dollah! one dolllah!
Friday, August 1, 2003 08:51 a.m.

What a crazy packed day... my goodness.

Work was hectic... papers flying everywhere.

Justin had his audtion...then Mom, me, Vicks, Justin went to Houston's for some burger lovin'... and then back to work...and Justin went for his Little League video audition....then the folsk went to Canada.

Finally got Sam on IM... she's tres cool and creative...

And yes...Sunjoo is alive.

One more week of the Lucia...bittersweet... mostly sweet ! I miss being alone...isn't that weird ???

After work...went to Chinatown to get haircut...ended up buying a bunch of Anime OST and DVDs...got the rest of Kodocha...oooh...bootlegs! bad! Got HERO and the EYE... oooh.

Met up with Eunice...she was acting particularly loopy...kinda cute though...we ended up getting groceries and jelly things...and she bought me a honeydew smoothie... but the weirdness continues... should I be worried ???

Home... puttering around.. really tired...

Tutoring and meeting up with Liz tonight... should be fun... need to keep this week SUPER PACKED...I'll explain on Monday... but if you've been reading my blog... you know what happened a year ago,,, wow...it's been a whole year...

I'm a lot better, no?

TGIF. Amen.

mmmmmm good.
Thursday, July 31, 2003 09:56 a.m.

Justin is on a Campbell's soup audition right now! mmmm mmm good!

AND he has one for Little League commercial later today.

And oh... started IMing CLAUDIA HUANG (not Siu any more...she's married now!)

sleepytired... waaaah.
Thursday, July 31, 2003 08:34 a.m.

Shiznat. I have been getting hammered at work all week It's going to be like this for awhile...today ...not too bad since I cleared out some of my to do stuff... whew.

Had lunch with CLARA! She's cute! And she's been through 3 jobs in one month... and lots of stuff going on with her... we can definitely be concert buddies. I even ran into her bfriend after I got comics... heh... it was fun.

Apparently, Liz was in the emergency room... throat swelled up...some allergic reaction... jeepers.

Picked up some dry cleaning, checked out local bars to see if I can book a gig...I should just carry around a bunch of demos and info... get gigs...hmm

Groceris...home... and Opher came over...made him dinner and hung out...

That kid looooves Friendster. I think it's kinda dumb.

WOrked on "European Playground" ...that song is just plain fun...very punk/hard rock... I love singing the vocals on that... cause I finally know the best way to sing it... just gofor it and rawwwk out. wooo.

Love Hina girls... my fave anime/manga...which one would you want to marry???

Naru: Bad temper, fiesty, smart, sweet.
Motoko: Samurai girl, tough exterior, but soft inside.
Su: crazy foreign girl, inventor.
Shinobu: Quiet, super cute, sweeet girl.
Kitsune: Scheming and sexy, sassy.
Kyoko: Sexy but mischeivous, strong willed...but has weakness
Mitsumi: Ditzy, crazy, big knockers.

I would always go with Motoko and Kitsune... I like tough girls who are fiesty. Heh.

Ok... enough procrastinating... back to work.

EH ??? who dat ???
Wednesday, July 30, 2003 10:16 a.m.

"eh" ...thanks for signing the guestbook...

I'm assuming that's you EILEEN ! I miss ya girl! Come to NYC !

tired...and DVD binge.
Wednesday, July 30, 2003 11:01 a.m.

Jeeeeeebus. I had so much work... so much so that my eyes were strained by the end of the day. Marketing charts are NOT fun. I just finished up the manuscript JUST NOW. And I feel a huge weight off my shoulders... just need to print them out and get them to production. woooo. This calls for celebration.

um...anyone? Bueller? Bueller?

Tuesday was DVD binge day... Got Daredevil (better than I thought...c'mon...it's a comic book movie, what'd you expect?) Solaris, Total Recall, and Terminator,...and James live CD... jeeez. Must stop.

Got Outback burgers with VIcky...poor kid. She's going through some hard times too... she's poorer than me...and I'm poor!

FInished up work and went to meet up with Eunice to pick up bridal shoes. When else are you gonna wear purple shoes? Times like these...I'm glad I ain't a girl.

Went to this superFAAAABULOUS (that means GAY) cafe to have some sorbet. The owner was very friendly...but this "cute" cafe was in the middle of nowhere... next to Lansky (infamous. heh) ...so in the daytime...there is no one around...oh well... part of metal scooper was in the sorbet... hmm. Need to look out for shiny things in your frozen treats, kiddies.

Home...tired.. DVDs...

Oh...turns out Lucia went to a Jazz jam thing... and was out late on Monday... good for her...finally got the courage to sing. She's such a chicken... a music major needs to go out and DO IT. Look at me ! I had 6 months of piano, one music theory class...and I've played in front of thousands of strangers... need to just face fear ...and grab IT...whatever IT is.

Sigh...Lucia needs constant affirmation on her looks and how cool she is... have faith, girl.

I'm a big DORK...but I know what I got. heh.

Meeting with Clara for early lunch today? Liz tonight?

Meeting with Lynn next week... and Ciara...um... whenever.

Busy social calendar...and still...it's not the same as last year.

I'm better...but will I ever be over her? and HER? Lord, help me...this haunting must end.

Music front... I'm listening to the 12 or so tracks that I've done... some of them are good to go and I'm excited...others need to be recorded...the live stuff is good...but I can do better. Start from scratch.

"Love's Brutality" ... needs to be quiet but intense... so I'm thinking... acoustic, vox with harmony...and a little electric noodling ... a la "Tired of You" from Foo Fighter's latest...hmmm... will work on that tune in a few weeks.

Up on the slate next... "European Playground" written in 1997...while I was in Germany and England...so that one has a bit of a story and political bent...interesting.

Sleepy...tired... need some huggin' .

GAAAH. My aching...everything !
Tuesday, July 29, 2003 08:35 a.m.

So yesterday was chock-a-block with work and other stuff. Busy as all get out here.

After work...headed to the gym ... lifted a little, ran for 30... and got all sweaty... went home to try and work on some music...but gaaaah... my guitar sounds completely out of tune...I think I am fretting something wrong... I think I neeed to work on something else to "cleanse my palate" ... and get back to that particular tune later.

Someone initialed "eh" ( i have no idea who you are mista sista) asked how you tour. Well simply, I'd take some time off of work and try to book a series of gigs in the colleges where I spent most of my time in Boston, maybe a few spots in Philly, and a few in NYC. Then...tour, travel, play my heart out... sell my album.

On album news... I uploaded "reverie" to the mp3.com site... but it takes awhile for it to get approved ( I have no idea who does this...do they listen to every song???) and will be replacing "flame and wax" ...so listen/DL it while you can... because a DIFFERENT version with bettter (I hope) vocals will be on the album instead. I'll let ya'll know when the switch is going to happen on the mp3 front. huzzah!

Where is Lucia ???

Was reading the Death manga from Vertigo on the train. Basically a side story from the "Seasons of Mist" Sandman arc. And jeeez...Delirium is just so cute... and Death is HOT. (Take that out of context...HA!) I guess I've always had a thing for goth chicks...maybe it's the alabaster skin, the dark hair and makeup, and the general gloominess that I liked... tortured artist that I am. :P In any case...it's a cute story... Sandman fans should all snatch a copy.

I'm sore. Massage ...sigh...

Back to work... yikes. Lots of it too.

NOT COOL, DUDE.
Monday, July 28, 2003 01:53 p.m.

I'm kinda pissed at this one guy... he was hanging around this girl I had a major crush on... and we were talking about her... and he KNOWS I liked her... and today he tells me they are seeing each other.

First off, he never said ANYTHING to indicate he was interested...if anything...I thought he might be getting my back... and true ...they live out of state... but still. He never made his intentions clear...and tells me AFTER the fact.

There must have been some point when he was interested... and yet.... he didn't.

Doesn't this break the "Code of Honor" between guys ? Shouldn't you at least let the other dude know ?

If anything... I feel my trust has been broken...evne if it was just a silly little crush on my part... the thing is... this guy did nothing but be sketchy about it...making it sound like they were just friends...until today.

Well, you are off my buddylist. BWAHAHAHAH. And yeah... I don't have very nice things to say about you.

Good luck. She's a nice girl... don't be sketchy around her. And should you be dating after ending things with that other girl so soon? Is that actually resolved... hmmm.

Honesty is the best policy. I always follow this rule. Others should too.

Bad news all around??
Monday, July 28, 2003 09:27 a.m.

Makes you appreciate how good you have it when:
One friend found out an ex committed suicide and her neighbor was raped and murdered.
One friend broke up with her bfriend overseas.
One friend broke out in massive hives over bad oyster and sangria mix.
One friend's mom had slight stroke over weekend.
Someone outside my office building broke down wailing because she got some awful news on her cell phone.
Was listening to old tape of Tim Keller yesterday... how Jesus' tears brings joy from the sorrow... I hope it's true in this case for these people.
Count your blessings, kiddies.

weekend musicality
Monday, July 28, 2003 08:37 a.m.

Friday was busy as all get out.. I still have a ton of work I need to get done today.

Tutored... man.. I need to get back into teaching... I'm dang good at it!

Saw 28 Days Later with Vicky at 42nd AMC... place with bad memories...but the movie was great... creepy... RAGE ! BlAAARrRrrgh ! The alternate ending was suckfest though.

Saturday: Didn't do much but clean up around the house and hang with Lucia a bit.. drummed up a storm and finished "REVERIE" drums in less than 10 taqkes... that's a record. The song sounds GREAT... a true power ballad... I'm very proud of it.

Anime binge all weekend. UGH. too much.

Sunday... my parents anniversary... but they were no where to be found ... hung out with their friends. My aunts and Alex came over... hung out with them for a bit. Cockatail sandwiches... too many!

Mixdown day! "Reverie" " Don't Want to Be Friends" and "777" are all done! WOOO. NAILED those suckers. WHEW. SO I'm officially at the 8 track mark. Which is over half way done... the 7 songs that are left should be easier... mostly acoustic... with some flourishes. I'm excited.

Oh yeah... what happened to Ciara???

Getting out of my moodiness. Doing productive things.

Toying with the idea of taking time off to go on tour... will have to ponder more.

Ugh... Monday... but it gets better.

I know you are reading this!
Sunday, July 27, 2003 07:19 p.m.

I know people read my blog.. so why doesn't anyone sign my fekkin guestbook ?

hmmmph.

Having problems updating the pic...but I'll get it.

Blarrgh.

stereotypes...
Friday, July 25, 2003 08:36 a.m.

Back at work...urrrgh.

Had a huge long drawn out discussion... Asian male stereotypes of dating white women or women outside race... Historically, when the first Chinese came over in the 1800s or prior...they were not allowed to marry outside of their race...and were not allowed to bring Chinese women over...so the Asian males were emasculated in a sense... over the history of Asian males in the US...the stereotypes of the sexually unappealing Asian male have been perpetrated to the extent where Asian males are rarely seen with anyone outside of Asian females... so an Asian male with a white woman was considered "empowering" ...whereas an Asian female with a white male was seen as "disempowering" (due to sexual and submissive stereotypes) or neutral...

These stereotypes probably hold more true to the generation above mine...but nonetheless they still exist.

Notice how Jet Li, Jackie Chan, and Chow Yun Fat...NEVER get to even kiss a white woman in films... and how Asian females in movies are oversexualized, exotic, or dragon lady types...

Anyways... long story short... I could really give a flying fig... as long as Asian Americans realize WHAT the stereotypes are... and can combat against them...and be treated as INDIVIDUALS...then everything is fine and dandy...

The whole "Asian fetish" thing bothers me because people are relegated into roles that are untrue. Chances are that more white males will have an "Asian fetish" over white females because the sexual stereotypes for Asian females is appealing whereas those for Asian males are very unappealing.

Treat people as they are...not as the media and history portrays them. We are self-actualized and unique. I'm sick of blanket statements... we all do it... But I'm even sicker of ignorance... unless we know history... we are... blah blah blah...you know the drill.

Anyways... Justin had meeting with an agent... my Dad got a callback for that indie film ...and we all went to Chinatown for dinner. I babysat Justin while folks went out for stuff.

Home... T3 bootleg... tired.

Ciara ...pronounced "KEEER-AH." ahhhh. revelation of the day.

TGIF. I'm beat.

back... yaaaay dooooggies !~
Thursday, July 24, 2003 09:13 a.m.

I'm back from Austin... too much to talk about..but I'll say I had a good time... the Sales Reps. get all the bling and the perks... but oh well...

had some fun with Zakhar, LaManna, Netcher went out to get drinks on 6th street ...and got really wasted off like 2 dollar beers and 5 dollar pitchers...ahd about 15 some odd drinks each... and lots of office gossip. ha.

Highlight was The Salt Lick...on a ranch...the best BBQ I ever had...and Amy's ice cream...they flip the scoops!

Coworkers loosened up a bit...so we had fun... went to the Four Seasons for big ass meeting... SWANK...good food and stuff...brought home some knickknacks

Toooo much to process...and flights..make me think of the past. Not good. Makes me moody and depressed.

ARRRRGH ! SO much work...tired tired... need to get back up to speed. More later.

I'm leaving....on a jet plane
Sunday, July 20, 2003 11:01 p.m.

...I know when I'll be back again... Weds!

Anyways, all packed and ready to go...

Learned how to play "Everlong" tonight... wooo... want to start getting ready for next gig... Post or Pre CD release? I dunno... we'll see how things go.

Pray for my safe flight, k?

YeeeeeHAAAAAW! Off to Austin!

moody...
Sunday, July 20, 2003 12:32 p.m.

Friday was a heck of a work day... finished all the marketing charts and sent them into copyediting...I hope they come back clean...or close to it. ARRRRGH!

No one wants to see 28 Days Later. GRRR. Vicky is gonna go with me. hmmmph.

Hung out with Eunice after work...we went to the takoyaki/okonomiyaki stand...and wandered around a bit. I ended up buying a jacket and manga on Friday.

Ellen Chi dropped by and drove (like a maniac) to Boxers...she went to meet someone for dinner but we need to make plans to hang out with the Ellen soon.

Had a pint of Strongbow and Euncie had a (bad) mojito. Weird thing is Vicky called me drunk and was with some of her friends...hahah she wanted to hang out with "older people"...hahahah how cute. She loves me. Too bad she ain't over 21. silly. :P HAHAHAH!

Home to the Lucia.

Saturday: Elaine was supposed to call. HMMM. Yvette bailed on the Siren Musicfest...so I had no one to go with...

so I putzed around and watched all of Strangers with Candy season 1... funny. Girl I went on a date with worked on the show. Saw her name in the credits and went..."oh yeah...I remember." eeeeew. HAHHAHAH.

sleepy sleepy. Weekends kinda suck for me because I feel narcoleptic...and moody. They just remind me of her. And how we'd spend the weekends together...kissing in the rain...all of that. I miss her. I wonder how she's doing...and at the same time....I wish I had never met her.

It's been almost a year. It hurts less. But when I think of it...it just tears at me again.

My girls tell me I deserve someone better. They tell me how much they love me...but I just feel lost sometimes. Is there really someone out there for me that is going to be this golden hearted,sexy, art/rawk chick, with a bit of sass?

Sometimes I wish I lived in an anime.

Lord, this is hard.

Lots of stuff I need to get done. I'm off to Austin tomorrow morning... will be back on Wednesday. I hope some good stuff will be cooking up in NY while I'm gone. And I'll come back to a great surprise.

Aren't I due for something good?

ARCHIVED.
Sunday, July 20, 2003 12:28 p.m.

Yup...another month or so relegated to the past. Just hit up the BLOG ARCHIVES to see the craziness that was June-July 2003.

Does it get any better?

Lord, I hope it does.