ahh dang it.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008 07:37 p.m.
Wow...I am sick. My head is throbbing and I had a fever at work today. So much so that I sweat through my shirt...I had to leave early too. Ugh. I feel miserable.
Anyways, had lunch with my boss and he still thinks I am doing a good job...but my weakness is really that I am not a sales guy by nature. I can only do so much and I have to start taking risks and being more aggressive. I've got to just keep going and going until the deals are signed and the checks are in. I'm tired of building up like 15 deals that take months and months. Come on already. Let's just get this done and stop dragging it out!
Anyways, I think things with the new girl are pretty much done. I just don't think this is going to work out...and we are just too different. Eh...no huge loss. I'm starting to understand that there are plenty of opportunities out there...I just have to bide my time...cast my lines...and one of these is going to be the one.
So...I got two days to get better. Meds, vitamins, fruit, soup, tea...what else can I do?
Ugh...my head.
Birthday! Whose coming?!?!?
convention, date, weekend...
Sunday, January 27, 2008 10:47 p.m.
Man...I am still wrecked. Was at the consortium all day on Friday and made several good connections. Some interest in doing books with us that I've got to follow-up on, one really cute teacher that wanted to order books for her class, and a bunch of good PR and good will. One guy was like the devil in a suit...he represented some company...and kind of freaked me out...but hmmm...
I finagled some mic time at the end and gave the shpiel about the book and gave out the display copies of other books in my awesome raffle style... was a big hit.
Extremely exhausted from schmoozing and pushing all day...anyways...got back to the office and they were replacing the carpet...weird.
Went to meet JF for our second date...but I was just so exhausted and wasn't feeling much of anything. My boss let me expense dinner since I did such a great job...but we didn't have much time so we just went to yakitori place. Had a drink and a few smooches... and then she told me she was catching a cold...and coughed all night...yipes.
Anyways, we went to see "No Country For Old Men"...which I liked but didn't love...so violent and weird! I need to watch it again...some stuff was really awesome and Javier Bardem was really good and creepy...friend-o. And there was like no music except for a mariachi band...odd.
Anyways, frikkin' freezing...so kiss goodbye and that was that. Honestly, I can see a lot of problems down the road...but I'd still like to get to know her. I'm just not sure if at this point it's a matter of time...or if it's circumstance...so all in all. She's very attractive, smart...and I could see us having something...but as for being the "one"...with all the potential gray areas...I'm really not certain.
In any case, we'll see if we hang out or not. I'm not sweating this stuff anymore. Right now, job, friends, family...girls...whatever...plenty out there.
So...weekend was re-arranging my dvds, taking cold medicine, eating junky Chinese food, rehearsing, cleaning, and sleeping. I'm back on the Nyquil and I know I've got a ton to take care of this week... and birthday show.
I hope it's a big turn out. I really want to blow the roof off of this one...it was such a really up and down--mostly great and kinds sucky at times...year. Just want to cap it off...32 is gonna be nuts. 33 is the big "evaluate the state of your life" year...so I gotta go full-throttle this year.
Sigh...Monday...let's rock this week off its hinges.
whoah....good date.
Thursday, January 24, 2008 10:36 p.m.
Wow...I am so exhausted but so much has happened in the past few days. Work has been just pedal to the metal. Lots going on...and one of my fave UK publishers was in town with some good news. More on that later...
So, met up with JF at the dark Belgian place...and at first, she looked just like her picture. Place was kind of dark and to be honest...it took us a little while to warm up to each other. But by the second drink...we had shared some personal stuff--some funny and some not so funny. We both had really, really hard years about 2-3 years ago and are overcoming things in amazing ways now. My situation...well, we all know...she's a full time student getting masters in journalism and interning at a local paper. She has a beat and everything...and she's working on a book. Lots of editorial experience in trade...she worked on two HUGE, HUGE projects...I mean...bestseller multi-million dollar deals when she was an ed. assist.
Anyways, despite some interesting things about her family's religious convictions (which she doesn't share) and a few personal things...everything else was copacetic and we got a long soooo well.
Then, I asked if she wanted dinner...and yes...we went to new local restaurant...and as we left and the streetlights finally revealed the most incredible greenblue eyes. Breathtaking...literally (it was cold out too)...and she has kind of short, bobby, but curly hair--very flapper-esque (and she collects vintage clothes...cute.)
She's very tall...and sarcastic and witty. All of which I am liking very much. Dinner was great...she told me this bizarre story of a pigeon-loving former roommate (so very Seinfeld-esque...which fits since I've officially seen up to episode 100) and then on to dessert.
At dinner, she complained about a sore neck. So after tea (and sympathy) and a half eaten fruit tart...I gave her a neck rub...and yes...you know what happened. Quid pro quo.
It was very romantic actually, we had the entire little indoor courtyard of the pastry place...and no one was around...but the waitstaff must have seen and left us alone. We were there for a while.
We left and repeated the process by the train station...and oh yeah, during dinner we made plans for Friday. Dinner + movie = date.
Wow. Not bad. Better than expected.
Anyways, today...work. UK Publisher tells me that my sex authors are getting a HUGE tv show deal...and this will help me a lot for work. I am determined to get something awesome for them...and it could seriously make my name in this business.
More news from clients...deal with on Monday.
Off to consortium. Got there a bit early...so set up and chatted with people and got them to pick up promo materials as they entered the book raffle. Which I have to do tomorrow.
A lot of interest for the books and some leads. My dad's friend (who I haven't seen in like 15 years) was there and we talked a good deal. Had dinner with the organizer and had a really good chat. I honestly think I am a likeable guy.
Anyways, after that...went out to wait for the car service...but I could not find the main gate that this student pointed me to. So it took 20 minutes for the dispatch to finally get the car to find me...Anyways, such a fast ride. I was home in like 25 minutes.
Tired...but date plans are firmed up after a few emails...and I have a full conference day ahead. So tired...but all-in-all, a great PACKED week. Wow.
More later...I said a lot...and yet, I haven't.
MLK weekend. pride.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008 09:35 p.m.
Friday--work and not much else. Went to the dermatologist finally and he gave me like 10 shots in my legs! He said I had an allergic reaction, started scratching, which led to scarring, which led to any medicine not being able to get into my skin...hence some weird "chronic lichen somethingsomething"...anyways, I got meds and ointments now.
Saturday--Went to JZ's housewarming. Met up with IB and MT in Forest Hills and we went over. Fun stuff. JZ's sister is super cute...and her friends were quite artsy, but friendly. JZ's bfriend is cool. Comic guy/artist so we get along. I love JZ ...she is my fave friend at work. Just all around cool. Had a good time...and NT...well, she was just adorable. If we didn't work together I think I would ask her out. Hmmm. Oh, and I did meet a girl who works at my friend's company! Strange! And this girl I thought was cute...apparently crazy and a moocher? Dang. Drank a little too much and got a tummy ache...came home by midnight-ish. Ugh. Missed other bday party. Sorry.
Sunday--Went shopping and got a blazer and car coat at the Gap for like 70 bucks! Awesome sale, that. Then met up with Vicks to see "Cloverfield"...which I LOVED...a bit cheesy...but what do you expect from "Blair Witch/Godzilla"...a few really awesome scenes and the last 10 minutes were cool. I did miss a moment in the last bit...supposedly you see something fall into the water at Coney Island? And then there is a radio transmission after the end credits? Dang...Wikipedia says this...but I did not see it. Anyways, Vicks looks so much older with glasses and her hair down...love that punk. Went to Best Buy and got some supercheap dvds...and apparently I bought "Primal Fear" twice...ugh! What an idiot! My mom had it for so long that I forgot I bought it like last year...oh, well..door prize for my bday show.
Monday--Stayed home and cleaned. My dad was home so went over for dinner. Shaved Justin's hair and he...shaved my back! Yes, I do have some weird hairs back there...too much for an Asian guy...I admit. But NOWHERE near the hirsute other races...dang. Anyways, could not sleep for some reason. Too much on my mind. Thinking about work and upcoming date.
Speaking of which...meeting up with JF tomorrow...so far the emails have been really pleasant and we really seem to fit intellectually. I'm looking forward to drinks tomorrow. Oh...and some cute 34 year old divorcee contacted me too...hmmm. Options...but let's see how tomorrow works out. If I'm honest with myseld...I tend to go into each meeting as if I am potentially meeting the love of my life...wrong attiude? Foolish optimism? I don't know...but I want to maintain a reasonable level of hope. I don't think that's so wrong, is it?
Monday work-- just nuts. Getting stuff ready for the consortium. Voucher for car, promo materials, book raffle, etc...and all the other emails etc. Financials, contacting other clients, sending out promo materials...just crazy day. But at least I am progressing and feeling comfortable. Very active-- maybe that's why I haven't gotten superfat this winter (just a little pudgier)...oh and the new marketing girl is a big comic book fan. ONE OF US! And I got KB into BSG even more...woooo. (Glo, thanks for getting me into BSG, btw. Isn't Terminator awesome?) Oh and one of my fave UK publishers surprised me in the office today. Big news on our sex book. Will have to hear about that on Thursday.
Ok, date tomorrow. Loads of work and packing for the consortium...whew. Busy is good.
suspension of disbelief...nah.
Thursday, January 17, 2008 10:57 p.m.
Long day at work again....but got to take two co-workers to Midtown Comics to check out the lay of the (nerd)land. Since they both will have to work with books dealing with the subjects...I thought it would be good for them to check it out and talk to the people there to set up events and whatnot.
KB...I love her. She is such a riot. We came back and had Subway and talked. She even wanted to borrow BSG! She watched the mini-series and loved it and wanted more. Excellent.
After work met up with SS and we went to see JR in his play at the place I used to play...in the windowbox. If you ever saw the HIMYM episode where Barney did his play...it was very much like that.
Lots of simulated sex and weird theatrical stuff as expected...my friend didn't have any of that really...but he gave the best and most nuanced performance. Good for him. Several hot girls in the play...and the blonde that kind of looked like Rachel Griffiths was great...and hot brunette with gorgeous eyes...
BUT...there was one guy who was obviously gay. He was acting as a womanizer and he even "raped" (kinda) a girl...he even kissed them and fondled them...I bet he must have felt so gross...I was expecting the women to be like "stop it, GIRLFRIEN !!!" but they didn't...he looked kind of like a chubbier, gayer, Brandon Flowers...but I digress.
Funniest part was they had this light up box (for dramatic effect) at the foot of the bed. This light-up ottoman thing...I called the "Xanadu box"...since it was very campy and like something out of the film/musical...and then my friend has some lines about "Xanadu" (as in "Kubla Khan" ) and SS and I were just cracking up.
Anyways, had a great time with SS. She is so much fun to hang out with. Adorable and witty and has great hair. She's always up for anything and is just a real sport. She's on my A-list.
Today...more work and emails and the usual...and business lunch with my boss and head of trade sales...great burger on the company dime.
After work...walked in the rain and got to Forest Hills. Met up with KY and R...and was going to get pizza and chill at their place...but they have a cat and my throat was getting itchy...so went to FAME diner and Starbucks.
I seriously love those two. I cannot wait to go to their wedding. It will be a BLAST. Great catching up with them and just laughing...good times.
AND...I do need a plus one for that wedding for sure. Man...hope I have someone by then...if not...well, who wants to come with me?
Weird thing is...I don't know if it was the Diet Pepsi at the diner or the Listerine breath spray from before (which is normally awesome--my new fave)...but my mouth just tasted like metal...bleccch. I think it is finally gone.
Work, doctor's appt for my weird shin rash that's been there since July, and then picking up my dad from airport. and then...SLEEEEEEEP!!! I need it.
three-peat?
Tuesday, January 15, 2008 10:12 p.m.
More hectic-ness at work. Getting stuff done for the promo thing I was working on, sending out samples, etc...
Met with client for lunch and we are on our way (hopefully) to getting the deal signed already. Working on financials is no fun and it takes forever to fudge with stuff so that it works and gets approved...but it looks like a lot of the paper work is getting squared away finally.
Possibility of three dates? One with my friend's cousin, one with someone online, and one with my other friend's coworker?
The girl online...she's almost 6 feet tall, a journalist, and we have a ton of stuff in common ("on paper") and she looks pretty cute so far...planning on date for Tuesday or Wednesday.
Yeah...maybe the dry spell is over? Or it's just more disaster gearing up...man, let's get back to this in a few weeks and see what happens.
Busy stuff--play tomorrow night, hanging out with KY and maybe her fiancee Thursday, dermatologist appointment and picking dad up from the airport Friday, JZ's housewarming on Saturday, Cloverfield with Vicki and maybe Glo and Joe on Sunday...and then...whoah...I need some rest.
Fun stuff and good things soon, yes?
back in the thick of things...
Monday, January 14, 2008 10:56 p.m.
Goodness...what a day. Just busy from the moment I stepped in. Reviewing sales materials, phone calls, bad news, then good news, then MORE good news...and just exhausted.
Dealing with politics at work. BLECH. Ugh...just keep your nose down and follow through.
Ok...Terminator: Sarah Connor Chronicles is AWESOME. You must watch! Summer Glau is actually cute in it...and Lena (300) Headey is a hot mamma! Awesome story and ties in to the movies well... could be a new fave.
Oh...I pitched a nip/tuck book to our adult editor today...just because I love the show and I think a book would do well. There isn't one out there...
So who wants to see Cloverfield with me? COME ON!!! I got no one to hang out with besides couple friends...yyyuuuucko.
Tired...gotta get some real sleep. Busy week continues.
round up
Sunday, January 13, 2008 07:27 p.m.
Weird.
Went to cell phone store and sex shop with my boss to check out stuff for our clients...um...ok. No eye contact.
Had lunch with boss and he basically told me that I wasn't using my expense account enough. I have the official ok to take out clients for lunch and dinner and get some facetime so we can close some of these deals already.
Friday night went out to dinner with Elaine and Barry, Joyce and Adam...had some organic Italian food and wine...good times laughing with them.
More Seinfeld and Eastern Promises (really good)...went to Pathmark with my mom and then Costco today. I finally have some food in the fridge again...but I need to be healthy and not eat too much crap...
At Pathmark...I bought 25 boxes of LIFE cereal...because it was 2 bucks a box and it never goes on sale...and obviously my favorite cereal.
Bday show rehearsal and tv...just trying to get some rest. Busy week(s) ahead...yeeesh.
hot dang
Wednesday, January 9, 2008 12:02 a.m.
Work has taken off already...not even back a week and things are churning. Spending my days juggling projects...biggies include environment book, sex book, good stuff...and a major let down with the car company...my contact that I have been talking to for months left the marketing company AND DIDN'T TELL ME...ugh...may need to start from scratch with that one.
Otherwise...not much besides comics, Seinfeld, etc...
Had dinner with T...she is so cute, she is interning at a fashion house ...I am so proud of her. She always wanted to get into fashion and now she is doing something about it...ran a bunch of random errands with her and she is adorably neurotic and OCD...
Weird thing happened...this girl was being chased down the street by this guy in a suit and tie...must have stolen something. The guy crashed into T and she fell on the gate at Coffee Shop. These two drunk dudes were like "that was f**ed up!"...and poor T has bad knees because of working at the bar. The mystery is how he and the girl totally avoided me and I was standing right next to T. Bizarre.
Had some Chat N' Chew and waited to get her on the bus. She's doing so much better. Not a mention of the tragedy from the summer and she was laughing, smiling, and kidding around. Had a good time with her.
Meetings, phone calls, bday show planning, etc...it's all busy and good so far.
nyquil = absinthe?
Thursday, January 3, 2008 09:02 p.m.
Wow...being sick is no fun. Had some Nyquil last night and felt all weird and had a strange dream about Seinfeld and Everybody Loves Raymond--most likely because that's what I have been watching. I have officially seen EVERY episode of ELR...wow. What an accomplishment.
Only made it until about noon today at work...and came home and fought the urge to nap all day. It's only 9 and I am beat. I just need to last another hour or so...don't want to wake up too early...yeesh.
Anyways, not much else happening... see if I can make it to work and be productive at least half the day tomorrow...ugh.
2008...here I come.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008 01:11 a.m.
Wow... 2007 is DONE. And what a year of major ups and downs. Got away from a horrible job, got an awesome new job. Made out with a handful of girls...and had a broken heart or two. Had some scares with friends and family in terms of health etc. Had a few insane tragedies happen to people I care about. Made some serious changes and then stuck to the same old ways...all in all. It was...a year.
Can't say it was completely awesome...and can't say that the good necessarily outweighed the bad...but it was a year that was filled with...events. And a lot of preparation for the future.
Supposedly, 2008 is the beginning of a "golden era" for me in terms of all around success...I'd like to believe that...but if our fates were left up to things such as this...well, we'd be in trouble.
I believe in free will and good old fashioned hard work...and I do believe in divine intervention and God's hand in everything...I do not think that they are mutually exclusive...but that everything works in tandem for a purpose...and in the end..."to be of use"...is just a good way to live life.
So, yes...I've had a cold these past few days...and I physically feel kind of crappy...BUT I'm not blue or depressed or nostalgic for any false starts. I'm doing pretty ok.
I got to watch "Serenity" and "Stardust" with my mom...and some of my family was around for the ball to drop. Not the most exciting evening...but not the worst.
I'm sure 2008 has plenty in store for me. I'm anxious to see what the blog entry is going to look like a year from now. I'm tempted to look back on 2007...but I think letting sleeping dogs lie might be best for now.
The two major things in my life that haven't seem to work right--well, there's been some major progress. The job is off to a great start...I have to build on that. And the girl thing...well, when the time is right it will happen.
The past...is just that. Let's learn and move on. I'm done moping around and whining for things lost and in the end...never meant for me. Right now, I'm learning about perpetual motion. Forward, ho.
And to paraphrase Roy Batty/Rutger Hauer from "Blade Runner" (Yes, I'm an ABSOLUTE nerd.):
"I've seen things you people wouldn't believe....All those moments will be lost in time, like tears...in rain."
Praise God, love one another. Simply: Time to...live.
