Birthday boy!
Wednesday, February 1, 2006 01:57 p.m.

OK...the rest of the birthday:

Got to Nightingale Lounge and set up stuff. Teresa (the bartender that reminds me of S) gave me a free drink and I talked to her for almost an hour. Turns out she knows some of my 'Dozo friends...and she's really nice. We talked about some stuff I went through and how managing the bar is for her. She's definitely cute. I'll have to stop in and bug her now and then.:P

So...the people who came. Let's see if I remember. Elaine, Barry, Gloria, Joe, Nicole, her friend, Doris, Karl and his two friends, Gary, Lisa, Kathy, Ming, Iris, Josh, John, Kelly, Melissa, Erin, Wendy and her friend, Sofia, Lynn, Laura, Sam, Eunice, Ellen, and I think....quite possibly...John.

I did my set and only really screwed up on "Somebody"...but I got through it in fine form. I think I sound much better than a few years ago. I hope people liked it...and I think the new songs went over really well.

Some semi-awkward moments: Grace texted me and said that she had a "friend crisis" and couldn't make it. That just made me really sad not to have her there...especially since I did my little ABBA medley for her. Hope things are ok. Wendy and Iris both gave me a big wet one on my cheek...wet, because I was sweaty...and Sofia was beating the crap outta me and bought me waaaay too many drinks.

Anyways, afterwards...had a bunch of drinks with my friends that stuck around after and did shots. I give mad props to Josh for sticking it out and heading back to editing today. And John came with his girlfriend...very cool!

Karl was pretty drunk and "gay"....but it was totally fun. Had a bunch of drinks with him. Hope Doris is taking care of him today! Went to get food with Eunice and Gloria afterwards...had burgers and stuff...and I was pretty wasted by then...but the food definitely helped. Got in a cab at 1230 and was home before 1. I got Entourage Season 1 from Eunice and a super cute Yorkie card! Ellen gave me a toothbrush (I think she is a dentist? I hope so...) and got a card from Nicole, and a card and 50 bucks from Elaine and Barry! Awesome!

My sexy new computer was waiting for me and I set it up ...while half-drunk! I rock.

Anyways, I was unconscious by 3 and was up before 10. Called TWCNY and got my cable modem and DVR ready for me to pick up tomorrow. WOOO! I am so psyched.

Well, it was a pretty dang good bday all in all...and waking up to find a ton of email (one from the hot girl I met this summer, who wants to get bday drinks...heh) and from people that didn't make it...it's all good.

Even though the songs were sad...it was cathartic to get it all out...and I feel better. I know I'm still going to struggle to get things right...but I'm slowly getting there. It takes time...I know this...but I'm inching towards being closer to alright.

Yeah... now if I can get past Vday without freaking out...I'll be really good.

Justin wants buffet AGAIN...oh well... I'm hungry and sore...so yeah, let's do this.

Hello, third-decade!
Tuesday, January 31, 2006 04:39 p.m.

Oh, boy...I'm 30. 3-0! OMG.

Anyways, the day started out in a mad scramble to get to work with my guitar and an umbrella in tow... and it wasn't even raining that much. Oh, well. Got to work and went through meetings and proofing. Same as usual. Though I did meet a female coworker...and another one was like "happy bday" as soon as I walked past her. Neat.

Anyways, a TON of birthday well wishes from lots of friends and family...the cutest one was from Grace...she said I was her "fave guy" ...aww. And heard from Hoch! It's been ages! Lots of e-cards and stuff like that.

Hoping for a big turn out tonight. Sounds like it might be in the 40-50 people range...which is fantastic...would love to see all my friends in the same place and show off the new songs and the covers.

More good news: my new computer arrived! It's waiting for me at home! Awesome! And my bro picked up my ipod in Boston! So, my iTunes should be fully stocked when I get it in a few weeks...now I just have to pay for the sucker.

So far it's been a great bday. The admin asst. just told me that her kids LOVE my CD and haven't even given it back to her to listen to yet. Wow...that's encouraging...so lots of little surprises like this make my day better and better.

So, I'm off in a few and then the big show. Hope it's cool. Updates tomorrow...hahaha or the day after.

29 was an awful age...here's hoping that 30 just kicks it in the arse with good things...um...or something like that.

Thank You, Lord... thanks for keeping me alive and hoping in a better day. No way I would have survived this without God, friends and family. Amen to that.

Holla atcha boy. He's 30 today.

birthday eve
Monday, January 30, 2006 08:55 p.m.

whooo boy...what a day. Started off with a really nasty nightmare about a certain person...a lot of yelling and sarcastic laughter...not good.

I was on the phone with Laura for almost 2 hours last night and just a lot of stuff was brought up...in the past few years that I've known her...I honestly am really proud of how much she's changed and matured.

Seems like a lot of people are going through a hard time in terms of relationships...if there's any balance in the universe...maybe it's time that I am due for something good then. Who knows...but it can't be all bad.

Work was...work...a lot of tedious stuff to do today...but got through most of it. I really need to start making some headway with this project. I have four weeks to do it...but time flies and I have like 800 pages that I need to get through. Urrgh !

Hoping there are some good surprises in store for tomorrow... I have a good feeling about it. I'm pretty prepared...but I'm sure I'll flub a lyric or two...all those covers and the new songs...just a ton of stuff to remember...hope I can manage.

Came home and rehearsed, Nina and my aunt came over, then the folks and Justin (he really is my pride and joy...always my big baby), and the grandparents (they gave me a check for like $300 bucks..and a gift card for $100...whoah!). My dad really surprised me with this awesome Chinese pork shoulder thing...it was great. And I'm typing from my brand new Ikea desk...it's really awesome...and it was cheap and I put it together in a snap. All getting ready for the new computer. WOOOT!

Great dinner...and the bday cake...it was like "Happy Birthday...ANDY"...HUH? I thought the bakery made a mistake...turns out it was my grand-uncle's bday cake! He didn't want it...and it got passed to me. HAHHAHAH! It was mangoy and strawberry-y goodness.

Anyways...I'm all packed and I'm dreading the rain that's supposed to come tomorrow. Got to lug a bunch of crap into the city and to the lounge. And I'm still not sure if I am going to cab it home...or crash at someone's palce... we'll see what happens. Anyways...pretty much it. I'm ready for the big 30...no looking back!

Let's get this decade on the road... here we go kids. 1-2-3!

Happy Doggy!
Sunday, January 29, 2006 10:32 p.m.

yup...more Chinese New Year stuffies. Got up, showered, and went to Miao Su's new restaurant Midori Matsu (the old Show Win) on Queens Blvd. The family and some family friends came out for sushi, sashimi, and hibachi. I got pretty wasted on a bottle and a half of sake and some fruity pineapple drink that my mom couldn't drink. Anyways, it was food and fun...depite the rain. Chris and Eric had other things to attend to...but we met up with them later.

Went to Nina and my aunt's place and hung out. The first time I've been there since they moved in. It's small...but really nice and perfect for the two of them. Went to Blockbuster with Nina and the kids and picked up March of the Penguins and some other stuff.

Got a "geisha" tea cup set from Lu Lu and this gorgeous glass cutting board thing from my aunt...and some money... yay...happy bday...and my new computer is on the way as well as ...MY VIDEO IPOD! Now, I just need to get the money for it...ack. I better not buy AANYTHING for a while...urrrgh. I wrote Eric a check for it...and he's going to get it in Boston and bring it home next time he's back. I should have my iTunes filled by then. heh. wooOOooO!

Home...rehearsed and cleaned a little... getting ready for bed...and yet...I'm a little sad. Seeing Eric and Charlotte together is ...great. They seem so comfortable and happy togehter...I really want that...but I just feel like it is unattainable for me.

Maybe it's New York...maybe it's me...I don't know what it is for sure...maybe I really don't believe in love anymore. I'm just...despondent and still reeling. I miss her. I do...but I know it was a road to ruin...and I have to go and follow another path. I'm tired of it... but I have to just keep living my life.

So, on the cusp of my third decade...I think I know what it feels like to be "normal" again...and isn't that a start?

And by the grace of God...go I. Yeah, let's keep moving along.

gung hai fat choy.
Sunday, January 29, 2006 12:46 a.m.

OK...I'm really, really tired and I don't even want to shower...that's the kind of day I had.

Got up and just went to town. Did laundry, rehearsed, ripping a ton of CDs, made my bday mix2, and cleaned up.

The family came over and we had our Chinese New Year shindig... lots of food, red envelopes, and stuff.

Big surprise: Iris sent me a bday card...with a Virgin Mega giftcard...yipes. Well, it was certainly a very sweet gesture and I really appreciate it.

Anyways, Eric was over and it was just watching tv and eating mostly. My uncle has been having trouble at work for a very long time...and I think he just needs to keep going to HR or public advocacy groups...having a hostile work environment is no way to do this...ugh.

Pretty much it...I'm going to bed dirty and I don't care. :P

Happy year of the dog, ya'll.

the aristoCATS
Friday, January 27, 2006 10:13 p.m.

Another Friday... lots of work...but I was so tired that I couldn't really blast through it...but I did get a bunch of stuff done.

Got stamps and walked around for lunch...not much else... my coworker's band didn't win the Bon Jovi slot...but still...5 finalists? That's still awesome!

Came home and my mom was over... practiced and had a stroke of genius... I'm going to do a little ABBA medley right before "gravity" and it works so incredibly well! I may just have to do this all the time. Thanks Greg Dulli!

Chris gave me my bday present early. He got me the Jackass boxset and the Aristocrats...which was insanely filthy! But after awhile...you hear the comedians talk about it and realize that there is an actual art to it...and the permutations like a jazz improv...and the different ways they can tell the joke,.. the most impressive was the guy that did the card trick and told the trick...amazing! And I think Dana Gould, Bob Saget, and Sarah Silverman really were the funniest...the Sarah Silverman thing...it wasn't just telling a joke...it was like acting...and the Saget thing...he's just cracking up because he can't believe how filthy the stuff that's coming out of his mouth...but the one that set the standard was Gilbert Gottfried.

He was at Hugh Hefner's Roast at the Friars' Club...and it was 3 weeks after 9/11 and his jokes were too close to the wound...comedians heckled him and were like "too soon!"...so he goes off and does the Aristocrats joke...and the comedians are just DYING...just funny.

Definitely not for the faint of heart... but it's all language...and it's just... crazy. I recommend it...just understanding the art of storytelling and creativity...not the actual "joke"...but the endless riffing. Awesome.

So tired...but I want to clean! My OCD is outta control! But seriously...TGIF.

Mamma Mia!
Friday, January 27, 2006 09:39 a.m.

Yeah...didn't get a chance to blog last night...but it was another day packed with stuff. Started working on my Michigan book and was just distracted all day with iTunes...but I did get some stuff done. Gonna tackle some of the harder stuff today...the TOC check...ugh.

Had our huge Town Hall Meeting in the lobby of the MSG Theater...I just saw Franz Ferdinand there a couple of months ago! Craziness.

Met up with Grace and had drinks and some bar food at Joshua Tree... man, she gets into all sorts of fun trouble without me...dang...why am I never around when the really fun stuff happens? Anyways, we went to see Mamma Mia and it was great! It took all of my strength to not sing along! (yeah, yeah...I know.)

Oh...and our plan for Valentine's Day (well, that is if we are both free)...is to get wasted and just do the "wing" thing. HAHAH...but I think vday is like a Tuesday...oh well.

Anyways...the woman who played "Tonya" was incredible...she had the most amazing body for someone in there 40s and 50s...and the way she danced reminded me of Sabrina...who is officially the cutest dancer I know (well, next to Doris' clog dance...which is just...too cute for words. I can't wait to see that again!)

Well, that was it...it's now FRIDAY...and I'm listening to ABBA and having a bialy with real butter...real butter! I've missed you.

TGIF, kids.

weirdness
Thursday, January 26, 2006 01:37 p.m.

Just too tired to blog last night...totally forgot. Anyways...a weird day. Quick rundown:

Gloria quit her job and is off to Korea for vacation. Came as a shock to me! But I guess she knew it was coming...had lunch with her in Ktown.

Got the next big project...a reprint read of a Michigan book...man, this is gonna take a while.

Finally got into this iTunes business at work. Learning about how to use it and how easy it is...I can't wait to get my new computer...and then...ipod! WOOO! My family is getting me a computer with like 160 gigs...AWESOME! Beats my 10 gig puppy anyday!

Rehearsed, watched LOST, CD stuff...and pretty much it. iTunes has most of my attention now...sorry.

Going to see Mama Mia with Grace tonight...but I'm tired and sleepy...and I've been losing weight lately...but not in my face...why is my head so chubby? I'm down like 3 notches on my belt and the new pants I bought don't fit right anymore...what the heck???

Back to work.

weirdness
Thursday, January 26, 2006 01:37 p.m.

Just too tired to blog last night...totally forgot. Anyways...a weird day. Quick rundown:

Gloria quit her job and is off to Korea for vacation. Came as a shock to me! But I guess she knew it was coming...had lunch with her in Ktown.

Got the next big project...a reprint read of a Michigan book...man, this is gonna take a while.

Finally got into this iTunes business at work. Learning about how to use it and how easy it is...I can't wait to get my new computer...and then...ipod! WOOO! My family is getting me a computer with like 160 gigs...AWESOME! Beats my 10 gig puppy anyday!

Rehearsed, watched LOST, CD stuff...and pretty much it. iTunes has most of my attention now...sorry.

Going to see Mama Mia with Grace tonight...but I'm tired and sleepy...and I've been losing weight lately...but not in my face...why is my head so chubby? I'm down like 3 notches on my belt and the new pants I bought don't fit right anymore...what the heck???

Back to work.

sasha forever.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006 09:39 p.m.

Another easy day at work... but had to watch a dvd of a focus group...man, I won't go into details...but education has taken a steep drop....posters!?!?

Finished my first draft of the Anime Insider article...hope there won't be any rewrites.

Got Eunice's bday present all squared away...now I gotta get the mix cds for my bday ready...and keep rehearsing my set.

Big surprise of the day...I found out that one of my buddy's from HRW is working at MGH now! And I had recently started getting my emails to him bounced back...whew...now I know where he is. We need to catch up and have lunch soon.

Isn't Sarah Chalke just so cute? *high five* AND Bateman as guest star! Why isn't NBC picking up Arrested Development? idiots.

Not much else... today was supposed to be the "most depressing day of the year" according to one of my co-workers...I don't get it.

sasha forever.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006 09:28 p.m.

Another easy day at work... but had to watch a dvd of a focus group...man, I won't go into details...but education has taken a steep drop....posters!?!?

Finished my first draft of the Anime Insider article...hope there won't be any rewrites.

Got Eunice's bday present all squared away...now I gotta get the mix cds for my bday ready...and keep rehearsing my set.

Big surprise of the day...I found out that one of my buddy's from HRW is working at MGH now! And I had recently started getting my emails to him bounced back...whew...now I know where he is. We need to catch up and have lunch soon.

Isn't Sarah Chalke just so cute? *high five*

Not much else... today was supposed to be the "most depressing day of the year" according to one of my co-workers...I don't get it.

the beat goes on...
Monday, January 23, 2006 09:23 p.m.

Yeah, a crappy day weatherwise...and work was...well, not much going on. Had a bit of stuff to do...and then most of the day was spent working on my Anime Insider article...hey, if there's stuff to do...then I'll do it.

Actually got really dizzy at work today. I had breakfast so I wasn't feeling all that hungry...went for a walk...but then by the end of the day...woozy. Very odd. Maybe I'm just tired.

Came home and rehearsed...it's getting there. Need to get some more lyrics memorized and get my stuff together.

Ok...adding two more ladies to my "hot list"...ok Kate Beckinsale is just too gorgeous. It hurts to look at her. And Stacey Kiebler...my goodness! Have you seen that woman? How can you be cute, sexy, and incredibly kickass at the same time?

Skating With Celebrities...ha! Just waiting for someone to fall...and it was Todd Bridges. And Jillian Barberie...dang! Great job! So much more respect for her now...and Debbie Gibson...I used to love...LOVE her once...but now...she's getting to be a bit much. Sigh. I've growed up some, haven't I?

Oh boy...Tuesday is Scrubs day.... should be getting some work...right? Well, there's always my article...almost done.

Productive weekend
Sunday, January 22, 2006 05:06 p.m.

Went to Earl's with the folks and Justin after work on Friday...awesome food...stuffed to the gills.

The big news: I may be on the radio soon! The studio I worked with issued their "alternative" compilation that they are sending to radio stations....and track 2 of disc 2 is "pinioned" by yours truly! How cool is that? I'll have to do some more research and see where this might go. Got to strike while the iron is hot.

Was up early on Saturday and did some cleaning...threw away a lot of crap, did laundry, got a hair cut, rehearsed songs and tried to narrow down a setlist...and even wrote a brand new song... I'll post the lyrics. It's called "twisted smile":

never any problems with the questions
the answers locked up in your mind
another name, another lover
do you think of him when you sigh?

and when you kiss me are you miles away?
(you fake it)
and do you miss me when you cannot stay?
(you take it)
you take it all, all in stride
behind the eyes of a twisted smile
a twisted smile

every minute I took for granted
is stained with bitterness unkind
another chapter, another story
ends in tragedy when love dies

and when I tell you I never felt a thing
(I fake it)
and when you left me I had to hide the sting
(I take it)
I take it all, all in stride
behind the eyes of a twisted smile
a twisted smile

there is no solace in the memories that you left me
every photograph seems like a lie
a moment that I thought I knew, a moment I could carry
is something that I can't even recognize

Yeah, that one cuts pretty deep...a little fact, a little fiction...but nonetheless...it makes me wince. well, this is my form of therapy...I'm just glad I can get this stuff out and in a creative way. And hey, I think it's pretty catchy. Can't wait for people to hear it.

Finished Samurai Champloo today...and it was one of the best anime endings I've ever seen...last three episodes were really exciting...and there's hope for more.

Have to work on my Rahxephon/Fafner article. Haven't seen Rah in ages...kinda rusty...and still waiting on the Fafner screener.

Got a lot done this weekend...but I still feel weird. The loneliness is better....but I'm still scared of having nightmares. It's still tough. I have to admit it. So...I have to keep multi-tasking and just insanely busy... just have to keep plowing through it.

Back to work tomorrow. Stay warm.

bored blogging
Friday, January 20, 2006 04:30 p.m.

Ok...I got half an hour left and I finished all my work...so I thought I'd just blog early and call it a day here. Random thoughts:

Kate Beckinsale is like the hottest woman on the planet. GAH! And yet...i can never watch "Serendipity" again...sad.

I'm thinking of doing mini-covers in my songs (when I insert lyrics from popular songs and put them in my songs) and then I would give little prizes to people who guess them... so it will be interactive. Fun?

Anyways...I'm having a hard time thinking of which old songs I need to play: pinioned, reverie, scent of you, under lock and key. That enough? I'm gonna do 2 proper covers and then all new songs besides... should be enough for an hour...right? Any opinions?

I talked to the "Sarah Chalke-ish" girl at work for the first time. heh...and the Moz fan coworker said we should have lunch next wekk...alas, she's married.

Ok...mad props to WOXY.com. Why are you not listening to this?

And man...I listened to Rilo Kiley's "Portion for Foxes" like 10 times today. I love that song. "The talking leads to touching/ the touching leads to sex/ and then there is no mystery left." sigh.

New Pornographers are great...until they get all Polyphonic Spree...so...half their songs are awesome IMHO.

Going to Earl's with the folks and Justin...going to have to kill some time...but it is so nice out...why don't we just skip winter altogether?

TGIF. I am grateful.

boredom begets?
Thursday, January 19, 2006 10:47 p.m.

Not much going on at work at all...just chilling all day... waiting for stuff to come in...and it didn't until like 430...oh well..I have something to do tomorrow morning then...

After work went walking for a bit and then met up with Eunice to have sushi...good stuff and the Ebi Rock Fry is ...amazing! Like tempura but better...must get that anytime I see it.

Afterwards we went to Mary's Dairy for ice cream. It was just a lot of fun... I just feel better and better and I hope that it shows. I hated being such a downer these past few months and looking back on the events...can you blame me? So, I'm going to ride this wave of "eh...not so bad" until something great happens...and I'm hoping that it will.

We are going to try to institute new codenames... she's going to be known as "Palookaville"...and well, I'm just gonna have to be "Lucky Chang"...hahah! I love me some Eunice. Just too cute.

Something is seriously going on in the universe...just seeing weird little things here and there again...not sure if it means anything...but I'll let you know.

And I had the weirdest dream...I was in some new fangled botanical garden...kinda IM Pei designed...and I was jumping around from level to level...and then I ran into my old boss, her husband, and her kids...and then I hugged her and woke up...hurrrmmmm.

Digging the New Pornographers and Rilo Kiley now...feels good to be able to buy some CDs again. But yeah, gotta be careful and save up for weddings and such coming up.

More tomorrow... gonna take the folks and Justin out for dinner. What's the weekend going to be like? Well...painting.

TGIF...here I come!

booze and snooze
Thursday, January 19, 2006 09:29 a.m.

Finally finished my huge batch of stuff yesterday. Some 300 plus pages of correx...whew.

Crazy winds and rain...but I still made it out to the comic shop to pick up...A comic...just one. Infinite Crisis is some good stuff...but you gotta be ol skool to really appreciate it.

After work I made it out to BR and picked up a 350 blazer for 85 bucks (with discounts and my bday coupon)...it's just a tad snug at the moment...but I'm planning on losing another 20 lbs. by spring...we'll see if I can actually do it.

Met up with Gloria at Bar 515 and to be honest...it was the best non-date I've had in a long time! We had a great time just talking about everything...serious to silly in no time flat...and it just felt good to be able to open up and not worry. It was a much needed night of boozing and conversation (much of which is unfit to be seen, heard, written about, even thought about...hahahah!) Had some appetizers and lots of high-fives of the Scrubs kind (ie. "betrayal high five"...but we just came up with new ones. The next girl I make out with...we are totally high-fiving after...if not...she's obviously not the one.

Anyways, went to Third Floor afterwards and had some more booze and snacks. FOBby Korean place that played sappy music...but it was a nice spot.

I love me some Gloria. She's fun, hot, animated, capable of being a dude and a girlie girl, and she's vowed to get me some lovin' some time this year...hey, when I have girl friends this great...it makes me feel like there is some hope for womankind...and if I can find someone out there like that...wow, I'd be a very lucky guy.

Got home and stayed up to watch LOST...good stuff. Poor Jack though! What a sucker. Next week's looks good too. But I'm worried about screen time for certain characters...some people are getting less and less time. And not nearly enough Kate! Come on!

Not much work to do now...but I'm sure it will hit soon.

Dinner with Eunice tonight? And I'm going to have to take Doris out one of these nights too....and yeah, you and you. I got a job! WOOOO! Ok...now about budgeting... sigh.

urrrgh...mas limpiador
Tuesday, January 17, 2006 10:17 p.m.

Yeah... back at work... got a lot done today...but I've got a ton of stuff to do tomorrow also...urrgh. New guy that sits next to me plays drums for an indie band. Cool...will have to chat more.

Got some cheap CDs during lunch...ok...worst album with the best CD cover: Louis XIV: Best Little Secrets Are Kept...my gosh...what a great cover...what a lousy band. Eh...worth 5 bucks.

IM madness! hahaha... man, some funny stuff. I'll just keep it between me and my friends.

And yeah...met up with Wendy today. She was cool...but no spark or anything. We can be friends. I'm getting a little tired of the whole set up thing. I'm all up for meeting people...but honestly...I need someone to knock me off my feet and make me perspire...someone who I'm just dying to talk to and waste my cell phone minutes on. hahahah...but yeah...I'm not going to settle. I want the whole package...and I'm not going to back down. I deserve the best...and I know this.

I see all these @$$holes get these awesome girls and I just shake my head. I've got so much to offer and I just can't seem to find someone that wants it...who I want too... It's really frustrating...all this trial and error...all these forced fumblings. It can wear you down...the set up and the disappointment...but one day...I'm going to meet that person and I'm going to stare her in the eye when I know she's the one...and just tell her simply: "You were worth it."

All the heartache, all the times I thought I was just going to die from the hurt...it would be worth it...if she was the one.

Mad clean up when I got back...moved most of Chris's stuff to his new room...and moved my music stuff back to the living room...worked out nicely...just need to make some more room. Oh...and Eric is working on a "most unusual" business propisition... more later.

Ok, stupid sap... rocking out to my Twilight Singers LIVE bootleg dvds...it cost a little extra...but it was soooo worth it. The live stuff sounds amazing...even if it's low budget. Can't wait to see Dulli again... gonna have to drag Eunice again...hahah.

Drinks with Gloria tomorrow...we'll see how the weather works out... sigh...I could use a drink.

Urrrgh...headache...stress? Tired? Hungry? I don't know. Someone make it better, please? ALL of it.

more cleaning...more kids
Monday, January 16, 2006 10:03 p.m.

Chris's room still is not done. The weather is making the paint not dry properly and it's gonna need another coat on one of the walls. And there is paint and dust all over...so I'm not very comfortable at the moment.

Kids came over for a bit...and I just did chores around the house. Kinda sleepy and tired all day. Just a lot of physical activity.

Kinda bummed...just general malaise...need to be active and meeting up with people I think. So if anyone wants to get dinner or drinks tomorrow...let me know.

Props for my chigga Ang Lee...he sent some Chinese love out there... man, do I have to watch Brokeback "Why can't I quit ya!?" Mountain now?

Should be an easy week at work... bday planning and music stuff will keep me busy for the next few weeks...after that...time to get writing again.

Hoping to get a new computer for my bday...and then I can get myself an I-pod Video...after that...must save money for weddings...now if I can finagle a "plus one" somewhere...I'd be happy.

And yeah...that name "Iris" keeps coming up on TV...heard it twice today...and one of them was followed by an "S"...it bugs me to no end.

In any case, this week seems kind of free...in terms of social engagements...but next week seems packed...yeesh. We'll see. Sleepy...but short week ahead...wooot.

home improvement
Sunday, January 15, 2006 04:17 p.m.

Yesterday was spent just cleaning, painting, and building. I felt very butch...hahahah!

I removed some nasty old shelves from my kitchen and painted the walls a glistening white...much cleaner looking. I like it. Chris's room is almost done...but it's a lot of work. They are going to finish painting on Monday. We got some complaints because of the fumes and we were told that no work was supposed to be done on weekends...no idea. Oh, well.

Chris went to Ikea and came back with some new stuff. Built a bunch of things for him. A tv stand, a wardrobe...but the huge desk needs to be built in the room...cause aint no way it's going to fit through the door.

Watched the last 3 eps. of Angel...and put it away. I'm done. So sad...but watching the last episode and realizing how things all fit together...it was much better than when I saw it when it aired and it made no sense at the time.

I passed out at 2 and then Eunice calls me at like 230...I thought I was dreaming and I almost called her "Fred"! I've had Eunice on the brain for weeks now...all because of Amy Acker...and I got so sad when Fred died and became Illyria that suddenly I have this deep need to see Eunice and hug her. Yes, I am crazy and I watch too much TV.

Anyways, I'm at my folks place now and helping clean up. Man...there place is at least getting a little cleaner. It's just been a grueling few weeks with all the moving and cleaning up...My grandparents place, moving nIna out, moving Chris in, cleaning my folks place...I'm just beat. And I want to do something for ME. But what? New dvds and cds and comics make me happy...but I kind of want something...BIG.

And yeah...the whole single thing...not letting it bug me. I'm going to keep my options open...go out and meet new people reconnect with new folks...who knows when and where. All I know is I have a new job...I am getting paid, new wardrobe, new attitude, and just leaving the past behind... it's a start. Ask me the hard questions in 6 months.

Dad should be back in NY in 3 hours or so.

Yeeesh. I'm sore.

Chronic-les of Narnia!
Saturday, January 14, 2006 12:29 p.m.

TGIF! Some work, but mostly an easy day. They had a "surprise meeting" which was really a "birthday breakfast" for the January b-day people...which was like two of us. A little awkward having to grab a pen and pad and run into a room and have like muffins staring at you. hahah!

Anyways, making friends slowly at work...it's nice...trying to keep distance a bit...I know what happens. Anyhoo, there was a bit of a hoo-ha when people got checks and the new folks didn't...well, we did at 3:30...so yeah... I GOT PAID! My first real paycheck since April! WOOOOOO!

So, I met up with Iris by Astor place and we went to Takahachi for sushi and sake (which was cheap and good) and man, I haven't drank in a while and that sake really got to me. Then we went to Veneiros for dessert and by the time we finished it was...8:30. Hence, we went to get tix for "Chronicles of Narnia: L, W and WD" at 1030.

Killed some time at Forbidden Planet and Virgin Mega. Then saw the movie...which I thought was pretty darn-good. Was like 1 by now and I was beat. So she hopped in a car and I took the train.

Ok...so here's the important thing: I think we are going to be friends. Just can't overlook the fact that we have almost nothing in common. And the fact that she told me she brokeup with her bfriend of 7 years ...2 months ago. I mean, there are moments when I think she is pretty cute and funny. But it isn't enough. I need someone that shares the same cultural lexicon, someone that sets me on fire...in all senses of the word. Someone that makes me laugh and that I also want to be quiet with. And well...I haven't had that in a while...but when I see it, I'll know it ...and it will be right.

Funny thing is I get home and I'm in the kitchen and I look up and see Nina's coffee cup from some camera company...the word I see right away: Iris. hahahah it means nothing!

So, yeah...I've got a job, I've been on fire in terms of cranking out tunes and tune ideas, things are changing and I'm busy. It's good. I need to be ok by myself and happy with what I am doing. I need to be a little more optimistic about life and not worry so much about what other people think. Every holiday or event that I have to spend without someone...I need to be ok with that. And I'm hoping that I will be.

Yeah, not looking forward to Valentine's Day...but at least my bday should be filled with people. I really hope in 6 months...I'll find someone...but if I don't well, I need to be ok with it. At the moment, I am...but who knows what the future holds.

For the next three days, Chris got people to work on painting his room and what not...so that's something we can look forward to: rearranging the apartment! wooo!

Keeping busy is awesome. Lots of stuff to do and people to hang out with during the week.

Chronic-les of Narnia!
Saturday, January 14, 2006 12:29 p.m.

TGIF! Some work, but mostly an easy day. They had a "surprise meeting" which was really a "birthday breakfast" for the January b-day people...which was like two of us. A little awkward having to grab a pen and pad and run into a room and have like muffins staring at you. hahah!

Anyways, making friends slowly at work...it's nice...trying to keep distance a bit...I know what happens. Anyhoo, there was a bit of a hoo-ha when people got checks and the new folks didn't...well, we did at 3:30...so yeah... I GOT PAID! My first real paycheck since April! WOOOOOO!

So, I met up with Iris by Astor place and we went to Takahachi for sushi and sake (which was cheap and good) and man, I haven't drank in a while and that sake really got to me. Then we went to Veneiros for dessert and by the time we finished it was...8:30. Hence, we went to get tix for "Chronicles of Narnia: L, W and WD" at 1030.

Killed some time at Forbidden Planet and Virgin Mega. Then saw the movie...which I thought was pretty darn-good. Was like 1 by now and I was beat. So she hopped in a car and I took the train.

Ok...so here's the important thing: I think we are going to be friends. Just can't overlook the fact that we have almost nothing in common. And the fact that she told me she brokeup with her bfriend of 7 years ...2 months ago. I mean, there are moments when I think she is pretty cute and funny. But it isn't enough. I need someone that shares the same cultural lexicon, someone that sets me on fire...in all senses of the word. Someone that makes me laugh and that I also want to be quiet with. And well...I haven't had that in a while...but when I see it, I'll know it ...and it will be right.

Funny thing is I get home and I'm in the kitchen and I look up and see Nina's coffee cup from some camera company...the word I see right away: Iris. hahahah it means nothing!

So, yeah...I've got a job, I've been on fire in terms of cranking out tunes and tune ideas, things are changing and I'm busy. It's good. I need to be ok by myself and happy with what I am doing. I need to be a little more optimistic about life and not worry so much about what other people think. Every holiday or event that I have to spend without someone...I need to be ok with that. And I'm hoping that I will be.

Yeah, not looking forward to Valentine's Day...but at least my bday should be filled with people. I really hope in 6 months...I'll find someone...but if I don't well, I need to be ok with it. At the moment, I am...but who knows what the future holds.

For the next three days, Chris got people to work on painting his room and what not...so that's something we can look forward to: rearranging the apartment! wooo!

Keeping busy is awesome. Lots of stuff to do and people to hang out with during the week.

thursday already?
Thursday, January 12, 2006 07:38 p.m.

Wow...the week flies by when you are working...jeez. Had training today and a huge batch of proof that I am almost done with.

Had lunch with Kathleen and she told me that one of my former co-workers got fired for incompetence...and well...sexually harassing her boss. It's insane! Can't say anymore...but wow. What a shock.

And you know how the universe seems to converge? Remember how I used to see "signs" all over? Well... something is happening... the name Iris has come up three times this week...just weird. Well, first off: her. Next, one of my co-workers is named Iris that I just saw today. And then I've been helping this girl try to find a job in the US...and she emailed me today and mentioned our mutual friend...Pei-Chung...who she referred to by her English name...Iris.

Seriously, it's not a hugely common name...but for some strange reason...this week...it keeps popping up. Not sure what it means...or if it means nothing.

Anyways, having dinner with her tomorrow. We IM'ed all day...and she's really funny. I just hope this momentum keeps up in real life.

AND...I met the huge Moz/Smiths fan at work...we're going to chat some more later and trade CDs and what not.

And there is supposed to be some kind of bday breakfast tomorrow for January babies...oh geez.

Almost Friday...wooo.

more work stuffies
Wednesday, January 11, 2006 10:12 p.m.

Had a very easy morning...then once afternoon hit...BAM...300 some odd pages of proof on my desk!

Did I mention that I am the only person of color in editorial in my group...yeah. holla.

Super hot Asian girl on my floor...but I doubt I'll ever get a chance to talk to her...oh well. hahahah.

Had gyros with Gloria and passed her some Veronica Mars...hope she likes it. IMed with Iris a bit more...and she thought that "blecch" was me calling her names...and I'm like...it's a sound of disgust...something that Charlie Brown would say... hahah funny! She cracks me up!

There is a serious chance that I might not get paid this Friday...and if not...oh man...I am going to overdraft...it's only a 30 dollar charge...but still.

Mom came over with food and we ate. Chris is still feeling sick and me...well..getting a sore throat. I took some theraflu and I am starting to get sleeeeepy. LOST was pretty good tonight...what was up with the black smoke ?!?!? COME ON!!! but next week's episode...oh, man cannot wait!

ok...sleeepy.

work...not so bad
Tuesday, January 10, 2006 08:14 p.m.

Had our first meeting today... I made eye contact with the Elliott/Sarah Chalke girl...she has this really cute wry smile too...hahhahah

Anyways, finished up another batch of proof.. Things are going well. I'm glad I am making money and getting to play dress up everyday... makes me feel useful. I thank God for all these blessings...never forget that.

Had lunch with Gloria...she's right around the corner. We went to Chipotle and talked...sometimes you wonder if you had a chance to date one of your friends...would you do it? If the timing works out and all things are in play...I think it would happen.

Anyways...Wendy called last night and we talked for a little bit...I was too tired and I could barely understand her...and then I talked to Laura...man...

Ok...I don't think I ever posted this...maybe I did...but when we first went out...it was just really intense. I ended up going back to Williamsburg with her and we stayed up all night talking...and then the moment came and I screwed up. I told her I wanted to kiss her...and she was like ..."well, now you ruined it!" She was all for it if I just DID IT...and not said anything...so...yeah. We are both weird...and we haven't talked about it in a loooong time...but recently she's been bringing it up and making fun of me! OMG!!!! but if she ever breaks up with her bfriend...well...hahah she's been warned. And she knows it!

IMed with Iris today...and man, she keeps surprising me. She is funny and...sarcastic. Everyone knows that sarcasm is the way to my heart. She cracks me up. So, we'll see how dinner goes this Friday...not sure where this is headed ...or what I want...sigh.

Anyways... Chris is feeling sick so I made dinner... Scrubs is on soon. Sleepy tired...but I should work out a little too. This week is flying by already! Tomorrow is LOST day...woooo!

productive...again!
Monday, January 9, 2006 10:08 p.m.

Yeah...first Monday at work and I was ON FIRE... we had our meeting and I was the only person to get 2 grades worth of work...but that got reassigned. My project manager later told me it was because of my "speed and success" ...oh, boy. If anything, I need to pace myself a little better...but I love multi-tasking and if I can do something fast and accurate...why not?

Anyways, looks like I have a second date with Iris coming up this Friday...I'm not sure what she is thinking...or what I am thinking at this point. But I'm intrigued...and she seems fun and cute.

Wendy actually called me while I was at work today...but I was too busy with papers flying everywhere that I didn't pick up...regardless...we have loads in common and we definitely need to meet up and chat.

But at this point in my life...I just want to focus on work and music and writing...the other stuff has burned me so badly in the past...that I just need to down-grade it in my list of priorities.

With that said...I booked Nightingale Lounge for my bday party. It's going to be a gig/party...where I'll play for an hour and then people will just drink afterwards. I'm going to make a few mix cds also...so I want to put some of my fave songs on it and just enjoy. I'll send out an email some time this weekend. Just want to have a big bash and forget the year that was my 29th...new year, new decade, new me... and maybe I'll even have a girl by then? Who knows?

More work tomorrow...maybe lunch with Gloria...just getting back into the swing of things.

Didn't get a chance to work out today...but man...my aching back. Time for sleep...and early tonight too!

I am super productive!
Sunday, January 8, 2006 08:28 p.m.

Went to bed late...but I was up at 11:00 and out to Costco and Wal-Mart with my mom. Got a bunch of groceries and most importantly socks! Listened to the rough mixes of the new songs I've been working on...and my mom loves the keyboards...as do I.

Came home and ate with Justin...then Mom and I went off to look for shoes. No luck. And best buy would not let us return a router we don't need...but did get some toiletries at Target.

Just watched Desperate Housewives...best episode this season! But come on...the Applewhites are useless so far...love Lynnette and Tom together though.

Home...more cleaning up and getting stuff ready. And e-mailed Nightingale Lounge about my gig/bday party idea. I hope they let me...and that the cost is minimal... or free! Come on...it's a Tuesday!

AND...I wrote some lyrics! I might just use keys and bass only on this song...I'm still dreaming up the music for this. We'll see how it works out. ut...it's about S...for sure...it's kind of scathing...but would you expect any less? Well, I needed a song to reflect the album title...and well... this one is it:

"epistles from the brokenhearted"

I rue the day I ever met you
and every hour by your side
every minute that I lived through
every second of your lies

consider this an epistle
a letter from a broken heart
a final plea from the dying
to one who tore it apart

I pray to God to forgive you
to have mercy on your soul
for every moment that you smiled through
the sweet deceptions that you told

consider this an epistle
a letter from a broken heart
a final plea from the dying
to one who tore it apart

consider this resignation
from ever loving you again
every moment that I wasted
on every cruel and labored sin

Never should have let you in
Never should have let you in

OHHHHHH SNAAAAP! OOoOOoooH NOooOOooo HE DIIIIN'T!

dang straight, I did.

Monday! WOOOT!

am I productive or what?
Sunday, January 8, 2006 02:01 a.m.

Oh man...it's late and I am still up...was just really productive today.

Got up late thought...was up at 1230...but then I was off and running. I cleaned OUT the second bedroom and got it ready for Chris... it's bare right now...took me nearly all day. But I also cleaned out two closets and had time to mixdown a bunch of songs...man, mixing down is hard. They just don't sound as good on CD as when I am mixing on headphones... grrr! I need some money and a record deal so I can do this properly!

Anyways, mom, Justin, and Niu were over...cooked and cleaned also...bunch of emails, web stuff done...and I posted "on fire" to the website... go check it out...I think it's really different for me...and I love that keyboard solo at the end! Go, me!

Ok...that's enough...just a lot of cleaning and prepping, and doing stuff...yay. Now, sleep!

week one!
Saturday, January 7, 2006 12:45 a.m.

Another day of work and shopping. I finished the rest of my project today and read through 2 manuals... pretty dang productive. And around 4...I finally got my computer. wooot!

Lunch went to Best Buy to use some gift certificates and the transaction was a nightmare...just took forever. Ugh.

I IMed Iris for a little while and she wanted me to go clubbing with her and her friends...but I was wiped and I needed to get stuff for work...but hey, promising?

Anyways, after work...I went to 42nd to meet up with Eunice...and I ended up getting two more cheap shirts from Gap...then met up with Eunice and went to Aldo...I actually got a decent pair of shoes for 40 bucks! And went to Club Monaco and got a pink striped shirt for 20 bucks...so...lots of stuff today. BEAT!

Went to Big Daddy's Diner for burgers and went to Barnes and Noble after...Eunice got a Chippendales calendar and a pregnancy care book for her friend...I tried to embarass her by her purchases...unfazed. She's like steel.

Anyways, home...cleaning out my closets getting my clothes in order for the work week. Dressing up every day is kind of fun after months of boxers and t-shirts at home...but I'm sure it will get old soon.

May need to get another pair of shoes tomorrow...but I just want to sleep in...had a long day of work and fun...and I need to work out and just relax... been so active lately...but eating crap and I'm pudging out...gah! Must keep the eyes on the goal...Aruba in July...must get in shape!

Ok...sleep...soon! TGIF! WOOOO! Things are looking better.

date-o!
Thursday, January 5, 2006 11:39 p.m.

Another day of work...lots of it too. Found out that the project I was working on...was kind of worked on and completed by 2 other people already...in any case...just give it all to the Sr. Ed to sort out.

My boss is actually going to be out tomorrow and the Sr. Ed doesn't come in until 10...so if I'm going to be late...it will be tomorrow...but I probably won't. :P

Lunch break: over to Old Navy and they had an insane sale... I got 4 pairs of pants and a really cool jacket for 70 bucks!

After work, got a couple of comics and then went to the LES to meet Iris. We were both early and met at Katz's at 6:15...right off the bat...I thought she was cute...she snuck up behind me and was trying to hide! Anyways, we went to Clinton St. and had a few drinks at a kinda divey bar. She was a lot cooler than I thought she'd be when she loosened up...she was talking about her job and it was all Greek to me...but then something clicked and I was like...

I think I know you.

And I did...I worked at the Dean's office at NYU CAS for 2 years during grad school...and Iris was the computer person for the Dean's...and the more we discussed it...I realized something really funny. It was a totally OMG moment. She was "FOB-by girl with the cute butt" that I had a crush on back then! I used to have to talk to her about computer issues every once in a while...and I remember I talked about her with one of my coworkers...and for some reason I remember someone telling me she had a boyfriend.

Anyways, turns out she didn't remember me...but hey...that was in '98...and I barely remembered her...took me a while. Well, turns out she dated that guy for 7 years and she only recently broke up...hmmm.

Anyways, we had a good time talking and joking around and then we decided to go to Chinatown to have Joe's Shanghai. We had to share a table with a bunch of other people...so they all heard our conversation...but she really surprised me...she is kinda bossy and knows what she likes and doesn't like, she talks a mile a minute, and she is very family oriented. We both have the same philosophy when we travel...and she has these big, dew-y eyes...and a cute nose. And then we went to Little Italy and had dessert...and more talking and poking fun.

She's kind of a bean pole...but she's definitely still cute. She wants me to tutor her for the GMATs...and she says she'll take me drinking...and then she wants me to cook for her...and she wants breakfast?

Well, I waited for the bus with her and I was like "So, are we going to hang out again?" ...at first she was like "Of course not!" I was like...WHAAAAT?!?!? And I'm assuming she was joking...but you never know. She said she'd call me and see what I was doing next week...so we'll see.

Anyways, I am beat....but when I get home and check email...more news: I talked to Laura last night and she was thinking of setting me up with her friend Mary...so she sent me some pics...she's actually pretty cute.

Then I get an entry on my guestbook from someone I didn't recognize ...saying that they loved my music yadda yadda...turns out it was Mandy...Alex's fiancee that I met NYE...and she wants to forward info along to her friend Wendy...ahem.

Soooooo...what's going on?!?!? Is 2006 really turning around for me? I have no idea...all I know is I am going to concentrate on work and my music...and then the rest will come later... stay on course...let God take care of the rest.

Whooo...here it comes...TGIF. Time to go shoe shopping!

Day 2--Electric Bugaloo
Wednesday, January 4, 2006 11:58 p.m.

Oh man...I am wiped out. Got up and out early...was in the office by 845 and just read some material...then I got my first project. Easy proofing stuff... only took me like an hour to finish.

Anyways, took lunch and went out shopping. Got some really cheap used dvds ...like 5 bucks...and then went to Gap...I almost bought stuff there yesterday...and today...man, things got even cheaper! I got 8 pairs of boxers for like 20 bucks...and I think the guy only charged me for 7...I am set for like 20 years!

Then, went back and got lunch at the cafeteria...sandwich was pretty good. Split another project with John...and I finished up around 4...same kind of issues we had at HRW...but I think HRW handled it better... hmmm..we can change that.

Some cute girls in the office...but I'm never going to have a chance to meet any of them! We are so separate...grrr! hahahah!

After work...went shopping again at the Gap on 18th and Broad...and they had different stuff! I got 4 shorts, andother 2 pairs of boxeers, 2 pairs of pants, and 2 blazers! And it was 175! Insane sales! I need more pants and shoes...my shoes are so crappy...

Home...major clean up of closets that I still need to do. I am just ...ready to sleep...more work and maybe a meeting tomorrow...eeep. More later.

first day on the job
Tuesday, January 3, 2006 08:27 p.m.

Ugh... went to sleep at 11 and was awake at 230...couldn't fall back asleep until like 530...stupid overactive brain! Anyways...up at 715 and I got ready for work... got to work just about 10 minutes early and met a bunch of new people starting also.

Orientation: learned that MGH owns Business Week and the S&P index...those are the two major things. And we share a building with the Knicks and the Rangers ...and probably a bunch of others.

Anyways...I'm on the 21st floor and one of the guys at the orientation is my partner! We're both working on the same project in the same capacity. Anyways, found out that his roommate is the drummer for indie darlings Clap Your Hands Say Yeah...how weird is that?

He seems like a pretty cool guy...met the guys in my "pod" our team is all a bunch of guys! My boss actually reminds me of my friend Mark...for several reasons...hahah.

Anyways, not much to do today. Just flipping through the books and orientation stuff. They are still behind schedule...so I'm not going to have any hardcore work for ...at least a month. May help out on some other stuff in the meantime...but mostly easy stuff. No big whoop.

A few cute girls I noticed...but we are all so segragated into pods...not sure if I will ever meet anyone outside of the dudes I am working with...I wonder if they did that intentionally? They are hiring a bunch more people soon...so, who knows. Oh, and hours are like 930-430 when we aren't busy. Isn't that insane???

Got a few comics today and tried to go clothes shopping...but I got too frustrated and just came home. EXHAUSTED! MUST SLEEP TONIGHT!

Arrested was pretty good...the HBO/Showtime joke was funny...and Scrubs one hour premiere!

Just wish it would stop raining and I could really try to be happy with a new start.

last day of freedom...
Monday, January 2, 2006 09:53 p.m.

So...how did I spend it? Well, I went to bed at 6...and was up at 9...Helped Nina move out the last of her stuff...we have so much room here now. So weird to think that this was what it used to be like!

Anyways, her new place is brand new...really nice...but the ceilings are too low for me ...I'd feel claustrophobic...but it's really nice.

Went to Ikea to pick up some stuff for her. Had lunch there and just looked at stuff that I can't buy just yet. Soon as I get a new computer...I'm going to get a new desk.

Anyways, more moving and then came home to rest for a while...then it was off to Target for some more shopping...and then went for steaks after...just a really long day.

When i get tired...I get cranky and my mind wanders and thinks about things that upset me... this is a problem. So, I'm going to go to bed really soon...just as soon as I can shower and crawl in bed...I'm assuming I'll knock out pretty easily.

I just found a spider on my pillow too...urrgh. But I need to get some much needed rest...then it's off to work!

Excited and a little nervous. I'm hoping the first few days will be fairly easy. Keep me in your prayers. Here's to a bright new start in 2006. Much needed and hopefully deserved. Amen.

MUST SLEEP!!!!

why am i still up?
Monday, January 2, 2006 04:56 a.m.

Yeah, it's almost 5 in the morning and I'm still up. I've been on fire tonight with the music stuff. I added this creepy little keyboard part to "under lock and key" ...want to clean up the harmony just a tad and it will be good to go.

Well, here's where I need your help. I need some name ideas for the new album. I want to have it done by June this year. Packaged and ready to go. I have just about half the songs on it done already. I want about 12 songs.

Songs I've recorded at least part of already:

under lock and key (new and improved)
on fire
milk
leading you astray
as I walk the borderline

Songs I've written and will record
t & a
gravity
breathe in my heart
skintight spandex suits

Still deciding what other old songs I can record...and waiting for inspiration to hit me so I can write new stuff.

Anyways, the help part. I need to name the album! My ideas so far:

epistles from the brokenhearted
foolish alchemy
prayers for the perishing

Yeah, kinda serious...anyone have any suggestions?

Hello 2006!
Monday, January 2, 2006 12:12 a.m. Archived the last of 2005 entries. Thank God that horrible year is over.

So, how did I start 2006? Well, I got up at 3:30 and was kind of hungover...I ordered mexican food, started Angel Season 5 (last season, cleaned up a tad, answered some emails and worked on a bunch of music.

I recorded nearly all of "MILK"...I wrote this song back in 1997 and my friend Kumud wanted me to record it. The original version is much longer...but I'm trying to write shorter more economical songs now...so I chopped it in half and it's better for it. Anyways, did vox, bass, keyboards, guitars, and some beats...it's not quite perfect and I'm debating if I should redo any of it...oh, well.

Also added additonal vox to "As I Walk the Borderline", trying to add beats to "ON FIRE" and going to try to clean my computer out so I can start adding new music to the hard drive. So, being productive in that sense of the word.

Amy called while she was on the plane...she's off to Africa for three weeks. Pray for her safety.

Mom and Justin came over...he bought me a Lindsay calendar...but...um...I have it already. And he was like "What am i going to do with this? I have a girlfriend." hahaha!!!... oh well.

Going to spend tomorrow with my mom. Last day before I have to work...wouldn't want to spend it with anyone else. I love my Momma!!!

Ok...gonna try to work on music again. Kicking off this year by doing something that keeps my mind off...well, you know.

Happy 2006. I love you. Yes, even you.