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Friday, May 30, 2003
so i finally got my ass out of the house today. hmmm but not before i caught hey arnold! and the brothers garcia on nickelodeon! i love the brothers garcia. its so damn funny. larry's so adorable and i have this burning desire to learn spanish now. i have learnt some phrases from there.
hija = daughter
hijo = son
mi amour = my love
todo para la familia = everything for the family
see, even mature grown-ups like me can benefit from watching a kids television show.
i went to meet ma for dinner in town. but firstly, we went to get our eyebrows neatened up at hollywood secrets. i was actually planning to go to that nice auntie's salon at far east but i can't remember where her shop was.
we ate at lido and i had no appetite. and i bought this felix the cat badge from this deaf man, he was selling them for subsistence. he's an ang moh. i haven't done anything charitable in a long time and was worrying about karma. plus the guy's quite cute so i bought it. shit, how superficial am i? then when ma came back with her food, she told me she bought a bart simpson one from the same guy a long time ago. i felt so glad to hear that! so it turns out that she's as superficial as me. plus, if he was a fake i wouldn't feel bad being the only person who got duped. what a pal!
it felt good to catch up with a good friend in how many donkey years. i told her the ghost story pauline told me and it gave her goosebumps! mental note: tell everyone i know the story. we also checked out the sales but everywhere was closing! but that's good cos i swore that i wouldn't buy anything today. damn! the badge. that's for charity so not counted. my god it was four bucks.
i called up jess's parents and asked if i could follow them to pick him up from the ferry terminal. like sort of give him a surprise. i haven't seen him for 11 freakin' days! that's eternity for some of us. this is the first time i'm picking him up so i didn't know that its compulsory for them to take the chartered bus to pasir ris bus terminal then leave from there. so jess actually wanted to run away from the rest and hop into the car. at first we waited for him at changi beach, in the dark, near the trees and the water. i felt like we were waiting for some illegal immigrant. there was a couple 20 metres away from us, enjoying a romantic moment and don't know doing what. don't they know changi beach is haunted??
it felt so good to see him again. but he was so sticky and gross i would have nothing do with him! but alas! his godfather betrayed me and had already told jess i was coming. so the surprise was ruined. oh well! then came all his army stories again. his company was champion in games! never have they gotten first in eight years. whatever. so i have also learnt some army jargon. it never fails to amuse me what kinda funny words they have.
ba long long. fuck. bo bo shooter. fuck. chong suah. fuck. wayang. fuck. and a never ending array of swear words in all sorts of languages. don't even get me started on the abbreviations.
i think army is fun. jess will kill me. but army sounds fun. it would be cool to make so many new friends where you shed blood, sweat and tears with. wow. girls should have something like that to bond over too! like the menstruation club or meetings where we discuss the joys and pains of labour. i think discussions about the absurdity of some of our men can last for at least a few weeks.
i am chatting with jane koh meow jun now on icq. HI JANE! i know some people get a real kick out of seeing their name on the web. i know i do heh heh.
think i should go to bed. must wake up early tomorrow go jess's house. bruce almighty opened already! and i heard it did better than the matrix. people dig comedies more than brain-wrecking action movies for obvious reasons. finding nemo is opening next week. so exciting!
good night :)
addicted @ 02:13 am ||
Tuesday, May 27, 2003
oh gosh i'm stuffed. so full now! its my dad's birthday today and we just had a nice, cosy home-cooked meal. well, the only home-cooked food were eggs. my mom bought the rest after work cos being all caught up in her new job, she forgot the birthday *gasp* kudos to mom though cos she got a really yummy cake! its a heart-shaped cake from four leaves and has three layers - cheese, chocolate mousse and chocolate sponge. it also has a real pretty red gelatin topping blah blah blah. it just tasted damn good lah.
i hastily wrote my dad a note that said happy birthday you're the best, you know the usual. its so funny cos i can still remember my dad's birthday last year, my mom was in china so it was just him and my brother and i. i bought some cheapo $9 cake that tasted bleah. jess also celebrated with us, it was so cute and well, abit weird. like he was part of the family :)
digressing a little, jess is a little scared of my dad. most dads are protective of their little girls, no question about that right? i used to be very grounded, my parents would wait up for me when i came home late. they'd call me if i wasn't home by midnight. i felt like cinderella! then my mom would feed me stories about how her mom would wait up for her at the door, broom in hand to wallop her good. but ever since me and jess got together, they'd become less strict with my curfew. ironic huh. that happened only when they found out that jess sends me home all the time. i'd like to imagine that they trust that he can take care of me, and i'm so so grateful. cos yay! i can hang out late now!
but jess is still a little afraid of my dad cos my dad is not that great a conversationalist. but i just know that they'd get along great if they knew each other better because they are so like each other! they are both very jisiao. they are funny in the most outrageously lame way. my dad is totally devoted to my mom. i guess those scientists knew what they were saying when they theorised that girls tend to fall in love with guys who reminded them of their fathers :)
another thing. i think the relationship between your parents will have some influence on your future marriages to some degree. my parents are very loving, they still hold hands, they kissed in front of us just now (the horror), i find condoms in their bedside drawer. in the future, i'd want my marriage to be just like that. i've read that children in families that deviate from the norm may experience several disappointments in their love lives and marriages. its some pychological thing. i really hope to have a happy marriage!
i think i have digressed too much. i wanted to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BEST FATHER A GIRL COULD EVER HAVE! dad, i hope your hairline won't recede anymore and that your working life will get better. may you and mom stay as loving as ever, and that your lifelong ambition to strike the lottery will finally come true.
lots of love, your little girl
addicted @ 09:42 pm ||
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Romantic-Sexy...
Your fantasies involve love, not lust. You are a
fantastic kisser, and for very good reason: it's
your favorite thing. You are sappy as hell, and
you don't care who knows it.
What's your brand of sexy?
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damn right i am!
addicted @ 04:25 am ||
Monday, May 26, 2003
to my special someone..
have i told you lately that i love you?
have i told you there's no one else above you?
fill my heart with gladness
take away all my sadness
ease my troubles, that's what you do..
for the morning sun in all its glory
greets the day with hope and comfort too
you fill my life with laughter
and somehow you make it better
ease my troubles, that's what you do..
there's a love that's divine
and it's yours and it's mine like the sun
and at the end of the day
we should give thanks and pray
to The One, to The One..
happy two years anniversary darling! :)
i typed out every single word of our song up there, i didn't copy and paste at all! that shows how much i love you :) even though no one would have noticed anyway. isn't it amazing how two years has passed? it doesn't feel like a long time, but two years definitely isn't short either. it hasn't been the smoothest of rides, but its been wonderful being beside you every step of the way :)
i was rattling my brain thinking of all the sweet things i could say to you here, but i find that i can't. cos i've said it all before, twice or more even. i'm eternally grateful that our paths crossed and God brought you to me :)
this is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.
- psalms 118:24
addicted @ 03:17 am ||
Sunday, May 25, 2003
i forgot to mention that jess called me just now when i was eating that horrible bowl of prawn mee soup. i was so happy! i wasn't expecting a call from him cos he has live range til monday and he didn't bring his phone with him. he called with boon's phone just when felicia and i were talking bad about him. haha. about how "act-gentleman" he was when we were out on our first date. and now, the true colours he emits. haha.
god i love him.
which brings me to another thing. i've been reading a lot of blogs. and i've spoken to alot of attached people. most of them feel that they've found the love of their life. their soulmate. the one person they're meant to be with til death do they part. i get a bit skeptical. ok that is ironic because even i feel that way.
how can they be so sure that this is the one? how can so many of us have found the one at the same time? at which point of time did they realise that this person is the one for them?
maybe mr right is overrated. maybe you can never find true happiness because you ended up with the right guy at the wrong time, or the wrong guy at the right time.
addicted @ 04:47 am
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flea: i went shopping today too! and sad to say, i do not possess the kind of self control you have. you would lose it too, if you were shopping with my Shopping-Addict-in-ultimate-denial-that-she's-a-shopping-addict friend felicia ang (same name but worlds apart).
everytime i go out with felicia, i lose all sense of being. thriftiness would be hurled out of the window of common sense. you like it, you buy it. you owe it to yourself lady. you deserve a new bag/top/skirt. as usual, she could hardly wait till i reached city hall so she went ahead to the new sakae sushi place opposite the mrt station to eat a few (hundred) plates of sushi with her colleague. pauline is 21 and she reminded me of yeeyian. the hair, the face. felicia then bombarded me with anecdotes of her days working in the office. i wonder why they haven't sacked her yet. i mean, my girl here used to take 2 hour lunch breaks, she rudely shushed a client's baby, she hollered at her boss (without knowing who he is) that the door he's trying to open isn't locked, she screamed into the phone that she doesn't want to take the client's call (her client shouted back to another colleague: "who's that? who's that? who don't want to take my call??") the day will come, i'm sure.
pauline then told us this very freaky ghost story which involved the taiwan army. my god its so eerie! ahhhhh! to those who know me, remind me to tell you the story in person, cos pauline said must tell the story in mandarin.
i don't know how we spent three whole hours at suntec. dorothy perkins and topshop are having big sales! but all the things i like only have like 15% off? for me, sales aren't sales unless it's at least 30% haha. felicia has an extra 10% off cos of her membership card. why am i not surprised that she's a valuable member of this place? i tried this nice pair of jeans at topshop but horh, it didn't look nice on me. damn my big hips! its so hard to find skirts and pants.
on the way to carrefour, we stopped at a gazillion stores. i bought a pair of funky retro earrings at six accessories. and i also learnt that silver polishing solution can only be used for 925 silver. the rest of so-called costume jewellery should only be cleaned with a silver polishing cloth, or else it will tarnish faster. damn it! no wonder some of my earrings became copper in colour. that perlini's woman was just trying to trick me to buy the $8 solution. felicia and i fell in love with the bright and colorful bedsheets at that new shop at city link. i can't remember what its called. but the bedsheets are $69?? my god.
oh ya, we were going to carrefour because felicia heard from her friend that they were selling pierre cardin bra and panty sets for $7.90, when they usually go for around 20 bucks a set! and they had such cute camisoles too! i haven't been to carrefour in a long time and i never remembered them selling bras! so many! i wanted to get the cami set but then i didn't cos how much chance would i have to wear that around the house? indecent exposure man! so in the end, i bought some underwear. shan't go into details cos i shy :) then we ate ate ate at the carrefour snack bar. i was really dying of hunger, i think i have gastric. suffered from indigestion cos we walked and ate at the same time. try the strawberry yogurt drink by nestle. its damn good.
here comes the dumb part. i was dying of exhaustion by this time. felicia suggested taking a bus to town and we emerged out of suntec on the side near millenia walk. she said i think the bus stop is on the other side so we walked walked walked all around suntec's perimeter till we reached the part where cars go underground into the car park. we're almost there! we turned the bend and it was a freakin dead end. what the hell. so malu cos all the cars saw us stop dead in our tracks cursing and swearing. then we walked into suntec again here and there and everywhere till we reached the bus stop. and felicia kindly informed me (upon delayed realisation) that the bus stop we were at is directly behind millenia walk.
can't remember what happened already. just that my food at suntec didn't go down properly and now my area-between-middle-of-chest-and-navel really hurts! like its all stuck there. i really need to burp. but i put on a brave front and shopped with a vengeance at isetan, and wisma everywhere. we even went to guess! HUGE SALE! but still very ex. in desperation, we ate at wisma food court (do you remember that it exists?) cos i was in too much discomfort and too tired. we wanted to drink but ended up eating a horrible meal. but my sarsi helped to ease my digestion problem cos i burped it away. then we talked about everything under the sun. we miss school. i sort of categorize my friends under what kind of things we do with each other. there are friends you bitch with, so those are your bitching partners. there are friends you only have fun with, so they are your have-fun friends. you have friends you have sex with, these are called boyfriends. ok i'm kidding. felicia is one of my jacking friends. when we get together, we say things to jack each other, we try our best to suan each other, we reveal humiliating details of each other to cashiers. and it is great fun. so i totally enjoyed myself today.
on the way to the mrt station from wisma, we could not resist going into this new shop, where i could not resist buying this pretty skirt. they were having 20% off! after we got out of the shop, we walked past charles and keith, where felicia could not resist buying this pair of sandals. i can't believe we could even squeeze in that last bit of shopping on the short journey to the mrt station at closing time.
on the long bus ride back to yishun, we calculated how much we spent and the most horrifying realisation dawned upon me. i actually spent more than felicia!!! *shock shock horror horror* that is a mean feat i pulled. another reason why i love her company - she stays in yishun too! the most ulu place.
i got home at 11 plus pm, four bags in tow and $103 poorer. i'm so shagged. i forgot to mention that throughout the day, everytime i bent over, or crossed my legs, i got a cramp. i even got a cramp in my fingers while eating. that's what days of inactivity does to you. i remember why i don't really like going out now. the sweating, the spending, the icky feeling i feel when i get in the door, oily face, dusty feet, foodcourt-smelling clothes and all.
nicole: are you sure about the comment box thing? cos flea tried it out and it worked just fine. maybe i accidentally (on purpose) banned you from commenting! ok kidding. now you've got me all paranoid about the comment box thing! how else are my adoring fans going to express their undying devotion to me? (fans, blank cheques would do just fine)
chia: nice to get your call just now! hope you're not so grouchy anymore :) haiyah should have met you instead of felicia. at least can save a hundred bucks. miss you and chong alot. must meet up ok? *hugs*
addicted @ 02:30 am ||
Saturday, May 24, 2003
just because i'm nice doesn't mean i'm devoid of feelings, fuck. taking me for granted and treating me like a doormat is also unforgivable.
addicted @ 02:44 am ||
Friday, May 23, 2003
whey, why nobody comment one ah? or am i blogging too excessively that you all can't keep up? or does noone read this at all? nicole msged me on icq telling me that she couldn't add comments, got some problem with the thing. so i shall console myself with the possibility that maybe that's the case. growl.
addicted @ 11:31 pm
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oh my gosh. i just stumbled upon something very very interesting. now this is a TRUE story ok? here's the deal: there was this radio show aired on KEGE 93.7 in minneapolis a long time ago, where the host was this guy called andy savage.
there's a segment called he loves me, he loves me not where callers can test their lovers' fidelity by giving andy savage some contact information and details of their relationship. andy savage would then call up the person who was being "tested" live on air (with the "tester" on the other line and the "testee" not having a clue) and trick the person into revealing the truth.
there was this woman called kim who was very certain that her boyfriend greg was 100% faithful to her cos he loves her very much who took part in the show. digressing a little, if she's so confident that her guy is not cheating on her, then why the hell is she taking part right? so boliao.
anyway, since greg and her live 150 miles apart and only saw each other on weekends, i guess she had some reason to suspect that he might be straying. so andy savage calls up greg and said hi! congrats we picked out your business card from a fish bowl and you've won yourself a dozen roses. we'll send it to anyone you wish. so who would it be?
here's the funny part. or twisted part. listen to what greg said HERE.
go on, listen! its a blast. who would've thought...
addicted @ 02:07 am
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movies i'm hoping to watch:
- how to lose a guy in 10 days *woohoo kate*
- bruce almighty (you can hardly go wrong with a jim carrey show, can you?)
- ju-on
- white room
addicted @ 01:25 am ||
Thursday, May 22, 2003
wah its so exciting: the american idol results will be out in like nine minutes! haha. ok i almost forgot how geeky clay used to look. my god he is such a nerd. but his voice is like how power! but its more suitable for musicals and operas cos too powerful already.
but ruben is really damn cute. but he sweats like he's in singapore. i have a feeling he will win though.
whatever it is: GO CLAY!
addicted @ 09:51 pm
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You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
places. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
well, well, if i didn't think so myself. haha.
addicted @ 06:24 pm ||
Wednesday, May 21, 2003
ok there's this website that i read occasionally where people go to confess their sins to millions of strangers. you would not believe the number of sins committed daily! and they are categorized under the ten commandments. here's one very interesting confession i read under thou shalt not commit adultery:
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I'm 20, and I was a virgin before my present girlfriend.
I love her more than life itself, and we've talked about marriage before, but she insists that she will NOT marry me until I have sex with a few more people.
It sounds like every guy's dream, but it's starting to piss me off. I'm not one of those 'save yourself for marriage' people, not by any stretch of the imagination, but, hello! I love YOU. I want to have sex with YOU. I'm not interested in going out and whoring myself around... god, my relationship's weird.
No, I still haven't had sex with anyone else.
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ok, this sounds like my dream guy. real one or not? there are several theories for this weird situation:
1. the girl is worried that the guy would be shite in bed, and hopes he'll get more practice so he can satisfy her better. (my first thought when i read this)
2. the girl is worried that the guy will regret not living it up while he's still young ie. sleeping around with whores, partying up a storm, drinking till beer comes out his nose etc, and end up resenting her after marriage and cheat on her. something like the seven year itch.
3. the girl is a slut and is giving herself an excuse to sleep around too.
4. she is just testing him. (girls do that all the time)
about #1, although it was the first thought that popped into my head, i think its a pretty ridiculous reason, because i mean, you can learn and know each other better by having sex together right? in what way would your whoring around make the relationship between you and your girlfriend any better? that is beyond me.
about #2, i guess it will most probably come true after many years of marriage. the girl is trying to give her guy a chance to experience life all he can before he settles down with her. its like how to say.. once he's sick of the partying lifestyle, he'll be faithful to her always. something like that. the girl's point is pretty understandable. she don't want no cheating bastard of a husband. but then again, it all depends on the marriage right? even if the husband is damn sian of his wild child lifestyle, but the marriage is stale and mundane, he will still stray. the main thing is to stay committed to keeping your marriage fulfilling!
#3 - ok lah, this is a bit far fetched. if the girl wants to go around sleeping with other people, i don't think she would be in a relationship in the first place? maybe #3 will be true for ang moh girls. i doubt singapore girls are that slutty. ok but what do i know right? but if that's the reason, i say dump her ass man. there's no way she's good enough for you.
#4 - as a certified woman myself, i can say this one is most probably true. i mean, admit lah you girls out there. since when have you not tried to test your men by suggesting titillating threesomes/mass orgies with other hot-blooded young men and women? that i know since i told jess once that if i became rich, i'd hire jenna jameson/taylor hayes/krista allen to fulfill his lifelong fantasy of screwing a porn star. he failed the test the minute he turned to me and said (with both hands clasped over his racing heart and a look that spelt eternal gratitude): really? thank YOU.
that's beside the point. we all know how girls think. (except the majority of guys out there) which girl in her right mind can stand the thought of her guy sleeping with other girls? and worse, suggest that he do that? that's just fucked up. but of course, if jess is really keen on that fantasy, i honestly do not mind helping him fulfill it. because firstly, its only a porn star. no-strings attached sex only right? sex-for-hire? secondly, i would never have the kind of money to hire a porn star. thirdly, why would a porn star even bother?
on a more serious note, sometimes i do feel like a relationship engulfs you in more ways than one. the best engulfment would of course be the delirious, contented feeling you have when you're in love. other ways include drifting away from friends, building your life around this other person, the occasional fights and misery that follows. am i too optimistic about this? am i ready for this kind of commitment? am i too young? will i regret this?
these questions pop up from time to time. everyone feels this way at one point and another right? right? to all you people out there constantly hounding me for wedding invites keep your fingers crossed ah! hahaha. we'll see what fate has in store for me.
in the meantime, i miss you. come back soon :)
p/s: i just added a counter! statistics look pretty pathetic now but well, if you could faithfully hit the refresh button ten times every visit, it would be very much appreciated haha. ok i'm serious. click away!
addicted @ 02:43 am ||
Tuesday, May 20, 2003
in contradiction to my previous entry, here are a few body parts i would die for. not literally, of course.
my dream ass
my dream pair of boobs
my dream everything
actually, i think the first girl up there is damn cute. she's also got a rockin' waist and tan. the boobs of the second girl looks fake though. and gisele? man, she's got everything.
addicted @ 02:48 am ||
Monday, May 19, 2003
to my horror, i have discovered that there is a wave of pro-anorexia websites flooding the internet, and these websites promote this disease as a lifestyle, rather than a problem. people living out this lifestyle are refered to as pro-anas.
the very definition of pro-anorexia is abit blurry, but there are two main reasons why anorexic girls decide to become pro-anas:
1. they do not belive that anorexia is a disease but a choice. they make the choice not to, or to purge. the only disease coming out from it is the depression they feel when they don't live up to what they envision beauty to be. in other words, it is a lifestyle by choice.
2. they recognize that they have a serious problem but they resist treatment. instead, they decide to reach out and bond with girls who also have the same love-hate relationship with food. they take comfort in knowing that they are not alone in this battle, and pro-anorexic websites have sort of become their own private sanctuary, where they can finally be "normal", just like other pro-anas.
again, i stress that i'm not anorexic ok. i actually found this really disturbing. i came across several pro-ana websites, and you wouldn't believe what goes on in there. girls exchange tips on how to fast to lose weight in the shortest time possible, dieting recipes where the total calories taken in a single day are less than 400 (when the recommended and healthy amount for a woman is 2000), "safe foods" which are actually food that enables you to throw up more easily, "negative calorie foods" for which the body uses up more calories digesting than the amount of calories in the food themselves.
other tips offered:
- drink water half an hour before you eat, and take a sip every few bites as well - drink enough, but not too much water, or other fluids while you eat. it helps food come up easier!
- stick two or three fingers (or a toothbrush works if you get it right) down your throat as far as possible, move them around a bit. DO NOT pull out as soon as you start to gag, leave them there until your body won't let you any longer, otherwise you'll only gag and then it gets harder every try!
- purge ASAP after eating. after an hour, and that's the upper limit, don't even bother, you have already absorbed the calories.
- exchange a bad habit for a good one - for instance, my boyfriend exchanged smoking for jogging every morning. This may be hard, but VERY rewarding if you can do it! exchange eating for yoga, or meditation, or reading more.
- think higher of yourself! you're too good to put THAT in your body!
- buy thin clothes, keep them hanging in your closet next to your regular clothes and torture yourself over the fact you can't get into them!
- eat vicariously. watch other people eat, and feel superior! you don't need that food. they are feeding their fat bodies and they're getting fatter! you can see them growing! how repulsive.
these girls then congratulate and encourage each other whenever they lost any weight successfully. they even put up trigger pictures - pictures of beautiful, shapely models in order to trigger the guilt and motivation in themselves to look just like that. *in dean cain tone* unbelievable? believe it.
i know this is a very disturbing trend, and medical authorities are hoping to put a stop to these websites by shutting them down or supervising them. i have mixed feelings about this issue because, quite a few of these websites do put up disclaimers warning recovering anorexics to stay away, because they can easily slip back into their old ways. to put an end to this so-called "support system" of theirs can be considered as irresponsible, because the media and society have a part to play in moulding their perception of what is considered as beautiful. society has made them the way they are, and now instead of looking deeper into the problem, we just shut them down? its escapism. we only concentrate on the fact that its wrong and they shouldn't be doing this. some pro-anas have also recovered because of these support sites, as absurd as that may sound. alot of people go on about how anorexia is slow suicide, why would anyone want to do this to their bodies? if you think about it, isn't there as many people, or even more, smoking packs of cigarettes everyday, drinking by the bottle and getting stoned on drugs?
on the other hand, of course these sites should not be promoted, for obvious reasons. we should love our bodies, but sometimes its hard to do. i haven't seen a single girl without a gripe about her own body, but it would take serious discipline to embark on a full-fledged battle with your own body and the food you eat. i don't know what i'm getting at here, but thought i should just share this with everyone.
these pics will probably make you change your mind about dieting, if you haven't already:
addicted @08:46 pm ||
Sunday, May 18, 2003
the weather nowadays is a major bitch man. it was so hot today you could fry an egg on jess's bald head. one thing i hate after rainy days are days like these - hot and breezeless. i don't mind sunny days of course, its just the lack of wind. can't we have normal weather for once?
one thing about my sweat glands, i think they are primarily situated under my palms, feet and armpits. so imagine my discomfort at sweat literally dripping down from the aforementioned body parts *eww* its really weird cos i don't sweat anywhere else, not on my forehead, arms, or back. except on those days when i do vigorous exercise, which is obviously, few and in between.
i swear my feet and palms are pruney from all that sweating. and you know some people, when you tell them that you sweated alot today, and they go, "only animals sweat. human beings perspire." oh piss off. seriously, who gives a shit?
its no secret to most friends who know me that i've got really sweaty palms. on bad days, drops of sweat would trickle from my palms down to my elbows. sweaty feet is worse because its so difficult to find proper sandals or slippers. if the material's not right, i can't even walk properly man. ugh! that's why hot days are such a pain in the ass.
on another note, i watched the matrix reloaded at plaza singapura just now with jess, desmond, dawn, boon and gek puay. triple date! haha. we were quite up front, and it kinda gave me a headache. but in a nutshell, the show is pretty good. but as i say, sequels never really live up to the original. only in some movies. can't remember which but if you wanna know, go watch scream 2. some film students in the show discussed this topic. they added some romance in this sequel but it didn't come across as explosive or what. i swear they censored the sex scene (damn!) i would love to marry keanu reeves one day but apparently his girlfriend died in an accident because of the supposed matrix curse, so i wouldn't wanna take any chances ya know? hehe.
the show was abit cheem, i didn't get the full picture at some parts. trinity is damn cool lah! can't stand it. wish i could kick ass like her some day. neo sacrificed zion to save trinity, i thought that was so sweet but not something THE ONE should have done. i asked jess if he would save me and he said yes, so i guess that's the power of love. harhar.
i think the show comes across as stuffy because of the characters' lack of facial expressions. its like, how the hell do they keep their cool when bombs are blasting, bullets are showering and cars are crashing and colliding all over the place? and i thought the part where the cake made the lady at the restaurant orgasm was damn amusing. confectioneries could make a fortune from selling cakes like that. neo being able to fly was abit cheesy though. but a pretty good action show overall.
after the show me and jess went for supper at stamford road coffee shop. i think that's what it was called, near the national library. when we got down the car, we heard the song standing still by jewel coming from this place called the fat frog cafe (?) near the car park. but when we went to check it out, it was actually a live band! and the girl sang so damn well! i was totally bowled over, i really thought it was a jewel cd they were playing. i wish i could sing like that. then everyone will fall in love with me and i will finally live up to my name *dreams*
addicted @ 03:10 am ||
Friday, May 16, 2003
i was perusing through the web and i chanced upon this site which had some burning questions which i would love to hear answers of. go on, give them a shot.
- why aren't safety pins as safe as they say they are?
- if you were a genie and a person asked for this wish, "I wish you would not grant me this wish" what would you do?
- how come you pay an extra 25 cents to get something put on your hamburger but they don't take off the price if you get something taken off?
- if you went back in time and killed your mother would you disappear the moment you killed her?
- just what was the "Baby On Board" sign for? did it help us decide which car not to hit in case of an accident?
- why does a round pizza come in a square box?
- why does "lake" come first (Lake Michigan) and "river" come second (Mississippi River)?
- why are you in a movie, but you're on TV?
- is there anything easier done than said?
- why do the numbers on the phone go one way, but the numbers on the calculator go the other way?
- what if you're in hell, and you're mad at someone, where do you tell them to go?
- why is the name of the phobia for the fear of long words Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia?
- why are rubber duckies yellow when most real ducks aren't?
- how fast do hotcakes sell?
ok that's enough brain-wrecking questions for today. there are actually so many more out there! til next time.
addicted @ 06:36 pm ||
Thursday, May 15, 2003
i just watched american idol and kimberley locke was sent home a-packing tonight. and i'm so honoured because clay and justin sang my song haha. what song? unchained melody duh!
anyway, i love love love reunited by peaches & herb. i'm so psyched to go sing overnight karaoke now! no joking and all serious. to my friends out there: what say you?
i was a fool to ever leave your side
me minus you is such a lonely ride
the breakup we had has made me lonesome and sad
i realize i love you cos i want you bad hey hey
i spent the evening with the radio
regret the moment that i let you go
our quarrel was such a way of learning so much
i know now that i love you
cos i need your touch hey hey
reunited and it feels so good
reunited cos we understood
there's one perfect fit
and sugar, this one is it
we both are so excited
cos we're reunited hey hey
but don't think i can sing much cos my cough is still pretty bad. think i have a throat infection too cos there's blood in my phlegm. HELP!
addicted @ 09:39 pm ||
i think my appetite is really shrinking nowadays.
what i ate today:
- half a fan choy
- 4 siewmais
- half a packet of chicken cutlet rice
i feel like vomiting already. i'm really really full. looking at the word vomit is making me nauseous. thinking of vomit makes me queasy *gag*
contrary to popular belief, i am not anorexic. when i'm hungry i feel like eating everything. but once i start eating, i get full really quick. then i can't eat anymore. it has been a long long time since i finished everything on my plate. i'm beginning to feel really guilty about food wastage.
jess claims its psychological. like, i kind of psycho myself into thinking that whatever's on my plate is more than what i can eat, so i always feel full before i finish. i think my main problem is laziness. i'm just too lazy to go prepare or get food to eat. i will only eat if its convenient, like if someone if buying food anyway or if i actually pass by a food stall. i only eat when i'm hungry and i don't snack. i am also a very very fussy eater.
think i'm getting gastric problems. yesterday i watched jacky wu and there were five girls competing who could eat the most cakes in an hour. the winner actually ate 27 plates. i almost puked watching the show.
is there something wrong with me??
addicted @ 12:13 am ||
Tuesday, May 13, 2003
i've decided to add a new segment to my blog. (what, like this is a game show or something??)
jess's mom has been giving me her new idea and women's weekly magazines and there are chockloads of interesting stuff in there. there's this section where readers send in their supershort funny letters about the little kids and men in their lives.
[children's world]
i knew i was getting on in years when my grandson said: "granny, you have big muscles - but shouldn't they be on the top of your arms?"
- b. parker, rosewood, SA.
[mere male]
i came home from work to find men's underwear scattered throughout the dishwasher. when i questioned my MM son, he said he'd needed some clean jocks and socks but didn't know how to use the washing machine - so he'd put them in with the dishes instead.
- c. roach, south lake, WA.
addicted @ 06:04 pm ||
freddie prinze jr is a riot. he's so adorable :) and damn funny lah huh! but his hair..? it's been ages since i laughed so much for friends. for awhile i thought it was getting a little stale. for your information, i've been watching the show since the very first season (sadly, not since the very first episode), and i must admit it was much funnier last time. i remember my very first episode was the one with the fake monica, ever since then i've been stocking up on friends paraphernalia. books, organizers etc heh.
caught the season finale of survivor after that. i haven't watched a single episode of the amazon, only the trailers on tv. but i think heidi is really pretty. god, please make me a blonde in my next life.
addicted @ 01:07 am ||
Monday, May 12, 2003
this morning i came down with a fever of 38 degrees. jess's family insisted i go see a doctor and drove me to tan tock seng hospital! i was abit apprehensive cos i didn't know what to expect.. what if i caught sars there??
i was feeling pretty under the weather when we got there, plus it was 4 pm and i had not eaten a single thing all day. me and jess were promptly masked and bombarded with the usual questions: have you been to any sars-related countries/clinics/wholesale centre etc etc. this was all conducted in this huge holding area with tents and chairs outside the old A&E unit of the hospital.
i then had my blood pressure and x-ray taken and had to describe my symptoms to the doctors. i didn't have to wait long, except the last part after my x-ray was taken. but while waiting, a female staff member came up to each of us personally and offered us free drinks and bread. i must say that i was really impressed with the efficiency of the staff. it turned out that i had the common flu and was prescribed a hell lot of medicine. i was also to contact them should i develop another fever or if i don't recover within 3 days.
there were so many people there today and it got me thinking.. the staff have to do this every single day till goodness knows when. we read in the papers daily that we should extend our gratitude to all the medical staff for their dedication to combat sars, but how many of us honestly (you and me) have felt the need to do this? well, today i've seen the work they have to face every day, and so, a BIG SHOUT OUT to them! thank you :)P>
this may sound cheesy and all, but i think they really deserve a pat on the back. they were friendly and efficient and were attentive to the patients' needs. the best thing was, i only paid $2 for my medicine haha.
they mentioned that my blood pressure was on the low side. wah and for a moment i freaked out about getting sars. i had a flashback of all the people i had contact with today; if i infected any of them i'd be guilty for life. each time i cough, the phlegm would come all the way from my chest and it really hurts. if i was working or schooling, the doctor would have given me 3 days MC!
you know the guy "wei xiao bao"? its on ch U at 9 pm on weekdays, and jordan chan used to play the same guy some time ago? i hate him! he has like what, 10 wives?? i really don't see how any woman can tolerate having 1/10 of the attention her husband can give. that's ancient china for you. ugh ugh ugh!
addicted @ 09:27 pm ||
i'm supposed to be in bed now (under strict orders) because i'm really sick and all, but i couldn't resist taking this survey from valerie haha. since i haven't posted one before, here goes:
have you ever:
- been so drunk you blacked out? no. at worst i got high and puked twice. i've never been very inclined to the taste of alcohol.
- missed school cos it was raining? lots of times. the weather is just too good to get out of bed for.
- put a body part on fire just for amusement? only a few strands of hair which i plucked out haha. did you know that a strand of hair is stronger than a strand of steel of the same dimensions?
- got hurt emotionally? this sounds like a rhetorical question. did i use the word right? yeah of course i've been hurt.
- kept a secret from everyone? duh.
- had an imaginary friend? no. there wasn't anyone in particular. i talk to myself mostly.
- cried during a movie? countless movies! the movie for which i cried the most was i am sam. i cried so much that i puked out my sushi dinner afterwards.
- had a crush on a teacher? no way.
- thought an animated character was hot? cartoons nowadays have some hot ass mamas man. let me see.. there's jessica rabbit, the sailor moon girls, lara croft in the video game.. and don't even get me started on the chicks from x-men. ok i'd better stop heh.
- had a new kids on the block tape? nope. but we used to play a medley of their songs in band.
- been on stage? countless times in primary school for awards and trophies. but almost none for academic achievements in sec sch and jc hehe. only band performances and some skits.
- cut your hair? you must be kidding. of course!
favourites
- shampoo: vidal sassoon. but i'm always using pantene.
- soap: dettol soap. it smells so nice!
- hair colour: i love blonde hair on caucasians. but for asians, probably a luxurious brown color or a deep red.
- day/night: night. it's too hot in the day!
- summer/winter: summer. tanning on the beach!
- satin/lace: satin. lace itches. satin is so soft and cooling.
- cartoon characters: courage the cowardly dog, spongebob squarepants, flounder from the little mermaid, pumbaa from the lion king.
- food: waffles with maple syrup and melted butter, hawaiian baked pasta from nydc, beef kwayteow, you tiao.. this could go on forever.
- fave advert: don't know if you all remember this, but there's this ad long ago for this bank. there's a guy who has a new neighbour who comes over and introduces herself as sara (?) and they start dating. i vaguely remember them getting married, cruising in a yacht and also lighting up their cosy little house which had lights strung all over. the guy pays for all these easily by signing the bank statement. thought it was so sweet :) i love the house!
- fave movie: wow this is a tough one. my best friend's wedding cos i love julia roberts. the beach. romeo and juliet. the matrix. lord of the rings cos the scenery was amazing. i can, once again, go on forever.
- fave ice cream: swensens' coit tower.
- fave subject: maths. heh. my tutor would be so proud.
- fave 'normal' drink: what does that mean? i suppose bundaberg's root beer is pretty normal.
- fave persons to talk to online: i'm perpetually on invisible mode on icq, so i chat very little nowadays. i would say ma, sharie and chong. and jess of course :)
right now
- wearing: huge acs(i) waterpolo tour 1999 tshirt from jess and old rgs shorts
- hair is: tied up in a high ponytail
- feeling: flu-ish
- eating: honey and lemon flavoured strepsils
- drinking: nothing
- thinking about: whether i have a fever. going to the bank tomorrow to pay my brother's school fees. jess.
- listening to: the whirring of the ceiling fan
- talking to: noone
in the last 24 hours..
- cried? nope
- worn a skirt? yes
- met someone new? did not
- cleaned your room? my room is so neat, there's no need to!
- done laundry? nope but my mom is starting work soon so will probably have to help out with the laundry, drats!
- drove a car? the itch to learn driving hasn't kicked in yet. i think i'm one of the last few who hasn't even taken basic theory.
do you believe in:
- yourself? absolutely. it's the least you can do keep yourself motivated for whatever.
- your friends? yes. they're your rocks. after your family of course.
- santa claus? in the darkest corner of my mind.. probably yes. but singapore houses have no chimneys! and we don't even have snow.
- the tooth fairy? no way. i tried putting my tooth under my pillow once and nothing happened. that was a long time ago though!
- destiny/fate? absolutely
- ghosts? yes. but i hope i never ever see one.
- UFOs? a little skeptical but it is pretty intriguing.
friends and life
- do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? a boyfriend
- like anyone? my boyfriend?
- who's the loudest? felicia haha. but i get hushed by ma and sha pretty often. why??
- who's the shyest? my friends are all very not shy and dare i say it - thick-skinned haha. noone in particular. sometimes i tend to take awhile to warm up to new people.
- who's the weirdest? i can't think for this one. i suddenly have a piercing headache! ok, i guess they all have their little quirks here and there.
- who do you go to for advice? my parents for the big issues like education. relationship-wise, i would say sharie and ma. and girlfriends who can understand what i'm going through. jess is no good at giving advice because he always says its up to me and he'll support me at whatever decision i make.
- who do you cry to? jess, my late dog and sadly, myself most of the time.
- when did you cry the most? wow, i have no answers for this question.
- what's the best feeling in the world? being in love and hearing the one you care about tell you how much they appreciate you. laughing till you cry. knowing there's someone who's always thinking of you and will stand by you no matter what happens. that's a lot of feelings oops.
- worst feeling? putting on a fake smile when you've been crying the night before. being taken for granted. being ignored. knowing you hurt someone who cares about you. having cramps! is that counted?
ok i thought that would never end. gosh i actually took more than an hour to do this. the panadol extra is kicking in and making me drowsy. time for bed! good night :)
addicted @ 02:17 am ||
Sunday, May 11, 2003
i haven't wished my mom happy mother's day yet. waiting for my brother to come home - he went to buy his contact lenses and a rose for my grandma hehe. we're hopping over next door to visit her later. giving her a pair of scholl slippers, very comfy, very good for old people.
after that, we're going over to my aunt's house in bishan for some mini-celebration for all the mothers, including my other grandmother. there'll be a feast i bet. but i'd rather go to my uncle's house in serangoon cos there'll be karaoke! hehe.
wah i'm having a terrible sore throat! and cough and runny nose. i dreamt that my temperature was 38.6 degrees. in the dream was this cute baby who was like a few months old and could talk. it's a devil! cos it tricked me into eating its shit. i was so pissed i didn't know what to do and i woke up. do i still want to be a mother?
been doing this crossword puzzle all day. australia's biggest weekly crossword. pretty demoralising.
i'm sick of this layout already!
addicted @ 01:53 pm ||
Friday, May 9, 2003
have you ever looked at someone and seen the background behind them kind of dissolve? it was as though i was remembering her rather than getting to know her. we'd be talking about something, and in my head i'd be thinking, "oh, so it was you!" there was this strong sense of having known her before; it was a strange, wonderful feeling.
addicted @ 08:10 pm ||
Thursday, May 8, 2003
- i really liked the bee gees theme on american idol tonight. loved the medley, loved clay! but he doesn't have the superstar charisma. he looks more a geek than a star. shall dig up my mom's bee gees greatest hits for a listen.
- i had the most horrible cramps today, they left me doubled up in pain all day. i hate having my period! but at least they are regular. i really must remember to take my evening primrose oil capsules!
- i'm having a sore throat. all jess's fault!
- i hate that commercial that jamie yeo is in. the one advertising the aloe vera drink. she can't dance for nuts. but the drink is pretty good, tastes like qoo with nata de coco.
- i like the commercial with fiona xie for that MMS phone. i think her "dad" is so sweet! and the dress she wore was so gorgeous!
- freddie prinze will be on the next episode of friends *drools* but what is up with his hair?
addicted @ 11:17 pm ||
i was watching the bachelor just now, and gwen is such a sweetheart :) what can i say? i think aaron made a big mistake. she's a doll. its pretty obvious she still has a soft spot for aaron. i guess it just proves that men are pretty thick in the head and sometimes, you just have to tell them straight that you want them.
we'll have to keep that in mind, ladies.
addicted @ 03:23 am ||
Tuesday, May 6, 2003
many people think my favourite season is summer, but it isn't.
it's actually fall.
imagine sitting under this tree..
taking in the scenery from this bench..
walking down this road hand in hand with your loved one..
this is exactly how i imagine autumn to be..
addicted @ 03:17 am ||
Monday, May 5, 2003
spent the past few days with jess :)
i miss..
seeing you falling asleep on my bed
cuddling up to you at the movies
ice cream at the 7-11 near my house
watching you train at acjc
katong laksa and haagen dazs at holland village
beef kwayteow at geylang
hearing you say i'm beautiful and that you love my hair
seeing you walk ma's dog ricky
ice cream at the mama shop near your house
night cycling to farrer park
freezing together under the aircon in your house
duck noodles and jacky wu shows in your room
seeing you look so handsome in your army uniform
i just miss you..
addicted @ 01:20 am ||
i'm having the world's biggest headache now. must be the ungratifying 3 hour nap i had just now. i just watched jerry maguire. bet you thought i was gonna say x-men right? got you there.
i love jerry maguire. not because it is a great show (it is!). but because something really memorable and unbearably sweet happened the last time i watched it on tv *gush* its kinda embarassing to air it here, so just let me revel in my own private memory ok? (ma probably knows this though..)
addicted @ 12:48 am ||
Friday, May 2, 2003
every morning for the past few days without fail, my neighbor downstairs has been drilling and hammering away renovating their freakin' house.
they're as punctual as an alarm clock, 09:45 am on the dot, they'll start all their construction nonsense. which explains why the hell i'm up so early.
that's not the point okay. they've been renovating their house since like what, before my A levels? every single day of my study break at home, i would hear all this shit. my mom even confronted them, they clearly weren't complying with the HDB renovation rules they pasted on their door. construction can only take place between a certain period, but after their deadline they continued drilling away. all renovation can only take place between 8 am to 5 pm. but sometimes at like, 7 pm they are still drilling away. one morning i actually woke up to my bed shaking cos they were using some powerful turbo drill below me.
i am just about to explode right now. sometimes i'd be so frustrated i'd scream out my window SHUT UP!!!!! fuck you neighbor-with-no-consideration! go to hell! i hope your house collapses on you! i hope your contractor cheats your money! just fucking move out of our block lah ok?? make your house so nice for what?
SHUT THE FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
addicted @ 10:41 am ||
i watched x-men 2 with jess today :) ok wait, i think its actually called X2.
i would give it an 8 out of 10. it has left me pondering throughout the 2 full hours of the movie this question that i could never fully answer:
whose powers would i like to possess, out of all the characters in x-men?
me and jess have thought about this question long and hard, changing our answers countless times and weighing all the possible options.. i think basically i would like the powers of:
professor x
he is the world's most powerful telepath. i used to want to have jean grey's powers of telepathy and telekinesis, but since she's second to professor x, of course i'd prefer him right! the mind is such a complicated thing, and it would be really amazing to be able to read and control someone's mind.
mystique
metamorphosis would give you a definite edge when you're attempting to say, take someone else's driving test or cheat someone of their money. she can even imitate voices and her fingerprints and irises are 100% identical to the original. one bad thing: her blue scales? overkill.
nightcrawler
you must be kidding if you don't agree with this choice. nightcrawler's a teleporter and he can teleport himself to anywhere in a flash! imagine all the bus fares you can save! no more breaking of curfews. hell, you can even teleport yourself for a sneaky night out after everyone's gone to bed!
storm
okay this is not that high up on my priority list. to control the weather would be ultra cool. you can will the sun to shine when you want a tan! and finally, singapore will be able to experience the four seasons. jess is convinced that i'd die to have storm's powers, so that i can create rainbows and snow to play in. he's almost right haha.
major gripes about the movie:
- where's my sexy gambler gambit? he'd better appear in the next x-men movie. the perfect guy to play him would be stephen dorff of blade fame. don't you girls agree?
- i still think rogue is sorely miscast. anna paquin is too tame to be rogue! isn't rogue supposed to be tough and sassy? i feel sad for rogue though. she can never have a serious relationship or ever have kids.
- is beast ever going to appear? that would be a sight. i think they should get the rock to play him haha.
- famke janssen looks a little old to play jean grey. she looks more like cyclops' older sister.
- kelly hu should have a permanent role. she's too hot to leave out!
practically made for their roles:
- professor x
- wolverine
- cyclops
i can't wait for the matrix reloaded to open! keanu reeves.. *drool*
addicted @ 02:15 am ||
Thursday, May 1, 2003
there he is, sleeping like a baby on my bed *awww* poor boy's tired out from field camp. sweet dreams love :)
i've been watching a lot of tv lately, especially cartoons. cartoons are great. they're mindlessly funny. i only watch two cartoon channels - cartoon network and nickelodeon. i never used to be a fan of nick, i couldn't believe it when this girl sitting behind me during assembly one morning said that nickelodeon cartoons are way better than cartoon network's. but once i started watching, i was hooked man. and nicktoons are really much better! here's a rundown on my fave cartoons.
on nickelodeon:
1. hey arnold!
i love this! its like a cartoon version of aesop's fables. there's a moral to every story (i think). my fave character is helga. she just cracks me up, a major bitch i tell you.
2. the wild thornberrys
this isn't very funny but the visuals are pretty cool for a cartoon. i can't stand elisa, she's such a geek! i like the way debbie talks and i really like nigel, cos his nose is so big.
3. rugrats
when i first started watching nicktoons, i didn't like this at all. i think its just the way the cartoon was drawn. i like tommy alot, he's so adorable! wait i like dil better. chucky looks like albert einstein and i don't like the twins - they're too forgettable! by the way, the same person voices the twins and helga from hey arnold! ok, not like you care, right?
4. spongebob squarepants
ok this is hilarious. its full of rubbish and puns i just can't stomach. spongebob is such a dork! but he's so cute!
5. the angry beavers
i never really manage to catch this but i really laugh like crazy when i do. its damn lame.
on cartoon network:
1. dexter's laboratory
i think i have almost watched every single episode of this. dexter's voice just cracks me up.
2. johnny bravo
a self-obsessed himbo who can never get a girl? 'nuff said.
3. courage the cowardly dog
i think all dogs have something to learn from courage. he's totally devoted to his owner and will never let his fear stop him from saving muriel from alien computers, duck gods and the like.
i know i'm 19 years old, but cartoons.. are good.
addicted @ 03:26 am ||