and if you need a reason why* 1927h. 310304.
alot of things have been happening. eweek came and went. ahh i miss it. no, not the online learning nor the assignments. just what happened the past few days. ahh, it's good to reminisce :D
the hem's seriously loose. really. we're broken up. conflicts here and there. everyone's okay with me, but not with someone else in the group. ahh okay i don't know what to say. shall go see what i can do. things will get sorted out soon, eventually. hopefully. InsyaAllah.
dang tonsilitis. i've been coughing and wheezing like mad. and sneezing too. and my pellet has been bleeding. like it bled the past two nights, and it bled just now during lunch. for no apparent reason. nar said there's an ingrown tooth, but how can that be. i'm hoping not anyway, my teeth are hopefully fine except the gap in my two front teeth - -
oh and i'm losing my appetite. i don't feel as hungry as i normally do. and i eat just to satisfy the gastric juices in my stomache and to give the digestive juices and whatnot something to do. oh and one more thing. seems that whenever i eat, i'll get a horrible tummy ache. it's been like that for the past few days. horrible. plus the fact that i'm terribly sick. i look into the mirror and i see a zombie with very bad eyebags. friends, even cikgu say i look pucat (pale). i don't see it though. everyone seems to care. maybe something bad's gonn happen to me. uhohnono =S and that night i talked to nar and fanis like someone who was gonn die soon. eep. i told mum i was sick, and guess what she did? reprimand me for getting myself sick. excuse me, but *$()$(%&*)$*!)*#*#*$& geez!
mmmkay nevermind. hohum. the term's starting off rather well i'd say. didn't flunk any of the tests that we got back yey alhamdulillah :D woohoo. physics is another story altogether, i know i'm gonn flunk it anyway. mrs ho said our class did it badly. i suppose if noone else fails, i will (: hoho. nevermind. first test. shall buck up. and will buck up in time for EOI. it's on a saturdayyyy pfft =/
ho anyway just now i had a terrible tummy ache again. expected, cos i just had lunch in the school canteen. well yeah i was at toa payoh int at that time, and i really needed the toilet. but all the cubicles ran out of toilet paper. all! sheesh. yeah all but the last one at the very end -_- pathetic. ew. shan't ever visit that toilet. the only thing good about it is the abundance of mirrors ^^ reflection refraction wooyea. (eep whym i speaking physics)
okay enough. time for this. stolen off kak arina's lj.
10 important things inside your backpack/schoolbag/purse/pouch:
1. notebook(s)
2. green folder + worksheets for subjects of the day
3. contacts casing + solution
4. dove deodorant
5. monayy
6. keys
7. cards wooyea cards!
8. nametag
9. lip balm/gloss
10. handphone lol
9 things that you really want right now:
1. medicine
2. wardrobe revamp
3. new phone
4. massage ahhhhh
5. permanent supply of contacts
6. braces so the gap can be corrected -_-
7. an elder sibling
8. hugs
9. him
8 of your favourite foods:
1. mum's spicy dishes :9
2. kaly's mum's cooking
3. roti pizza. ahh pizza.
4. murtabak
5. prataaaa!
6. brownies
7. honeydew chicken noodles
8. my cookies d:
7 of your closest friends (not in order):
1. ely
2. fanis
3. kaly
4. nar
5. nurul
6. robiah
7. (: (: (:
6 of your fave movies:
1. The Butterfly Effect
2. Lord of The Rings I II III
3. Serendipity
4. Harry Potter
5. Finding Neeemoooo
6. emmmm.
5 things in your room :
1. laptop
2. bookshelves
3. my attempt at tagging (on the ceiling)
4. bed zzz
5. portrait of me at pfive
4 things you ate/drank today:
1. pineapple (of which noo and fanis disapproved)
2. iced milo
3. rice
4. ice cream <3
3 things you couldn't live without:
1. faith
2. friends
3. love
2 things you usually read:
1. smses, over and over again
2. papers
1 person you can't forget:
1. Allah
wooyea. done! hehe.
oh dad's birthday today HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAAAAD. 46th right? should be. haha. okay i'm gonn get fat. ter.
hono. dad's birthday means it's march 31st. which means. april tmrw. sad. brr.
you turned my life around* 1952h. 220304.
hee. what a great difference from last night. i'm a much happier person now, thank God Almighty (: funny how things can make a 180deg turn in a matter of hours.
i know i matter - and that's all that really matters now.
for all the times you stood by me -
imissyou and it's tearing me apart -
remember when we were still small and young ickle fiveyearolds?
hee all this doesn't make much sense does it. not from the third eye anyway (: i feel so warm and fuzzy.
and baby, i love you. smile yeah, (cos when you smile my face glows).
okay. enough. i don't wish to repulse anyone. hee <3
baby it would take away everything good in my life* 2050h. 210304.
well here's a quick one.
firstly IMSODAMNITSTRESSED. augh. i feel like a rotten banana. or something worse than that. i duno why or how but yes on the way back from bahas i suddenly sunk into this mentality that life is gonn be back to normal verily soon and i'm not prepared for it. and so i start to run things thru my (already confused) mind. and suddenly (wham) i find myself in this horrible horrible state. THISISSONOTME. augh.
elearning. how fun. i don't even have microsoft office, shixnit. that's partly what got me all worked up. plus, talking to dad didn't quite help - it got me even more agitated. in his sleepy mode, he insisted that he already installed office (with the exception of ppt) but who knows the comp better? me right, since i use it almost all the time. but i went to check anyway, and the only part of office i see there is publisherNINETYSEVEN which is more REDUNDANT than OUTDATED. in the first place i don't need publisher for elearning. wargh actually why did this laptop have to crash and bring along with it all my files and drives and OFFICE. i'm going crazy.
augh. i loathe it when life gets to the pits. everything suddenly comes down crashing and you start crying for no apparent reason cos you can't figure out what exactly is wrong. or something.
and you know what? it's happening again. this time involving a different party, but whattheheck. it's happening again. and i hate it. i thought you trusted me, i thought we were good friends (we are, i hope), so why didn't you tell me. fine, so sometimes i hide things from you too, but i end up pouring them out to you anyway sooner or later cos i'd feel mean if i didn't. so why can't you do the same. why can't you let me have a say in this. why? augh. i can't believe this. i can't believe you.
i just don't comprehend the way things are sometimes. it sucks when life's like this and there's nothing around you to suck the marrow out of life. but ah well on a brighter note, nurul was discharged yesterday. Alhamdulillah.
i think i need some sleep. shall go figure out how i'm gonn find my way out of this pithole. first i'll have to let dad agree to me going over to fanis' to do elearning. if he doesn't, i think i'm gonn be more stressed than ever. ever ever. augh. anyway something funny happened at bahas just now. we (me+kaly+ely+elyna) kept bumping into fanis' fam (without fanis) hohoho i think it was so funnily weird. like first at zamzam then at golden landmark, followed by banquet and then at bugis mrt. lols like stalker d:
okay i'm gonn give myself some piece of mind. OHNOOOFRENCHTOMORROW.
maybe someone else is standing there beside you* 0727h. 200304.
morning (: heheh i feel good! cos i woke up at six, didn't feel like going back to bed so i took a bath, did subuh, microwaved rotijohn and springrolls, ate a few for breakfast, made milk tea, and tadah! i'm here :D heheh. proud of myself, yes i am. hoho. felt like being a nice daughter laaa, afterall it's my mum's birthday today (:
anyway. congratulate me. i didn't even realise my brother wasn't at home at all last night. as in he didn't come home with my parents and sisters. see i'm too good a sister to realise (: heck, it's only my bro. only. yeah only. heee. only when i heard his voice over the phone just now, did i figure that he had stayed over at the chalet with my aunt and uncle. whee i rock^^ (pfft it's not my fault that i have the worst bro you could ever imagine :D)
i duno what else i'll do today, besides jepool. hmmm. i'll mug abit i suppose. hey it's weird - there's no other homework besides stuff for elearning haha. i think. other than those that were already due earlier this week ah. whoa. okay what whoa. nevermind.
it's coming to the end of the hols already! ='[saaaad. thank goodness we still have one more week man, cos i'm still in the holiday mode/mood. mwahahha. okay so elearning won't be all that fun, but hey it's still something, no? ah well.
alright i'm running out of things to blog. haiiiya i feel like eating prata. prata prata come to mama. ohwell. IHATELAGGINGCOMPUTERS jokdjkshrohfaufhfshakdakn.
if you ever go* 2206h. 190304.
baaaack!
ee. that sounded gay. gay as in gay gay i'm happy today ooh gay. gay! lols. anyhow yesssa 2d1n angklung camp was uh rather productive. concert early may at sentosa so come (: heehee. thing is, it's tentatively on a sunday. which means i'll have to skip madrasah = how irritatingly pfft. hahaha. really? hoho.
anyhow. lina's birthday today. and mum's tmrw. haha i didn't get neither of them anything woo i'm so smart, smart as can be. ney, but i already bought all the march babies that nutella cake the other day so (: i'll try to uh pull that guilty look off my face. hee.
i hope nurul gets well soon (: i know everyone here misses her to bits and pieces of yummy noofoo :9 like every single thing reminds us of her. haiiyahh things are just different without her presence la - her being so nonchalant in every single doing, so full of crap.. haha. God bless you noo <3
swimming tmrw! ahhh finally. what bliss (: (although i still want to go for sajak, but oh well). hmm after which would be family chalet. younger cousins i love <3
if i had to live without you
what kind of life would that be
yeah and just where are you? you don't know what it feels like do you. nevermind. sunday's coming.
for all my life* 1404h. 170304.
hello (: ohwell just felt like sneaking in another entry. hohum so dang siannn haiyah.
took a nap just now. it didn't quite last long - about an hour only. and you know why? cos everyone around me was being so noisy. especially the grass cutters. i'm still freaking annoyed at them. okay fine, so i live at the second floor and so my flat is next to this useless garden. but so what! they don't have to come back and work on the same patch of land over and over and over again man. afterall, the garden is considerably big what. o.O ee buzz off. and i'm sure you know how it is when you're sleeping and every slight noise no matter how er small, seems louder than it really is cos it's like magnified or something. haiiiiyah.
i'm still quite hungry errggg i feel like a hippo. aight nevermind. my bro's such a retard. i hate his retardisms man. okay so i'm (notyet) fifteen and i'm the eldest and so i'm not supposed to be whining about my stupid ickle pfour brother. but heck. come trade places with me and i guarantee you'll be running to me for your own life back soon. it's that bad, trust me. he's just such a damn pain in the neck. grrrr. he doesn't deserve those nice features of his. and he knows he's hot (or whatever) that's partly why his ego is so freaking inflatable and he thinks he's so damn great. yeh anyway he's aiming for vs. ah yeah good for you, you anti rafflesian monster. go there and come out the typical victorian mat! sheesh. no offence but yes. he has the comings of most victorians i know. mat hair, mat style, behaviour, this and that. and what's the bet that he's going to get himself a serious girlfriend the moment he steps into secondary school. sheesh kebab. you retarded monster you.
okay so i just wasted one whole big chunk of space on that useless humbug. nevermind.
from the heineken ad. heineken right?* 1041h. 170304.
imagine me and you, i do
i think about you day and night
it's only right
to think about the girl you love
and hold her tight
so happy together
if i should call you up
invest a dime
and you say you belong to me
and ease my mind
imagine how the world could be
so very fine
so happy together
i can't see me loving nobody but you
for all my life
when you're with me baby the skies
will be blue
for all my life
me and you and you and me
no matter how they toss the dice
it had to be
the only one for me is you
and you for me
so happy together
---
(:
i feel like going swimming. heck yeah i should. still wondering if i should go for a haircut or just keep it long. ohwell. i'm hungry. and i want that esprit tote. heck it's only nine bucks.
congratulate me. i left my emath text in sch. nevermind shall get it tmrw. remember liy, remember! brrr. and i'd better get chem and physics texts soon too. someone's just being so very hopeless. appreciative, my foot! humbug.
i can't see me loving nobody but you* 2317h. 160304.
home! sweet home... not. woo. past uh four nights at taffs' have been great fun, thanks muchos :D heheh not bad seh. two movies in five days woo go me! runaway jury on friday night (courtesy to taffs) and butterfly effect just now with robs and fanis. ehehh.
i have a problem. thing is, i don't know what it is. (now is that not another problem all together?) hee. i rock. aku masih batu. brrr. but anyway, yes i have a problem (and i don't know what). ya Allah. i'm going in circles. see, that's already yet another problem. oh dang someone help! problems. rawr. like one moment i'm hyper, another moment i'm quiet like no other, and the next i'll be feeling the pits. just ask taffs. aaaargh. it's happened more than once and for sure it's gonn happen again. and again and again and again. nothing i can do, is there?
i'm broke. this entry is all disjointed. hah. sunday rocked my socks. eh no i wasn't wearing any. but that's besides the point. i wanna relive sunday. if i could, i would. it didn't end quite perfectly but that doesn't matter. the gist was still there. and dang i miss it.. rawr.
alright alright. pointless rambling yet again. shall blog properly if anything else comes to mind. ohyeah hello sheer i didn't know you read my blog. haha then again, i don't know who reads my blog, besides those who tag. so tag! bleh.
stripes i love. and you, where are you. yes, you. YOU.
because words can only say so much* 110304. 2015h.
coupla shoutouts (+
firstly: happy sixteenth dearest (= yey hope you're doing fine at camp and such. coming back tmrw oh yey how happy can i get (: (: (:
secondly: thaaaaankyou taffs (: alot of purple but heck that. not gay not gay not gay at all -grins- howell. taffs you sure know me inside out ha. oooooweee.
thirdly: friday tmrw! ahhhh finally finally (out of words) eeheehee. i know there's a physics test haha wowzee after first block i'm gonna get so high (someday it'll all be over) wooh.
right. i sound mad yes i do^^ but whatever. friday tomorrow :D all hail the coming weekend!
have a good break everyone (: i shall go off to much physics now. at least after tmrw's verdict i won't feel too guilty of not having studied much. woohoohoo.
life rocks with you in it (=
but i can't stop to keep myself from thinking* 2036h. 080304.
ohhoHO it's raining buffalos. hohum. i like rainy nights, they make you sleep better. right? hmm.
ohwell almost missed the thirdlang bus jnow. was umm stranded along with kak naf, two pits and a bunch of sec ones. mwahah. me kaknaf and the pits then thought maybe we could flag down a cab. but just about then the last bus came hahaha and oh yeah was it empty or what (;
hohum. i'm hoping the rest of the week's gonn stay good. heheh. ahh onebeat songs i like! hmm like yeah! by usher and ludacris or summat. hoho. got my usual doze of 25c cone after french jnow. mwahah was tempted to get another, but. my belt's getting tighter. hmmmmm.
ah blah such randomness. shall uh do kefahaman now. and then mug history or summat. whee i so love my life right now.
and it really doesn't help that you're going off for camp. all the more i'm itching for friday to come quick. hais =/
you are the only one, my everything* 0728h. 070304
morning (:
woke up slightly earlier so i could mug abit of math. haha. gonn do malay and ss during class later. doesn't matter if ustzh catches me d:
phew. coming week is the last for this term. abit scary man, seeing how fast time flies =/ yee. it'll be the end of semester two soon enough. yee.
anyhow dikir yesterday was (: methinks it was the first time everyone actually lost sweat drg dikir haha. hm yeah. oh founder's day. no comments (: just that i got well, abit popular just because i got the President's handshake while we were bidding him and his wife goodbye. aper sajer korang. azura said i had that shocked look on my face. mwahaha. and kak faridah eh tak habis habis kacau. thankyouforkambing hahaha if izzat knew he'd be laughing his head off. ohwell.
after dikir some of us + some of the secfours went for lunch at taman ros. we got free bandung (: whee. i like going to taman ros the people there are so nice (: it's these kinda things that make you enjoy life better. or at the least, appreciate it. hohum. all thru lunch we were discussing life. and death. call it being morbid, but really it was an eye opener. especially for me and azi. right azi? haha.
on the journey home this robiah was being super drunk. waieoo. then because of that me noo kaly and robs were rather noisy in the train la. but then again, it was empty (cos we were at marina bay at that time). but then this guy sitting opposite us. i think he got some problem la so he was like shhhhhh - shushing us up. walau. want us to keep quiet just say la. yee.
oh hais. i think i'm in need of a new layout, no? blah taffffs you wanna help me with that? :D ohHO.
awwhawhaw. i'm stuck on kc and jojo's allmylife. and it's all thanks to kak hanna hahaha. but yalah it's a very (: song. perfect for a perfect wedding (: whee.
all my life i pray for someone like you
and i thank God that i, that i finally found you
all my life i pray for someone like you
and i hope that you feel the same way too
yes i pray that you do love me too
---
yeah. my current favourite alongside purestofpain <3 mwahaha i have this bad habit of playing songs i like at one point of time, over and over and over and over again. hahaha. it won't be long before lina memorises the lyrics to this one pulak. won't be surprised. ahhhaha.
okays shall go get ready for class now. have a good last week of term (:
shaggedefeded* 1946h. 030304
diao.
dad noticed that i've been very tired these days. like just now i walked into the kitchen and just landed onto the chair and he asked: what's wrong with you? you looked so shagged.
ohHO yes and shagged i am. well basically dad rocks la. can see that he takes the effort. to whatever. love him to bits man (: eehhehe. that's why this year and the coming years and for the rest of the years till i'm not under his direct care anymore, i shan't ever disappoint him in any way possible. hopefully. mum too, la. just that mum sees too much of me (or i see too much of her) so it's like. she doesnt' really notice if there's any change. i think. aaaand it just so happens that everytime she comes in to check on me, i'll be taking a break from studying. diao. i know she thinks of me as some jackasslacker. cos whenever she walks in and i'm like really studying, her only question would be: tmrw got test zit?
and then i'll get irked cos it seems as if to her it's like. i study only when there's a test. diao. dunola.
ohhoho and dad suggested i stay at fizah's insted of taffs' the week after next. a rather good suggestion la, then at least i've got company to and from schl (: we'll see.
eek. tmrw's thursday. after thursday is friday. and just when i thought the week just started. oh boy. seriously. life's going by too fast. i'm holding on but my grip's loose. looser than it should be. who's with me? heh this reminds me of how just now toffa was tryna stall time. lol try all you can girl (: haha.
i haven't gotten my french stuff right yet. shall dedicate what's left of today and tmrw to mugstudystudymug chem/french/physics/english. warg.
wait. IS physics test on friday? please tell me it's not. then again. would it make a diff? hais.
oh. and just now my rgp2 sis said something like: kakak's always on the comp as if she's got nothing to do.
ah seelah. that's a fallacy my dear. sheesh man. felt like bashing her up. nothing to do?! wait till you get to rg. just wait lina, just wait.
hohum. happy fifteenth, norma and luthfi <3 will never forget the six years we had as classmates. arrrr i miss primary school. rawr.
kembalikanlah semangatku* 1922h. 020304.
my cravings are starting agaaiiiiin. yeeee i'm freaked i tell you. and i keep feeling hungry when i'm obviously not. yeeee what's wrong with me.
blah. rethoric question. everything's wrong these days. nothing's right. well besides the fact that. i've got my friends with me. friends who really really care. not the on-off kind -grumbles- (siapa yang makan cili dia yang terasa pedasnya) arg i feel like. chopping something up. hammering into something. arggg.
i'm gettin worse by the day. let's hope this whole thing is just a phase. right.. what phase? yeee. malay's my best subject and look what nice marks i got for kefahaman/ringkasan. rocks, i tell you. math is looking better for me, so that kinda makes up for it but still. malay! suddenly the people whom i know usually do well in malay [with the exception of smart nadiah la] are starting to not do well. what's the world coming to. yeeee.
and the peeling skin thing. yeeee. blah. anyhow muchos gracias to mcdonald's for starting the 25cent cone :9 that's our only saviour these days. to end off the day on a good note/catch up on each other's stuff after school. and by our, i mean slengseven. you guys rock. ohhoyeah (: duno what i'll do without you guys man. AND i'm aware of what's happening now. ohwait. what's not happening rather. so pleaseplease get things sorted out soon cos i don't want the hem to get loose. anymore.
english test tmrw. if not tmrw, then friday.
chem test on thursday. i need a chem textbk badly.
physics test prob on friday. up to mmrs ho i suppose. french petit test on friday also.
life rocks does it not. God help me.
and please. i'm fed up of you. and you and you. dah masak tau aku dengan perangai korang semua. please lah. for everyone's sake. get a better life! hmmmmmmmf pffft.
vida give me back my fantasies* 1846h. 010304.
march already. how fast. today was em well. rather stressing but it ended off on a good note (no physics hohoho. oops no pun intended d:) so yeh :D
archived the february entries. blablabla. haha many happenings over the past weekend man pffftt haha couldn't stop laughing at so many occasions. malumalu cat. heelys all the way from tamp to tp. hahaha and what else was there.. lols. saturday morning was the most malufying i tell you. i actually woke up at 0107 thinking it was already 0600 and i was gonn be late for sch :p luckily mum stopped me from taking a bath, else i'd really have gonn nuts having to go back to bed with wet hair. eehee slenger betul (:
gee. see whenever i come here all that i wanted to blog disappears. EEEHHEEE i see elysa! woo. alright. founder's day rehearsal tmrw. i don't know what's wrong with me these days. i screw up my kulintang rhythm, i can't seem to get down to earth when in fact i already am.. arrrawr.
gpa finals this saturday aft fday. should i?
oohyeh. happy fourth birthday aisyah darlingggg (: kakak loves you -muackkks- <3
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