liy* caught a star at 1947hours on monday 221203
im back home(: bahaa actually ive been here since last night. yep my fam fetched me from aunty lela's after their jemputan thing. we went over to wisma indah's book fair and i got this women in islam book. yeah then to this ashburn shop which sells such funkay stuffs! yep and the shop owner named it after her dad, abu bakar. and abu bakar in english = ashburn! coolios. i wanna go back there again(:

alright then next was city plaza cos imran wanted to get some catridge thing for his nintendo. O_o fickleminded kid. ohwells. dropped by at arab street. i intended to get clothes from there, but the shops were closed. ahwell. waited outside while my fam did their maghrib at sultan mosque. and ohhh i was nicely sitting under a tree and guess what. this bird flew by and shitted on me. hhaha ewwwwk. lols.

hmm. missed brainiest teen cos we reached home when it ended, sigh. bathed and everything, then went online. but soon after dad got me pissed by saying i spend too much time online [sheesh] so i went off la. oh and they played kevin little's turn me on hoho.

today's drama was well, drama. hahas. and haha the pants i wore looked tapered sia. shant wear it tomorrow man. lols but mum said my khakis are still in the wash. lets just hope their dry by tomorrow(: oh and fanis' fever came back so she was absent. i hope shes fine now, cos we really need full attendance man -cringes- ahh.

madrasah results out today. couldn't go to collect them, so mum went instead. was dying for my mum to call me but she didnt, and i decided that i'd waited long enough, so i called aini instead. hahah i said 'hello' and she rattled on: 'oh hello hello... bla bla bla... liy you got first! and fir got third!' lols. i gave a meek -haha- and asked who got second and she went like: 'me laH' haha so i said, okay good good. so yeps alhamdulillah thank God(: we both beat fir! -guffaws- okay. like it matters anyway. funny ah. the three of us. it wouldve been funnier if fir was second. as in. not funny funny haha but funny strange coincidence. ohwells. some love triangle maybe? dont ask.

okay ahh shall go now have fun peeps(:

liy* caught a star at 0015hours on sunday 211203
another day is gone. i'm still all alone.

hah. bah new week starting soon. school reopens soon. gah. cant deny ive had fun the past few days though. hahar. butterflyiophobia. flying onions and garlics and cincaus. tissue monster.what else have we. hehheh -guffaws-

not one day and i'm already missing them. hafiz is such a gentleman(: hahaha. hearing about his past made me reconsider. now i guess, it's no problem at all. haha.

whateverrr ah. you guys prob dont understand what i'm ranting about. lols. my last night here today i think. yeps should be.

okays nothing to blog about. actually there was. only now everythings gone. cos you had to come to mind. damnit.

liy* caught a star at 2341hours on wednesday 171203
hola world(: am at tampines now, fiZah's residence heehee :P anywayyyys fizah's cousin, nurul is such a sweetie haha and ohmygoushh she speaks in this really adorable slang -grins- yep, nurul's fam just got back from tunisia a few days back, so yep. and myyyy oh myyy hafiz is so freaking grown up now behhhh. so freaking SHUAIIIII i tell yoooooo -swoons-

okay fine, he's two years my junior so beh no chance ar. but really really. noddy if youre reading this, he looks an ickle bit like christian :D hehehehehe. ohwell. i guess those who are of mixed blood really in one way or another look good eh. haiiiiissss. and he's about yassir's height and they have about the same voice depthness. teehee.

anywayyy someone help me decideeee beh. drama or family; family or dramaaaa? geez. i wanna go for both. but i can't cos im not flash. behhh. help help help i dont have all day to decide arrrr boo. nyet nyet nyet....

dah i think shall go now and let fizah use the comp kk ciaooo loveyawl.

liy* caught a star at 0940hours on wednesday 171203
hahahahhaahahahahaha.

nobody's online hahahahahahah.

today's wednesday right. seventeenth right. they come back from camp today right. ahahahahahahahahahaha

ohhh yesterday was funnnn heaps fun! -beams- noo i understand why you felt that way before ahahahah(+ ohvells.

bought books on monday with mum. haha i like them, so nice and new(: nar and me were discussing how silly it is for the staff to pack the sec3 geog books with a sec2 maths tbk. hahahahaa -guffaws-

hohum. i'm very laughy today. and i'm craving nasi goreng. the type i or mum cook. haisss i want some nowwwnownownowwww |: bleh. ohyes im gonn be staying overat fizah's for a few days starting today(: and oh i havent packed hahaha thumbs up liy. otey byees.

liy* caught a star at 2114hours on monday 151203
tomorrow spells aLOT of things. haha.

firstlay. rayer is tomorrow for me cos today was my last day of puasa enam. i know i'm slow, but it cant be helped. i managed to complete the six days anyway, so alhamdulillah(:

secondlay.bro turns nine tomorrow. hahahahaha riiiiiight -chuckles- more like, three. look lah at his perangai. but pfft whateverrrr. anyways we aren't celebrating it tomorrow cos dad's on aftnoon shift. bahaha(+

oh and i said tmrw's rayer for me right? and tmrw's the sixteenth. last year rayer was on sixteenth. hahahah(: not much of a big deal, but i'm a sucker for coincidences like these. baha my problem, not yours (+

thirdlay. tomorrow's operation getting stuffs for a special someone in our clique. bahaha. a biiiiit belated ah hahahah -smiles innocently- ohwell. what can i say? we're suckers for bdays that fall during exam or holiday periods, so ____ and ____ and ______ just have to be a little bit patient eh :D the rest of us, are just, well, LUCKY hahahaha. okay fine. shant rub salt into so and so and so's wounds kakakaka XP.

went to j8 jnow after maghrib with lina. wahhh that girl ah, she thinks i'm soooo rich is it. want to buy this buy that X| hhahaha ohwell. searched high and low for imrans pres, and in the end got this encyclopedia thing. if he doesnt like it i'm gonna... throw him out of the window hahahaha(+ nah he wont die, we live on the second floor. kekeke im mean im mean so sueeee meeee.

robs i hope you cheerup otey(: -hugs tightly- anyway, shall go do isyak now then i'll be in time for survivor finale. walauu that jon is such a pfftooot man. wait till the rest find out that his grandma didn't die. or something. geeesh -smacks jon- kakakakaka. okay byeeee.

liy* shed a tear at 2315hours on friday 121203
you want me to shut up, so i will.

the book's closed.

and no i won't open it ever again.

if you want to leave. just do.

cos your presence still lingers here.

my immortal is too perfect a song for this.

i know i didn't do anything wrong, but i'm gonn give in anyway.

but if there's something you'd do. it'd be to get a life. go away, dude.

liy* lost it all at 1743hours on friday 121203
so it's final. i guess. but like i said to ____ i won't be in denial. not ever.

why did i even bother to start all this. why liy, were you so naively stupid. why didn't you just shut up and let things go the way they have to. why. why why why. it's no use asking all this, is there? cos there's nothing that i can do to turn back time and change the course of it anyway. i'll just have to live with it no matter how much i know it's going to suck and how bad i'm gonna have to suffer. brr i'm so mad at myself.

so yes this is it. a bleeding heart, a love not complete...

liy* lost it all at 2253hours on thursday 111203
okay so both batch and madrasah jalan rayas are over. batch one was superliciously marvellous because i have a muchos rocking batch(: yepyep. real fun i wanna relive it again but it's not possible is it.

ohwell. today's madrasah one was such a contrast because firstly, some people just have to decide to be jerks. like i've said many a time, if you made a promise then keep to it. it irks me when people just don't make an effort to stick to their words cos if you can't then just don't say anything grr. and since when have guys been such softies as to be even more tired than girls. okay i understand you guys have so many commitments, so why didn't you bother to inform us so we could at least reschedule? such selfcentredness. and to think my mambang expects people's schedule to revolve around his, and then he himself decides that 'oh, i've got something important so i can't make it for tomorrow'. sheesh. guys will be guys huh. irritating nitwits. and to the real gentlemen out there who so happen to be reading this, i'm real sorry. but siapa yang makan cili dier yang rasa pedasnyer, so the people i'm talking about should know who they are. freaking make us wait at ustazah's house for so long and in the end you come but decide not to follow. grrrrr.

but you know what made my day? man i so thank God for bringing him back into my life. really missed the old -insertsnamehere- and i'm glad he's back. as a friend, if not a best friend. yey(: here's to platonic guygirl relationships! woo.

and people. hurry confirm when we're gonn watch love actually. cos i wanna watch lotr as well. heehee. okay my legs are aching i shall go now taa!

and oh hahahha fiza let the cat out of the bag and told us yassir's secret haha very amusing. mystery person eh aini let's go bug him once schl starts woohoo. they owe us something anyway so that shall be it. wah so cute. write then liquid away. whoever that girl is, man she sure is lucky. hahaha(: and oh yusouff has such fatherly vibes, really. and ustzh saodah's niece, nurul, is of such sweetness lol. and i was happily layaning her when the other girls made a striking comment that went: oh man liy you've got very motherly vibes. hahaha riiight. i've got three to train on at home, so waddya think hahahaa.

okay fine enough of the rantings, shall go now byeee.

liy* caught a star at 1639hours on tuesday 091203
wahhh i'm so freaking pissed dammit. grr. what the heck is wrong with my family. with me. arrrrrgh.

everything's tospy turvy. it's like a sign or something. like i'm gonna die soon. or something. because you know why? everything bad is happening to me the past few days. i won't be surprised if any more party poopers happen to me for the upcoming days. i'm so irritated damit. and i'm also irritated because these few days my soul just refuses to freaking wake up for subuh ohhh damit so irritating. ohhh how irritating.

dammmmmmmit. damitdamitdamiiiiit. first my sandal strap broke. as if that isn't enough, i tripped over something and lost balance; thus my cam dropped onto the floor. if it had broke or gotten spoilt i wouldn't know what to do i tell you. then i come home and my mum gives me a truckload of s*it so i bombard her back with even more shit. not exactly the best way to solve things; but that's me - i come home in a foul mood and you give me a nagging or somehow or other get me pissed, you better get ready for nonstop nagging from me. augh.

and today. i'm still in a bad mood and not on good terms with my whole fam. and as if that aint bad enough; the chair i sat on broke the moment i sat on it. yes i know i'm heavy but that chair has been there since before i was born and the joints were already loose before and what did they do to fix it? put glue. so is it my fault that it broke? you decide. like my dad for instance, he chooses to believe and stand on his [i don't know what kind of] ground, that i wasn't sitting down properly. excuse me mister you were in your room so fa away from the dining area what the heck. stop assuming ah damit. my butt hurts you don't care. i wish there was something on the wall. or like my head had hit something. serves you right. serves all of you right. must be great to be seeing me in hospital eh. sheesh grr.

i don't feel like talking any further. i don't even feel like going for tomorrow or thursday. hrmmmmmmmf.

liy* got busy at 2126hours on wednesday 031203
haha second blog of the day! woot. haha nah just finished folding the large set of laundry so yepS(: lol don't mind what i put as the pagename *points*. they're playing get busy; so yeash. hahahahhaha i remember how it first got me irritated and ergked and nurul[huda] was like "no no no it's nice!" O_o haha weirddd. aiyar speaking of which; i miss nurul! boo. really gonn miss having her as a classmate mans. haissss no more copying for maths assignments etc etc. she's done so much for me man; like tak terbalas budi. ahhhh okay okay i'll give her a call after this yah.

here's a zoovay! haven't done one for ages; so here's one to pass time. lols.

1. Pierce your nose or tongue?: emm. neither?
2. Be serious or be funny?: funnily serious? ahh nawp. seriously funnay. hahaha
3. Boxers or briefs?: eh. boxers.
4. Whole or skim milk?:erh. skim? but i prefer fresh. yknow the one that comes in cartons? yep. 5. Single or Taken?: single yet taken. ahhahahaa OKAY KIDDING. single lah pfft XP
6. Simple or complicated?: you decide(:
7. Law or anarchy?: erhhh. both are fine with me
8. Flowers or angels?: angels. flowers can get abit too emm irritating. so flowery-everything; get what i mean? aight neverminds.
9. Grey or gray?: haha what a question. if i feel british; grey it is. and if i feel american; i'll go with gray. that okay with you? teehee.
10. Read or write?: what about type? haha. hmm all three are alright. 11. Color or black-and-white photo?: depends actually. if i've had too much of colour and wish to break the monotone; then blacknwhite it is. and yep vice versa.
12. Sunrise or sunset?: ah. i wanna have best of both worlds(:
13. M&M's or Skittles?: the former.
14. Rap or rock?: rap.
15. Stay up late or wake up late?: stay up late heehee. explains the eyebags being permanent residents on my face until recently. hahaaha.
16. TV or Radio?: ehh. radio. eh no tv. ah dunolah; both can?
17. Is it POP or SODA?: sodapop! tsktsk
18. X or O in Tic-tac-toe?: x
20. Eat an apple or an orange? depends on my mood/tastebuds. haha. most of the time it's orange.
21. What came first the chicken or the egg?: Allah; then he created.
22. Hot or Cold?: a little of both pretty pleeease(:
24. Tall members of the opposite sex or short? haha. taller than me(:
25. Sun or moon?: moon! my longterm goal is to be able to fly there(:
26. Emerald or ruby?: KAKAAKAKAKAK neither neither neither. ahaha. but rubies are nice(:
28. Left or right?: right
29. 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend?: errr. whatabout seven muchos funkeh and lovable people who make up a clique? hehee
30. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?: choc :9
31. High or Drunk?: highhhhhhhhayayayayayayayayyyy
32. Green beans or carrots?: karot. hahahahahaha. yes maam; carrots(:
33. Low fat or fat free?: fat free. 34. What is your biggest fear in the world?: Allah. other than that; losing a loved one.
36. Kids or no kids?: kids, duh.
37. Cat or dog?: eh. if i ever come around to having any pets eh. lol; cat
38. Half empty or half full?: half full. it sounds more positive methinks
39. Mustard or ketchup?: ketchup!
40. Hard cover books or soft cover books?: hard
41. Newspaper or magazine?: depends which kind of both
42. Sandals or sneakers?: depends on my feet ah. and what i'm wearing. right or not?
43. Wonder or amazement?: woh* amazement. haha
44. Red car or white car?: red or white? apa lu... semangat singapura kaper. haha. red(:
45. Happy and poor or sad and rich?: aiyah. happy and poor.
46. Singing or dancing?: a little of both. but i sing more, so (:
47. Hugging or Kissing?: with whom? haiyahh be precise next time. right now; hugging. hahahahaha.
48. Corduroy or plaid?: corduroy
49. Happy or sad?: lols.
50. Purple or green?: depends which shade of both. but yep both are purdy retrofying colours(:
51. A year of hot sex or a lifetime of friendship?: hahahahahaha what a question. a lifetime of friendship sounds better; yes it does

lols that's done. haha okay okay i gotta go so take care yawl!
and angklung peeps please be punctual tomorrow yay.

liy* shook it like a polaroid picture at 2052hours on wednesday 031203
yeyyy hey ya's playing on p10 yeyyyy. haha somehow hey ya's one of the few songs that can never fail to lift my spirits; no matter how down i feel or how freaking stupid things are. ohwell haha yeyy -dances-

and grr mum just asked me a stupid question. whatever- yeah like just why would i wanna buy something if i don't know how to freakin use it. grr abit brainless man. ohwell.

oh and now they're playing say goodbye. wah. okay takper. ciao. nothing much to blog about.

liy* caught a star at 0741hours on tuesday 021203
okay so it's already december. last month of the year. hah how fast time flies by. sighs. okay nawp shouldn't be sighing.

these few days have sucked real bad. bad bad bad. ohwell can't do anything to change the situation for the better so i guess i'll just hide in this hole of mine and scream my head off at any being who dares come within a radius of 2cm from where i am to pinpoint my bad points. irritating damnit.

oh and i dislike people who can't keep to promises they make. you promised; so fulfil that promise darnit. this applies to not just one party. many many many. grrrrr.

and there my mum goes again. stoppit lah just freaking stop it okay stoppit! wah piang. i'm so freaking irritated freaking freaking freaking irritated goodness. i darnit know what i'm doing and no i am not chatting to anyone on msn early in the morning like hello nobody is freaking online even! whatever whatever whatever i am so full of angst i feel like strangling someone or something right now aaaaaargghsejghsgh. and i hate it when she or anyone else in the family refers to chatting on msn as "chit chatting". what the heck it sounds so damnit irritating i am so irritated arg arg arg. i type sth on the comp and she goes "ah chit chatting ah tu". oh so if i'm typing a resume or something i'm chatting ah. issit issit? walau.

i know i sound like one heckuva freakin bitch but i don't care. nobody knows nobody cares nobody understands. does that ring a bell somewhere? ringringring. grr. the whole family loves to buruk sangka whatever i do. like please la kay. wait till i bite on you freaking people. and oh they assume i'm some doofus of a kiddo who doesn't know what i'm doing. like okay lah i'm the eldest why can't you simply have some faith in me. why make it seem as if i don't know how to do some ickle bit of housework at all. i know i don't do much housework [or at least it isn't up to YOUR darn standard. how can a student match up to a housewife i ask you?] but i KNOW what i'm doing and i do things at my own pace and i'm not some jakon so shush it lady. ergk.

and oooh my bro claims he saw a ghost flying around while he was at camp. what crap is that and he kept mentioning it every few minutes. whatever you darn doofus of a bro. the only thing you can do is cry and cry and cry my nerves out so shut up and stop showing off. darn hao lian this monster is. oh just shut it.

i wanna get out of here. out. of. here. i don't like this life i lead. not at all. i'm contented; the fact that i was born a muslim. cos Allah is great. but i can't stand my life right now. i know i shouldn't be saying that. but it can't be helped. switch lives with me for one day and just see if you'll come running back asking for your life. erk.

i know life's full of problems. and my life is no different; i've got [as hana says it] a truckload full of problems. and i just don't get why the people i live with are like this. i'm here trying to change; but every time i do that they'll never give me the chance to. so fine. do whatever you want. think whatever you want about me. buruk sangka me till you can't buruk sangka anymore. i'm tired of ranting. cos it'll make no difference at all.

i feel like running. running running as fast as i can. but wait; swimming's a better choice. anyone care to join me anytime this week? i'd be glad for your compnay. ohwell. and i think i should password protect my blog. but it's not possible for pitas; is it? ohwell-

i can't wait for 1130. i need to freakin get out.

liy* feels very blergh now. and it's 0016hours on sunday 301103
hey.

i feel. rotten. very very rotten.

i don't understand why things have to be this way. why make it harder than it has to be. i feel like strangling something. or someone. whatever.

i took this from kak khalies' lj. i hope she doesn't mind. all i'm saying is that. it really applies.

you know how you love some people. and then you come to a point in time, when you realise that there really is no point in loving them anymore? so you stop loving them. but you still keep them in this special lobe inside your heart. where they will always stay.

and sometimes, that special lobe will just open. and you start to reminisce. and then it will make you feel happy, or sad, just thinking about it. and then you will smile, the special secret smile, that only you know about.

i need to let go. i tried it before and now i'm gonn try again. make things easier okay. don't get me all confused and keep running on the sam track.

now that i'm finally through with this; i hope you breathe well. have a nice day.

liy* caught a star at 0938hours on saturday 291103
hey all(: archived the entries yey. hehs okay i feel freed now. all i can do now is pray for the very best. and just wait. wait. and wait.

okay so firstly: HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR ELYSAAAAA! k i'm one day late i know. and six of us still owe you your bday gift. but don't fret haha it's coming right up! -grinnns-

oh yesterday was fun. me noo kaly went to far east, wisma and then back to far east again. lols. at wisma the two of them bought that yummilicious strawberry moisturiser thing which all three of us have been craving for :9 too bad i slengerly left my rayer money [and hp even] at home. lol. okay then we saw the chocolate bath thing. gossshh it's so heavenly. the choc i mean. yummmmm.

right k then walked around wisma. was at isetan lookin around when annette came along haha. lol net, my friends say you don't look your age :P tskkk. hehehehehehh. ahwell.

stopped by at popular to get the er whatever mag thing all members supposed to get. thenn looked around and bought them glowinthedark paints. haha speakin of which; i tried painting some stuffs but they don't seem to glow very much. funny; they're more visible in light. lols. i don't think glowinthedark stuffs like me haaha too bad la XD

brrr walked back to fareast cos they wanted to go to livia. walked around and around and around and... haha okay. then decided i was running late so we went our separate ways home.

lol reached home and realised my family's out! bwahahahha. ate my burger [hahahaa kaly and me slenger. bought zinger meal but only drank the pepsi and ate the whipped potato. clap please. tskk.] yeah then it started pouring. haiyar spoil mood only. so waited awhile for the rain to er get less heavy. and i decided to go via the normal route. tough luck; that was a big mistake man. cos i was walking to the bustop to get to tp, and this car sped by and wham! the front of my pina got drenched. mwahahah. funny sight. but it was fun getting wet lol.

reached sch before three. but yknow what; i slengerly waited outside angklung rm when the meeting was at needlework rm 1. okayyy how more slenger can i getttt hrmpf =X lols. can't stand it. hahahaha. but it's fun. okay takper.

exco meeting was pretty long but fun! haha. i can't wait to carry out whatever we're planning to. haha so fun so fun so fun -jumps around- whee. k then stopped by wisma again to get the strawberry moisturer. haah nooo i didn't forget my money or phone this time :p lol. k i initially intended to get the choc bath as well but then i realised; it's not of necessity. more like a luxury. so i shouldn't waste money. eh how rhyming. hahahahahhaa. but yalah; not like the moisturizer is of such necessity man. lols i don't understand myself sometimes.

haiyarrrrrr i want atomickitten's ladies' night. boo. but i want blue's guilty alsooo. and and. a1's best of a1. haiyar but i shan't be so wasteful. think i'll get ladies night only. see i'm a good ger(; [hah. riight]

okayyy some people have fancy drill comp today. good luck and i know you guys are good so bring something home okay! yey. and ohhhh yes me and dodol dear finally compromised. so mdrsh jln rayer is next week yey i cannot cannot cannooot wait. hehe -bounces- lalala. and if i'm good today i'll get my cam(: yeyyeyyeyeyeyeyeyeyey. and what else? imran's at campppp woohoooo three whole days without having to tolerate his whateverness yeyyyyyyyy. i just hope hes safe at sarimbun. [i told you i'm a good ger. i'm not as mean as you think. nyahahahha] lalaa.

we're having visitors from msia later. alalalalalala. think i'll go see what's there for me to do -grins- ciaoo!