tanpa kasihmu sayang, siapalah aku* 280204. 1918h.
hello :D

second last day of february. how freaking fast.

seems like it's been pretty long since the last update. just goes to show how much of a free life i lead eh. hohum.

many things have been happening thus far. and i suspect many more to come (: this is life, afterall. haha. kaly finds me weird. okay it's not her only, more like all six of them think i'm weird/crappy/merepek whatsoever. i'm not denying that. but methinks they think i'm more weird than normal these days. especially kaly hahaa^^ i know i scare you, darl :P and i will continue doing that. mwahahaha.

aaahh so much to settle. so much clogging my mind. march hols are in umm two weeks? yeah thank goodness. bah speaking of which i still haven't decided where i'm gonn reside whilst my fam's away at genting. then again. maybe i should just tag along. but. argg see i can't even decide properly. taffs can i stay over at your place? -innocentsmile-

ms foo and ms zat came and left haiiyah. am going to miss their lessons much and i'm sure the rest of 305 will, too. hais.

the next two weeks are going to be horrible. tests after tests after tests. and what else have you. praying hard that God'll give me the strength to cope, to carry on and to face life's challenges well enough. InsyaAllah (:

okay i know i had alot to say but it seems as if the more i type, the more nothing comes out d: haha. shall go take a bath now, my angkl shirt stinks of fareast levelfive food :p harhar.

and we all bleed the same way as you do* 220204. 2009h.
HALLO WORLDDDD :D

i've been on cloudnine these days. but i can't help it. things are looking so good for me. i mean despite all the crap we have to live with cos of rp or whatnot. eeheehee(:

alright firstly. the haflah we had today to celebrate awal muharram. frankly speaking, all the performances before the guys' dikir were rather bland la.. ahaha i kinda pity those kids but haiiyah. i suppose we were all once in their shoes eh :p anywayanyway. the guys rocked man :D so lame but still entertaining nonetheless haahha. yassir and yusouff have such nice voices i wish i could capture their whole perf on tape man =X got the juara part recorded on my phone though. took pics, which somehow turned out abit blur so we can't see their handsome faces clearly lols.

didn't quite feel like going to my maternal gramps' after that, but man i'm real glad i did! cos cousins johan and syafiq were there wahhh did i miss them or what (: felt rather sad after hearing what happened to them (long story, to be kept among us fam members) but now i'm more glad than ever that they're back! eeheehee. ohyes so then bik nana treated us all to seoulgarden. wah shiok man. i didn't eat much but i suppose my tummy's used to me eating very little, so i felt super bloated after that XP harhar.

hmm then walked around causeway point for abit. wanted to get sportsbras but.. aiyah don't waste money la huh. eehee. ohyeaaa i'm twentybucks richer :D :D :D thank you madrasah(: eehee.

alright shall go finish up french. toodles! (how gay)

mon amour pour toi ne mourra jamais* 200204. 1846h.
AAAAAAAAAHHHH NOOOOOOOO

gah. now my plans are ruined. big big time. wargg.

thanks aLOT man sandwich making competition. rawr O_O i've better plans for tenth march pleeease thankyou. rawr. knew i shouldn't have signed up. but it's for the house anyway. and i do need house points right.

wah this is bad man. can't make it on thursday because of lifeskills, friday cos there's swim carn; thought wednesday was the best option left but noooo right. now what's left would be tuesday. and tuesdays, schl ends at three. wah how nice.

and we still need to come up with the proposal for the sandwichthing. and the proposal for cle. and for rs.

another proposal mentioned and i'm going to... not do any of it at all. hah.

does anyone know when functions posttest is?

and it's not the teen angst* 190204. 2322h.
i'm suddenly so emotionless.

now just what is wrong with me. those cravings. constant mood swings like this. maybe they're not mood swings. i don't know what they are, but they drive me insane. i'm losing my focus. my state of mind. argg. i don't know where i'm going. i don't know what i'm saying. my mind's full of question marks. it's all i don't know, i don't know..

i'm in need of an escapade.

the problem is. where do i find the time to do just that?

and i hate being dao-ed. so quit being dao, will you? at least acknowledge my presence. tell me what i need to know! we practically grew up together. how can i not remember. how can i not treat you well. but you, you're the one who made things so much more difficult than they had to be. you changed so damn drastically, you're just not the person i used to enjoy being with.

i want that old friend back. i want our friendship back.

and never in this life am i ever going to forgive those two. fancy spouting untruths about me. because of you selfless people, everything now's in a mess. and no one's here to help me clear it all up.

ohwell on a lighter note. happy sixteenth, yusouff :D God bless.

me la dit ce matin* 180204. 1857h.
bonjour mes amies :D hahaha. tiring day today, but i had fun nonetheless. i'd exchange shaggedefededness for anything like today anytime man (+ eehee. my eyes are tired. but hohum here goes.

alrighty first off, in the morning on the bus the goodluckcharm boarded and stood infront of me and nadz! haha. we were at the horizontal seating arrangement lah; sorry if you're abit wols at understanding my lingo. haha but the point is, nadz and i were trying to the best of our abilities to stifle our laughter and giggles hoho, so much so that methinks we sounded like constipated ducks. ahhaha but that's okay, point is that person was infront of us! (bwahaha. just to rub salt into noddy's wound :p)

well then. fastforward to ne fieldtrip. i was, how dyou put it, wow-ed? yeah. possibly. if only we were permitted entry to standrews cathedral and cityhall! haiiyah. but nevermind. supreme court and parliament house/chamber made up for it. eehee. haha the supreme court scares me. i'll never want to be there for some wrongdoing. choy, touchwood heh. as a judge or lawyer, why not. it'll be heaps fun. ooh and the seats at the parliament chamber are so comfy. no wonder sometimes we see people falling asleep. or some already in dreamland. hahaa.

ms foo told us this tradition her class, back when she was an rg student, used to do whenever on the journey back to schl from a fieldtrip. when nearing the gates, they'll start singing the mickeymouse song (the one that spells out every letter), so when the bus passes through the gates, everyone goes EEEEEEE. like; M-I-C-K-E-Y M-O-U-S-EEEEEEEE. ahhaha get it? nevermind. it's you who's wols. haha^^

anyhow then we took class pics lol. i love threefive man. haha. waited for the rest to get dismissed, after which we had lunch at the canteen. took more sillyfied pics ahaha, the joy of owning a digicam :D anyways then to pass time, ely and i dropped by orchard lib. i think i was being a tad too loud cos ely kept shushing me up. sorry lah but i had headphones on! >.< ohh and they were playing that joshgroban song, haha. you raiiiise me up, to more than i can beeee..

hmm then rushed of to tp to meet aini. aiyohh that woman got herself detention for coming late to schl. hahaha chuckles- we saw ustzh saodah while going up the escalator (: waved and she waved back haha i hope she recognised us. ohwell then went up to popular to get files. and this is when the fun starts yo. my basket was seriously filled up with ring files of all different colours. even the cashier laughed at me. mak oi. in the end, had to carry two big plastic bags full of files. felt like some... ah soh man. no offence, but yes. hahaha. walked to padang for some prata yumm :9 then walked back to interchange.

really. really. felt. like some ahsoh. aiyohhh. the maluation doesn't stop there, believe me. on the bus, this lady to my left was smirking when i boarded. then when i got off, this girl said to her bf: eh she really bought alot of files ah..

where do i hide my face -_- hahaha. ohwell. but today was fun. thanks for the company, people :D woohoo the week's coming to an end pretty soon. last day of sch for this week tmrw, technically. bah. but tmrw's gonn be a long day. it's either cooking or angklung. i'd rather go for the earlier. but do i have a choice?

rethorical questions don't require answers.

and i do, cherish you <3 thanks for yesterday.

ku cinta dia * 150204. 0720h.
hello :D screw yesterday mann. yesterday was utter crap. today seems to be looking good. it's starting off super well. howdy ho. morning world! hehehe.

anymanyways. a little about yesterday:

got reprimanded in the morning by mrs goh. apparently too many people signed up for ppis flag day. ohwell. my post in the exco has a high chance of being jeopardized. i'm screwed more than ever before. not trying to be egoistic whatsoever, but it sucks. the fact that everyone, everything and everywhere wants a piece of all of us. and when we can't commit ourselves to sooo many things at one time, every party gets mad. so much so for the dialogue session. when reality hits you, it hits super bad. no matter how much we pour out and complain thisthatwhatever, the truth is, that's reality. and it's not gonn change. ever.

anyway. then went for flag day. noo robs ely and me went to yishun. i paired up with ely and we stationed ourselves at the underpass that links yishun mrt and northpoint. hehe. yishun's filled with nice people :D our tins got considerably heavy. thenn threequarter-way through, some people from this certain school decided to be such irritants as to station themselves super near us. in the end ely and i got tired of having to withstand that, so we decided to pack up and join robs and noo who had given up long before we did. and their tins were not much heavier than they were when we first collected them d: haha sillyfied.

waited for kaly then the five of us took the mrt back to orchard. had to wait freaking long just to return them tins. but it paid off cos we all got two bucks each hehe :D ahwell. then rushed back to schl for dikir. was told again that mrs goh as well as kak faridah are mad at those who went for flag day. like arggg. and i've got another compulsory one next saturday. i'm super super screwed i'd say. arg.

that's about it lah. after dikir i was being very crazy hahaha all together now, HA HA HA. tsk d: then got home only to find the second tupperware of cookies gone. shit man. screw my siblings for eating so much. i didn't bake all that for nothing dammit. so now madrasah classmates probably can't take more than one cookie each. because. from a possible 60, the number went down to 30. bloodyshit man. stupid bro. he already spoilt my weights machine, the one i use to measure ingredients, and now this. and he doesn't deserve those cookies! argggh. pity them having to suffer in his stomache. just the very thought irks me. bleh =X

alright. shall go off to have a bath now. wonder if our class'll get a scolding or two today. haha. last week's was funny. ustzh kalsom (was it?) was giving us a lecture about discipline in class. cos some were eating, then some using handphones (haha i'm not excluded eehee).. then just a few seconds after that statement, turaiya's phone vibrated so loudly hahaha. and we all laughed and she got even angrier cos we laughed for no reason, apparently. HA haha. okay bye -

jangan pisahkan* 1854h. 100204.
hello!

meant to blog yesterday, but somehow didn't feel like it. hohum. anyway yest's pe was so. funnnayyy. hahaha. tripped over nadiah's shoe and fell to the ground, stood up only to find a neat tear on my trackpants. aahahah rofl. highlight of the day man. and we laughed so much. not just because of the tear lah. but my goodness. so damn funny. then was um recess, which was spent finishing up whatever math stuff left over to do. then -jengjeng- was the test itself. no comments, uh-uh.

aiight fast forward to today. was msg-ing * the whole morning from the time i woke up to when the bus was reaching school. lols. what i'm gonn be saying for the next few lines is going to make you laugh the heck out of you, but boy oh boy i'm still so maluated o.O haha. like this: me, being the loser i am, felt sleepy only when bus was reaching sch (ie. after the sji stop) yeah so fell asleep without me knowing. so guess what? when i woke up, the bus juuust only left the sch busstop. took me awhile to digest that, cos it was a bit too scary seeing the bus so empty (when previously it was full of rg people - both sitting and standing) aiyohhh i felt so slenger can. second time in my rg life so far. the first one was worse. cos every single rg girl on the bus missed the stop. as in no one pressed the bell. oooh this rocks. lucky wasn't late both times. ahaha :p

alot of work to finish today. no time to slack. hohum. cannot wait for tmrwww. haha yey so fun. cannot wait cannot wait, aini hurry confirm (+ tahaha.

blah. i cannot believe i'm actually starting to miss *. when there's obviously no reason to. ohwell.

oh no. forgot what i wanted to say. but nevermind. dialogue session just now rocked though. mwahaha. noo was sitting like some fair lady -chuckles- you agree don't you, sne? haha.


Pasrah
Aku pasrah dengan segalanya
Di manakah kesalahanku
Ke manakah arah tujuanku
Benarkah ini semua akibat kecuaianku
Atau mungkinkah ianya punca
Keegoanmu

Tidak
Tidak mungkin semuanya hancur sebegini
Mana perginya janjimu padaku?
Mana perginya kata-kata manismu dulu?
Tidak pernah terlintas di benakku
Sanggup kau tinggalkanku di sini sendirian
Kebingungan

-- liy

because you love me * 1808h. 040204.
aaaah i like today's date: 040204. lols very mmm nice to write/type out hehheh.

anyhoo. i'm in love. with butter cookies yumm :9 kudos to dad's aunt for bringing one whole big tinful of them when she came over for a visit yesterday(+ so yummy my goodness i'm addicted to them hurhur. butter cookies make me happy oh yey. then again, they're gonna add on to my fats... but what the heck. i need some happiness in my life right now. oh bleh =X hahaa... so now you people know what to get me when i'm in need of some cheering up d: chocs work, but butter cookies would be a stronger dose whee. long live the maker of butter cookies!

bwahaha someone had better like her presents as much as we do man! rofl. and dear girl we all know how freaking belated it is so please please forgive us kay? heheh. and enjoy the stuff :D you'll get them very soon, either friday or saturday, depends on what the rest want. (oops am i giving away too big a clue?)

booga. parents left for spm already. so i'm stuck at home with three little brats oh God someone saveeee meeeee =X ooh ami later good good. no plans for fourteenth yet, don't know if i should go help ely with the ppis thing. ohwells. i want go watch stuckonyou. not like my parents' let me man. sigh. wonderful life i lead.

hohum; so much for an entry full of randomness.

drowning in this endless confusion* 1859h. 010204.
woohoo it's february! liy loves february-s (:

haha anyway yes yes back from outward bound woo. past five days were extremely memorable, one-of-a-kind, wet, soggy, hot, dangerous, extreme, blah this that whatever! heheh our watch name was livingstone (pronounced livings-turn); made up of sixteen threefivers as well as our annoyingly endearing instructor boon! bwahaha. learnt loads about almost everything ahh but now i suppose its back to proper civilisation; which means one thing - school. grrrrr.

i feel fat now as compared to what i was yesterday lols. must be all that eating lahh but what the heck it's aidiladha today! didn't do much really, just woke up late (cos my red friend decided to pay me another visit), got ready and went to visit my maternal gramps'. oooh got to see bik ayu goshh did i miss her or what man. lol damn funny lah she. i've got crazynicefunkay relatives cos hey they're related to me :D (hurhur yeah right)

blehh ohh they had dikir yesterday. saw the notice on perbayu board when the bus dropped us off at school so i raaaaaannnnn all the way to mini amphi and tadaa. hehe. so fun i missed dikir. noo ely and kaly weren't there cos of flag day or something. but! haha the three of them plus lobby called me up when i was at home hehe so kecoh man the four of them. missed them like crazy blaahhhh i want to meet slengseven tomorrow can we can we? nyeh.

i have a bloody toe, literally. doesn't hurt though but the blood keeps oozing out in this bubbly thing. alright shan't gross you people out any further d:

well then. i'd better go do some work before watching juaralagu later on. speaking of which, now that obs is over, homework tests projects plus rs (my goodness) all start sinking in. so much to do. thank goodness tomorrow's a holiday. hurhur.

i miss ubin/outward bound. i want to kayak some more. i think i'll go trekking tomorrow. bound for experience. changed for life ahhhh =X

tell me you're not leaving * 2123h. 260104.

life lies before us
here's luck to the start

i know it isn't february yet. but i have no choice really. sorry people. there goes one resolution.

the net isn't safe is it. i can't even write freely here without people backstabbing me. i can't trust anyone outside of slengseven. not. a single. one.

obs tomorrow. finally. five days away from all this whatever. i'm hoping that when i come back, things will be a teeny bit better. is that too much to hope for? don't ask.

alright should go back to the bahas discussion now. and (haha) i managed to squeeze all my stuff into the rg duffel bag. coolio eh? wonder if there's space for telekung lols.

anyhow i'm all set and ready to go. absence makes the heart grow fonder. so watch this space (: till then, take care people.