why make it strong to break it once again * 1728h. 250104.
ahhh have been abandoning this blog for quite some time, hoho. but nevermind. haven't event talked about drama either. and i won't blog much about it, cos memories are best kept in the heart.

i loved 230104. i loved it so much. too much, maybe. but i loved it while it lasted. i loved the way it all ended. i loved how we were on the train together, everything. i loved all that.

then twentyfourhours on, things happened. misunderstandings, this that whatever. i don't get your perception of me. that's your line. but now i think i should be using it. i don't know alright, i don't know. now where are you. we were supposed to freaking talk after lessons just now, but you walked off. so fine. then you told me about what people have been talking about. and so you'd rather believe them, and think i'd be that much of a prasaning b*tch?

i'm so bloody confused i feel like going off to ubin now. you say you don't want to disappoint or hurt me further; oh well too late for that. but my goodness how could you be selfish enough to say you don't want to get hurt yourself? you? hurt? how?! tell me how, damnit. have i not given you enough care and concern damnit. or was it just too much. too much. too much.

boiling mad right now. hurry come online will you. so we can at least attempt at straighten things out. unless you'd want to leave things hanging. which, would obviously create a heckuva mess for me and you too, just you wait and see. i hate you, you selfish monster.

i miss friday. someone tell me why this had to happen. yet again.

maafkan daku, jika salahku* 1844h. 180104.
hey ____.

i look at your nick,

and the first thing i said was ouch.

you're so right. separation hurts dammit.

did you leave that light burning for me* 2307h. 170104.
hollaa. today was a heckuva tiring day. but yeh nevermind.

drama was ultimate bleh. i don't get why cikgu and the directors said it was good. the best out of the many pracs we've had, even. like -insert scream- ! since when seh. sheesh. nevermind. alot of glitches here and there today. this, that, whatever. i'm praying for the best to come on twentythird. please God.

anw after drama went to meet mum. i had two different guy encounters today. walau they got problem with me issit. the first one was at alfalah mosque. i was in pe tee and culottes lah, cos my bag's heavy enough already and i didn't quite feel like bringing an extra change whatsoever. so i was walking to the washroom when these two guys from outside said something like: ehh. eh tu budak raffles ah. wah raffles SEH

and the SEH was in the way fir and uncle ewan say it. like sheesh, got problem ah? and thing is i didn't even notice there were guys behind me when i took off my shoes. arr. must have appeared from nowhere then see the big bold RAFFLES on my tee and started commenting. go away.

so yes. after maghrib went to worldofsports, paragon. yey i like my new pairs of shoes(: esp the schl ones. berry niiiice. okay, limited vocab. but to heck with that. so walked all the way to somerset mrt and this is when guy encounter number two happens. was in the train when these two malay guys walked in and stood in front of me. and oh they were quite short lah, unless it's me who's just too tall :D haha nah, kidding. so anyway the train reached bishan and i had to walk past them to get out right, so then the red shirted one actually leaned over to take a look at my pt and said: oh budak raffles rupernye. bye! eh bukan bye. assalamualaikum.

like, !!!! haiyo. nothing better to do ah. irks me man. i don't think it sounds as bad here, but trust me it was. arrrrg! i shan't ever wear the pt on saturdays. not. ever. hmmpf.



good things do come to an end
and this shall be for the better
the hopes we shared
were much too high

hai. whatever it is you're referring to, i think i've got the same sentiments. especially those in bold.

take it, shake it, break it* 2204h. 150104.
(+

oh scrap that. i don't feel like smiling anymore.

i miss those days. oh heck i do. but whatever. they won't come back. we both know that. so shush. go. please.

hmmmmmpf. oh well on a lighter note,

they come back from obs tomorrow! hahahar. technically, i mean. we'll only see them on saturday though. all chow ta and what have you. -chuckles- miss them heaps. and if they don't miss us when we're gone, HA. hehe nah kidding kidding.

physics test tomorrow. topical review methinks. but still! not like we fully covered the whole topic already seh. and i'm hoping math pt wont be next week. after obs would be fine thankyouverymuch.

i think i'm going queensway tmrw after maghrib. with mum i suppose. blah. i feel -_- whatever that means. thank God it's friday tomorrow. another week flew by pretty fast didn't it? haha(:

but all i want is-

i won't complete that. ha.

liy* caught a star at 1848hours on tuesday 130104
holaa(: well yeah didn't get to squeeze in a blog yesterday. but yeahh for once [okay, maybe not] monday was fun! hahar. well, french was. i was thinking maybe it would be a dreadful lesson, since seventyfive percent of the class' at obs, but then again m yong made the lesson very enjoyable hahar(+ whee. looking forward to friday, as i always have. cos it means the start of the weekend yeyy. and someone has german on friday. hahah. too bad we're not in the same class. but we can't be. cos i'm taking french. d'oh. lols.

been purday busy. and this is like what, the second week. goodness knows what's gonn be of us by the end of uh, the first term -insert snigger-. anyhow, the putihmerah poster is so freaking sleek! haha. should go see should go see! kudos to kak arty lahh. and whoever who helped. it's veryy niceee (: where's the just in love? and where's the love in just? hehe.

i'm dying for drama to be staged. cos i wanna see the fruits of our labour. our meaning the whole cast; actors, props, ava, secfours, everything. yehh. and i'm really really hoping the cikgus'll give the final approval. if not, everyone dies. HA.

anyhow, today was pretty slack though it was a long day. why on earth did they have to change culottes day? hohum. but ohwell i guess it's better than if they had totally abolished culottes day. truthfully, i'd prefer culottes to pinafore anytime. just a thought la. the formal uniform still rocks. with the exception of the belt which might be irritating at times. but still, haha.

i muchos miss elykalynoorobs! boo. and i'm sure the same goes with fanis and nar. aaaaah =X haha, nar was saying how this morning she was wondering how come ely didn't walk into her train carriage lols. blahh. i wonder how they're doing at ubin. i know they're having fun. but please let friday come quick. we miss them loads blahhh. oh nevermind, go enjoy yourselves first and come back with nice hugs to give (: kahkah.



fanis nar azi may not agree. but i'm still on my stand that that white shirted guy at anatolia is charming. really. ahwell. he's so much elder than us i suppose. so (+ hahaha. charming charming. and miss farhanis. next time you want turkish ice cream go order and play that irritating game yourself lah! haha. you weren't the one having to go through the maluation but still you made a ridiculous fool of yourself! shaaaame on you.

haaa kidding la don't cry please. eeeheeehee. but really ah this woman. nanti aku smack! baru tau.

[edit] oh yeyyey i'm very happy now yeyyey. yey. life rocks. kehidupan membatu. works both ways. hah. happy happy shalalala. [/edit]

liy* caught a star at 1646hours on sunday 110104
holllaaaaa(: hohum why'm i so smiley(: just a few hours ago i was tearing like nothing mattered. but hohoho, i'm fine now yes i am.

the trouble with love is
it can tear you up inside
make your heart believe a lie
it's stronger than your pride

haha okay anyway. madrasah was... okay lah. nothing to say. someone kener terok man. ustazah called him sakit jiwer. which means, mentally sick lah. hahah. good, i agree with you ustazah. -insert sheepish grinn- oh and he looks intellectual in specs. and with a misai? -chuckles- ohwell. not like it matters now does it. bleh.

finished my part for the malay proj. hope i did enough lah. i think we've got alot to talk about anyway. just hoping we won't be boring them all. hahah(+

there seems to be a looong list of songs i can relate to nowadays. hahahaha. funny. actually, it's normal. ah i don't know what i'm talking about.

i've a messed up life. i should start learning to pick up the pieces man. it's been a week and i'm still like this. get a grip liy. move on. and i will. just watch.

i'm still mad at him. all you do is dao. dao and dao and dao. fine, stay that way you -insert word here-. grumblegrumble. i don't know, and i don't care. hah how blatant a lie that was. i know i do. but i don't want to. cos it's not worth my time. sheeshness.

maybe a fish fillet would help cheer me up. i've been walking around with a smile plastered on my face. i look cheery even when i'm not. people don't know. and they won't ever. even if they do, they won't understand. forget it, don't even try to understand. hmmfff.

i'm losing my voice. hurts so bad whenever i speak or try to, at the very least. aaaaarrrrr =X



i've tried so hard
to tell myself that you're gone

liy* caught a star at 1945hours on saturday 100104
bleh. i hate my runny nose. and i hate my scratchy throat. even lozenges don't help; freaking irritating man. wargggh.

anyway. i had the nicest dream ever just now. something like the previous nice one; but a more real version. bahh nevermind, not like anyone would understand haha. but it was so nice. and if lobby's in love with the guy who appeared in her dream more than once, without actually knowing who he is/was; then what about me. i jolly well know who that person is. so clearly. and it's you. not like you'd ever find out now. i'm still lost. and you're not here to salvage that. to heck with everything.



i'm actually dreading tomorrow. that has got to go into the records. cos as far as i can remember; i've never ever dreaded madrasah as bad. maybe not at all. arg. and i don't want march to come. not eleventh march at least. some people just don't deserve to be sixteen. hah.

and i'm still so irritated at certain people. i doubt they know who they are, but nevermind. i'm still irritated. hmmpfff. like, grow up.

and i love ustzh saodah(: soooo motherly man. or maybe it's only towards me la huh. hahahahah -chuckles- she'd make a good motherinlaw. not that i'm implying ANYTHING lols.

i'm still dreading tomorrow.

[edit] oh i realised i didn't blog about the converse/kappa bargain i went to haha. orrr did i? ohwell whatever it is. i have this to say: I LOVE MY PULLOVER! :))) [/edit]

liy* caught a star at 2000hours on thursday 080104
arrrrrr. i hate it so when my sibs squabble over food. goodness. i mean, learn to freaking share lah! walau. buggers sia. and in the end, they themselves can't finish. so irritating. bah. what dyou expect. but sheesh, grow up man. the food won't run away. if there isn't enough for everyone then there's always a next time right? sheesh. grrrrr.



aight, sorry about that. just that i really cannot tahan this trait my sibs esp lina and imran have. rawr.

anyways today was a short day. yey from now on we have deux short days :D wippee. anws schl was pretty fine. i lost weight yey(: and grew by a miserable zeroPOINTfive centimetres. rawr. grow liy, grow. hahaha (+ then last block was as expected, anoter rp talk/briefing/whatever. i think it's rather uhmm ineffective. cos the presenters put in effort to put up something for us to listen to cos i guess it's purdy important; but ninety percent don't listen. so what's the point? o.O hais. tmrw's the last talk. good. and it's mt; so won't be half as bad i suppose. hohum.

after dismissal went down to ml rm to do zohor. went to take abulation with robs but dammit! the red friend came again o.O okay not again, but it wasn't so long since the previous one left. hurhur. but then i suppose it means i won't have it during obs hah. hopefully lar(: so then waited for robs then we went to canteen to bring food up to ml rm. eehehe. left soon after to meet mum. bought french books; then chao-ed to uhh j8.

next stop was nanyang optical. prescribed new contacts set. hoho. then looked around for shoes. schl/track. but couldn't find any that was uhh decently priced and nice looking. blah(+ there was this newbalance schl shoe which was at what; fifty pct off. but my mum went NO NO CANNOT. arrrrrggg =X haha. speaking of which. there's something with me and newbalance shoes. i just like them la k(: no offence. lols. walked into the other sports shop and saw the bag siti [the sec2 one] has! arrrrr i waaaant! but its so ex there... so i think i'll go to queensway sometime soon. needa get loadsa stuff. that's not to mention the many subject files, notebooks and such. behhh...

last day of the schl week tmrw. it's inching nearer and nearer to sunday. i'm halfheartedly looking forward to it. i duno what's gonna happen. i don't want to think of what's gonna happen. rawr.

oh i want to watch the "who wants to steal a million" thinga on channelfive. hahaha. but i doubt dad'll let me. but whatever, won't lose out on much. i think. ohwells.



loved you yesterday
yesterday is kaput

liy* caught a star at 2302hours on tuesday 060104
i like my class(+ rah. soon enough i'll love my classmates. harhar. nah really. we're abit quiet at times. but lo and behold, it's only the third day. so :D

today was uhm. good. not too bad. lols. during ss mr chua said this: "girls like chocolates and boys like mint. so if you have a boyfriend, don't give him chocs, give him mints. but mint lowers a guy's potency level, so why give him mints?" eeheheh. i found it funnay ^^ so did nadiah, fatimah, vanessa and resh. -chuckles-

today was a long day. rahhh rs is for two hours? o.O and it's spread over eighteen months. hurah? lols, we'll see. anyways the talk after lunch was bleh. so many slept. i didn't, but my right knee was aching like mad; that's always the case. ackk. i don't like kiasu-ism. nothing good comes out of it. don't you think so? haiyya.

anyhow. rs can be done in interclass grouping! whee i like :D maximum four right, so i'm doing wit lobby, fan, and banarnar. yey new names. and who came up with them? partly yours truly eeheh.

got home and saw one whole truckload [okay, not literally lols] of converse/kappa stuff. first thing i saw was this pretty pretty blue wallet which my parents bought for my bro! eep how unfair. then mum told me this factory/warehouse selling converse/kappa near aisyah's preschool is like having this sale thinga wargg. like, almost fifty percent off. ewpp what a bargain. then they bought me socks(: pretty pretty socks. white school ones; but they're ankle socks so yeys. ooff and my dad bought a pullover -glares- I WANT ONE. BOO. and schl shoes too. behh. sooo mum said she'll bring me there tmrw after schl. yeys(:



oh and tmrw's a wednesday. that means we can wear culottes. yeys(:

came and gave without taking
but you sent me away

ahh don't you love life. girlfriends rock. who needs puppy love? o.O

liy* fell at 1936hours on sunday 040104
okay, firstly:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IZZAT! :)
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KAK ART! :)

haha the two of them are sixteen already. funkayness. have fun being sixteen year olds kays; and may Allah bless you guys with health, happiness and such. rawk on(:



madrasah was o.O ustazah nagged for like half an hour! gee. and everyone was so rimas already. i mean we were supposed to assemble for prayer reading; and she stands there and talks to us for 30 whole minutes about rules and her student life. errrppp. then when she finally finished everyone [or me, aini and turaiya at least] were so -inhales deeply- lol! like finally--- hohum. the rest of the four hours were so so, i suppose. the guys were super quiet [cos no amran or fir], haha.



bleh. nevermind. what was done, was done. history repeated itself. bleh. nvm.

liy* caught a star at 2046hours on saturday 030104
boo(: haha i'm still not quite used to typing out 04 instead of 03 lols. blehh =X anyways i'm freaking tired and in no mood to blog, but beh. it's too early for me to turn in cos we had dinner at eight. but i'm sleepy. so how. brrr

anyways started off the day damn early. i was up at uh five thirty. freaking early ah walau. actually i wouldn't mind, but i woke up with such heavy eyelids and when i went to the bathroom, the horror of thick eyebags greeted me. arrrrr o.O then showered, did subuh and left the house at six. everyone was still very much asleep so i didn't have anything to fill my tummy. not that i'm lazy to do self service, but more like i was running out of time. liyana can never get ready prim and proper in half an hour eeehhehe. unless takyah sembahyang, but that's a different story.

anyways reached orchard mrt at ard sixthirty. me and fanis both came simulataneously, so neither was late wheehee. waited so darn long for the bus [haiyak. and oh there was this lady who was smoking like there aint a tomorrow. irritating sia] bleh. reached sch, fanis went with her prefect friends and i made my way to e101. har. only to find the room freaking LOCKED. arrrrrr. so dropped my bag at ml rm and went to look for fanis. then mr ong suggested looking for one of the security guards. so i did just that. and just then nurulhuda came, so yayness(: anws anws then we were walking to and fro e101 looking for a freaking security guard! finally found one but guess what happened?

me: erm excuseme uncle, can you help us open up e101?
guard [half listening]:-flings hand in the air- -mumblemumble- go -somewheresomewhere- i don't have the key

lols. me and nurul were like, o.O uh what the heck?! so we went on another frantic search and after ages finally mr ong got hold of the keys and opened the rm up for us. by then it was like what, sevenfifteen. and booths are supposed to be ready by sevenfifteen. eehehehe don't we rock. arrrrr.

but still, orientation went fine i guess. quite a number signed up. doesnt matter if its little, cos we have limited spaces left anyway -smirks- i hope adyani joins. she seems nice -grin- she's this indon scholar who joined threefive. yeys. anw back to jnow.

stayed around at the room till like ninethirty or such. went out with kalynoorobs after that to get lunch and return my lib books. bleh was debating between whether or not to uhh take the photo today. but i didn't in the end.

then was drama. which was uh. bad? hohum.

arrrrrr. very sleepy very sleepy. anyway yeyyy tmrw's madrasah :D eeehehehe. i miss my class loads man. but haii. amran won't be joining us anymore, so that takes away abit of the fun. i mean all this while he and fir plus yassir all that, one whole big gang, riot sia. now. not much riot and rowdyness = not really fun. but still. i love my class to bits(: eehehe. can't wait. nvm it'll be morning soon -beams-

okay. my eyes are getting heavy. good night(:

liy* caught a star at 1955h on thursday 010104
eeehehhehe abit late ahh but

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONEEE! (: (: (:

yeahh. really hope twentyohfour will bring more of joy and less of sorrow man. last year was well, good and bad. i've learnt a lot; and i'm gonn really really make sure i don't commit the same mistakes yet again and let history repeat itself. i'm gonn prove to my whole fam that i can, i want to and i will be the good, filial daughter, as well as the exemplary sister i've yet to be. ohwells(: here's to a better year ahead :D you've been warned, so whoever dares to spoil twentyohfour, shall get a kick in his or her very ass. yeah man. better still, a bite from my venemous mouth. so watch out. or else -nyahahahaha- :D

anyways. this year i'd better create a link or something for my archived entries. aaaand entries shall be archived every first of the month, like well, now. hohumm.

my attitude problem-ish comp needs some serious help. and to do that i need the microsoft office installer cd. unfortunately, i don't have one in my posession right now, so would anyone be kind enough as to lend me one? -beams- thanks much!

aaaand this year. i shall be good enough a student. concentrate in class. and pleaseplease dont fall asleep. to accomplish that, i'll have to make sure i get to bed by latest eleven. i'm not one who's able to study in the wee hours of the morning [two to three-ish], so i'll sleep early enough to wake up early enough to be able to sink some facts in before schl everyday. ahh (:

then there's angklung to handle. i've gotta lead well, make sure i'm exemplary to all; and whilst leading, i've to ensure i'm not being biased to any party whatsoever. yada yada.

ahh okay shall that be enough of crapping? lols. and i'd better go do up the shifts for saturday's orientation. why oh why is cca orientation so freaking earlyy =X ergkkk.

okay bye peeps :D and have a great firstdayofschl.