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I'm back at school, and it feels great....a little bit weird, but great nontheless. The V5 exchanged our Christmas presents today. Maryellen had me, and she combined my birthday present with it...she got me a scarf and a perty pink (yes pink) sweater from American Eagle....I love both things! The scarf is soooo warm...I love it! It's so great to be back! 04:08 p.m. I packed pretty much all of my clothes for school tonight. Its all in ONE suitcase...haha but it barely closes. I'm such a girl. I hate packing so much, but I "need" all of it. And I didn't even start with the other things, such as bathroom supplies and other necessities. Haha :) Oye... 09:45 p.m. I'm back from New Hampshire. I loved it up there! It's so serene and peaceful, but there is NOTHING around. And I thought Caldwell was bad...lol. There was this one really sweet place called "Chunkys" - it was a movie theater but you ate there...like dinner. There were these long tables w/ comfy old Lincoln car seats. It was really nice. We saw "Maid in Manhattan" - very cute...very girlie. Anyhoo...I'm beat, going to bed *g'nite* 12:09 a.m. I hate my body and the way it works....or should I say the way it DOESN'T work. I had to take the patch off the other day because my hives got so bad that I was bruising from stratching so hard. I was in so much pain, oh God, it was unbearable. I had my doctor at home (I'm still in New Hampshire) to call in a prescritpion up here for cordozone pills. This sucks. How can be allergic to this shit?! It doesn't make sensE. I'm so upset by this, I feel defective. Damn patch. So now Brianna gets to try all these different pills to see which ones work since my other pills - the ones I've been taking for over a year don't work anymore. This truely sucks! Grrr. But on a good note, New Hampshire is fun....slopes are great. I forgot how much I love skiing! Beckie stopped by on Friday and gave me my birthday present....a COLIN FIRTH mouse pad, a V54L picture, and a TCNJ music compilation of all the stuff we listen to all the time! THANKS Beck! Lisa is in Florida now, she called me yesterday, but our connection sucked. I gotta go...skiing later (I'm in New Hampshire) bye 10:48 a.m. Beckie and I went to the boro today. We finally left around 3, and since I have a lead foot, we got there in no time at all. We chilled with Phil for a couple of hours until the weather got pretty bad and we had to go home because my mom was freaking that I had to drive in those conditions. I had so much fun today though. We met the parents, brother, and the much talked about guinea pigs. It was really great to see Phil again. Actually, this is the second time I've seen him over break, the most out of everyone at school. He came up to visit the Sunday before Christmas because he was bored and neither of us had anything to do. Beckie and I did some major catching up and girl talking in the car both ways...I love that girl...my Bobbsey Twin. We picked up right where we left off, saying the same things at the same time and just being us. Haha. She gave me a little "present" when we went to Applebees for dinner. Her and her friends from home went to NYC one day last week and they went to the big Toys R Us and she took a picture of nonother than ET! And she gave me a copy of the picture....ahhh....she said it moved! Haha...if I was there I would have freaked out! That thing is soo ugly! I'm sure you all know my fear of ET....ugh...just thinking about it. Actually, I tried to be brave and watch it (by myself) last weekend, and I got through the first 5 minutes, but after that I couldn't do it. I just think its so ugly. GROSS. 11:04 p.m. Yea so apparently my pills aren't working the way they are supposed to. So you would think it's pointless to take them anymore, right? NOOOOO....I gotta keep taking them for some odd reason. I'm kinda pissed off about that, but the good news is that I started the patch today, and hopefully ::crosses fingers:: I won't be allergic to this! Oh God I hope not, that would just make my life hell. Anyway, if I'm not allergic, then my problem might be fixed! And if I am, then I have to play the role of a Guinea Pig and try all different types of medication. So just hope that this patch works! Anyhoo, I'm off to the boro with Beckie....this is gonna be a fun day, and I get to see Phil in the process! :D 02:15 p.m. Sunday, January 5, 2003 Happy New Year! And it's been a crazy all the way. On my birthday, I met up with Mel, Kate, Kelly, and Ryan and we went to a party together, complete with snobby ass chibs...for certain censorship reasons, all I'm going to say is that it was off the hook...I'm done. Today, Beckie and I are going to Hillsborough to visit Phil and Mitch. I'm so excited! This is going to be so much fun. We finally get to meet the person who makes the best brownies and cookies! Hah. Woot woot. 09:48 a.m. It's my birthday! Woot woot. And I'm stuck at work. Nothing to do. In an hour PASSIONS comes on, so I'll get to watch that, but until then I'm just doing some busy work. Yesterday was the day from hell. I finally got home around 6ish...got ready and then some people came over to watch Super Troopers...hysterical....so funny. Anyhoo, Jes left and Lisa, Bobby, Glen, and I went to Tristan's house for a lil partay. A drunk Alex gave me f*cked up directions and it took me a while to figure out where the house was. But when we got there, Nikhil and Dan asked me to drive them to Wendys, and being the sucker I am, I said ok. So we went back to the house, and everyone was there...Alex, Nikhil, Dan, Tristan, John, Tim and Frenchy (whom I go to school with at TCNJ, but never see...so it was a treat) and some other people that I didn't know. So, I played beer pong with Frenchy, and Lisa joined my side and I taught her how to play...we won by the way. Frenchy was a drunken mess, but shhhh. Then Nikhil and I partnered up (Nik drank all the beer because I had to drive) and we played Dan and Alex. But this damn game went into double overtime...it got so boring, and since I suck at pong (I RULE AT QUARTERS...thats my forte), Nikhil was basically the whole team. So Alex and Dan ended up winning. And by this time it was like 1:30, so it was time to go home. I'm in my room for no longer than 10 minutes when Min IMs me and wants to treat me to lotto cards and coffee since its my birthday. So I pick her up and we go to 7-11. There were these hot guys in there who were relentlessy hitting on both of us. The blond one looked just like Billy, but hotter. We ended up buying Crosswords scratchoffs (my fav) and the Billy look-alike insisted we buy this other kind because it "is the best" so we bought that too. After that, we went to upper Dunkin, and got some coffee when this old man freak guy walks in behind us and is in awe of how other people are awake during "his time of the night" haha. So we scratch our lotto cards and since it was MY birthday, of course Min wins...even thought she NEVER wins...I always do, but oh well. The nice D&D man gave us a free crawler and we split that and talked about school, made plans for future vacations, and played the "remember when...?" game. It was a fun night. I'm at work now...nothing really to do, so I'm chillaxing. I babysat today from 8 to 3ish...I took the kids to McDonalds for lunch - haha they are so cute. So after I left there, I came to work. My boss isn't here, and it's REALLY slow. Malorie called my cell and we ended up talking for like 40 minutes. I haven't talked to her since we were at school. It was cool to catch up since she lives in upstate New York...too damn far away if you ask me. I miss that girl...she always knows how to make me laugh. Today, she goes (in her little Malorie accent) "THAT IS WACKED!" we were talking about what we usually talk about (boys) haha...I guess you have to know her to understand. I went over to Lisa's house for some good ol' chillaxing. We ended up playing BOGGLE with her family and then watching "Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom". I had never seen that before, and I really liked it. Harrison Ford...oh my god. That's all I have to say about that. Haha, what is it with me and older guys....haha Beckie knows what I'm talking about! You've got: Harrison Ford, COLIN FIRTH, Bruce Willis, Dennis Quaid, Mel Gibson, Richard Gere, and so many others...haha. But I think COLIN FIRTH tops them all...but that's just me and my obsession with English people and their accents *sigh* ha! Anyhoo...I gotta get up early for tomorrow, babysitting at 8am....hellz yea...g'nite! 12:49 a.m. I went to the mall today to return some stuff that I got for Christmas, and I ended up buying 2 new shirts and some socks. I love shopping! I have over $200 to Old Navy from the family for Christmas...so I can't wait to spend that! 05:14 p.m. We ended up not going to NYC tonite....it didn't work out because some people dropped out at the last minute. So anyway, I decided to stay in because my parents were going out, and I love being home alone. It was a productive evening...I ordered pizza, watched Ice Age/, The Importance of Being Ernest (for the second time today) COLIN FIRTH is in that movie along with Rupert Everet, Reese Witherspoon, and Judy Dench. It was pretty funny. I baked cookies, and then attempted to get over my fear and watch ET...but I couldn't do it. haha. I got through the first 5 minutes (at the most) and had to turn it off. haha I am a loser. It's just that that dream I had when I was younger traumatized me...haha. Merry Belated Christmas! I hope santa treated you very well! I know, I love all of my gifts this year. I got some great ish. For Christmas Eve, my family and I went to my cousins (Victor and Kathy) house. That was a lot of fun. I love my mom's side of the family. On Christmas Day everyone came over our house for dinner. Later that night, Min, Nikhil, John, Rachel (Min's friend from NYU) went to Versailles for coffee and food and then came back to my house and watched a movie on the comfy couch. I had fun. We got our Christmas tree today. That means I had to get up at 6:30 so I could take a shower. I'm tired. But when am I not tired? Haha. So I basically slept all day after we got back. I'm turning into Malorie. Later, Nikhil and I are going to grab some coffee, probably at Upper Dunkin. Well American Dreams is on, so I'm gonna go. 07:50 p.m. Well, I pulled off a B in Stat....don't know how I did it, but I'm not complaining! I got my grades on-line today.
I'm so happy! I made Deans List! Oh God...what a great feeling! It's very wierd being home...good wierd though. I'm not used to being here for more than a day or two. I guess this will prepare me for the inevitable 3 month summer break. What's one of my many quotes? "If this does not kill me, it only makes me stronger" Besides, I'm only home for one month, and I know it will go by quickly. And I know I will be seeing people from school during break...so it's all good, but I still miss them! I miss talking to my roomie about random ish, and laughing at her falling off of her bed. Jen is the best. And the V54L...the 5 of us won't be together completely for a little while....we always have great talks, venture off to the swings at all ungodly hours of the night, and decide to do things together (haha not together, together, like not at the same time together) and we all follow through (you girls know what I'm talking about - heh)...did I mention that we were drunk and coming home from a party? Good times, good times. And I know there will be plenty more to follow. Yea, so I haven't updated in AGES...I have a lot to say, but no time right now. I'm actually about to head off to work (1st day back) but I do want to say: and that is all....I'll elaborate later. 09:43 a.m. Friday, December 13, 2002 Well the topic for tonight is how much we all hate boys! I am sitting here in Maryellen's room, on her computer and listening to everyone bitch and complain about boys. I hate how guys always complain about how evil girls are. That's not fair. Girls do no lead guys on, they don't use and throw away guys - granted girls are very complicated beings, but boys should learn to deal with that. GRRRRR. haha I'm rambling on and on and I have no idea what I'm saying.
Romantic-Sexy.... Your fantasies involve love, not lust. You are a fantastic kisser, and for very good reason: it's your favorite thing. You are sappy as hell, and you don't care who knows it. 03:17 p.m. It's finally FRIDAY! Yesterday it snowed...we got about 5 or 6 inches and they cancelled classes. No anthropology, no anthropology paper - sweetness. I got to play in the snow!!!! We had a huge snowball fight outside...I got tackled too many times, I'm sore today. Beckie, Katelynn, and I started to make a snowman, but we got distracted when Jen was being burried under the snow and ran to help her! haha. It was such a fun day...I LOVE SNOW! I got my hairs cut...all of them...its short, shoulder length. I likey. So last night, I got to see Min, Andy, and Keith!! Yay. Of course Andy tackled me a million times and tickled me until I almost peed in my pants - and that is why I HATE being tickled. Haha. I got the stripper pictures back today...haha I forgot how hot Dino was!! I'm gonna mo-chillax with Jes tonight...don't know what we're doing, and I really don't care, I just wanna ill. 08:23 p.m. Happy belated TURKEY DAY!! I'm home...I have been since Tuesday night. I had my car at school since Saturday night. So on Monday, Phil, Mike, Malorie, Chelsi, and I went to the TGIFridays at Market Fair. Good times haha. Then we went to Halo for Maryellen and Katelynn because they didn't come out to dinner with us. On Tuesday, Beckie said she wanted to go to Halo too...so the two of us went at 9:30am. We drove around a bit, exploring...its a good feeling when you figure out the area around your school. haha. I had to drive home Tuesday night...oye, that was a loooong drive home. I finally left school at like 5, and hit major traffic...especially on the parkway. It took me about 2 1/2 hours to get back home...it usually only takes an hour and 15 minutes. Its all good though, I had my music on. haha. Then that night I had to finish a final that was due the next day at 5pm...grr. It ended up being 9 pages typed - single spaced! Pain in the ass. Wednesday was good. I got my nails done...finally...it was too long since I got them done. Went to Nikhil's house, then to the gym, and came home to help mom bake pies. On Thanksgiving I went to my grandmother's house...good food...too much food. I'm planning on starving myself for the next couple of days haha. Jes slept over last night. We played "catch-up" I missed her! We havne't seen each other since September when she came to visit me at TCNJ. She is the sweetest person! I love Jes! Today I have to go to the doctor and do some other errands. Plans for tonight aren't definate yet, but I hope they're good. I have this 15 page paper that I need to work on for anthropology. I haven't started yet, so I need to do that sometime today and tomorrow. This weekend was tons of fun. I went back to good old Caldwell Friday night with Beckie and Malorie. I showed them the fun things to do around town...that lasted about 5 minutes. We drove past some houses....one hint: "I'm in love with a man nearly twice my age" haha! That definately gave it away. I also took them to Highlawn Pavilion (Eagle Rock Reservation). That is this place by my house that over looks NYC. You can see the sky line and all the pretty lights...it's really beautiful up there. But since I came to school, they remodeled the entire place! It looks great. They erected a memorial for 9/11. Haha...so we're at the Reservation, reading the names of the people who were killed that day thats engraved on the wall when this kid walks up to Beckie and goes "kinda romantic, isn't it?" haha! So we talk to this kid for a bit, and then decide to leave....long story short, he flashes us! Haha, but Beckie and I turned away at the right moment, but Malorie saw his dick. Hahahaahahahahaa! After Thursday night with DINO, of course this had to happen to Malorie. Anyhoo...we went back to town, I got to see Andy! And then we went to Versailles and met up with Nikhil. All in all it was a great night. Saturday....all three of us passed out on my TV room couch - the COMFIEST COUCH - and wake up to none other than Min jumping on me! Haha! She was clever enough to call my mom and ask her to wake me up! It was great to see her....it's been a while. Then the girls and I did some erands, went to the volleyball game, which we WON (but I already told you about that) and then drove back to school. Today was the laziest day, but I did get some work done. American Dreams wasn't on - BOOOOO - so we watched "Sliding Doors" instead. And now that I've procrastinated some more, I'm going to get work done! 11:02 p.m. WE WON! Caldwell won the Group 2 State Final game against Union Catholic! ahhhh! It was such a great match! The scores of the game were 11-15, 15-8, 15-13 or something like that! We won! I'm so happy for them! I was in the stands screaming like a lunatic...but that's what I do, right? haha. It was so great to watch them play. During the whole game, I was remembering my state final game against the same team 2 years ago. The matches were kind of similar, we lost the first one 16-14, and won the next two 15-8, 15-5 - haha I remember the scores. I remember EVERYTHING about those games. Oh man...memories. Such good memories. That was my junior year, and we ended up with a record of 29-0 and the team this year is 28-0 - triple crown champions for both seasons....conference, county, and state! Oh man, I'm on such a high right now! I couldn't be prouder of my girls! They deserve it! Yay!
The past two weeks have been pretty bad. So much has happened that last Tuesday (the night it all started) seems like AGES ago. But it's Friday, and things are much better! Woohoo. Yesterday was Malorie's 18th birthday. We "ordered" her a stripper.....sooo hot! He came last night! So hot! Did I say that already? He really was very pretty. I'm going home tonight until tomorrow night becuase CALDWELL VOLLEYBALL IS IN THE STATE FINALS AGAINST UNION CATHOLIC (booo....hissss) They are our biggest rivals. We beat them my junior year in the state finals and I'm hoping for a repeat! So, I'm going home with some TCNJ folk. Beckie and Malorie are coming with me. Maryellen might come, but Katelynn isn't. Toinght we're going to mo-chillax and I'm gonna show everyone around my boring-ass town! But around 12:30 we're gonna have a renunion at Versailles....Nikhil is coming home and Min and Andy might come with us! Just like the old times! I haven't seen Nikhil since the Monday before I left to come here....that was August. I love Nikhil! I'm so excited! I can't wait until Thankgiving Break! No school for 5 days and I get to chill with my family. Haha that's all I've been talking about...chilling with the family. My mom and I are going to see the new Harry Potter movie! I can't wait!! I love Harry Potter! 02:24 p.m. I'm in stats now...and as usual, I'm extremely bored!! 8:00am math classes are NOT my thing. Not at all. I'm dreading this final. Just want to be over and done with it. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Okay, I'm done. Thank God it's Friday! This week went by so friggin slow. It was such a horrible week....everyone had something happen....and things are looking good for Phil, Scott, and Paul....GOOOD! ello, ello. I had to register for my classes this morning at 6 am. I set my alarm for 5:40 and I didn't get up when it went off. Or maybe I did and forgot about it, but anyhow...THANK GOD Beckie and Amy are good friends because my cell phone rang at 6:15 and Beckie goes "Bri...are you up?" haha. They are my heros! Love them! Yea so Jen woke up with me and she helped me get all my classes...so a big fat THANK YOU to all three of them! It took about 45 minutes to get everything because TESS (tcnj's on-line scheduling system) times you out like every 5 minutes. Pain in the ass. But I'm a happy camper. I have to register for my classes tomorrow (Thursday) at 6am! How ridiculous is that? I miss the high school guidance counselors who did all the work for you! My cousin, Celeste, is pregnant!!! She's due in June, and I'm so excited! Right now she lives about 40 minutes away from my house....but she's moving literally 5 minutes away over the winter. That means I get to visit the BABY anytime I want to! If you know me, then you know I love babies!!!! When Celeste told me I was so happy! I can't wait - haha. 10:07 p.m. Today is the official beginning of my "8 pills-a-day" schedule. Grrr. Sucks. Makes me unhappy...but I'll survive. Malorie and I made a deal and I'm sticking to it! I've been good all day. Sorry for the vagueness, but deal with it. I can't believe I forgot to mention the most important thing that happened on Friday night.....CALDWELL BEAT LIVINGSTON IN THE COUNTY FINALS! We won, we actually won! You have no idea how happy that makes me. I wish I could have been to the game, but I'm going hom for the state finals...definately. My mom called me after game one with the score: 15-8. Then after game two she said we lost: 5-15. So, she calls me for game three (at game point) and gave me the play-by-play....and we won: 15-8! I'm so proud of them! 10:41 a.m. Yeah, so Friday night, I went to Metuchen with my friends (Maryellen, Malorie, and Beckie) because that is where Maryellen lives. She wanted to go to her cross country match today so she could see her old friends and asked us if we wanted to spend the night at her house. So we took the train to her town late Friday afternoon. When we got in Metuchen...we went out to dinner w/ her friend Carl. It was his 21st birthday so we got a little "surprise" ice cream for him. Afterwards, she gave us a tour of her home town. That night....at 11:45, we went to the movies to see "THE RING" Oh holy fucking shit.....that was by far the scariest movie I've ever seen!!!!!! Maryellen and I were attached to each other the entire time. And I had chills running up and down my spine for the whole movie! Scarey shit, lemme tell ya! There was one point in the movie where I threw my legs over Malorie because I was so freaked out! OMG!! So scary....no exaggeration!!! It was so good though...DEFINATELY worth the $8.75 we spent! Wow. I kinda want to see it in the theater again only because it was kind of confusing and I want to be able to figure it out. So, today, we go to the mall and shop around. I bought slippers in Old Navy...they are nice and perty - baby blue. We took this survey thing, are *supposed* to try this concealer. So in a week these people are going to call to see how we like it and then they will send a check for $20 in the mail! That's awesome. We all got 20 bucks for doing NOTHING! That made me happy. So we get back to TCNJ, chillax for a bit and then decide to watch "THE RING" again because it was soo good! Malorie down loaded it on her computer and we all (Phil, Matt, Malorie, Maryellen, Beckie, Christina, Scott, Mitch, and I) watched it. I picked up on some things that I didn't notice last night, but I still want to see it in the theater again. And that brings us to the present. My mom and dad are coming down here tomorrow because they miss me! I miss them too...so I can't wait to see them. And I'm on Maryellen's computer, so I'm gonna go. Talk to you later! 11:51 p.m. Yea so I started talking to Todd again yesterday. We've been playing "catch-up". Its always cool to talk to people you haven't in a while. This day has been so BLAH...I think I'm getting sick and I have a really bad headache...and I'm done bitching!!! It's 10:00 and I really don't want to go to bed, but there is nothing else to do. Haha...I lead the typical life of a college freshman. Well I'm going to find something to do. 09:56 p.m. SHOUT IT OUT! Hahahaaaa. This weekend has been the most unproductive ever. I didn't do anything...well actually, that's a lie. I watched 5 movies, cleaned my room, organized my music files, burned some CDs, downloaded about 20 movies, and of course, I slept. So, yea. It's been a crazy weekend lol There was some ish though....haha. You know what I'm talking about. hahahaaa. Never have I laughed so hard! Its 12:40 now and I'm about to go to bed....earliest since I've been here, but I'm exhausted from doing nothing. Good night all! 12:38 a.m. Its 7:20am on a Sunday morning....WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING UP?!?!! Well, I get to make $75 today. You know those people who walk around neighborhoods and put hangers on people's doors remdinding them to vote? Well, today, that's me! Its gonna be freezing, but I'll survive. A bunch of people from my floor are doing it with me....75 bucks....thats 15 parties....haha! I have to work from 9 until 5, we get picked up at 8:15...and then I dunno how it works. I've never done this before. Oh well. Call my cell to keep me company! MWAH 07:20 a.m. I *finally* got my anthropology midterm back yesterday.......I GOT THE HIGHEST GRADE IN THE CLASS - 97!!! You have no idea how happy that made me! I studied my ass off and it was definately worth it! I have (as Beckie would say) a "perm-a grin" lol
So lately, I've been missing Minnerz and Andy a whole bunch! Andy and Keith are going to come visit me soon - I can't wait. But I miss Min! I miss our talks, nights at Versailles and lower Dunkin, lotto cards at Sevs and me always winning (she never wins), getting lost, and just plain driving around. I can't wait until Thanksgiving - 3 weeks! I guess its because of how I'm feeling now that I want to be able to sit down and talk w/ her...I dunno...this is just a passing thing, I'm sure. Oh well. I have stuff to do. Wow, I haven't updated in so long. I've been pretty busy. I didn't get my midterm back, so I'm still nervous about that! There really isn't anything to catch up on. Caldwell won the volleyball match against Lakeland 15-4, 15-10! I'm so proud of them! Some people improved SO much!! After the game, I went to doctor appointment #1...got another one tomorrow. Ugh...pain in my ass. Yea so I got another pill to take...haha another one to add to the stash! grr. So I didn't get the chance to have mom cut my hair, so next time. I'll just have to deal with it being way too long. I went to open volleyball tonight at Washington School. I remember how much I loved playing there! I got to see all the same people (I love Walter...he's such a sweetie) and Mr. Lingren (my favorite teacher - had him for physics senior year) was there playing! And if I do say so myself...I rocked! I played extremely well considering I haven't seriously played since last season (last fall). I miss is so much. I just don't miss the asshole twin coaches...they were so horrible today...nothing has changed...still the screaming lunatics they've always been...made a few girls cry...nothing new. I remember going home from practices and games crying because of their assholeness. So, while we were playing tonight, I'm about to serve and I hear a "psssst" and I turn around and it was ANDY! Andyboy saw my away message and came to Washington school to say hi! I love that kid! He's like my best friend. I've grown up with him since I was like 2 or so! So it was great seeing him. And after we were done, I went to his house to say "hi" to the family...I missed them too. They're like my second family, along with Min's family. So we talked for a while. And that brings us to now. Oye...hectic day, and it's not even over yet. I went to 3 different places looking for 8 pairs of fishnet stockings, and I ended up only finding 7....it will have to do because I'm not going out again. At 4, I'm going to my high school and watching the volleyball match! I'm so excited, it's going to be so weird to watch it and no play in it! But I can't wait! woohoo! 03:17 p.m. I'm home now. And my tummy hurts. But I'm watching The Breakfast Club so it's all good. "why do your inhibitions go to shit when you drink?" I'm going home soon. Tonight we're having dinner at my dad's mom's house. It's the triple birthday celebration. My dad and his brother and sister all have October birthdays...and him and his sister are the same day, 13 years apart. So, gonna have some good, quality home cooked grub. I'm coming back to TCNJ Tuesday...gonna miss it here. We have good times - lol. But I can chill w/ the family and get some sleep. It's fall break now, so no classes (for me) until Thursday at 2!! hah! 12:53 p.m. last night....haha!! One word can sum up my Anthropology midterm .... oye! I'm very upset. After I left I didn't want to think about it, so I tried to keep my mind off the subject all night, but now that I'm about to go to bed and my mind is clear, its all I can think about. And I'm sad. I studied so hard for the test....for the past 3 days I've done nothing buy study....the people on my floor were practically forcing me to take breaks. My professor sent out a word list for the midterm and she told us what the test format was gonig to be like....NOTHING like she said! The words I studied weren't on the test and there were 2 multiple choice, 3 fill in the blanks, 2 short answer, and 7 essay - yea 7 essays - that is such crap. I'm very upset. But I'll find out how I did next Thursday, and hopefully I won't have to resort to suicide. 02:34 a.m. My muscles are so sore! Beckie and I are on a regemented Tae Bo and 8-minute Abs schedule....ouchies. But its for a good cause. So I have a midterm on Thursday - Anthropology - oh God. I'm scared. I gotta study my ass off for the next 2 days. Yesterday was "community day" at my school, and everyone's parents came for the day. So of course mine came too! It was great seeing them. We went out to dinner and then to the mall where we had a major shopping spree! :) OLD NAVY is my favorite store! My mom bought me: My parents are the COOLEST people ever! I forgot to tell you, but on Wednesday, I go to check my mail and found out that I have a package! They sent me all this Halloween candy with some decorations! I was so happy. It was the first package I received here! Yay. Speaking of Halloween, my roommate, Jen, decorated our room...it looks awesome! I love that girl! As soon as I update, I'M GOING TO DO HOMEWORK....that's a promise! Last night was full of ish. Unbelievable. Everyone on my floor has a story, good or bad. Haha. I had fun though. I have a nice bruise on my head from when everyone fell on me in the hallway...when I thought I broke my thumb haha. Maybe thats why I have a headache. lol.
Today is Maryellen's 18th Birthday. She's finally legal! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE! It's been over a month and I'm paying for it dearly now. I'm in excruciating pain. I can't pee, walk, or even sit without wanting to kill myself. This can't be good... I came back to TCNJ today. Kind hearted Bob drove me in! It feels good to be back. Wednesday is Maryellen's 18th birthday! We're going to celebrate tomorrow night [Tuesday]....if you know what I mean ;) 02:05 a.m. I went to 7-11 last night to buy a lotto ticket since it's been ages since I got a chance to do that. So, I bought CROSSWORD (my favorite - I always win with it) and I won $5! The card cost $3, so I made 2 bucks! Yay! It's the simple things in life. Hola. I'm still home #1. I go to home #2 (school) tomorrow. Bob is going to pick me up at like 11:00 or so and then I should be there by 12:30ish. My first class is at 2:00 so I'll be ok. I had fun this weekend, spending time with my family and friends, but I feel so out of the loop from TCNJ. A lot happened, that I wish I was there for...ahem ahem. But oh well. I think I'll recover...just smile and nod, just smile and nod. I'm so tired now, so I think I'm gonna be heading off to bed. I'm in NYU now...we had a lot of fun tonight! I met all of Min's cool friends. We did some shopping. I bought something for someone on of the people one my floor whose birthday is on Wednesday. She's gonna love it! Then Min and I went to Calientes for dinner (etc). We went to times square to play LASER TAG - awesome! I love the city. It's tons of fun! We're actually watching "Monsters Inc" now...such a great movie! Bobby should be here very soon to pick me up. He's being so kind and driving me home. I'm on the way...he lives in Madison, and I'm in Caldwell. Yay! I'm so excited! Getting my nails done tonight & I can't forget the eyebrows...they need to get done. Then I'm chillaxing in w/ the fam. But tomorrow, I'm going to NYC bright and early to visit my Minnerz who I haven't seen since August 22 (the day I moved in to TCNJ) and miss terribly! I'm staying over Saturday night. We're going to CALIENTES for dinner and then illing w/ her friends. Yay. Sunday is the street fair in my town! I can't wait to go! Wahooo! So, I've been sick the past couple of days....I hated it. I missed 3 classes in two days b/c all I was doing was sleeping. But I feel MUCH better now. Alrighty, well I'm gonna go get ready for Bobby. TTYL 02:40 p.m.
Good morning all! I hardly did any homework this weekend...and now I'm paying for it. Grr. Oh well. It's my own fault. Min and I made a date for the second weekend in November to visit Jes in BOSTON! So we decided to drive up there on Friday and back home on Sunday. You know what that means....we're soooo gonna get lost! Hahaa! It's inevitable. But we're gonna have a blast! Have you ever gone to bed, had a bad dream (but can't remember what it was about) and wake up upset? I hate it when that happens...but I feel weird now. I'm just tired a guess. Gotta go make up for lost time in the homework department! 10:32 a.m. I haven't updated in a few days....I got Phil and Scott to quick smoking! How great is that?! I hated the way Phil smelled all the time, but now he smells normal. Haha. Thursday was the Friends priemere - I like it - it wasn't as funny as I thought it was going to be, but I liked it all the same. On Friday I had my first stats exam. I think I did ok...I don't want to say anything because I don't want to get my hopes up. Friday night, Beckie, Maryellen, Katelynn, and I went out to dinner (TGIFridays) with the boys lacrosse team, and then back to their house and chillaxed. It was a lot of fun.
So, I woke up this morning at like 9:30 (I went to bed at 5) and decided to put Pride and Prejudice in - COLIN FIRTH! haha! Such a good movie. Last night we went to Sig Tau...so much fun! Don't ask why, we just had a blast. K-MART!!! OH...we got a ride home in a Jeep Wrangler (one of my favorite cars) - so all of a sudden the guy goes "wanna play Nintendo?" haha. he had Nintendo hooked up in his car! So we were playing Duck Hung and Super Mario Brothers! How great is that!? Awesome. Then at like 2:30 am we ordered Cluck You - such good food! Mmmmmm.
So, I go to get my mail today and Beckie sent me a letter! How cute is that? lol. She sent it to me because I told her I never get mail. She's awesome. Well, I was talking to Jes before and she told me that she got her nipples pierced! I'm soo not surprised! I love that girl! Anything can happen w/ her...and believe me, it does! I love you Alexandria! My sister passed away 6 years ago today. She was 6 days old when she died. I think about you all the time sweetie! MWAH
Last night was total craziness! We played Taboo in the t/w main lounge...boys vs. girls...haha. It was just so much fun! Girls won the first game (50) and the boys won the second one (25). Everyone is getting so good at it too. I got the record of 6 words, only to be beaten by Beckie, who got 7! It was amazing! Having that much fun should be illegal - or something like that - I don't know what I'm talking about. I responded - very harshly might I add - to my Grandmother's letter. I didn't put up with any of the shit she sent me. Get this...she sent me a calling card and told me to use it to call my father and Ann Marie to make things better. Can you believe that? So I sent the stupid card right back and told her to send it to her son. There is no way I'm calling him after what he did to me (or didn't do) on Father's Day and Graduation! So, I sent the letter yesterday. It was a pretty hefty letter too...4 pages typed...single spaced. I'm really nervous now, don't know why, but I am. When I put in the mailbox (ask Beckie) I was literally shaking. This is NOT going to go over well. Oh well...
We played Taboo again in the classroom last night. Girls vs. Boys - Girls won! It was a lot of fun. Something that will be repeated many times! I had a fun night last night - decided to stay in b/c I didn't feel the whole getting dressed up to go out. So a bunch of people played Taboo...that was so much fun! Beckie, Chris, and I watched Spiderman - Tobey Maguire....OMG! haha. And some girls on my floor have A Walk To Remember, oye....good movie, but the book was 100 times better. All of Nicholas Sparks' books are awesome, there wasn't one that I didn't cry/sob when reading. I woke up and realized that the stupid letter wasn't a dream. lol. Don't you hate that...something bad happens, you go to bed, and the next morning you think it was all a bad dream, but then you realize that it really happened. Grrr. I guess the thing that really angers me the most is the stupid calling card thing. She sent me a calling card and told me to call my dad and Ann Marie with it. No way. I did my part. I called him on Father's Day only to get hung up on. No way. He didn't call for graduation or anything...so there is NO way in hell I'm calling him. I'll send the card back to her and tell her to give it to her damn son and have HIM call me...that's the way it should work. That whole family tries to act all pious and righteous, but they are totally the opposite. All they ever talk about is God this, and the Lord that, but they are such hypocrites! Mean People Suck. heh. 10:40 a.m. Last night was a lot of fun. We ended up going to Sig Tau - good party. A few more jokes to add to the pile! haha I just got back from lunch with Bobby. Haha. I had a great time. I haven't seen him in AGES! He taught me some new games and I taught him some good ones too :D He told me that he's going to schedule a weekend trip to Philly with some of his friends and one of them will be Russ. Russ was his college roommate at Rider...I met him at Bobby's graduation party....oh my my my! Let's just say that I would NOT mind spending a weekend w/ him! Sahweeeet! haha.
Nikhil is coming tomorrow and spending the night. That will be fun. I haven't seen him since that night we all went out to dinner before everyone went off to school. I love Nikhil - he's a cool kid. Andy isn't coming - he has fire school. Happy 4 week anniversary to my TCNJ buddies! It's been 4 weeks since we moved in. It feels a lot longer than that though. Beckie brought this to our attention today at lunch. It's so werid - like 4 weeks ago, I hardly new anyone. I knew Jen, Tim, Frenchy, and Sonia...and those last three people aren't in the same building as I am. But now, like my floor is so close and I know other people from classes and where ever. Yea, its sentimental time again for Bri. haha. You all know you love me anyway! 04:02 p.m. Tonight was a lot of fun. We went into Trenton to see some bands play. Tomorrow I have a 2:00 and a 5:00...not too bad. ONE week until Friends starts! Wooohoooo. Did you know: I had my first college exam today - Spanish - I think I did ok. We'll so find out. 07:05 p.m. Today was such a lazy day! I got up at 7:15 for my 8:00 Stats class - BORING! Then I came back, and slept for like an hour and a half. Had a 12:30 World Religions class, came back and slept for three hours and I'm still exhausted! My mom thinks I'm getting sick. I really hope not. Actually, I opted to stay in tonight instead of going to a frat because I'm soo tired and I have a spanish test tomorrow. So, yes, I am a dork! Tomorrow morning I have a 9:30 Psychology lecture...grr. I need sleep.
UGH...during one of my naps before, Lori kept IMing me...wouldn't stop. I know she didn't know that I was sleeping b/c my away wasn't on, but it woke me up and made me sad. Okay, so I went on a total BEACH BOYS downloading spree! I love them! I need to see them in concert again - good times. Their music just puts me in a good mood - I love it! Maryellen, Beckie, Katelynn, and I might hang out with the lacrosse boys tonight - you know, to get to know them before our trip to Maryland next weekend ;D 09:44 a.m. Make him stop IMing me! OMG.
Last night, Beckie, Katelynn, and I did the advanced Tae Bo. Oh man. We didn't even get through the whole tape. It was hard. But some parts were a lot of fun. We'll try again next week or something. Convention was awesome! I loved it! I loved seeing my parents - I didn't realize how much I missed them until I saw them. So, here's the run down of my weekend - its gonna be long, so just deal with it: And that, in a nutshell, was my wonderful weekend! 09:33 p.m. Last night - oye vey. Beckie and I were doing our 27 minute Tae Bo when this kid Joe came and did it with us. Then we decided to do the 8 minute workout and Mike came to watch and before we knew it Dan was there w/ a whole crowd laughing at us. haha. After that Beck and I decided to do the 27 minute workout again. So all in all, we did Tae Bo for over an hour last night, and let me tell you, I'm feeling it now!
I was schedueled to give blood today, but I can't because it hasn't been a year since I got my tatoo. I have to wait until April. That makes me sad. I really wanted to donate. Bummer. But, on a happier note, I got an A on my first rhetoric paper! :) yay! Wow. Today was very emotional. Cried a bit - not as much as I thought I would, but that's ok. We had a ceremony at 8:30 this morning - I cried a little then AND in my psychology lecutre. We had speakers and some of the stories were very sad and I couldn't control myself there. But practically everyone was crying too. Very very sad. Last night was a lot of fun! We decided to sleep in the air-conditioned classroom. It was, Luke, Malory, Katelynn, Maryellen, Mike, Beckie, Mitch, and me. We had a lot of fun. Haha. Something that has to be repeated. I don't know if I mentioned this before, but Beckie and I have made up a Tae-Bo schedule to do EVERY NIGHT. We do a 27 minute work-out w/ Billy Blanks and then do an 8 minute thing (like abs, legs, buns, and arms). We did abs the other night and buns last night - ouchies. I feel it. lol. I love it though. Haha...last night (buns) was a pain in the ass - no pun intended - we were sweating our asses off! We probably could have filled a pool. Gross, I know. For the past two nights, I've gotten only 3 hours of sleep - thank GOD for naps! Naps are awesome! Well I have a lot of homework to do. Buh bye now. Sign my guest book and make me feel special :D 07:58 p.m. I'm dreading tomorrow. I know its going to be emotional as hell. At 8:30 am, my school is having a ceremony that will last about an hour or so - gonna have to bring the tissues. I actually cried a little bit today just thinking about it. Min @ NYU said the city is in "Code Orange Alert" for tomorrow and that's the highest there can be. She's freaked out, and rightlyfully so. She just better be careful - you hear me? YOU BETTER BE CAREFUL!
I'm going to the Convention this weekend! I'm so excited. Keith Hattan is going to be there! Yay! I haven't see him since like a week before I left for school. I love Keith! He's awesome. Not to mention Andy is going to be there too, but I just saw him last week - so its not that big of a deal I'm going to see him. Haha. Just joking babe! But I'm really excited to go. I think the weather is going to be really nice. Yay. 5 weeks and nothing. I'm really starting to get sick of this. I'm doing everything I'm supposed to, why is this happening? 10:47 a.m. My tummy hurts soo much right now. It had to be that damn omlette that I had for breakfast in Commons. Maybe I'll just stop eating all together. Actually, I really have to cut back on my carbs - haven't been doing a good job with that. If I don't cut back, then my PCOS problem will manifest and I can't have that happen...not a good idea. 04:31 p.m. Andyboy came last night. That was cool. We had fun. So, I went over on my cell phone minutes - sucks. lol. I'll be good now. I promise. I think I'm going to stay in tonight, still haven't decided, but I'm not sure. Track people just stopped by, and that sounds like a good idea. Haven't done that yet. And then there's also phi si - that one was fun last week. I don't know. Right now I'm going to watch "That Thing You Do" - I borrowed it from Chelsi. So a big, fat THANKS to her!
I watched "Bridget Jone's Diary" today while I was doing homework - I needed a Colin Firth viewing & I figured "Pride and Prejudice" was a little too long for this time, but I will watch it soon. I love that book and the movie for certain reasons that you all know about! Yesterday - wow. So many things happened yesterday, where do I begin? I had to give a presentation on a book we had to read in my antropology class with this kid Travis and as we get up in front of the class, I like freeze. I HATE talking about things in front of people, I don't know why I volunteered. lol. Brown-noser maybe? haha. But after that, we had a surprise party for Beckie's birthday. She definately didn't know what was going on haha. Then we had a fire drill and were standing outside or like an hour or so - at that time, I was on the phone with Lex (from my high school volleyball team - she's a senior this year) because coaches are being ASSHOLES again. They were making everyone cry, which doesn't surprise me, because I came home many nights from practices or games crying because of the horrible things they say. They are such psychos! So, I was trying to give her advice on how to tone them out. Finally we get back into the building, and Beckie and I decide to read in the Classroom because it has AC and it's really quiet in there. So all of a sudden, the light turns off and we weren't too freaked b/c we knew that if there isn't any movement in the room, they turn off. But all of a sudden they turn back on again! We got freaked and asked our CA what happened, he told us that the motion sensor (by the door) must have caught something, the only problem with this is that NEITHER of us were anywhere near the motion sensor!!! Whatever, so we decide that if it happens again, we'll leave the room - back to reading. It happens again! And sure enough the lights turned back on again like 10 seconds after they went off....we booked it out of there! So we're running away and go into Teah's room (our other CA) and tell her what happened. There were a whole bunch of people in her room, and now everyone is telling ghost stories. Teah is telling all of us about the ghosts on campus and about some freaks who would go into people's rooms and fondle them. So everyone is getting so freaked. By this time its like 1:00ish and I need to get up at 6:45 so I decide I need to go to bed. So of course all the guys are being assholes and trying to scare all of us! haha. So I decide to sleep in Beckie and Amy's room because I'm so freaked! All of a sudden (after they turned the lights off) I start hearing this noise. I figured it was the fan blowing onto something that would make a banging noise. Then there was this really LOUD bang and I start freaking out! And all of a sudden, Mike comes out of the closet! And to top it off, Beckie and Amy knew he was in there and here I am freaking out that something is making noises in the room! OMG! It was so funny. I think I'm traumatized. Haha. Andyboy is coming today to spend the night - he should be here around 7 or so (I think). It'll be fun to see him. 10:41 a.m. Jen and I woke up this morning (to horrible construction outside our window) and decided that it was prime time to clean our room. So now 325 looks all perty and smells REALLY good! Yay. So I have to read my book, but I'm falling asleep - not good. Mary Ellen is going to stop by to keep me company. At 5:00, I have anthropology for 2 1/2 hours. YAY **note sarcasm** ;) This college thing seemed like a good idea during high school, but now I think I have to re-think this concept. 04:05 p.m. Hey. Jen is going to buy our floor pizzas for dinner tomorrow night with the money she won yesterday. She's awesome! So, today is Beckie's birthday - the BIG 18. I should be reading now....lol. Mikey showed me how to talk on my webcam last night, but I need to buy a microphone so we can actually talk. That made me happy. I went to the activities fair today and signed up for some stuff: psychology club, habitat for humanity, and I got information about volleyball club. I still haven't decided if I want to do club or intramural yet. Intramural isn't as demanding as club b/c they don't travel on the weekends, but club is more competitive and I like that! So I have to decide what I'm gonna do. Anyone have advice?? Beckie mentioned some other club that schedules people to come to the school for entertainment purposes - so I might join her to those meetnigs. Min and Lisa started classes today - so did my old high school. Jes moved to Boston today, I gotta call her. I'm gonna do that now. TTYL 03:03 p.m. Today was so cool! I'm going to be on TV! I went to the taping of "I Bet You Will" and there were some shots of me and my friends! AND my roommate (Jen) won 460 bucks! She had to go around campus for 10 minutes and ask peopel to "pull her finger" then she had to make a face like she just farted and she got 5 bucks per person! She's awesome! Yea, so that's my day so far. But I SWEAR to you, the DDD gods despise my existence! It's been over a week - no change. I need my Captain P.P. 06:35 p.m. Hey - "I Bet You Will" is coming to TCNJ today. That's pretty cool. I would love to watch people make asses of them selves or at least make a few bucks donig something - nothing too much b/c I'm a dork. I overslept today. I wanted to get up at 9:30, but i got up at 10:30. Oh well. My first class is at 2 - so it's not a big deal. Well I'm gonna take a shower. ANDY IS COMING ON FRIDAY - I'm soooo excited - it's all I can think about! 10:33 a.m. I'm talking to Nikhil now and he just told me that he was going to visit Frenchy, Tim, and I on the 21st!! I'm excited! Nikhil is awesome! Yay. I feel a little better. 08:30 p.m. Can anything else go wrong today?! Oye vey. Classes start again tomorrow *yay* However, my first one is at 2:00 - so thats cool. Andrew (not the one I talked about in my last entry - a different one) is coming to visit me on Friday! That makes me happy. He's going to sleep over here too. I hope there will be something to do that night so we don't just sit and twiddle our thumbs. But I think it will be fun. 07:24 p.m. That wasn't awkward or anything...I come back to my room and see that I have a voice mail on my cell phone. So I'm thinking its Min or someone and when I check it, I found out that it was my friend from Madison - Andy. Andy is the kid that I went to his senior prom with when I was a freshman...his family is good friends with my family - actually our mothers used to work together. So he called to know if I wanted to go out to dinner with him tonight (he thought I was still at home). So I had to call him back and tell him that I'm at school now. It was very awkward on the phone with him. I don't know why. Maybe a certain weekend at a certain camp ground could be the reason - oye vey...that was an experiece that I don't want to repeat ... EVER! But Andy is a very cool kid - don't get the wrong idea...its just that certain things he does around me makes me feel uncomfortable. You know what I'm talking about. 03:33 p.m. Tonight was pretty cool - I met this kid Evan who was really nice. We chilled for a while. I'm so tired now. I should go to bed. Good night. 03:22 a.m. HAHAHAHAAAAA - I have never laughed so hard in my life! This is awesome : CLICK HERE : It's kind of long, but you can deal with it! hahahahaa! 06:10 p.m. Yo. Listening to music now. I took a very short, but much needed, nap. I gotta start some homework. It's such a sucky ass day out...I feel all dirty and crap. Hopefully there is something gonig on tonight so I can get out of my room - I'm sick of it in here. I just feel like chillaxing w/ everyone. My family (Mom, Ray, Nonna, and Aunt Rie) came to visit me today. We put some shelves up and now my room is more organized. So thats great! Oh, Jes came to visit me yesterday, and she spent the night. We had a lot of fun. We just hung out in my room and watched movies. We talked A LOT about everything ranging from - well maybe I shouldn't say - but we had a blast! It was great to have one of my best friends from home to talk with in person. I loved it! She's awesome! She leaves for Boston on Wednesday, so good luck to her! TTYL all! 05:44 p.m. Yea, so yesterday, I lost my voice because I haven't been getting as much sleep as I should, but last night I got close to 11 hours...so that makes me happy. Yesterday, Keith, Chris, Mike and I went to the mall and I got my ear pierced....right under the cartilage one I have now. I like it. It hurts though - I'll survive - actually, I slept on it last night which is why it hurts. Remind me not to do that tonight. Speaking of tonight, Jes might come visit me! How great is that! I really need ot see a familiar face and I think Jes is the perfect candidate! It feels weird here today...some people from my floor went home for the long weekend. Well I gotta go get something to eat...I'm starving. 12:11 p.m. I just downloaded "Wonderful Tonight" by Eric Clapton...such a great song! Oh God...I love it! I also love "Tears in Heaven" - so sad, but so good. It actually reminds me of 7th grade when my sister died. It was weird, I was driving home from the funeral w/ my Aunt Paulette and that song came on the radio. A sign I guess...I dunno...but I love that song too. I'm totally putting off this book I have to read. Well I'm going to update my livejournal and then I will read! I promise! 08:41 p.m. I slept until 11:00! How rare is that? haha. So my first class today was Rhetoric @ 2:00...its the only one I like so far! haha. My professor reminds me of Kim (Min's mom) - so that was cool - AND she speaks english! Thats great! John (from my floor) had it too, which was cool so I know someone. But I met this guy (Ryan) from Wolfe 2...the same floor Tim in on and this other guy (Eric) form Wolfe 5. I love meeting people. It's cool. Well I really have to go de-smellify my self...so I'll talk to you lata homey g! 03:34 p.m. Oh to be they rusty toe nail clipper
What joy to be thy tissue for thy snot
You have just read a sonnet that Lisa and I wrote for our english class in junior year. We actually got a perfect score! Haha. Mrs D loved it! And I must say it was fun to write. Hey there! I'm trying to do homework, but I just can't. I did my Stats, but I just can't get into the World Religions book I have to read. I'm like dosing off reading the introduction...this isn't good. I can't concentrate at all. oh well. The weekend is almost here, and I can't wait! Tomorrow, my first class is at 2...so I can sleep late for the first time in a long time! 09:53 p.m. Last night was fun despite the let down of not getting into the frat party. There were so many people there that by the time my friends and I got there the house was closed. So, we just went back and chilled and played cards. It was fun. Today, I have a psychology lecture @ 9:30 and Spanish @ 5 - so I'm free for most of the day. I gotta go brush my teeth, and I think the DDD Gods are calling my name ;) 08:03 a.m. Have you ever been hurt or furious at a person and felt like A) throwing something breakable at the wall across your bed, B) hitting someone, or C) crying until there aren't any tears left? Well I have, far too many times too. And the perpetrator EVERY SINGLE TIME has been...yeah you guessed it: "him" - the guy who resides in Las Vegas, Nevada - none other than my father. This whole situation has been on my mind especially since January (and long before), and I think about it every day...every single day. No matter how many times I say, "I hate him...fuck him...what the hell do I care what he does", I always wind up right back where I started wondering how he could do this to his own dauther, his own flesh and blood. It just doesn't seem natural. How can a person bear a child and not give a rats ass about that child? Now you're probably thinking, "Calm down Brianna, he is your father after all" and believe me, I've gotten that a lot by many different people. I hate when people say that! No one understands, I guess. Well, Min does...she knows exactly what I'm talking about. A father wouldn't do 1/2 the stuff he's done to me over the years. I really do hate him though. More so now than ever. Actually, when I got to TCNJ last week, that was the first time I didn't think about him at all...I didn't think about what an asshole he was or anything. But when his damn sister called me on Sunday morning pretending not to defend him, but at the same time basically telling me how much I had hurt him, (can you believe that?) I lost it. Ever since that morning, this is all I can think about. It's consuming me. And the more I think about it, the more tired I get...its horrible. I'm trying to be really positive about it and not let my upsetnes show in front of the people on my floor. I don't like the way I feel when I'm like this, and I don't want them to see me feeling or acting this way. So I'm just grinning and bearing it. I still haven't gotten a "Thank You" card yet...that's just plain rude. I just need someone to talk to - so if you feel like lending me an ear, call me - I'm sorry this update isn't very upbeat or exciting. 05:24 p.m. Stats was okay. Nothing special, we picked homework buddies. thats about it. I'm going off to lunch with Mike of Mike & Matt. lol 11:07 a.m. Tuesday, August 27, 2002 Today is my first day of classes. This morning I have Stats @ 8:00-9:20 and then World Religions @ 12:30-1:50...then I'm done for the day. That's kinda cool, but I'm nervous as shit, not to mention I'm not ready to give up my summer yet! So, right now I'm eatinc Oreos for breakfast, b/c the milk in the frige is frozen...healthy choice, yes I know. I have to leave in like 10 minutes...oh God, oh God...someone help me!!!!! Gotta drink some Coke to get the Caffeine surging thru my veins! Hidey Ho there! I'm still having a great time here....things are just simply awesome! All these different things are running through my head - so thanks for dealing w/ me & thanks to Min and Jes for their wonderful advice...I miss you guys! Sorry if no one knows what I'm talking about - but I gotta keep it that way...for now at least...haha Classes tomorrow....ugh 10:57 a.m. I will have another journal - here - Min convinced me to keep this one. I did it a while ago, but I stopped b/c I got bored with it. 01:41 p.m. Hey I'm at COLLEGE! It's so weird here...espectially because I know that some of my friends are still at home...it's a very weird feeling. THANK GOD I know some people here: Frenchy, Bergen & Sonia (from my high school) and my "cousin" is here, but I haven't seen her yet. Today was so incredibly hectic....moving in. OYE. It took us like 6 hours (no exaggeration) to get everything set up. It was a fiaso trying to see where everything would fit in here. It really was hard. But now everything is organized and perty in my room and that makes me happy. My roommate is really nice....and we've made some friends from our floor. They're actually getting something to eat downstairs, but I decided to stay up here and work on some more things. It's very very odd. The plan for the next 4 or 5 days is to do "ice-breakers" ALL THE TIME. It's like they're forcing us to make our new best friends right this second, but making friends takes a little while, ya know? Oh well. I'm kinda home sick....oh who am I fooling, I'm very home sick. lol it just feels weird knowing that I'm not going home tomorrow or sometime soon. My room has a homey look to it though, so I should be fine. I just need to get used to it. I think once classes start I'll be better...its just that right now, we're being forced to participate in some lame activities...I'm getting really tired, so I'll update more tomorrow. And thanks Lisa for doing this page for me! |
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