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On the other hand, resisting the thought of the goings on in our "pinoy" world is the most difficult thing to do at the moment. Talk about revolution! We have the NPA's, ABB, Abu Sayyaf, MILF, etc...fighting for their cause, at all cost, revolting against the norms of our society. Yet the supposed urbane, educated, "normal" and honorable people elected into office are the very people spiraling our country into the pits of disaster. Take into account the coming elections. Coming elections? Did I say that? I have predicted there would be no elections! None to come in our near future. Given the disturbing and turbulent political situation in the country - start with the Magdalo group, the silencing of all potential presidential candidates, "my right to privacy", Laarni, Loi and Jackie, the subtle yet detected Senate coup by Manny Villar, the hurried 8-hour visit of the US President (which to me was an endorsement of GMA's candidacy), the infiltration of the PBO into the political arena (Pinoy Box Office with the likes of Erap, D' King, Noli, and Loren) and lately the impeachment of Hilarious Davide and the eighty anesthetized-hynotized congressmen signatories. Can there be any disputes to all these abnormalities?!

It is for this reason my name continues to appear nowhere in any Voter's List. I refuse to be insulted by these nincumpoops!! I feared this day would come sooner or later, as I recall my younger days while I listened to the conversations of the elders in the family about how life would be after Marcos and Martial Law. Some believed life would be better after Marcos. (but then, even Cory did not do much. The others somehow knew that Marcos had institutionalized corruption and terror. Then after EDSA, the 1986 constitution was ratified too hurriedly. I always believed our constitution was flawed somewhere, somehow, something had to give in - simply because we pinoys enjoy to live this life with the idea or attitude of "kung may gusot, may lusot". (if there's a will, there's a way), unfortunately, it's for negative.

What I see here is a pure, local "pinoy" conspiracy. A conspiracy of the very same criminals who darkened my life then. These people owe me a lot more than my today. Oh yes, they're alive and well, and are everywhere in the political scene, insisting to hold on to power. We are probably all sick with amnesia and alzheimer's. Even Lee Kuan Yiu and Mahathir Mohammed would quit and walk out on us! These very same criminals of yesterday and today see a near danger growing inside the pinoy "masa" who have pinned some new hope thru incompetent movie stars, who in turn, act like national heroes. All these with a hypocrital cinematic line "para sa mahirap" (for the poor). Come on! It's power and money in a country with a high rate of ignorants. Ouch again!

Am I a revolutionary? Yes! I know in my spirit I simply cannot comform, besides I'm not rich, live with no "lusots", no "wang-wang" atop a classy SUV, no bodyguards, no fat bank account - just a beautiful boondock and a ticket to an exciting premiere.

Oh well, God bless my beloved Philippines and all the souls...long weekend coming!

Well, here it is:

As I stepped out of the terminal, that familiar pleasure struck again upon seeing my beloved mother. It was a great delight to see the woman I shared my darkest secrets with, my closest friend and eternal ally, even before "Teddy Bear" came along. The love and patience she has provided me can never be repaid - nor equalled. It is for this reason, I continually thank the good Creator and implore Him for her good health.

I spent the day in the company of my dearly beloveds - Mommy, brother, "Watek" and "Lil Kawabaw", my grand-daughter. A most pleasurable feeling of attachment, association, anticipation. Irresistible!

The following day, I found myself with tears of laughter in the company of beautiful women I have known for more than half my life, my dear friends: Malene, Nani and Aning. (although a couple of bruhas didn't make it, their ghost haunted us) ...2,...3,...4 bottles of red wine, tick - tock - tick - tock, forgetting the time, yet time has been our constant companion all through the years. We have made it our way with heads on our shoulders and chins up high no matter the pain, no matter the deal. The friendship remains stronger and better than ever before. CHEERS and PEACE

Today, back home in CDO, the pleasure lingers on as I find myself with yet the other treasures, my "Teddy Bear" and "Your Honor"... Ultimately, maintaining and gaining from the treasures and pleasures of life can make living worthwhile indeed,.."as it was in the beginning,... is now...and ever shall be"!!

(the past few days my host encountered some software problems and therefore I was not able to add any new entry. And finally when it came back "on web", I discovered I lost my recent entries. In the hope of trying to copy and paste these entries through the cache of google, and with all my "katarantahan", it simply lost itself into the world of darkness. So, I am back - though losing a portion of me (which I intend to retrieve) brings frustration and disappointment. More entries coming soon!

Nevertheless, "lil home" world can change abruptly the moment one steps foot outside. One either builds his prominence and self-respect, or simply loses all that is his individuality.

I bring about this thought today after wondering what goes on in the "lil home" worlds of others after having to see my "Teddy Bear" wait practically 8 hours at the LTO yesterday. To top it all, "Teddy Bear", along with our driver, were there simply to get our car registered. The LTO Chief was undergoing computer training therefore, could not sign documents. So, they were asked to return today.

Another of a "who cares" incident is being experienced by my brother who simply wants to claim benefits due him at the GSIS. The delay in processing has reached 3 months, and after being asked to return every two weeks, "Watek" has received the irksome news that his documents apparently have gotten lost.

Life would have been simpler and happier for all if, from the first hour, others with "lil home" worlds would have value of time and self, a little respect within them. Filipinos seem to be so carefree even within their own "lil home" worlds. And because of this attitude, the government grabs the opportunity to return the same attitude, that of being too lenient and lax with regards to public service. We, taxpayers, get nothing in return. DepEd insist on promoting math and science. Huh? What can math and science do for people who leave their brains asleep at home? Personally, LOGIC and ANALYSIS should be a priority. Have you ever wondered why the likes of Loren Legarda, Noli de Castro, Ramon Revilla, Tito Sotto, Loi Estrada, Kiko Pangilinan, and Ralph Recto are all seated as Honorable Senators of this Republic? Are they truly the best in this country?

Logic should dictate. Analysis should direct. Is my country, the Philippines, a country with logic and analysis? You tell me. Are we all asleep too?

I kept diaries as a young girl and have preserved them til today. I kept track of events that took place each day, and it as well served as a calendar for birthdates of cherished relatives and friends.

During my working stint at the Panamanian and Peruvian Embassies, the Heads of Mission would often ask me to prepare their speeches for different occasions. Many times while doing so, I got lifted to another world of make belief, allowing myself to be in their shoes, so to speak.

Today, as a wife and mother at home, writing helps me chill out. Some people are born fantastic speakers, others have the knack of being great listeners. While for some like me, writing becomes a medium to express one's thoughts and feelings. I truly feel I can be a better friend through writing - a personal and private space where noone can tell me I am right or wrong. In writing, one can amend what is not satisfactory, express issues without distraction or interruption, retract an earlier statement without being held liable (hmmm, think Udong Mahusay! Cheap!). Definitely, writing is heaven on earth.

BTW, Joey Marquez and Kris Aquino captured today's front pages in every major newspaper in RP, an argument that led to the poking of a gun and physical injuries. Geez, is this a sign of another major Star Cinema production, based on true to life events? Or is Mother Lily supporting one or the other? Is Kris running for office too? This is the moment where both get a dose of their own medicine. Some people really!! What future do we expect our Filipino children to have?

Ewan ko lang ha...I dunno! Use condoms forever!