*Sobs*
I'm just going to come out and say it. WHY IS MY LIFE SO MESSED UP? I could use other words, but I never never ever went that low. Right now though, I am at an all time low. I officially lost my only true friend because Im to damn emotional and can't suck stuff up. I am one who deserves nothing. That's right nothing. I always hurt those closest to me. Why? WHY THE HELL AM I LIKE THIS? I really need some sort of help. My suggestion is locking me up and throwing away the key...Never allowing another soul to come in contact with me. That sounds about right. I would rather myself to hurt than any of my friends. I'll always be like this. Just ignore me for now. I'll snap out of it sooner or later.

Im sorry guys, it's just been a terrible weekend. A terrible weekend. Well minna, what do you think? Any suggestions to help me? Anyone know anything to pull one out of this? I seriously need something. It used to be writting...but I lost it. I need to force myself to sit down and do it again. It will make things better...I pray. Well I dunno. I feel empty. Ya, that's definitly the best word for it. Empty to the core. Sorry minna for being retarted. Ja! More l8r!

*Sighs*
I want to just crawl into a hole and cry. Cry for now until the end of eternity. Why does everything I try and do right seem to blow up into my face? I generally care about people even ones I don't know personally. Why why why? Life works in funny ways...I guess. But well, I just wish people could see more than they want to. I dunno. Nothing more to say really...I was just wanting to put something short. I dunno. Lonely, depressed, and lost... I am the hopeless dreamer with faded realities... Later

...Grr
Does the word irked ring a bell? Well right now, IT IS HOW I FEEL! I come on today to check out my wonderful blog. Well, much to my dismay, I FIND OUT THAT MY PHOTO HOST IS DOWN....GRRRRRRR! Right now I am about to pull out my hair strand by strand. Sounds somewhat painful, ne? THIS IS NOT MEI-CHAN IN A HAPPY MOOD! *Storms around room* I disheart Strike9 right now! Ya, disheart! I dunno if it even has a meaning, but tough cookies! Why are things so complicated! *Sighs*


Congrat you are Naruto!

Naruto Quiz
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Well last night I thought I was in an artsy mood. So, I was going to attempt to draw a pic of Schu-kun. In short, it wasn't happening. So instead, I drew Ken-kun! It wasn't the greatest pic ever, but it looked somewhat like him. Right now, you can see it on my yahoo profile. Again, gomen nasagi for the overall crappiness. *Sighs* Maybe later on I will attempt to draw someone else. In light of the Ken art I drew, here is a quizzy I got him as...AGAIN n.n!


You're Omi! Your past was quite tragic and you
don't remember much about it yet, but you're
slowly recalling. You have unmatched computer
smarts and you're an accomplished hacker.
Stupid adults annoy the hell out of you.

Which Member of Weiss are you? (Weiss Kreuz)
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You're Ken! You're a bit cheerful and you LOVE
kids! You like playing soccer, or any sport and
your friends are very important to you. It's
sometimes hard for you to trust because you've
been betrayed. Lying is something you just
can't stand.

Which Member of Weiss are you? (Weiss Kreuz)
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You know those tough questions you get stuck on? Well, I changed it once and here are the two results I got. I put them both up, because it goes both ways. On the subject of Weiss, Aya has one big ass sword...period. THE THING IS HUGE! It is as long as him! I MEAN IT IS BIG! *Sighs* Sorry about that, I guess it was Mei-chan's Rant of the Day(TM). Cute title, ne?

Ok minna, I have a question. If you are worried about a friend, wouldn't you tell someone? Just a random question. I dunno, but people are really messed up sometimes. That or Imma really messed up. Although I figure it is more the latter. I really wish people could see I try to help them, not hurt them. *Sighs* I am real screwed up sometimes... -_-. Well, I guess I can't do anything about it.

You know what? I must have figured this was going to be a depressing month or something. The blog fits perfectly! Also I will never stop loving Set. Tasuki can sing. I mean the song is really dreamy. *Romantic sigh* WHY CAN'T SOMEONE LOVE ME? *Sobs* Ok ok, overreacting, but sometimes it is fun. ^.^;

Vision Of Escaflowne (find out more)

Find out What Anime Best Suits You by taking the quiz yourself!

11:00

Emotional Rollarcoaster Ride
What can I say? I am a female and hormones suck. I feel so terrible I think I nearly scared my friend half to death. I feel sooo bad! But then again, so relieved at the same time. There is actually someone in this world that actually gives a damn about how I feel. I hate to say it, but there aren't many people like that. Well a few I know actually are, but they normally live half a million miles away. I am soo happy! Someone in my life gives a damn! AND HE IS SOOO NICE AND SWEET AND KIND! I could never ask for anything more in my life than a friend like that. I can truly say I have a soulmate that will be my friend "Forever Fornever." And yes, I did pick that up from yyh!

Why aren't there more generally good hearted people in the world? If we all followed one anothers actions the world would maybe be a better place. I know, starting to sound corny again. But that is all I truly want in this life, peace. There I am the forever dreamer...XD! That is like my favorite combination of words. Thanks to Genkai's image song. It is a great song, download it if you ever have the time.

I feel I will accomplish something in this world if I try something. This quiz told me the same also!


What's your claim to fame?

Well I have been looking around for some pic ideas for the new layout idea! I know, it's really early...but you can never be too prepared...lol! I am telling you, it is most likely going to have a Weiß theme. There are too many good pics I can't afford to pass up. I may keep the layout idea around the same, but tweak a few things. Well, here's a quizz to help me with that.


Take the What website are you? quiz @ Angelette.net

3.6.03

11:15 & 9:55

The Rising Storm and more!
OMG! I am soooo in love with YYH! I swear I am! Also I have a new favorite tornament character! It used to be Rinku, but now I love Jin! JIN JIN JIN!!! He kicks! And the tornado things. His dubbed voice was crap...*shudders* He sounded Irish...what the fudge is up with that? O.o. *Sighs* These dubbing companies never cease to amaze me -.-; But I LOVED HIM! He was sooo funny! Him and Yusuke were laughing during almost the whole match. And you could tell they had a great time.

I officially have a general respect for all of the guys now. Including Kurama and Hiei. I think Kurama freaked me out a little bit at first, his voice took a while to get used to. Also he was a tad to feminine for my tastes. But because of his fighting with Team Masho I have developed a respect for him. All of them for that matter. Kb-sama earned mine during the third ep with that code of his. Now he just earns more and more. Yusuke generally hit me with his first case as spirit detective. And Hiei has been gathering respect also. Finally Kurama joined the banwagon. Now I almost equally respect them all and love them all. You can't help but love them... Four bishounen with all of their unique personality traits. What more can you want? Quizzy time!

You are Ken.

Which chara from Weiss Kreuz are you?
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Ohhh KEN-KUN! WAI! *dances around her room* I am so gonna love that show when I get it. I have such a long redhead bishounen list now...heh! *Sweatdrops* Well, I should be going to sleep. On a lighter note here's a quizzy. Ja! Have a nice day tomorrow!

find your element at mutedfaith.com. <º>

Snowday
Well I woke up this morning expecting to go to school like usual. Right? No, a far cry from it. Firstly I got up at 4 to look at the clock and was relieved I still had 2 1/2 hours to sleep. Then I heard my mom yell at about 6 we had a delay. I was estatic, I could sleep for once. Then around seven thirty the phone rang while I was still asleep. Guess what? We were cancelled yet again. It was really icy out, our driveway was just a single sheet of ice. My dad called and even said the roads were bad. Hearing it from dad, they really had to have been. Needless to say I slept in and it was nice. Now I have to call the coach and see if we are still going to have practice tonight.

Like I was saying, I HEART SOFTBALL! It kicks! Yes that's it..it kicks! I had such a good time. I know I am practically repeating what I said yesterday, but I can't help it..IT RULED! I guess you guys can see I'm really into softball. Heh *sweatdrops* You know I had a really awsome dream last night that involved Tasuki-sama. I am officially past the crazed fangirl point! ^.^; I need some help. Hehehe! Well, talking about softball, here's a sports realted quizzy...Well kinda XD!


Tomboy

What's your sexual appeal?
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Yep, Imma tomboy...end of story. Heh, well I am! Anyways, I was talking about Tasuki-sama.....Guess what? IMMA GONNA GET GENROU DEN!! *Insanely dances around her room* GENROU DEN GENROU DEN! For those of you that aren't to familiar with the name, it is Tasuki-sama's Gaiden Novel. Gaiden novel? You may be asking. It is the novel totally centered around one of the main FY character's and their past. As any Tasuki fan ((or FY fan for that matter)) Knows, one of Tasuki's nicknames is Genrou..so this novel is all about his life before becoming a member of the Suzaku Seishi. I am also getting the Nuriko-sama one ^.^! These are both in Japanese, but I have the translations online. The Chichiri one was also ordered, but it is on back order, so I may not get it. Oh well, at least I have 2 to look at and decipher.

Well, I really really wanna get Weiß! It looks better and better! Also I found this really nice site with Weiß piccys! OMG SCHU IS SOOOO HOTT! I can see why he has such a large fanbase. Also I found out that by looking at pictures most fanfics I read portray the characters quite well. Youji is a man whore...XD XD! And Omi is a crybaby and Aya is one of those Hn guys. Also Ken is one of those all around good guys! And he's mine...mine...ALL MINE! See what happens when I get adequate rest, I am me again! ^.^! Well, here's another Weiß quizzy!


Who's Your Inner Florist/Assassin? @ Weiß Versa

Well more later, Ja!

3.5.03

4:01 & 9:54

OMG OMG OMG! *Passes out* I HEART SOFTBALL! I thought it was going to be a living hell and here it is a dream come true. I can't believe how much I missed it until I started throwing. The coaches were really nice and understood my predicament. I couldn't help but be happy and smile and play my damned best. I LOVED IT! Period, end of story. So for my enjoyment and yours here's a quizzy!

Ohh I love that! I feel so special. Well today's entries have been real real short. I always blog at the wrong time...lol! Anyways, see I joined lotsa cliques. Imma addicted. I also need to find some more fanlistings. If you guys know any...lemme know...please? I have an Edd one to join and I will get it up soon! Talkin about the hyper computer genius, here's a quizzy featuring her ^.^!


The deranged inner child in all of us
Find out what anime girl you are.

Yes, derranged inner child talks about me perfectly...XD! I have to say that today was pretty good. I was dead tired...but other than that it was nice! I need sleep...maybe we'll get lucky and recieve a delay *prays* Oh well, at least I can dream about Tasuki-sama! *grins* Well should be going...like I said need sleep. But I leave you with a quizzy!


What bishounen type is your favourite?
By ShoSen of Totally Kawaii!

Help me...
Hey all! Sorry I didn't blog yesterday I was soooo busy! Yesterday was Hell...someone told me we had softball practice at 3. That was no problem...Until I got to school to find out that it actually was at 4:30. Still no problem, I thought I'd just go home and then get mom to bring me down...WRONG! I got home to find out that mom worked until 4 or so and wouldn't get home til nearly five. Dad also worked til five...uh oh. I called my aunt...no luck she wasn't home. I was screwed. And I also missed Monday because of the same problem. Well I am getting ready to go and I know Imma gonna get soo chewed out. *Nervous Sweatdrop*

Last week I missed because I was sick...so I am royaly screwed. I can't wait until I go today and hear what they say. Maybe I'll get lucky...right like that will happen when pigs fly! *sighs* Well, to relieve my stress I happen to have found a quizzy!

Take the Anime Sountrack Quiz

Music soothes my soul so this was a fun one to take. Also I think I may need to watch that show because Watase-sama made it! *grins* Well I g2g to the horrid practice. Ja! More soon I promise!

3.3.03

5:57 & 8:45

Chibi Edited!!!
OMG! LMAO! This has to have been the funniest thing I have seen in a while. Hearing Yusuke Urameshi say, "I came home because they are jerks up there." OMG LMAO XD! Like the title says, CHIBI EDITED! They have now placed YYH in the hands of the chibi population of the US... *sighs* I'm now officially freaked out. Now I'll walk around hearing chibis talk about the Reikai Tantei...*sighs* Oh well. I really dunno what else to say...Wait! Maybe I do....QUIZZY ^.~!

You belong with Kuwbara

Which yu yu hakusho boy is right for you?
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I belong to Kb! *Wide grin* I have no life! *Bigger grin* Sorry I just had to address that fact to everyone. I find it very important that I feel this way about myself. Ok, right now MY WORLD IS A GOOD PLACE! Why? Because Sita-chan added to one of her marvelous stories! ^.^! And if ya wanna know...she is the one that got me hooked on Weiß! Anyway, read her newest piece of workHERE! Now minions GO READ! Talkin about Weiß...*grins* Quizzy Time!

Your Ken!

What Weiss Kreuz Guy Are You?
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I really don't do these on purpose...I've never seen the show before, so I have no clue what the characters are like...lol! But from looks I like Ken...hehehe! *Winks* Ok, now earlier I was watching dbz..and I have to say that Vegetto is quite hott! He's a hell of a lot better than Gotenks. I hate to say it, but it's true. I dunno why Gotenks came out so messed up looking...he had two of the cutest guys forming him also... *sighs* Oh well...I do have to say Vegetto is my guy *winks* Hehehe, you know what I mean? The cutest fusion in my opinion would be future Trunks and teen Gohan. He would make an incredibly hott fusion, ne? Talkin about hott guys, DBZ Quiz!

Which DBZ guy is your match?

GOTEN! WAI! Well, I have to go read my novel...More soon, I promise!

Rei Gun!!!
Wow today I had a scare with the layout. First the link to my pic was messing up...but now all seems to be ok. Also I tried tweaking the layout a lil bit and everything got screwed around. Good thing i figured out what i did wrong. If not I think I would have died. I had perfected it...and I thought I messed it up totally...heh ^.^;! Well it's fixed and all iis good!

Well pretty soon we will be able to see the YYH on Toonami...I dunno what to expect although I have a feeling it is gonna be very very very edited. They are gonna have a very small dialogue...XD I know in the first ep alone there are tons of places to be edited. Poor Poor Yusuke-kun and Kb-sama and all the rest..I feel bad for them. Here's a yyh quizzy for ya!

Hiei

Which Yu Yu Hakusho guy are you most like?
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Well I gotta finish my hw and watch this yyh. Ja! More later!

3.2.03

9:47

New Layout
Well, what do you guys think? Again, I have a new layout. I know you are probably thinking that I should have waited for a while. Well, my idea is that I'll archive every month and change the layout every month. I am really proud of myself for this one. Funny thing is that it was quicker than the other. I really like tables ^.^! *Dances around room* What do you guys think? I love the pic! Sad though, ne? Lastly, the title of the page "Even though it's painful...always" is the American Translation of Setsunakutemo...Zutto. I think it fits what about you?

Ok, in celebration of the new successful layout I HAVE QUIZZIES! XD. I know, I know, Im an addict. I can't help it. They are addictive!

Ken

The (slightly more) In-Depth Weiss Kreuz Character Selector
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Oh Ken-kun! WAI! I love him so. My anime character list keeps on growing and growing...lol! I dunno I find Shuldig just as hot. Nagi is really cool also...and Omi. Heh, the show is just crazy. I mean all the guys are very hott...You can't help but love them. I really am going to buy it after I purchase everything from the convention. I will buy a FY cell if it kills me. Along with a plushie or two and some stationary. Heh.... *sweatdrops* But afterwords I promise I'll buy Weiß((why did they call it Knight Hunters? *shrugs*)). Here's yet another Weiß quizzy! *Big grin*
You are Schuldig!

Which Schwarz Bishounen Are You? (from Weiß/Weiss Kreuz)
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Shuldig...WAI!!! Schuldig is now officially on my reserved Red headed bishounen list along with Tasuki-sama and Kb-kun. I think Aya's somewhat hott also...soo he may be added shortly XD! ^.~ Don't get me wrong, Youji's very very hott also. Omi just looks young...but Ken-kun *glomps* He's mine...lol!

Ok, I need to get off of the subject of Weiß. OOO Kenshin is coming to TOONAMI...WOOT! I know, this is real sad...but At least I get a chance to see it. I think Kenshin may be added to my redheads also...tehehee. I also know that on the 17th we see new dbz eps...but it still doesn't finish the series... How long is cn gonna drag it out? -.-; Oh well... at least I can see some more.

Mei-chan's Convention News(TM)
Times ticking down...26 more days. My costume looks really really cool! Or at least I say it is. We made the orange star badge from foamies...it looks good! And I think the costume will work. It will be more importantly comfortable... *grins* I think I'll make a pretty good Videl...I am more like her than I wish to be...lol! Well, lastly here is a dbz quizy! I have school tomorrow, so i gotta be going to sleep. G'night!

Which DBZ family do you belong in?