15june2004

It's the last day of school. I've been waiting for this for so long now. And yet...it's not as great as I expected.

Oddly enough, someone has been saying, all the way home that I looked sad today. I guess the summer brings back bad memories.

Gosh, I wish I could turn back time.
                           Tina complained again @ 06:13 p.m.

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13june2004

Sun is shining outside. I should go out right now, you know, get a tan. But instead I'm here, stuck inside the house like I always am. Gosh, Tina. Get a life.

Is it just me, or when I do actually find the will to go out, something always seems to go wrong? Last week, when I came home, I was yelled at to death, and this time we didnt really find anything to do. When I came home I was fatigued. Oddly enough. (Note to self: get some exercise, woman!)

You know what I need? A friggin job. I know I'm going to gain 20 pounds over the summer because I'm not going to be doing anything besides staying home and taking naps. It's not even the end of the school year yet and that's exactly what I find myself doing.

I guess this summer isnt going to be much different from the last. I can feel the depression starting to sink in already.
                           Tina complained again @ 04:15 p.m.

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09june2004

Abandonment is terrible isnt it?

When it does come to the time that I actually have things to write about, I guess I dont feel like writing it. And now, again, things are starting to get boring around here. The only thing I have to complain about today is probably the weather. Was in the fucking 90's. I really did feel like I was baking in an oven or something. Goddamn terrible. Just terrible.

Am I a loser because I bought the school's "literary magazine" because I actually wanted to read it? And it wasnt that bad either. I dont know why people are bitching to me about that crap. How retarded. I need to join that thing's art team or whatever. I need the goddamn credits.

The year book pictures finally came out. With the freshmen. I looked like a guy, beacuse they took it back in the day when my hair was really short. What the hell. I was probably the worst in the whole entire book. That's not cool. I'm pretty sure that everyone looked alot worse than they do in real life, except for about one percent of the school population. Even "duffman" looked bad. It was because of his hair, I tell ya. Not, as certain individuals would say, because he looks like a woman. Pft. Even if he was a girl, which he is not, I would still think he's hot. Goddamn you all.
                           Tina complained again @ 06:51 p.m.

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17may2004

I wish she would stop bringing that camera around with her wherever she goes. I swear, I feel like it's stalking me or something. Everywhere I turn, I see that stupid camera. I dont think I'm photo-phobic or something, its just that...well, I dont know. I hate it when other people take pictures of me, because I dont know what it looks like. And when that happens, I end up looking horrible. Like that one picture that SOMEONE took, and showed all of her friends in LaGuardia. I looked like a friggin monster. And she even said, "It did freak out some of them." I can even imagine what they were saying. For example: "What is that...thing?!" or "Is that a guy or a girl? Or a pig? Or a monkey?".

Pft. I hate this world.
                           Tina complained again @ 05:43 p.m.

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15may2004

This poor, poor blog. I've abandoned it again. I think I should just give up doing this. I mean it's pretty pointless because when I do have something to talk about I cant say it because I'm bitching about certain people. And then they'll come and kick my loser ass. Goddamnit.

Last night I was messing around with tarot cards, and two times in a row, I drew "the devil" for the first card. Which is supposed to represent me. And yes, I shuffled very well, and still ended up with that. -____-; Gosh, I'm horrible.

I'm just glad that this week is over I guess. I mean, for some odd reason I have 4 bruises or cuts from this week alone. 2 on my hand, one on my wrist and a really huge on right above my knee. I dont even know where I got it from. That's not the worst part though. I think I kept on PMSing about every single day.

But seriously. I've said this a million times, maybe not directly into everyone's face, but I know I've written it here a couple of times before. The reason I'm pissed off about things is that people dont ever take me seriously. Guys, when I tell you not to do something, I mean it okay? I know I kind of dug myself into a hole for this, because everyone thinks I'm that girl that "doesnt give a damn". Well, I do. Even if I dont say it right off the bat.

Well, to change this into a happy subject, our class finally did the infamous frog dissection lab. Wasnt as great as I thought it would be. Our frogs were so tiny. Someone chopped off a frogs leg and I took the dismembered limb and waved it infront of the remaining frog that was kept alive and awake. It didnt care. !___! Stupid frog. That might have been your wife, you know.
                           Tina complained again @ 02:05 p.m.

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01may2004

Ugh. I was getting really sick of the old layout. Come to think of it, it really does look kind of horrible.

Goddamnit, I have too many things to do this weekend, like the global essay, which was hanging over my head since this morning. But I didnt do it because...I was playing ragnarok. Ugh. I have to get my priorities straight.

I have no fucking clue how the hell I'm going to finish the research lit project, because we chose this super-hard source that's impossible to understand. Our group is basically screwed over, since we dont have any idea on what the article is about. I'm supposed to be making some slides, but once again...I was playing ragnarok. Goddamnit. I blame all of YOU people for making me a bad student. You know who you are. Damn bums.
                           Tina complained again @ 06:57 p.m.

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