birds 11...They slithered like serpents, hinting at the unleashing of some apocalyptic evil

ruminations 4
So, Im sitting in the library, once again. In fact, I would still be studying actually writting the first part of my International Orgs and Law midterm only to find I left the sheet with questions at my dorm, after finishing my japanese homework (which took longer than expected).

so instead of studing for Stat 3(read: Political Inquiry) Im writting an entry.

*sigh* now that total and complete procrastination has overtaken me, Im wondering what to do next. Im off to eotr tonight, and home tomarrow. I guess I can do something while mom and dad go see The Passion of the Christ I have to start paper over spring break and finish the papers I already mentioned above. Then I think Ill be done with the mid point of this semester. And Dr. B was right. The Spring semester here, is seriously shorter than the winter semester.

I think I was running around the campus last semester wondering and praying for the winter semester to end. and here I am, in the library in the middle of March wondering where the time went off to. My sister's birthday is next mth, Scott's and Crystal's are this mth, Mollie's has already come and went. So happy birthday to all.

Cotillion, the university wide formal is next mth as well. Any ideas for a simple dress? (no prom gowns please!) Did I spell Cotillion right? thats such a weird word. I don't think I like it much, I like the word Shenanigans, but I don't like that word. Its... weird. I really need to design a new layout now that the blog layout is complete, but I can't launch photoshop. I have no space left on my computer and I feel like a person in the desert begging for blank cds. I have 40 megs yes thats right, 40 left on my computer. (Of 6 GB) cheese louise.

After a few days of lovliness, its been total crap the last few days. Still warm (winter is a dead horse it seems again) but dreary. I want it to be sunny again, I can't stand Mud Season. I wanna have picnics on the academic lawn. Or the village lawn... make that the academic lawn.

I think Im done for now. But if anyone wanted to know how I thought point to these messages, because I wrote what ever was going through my head at a time, and yes that means you Ang. Since you and Rem! are the only ones I think of that actually read the blog of doom. Everyone and their silly Ljs and their lazyness not to go to each page seperately...In my day... uh... I do the same. But I wuv my blog.....

the library is going to drive me crazy one day.

was infected Saturday, March 6, 2004 03:01 p.m.

mmm
so, I half did it. And by half I mean the lamest thing I think I have said in my life

was infected Thursday, March 4, 2004 07:31 p.m.

heh
so, you know that thing with other one. Well didn't we all think that was over? yea, me too. *shakes a fist*

was infected Wednesday, March 3, 2004 09:00 a.m.

I couldnt do it
so, I had dinner with my favorite Republican, and in fact Im eating ice cream I swipped from the commons.

But, I wanted to say just how I felt about him. To move it a little farther. I want to know the score. Having dinner by ourselves, I think he assumes but, I don't know for sure. I want to know gosh darn it. I want... a great deal many things. Oh god, I hope Im not fucking it up.

Oh God, I hope he doesn't decide to move on to the next thing.

why the hell am I being so paranoid... jesus.

I want to tell him, how do I do it? anyone? Bueller? Bueller?

was infected Monday, March 1, 2004 06:51 p.m.

so the passion
So, I saw the Passion, and as the Connecticon meeting didn't seem like it was happening, Im in the library with nothing else to do then to talk about the movie I just saw with Mandy.

First thing. I don't think it deserved all the contriversy that it got initally. I didn't think it was all that bad. Yes, we all know the bible and I was raised on Catholic dogma, but lets take the movie at face value. Monica Belluchi (I suck at Italian) was excellent as Magdeline. Yes, it was gory, but it kinda had to be if you think about it. The stations of the cross (also a Catholic thing) was done pretty acurately.

Some intresting parts was its poetic lisence with the Devil in the movie. Some of the imagedry that he dipicted were confusing at first and were talked out in the car. Pontius, was different than people made him out to be. Suprising, I always felt he was between a rock and a hard place and looking at the politcs of the situation, it made sense he would "wash his hands of it."

It was definately powerful, and something to watch and discuss on; even if you agree with it or not. Im somewhat indifferent with it. Yes, powerful, but there was some anti-establishment ness going with the prests who I always thought were more or less fearful to being turned into manipulating people... I didn't agree with. But.... you know.... just that Im even talking about it like this has to tell you something.

was infected Sunday, Feburary 29, 2004 07:50 p.m.

Meloncholy

From Keith's LJ(ill explain in a minute)

"...There are some people I wish would still keep in touch. Dianna was a good person, and it still saddens me that she had to push us away for reasons I still don't know."

Did I push these people away? Or did we grow in ways that we didn't forsee? I guess I stopped talking to him because of something stupid. But, I think it may have been stupid on both counts and you know that it was just a cd, sure Mindy still has my FF8 disks. I wasn't gonna ask, but mom wanted the disk back. I was fine with waiting, but she wasn't and she can get really annoying. his irrvealance, got on my nerves, and when he got defencive, I got angry. What a way to end, I do regret that, but its water under the bridge... isn't it.

Going to a different school, made me hella busy. And I don't keep up with many people. Im still intrested in a lot of the same but there is other things I worry about.

Maybe we could start again, but it wouldn't be the same. Meloncholic, mm?

was infected Sunday, February 29, 2004 02:05 p.m.

ruminations part three

So... what am I doing here. Yes, Ive run out of creative titles. Though I do enjoy the word ruminations.

So, Ive taken a personality test, and while I won't post them here, this is a link to where I did post it. Im a pretty even personality... a little scary.

Its nice having a tidy room. or, half room.

The DUH website is comming a long nicely. Can't wait for it to go up. speaking of... We had the fundraiser at Elliot's apartment. I feel his pain, he lives with SAE kids. My god... (SAE Greek Frat)... they have a rabbit... "poor wreatched creature"

Speaking of elliot, and since Im too lazy to really retype it, Ill paste what I told my watchers, On AIM...
AngelnoMoon: As soon as I get there he puts on Dave Matthews (inst.) but, then switches to Classical (chopin?). And one of his suite mates (I think) walked in... Matt... and Elliot introduced me to him... Sounds as though he already knew about me
AngelnoMoon: there was a lot of standing around side by side, there was a lot of staring, there was a lot of tension...

Its nice out 45degrees F, what is that... 13decrees Celsus... Im going outside.

was infected Saturday, February 28, 2004 02:25 p.m.

ruminations part two

So, Im at home for the day... not that it really is any far from my house at all since the University is 15 minutes away. So, every other Sunday, I bring home my laundry and do it. And I bother the parents, but Im really home to mooch a good meal and some laundry doneage.

As such, my laundry is sitting in the kitchen right now, clean and dry. Ready for more time at the University. However, I do loose a work day. No matter what happens, I never get to do very much work at home- a reason why I live at the university.

So I got two new cds today, Kinky- Kinky Sounds pretty good right now. Some good spanish music and this makes me happy, since the stuff Ive listened to all my life is that Merengue/Salsa crap... Not that its crap, but its repetitive and not fresh and it all sounds the same... well maybe I do mean crap.

I also got Starsailor- Silence is Easy can't wait to hear the whole album. What can I say cds are my obcession. I love music and music loves me.

Lola, my puppy, is as cute as ever as she's jumping on my leg wanting me to pick her up...Attention whore.

Got some new paint for my room here, it'll look baddass.

So, Nader is in the race. We trade one dumbass for another. He's the reason why Sr.Bush is in office. Nader split the Democratic vote. He's such an oppratunist. He sees that Dean dropped out and took the oppratunity. Why he tries? I don't know. I'm really angry about that right now, and well... Im frankly pissed beyond compare. I really hope we learned from that mistake and vote the right people in office this time.

I haven't seen him for three days. I miss him. heh, me, actually admitting I miss someone. What's the world comming too? Ahhhh... as soon as I find this Cupid fella Im going to shake a fist and kick his ass.

I guess I should be getting back to the Odyssey and finally have Odysseus kill off the suitors. Not that I haven't read it for a class before... but Freshman year in HighSchool was a long, long time ago.

was infected Sunday, February 22, 2004 06:40 p.m.

ruminations part one

so why part one you ask? well, I have no idea myself only that if I have nothing else to call an entry I think I will call it that. I suppose because there are a few different things that I want to get off of my chest.

First off, Howard Dean needs to drop out of the race for democratic nominations. I myself, root for Edwards, but I know he will probably get the nod to be vice president. And if he doesn't I will kick my own party in the jimmy. Edwards, has the charisma and I like his politcs. He could carry southern states and he would be an excellent running mate. I have somewhat resigned to the fate that it would be Kerry getting the nod.

Next... uh... Im sitting in the library doing work... yes, actual work. Well, besides sitting here working on this here entry. the paper itself is almost done, it will be three pages in a second and all I need is three to five pages. Good thing I know what else I want to say about it. I think I myself am 2/3s done.

Im glad that Scott realized the moral and is feeling better. It really isn't that great having someone down on the dumps like that. And Im not that great at cheering people up in my opinion. Well, Im happy he realized it.

Rem! I wish you luck on "reading week" what is this fabled week I haven't heard of this before. You know I wonder if Im in the same week, probably not... But I want to know!

I have finally found good spanish music. Its taken all of 20 years but I have done it and their name is Kinky. The song Presedente, get it anyway you can. Good stuff there.

I wish I had something a bit more meaningful to say other than its really pretty outside, in that meloncholy wintery way.

I have no idea what to do about the situation that Im currently in. At one end of the spectrum, I want to make it go faster than it already is. I want to know for sure weither he really does like me in that way or not. I know a lot of the signs are there. But, I want to know... so there isn't any doubt in my heart. You know? But on the other end, I am somewhat content with it going at this pace. Just milling about I'm pretty content with it. I am I am... Im really confused and need advise other than "thats the way love goes" (Greg said that)... I want something to chew on. And other than me wanting to stop overanalyzing the situation...

I should really get back to my paper. This was fun...

was infected Wednesday, February 18, 2004 03:53 p.m.

does that count

So... today, was... intresting. and if you know my current situation, well that is the understatement of the year. Well, Ill pass on talking about one looser of the race and talk about something more cuter.

So, does today make a second date? Ill backtrack, after having dinner with Scott and Im sitting around and then I go through away my dinner plates, and then I decide that I want hot cocoa and cookies to take with me back to my on campus apartment. Who should be there was Elliot, at the stir fry line. So I went over and started a conversation and then it ended up that I waited with him there... And then I sat down with him and we kinda sat around and he ate and I drank my cappachino (it wasn't hot cocoa *shakes a fist at Aramark*). It was great, I really enjoy talking to Elliot.

What's funny, is that on the way out, we had this group in the commons giving out stuff, and asking people to do things, and this one girl stopped Elliot and I and she was asking him if she wanted, and after the both of us refused, she said "Well, come to Hartford Idol, I expect the both of you to be there!" I was kinda suprised, because we (Elliot and I haven't said anything official yet) and I suppose its obvious to everyone else.

he'll be at DUH tomarrow... he gives me a happy-go-lucky feeling. Its different than the other-who-shall-not be named. I haven't smiled that much for a long time, and it just felt right, you know?

Ummm... anything else? I should be working on websites, but Ive been busy with work... and... other things... that the motivation hasn't really been there. Yea... *points up* thats the reason why too...

*smile on my face* (trying to take it slow...)

was infected Monday, February 16, 2004 10:55 p.m.

too much time to think
Its always funny, how I seem to run out space on Pandora so damn quickly. so, my mp3 folder is again at 1 GB and I don't have cds to burn to. CRAP! I got some good things though, like Yoshii Lovinson's new cd (I think I might buy this) I love his voice. Sono otoko no koe wa sugoku na desu yo! Eto... yea, what was it I wanted to talk about...

They closed the oncampus coffee shop today, I morn its loss. And my wallet cries, because Ill probably end up at Tisane's all the time for my .80 caramel mocha. *shakes a fist* The university really feels thats it is helping us out, but taking out the one thing that mature, non-crazy intellectual college students, like myself (looks around), go! Plus, Im a big coffee drinker. I need it. NEED.

I feel contemplative, Im not quite sure why either. Though, Its been a while since I sat down and put my thoughts on paper. I will admit, I sometimes (and by sometimes, I mean a lot) feel a little detatched. Not, totally, just that little bit to gnaw at your brain. I sometimes feel that Im not being myself. Like, I force a laugh, or I feel completely different than I am. I suppose its because Ive been minorly depressed (is that what it is?)for what, 10 years? I've always felt older than a lot of my peers, does it show?

I guess it isn't so bad. Its gotten leaps and bounds better as the rest of my age group catches up. What the hell is bothering me?! Arg!

Its been nice being in this room by myself this weekend, Ive been getting sleep, and I get this way. Let me see... I don't know, I just guess there's been a lot of time to think... heh, I guess Ill sleep on it.

was infected Sunday, February 15, 2004 12:17 a.m.

whoo
Happy Valentine's Day everybody!

was infected Saturday, February 14, 2004 09:19 p.m.

So, the details...?

so, I think you all want to know how my lunch date with Elliot went? I think it went alright. Although, Im not sure... I have no way to decipher that. There are no plans to see each other again, yet, but maybe that will change.

so, he met me right outside the mail room door and we walked upstairs to the GSU cafe. I wasn't all that hungry since, the stupid buuffet thing they have this morning... anyway, I got this pasta contraption that I didn't really enjoy (such is college food).

he was as awkward as I felt, but it still felt good and right (somehow to be speaking to him). Too bad there was a gaggle of DeltaZeta girls behind us (remind me to talk to their president/founder- I know her well...) and they were making a big rutkis... Not so romantic... but still.

We made do, and we did the question and answer game, such as, "what do you plan on doing with a PoGo degree?" and the eternal favorite, "do you have siblings?" So I answered in some pretty good anecdotes (like my dog lola jumping the couch at home- a feat in itself). I learned that he has 2 siblings (I think hes the middle child), he's from pennsylvania, and is somewhat conservative in his leanings. We talked politcs for a time... He's an audio engineer....

we went to government and law society together, and we were all chatting and somehow (as it seems to always do) turned into a mini DUH (democrats of the University of Hartford) meeting. And we were talking about fundraising, and we were talking a cookie/hot chocolate fundraiser... but we needed a village apartment (like mini-condos) to run it out of (also since they have a stove). So we were talking about who had it. I also mentioned I would be there from 11-12am...So...

Elliot: I'll do it
Everyone else: you would?
Elliot:yea sure

Mind you, he's republican-leaning *raises an eyebrow*. *grins*...

he's a really nice guy all in all, I like him. I wonder what would happpen, am I ready for all of this? I mean... am I? I really do like him... I feel odd.

was infected Thursday, February 12, 2004 07:47 p.m.

All I have to say
YESSSSSS!!! *does a jig*

was infected Tuesday, February 10, 2004 10:54 p.m.

Is it seriously tuesday?
So, just polished up my paper for Stay the Hand of Vengeance, very inresting book. A bit optimistic in his view that legalism is indeed important, but still informative, and I do see a place for war crime tribunals. Though I am a super realist (meaning states think only of themselves), I do see a place for them.

So, I shake a fist at LJs... lol and some people know why.

Umm, well the first day of the week and we (the mail room had 5 gurneys of mail. Oh yea, Valentines is here. I should email someone.

Ummm not much on the eastern front. Its all quiet and I just feel somewhat blah. I honestly don't know what it is. Though, I do feel like Im keeping up in my work. Though the amount of reading is incredible and Im not keeping up, but I do feel like I do and that should count for something right?

I need to go to bed. Maybe...

was infected Tuesday, February 10, 2004 12:07 a.m.

comments
so, I fixed the comments... bad thing, I lost all the commeents from before. But, it works properly now. whoo

was infected Saturday, February 7, 2004 11:17 a.m.

Through snow, through sleet, through freezing rain

fun times are had when the university closes due to the above. So, I wake up today and get ready to go to class as usual, and so I take a shower, and since I was thinking I wanted to wear a skirt so I went to shave and forgot to wake the cpu up. So, afterwords, I check my AIM for overnight messages (which I almost never get, btw) And there is my friend Greg and he says, No school.

Me being half asleep, look at it and try to decide what to do, with me sitting at my computer... Finally, I just go back to sleep. Wake at around 1.30 and read Stay the Hand of Vengence All of chapter 6 and the rest of 5 which is about 100 pages... I was pretty productive. Tomarrrow morning Ill do some Inquiry work and probably finish the book...

Anyway, yes, so its intresting how life hands you choices. And the meaning of this, is, sometime last semester I met this kid named Elliot(crystal calls him "War")...well, there is from what I can observe a mutual attraction (well it is overt...), and I wonder where thats gonna lead. Funny thing, he's also an engeneer.

Me, Im not rushing it really. Im gonna see how the both of the situations plays itself out. It, amuses me, and if anything should happen, I think i'll be happy. I should (in true PoGo fashion draw up a cost/benifit analysis)

In sum: buming in appartment=fun. But, contemplation=intresting and a lot. Productive=yes. Fun times= had

was infected Saturday, February 7, 2004 12:10 a.m.

well isn't that just dandy
I went Urban Politiking yesturday, meaning that I went to some activist group that was in the south end of my city so that maybe something would be done. They wanted to get or help the city get rid of these eyesores all over the place. and my goodness, if we did, not only would a hudge danger to the community be taken out, but our property values would increase. Gee, thats something good.

So we got a third semester of Japanese, so I dropped my Lit class for it. Whoo, the first class seemed good, so I can't wait for anything else to take place, Ill probably study some tonight. Definately exciting.

The Eboard that Im on here at school, can't get along. They don't do any work, and they get offended if I really say anything (which is all the time)

LARP this weekend, can't wait to don the eyepatch again. I also have to finish and write a book review on Stay the Hand of Vengence I'd chock this up to another handy dandy dianna busy weekend.

Valentine's is comming, may god have mercy on the mail room.

How do I put up with this keyboard?

was infected Thursday, February 5, 2004 08:27 a.m.

whooo

so Its monday. The Patriots won, and all is right with the world.

well...except me. I need to get more productive. But, I think Im being hard on myself. Let me seeee.....the commons is a fun place. This is what I like about college. the great classes, and the great fun made along the way.

Maybe Im just being weird. I cirtainly feel like it. I need something different. But there Is EOTR this saturday.

Im rambling. I need to go entertain.

was infected Monday, February 2, 2004 07:19 p.m.

So another Sunday done

While 2/3s of the United States is watching the SuperBowl. I am in the University Library typing this. So I just finished a meeting of the Connecticon crew, and I discovered that we have been doing some really kick ass work. I myself have been in touch with Media Blasters to get some stuff going. It seems like it will be a great convention. 24 hours and 3 days in July. Hope to meet most of you there.

Also, Ive just felt somewhat a pathetic. I don't even know why. I like all my classes, and Im really excited that we finally got some Japanese for the semester. That will be fun. Ive just felt some blah. Well maybe this month will change that feeling.

The University is the same as always. Just doing what they want to do. Though it was fun helping out the Model UN high-schoolers yesturday. Sometimes, I think its time to make new friends. I think I get somewhat tired sometimes. And sometimes this leads to irritability, and that makes me mad that I get that way. But I guess we can't change things like that.

About the boy, I haven't seen him all week. I did however see Eliot, a cool kid I know from my War class last semester. But, with another Valentine's day comming you get that feeling in the back of your head even though, you are somewhat perfectly content in being single.

Lets see. Moving of ENA is going well. Well, as well as can be expected. There are many things that I have to do with everyone of my sites-missing images here, missing code there, missing nav bar somewhere else- that is driving me up the wall, but for the most part all the satalite sites are up. This, though is giving me a great oppratunity to clean out and overhaul my websites. Spring cleaning came early for ENA.

Hope you all like the new layout. As I said previously, this is for a blog marathon going on with some friends. Some of their layouts are on the right hand side. This version uses the Kondansha version of the cover. I removed all the writting-suprisingly easy- and added a nice little easter egg. If you can figure out what it is Ill give you a cookie in the mail. Its just creepy. And that was what I was going for. I think Ill be using the cover for Birthday next seeming as I do have that image as well. Yea for amazon.jp. Defintely get the American version, its well done and keeps the flow together. I like it. Somewhat different and yet, on the same chaotic vein a lot of my newer designs are in.

Things to do
fix codes on satalights
upload network
start new layouts for network
comments boxes? for Blog?

was infected Sunday, February 1, 2004 08:06 p.m.

testing?
So, Im moving everything over, and the one thing that is done, is Birds... for the most part. This layout is part of my first marathon, with some friends from Shoujostation I have to bounce and finish the fixings and archieve the version 10 but... itll be fine...I hope.

was infected Sunday, February 1, 2004 12:06 p.m.