A Long Long Time
it's been such a long time since i updated this blog. it's not tt i had no time but it was simply cos i ran out of things to say. it's like there's only tt many things you can tell online and not feel bad afterwards.
school is getting from bad to worse. i don't know if it can get any worse. everyone rejoices, ok not rejoices, but celebrates when a teacher is not here. esp if the teacher was someone whose name reminded me of my fave food. but she's no where near my fave tcher. [i hope you've guessed by now tt person is sushi]. i don't understand teachers and their passion for teaching. apparently, they think that taking over other teachers' lessons when they are not around is considered passion for their profession. i mean, hello? students are humans too, aint we? it's not like the teachers themselves haven't been in school before. they shld know, more than anyone else since they spent almost their whole lives in school, how we students feel.
WE ARE SO SICK OF THEM. It's ok if they're interesting. at least it isn't all tt bad when they come in for lessons. but the teachers are not even interesting. they just talk and talk like talking is all that they know to do.
ok, ok enough abt the tchers and their mysterious minds. heard the news lately? another girl just committed suicide. she jumped of a building, which in my opinion is very convenient since there are so many tall buildings in Singapore. according to the newspapers, she had something wrong with her screws. either she didn't oil them or she oiled them so much they came loose. what's with the people these days? are they really that stressed? i mean sometimes i can get a little on the stressed side, esp if i'm in a class like mine, but i don't get any suicidal ideas. at least not yet. i think i better not scare myself.
ok i think that's long enough to bore you to sleep. goodbye! and i hope the next time i see ya, you are here and not in the ground.[for those pple who are a bit thick, "in the ground" means dead]
yours seriously
angel_undefined,beek.
Wednesday, January 22, 2003 04:38 p.m.
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i have a dream
well, today's a pretty routine day. you know, the routine complaining abt sushi's irritating nature and her modd swings. not forgetting tan lee lee's boring lesson and the nice chem and ss lessons. what a routine day! i have a test tmr. a bio test, i mean, how boring can it get! well, i shall let you into a supposed-to-be secret. i am gonna cheat tmr. i mean, it's not like i've nv cheated before, but tmr it's gonna be btw 3 pple. haha, shan't tell you too much, in case someone who's not supposed to see this sees this.
well, in class today, me and my friends --- fel, jy, cher, shi han, we discussed our big plans. Our big plans for our future. here goes... jy and me - we're gonna be these really successful PR managers and fel - the one who's gonna take hotel management course is gonna employ us. cher - she's the diplomat, i think she wants to go to UK or something. she's gonna come to our hotel for a stay. and yes! she's gonna employ ade as her private pilot! and also shi han - the engineer. she's gonna build our hotel. isn't that a great dream? a dream that binds all dunno how many different personalities together. a dream which will rule the world! [just joking]
of course, that's only our dream. a dream will never be fulfiled if you don't take a step out to fulfil it. i'm gonna try my best, of course, to make my dream not just a dream, but a reality. however, who knows what the future has in store for us. maybe i'm gonna find out that bill gates' my uncle and i can get a fortune out of him. i know, that's ridiculous. anyway, i'm a great dreamer. but that does not mean i'm not a girl of action. i will, and i will fulfil my dream.
i hope.
yours seriously
angel_undefined,beek.
Monday, January 13, 2003 07:59 p.m.
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suicide
today, it was a happening day. first, i went to watch The Ring. then i saw Heeren being crowded like some people were holding some demonstrations.
firstly, abt the Heeren. the mob, or rather the crowd was mad...queueing from 7am yesterday till today. i can't believe what those pple were thinking. missing work and school just for this? seriously, i don't think it's worth it. it's not like they would get to kiss the stars or something. the closest they are gonna get is to kiss the feet, which to me, is utterly revolting. and if they're lucky, they may get to catch a glimpse of the undies of those nice artistes. i wish them luck tt they would not see the undies of F4, if i saw them, i'll probably puke on the spot. but all these still do not add up to a convincing reason to actually queue so long for the tickets. mad people. but you know, to each his own, if they wanna do tt, it's fine with me cos it does not involve me.
and one girl got killed by the MRT today. i can't believe what she was thinking. the news pple didn't say if it was suicide. they just said the police classified it as "unnatural death". but it does not imply anything. almost everything in the world is unnatural. according to alyssa, it sounded like suicide. pple are getting weird these days, getting such ridiculous suicidal ideas. ***tsk tsk*** they shld attend some "always look on the bright side of life" seminar or something like tt. me, well, i'll never commit suicide or even try to commit suicide. life is too precious to be ended by one's own hands, or so i think. but you know, nothing in life is definite. you don't know what you will do tmr, who you will meet. maybe tmr something will happen to me and i'll see no meaning to life anymore. but right now, i'm as optimistic as one can get. and thus, you won't probably catch me dead on the MRT tracks unless some evil guy pushes me off. and unless someone murders me or someone idiotically drives his car into me or maybe some retard throws bricks down at me or maybe...i think tt's about enough examples. hah...signing off. just one piece of advice. cherish life, and don't try to end it yourself cos if you life shld be ended, it shld be ended by God and not you. kisses and hugs.
yours seriously
angel_undefined,beek.
Saturday, January 11, 2003 09:30 p.m.
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entry004
today, i had a pretty interesting day, even before i got to school. so here goes. i missed the first bus this morning, so i got on the second. Well, it's only the second time i'm taking the bus so i got kinda lost and forgot where to alight. i alighted at this strange looking place - in case you're wondering if this is some kind of alien story, it's not. the place is thomson hills drive. i realised i could not get to school cos there was no bus to school. i called my friends - cheryl and jy - to wait for me so tt they can lend me money to pay for my cab fare. well, i waited for 15 mins, no cab. 7.20 came and passed...well, now i'm sure gonna be late for school. i prayed to god, to bless with me with some transport to sch. then ***honk honk***. a lady in a white car was waving at me. oh, i can't describe how thankful i was when i found out she was offering me a ride. i really thank her. she's god's gift to me! i must thank god in my prayer tonight. and of course not forgetting jy and cheryl! they were waiting for me in school, just as they promised to! i love them! such good friends are hard to come by. and i think tt i shld start putting emergency cab fare in my wallet, just in case. it's funny. i kinda understood what they said abt saving for a rainy day. cos today was raining too. tt's all. bye!
yours seriously
angel_undefined,beek.
Wednesday, January 8, 2003 04:12 p.m.
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entry003
first day of sch with lessons. just another boring day with me falling asleep. but it's perfectly normal. i shan't bore you with my sch stuff cos sch is boring, talking abt it is worse.
the weather is so cool lately,literally. i mean, sometimes it's cooler my air-con. i really have nothing to say but for the sake of making the paragraph longer, i shall say more crap. hope you don't mind.
i am so broke this week and probably next week too. just hope tt i can hold out without dying of starvation. food is v.impt to me, probably the most impt thing to me on earth. yeah, i'll be praying tt i can pull through.
i bought, or rather, my friends and i bought this toy banana for jose today. i dunno what she see in tt banana. i mean yeah its yellow and green, it has cute face features. but tt's all to it. it's not even v.cute. but who cares, as long as she likes it, it's fine with me. and it's exactly because of tt present, tt's y i'm so broke. but i think it's all worth it because it's supposed to be her bdae today and i went to sch without her present. i think it must be really depressing for her. she's supposed to be one of my closest ex-classmates! and i forgot her bdae. i can't believe myself. i'm so ashamed. cos i don't think it feels good to pass your birthday without any presents. but it's all right, i guess, after you're used to it. i shall stop harping on this birthday and present thing. logging off...take care. kiss kiss.
yours seriously
angel_undefined,beek.
Tuesday, January 7, 2003 06:27 p.m.
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entry002
ok...i got quite a shock just now when i checked the mtvasiaawards.com site. F4 is coming for the awards show! And no, I'm not surprised. I'm shocked, almost dying, not for joy but out of disgust! I mean, look at them. All of them have long hair. I don't have anything against long hair guys but I just hate the way they do their hair or the way their hairstylist style their hair. It doesn't have style! It simply looks like they have bad hair day every day.
tomorrow, I'm starting lessons. Usually the day before I start lessons, I'll feel irritated. But this yr's different, cos I'm indifferent. I don't feel anything. I think it's probably because I'm too irritated by the character building programs going on these 3 days to feel irritated by the books.
On my way home today, I accidentally found another way for me to go to school. A faster way, probably shorter too. I think I'm so lucky.
i still have so much to do...so much hw of course. sometimes, i just feel like growing up quickly. cos i wanna experience working life, feel the pleasure or the pain of spending my own money and lead a cool life. i am seriously not happy with my life now. it's too boring, too restrictive and it's stupid. cos i don't see how i'm gonna use everything i've learnt in sch next time. but of course, when i leave sch, i'll miss every one of my friends. [i suppose i have to miss every one of them cos if i don't, i'll probably be black and blue every time i step into class later this year]
well, this might come a bit late but i'd like to wish every one a HAPPY NEW YEAR...have a great year...
yours seriously
angel_undefined,beek.
Monday, January 6, 2003 06:35 p.m.
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entry001
school wasn't great today cos of the stupid character development talk and the fact tt the house elections didn't turn out the way i expected it to really put me off a little. the day started out bad. just one word bad, or maybe two words real bad. i woke up late today. i got bad stuff for breakfast, so bad i forgot what it was. then, my leg hurt today and plus the fact tt it was raining and i was holding an umbrella, i walked a little slow today. and the bus had to come earlier than usual, so of course i missed the bus! i had to wait till 7 for the next bus to come and by the time i reached school, it was late, damn late. lucky no one caught me. i can't imagine the type of punishment i'll get frm ms low if i was caught! still thinking abt the stuff at sizzler yesterday. thinking abt how shallow i am and how most stuff i said are probably not gonna come true. but who cares? this is my fantasy, a little girl's fantasy. well, not little, comsidering i'm 15 going to be 16 soon, but it's still a girl's fantasy. well that's all. good day and nite to all. kiss kiss.
yours seriously
angel_undefined,beek.
Jan 3, Friday, 2003 - windy 08:46 p.m.
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