out-break
oh man, not again. once again i have to experience the sadness. how many times do i really have to say goodbye to my hols? i am really pissed off. the govt shld extend our break. i mean, what if i catch SARS? SARS is very very infectious. ***tsktsktsk*** and i thought they shld know better.
in just a few days, i'm going back to the school to face the teachers. the teacher s_s__ especially. i was just beginning to enjoy life without her. ah! school sucks. simply hate it. although sch is important for our future, but perhaps they shld do something to actually make pple have good memories of school. i mean, if i graduate right now, all i'll have is shudders at the sheer memory of my teacher. doesn't sound very pleasant at all.
the iraq war still hasn't ended. it's really sad tt they are sacrificing so many soldiers. i really hate saddam. the us found nerve gas in iraq. it proves tt he really is a despicable leader who's using such a deadly weapon on his people. i dunno what he's thinking. i don't see the pleasure of ruling over a land of dead people. weird. hope us wins really soon. no matter how pathetic and cruel saddam's end is, all i have to say if tt he deserved it. he deserves death for causing so many others' ends.
shall be more politically neutral. shan't criticise saddam too much, although i really dislike his ways.
yours seriously
beek.
Saturday, April 5, 2003 10:23 a.m.
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saddened
yesterday i watched "the practice". actually i missed alot of episodes but just happened to catch yesterday's finale. how do you spell her name? is it lindsay?
so she was the protagonist. i thought she would be let off. but sigh, sad case. she got jailed. i still am not quite convinced that she deserved the jail term. and i almost cried when her colleagues were looking so sad. that was the end of the season. hope that there will be a next season. i love that show. so exciting.
after i watched tt show, i couldn't fall asleep. i was thinking about the whole verdict. thinking about how justice sometimes suppresses the morality in humans. and vice versa.
yours seriously
beek.
Tuesday, April 1, 2003 02:06 p.m.
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cankered hate
great week it has been so far for me. but tainted only by a certain person, whose name i'm not allowed to reveal online. but i can tell you that she's my teacher, and for those who know me, i bet you can guess straight away who she is. (((duh, she's s_s__...fill in the blanks and you would have her nickname. and no, it's not an affectionate sort of nickname, just in case you were thinking that way.)))
i dunno why she has taken to picking on me. maybe it's because my friend has been absent for these few days and apparently, she had been s_s__'s fave person to pick on. it's really bad. every lesson, she will find something to say about me. like asking me to answer questions, asking me funny things and asking me to read out passages in class. ok, i admit, sometimes i do talk in class. but it's only sometimes, it's not all the time. and sometimes, when she picks on me, i'm doing nothing except listening attentively to her. seriously, what have i done to deserve this treatment?
yours seriously
beek.
Wednesday, March 26, 2003 05:19 p.m.
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the beginning of the end
today is the last day of the school hols. can't believe it. spent one whole week at home and still, i don't remember getting anything done. not even with my comp game. i am so damn slow. one week on the game and still, i haven't gotten to doskias. this is so irritating.
tmr will be the start of a new term. a term if torture. i think i'm having my mock exams this term. how sad if that. work is gonna build up and judging by the amt of motivation i have towards my studies, i'm gonna get none of those work done.
sometimes i think that i really have got terrible flaws in my character. i hate doing work, that's sloth. i get angry with people who scold me, that's wrath. everyone's proud, that includes me, that's pride. and everyone who knows me knows about my eating habits, that's gluttony. and there's so many things which i want, greed. plus, i admire people sometimes for the things they have which i don't, and that's envy. sometimes, i pass remarks about guys being cute. i suppose that's counted as lust. there you have it. the seven deadly sins. sinful, sinful. i must pray for forgiveness and become a more saintly person. maybe next time, there'll be a day called saint beek's day. i won't be surprised, will you?
yours seriously
beek.
Sunday, March 23, 2003 05:47 p.m.
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may i have your attention pls
many people have been telling me things like..."oh, how's your hamster?", "i didn't know you had a hamster." stuff like tt. well, the truth is, i have no hamster. fifi cheng is the name of my imaginary pet, which is not even existent. fifi cheng is the wonderful creation of two of my good friends --- jy and glen. i applaud both of them for their er, very furtile imagination. wonderful. i love pple who dream.
and my fave character in lord of the rings is not gimli, although i think he's really funny. i like most of the characters in the series. they all add up mysteriously well to the plot. that's it. so pls don't ask me stupid things like "oh beek, has your hamster died yet? if it hasn't, come to me, i have lots of tonics for it".
yours seriously
beek.
Friday, March 21, 2003 08:10 p.m.
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now you know me, now you don't
the world is such an interesting place. so many changes around you that sometimes, you just get lost and think that maybe you don't really understand anyone at all, including yourself.
glen has told me that maybe i should just spill out everything about me to my friends, so that they can help me understand myself better. really sorry glen, i really can't do that. it's not that i have some problem with my mind but i just wish to remain the person on this earth who knows me the best, besides god of course. i just don't want to be in a situation whereby the people around me know me so well they can manipulate me. i don't wanna become a victim of myself. maybe i'm fetching things a little too far. it's not like i don't trust my friends but not all the people around me are my friends right? i don't know what i'm talking about, oops.
food and funfair was over two days ago. it was a totally fun experience. apart from the fact that i perspired so much i probably could've filled a mineral water bottle with my emitted water molecules. it was fun, even though i still think that my shrinked dink or whatever you call it looks a little less than perfect. but then again, nothing in this world is perfect.
and plus i went to two haunted houses. they're not bad seriously. but somehow it didn't seem as scary as the acjc one. maybe it's because i actually know who they are. like qy and i actually laughed at the person in the coffin, who happens to be shufang. it's so funny. we were teaching her how to look scary when she was supposed to be scaring us out of our wits. and one of my cca mates was this ghost. when i saw her, i screamed. and she came up to comfort me. what is the world coming to? ghosts seem to be taking classes from casper, the friendly ghost. maybe next time, the world would be a paradise, consisting of beings from the mortal and spiritual worlds coexisting harmoniously. and who knows, maybe next time ghosts will enjoy yong tau foo soup, instead of the same old burnt sweets.
yours seriously
beek.
Monday, March 17, 2003 10:25 a.m.
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