drained.
first of all, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR. maybe all of you prosper in whatever way you wish. may the monkey bring in the fun in this coming year. i'm kinda sick of goat milk. shoo goat, welcome the monkey.

beek smiled on
Wednesday, January 21, 2004 10:30 p.m.
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brain block.
oops nothing much to say today. just tt today is so boring and yet more enjoyable than other days. really bad. am not having any inspiration to blog. ah. see you guys soon. nights.

beek smiled on
Tuesday, January 20, 2004 09:28 p.m.
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the start of a horrible time.
school was utterly bad today. nothing interesting happened. like oh man, how am i going to survive in such a boring environment. sucks. and i hope the chem tutor will stop picking on me. it irritates me very much.

i feel like sleeping. probably cos i woke up at 5.30 today. so freaking early. but for shihan's sake, it's worth it. i don't want to be so sian everyday in school. and i feel stupid in school. during gp lesson, i felt as though i came from mars. i totally had no idea who steve chia was and had no knowledge of zionism. ok, i think i should watch more bbc and cnn. people in my class are so well-read and well-informed. i ought to be ashamed.

i should buck up in my math. my first tutorial and i had to get so much help to do the questions. did my brain just deteriorate during the holidays or something? i feel that my iq just dropped by 100, if it was even above 100 in the first place. and i should just listen during lectures. i don't think i absorbed any econs crap today. urgh. school is irritating. i prefer to stay home to catch up on my sleep.

we did something interesting today. me, liping and jy. shan't say what it is. shall say when it's time to reveal the truth. but it's just entertaining and it sort of makes me want to go to school. i hope no one from my class is reading this. today is just the beginning of a horrible time ahead in jc. urgh, have a nice life everyone.

beek smiled on
Monday, January 19, 2004 08:26 p.m.
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need some help.
no point hiding it. i'm an html idiot. how do i bold certain words during typing? and italics too. someone html savvy pls leave a message on the tag board.

beek smiled on
Sunday, January 18, 2004 03:51 p.m.
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motivation-less
today is a sunday, which means tmr is a monday. i hate weekdays, i dislike going to school to study. i prefer to stay the way i am forever, able to stay home and stayed glued to my comp and tv. but everyone's gotta grow up and tmr i'll be one day older, one day closer to the day i depart from this world. sad.

i know i'm supposed to do my tutorials but i really am not in the mood to do so. yesterday this guy in my class asked me a math question online. i didn't know how to do it. but i wasn't expecting otherwise. i mean, if a guy from tchs doesn't know how to do it, it's unlikely that i will. anyway, i've been feeling stupid these days, ever since i got to hc. i think i'm too used to being in a class which is regarded one of the best classes in the level, i.e. 4unity. but i guess it's only right that i feel this way. everyone is like super smart. and i'll be happy just to be able to be in the same school as them.

i need motivation! to do hw, to participate actively in school and everything. i need motivation for many things i do. for things like going town to shop or bum around, i have lots of motivation. but for serious stuff like doing tutorials and listening during lectures, i need serious motivation. i feel so unaccomplished everyday and i don't feel like accomplishing anything. at the rate my entire brain is working, i'll most prob get retained. maybe my class will motivate me. i don't think i'll be able to take other people's hw to copy. i feel that it's kinda mean now, it's like snatching other people's credit. many of my classmates have already finished their tutorials, i think that counts for motivation to do mine.

how's school. i think the tagboard's up...i did it this morning. it might look a little tacky but who cares. cheryl commented that she needed a space to leave a message so there it is. tell me about your school or something. i miss sn people so much. love you loads and loads and loads.

beek smiled on
Sunday, January 18, 2004 02:08 p.m.
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increased intelligence
today i redid the html of this page myself. that's why it looks different. i feel smarter already. here, i must thank jy for giving me advice, otherwise i wouldn't have started editing the html in the first place.

today's just another boring day. shall blog about something more interesting tomorrow.

beek smiled on
Saturday, January 17, 2004 09:44 p.m.
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