09:02 p.m., Tuesday, May 15, 2007
[music|Frou Frou - Must be dreaming]

Kind of in stoner mood. I won't be updating very often because of pre-u sem coming up so I'll be away for a week or so. Will have a new layout when I'm back :D Please look forward to it and the opening of my mp3 rotation site!

Hallelujah Chance!

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07:41 p.m., Saturday, May 12, 2007
feeling a bit crappy.

Blah.

Whatever

Let's crash some cars :D

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10:39 p.m., Thursday, May 10, 2007
Yay. I'm seriously pissed off.

I've just totally reignited my utter hatred for my school! Oh yay!

I'm so goddamn happy about it and I totally lap it all up.

Awesome.

My sarcasm amuses me.

I haven't been updating at all, but screw. So what if I busy?

I'm also tempted to just screw JC life and maybe start another coup

Or a one (wo)man hate campaign (kudos to sis for being the role model for all JC haters, how I love thee)

Toroi-san will be so proud.

Not to mention, I'm pretty creeped out as well.

Actually, very, very creeped out.

I don't know what to say.

pheonix down, now!

I really regret staying here. Let's get these damn 2 years over and done with.

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10:28 p.m., Saturday, May 5, 2007
[music|Monkey Majik + 吉田兄弟 - Change]

I'm dead tired. Went swimming/running in the morning. Finished my part of the GPP and sent it to Zoe. Soon realise it was time to meet Aysha and Vishesh at school. Fortunately, Mom was nice enough to drop me off. Helped Aysha with the CAW board, cut out some pictures and made the instructions spiffy.

Yesterday and the rest of today is a bit blur...

I need sleep.

I think

But I haven't been sleeping well lately.

I need a new layout but my yura has been sucked dry. I think I'll continue tomorrow. I should finish my tuition homework before I feel damn guilty tomorrow for not doing Ms Ving's work even though I didn't have tuition last week.

Time slips by pretty quickly. It'll be the holidays soon.

I feel like zombie mode right now. Vaccine me plskthanxbai.

There again, FF-speak. I'm clearly not thinking straight.

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11:35 p.m., Friday, May 4, 2007
I really should change my layout. I'm too tired. Will update tomorrow, I think.

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06:26 p.m., Thursday, May 3, 2007
once again, I'm on the comp!

Watched Bambino. Matsujun has such a slappable face. Like the kind of face you want to smack.

My brain just died on me. Trying to reboot it somehow.

By last night, I wasn't as pissed off as I felt in the afternoon because I was panicking like hell. DRQ test. I die.

I died today during the test. Like PHAIL LIAO. Seriously.

I need a pheonix down!

Maybe a pinion, more effective.

Auto-potion!

I'm mad. Talking FF-speak is a sign of insanity. Clearly.

I get over things pretty quickly, I don't stay angry very long. I'll eventually find something to laugh at or amuse myself. Just don't remind me about it and I'll be fine.

Actually, I'm getting kicks out of despising AC. I'm evil and I don't care. I'm already sure who I'll be voting for council.

My ears are feeling a bit itchy. I really should be doing that board for the Econs Society...

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04:38 p.m., Wednesday, May 2, 2007
[music|Bloc Party - I still remember]

I don't think anymore.

I know.

I absolutely despise AC.

Why? Because now I'm starting to actually care. I was so frustrated I felt like crying at the bus stop It's worst when you don't have anyone to talk to about everything

Needed to pass the Presenters Yiting's laptop. I lunged the all the way 7 storeys up and down and up again along with my 3 inch chem file, dead heavy file and bag. Eventually kinds souls decided to give me a hand. Guess what? They left without taking her laptop so I was stuck with it. I called Yiting to find a way to pass it back to her. Problem: I was stuck with her laptop and she was on the MRT on her way to CIP. Solution: I ran to the MRT station and back to pass her laptop. I would feel gulity if she was late for her CIP, especially it was not her fault to begin with. And I felt uncomfortable to leave it in the school general office for her to collect when she comes back at 6pm because the laptop which is in my posession would be my responsiblity.

After all that, ran back to school for Art Soc. Basically did nothing but talk because I was so drained (didn't know what do with my sculpture) and talked to them instead.

I've got a bit of flu. Blah. Oh and informed all the other IT people about Friday and Sunday meetings. They just ruined my plans for Friday. Was planning to go back to IJ with Tiffy then to sit at Mos and drink Milk Tea. Looks like I have to cab back to school to make it in time for the meeting.

I've got a DRQ test which I'm so going to flunk. I'm still in my AC uniform. The Marks and Spencer chocolate chip cookies look rather tempting...
Have to finish the board for Econs Soc's Econs week. I really wanted to go for the wealth management talk but other time. Instead Esther and I volunteer for the econs quiz. So wtf.
and finish my chem file.

So what the hell am I doing on the computer?

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05:02 p.m., Monday, April 30, 2007
[music|Utada Hikaru - Keep Tryin']

Happy Birthday Kiwi~<3
I have a present for you from me and Sak, along with some hugs because I'm extremely underhugged in AC.

I hugged Meng Jung today though, which was nice, to congratulate her. CLDDS got Gold with Honours for SYF :D And she said she was surprised over the outcome, oh really?

In the end I didn't go back to IJ with Tiffany because she got DC. I'll be going on Friday

I pierced my ears yesterday. As a fully consicous 17 year old, though with questionable sanity, I can say it doesn't hurt. Really. It feels like you're being stapled then if you don't think about it, it doesn't feel like its there. And the lady put lots of alcohol, she was really nice too. It's funny to hear Cyn and Melsie's stories on getting their ears pierced, they did it as kids. The only other person I know who pierced their ears recently is Kiwi, who did it 3 years ago. Now I've got purple earrings and sis has pink ones. Xu Lu and Adeline noticed! LOL. I thought no one would, I just sat next to Xu Lu and she's like, "you pierced your ears?" after 5 minutes (must be because I sit with her all the time) And my earrings are apparently against school rules. Talk about radical.

With all the bland details of my weekend said and done, remember Murakami's Second Bakery attack? It's basically about a protagonist who as a teenager attacked a bakery, got free bread for listening to Wagner. As a married man, he and his wife decides to attack a bakery again to free him from his so-called curse. Unable to find a bakery, they make do with a MacDonald's branch.

Back to my uninteresting mundane life, I don't like cream puffs. I probably have a distaste for it. In fact, I've never eaten one until I went to Taka with Jia Jun (which by the way, was only 2 months ago) When I go Beard Papa, I buy the chocolate fondant cake only, or at Polar I always buy a sugar roll, curry puff or chicken pie. Never a cream puff. I don't even like profiteroles.

I went with Sis on her insane hunt for a cream puff. Once we were there, I didn't get a cream puff. I just watched her eat, even though she offered me one.

I had one yesterday, and today during Chem tutorial, I had this strange craving for one. Now I can't imagine not liking one.

I swear, it's a curse.

And I have absolutely no idea why.

I've never liked cream puffs, but after the wild cream puff chase somehow it has changed.

there are symbolic dreams and symbolic realities

I didn't believe my sis when she said it would be a life-changing experience.

Right. Now I like cream puffs, and they'll probably make me grow fatter.

On that note, Sis and Jia Jun said the same thing about each other

[your sister/he] sounds nice

Nice?

I'm not very fond of that word, I think I've mentioned that way too many times. Mostly because it says everything and nothing at the same time. It reminded me of the time when I started disliking it, P5. It doesn't really say much, but it says enough. Does that make sense? I tend to use it when I can't really specify how I should reply/say.

I saw the poor council nominees running around the morning putting up ads etc etc while talking to Nicole about the Econs society needing our help. I laughed at Robindro's one-liner. The one-liner thing is just funny, it lamer/outrageous/stupid/dumb it is, the better. Helped with Ching's one on Saturday. Council is something that doesn't appeal to me but I'd be glad to help out if necessary. Funny how I seem to have a secondary school classmate running for council in their respective JCs. Stood next to soon-to-be AC royalty while talking to Jia Jun about the props list. Hilarious. I, a lowly don't-give-a-shit attitude eccentric rebel and ugly random person in an AC uniform, must have tainted her immortality. I think I might actually depise AC. I don't even know why, it's one of those strange things like 看到不顺眼. I'm not very ACSian at all.

For Cyn,
A-ra-shi, A-ra-shi~!

Now she's pimping Arashi, which has to be the gayest boyband ever. Sak and I came to a common agreement that they have the gayest dance moves/concept for their PVS/costumes/doramas... you get the picture. I'm amazed how quickly Cyn changes her guys(it was previously Tamaki Hiroshi from Nodame)

This is all a very amusing entry.

To organise my schedule so I won't forget (plus I visit my pitas quite frequently)
Things I need to do,

Study for Chem test on Atomic Structure and Chemical Kinetics
Start GP environment essay
Complete Chem file for checking
Source out for props (Pre-U sem)
-remind Yiting to bring her laptop on Wednesday
-remind Robindro about the black beret
-remember: clipboard, googles, test-tubes and rack

Get my keys back from Sak!
Finish Chinese tuition homework
Complete GPP with Zoe's and YY's suggestions and send to TYS
Don't forget econs DRQ test on Thursday
Kor and Sis leaving Thursday morning
Friday: go back to IJ with Tiffy. Meet at library 2.10
Get Rock AC(11 May) tickets to support Ethel

Tomorrow:
Going to watch a movie with Mom and sis

Chinese tuition at 2.30pm!
STUDY FOR CHEM unless I want to flunk -again- like today's damn class test (9/21!)

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08:06 p.m., Saturday, April 28, 2007
[music|Ar Tonelico - Lost Performance paradox]

I'm feeling really drained right now.

Went to Liang Court Kino and Mediya in the afternoon with sis and Sak. Soon afterwards, was dragged into a blind wild cream puff hunt because purin does not satisfy tsu's insane craving. For a cream puff. Why a cream puff? What makes a cream puff a cream puff?

Today was rather strangely meaningless yet symbolic.

there are symbolic dreams and symbolic realities

I'm just tired.

And I need to study for my chem tests (class on monday and CA on wednesday) then finish the GPP and finally econs DRQ test.

I realise even though I'm going to be busy with tests and all, I actually don't feel very stressed. Very unusual things stress me out. Meh. Today, having to deal with my mom and my sister at the MRT station. In the end we secretly went to Habour Front for her cream puff. Mom only stated not to go Taka.

I can't really decide what I want anymore. And I hate being indecisive. I'm just too goddamned straight-laced and sticking my pride in all the wrongs places.

Actually, I really want some decent sleep.

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09:48 a.m., Saturday, April 28, 2007
[music|Tokyo Philharmonic Orchestra - Passion~KINGDOM orchestra instrumental version]

I'm pleasantly stuffed and currently holding a pack of suan nai. It's some yoghurt/milk drink from China which I love. Reminds me of the Yunnan trip with Rachel.

I forgot to mention that I went to the art room to do my sculpture again and I've completed the bottom part! I'm going to be busy next week (and the week after) because Art Soc is helping out in the econs week on top of pre-u sem. Best thing is, Madam may get Mr Dunn to teach me how to make a glass orb. I heart! Some 1AHs thought I was a J2 working on my final project when I was in the art room... And Estelle and I share a common hatred for GP.

Went to get groceries at Holland V with Sak which was much fun. Hopped into Da Paolo for those wonderful lemon cupcakes, then stopped by some shop (Pantry Magic) with shiny!adorable!kitchen equipment. Sat in Provence to recharge then a slow stroll home where Sak got a black hoodie ($5)

Sak had to leave soon after dinner. Talked to Cyn online, sort of helped her out with her GP blog. Yeah, blog. So hi-tech. I'm sticking by a resource file. Worked on the GPP and felt accomplished.

I'm back to marathoning VGM on my playlist. The new addition would be the Ar Tonelico OST which features vocalists from Atelier Iris (the one who sang 白夜幻想譚 white night imagination) and Mitose Noriko from Radical Dreamers' fame.

I shall go Kino later today at Liang court to pick up dengenki and several other things, swing by Mediya supermarket which I love. It's such a nice place.

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09:33 p.m., Friday, April 27, 2007
[music|The Killers - Read My Mind]

hmm.

It was a very strange week.

Take it easy now
What's going on?

My sis is back from China. I'm so pleased. Haven't seen her for a month or so and my brother is coming back tomorrow. Although I haven't seen Cyn or Kiwi since the AJC band concert. Bah.

I've been following Darker than BLACK, it's Yoko Kanno. Enough said.

Just moving on

I think I shall go Liang Court Kino/Mediya supermarket because there's 20% discount and I absolutely adore Mediya supermarket. It's just so fun to walk around there but I really should be studying for my tests. Especially since Pre-U sem is probably going to suck up my time or something.

I was reading an old entry from a year back. When I was listening to Utada Hikaru's Keep Tryin'(which was released on my birthday that year) and talking about the Tea Party/Pulau Semakau Trip.

I don't care about anything
that's why I'll keep tryin'

It's such a nice morning song. Like Passion. I was fangirling over Gensui V and KH2 then. Which promptly caused me to screw up my Os, but I don't regret it. I don't think I ever will. And I still remember Germ's expression when I told her I've been playing FFXII during the O level exam period and remember going to KKnM with Mon and Cyn on the last day of prelims to get XSIII. Now that I think about it, I want to go KKnM to get the last book of Gorgeous Carat.

Sak kind of came over but she left pretty early. She's going to start school and everything so it gives me an excuse to write pretty letters to her :D

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11:00 p.m., Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Oscar Wilde once said, Men always want to be a woman's first love - women like to be a man's last romance

LOL. I just watched the hard-subbed version of Proposal Daisakusen. It's hilarious! I especially like the Yousei-guy

It's mecha mecha amusing<3

And Pi's expressions are so effing amusing. The OST is also pretty good, except they keep playing Handel's Messiah in all the cheesy parts (Yousei-guy appears to send Ken(Pi) back in time) which is all very laugh-able.

I shall lend it to Tiffy when I get all the eps.

Hallelujah chance!

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09:00 p.m., Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Robin said it was pitiful that I'm so free. Actually, I'm really not that free, I'm just free in comparison to them. I don't think it's pitiful to be that free. So what if I spend most of my time in school, at least I have time to enjoy in school. Like the library, maybe I should become a librarian or something. There are more things than just school. Maybe I should pick up dancing again.

I'm the nobody
watching
standing
always observing
silent
forgotten
never important

But that's interesting too :D and I'm happy that way. Although I want to pick up something out of school (coughIKOMA!cough) Just joking, I'm already having a hard time coping with chinese. I'm learning the Viennese Waltz! Well, ballroom dancing actually. I heart! (I did ballet... Was actually pretty good, so was sis)

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06:53 p.m., Monday, April 23, 2007
[music|KAT-TUN - Signal]

chiki chiki ah~
Take it easy now
What's goin' on, making changes
What's goin' on, getting through stuff
I'm movin' on, we’re always doing that, aren’t we?
Take it easy now
What's goin' on, the passion that seems
Just movin' on, like it’ll disappear in a flash
Is in all of our hearts

I think Signal is much too appropriate for my school life. hur hur (insert necessary sarcasm :D)On that note, HOMG Jin is back!

I was caught in the rain again. And this time, instead of a tidal wave, it was just really heavy rain. Took a non air-conditioned bus(95) because I have no intention of being made into a popsicle, to Holland V. By then the rain promptly stopped much to my pleasure. 48 took eternity to come as usual, but it was generally a pleasant journey like most days. I can't understand why people can dislike taking a bus, it's not something clearly within my comprehension mostly because I enjoying stoning on a bus. Similarly, I miss taking a double-deckered bus. I haven't taken one since err... I'm not even sure when.

Came home, showered. Then the power was cut off because of a trip for 20 minutes or so, while trying to deal with the presenters' situation. We've got such bad luck. Correction, Robin has such bad luck. He -had- to refuse Mrs Chang's offer to lend him the SOLE backup copy of the 8 minute report. Although it's partly my fault because I did not clarify with Aysha about the report. Thus, I shall stay back tomorrow and give moral support to the presenters. Probably go Provence afterwards to get a Koshi Anpan for Sis since she's coming back the day after and maybe a milk pan...

Next Monday is Kiwi's birthday, Sak and I already got her something although I have no clue on how to give to her (including several hugs :D) especially since the band SYF is coming around. I'm really looking forward to this weekend, hur hur but Sak already knows what 'radical' thing I'm doing. I'm pretty free (again) because I've got no tuition. Ms Ving is going back to Mauritius, I hope she gets me those wonderful jars of utter goodness; Papaya and Vanilla Jam. And I had 3 hours of chinese tuition last saturday which covers this week, unfortunately I missed out the AJC event Cyn invited me to. Bah.

Take it easy now
What's goin' on, gracefully
What's goin' on, toughly
I'm movin' on, that’s how we all live, right?
Take it easy now
What's goin' on, selfishly
Just movin' on, dangerously

We’re still alive today, right?

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08:23 p.m., Friday, April 20, 2007
[music|Trinity Blood - Requiem~inori]

It's friday night!

I have chinese tuition tomorrow morning. I really need to work hard to pass my chinese test on tuesday. After PW, went to the library to wait for Tiffany and studied chinese. Used the school's internet and continued reading Norwegian Wood. I don't like it as much as I liked Sputnik Sweetheart. Sat with Meng Jung and Tiff at the library and give Tiff a crashcourse in Chemical Kinetics. Eventually saw Jia Jun. Left with Tiff to meet Melsie at Somerset. Went to eat uzumaki ice-cream! Except umm.. I felt bad because I had no cash and had Melsie pay for me. I generally don't like to owe people money. Apparently, I'm not the only one who feels detached from school. It's just a place to learn. AC isn't really a place for me but it's already April. I'm sure time will pass by quickly and I would have graduated. I don't really hate AC, I'm just not enjoying it. I'm beginning to be rather fond of the school library though (in other words: study, read or PSP-ing! in air-con) and the sofas are really comfy.

I really like Art Soc. I mean the stuff they do, I almost felt like going to the clay room to finish my sculpture, but it will be a bit awkward. More importantly, Madam says that the art students might be going to Europe and she asked whether we were interested. OMG YES PLS KTHXBAI.

JC is a strange experience.

I've been reading my sis's entries lately. Oh, I don't know, they give me warm fuzzy feelings when she writes about Qian Yong. It must be nice to like someone I guess. Maybe frustrating also. I wouldn't know or would I?

I feel like doing something radical. Haha, I can't even remember whether I've done anything radical yet. Afterall I am the serious, responsible one in the family. I don't think buying a PSP is considered radical.

Labour Day is a holiday, I think I shall go for tea with Sis. Nice, afternoon tea. At Cafe Rosso? (food is on me :D)

HOMG. Melsie got me NewS' Hoshi wo Mezashite for my birthday! I heart~<333 I'm so underhugged in AC. Hugging Meng Jung yesterday made me feel better, although she has to bend down to hug me...

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08:24 p.m., Wednesday, April 18, 2007
I read Spunik Sweetheart twice. I shall return it to the library and borrow another book.

there's no more gravity, and I'm left to drift in outer space

Like a little lost Sputnik?

I really liked the book.

Went for Art Soc today which was so much fun. I'll upload a picture of my sculpture when it is completed.

I don't know what to say when people complement my sculpture. I usually just say thanks because I don't know what else to say. Why don't I do art? I guess I generally have a romantic take on most things, mixing academics with interests just becomes so unpretty for me. That's probably why I don't like exams in general.

On other note, I realise I seem to be so free compared to a lot of people. *coughSYFcough* So much so that I roll around in school, reading (I spent the whole PCCG period and all my breaks reading) bumming around, thinking a lot and just stoning. And I generally get to complete most of my work :D

I wouldn't give it up. Even for a great school leaving cert. I like it, monitoring people and myself It's a bit funny though. But it does get lonely sometimes because I constantly keep a distance in school sometimes unintentionally (I'm trying to be objective!) Ok. Fine, I do it a lot. Maybe because it's difficult for me to hold a conversation for 15 minutes with my classmates.

kind of helpless feeling when everything you're used to has been ripped away

I've been reflecting a lot. Maybe because it's almost like I'm alone at home. I stayed up last night to read all the Fables' books in one shot after some FF9-ing. Amazingly also finished my chinese homework. I'm surprised at myself!

I've yakked a lot lately haven't I?

deep&meaningfuls? Lots this week.

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06:23 p.m., Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Revelation:

I've read finish Murakami's Spunik Sweetheart :D

I borrowed it 5 hours ago.

I don't think I've ever read something so fast

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09:20 p.m., Tuesday, April 17, 2007

I have high amounts of caffeine coursing through my bloodstream right now.

Recharge complete!

I'm so glad I decided to go out on a stationary spree

Best bit. Yakked with Mon, Jin and Sak!(like magpies) before Mon and Jin had ikoma. Like HOMG, Mon's skirt is shorter than mine! and she uses a drawstring. I actually have my skirt at knee-length and tuck in my blouse because
1. I revel in my proclaimation of spinster-hood
2. I'm a rebel in disguise with smart snarky comebacks
3. I'm cool at being uncool :D

And once I realised that when you look up on the stairs you can actually see people's underwear, I've become damn paranoid.

Went to Kino soon afterwards (Mon's horror stories of CJC's mass PE. My deepest sympathies) and looked at stationary. Got Kiwi her birthday present with Sak<3 Hopped to Taka to look at uber adora-bi-ble things with Sak (we are so totally ghei together, it's hilarious)

I need more days like this.

On another note, I'm totally addicted to the Okami piano arrangements soundtrack.

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05:24 p.m., Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Ok. Very fast entry. Here we go.

After calling Cyn during my break, I just was feeling very unsettled for the rest of the day. I just said uh-huh and spewed ideas at appropriate intervals.

Funny thing: I'm confused.

Funnier thing: I'm confused about what is making me confused.

Does that make sense?
I just can't seem to put a finger on it.

I feel isolated in JC life, because it really takes up all your time and it's difficult to meet the crew and arrange suitable times to meet up. I haven't seen mon since tsu's birthday. I just seem to be thinking a lot more than usual. "Methodical analysis" I quote from tsu, because I seem to think about what I have said, what other people have said and whatever that just comes to mind. Haven't been sleeping well either, not to mention I'm sleeping alone now so I can stay up and think. Just lie there and stone.

And it's extremely frustrating.

I don't know what I want from JC or what I want to achieve from it. Good grades? Impressive testimonials?

I guess it's worst because I don't like being in school. No it's more like I have no sense of enjoyment in school. It's just

shikata nai

I walked home from school. Yes, Buona Vista to Farrer Road. (because walking helps me think. I realise I walk faster than I run. I liked walking around TP...) Buona Vista is not a nice place to walk. Corrogated metal roofed overhead bridges, construction work EVERYWHERE. Dust and smoke all over the place.

So I'm home. Going to have dinner, get a good shower and change out of school uniform and meet sak at kino. At first I was thinking about going alone but since she called back :D

I guess because I'm bored too.

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06:26 p.m., Friday, April 13, 2007
[music|Sousei no Aquarion - Celiane]

Today is rather has been raining. Except the sunset is pretty now.

Went home while it was raining. Poor kame-chan got wet. (kame-chan is the Ikea turtle on my bag) And I got attacked by a tidal wave, damn taxi! so skirt down was quite wet, not to mention I let out a big 'hanya??!!!' Shared by umbrella with Aretha to the bus stop, being absolutely stubborn (and dumb) I walked to the MRT station. I didn't want to take a bus there, from there take another bus and then switch at Holland Drive to go home.

Yesterday helped out didn't do anything, just sat there and studied thus giving moral support to the presenters. That rooftop place with tables is really nice. The breeze and sky. I heart!!! While I sat there and studied for today's bio test, the presenters were working on their script. It was raining heavily so I went to Provence with Jia Jun, actually for a recharge because my head was spinning with information overload (1hr bio lecture on DNA and genomics + 2hr revising on bio molecules and cell structure)

While waiting for Jia Jun and Jazlyn to turn up, was talking to Robindro and Aysha. Robindro wants affirmation from people that's why he gets himself involved in school, because he wants to be somebody. I guess for me, it's not important. I'm fine being a nobody in school, I'm still me and I'm somebody to people who care about me, so I'm happy with that. My insecurities are very different. Or maybe I'm tired about giving a damn, although I do have a goal: I really want to revamp Art Soc. And ace my As. Poor Aysha has been drag into a class scandal, I really pity her people can be so awful.

I feel like skipping tomorrow's SJI. Blah, we'll see my mood tomorrow.

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05:45 p.m., Wednesday, April 11, 2007
[music|Xenosaga - in this serenity]

I'm guessing this is going to be another 'I'm missing everybody' entry.

I do. A lot in fact. And since we're on holiday mood for pre-u sem, I'm doing nothing much. Although I should be studying for bio test hohoho... Chem test was really shitty. I didn't get to finish it so it's confirmed that I lose at least 5 marks. It's over and done. I'll think about it when I get it back.

Went for the scrabble competition, got trashed because I simply cannot spell just got about 100-ish points :D was very amused to learn about new 2 letter words. Saw Aysha and Robin there. Xu Lu and Carine were there supporting me. It was raining rather heavily so I stayed till it lightened. Talked to Robindro and Grace. He's pretty upset that he's no longer class rep and he wanted it quite badly. I submitted my WAP application, I really hope I get in. In JC, when I want something, I really want it quite badly. I'm not really keen on getting too involved with JC life. Just here to get it over and done with. Maybe I should have gone with Robin for debate, just to see.

I'm not the debating type though.

I'm not even sure about myself anymore.

Haha. It's not surprisingly really, I'm not exceptional at anything, I'm just above average for most things. It's not a very comforting attribute. I don't think I was ever sure because you don't really think about it?

drip drip drip
on the bus seat

I still want to be a doctor though. We'll see :D

Although I will still open that cafe with Francoise

I feel like writing letters. Locally. To Cyn, Mon or Kiwi. Except that I'm not sure whether they'll write back ;__; that's why I stopped writing letters, because nobody writes back. Letter writing has a certain level of sentimentality and romanticism, which is a welcoming change for me. Not to mention I have lots of pretty paper dying to be used. Some people cannot bear to use it, but I'm always happy to use my pretty paper because there's this sense of sincerity when you give things you like to others. I like letter writing. But I'm guessing no one would bother to write back because they are all simply too busy. Isn't everyone?

Who shall I write to?

I really should bake more often, it always puts me in a better mood.

Nobuta powarz chu nyuu!

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05:55 p.m., Monday, April 9, 2007

[music|See-Sea - Kimi wa boku ni niteiru]

It's Monday and I'm home at 6pm. Oh the horror! :D

I baked yesterday. HOMG. I seriously need to bake more often, I really miss it. I really do, I should find more time to bake.

I forgot to take a photo of it. Damn. And I forgot to buy single cream to make the icing too. Eh... I'll make one with icing and all another time. I like my chocolate cakes not too sweet, more chocolate. Like dense, chocolate. Although I'm personally not fond of chocolate cakes. I tend to not bake things for myself because after all the prep and washing I don't feel like eating it. Not quite sure why though never really bothered to think about that.

Went to watch West Side Story on Saturday. For a school production it's really good. But I just didn't enjoy it after the intermission. Saw Mrs Jacobs there too presuming there to support Judith. I'm generally not fond of school productions unless I actually know the people performing. On another note, now onwards, I know never to order Starbucks tea because it's shit. And I'm not a coffee drinker, unless it the vietnamese one that tsu brought me to try<3 I should start drink coffee because I have a strange feeling that I'll be needing it. Real soon.

Talked to tsu soon after coming home from popo's house. Kor is in Guangdong and apparently mama is in Zhu Hai which means, it's safe for me to go for SJI this Saturday at my class rep's house (Shelford Green, oh the HORROR) I shall be unusually supportive and say that I'll help cater some food. tsu is really lonely in China, and I can't really blame her though. I would feel uncomfortable being called xiao jie everywhere. I just hope she can wait a while longer before I fly up and meet her. It's been 4 years since I've been there?

I hope I can get into WAP (work attachment program). I really want it, the same way I wanted to be in pre-u sem. Was at the CIP notice board and saw that Sculpture Sqaure was looking for volunteers for their annual fair. Pity it was already filled up.

natsukashii ne, Sak?

Chen Lao Shi was a bitch about giving Sak her result booklet because her mom wasn't coming, therefore was almost late. Then got lost looking for the place till we saw the signs to the place. I remember our superviser gave us free cookies and ice-cream. We helped kids and made a funky hat with lips on it for the food vendors. After cleaning up we drew on the floor with chalk and during breaks we'd look at the other stalls. Played with the ice sculptures which were pretty in the sunset. That was the same day we got our mid-term results. Remember going to Novena Square to meet Mom for dinner. We had italian and I saw that they were selling pesto, which was the first time I ever saw proper basil+olive oil+pine nuts pesto in Singapore. Thus squeeeed in utter delight.

Oh and PKW. AA is collaborating with them again this year ;_________; Those saturday mornings at Little India drinking bandung during breaks and grabbing buns/waffles at the nearby bakery. And that horrible smell of thinner when we did printing. We'd steal the OZ postcards that were available and use them during classes to pass messages. I had a fond liking for the 'happy' butterfly one.

Hmm. I think I was following Naruto and GS then. Oh yeah, and GITS:SAC 1st and 2nd season. And I was on the decoration committee, wait, it was just me and Sak. Classroom deco was always fun and pretty, especially the Valentine's Day one. And there was the Destiny Islands' one with paopu fruits and meiji ice-cream blue crepe paper.

Was really good friends with the IT person, Ms Koh who had a fond liking for the music I listened to. Always had fun running back and forth from St Mike's to St Gab's during recess with an umbrella. Was rather frightened of St Raphael because the place just creeps me out. Plus there are lots of snakes there. Sat with Melsie and Kiwi. Sat with Mon during lab, which was really fun. Talked about RPGs and at the same time tried to pay attention. Had Mr Teh for math lessons who sometimes reminds me of Ms Ving, 'Maths is all about concept. Once you understand it it's easy' Unwittingly managed to complete all the New Year Resolutions I made that year. I grew the most that year and became happier in school.

What a strange entry I have today.

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10:08 p.m., Thursday, April 5, 2007
[music|Angela Aki - This Love]

Pre-U sem is almost over!

We finally sent in the report today. Right on the dot. I felt like screaming for joy. I hugged Yiting and Aysha. I'm very under-huggled lately. Went for the Work Attachment Programme briefing, so I'll be going back to IJ most likely on TuesdaySaturday morning to get my records and everything true copied for the 11th April deadline.

LeftRAN for the SM2 scholars farewell, sat around surprisingly took photos in very genki expressions :D Eventually met up with Jia Jun, Tanya, Hope and Sam(sp?) to Holland V. Finally left school when I can still see the sun. Having to leave school when you see the bright moon for several days can be a bit disturbing. Walked around for a while.

By the way,
Shuuji-kun~<3
Your Mont Blanc is back
I'm not lying and that's Jia Jun trying to steal it...

A better photo

I got it from Cafe Rosso, I promise to treat you when you come back to SG

I shared the Strawberry Shortcake and Mont Blanc with them while they ate Provence bread. I had a cup of English Breakfast, so happy<3 Everybody likes Strawberry Shortcake, although its not as airy as the previous patissier's but it's much smoother. Mont Blanc is an acquired taste I think. For some odd reason, Jia Jun was totally obsessed with it... He likes chestnuts (reminds me of someone *cough*) I really wonder where the hell the food goes. He ate a milk pan (in front of me no less), a chocolate coronet, a koshi anpan and shared my Mont Blanc (I'm not totally fond of Mont Blancs but I had to try it, for Shuuji-sama's sake)And then wanted to eat some more. Hope was so cute, she makes cute noises! (although, sak's are still cuter :D) Heard a bit about Choir, I'm glad I'm not in such a CCA which needs so much involvement. Although I do miss my taichou days.

Went home for dinner. Got on the comp and for the first time, not looked at our Pre-U sem report at last. I almost forgot to mention the bloopers of the report. There's Robindro sounding very serious then suddenly says shit, one with my inner blonde(!) which is extremely embarassing to listen to and Jia Jun going "bad Aysha, bad Michelle" then going into utter randomness which is hilarious. Going for West Side Story Saturday night.

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09:07 p.m., Tuesday, April 3, 2007
[music|random sounds101]

Today(much like yesterday) was rather eventful. Just really busy with pre-u sem and all. I think I talk to them more than my own classmates XDD

watched the sky today on the roof.

It was pretty. I miss it, watching the sky. Unfortunately, AC sky isn't as nice as IJ sky. We have high-rise building everywhere instead of sparsely put HDBs (whose laundry I used to laugh at)

We may be at different places but we all see the same sky. Unless you suffer from the Farrer road syndrome (bukit timah side not raining, orchard road raining. One side bright, the other is thunderstorming)

After yesterday's chapel (HOHOHO! I was -actually- paying attention) I guess I'm more, dispassionate in school?

I'm really tired so I'm keeping it short.

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07:51 p.m., Friday, March 30, 2007
[music|The Perishers - Weekend]

New Layout! With Massu~

Hmm. Listening to stoner music. Been rather busy, shall I start with a recap? I guess so.

Been staying back till 5 plus because of CCA, pre-u sem. Even though I'm constantly in school, I still feel very emotionally detached. It's hard to explain, or put a finger to it. It's a strange -empty- feeling, even though I've got friends in school. It's just different. It's worse that sis is in China and Kor is leaving. Hate to say it but I'm bored. Bored with people. That has to be the worst kind of boredom, it really is. Cyn was emo-ing on her LJ (note: I don't really consider myself as one of the JE crew...) so I gave her a call. She misses us, and I miss them too. LOL. It was really funny though, I smsed her back and forth before I finally called just to make sure she was free. The sms 'Are you free now' is actually quite ridiculous really. Honestly, if the person doesn't reply clearly he/she isn't free right? So I've been trying to make an effort to avoid sending such messages. I haven't heard from mon, nanao or yassan in some time. Ah well. I think even Kiwi. School was fun then. I always seem to be unleashing my rage on random-monster268 on my PSP, or crashing other cars!

I really miss baking too. I hardly baked this year at all. I miss it.

Nevertheless, it's actually quite interesting -sometimes-, JC is a bit like a social experiment. Much like who got dumped or who and who hooked up etc etc... I just came back from an interview with some other girls and a GP teacher. I realised how different I behaved from the others, not that I behaved in an inappropriate manner but the way they carried themselves and so on. Funny thing was, I noticed that the GP teacher the 2 of the girls gave of the same vibes. Guess what? They were from the same secondary school. I thought it was rather amusing, but I can't really put a finger to it. I felt strange during the interview so I decided not to ask questions. Sometimes when I work with them, I feel awkward. One of my classmates asked me if I was really introverted, and yes. I am though very unusually proud of it. I replied her with a very simple answer, How much do you know about me? And she couldn't answer. She's really nice, she's probably going to be one of my better friends in ACJC. I guess you have to be a certain type of person to integrate well and enjoy the school culture. I felt really awkward explain ACS to the chinese scholar(Li Chang) I'm attached to about ACS... But is that the kind of person I want to become? Frankly, I'm not sure it'll better my development because I'm actually quite appalled at how some of the students behave. It can actually be quite horrifying. Sometimes you even question some of the teachers sincerity. So me and Rachel made a pact that we'll slap each other's face should either of us become like that :D And I happily said to Lao Shi that I didn't like JC. It'll be a short time, it's tolerable. You can't expect everything afterall.

And generally, I find myself a boring person. HOHOHO!

shikatanai

I'm learning from my sis!

But I do have some friends in school who do matter though. I really have to study for tests next week!Ahahahahaha... Let me laugh at it, then PHAIL :D

I want to play as much PSP tonight... Tomorrow I have pre-u sem, again ;__________________; I got into willingly afterall, and I'll see it through.

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