Well Hello from Phuket. Life's currently not too bad. the food is great and I am literally addicted to the roadside crepes~~~ Alleluia to internet cafes. Mostly people here are ang mohs

Aya

Early winter snow 07:55 p.m. Wednesday, December 8, 2004
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Okay, so it's been a long time since I added anything vaguely intriguing or something along the line. Yesterday Vivien and Auntie Bobbie came over for dinner. I went out with Sis in the afternoon to Kino and now I'm officially broke, we also stuffed ourselves with thai desserts of coconut and water chesnut,pandan and durian creams. Pie, good warm thick pie with ham, egg and cheese and a very expensive soft chocolate centered chocolate cake with a lightly sweetened shortbread base. Pig. I'm looking forward to the trip though the company just spoils it all. So it's my dad, sis and me going to a beach holiday. Wonderful. Phuket. My favourite beach. Tom yum kung and gluntinous rice with coconut milk and mangoes. Now that I think about it, I have a craving for it. Damm. There's no sun, there's no rain. The weather is just in between.It's cool, the crisp wind rushes through the windows and damm, it's good weather.

I like rain, I like the sun but my true love is the beach. I'll go pick some seashells for the Marauders because I highly doubt we'll go shopping, knowing him. After that, lie on the hammock watch the sunset,a good book in hand and a nice cool sweet drink on the other with the seaside breeze in my hair and the smell of the sea...Now that's my kind of holiday. God I love the beach. Now at least I know where I want to go for my honeymoon, if I ever get married that is.

"Everyone likes talking about themselves", as my sister said yesterday morning. Yeah, it true. Like I love picking food for people and cooking just to suit their tastebuds. Food = People. Odd? Hardly. Just read finish Anothony Bourdain's "A Cook's Tour" and just realise how strongly linked are the two. You require a strong curiousity for people to understand their food. Well, the weather is making me feel nostalgic. Bittersweet nostalgia. I sound like I'm 50. >.<'''

Talked to Mon and Sak over MSN last night. When a teacher calls, you usually asks why she called don't you? Mon must be in pain, literally and metaphorically. Chen Lao Shi called her when she was away at Kuantan and her grandmother picked it up but didn't ask why she called. -_-''' I don't get it. As much as I don't get it with the thing about an on-off kinda realtionship. Okay, I'm the kind of person had friends like years ago, bumps into them, says hi and then goes on with the small talk. They knew me then, I knew them then so they've changed, I've changed, I know you but I don't know you now so I don't care. Yeah. I'm that kind of person. Unless both parties take the effort to continue to keep relations then yeah, they're my friends, that's nice. I've known people being in so many different classes, I guess the school couldn't decided where to put me, so I've got lots accquaintances. I only keep those friends whom are closer and worth keeping. Funny don't you think? Just keep the friends who are dearer to you. Saves a lot of trouble as well I suppose.

Finally my sister gets whacked in some sense.*Thank god* Let me let you in a little secret, I'm religious and like mass. So? I just hate parish, did I tell you, I'm going to a different church for christmas mass, yay me! Go Aya~! even though I'm a shounen-ai fan.. Don't believe that the religion is in the wrong or right, it's just how you accept it and repay it through your actions. I don't think a lot of catholics take it in that way. So sak asked me the time when my mom dragged her to mass with us, "Why do you still come?" That's a nice question and I still hate that word, why?! That means you Kiwi, you ask too much, sometimes. *I know you're reading this so don't hide!* I suppose everything deserves a chance, except my dad. Why again? He's got his lot already, maybe if he was more repentant and at least tried to understand instead of treating us like piles of money and I suppose I never forgave him for what he did to my brother, mom and sis. *thank god I was 1!* At least I'm still sane. *poke self* I think I am...

Well it's a nice day. Got to start packing, will have tuition at 3. I'll be back on the 12th

Aya
Suteki Da Ne,Smiley Skeleton plays~

Early winter snow 12:31 p.m. Tuesday, December 7, 2004
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We managed to complete shooting. Finally. I was like ,"Cry Kiwi, Cry!! Cry for me darling! *wack wack* Get yourself together, you are an actress!" Hahaha...

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Early winter snow 10:49 a.m. Sunday, December 5, 2004
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Early winter snow 08:33 p.m. Thursday, December 2, 2004
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Yesterday when for AA com meeting. At least managed to get some work done. Went to watch the incredibles with Sak and Kiwi~~ The movie was good. Ate bento sets and I bought DN Angel 4.
I don't feel like adding anything else

Early winter snow 01:13 p.m. Thursday, December 2, 2004
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Okay. Calm down. Everything is going to be all right.
Right?
Right. It's going to be all right.

No it's not.
It never has been
*tick tock tick tock*
*bomb waiting to explode*
.....
*tick tock tick tock*
This family is going to drive me mad.
......
Why can't I be somewhere else?
I am damm frikkin' tired
Tired of everything at my throat!
Worry of everything
My sister, Mom, Brother, Sak,Moony, Kiwi, Mon....Everything frikkin' little thing!
I am just tired!
I've had enough
I'm really tired.
It's too much
It's more than a year already.
Everything is just falling apart...
*tick tock tick tock*
.....

Mum wants us to be that little kids we were but I'm sorry, get over it. My darling brother is nearly an adult and sis is a teenager so except that. You can't have eternal little kids and please please,I'm pleading you, try to understand. I may not be your favourite but I care. It hurts don't you understand? You're not just disillusional but you're hurting everyone around you. I can't forever be that kid and everytime I act my age I feel guilty. I really want to talk about it but it's hard.
God I sound angsty.

%#$^%&^*!!!!!

Sis, I'm sorry. There is so much I can do. I'm really really tired. I can't solve your problems. If you want to ,please so talk to her, period. And try to be more considerate to bro. And please, try to be nice to Auntie Bobbie, she really just wants to help and make up for the lost time.

Brother, thanks for being that big brother. For my sake, just try to get along with sis.

I really don't want to be in a different class. Through this TERRIBLE year, if not for you guys, trust me, I would have gone insane in a flash. I am so thankful for you guys for juts being there. I just can't bear to lose you guys. *I sound like a desperate loser* .... I just had to say it.

I just had to say all this.

*tick tock*

Silence.

This is the last time.

I've just had enough.

Oh yeah

One more thing
I HATE MY FRIKKIN' FATHER SO GET OUT OF MY LIFE. DON'T EVER, EVER CALL ME YOUR DAUGHTER.

It's been more than a year since things started falling apart.
I feel so much better now.
I hate being angsty
But you just got to let go.

Aya Michelle

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Early winter snow 09:04 p.m. Monday, November 29, 2004
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Sak complains that friday was ages away....So here I am, adding a new entry. Yesterday didn't do much actually except that we put up the Christmas Tree and sis went for a job interview before going to Sharon's birthday. Went for mass, comtemplate on going to a new parish which I will, after I find out the mass times.

Hopefully during the holidays I'll have time to go for some drums classes but I don't really know... Went to Carrefour today and cursed like hell at the noise. ^-^ I_DON'T_LIKE_NOISE.

*Mom nags at the background*

*twitch twitch*

........

*Sis retaliates*

........

My brother is damm lucky that he is working....

Please give me peace.

I'll be going to my Grandma's~~
It's raining.
I like rain.

Aya
Taiyou no Aoi,There she goes plays~

Early winter snow 02:20 p.m. Sunday, November 28, 2004
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New layout~! It's almost December. Anyway, I already bought my sister her christmas present and I have totally given up hope on my scholarship money. It's already the 26th! It is suppose to come by late November.

I amazingly cleared my table of tons of things. It's practically empty, managed to clean it in 2 hours. Ugh..The dust was killing me >.< I have four big bags of trash... Was a bit -she bu de-

Went to school with Prongs to drop off the school booklist but it was closed so we took a bus to Novena MRT to meet Sak at Orchard. Ate modanyaki and more gelato with Sak and Prongs. Was lots of fun. I haven't gone out in a while. Went to kino and I bought DN Angel 2 and 7. I bought the Tong Li one and not the one by Chuang Yi. It's not worth it. The translations are crappy and the paper quality is worst than the school exercise book. After all I can read -fan ti zi- so it's not really a problem. Yay~ Daisuke crossdresses and Satoshi dresses up as Dark and they act all luvrydovey~~ Thankfully I bought the right book. I like the Toki no Byushin arc. It's my favourite. It made me almost cry when watching it but I was to tired to. It was 2!! in the morning when I was watching Mon's DN Angel. Sak bought some questionable material which looked vaguely like shota but you don't really know.

Walked around to help Prongs find birthday presents for her section and a christmas present for her senior. I thought the pencil holder she got for her senior was cute~ Went to buy some tea-time food for Auntie and my bro. Prongs and Sak decided to watch The Incredibles but I couldn't go because I have free tickets and going with Mom and sis. *sulk* Walked Prongs and Sak to the underpass to Lido and then gave them a big hug and went to the bus stop. It was raining very heavily outside. SMSed them later and found out that Sak got lost -_-'' So they didn't watch it after all... But they went to Borders. They also had to remind me that I would be 15 first. Great in 3 months I'll be 15! >.< I don't want to age so fast.

Talked to them online for a while and Sis came home with Auddy-san and her newly redone bleached hair. Which looked cool~~~ *Kakoi~* Damm... Once my 'O' Levels are over I am going to streak my hair with white and straighten those lock and braid them~ We all drooled over Satoshi and then they left for grad night looking like J-rockers. Later found out they thought it was cute o.O? Even the principal said it was cute.

Was alone with Auntie because Mom had to attend a office funstion and bro was working. We ate, watched TV, talked and I drew a bit and read. Then Sak called and we talked for a while. Found out her dad is against Shounen-Ai *WTF?!* and she wondered how my mom can not be a fangirl despite her 2 daughters being ones themselve. Very simple. One word : DISCREETION. I know she knows and is against but we're not gay so she can't say anything.

Oh well

I made pickles today.
I like pickles
Among other things.
And sis got a job at The Butcher.
NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!
Hopefully she'll bring home some goumet meats like parma ham and proscuitto~

Aya
Tune to the Rainbow,Call me Call me,Radical Dreamers play~

Early winter snow 03:38 p.m. Friday, November 26, 2004
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