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on a side night, one of my friends has gotten a restraining order placed on him by his mother..and another friend just found out his father who he hasn't talked to for four years has been arrested for 5 counts of child abuse. lovely. last night i was really shook up by all this badness in the world. i don't get it near me often. none of this ever happens to me. or so i thought. although it didn't happen to me first handedly.
today was boring. i broke down crying in the middle of french class. i was so tired and my left ear was blocked. my left ear is my good ear. my right ear i can't hear as well through, since a very long time. i'm not sure why. i've always had ear problems since i was young. i had to get these blue tubes inserted in my ears when i was like..four. i also had to pee into one of those cup things. operations are wierd. after that operation i woke up completely naked. naked! they said i had a gown on me when they put me into the bed..i must of tossed and turned a lot. either that, or a doctor decided to molest me. oops, thinking bad things again. i guess it's time for me to stop.
no links today.
i want a kitten so much. this pita is giving some away. i want smokey joe. it reminds me of my kitten jack. *sob* i'm not allowed another kittie until i get a job though. which i've been trying to do. i think i'll have to settle for a warehouse job. -.- yay. doing the same thing over and over. most jobs are like that anyways, ne?
i worship this site. no longer shall i have to search for good movies, they all have great recommendations right there. hmm, now if only i could find a site like this for books!
also, something about nate. i thought he had been ignoring me and i was right. i've been having an emotional breakdown/crises since about thursday. he told me he had found another girl and such in an e-mail. he hasn't met her yet of course. so i wrote him back an e-mail full of emotion, proclaiming my never ending love. seriously. he was doing his reflected anger thing again. he gets pissed at me for not being around because he needs me so much. it's messed up. anyways, things are good and we have come to an agreement. i'm happy with it. i told him he could date this new girl. we are both still the most special people in each others lives. so if any of you care, that's what's been getting me so down. i know nicolle did. shameless plug!
other then that. i'm doing french. doing good. i think i got 10 on 10 on the latest test. yay. :)
other then that, i have one link for you. inabutterfly.net is amazing. i SO would love to be hosted there. i doubt i'm good enough though. blarf. it even has this wonderful page that connects people who wanted to be hosted..and hostees together, very good idea! :D
i'm so excited about my new layout. whee.
so, what has she got for you today?
a friend of hers, resides here. quite a nice place that reminds aurora of her current page design. the same simple and elegant style. she likes it.
ooh, ooh. i love it here. it's one of the nicest glammy sites i've been to in a while. i'm not sure how to describe it, but it has so many interesting things in it..and and..such a cute design. i'm blabbering over myself. i even like the address name.
while i've never seen the show survivor, at least i get to see the blog. it isn't all that interesting, but it's an original concept and they winner wins money..yay! too bad the bloggers suck at blogging. *snigger*
i found another interesting comic that has the same sarcastic humour (although not quite as sexually oriented) as the thin h line. it's on the left, but it got it's own domain name now. anyhow, this comic is cutely called bunni-ism and features..can you guess? cute little bunnies! of course these bunnies say and do bad things..or naughty things, as the case may be. the point is, it's my kind of humour.
finally found a zine that is exactly to my tastes. bad ass chick isn't for prisses..nor lesbian feminists, so don't go there if you can't take it. >:)
i'm not sure if any of you know, but i adore bumperstickers, so when i found this site linked in a blog i frequent, i went into excited spasms.
oh and last but not least...interconnected is certaintly a delightful site. just look up aurora there and see all the fun and hilarious things i put under my name. feel free to add as many about yourself or me as you like, as long as they are all true..if not funny. >:)
i added myself to the blog colorwheel after taking a test at emode. it's a neat idea and i promote it. go and do it right now! :)
since my new love of everclear, i've been going to their offical site. it's good. i can listen to clips of most of their songs.
i've started french once again. as it turns out about.com has turned out to be very useful. i've found a load of french stuff, including tests that are really helping me.
well, off to bed..and to more french tommoro. thank god i have every second day off. :)
honestly though..you'd think i'd be able to get over someone i was invovled with..not even officially dating, for less then two weeks. but i can't. i guess i did love him..do love him. not that i'm ever going to tell him that. i doubt he'll ever read this either, so there's no way he's going to find out. david's not going to give me another chance..
now that his precious lacy is back, it only reinforces the fact. i fell too fast..too hard..and now i'm lost. nate's still there too..so being in love with two guys who won't love you back, it's killer..really killer.
i'd give anything to be able to hold david in my arms again..or kiss him..it hurts so bad. at least nate lets me do that, but with him..it's different, because i can feel the emptyness behind the gestures....not that there's no love there, it just is too weak to have any impact from 800 miles away. with david, it was fresh and new..and it felt like a bullet was hitting me in the heart with him..everytime we touched..oh well..
this is the first time i've ever really written poetically like this about love..or about myself. well, as i'm redoing the layout of my page, i'm also making this pita a place to record my thoughts..as well as sites i like. i hope you enjoy the new feel to it. for now, that's all i can get out without crying.
there's some links i could put down here if i had the patience, but i won't for now. you see, i've been trying to decide what i want to do for my new layout, but i can't decide on just one thing. i know the art i want to put up, but just not the way i want to put it up. i don't know if i want to use frames, or tables..or an image map or stylesheets. it's all so confuzzing.
i -do- know that i want to make a blog on my first page, but i have this. i love pita, it's great! oh well. i'm not desserting it or anything. sorry for being so busy.
i'll tell you all about david later. >:)
detonate, it's a neat 'geek' weblog i found linked from one of those artificial talking bots. you should read the conversation between two AI bots on there, it's full of sex and insults, fun fun! now we can see what people 'really' say to these things...
zeal, it's like an eopinions for websites on the internet. good for link crazy hogs, like i...and you, no doubt.
well, that's all...fun, eh? i'm going to bed now. goodnight faithful 'rora readers.
i've found an interesting site, it's like a search engine,except you can pick up to four well known search engines to use..like yahoo, google, ect. this is at once, mind you. there is also some good javascripts there and some interesting personality tests i've never seen before. ahem, the site is very simple.
i've also found another site that is almost as reliable as the famous kiersey test to understand your personality. it is called the enneagram test. it even has special message boards for when you find out what type you are, which i find super neat.
this and this are both very good sites to find dragon merchandise of any kind. the first one is a u.k site and the second is in the u.s.a i am pretty sure. i found really beautiful figurines and statues and even some lamps! i also found the cutest dragon crossing sign, i want it so badly... >:D
i found a really interesting site called the road to nowhere, the interactive section is really fun!
last but not least, this beautiful personal site is absoloutely stunning. it has such beautiful artwork...it's so quaint, in a good way. ^.^
i think that's it. look, if you link my pita, please mail and tell me! i'd really apprecieate it.
Also, go to Gay Pride Peter!. It's my friend Becky's website. It's hilarious. Make sure to go to the behind the scenes link and see Cassie, isn't she so small and cute? Well, you'd have to know her. ;)
Oh, once I get back to regular surfing, which I haven't had time for, there will be links. |
