behind these hazel eyes :: january 2005

c'est la vie
wheew i haven't written in a while. last night was seritage's bday party. that was a blast. we got picked up in a limo & went to kobe's for dinner where we had a really weird cook that called me "shkinny girl" and told me i didn't have a boyfriend because i was too skinny. we also had an experience due to the fact that people wanted to share food, but apparently "we cannot accept the share." of course the hatchattack came up with fun things to do such as "and then i said..." and i wore my boa. that's hot.

i'm feeling so much better. seritage wanted me to just make a post that said, "YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!" but apparently i can save that for another entry. (luv ya seritage.)

we have a 2 hour delay tomorrow, but i think i'm gonna go get ready for bed anyway. more soon!
::sunday, january 30, 2005@10:49 p.m.

now i don't know how i should feel...
today was really eventful & long. i feel like i didnt even go to school today, but unfortunally i did.

first it was off to high school for my ap chem midterm. my last high school midterm ever, amen. since i only had one, i got out at 11 and went home to take a nap. then i picked seritage up from school. we went to mcdonalds & then brought some food to our dear friend hatchattack @ the young life office. she, of course, had left to get food, so lori gave us permission to eat at her desk & leave her notes. this resulted in a purple post-it explosion around her desk. i also met the other two amigas - that completed my day right there. then, of course, we shared some laughs with erin before i brought seritage back home.

then off the othrodontist i went to have my retainers popped in, out, and tightened. my long-lost valley pal jess called so we met up at starbucks where we planned to catch up. we ended up sitting with long-lost-graduated-valley-young-lifer, rob, and talking for half an hour. well, actually, he & i got into a conversation about hemmingway and so jess sorta fizzled out. feeling a bit awkward that she was leaving, i left also.

then it was home for a quick dinner & then back to get seritage for some boa shopping. a stop at gap & a trip to sterling later, i'm here writing about it.

as always seritage & i got into a deep conversation about the same damn thing. talk about beating a dead horse, but the fact that the situation even perplexs her says something. after probably about two hours of discussion (geezus i have a lot to say about it) we concluded that it was another lull & i should just let it be that way. really, i need to let it be that way. it's driving me nuts and i think i need some time away from it to calm down for a bit. she pretty much supported my conclusion that i won't really know until next year. it sucks because i know i'm running out of time & at this very point in time i know what i want, it's just a matter of getting it. one semester left. after all of this, i guess i can only wait & see.
::tuesday, january 25, 2005@11:57 p.m.

"how cool & mainstream of you!"
i just returned from my superficial afternoon of spending money on my super cool cute new spring clothes to wear to next season's coolest parties so i can pick up the hottest guys and bring them home for a one night stand. (i'd like to dedicate my introduction to keith, who didn't know what he was getting himself into when he jokingly mentioned that shopping is the one thing i enjoy doing, and then failed to save his ass from my response.)

of course i went to my most favorite store ever (NY&Co.) to use my 30% discount coupon. i saved $20! that, to me, is quite a bargan considering the items i purchased were new & not on sale. in exchange for my still-expensive yet actually-really-not purchase, i recieved "city cash" which entitles me to $15 off a purchase of $30 or more at the end of next month. that's right folks, right after my birthday. so of course that one will be put to good use. i figure if i use my coupon's at the end of every month, i'll recieve one for the next month in which case i'll go there once a month.

but i digress... as i left the mall i was so proud of myself for saving $20. so i was basking in the gloriousness of what has become the start of my new spring wardrobe & thinking about how wonderful the skirt i got will be to wear to caldwell's graduation, when the door opened and i was hit with the reality of the cold winter air. it sucked. plus, i feel a cold coming on.

cold air & winter germs aside, i'm quite excited for spring & summer. however, i'm very hungry right now so it's off to bother my mother to fix some dinner for me now. tootaloo.
::sunday, january 23, 2005@05:36 p.m.

i wanna fall in love tonight.
i'm not really sure why i logged in to write on this,because it's only 1:05 and therefore i've only been up for about two hours thus leaving not much to be spoken about.

exactly 5 months until k&a join forces for the first time in six years. think of all the trouble we'll get into. okay, not really i guess, but i'm sure we'll have a crazy good time cracking jokes about the caldwellians that are not-so-friendly. "she looks used... & by that i mean too much oral sex." (btw, apparently she didn't have enough sex to lose some weight.) haha shit, it'll be an interesting time.

i sware kim & i have some crazy connection. we discussed the dullness of my journal due to lack of being able to write much truth in here because *gasp* what would my dear friends think if they really knew what was going on? (no offense, friends.)

i'd also like to give a special shout out to yasmin for cracking jokes about me for what i told her. except the joke literally made me laugh out loud so this is a true from-the-heart shout out.

well, i'm off to create the k&a mix and then go shopping!
::sunday, january 23, 2005@01:05 p.m.

outside the snow's falling down
it snowed this morning. how beautiful :) i, of course, celebrated by not drying my hair & spending the day in sweats watching newlyweds and some ashlee simpson. hopefully the roads will be cleared tomorrow because i will, once again, embark on a breif day of shopping.

my birthday is in exactly a month. the crazy 18! i can finally dial the number on all those info-mercials that say, "you must be 18 or older to call." as far as i know i'm not even doing anything for it. it's actually the first day of lax tryouts, but we have a three day weekend. oh well, i dont think i've really done anything worth-while for my birthday in years.

this is why i can't write on here anymore, because it forces me to sit & think about this stuff which is so incredibly depressing to me. degrassi time.
::saturday, january 22, 2005@09:24 p.m.

a few broken words to get me through this
i don't really have much to say, once again. well, i do, but not that i'm actually going to write in this.

after school (a whooping 11:00, thank you exams) meg & i went on a mission. first we went to mcdonalds so i could get some food. i gave her my fries (see quotes) and then we went to bob evans to get her mother's cake. who knew bob evans had cakes? we certainly didn't. we witnessed young children shoplifting various items. not really, but we thought it would be funny if they were. then we got seritage three balloons and a card and tied them to her outside railing as a surprise. (seritage turns 16 in approximately 30 minutes. happy birthday little one.) then we rescued michelle from that terrible thing called high school of which we have about 18 weeks left of.

18 weeks? craziness. i can't wait for college. first i have some other things i'd like to accomplish. yeah... ;)
::friday, january 21, 2005@11:30 p.m.

can you hear me?
umm so i'm so tired of everything. by the time i get to writing in my journal i don't feel like talking about my day at all. i was going to write all about my origami adventures at work, but i just don't feel like it anymore. hopefully more fun updates soon.
::tuesday, january 18, 2005@10:03 p.m.

she's not thinking, she's listening...
i'm really tired. my day wasn't that interesting & therefore i'll spare the listing of what happened. i just put some laundry away while listening to vanessa carlton and it gave me some good time to sorta just sit and think about stuff.

anyway, i thought about it for a while & i'm not sure why, but i'm actually really excited. is that weird? i guess because i dont think i should be feeling like that, but oh well, i am.

meg, lindsay, and i are planning our own "real men of genius" commercials. they're quite funny so now i must go do that.
::sunday, january 16, 2005@11:29 p.m.

i've got my private radio
here's my story that makes me sound like a loser, but i like it. last night at work while folding there was a song on the cd playing and i really liked it & it sounded like vanessa carlton. after consulting with a few of my coworkers, i went to my manager. he said it was her, but then said he wasn't sure & he was just saying that. so when i got home i looked it up thanks to a wonderful device entitled "google" and sure enough it was good ol' vanessa. then i drove 20 minutes to boarder's books & music to purchase the cd for $13. i have to say it is quite a good cd.

yeah, so i worked yesterday from 3-7:45ish and then did my little research, hahaha. then i picked up seritage so she could have some food and i could too. i love our saturday night mcdonalds outtings, they seem to be becoming a common occurance. of course our hanging out always results in intense conversation. we had the creepiest talk about ghosts and demons and man were we creeped out. then we started talking about christianity which was equally as chilling. never the less, we brought it back to talking about very non-christian topics (haha seritage).

i went to see andy play indoor soccer for a bit. i was there long enough to see him blatenly push a player from the other team and then throw his arms up ("whaaaat?") when the ref blew the whistle on him. what a character. i sat with jessi, what a fun girl. i also spent about 10 minutes trying to figure out who trinity was playing in basketball on the court across from andy's game. it turned out to be something really weird like "AD Feneity Jr Academy" or something.

last indoor game today. except ana & aly won't be there so i'm not really sure how that one will go. i'm kinda glad it's over, i was getting tired of trecking out 20 minutes every sunday to play against a AAA team. man i'm hungy. i can't wait to see what craziness tonight brings.
::sunday, january 16, 2005@12:34 p.m.

all you really need are a few good friends
what a long night. i'm exhausted, but i'm toughing it out so a friend has someone to vent to. it's the least i can do.

i'm absolutely psyched for my june trip. "i can't wait to look hot!"-kd. what a crazy girl, too bad she's basicly my twin. i think we spent about 20 minutes talking about one song, haha. gotta love those laguna songs.

i don't even remember what i was going to write about. i talked to imran online, haha. he's such a good pal. cheer up prince ali, you'll find someone better for ya.

i may hang out with ellie tomorrow. well, i guess now that'd be tonight, huh? okay this is the most pointless entry out of my january pointless entries because i can't even think of what i wanted to write about.
::saturday, january 15, 2005@01:09 a.m.

you made me a shadow boxer, baby
i'm so tired i don't think i can even write. i'm waiting for my "ultimate hanson mix part 1" to finish burning. i had to make it into parts since i had too many ultimate hanson songs to put on one disk. oh well, aren't we on like now 19? it's sorta like that.

i really don't feel like going to school tomorrow. it's my hard day & i don't think i can sit through chemistry. not to mention i forgot my lab manual so i couldn't finish my lab tonight :( i got a lot of english work accomplished, however. hmm.

excellent talk with seritage this evening. thanks for all your advice & support girl. "sometimes the only way is jumping, i hope you're not afraid of heights." a little gavin degraw lyric that came up in the conversation.

what a boring entry, but the cd's about finished and i'm going to bed! hurray!
::monday, january 10, 2005@10:34 p.m.

once again i'm torn into pieces
my computer is fixed. aaaamen! we also finally have a cd burner. wonderful.

this weekend was pretty uneventful. went to work for an hour friday. worked saturday night & had a lax game today. tied an AAA team 27-27. good job if i do say so myself.

other than that nothing's really been up besides those interesting conversations of midlast week. any contact since then? noooope. do i see a pattern here? yeah. does it bother me? a little. do i change anything about it? nope. why? who knows. check out all those rhetorical questions. my english teacher would be proud.

tonight's american dreams was really good. except the mom was bothering me a lot. i wont give any more details because meg hasn't watched it yet. other than that, hmm...very hmm close to home? yeaaah. i still love that show it's so excellent. this is such a boring entry. okay, i'll do this to you no longer. at least it was worth the visit to see the new graphic that's FINALLY up! :)
::sunday, january 9, 2005@10:31 p.m.

broken computer :(
my computer's broken, therefore i'm updating during study hall. this may be against the rules, haha, oooh high school!

anyway -- i got into my top choice college. needless to say, i was very happy :) i found out last night and i mailed out my response paper and my housing stuff today. yeaaaah!!! i called ellie riiiight away to let her know and about everyone else. i got two "nova" jokes. blaaaah! i really need to check my mail, but we're not allowed to on school computers. i'll have to be sneaky & maybe go to mr.hawk's room do to that. yeah, i think that's what i'll do.

well, that's it really, i can't wait for college!!!!!
::wednesday, january 5, 2005@09:26 a.m.

you won't get to see these tears i cry
happy new year. i'll get the new graphic up as soon as i can, but my computer keeps getting messed up everytime i try to. kelly clarkson theme this month, it's gonna be a nice one :)

i don't even feel like writing about last night. let's just say, the new year has started off shitty & i'm ready to leave here. by the way, 11 am isn't early enough to edit journal entries that were written the night before.

i had a good talk with trevor tonight @ work while we hung up socks in the baby/toddler section (BIT as i like to call it). he's such a sweetheart. i also enjoyed seeing ashley do back walk overs.

i'm having an intense conversation with connor. i'll write tomorrow.
::saturday, january 1, 2005@11:52 p.m.