Look at me! Look at me! I came back to the old place xD Whee!
So, khm. What should i start with? Mmm, well first off i have a DA account which you guys could go out and check since my art is, oh so amazing, and also there's like...No actually there's nothing else left :B
What's been up? Hmmm well many things but certainly my phone is not one of them? Whyyyyy i ask, whyyy? This other day i was eating in front of the pc (ahgain), and i wante dto move my cell, so that it wouldn't get dirtied by the soup and...it sure didn't get dirtied with it FELL INTO IT! D: EMO. Now all i have is a phone that has only it's first three rows working. And the rest is falling out/off/in. It's a zombie phone now that smells like chicken soup '_'
Also my dad called me today on our normal phone and tried to make me push the start button, which it doesn't have by the way xD He was kinda slow because when i told he needed to call our other phone for the fax, he kept on calling the normal one and asking the same thing. Awww, my dad's sooo adorable.
OH AAAAND! People! PEOPLE! Have your fingers crossed for me if you want me out of Europe. I sent mah portfolio to this cute place called Sheridan College in Oakville near Toronto and, and aaand i wanna get in there so. FINGERS CROSSED :)
And the DA account is http://atazure.deviantart.com
(there are photos of yours truly so you might wanna check it out NOW) :H
*huggleS*
05:29 p.m. - Wednesday, February 8, 2006
O M G! I would never EVER believe school could become such a pain in the ass...And seriously even in my most trecherous dreams have i never dreamt of having no time at all. Like really. I mean, up until now, whenever i read someone writing "God because of school i gave no time 11!!oneone!eleven" I was like, pfft, right, looser you just don't feel like writing or sth. And now? And now, i'm all like "I know what you feel brothaaa!"*thumbs up* Why is is like that? Do people that study a lot always have no time at all? Wow. Seriously WOW, big bow in your direction. *bows*Okay, okay. Gololo you have earned your Finland stories (and what's wrong with your blog??). So there, bewteen studying for one exam and another i shall write sth about finland. Dun dun duuuun~!
Finland
Yes. Well, when i came (actually landed is more accurate), the first thing i saw were...trees. TREES. Y'know green, tall, covered in snow plants. And, don't get me wrong, we do have trees in Poland but as far as i have seen noone of them are so...so..BIG. O_O I kept on talking bout them, bout taking pictures of them and so on and i think that the first thing they thought about was either "weirdo" or "let's leave her on the airport!". But all ended well since they have not said the first nor done the second. Snow was EVERYWHERE. And it was cold. I said that right? But it was, not as blah, blah, blah check out my other post. What i have noticed about Finns is that...tehy don't talk a lot. And as my finnish friend has claimed they have NO UNCOMFORTABLE SILENCE. Yes, you read that right. Everytime a subject ends, and theres silence they, apperantly, don't think about it as uncomfortable or unnatural. They take it as normal. Which was sometimes hard on me, since every time such thing happens i feel as being a guest failure. Tiina(my friend) said that it was not so, and that i should not worry about things like that, but i did. Silly me. Yes, so. There's no such thing as uncomfortable silence, or not talking a lot being seen as rude. No, no. Another thing. They LOVE cross-country skiing. You see 'em c-c skiers everywhere. In the woods, on the streets, infront of your house. Everywhere. And there are also those stick ppl. Y'know. The ones that only use sticks while they're walking. Those look funneh and somehow everytime i saw 'em i went into a "O!O! Stick person! Whoot! Go! Go!" phase...I kind of still wonder why they kept me with them for a whole week. :/
THEY HAVE FROZEN SEE!
And one of their ferries was made in Poland. Apperantly the one that broke the most.I as a polish person(and we poles are not your average rich ppl), found Finland pretty expensive. So, if you
e a student and you're planning on staying in Finland for longer, you'd better find yourself a good job, or a wealthy sponsor sinc eyou'll need it. For example normal bust ticket (active for an hour) costs 3.00Eu or sth close to that. And cinema tickets? 10!! ZOMG! For a cinema fanatic like myself, that's a sucidal price! Just jump of the bridge or something, you'll probably be the first suicidal person ever. Or since like 1000 b.c. I don't know why but all those information just came out kind of...boring. Sorry. I hate being boring and i know that sometimes i tend to be but, ah well. Shmuggels.
Next time on, Atazure in Finland;
What do Finns eat? What's atazure's favourite finnish food? What was she doing every evening at home? Why is subbing something she really envies?
~Still sick. But getting better.
08:57 p.m. - Thursday, March 10, 2005
Today's been a blast! I've seen YAMATO, this awesome group of drummers from Japan. They're like, AWESOME. I saw them last year and went this year too and ZOMG do they rock! I pity not being able to buy a DVD of theirs since there's noone. Next year, when they'll come, i HAVE to bring my mom with me. She has issues with drumms, something about not being able to stand the vibration you get but i'll make her go. And seriously if any of you guys'll have the chance to go, GO. You've probably never seen anything like that EVER. Ofcourse nothing can be perfect. You see when i'm a fan of something. I am a FAN. A groupie. An obssessed maniac. A psycho running around in a craze waving my imaginary weapon around. And i AM a fan of YAMATO, and you know what that means? That means autographs. Last year i wasn't able to get all the autographs (i.e. i got like 6 out of 9 because the missing 3 ppl left for thechanging room or sth), and so, this year, i planned on getting the missing 3. But, ofcourse i forgot the paper i got those signs last year and so, during the break between the two parts of the show i was running around like crazy (waving my imaginary weapon around), asking people if they had an A4 piece of blank paper or a poster of YAMATO that i'd willingly buy even for zillion dollars. And you know what? NOONE, i repeat, NOONE had a BLOODY PIECE OF PAPER! Seriously! Polandsuffers from lack of trees! Lack of celuloid! Lack of BRAINS! I have lost my faith in polish ppl and their motivation. And so, driven crazy by the 50th person going "Uhhh, i don't understand what you mean miss. Paper? How do you mean that?",desparate i threw myself at a poster flinging freely off of a lamp in the lobby but as i was reaching it ("3 cms!! THREE DAMN CMS!!! X_X"), some lousy bodyguard stopped me in that "Um, no ma'am. No can do." kinda way and shoved me back to me place. DAMMIT!! I was sooo close!! Oh and, YES i did ask some of the staff people if they could go backstage and get an autograph for me but they were all like "No, No" and "Sorry ma'am i don't quite understand what you mean." Asses....At least i got to laugh off of the manager of the whole show with the bodyguard chief who said to me honestly (actually i believe he just said that to get rid of me, blah), that "the manager is a real ASS and that they aren't able to comprehend with him and BLAH". And i went , "yea, i hear ya man", and he went, "yea, he a total ASS" and so on, and so on. And then i went and changed and went to me bros place wheni'm currently staying and taking care of his dog. Meh.Anyway about today being a blast. It sure was and pretty much still is. YAMATO was awesome what so ever and i can't complain, and i won't anymore. All the feelings you get when the sounds just kind of, shakes your insides is total awesomness and i won't even bother and try to describe how that feels exacly. I mean, come on, it's 00:38, you want me to write logically in a language other then my mother one? Please! Right, point. POINT. The other couple things that made today a blast were:
"Thelma & Louise" "Conan O'Brien Show" "Indiana Jones and The Temple of DOOM"
Yea, about that Indiana Jones movie...GOD. Being a hero makes you both super handsome/witty AND blunt. I've been observing Dr.Indy and it has just occured to me that in every adventure movies heroes go STRAIGHT into the bad guys lair, talk with the bad guy himself OR his loyal lackey and instead of playing dumm go;
"Hey,everything you've just said about not killing all those villagers is a lie, because i saw them, talked with them and have evidance against you." to which the bad guy goes; "Ha, but Mr. X, who's going to believe? Afterall you're only an world famous person andthe FBI really believes everything you say, and people love you and you always win. Really, mr. X, let's not fool ourselves. You're really dangerous to me but i, being the dumm bad guy, am not going to kill you and let the audience go back home to their rightful homes. I'll pretend you said nothing and you know nothing and THEN, when you'll pretend to fall asleep i'll try to kill you but fail. Touche!"
That was bad...I'm sorry. Remember that "i can't speak global lanuage after 12:00" remarke i hinted somewhere up there? Good because that explains a lot. Anyway, i WILL talk about Finland in my next post so, yesh. Hang on Gololo! I shall entertain You with me funny Finland exploring;]
~I'm sick. What the hell~~~~
12:17 a.m. - Sunday, March 6, 2005
I'm back. I got back on saturday as i have said i would but, heh, i'm still sick. Apperantly gods believed me when i said that i'd do a lot just not to go to school, they just didn't get that i wouldn't do EVERYTHING. Coughing my lungs out being under that "not doing" category. I'm having horrible coughing fits that drive me crazy and if something drives ME crazy i try and do everything in my might so that those around me are driven crazy also. Heh, suckers X]. Yes, i'm being hated by my dad who can't sleep at night having to listen to me coughing my insides out. Yaaay ^^. Okay, enough bout my health which has not changed ever since my last post here. Hmmm Finland. Yes. You'd be surprised how surprised i was, i never would have thought that Finlands so..so..cooool (nga ha ha ha a funny joke a funny joke XD ). And cool in both meanings. Not AS cool as some of my family members have warned me it'd be; "It's going to be -611111 so you better prepare yourself!" "Yes dad..." Because actually it wasn't much colder then here in Poland in winter though, that i have to admit, the humidity made all teh difference. You see in Poland when there's like -5 you go "Oooh, cold, gotta wear pants." but when there's -5 in Finland you go "Ooooohhhh, ccold, gotta wear stockings AND pants." That's about it, plus the longer "oooohhh" and "ccold" caused by your teeth trembling from shock. Oh, and, yes yes it got below -20 at night but that does not count, You hear me dad?!?! THAT does NOT count!!! Who goes out at NIGHT?? Really. Right about that other typa coolnes of Finland. Call me retarded(no _lead_, you can't), but i had NO idea that Finland was so...so...futuristic. In a way that is. There were no sky scrapers or cars flying around (look up "The 5th element" to see what i mean), but it was, wow. I was esspecialy amazed by the cleannes and practical sense of the Finnish people. They use EVERYTHING and NOTHING goes to waste. O_O i as a polish person, and we tend to let everything go to waste and saying "Hey, what if we'd use that again?" exacly at the moment that thing falls apart, was seriously in awe. I mean, i have never seen an old building in poland, where nobody lived anymore, used for a school after a little renowation. Wow. And i mean it WOW. What else? Well their parliament is 50/50 (like men/women), which is anothe "GO, Finland!" thingsie. Yea. Uuu! Uuu! And the most important thingie! Frozen sea! Frozen sea! I took pictures!! XD What? The sea in Poland is NEVER that much frozen. Frozen sea! Frozen sea! Wheee! :DI should probably talk about the difference of Finnish and Polish people which hit me for the first time (i.e. a cultural difference i was pushed against for the first time in my life), but i'll leave it out for my next post. Don't wanna make this one uberably long. Reiko, Your drawing is almost, almost ready thought i can't say the exact date. Exams, school and sickness are the three things that stop me from finishing ANYTHING so, yeah.
Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male
Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!
I AM SICK. PERIOD._lead_ no nasty comments or me kills you. Mush. I be back after i be back from Finland where i'm going for the next week. Reiko Your fanart is on it's way and should be ready in about three weeks (the week in the middle is the one when i'm away in finland so yeeegh x_x)If i won't speak after three weeks, it means i have died from a very common illness my weak body was not capable of fighting off. Yay. C y'll My mom just called me a "pile of poopoo that goes *ekhu* ekhu* all the time* I need some love~~~~ laterz.
~I'm sick. What the hell~~~~
10:11 p.m. - Wednesday, February 16, 2005
There had to be an end to all this silence and so, here it is. A word achievement. A new rant after day's of promises (to not really anyone actually, but oh well ;).
YEs, so let's start with Wednesday. School was boring so we'll skip that but as always, when i'm with my mom, i did something stupid and the rest of my neighborhood (the part that did not think of me as "weird" at least), thinks I'm a verry weird and dangerous person. Now, why is that? Tsk, simple to do when you're me. For the couple last days me and my mom, we were high, literally. On the 5th i have this very very BIG and important dance party. It's like those huge prom balls in US. I have a pretty dress, real pretty but in a cursed color which connected with the cursed size of my feet becomes a spell, so strong that it blows off the mind of every assistant that hears the combo. Really. If Your shoe size is 40/41 and You want dark blue shoe's on small hills. Don't. Just, become small feeted or buy yourself a blue dress or make those shoes yourself. Because if you live in Poland you WON't get 'em. Not in Warsaw at least. Anyway. To the "why i'm seen as weird by all my neighbors now" part. After an hour or so of shopping (which i hate in the purest and most evil way a person can hate something...unless it's books...or comics...*cough*nerd*cough*), as i was getting out of the car, my mom saw some birdies sitting on branches next to our car. The bush in which those birds were residing was the border between the street and the walk. Of course i didn't think that people actually use the walk. I mean who does? It's not something you walk on. So, feeling really high and silly i kind of...When my mom said "Oh! Birdies" I outstretched my hands, made a very scarry/weird face and released a "Gyabrgh!" kinda sound at the birds.
Of course there was a granny walking her grandchild. Exactly on the opposite side of me mom's car. So, it kind of looked as if i tried to scare her kid. I got stared at by the old lady, and giggled by the kiddo (which was damn cuteh imho ;] Oops, pretty dangerous subject i've got there. pish posh). After that it was the usual tactics of hand grabbing and fast walking away. Oh and of course whispering in that loud typa whisper "See, that's exactly how God does not want you to become, dear." Yay for me. Atazure 1, God 2340. Whoot! XD And NONE of the birds got scared! :B
Thursday....I OVERSLEPT FOR MY HISTORY EXAM!!!! O_O I studied till 2a.m. Woke up at 8:30am (the first of the two lessons during which the exam was held started at 8:30am ), turned of the clock and lied down. Only for a second! And then..then...I suddenly perked up gasping and going "Zomg! I overslept!" I looked at the clock, and whooo it was 10:00am. At that time, people living next door heard a lot of words no human being has heard. And those were no happy words, i assure you bout that. No words kids should here. No no.
Friday. Uh, today. I cam to school, avoided my History teacher (who is my homeroom teacher at the same time), and THAT was kind of pointless since later today i had a lesson with her. She said nothing. Nothing about it at all. I felt guilty but also was too much of a coward to walk up to her and explain everything. Meep. :dBut aside from school and going to my brother's wife for a prototype make-up for tomorrow's...ball? Parteeh? There was this one thing that really pissed me up. My dad. I know that using 'thing' is not the best way of describing someone who had a part in your creation process but, really. There ARE limits and he just...Ignores them every hour or so.
Since my parents are in separation, everything he said to my mom, now, he says to me. I can NOW feel how my mom felt unable to leave the house because of two growing up kids. Horrible feeling(Exactly because of things like that i don't want to get married, like NEVA :[]). But anyway, as always my body took care of all the stress and my mask of being happy go lucky was on once again, and with time, slowly all that pressure faded away~~~~*purrs* I'm still a little bit shaken, and irked, but after writing i feel a bit betah. Yes.
~Making my mind into a Scrap Yard~
11:13 p.m. - Friday, February 4, 2005
i OVERSLEPT for my friggin HISTORY EXAM!!!!! After i kill some time at the waxing office (girls will understand what i mean...probably some guys will too...), i'll be back to talk about yetserday, lots of pain and today.Oh, and this....
I've been studying about the I WW. Pain in the ass although very interesting. My day today was pretty entertaining I'll write about it later on. It'll have birdie/grandma scaring bits. People that think i'm weird and what makes my dog happy. :d
~Making my mind into a Scrap Yard~
10:44 p.m. - Wednesday, February 2, 2005
Ho hum. I was suppoused to get my pictures this week but as I can see, no progress in that part has been made. Damn my bro, I bet I'll get them in March or April or on Christmas in two years. That's how our family deals with agreements. We IGNORE them. Ha, ha. Today was funnneh. I got lost on the way to my polish teacher. I messed up two VERY similar names (what?! they're almost identical! only one word difference!;_; Really). BUT as the saying says, "there's always light in the darkness" *cough*Kingdomheartsinfluencehere*cough* Aside from letting my teacher rest one more hour (i was one hour late, whee!), i got to say what i really think to my brother. And i haven't done that in like, AGES. Ha HA! Made me really happy. It's hard with our age difference. He's eleven years older and for him I'll always be that small little kid sister that knows nothing bout life and stuff. Silly bro, when i'm actually waaay more mature then him. Eh....:dOn a side note, NEVER COME TO POLAND IN WINTER. This...this..this THING called weather has gone bonzey for the last couple days and not only is it freezing/snowing/windowing! When you walk down the street it's -15 when the wind blows it's, like, -3000 D_D. Seriously. No kidding. It's a good way to wake up, and stay awake until you walk into a warm, fuzzy building which melts you completely and you become an useless creature of unknown origin.
~Making my mind into a Scrap Yard~
09:14 p.m. - Tuesday, February 1, 2005
I just felt like waiting a day before I posted sth. Anyway, today my brother and his wife are having.....YEs EVERY-YEAR COSTUME PARDY!!!! *goes crrrrrrazy*I just LOVE it. Today it's me, gangasta style and I'm even taking my friend (not sure what she's gonna be, she couldn't make up her mind for long). Anyway, I just can't wait! I'll be sure to post some piccie's of me gangsta style, that's just something You don't see everyday.Gotta go, but be sure to check back tomorrow or monday for photos ;]
~Making my mind into a Scrap Yard~
06:23 p.m. - Saturday, January 29, 2005
Auschwitz-Birkenau
Today, a lot more important then my whining is the 60th anniversary of the liberalization of Auschwitz-Birkenau. I'd really appreciate if You'd drop a word about it in Your own blog. Here're two page with some information on the camp itself.
Auschwitz 01 Auschwitz 02 Here's a poem by one of my most favourite polish writers, Wislawa Szymborska's:
The End and the Beginning
After every war
someone has to clean up.
Things won't
straighten themselves up, after all.
Someone has to push the rubble
to the sides of the road,
so the corpse-laden wagons
can pass.
Someone has to get mired
in scum and ashes,
sofa springs,
splintered glass,
and bloody rags.
Someone must drag in a girder
to prop up a wall,
Someone must glaze a window,
rehang a door.
Photogenic it's not,
and takes years.
All the cameras have left
for another war.
Again we'll need bridges
and new railway stations.
Sleeves will go ragged
from rolling them up.
Someone, broom in hand,
still recalls how it was.
Someone listens
and nods with unsevered head.
Yet others milling about
already find it dull.
From behind the bush
sometimes someone still unearths
rust-eaten arguments
and carries them to the garbage pile.
Those who knew
what was going on here
must give way to
those who know little.
And less than little.
And finally as little as nothing.
In the grass which has overgrown
reasons and causes,
someone must be stretched out
blade of grass in his mouth
gazing at the clouds.Thank You for stopping by, and reading this message of mine.
10:18 p.m. - Thursday, January 27, 2005
I'll be going to the dentists in a sec. Pray for my safe return with all me teeth in place and with no new patched holes (with no holes at all, that'd be nice). I'll blog some more when I'll come back!Yes _lead_ ze hairy lady's BACK!
~Making my mind into a Scrap Yard~
01:15 p.m. - Thursday, January 27, 2005
YES MY BEBBES! I'M BACK AND ROCKING SHMOCKING BACK! A LAMELESSLY ILARIOUS GIF FOR YOU AND A SILLY BOORISH POST FOR ME!! I'M BACK!!
Well. How do You like my new layout not made by me? I still have some adding to do, but that's about it. I love it. Just as much as I love HxH. A great series all of You who haven't seen up until now, should go and get*coughdownload* it.Here, at the beginning of my new blog/year/layout I'd like to thank all of You who have been here, even when I was absent. Reiko, Gololo even you _leed_, you made me all warm in the heart and made me come back. Love You for that. I should probably start my random rants. I'll start with whining since we all love to do that and I just happen to have a talent for it. School's been an ass of a devil to me lately. It's my last year in high school and so, exams are coming *plays the evil music of hell*. SInce we're the last year, teachers of the subjects that we're not going to have on our exams, give us a free hand. If we want to, we can come to their lessons, if we don't want to, it's our choice. Great isn't it? Well, yes and no. Imagine going to school for three lessons. yes. THREE friggin' lessons! It was hard for me to motivate myself to go to school when we had all our classes, but now, when there are THREE. Can feel my pain? The pain of motivating myself to go to school? What else are they going to make me do to myself?!Another whine (whine numba 02 ;])I'm on a diet. That's about it.Wine number 03. What's happening with time and space?! When i was younger, 24 h was a plenty, now, it's nothing. Absolutely and totaly nothing. I have time for....yes, nothing. Why~~~ god?! WHY. Why do you take away my precious childhood? ;_; Life ain't fair. Just ain't fair...Enough with the whining. Now's time for some geekness. I've been playing two games lately. "Broken Sword 2" for the PC and "Kingdom Hearts" for the PS2. The first one makes me smile, every time I remember the first part which made me fall in love with Adventure games, the second. The second makes me giggle in that crazy woman kinda way, when I'm stuck in "The Aladin world" for the third day *giggle* @_o . But if You can, you should seriously play them. Bought. A lot of fun. What else? Yes, well, some of You might some of You might not know, that I'm a total Friends fan. A total in the most total way someone can be (ok, not totaly but still a big fan). But lately there was this new series i picked up at my bro's place (i usually steal all new dvd's from my bro, he and his wife have plenty and never know which I've stolen ni hi ^^). It's Gilmore Girls. *insert long, excited scream of happiness* YES! I love it. I'm watching Series 1 and am totally into it. I think that they can even take over Friends place in my heart if this goes on. They're the top cutness. Rory's duo is a warming couple(mother daughter, nothing werid my dear dirty minders ;]). They're cute and witty and true and they, like me, love to watch movies. OMG, i'm hooked up and nothing can stop me! Dammit!Going with the flow
In the year 2005 I resolve to: Start working on the street corner.
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Atazure's the master almighty of this cutely designed (not by her ofcourse, she's a stupid dimwit) blog. She was born in a country where there is more cows then in Your country. She was born in 1986 in August and so, being a Lion is, a pain in the ass to be close with. Even so, from time to time, there appears an idiot who likely befriends her (ppl like that can be found under "Friends" category down there).
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