enlightenment v.29

Friday, July 09, 2004
♪ - ?

Mana has spoken! He said he loved me! And I gave him a cameo!!!

*points to the subject* It's all true, mind you *dies of too many emotions*

So. You know you're in Paris when you're trudging along with all the luggage (looking ridiculous) and a random guy walks up and randomly gives you two roses. Awww. At least I feel properly welcomed here XD

And the next day (Sunday) I was supposed to go to JapanExpo6 to meet a friend AND to see Mana. After some time (I was late and then my keitai died) I finally was there and was extremely happy and all 'ahh' and 'ohh' at the whole atmosphere and the people. We then moved to the room where Mana was to have the conference in. We were too early and still the whole room was almost full (we were one of the last people let in - I heard that there was a LOT of those unfortunate ones outside who were late. Sad...). There was some martial arts show going on (very boring). funny thing is, I was sitting almost in the top row (it was a theater-like room) and I could count all the Gothic Lolitas by their headdresses (there was a lot of them...). But then we were moved closer and I was sitting in the center (yay). Then they started the thing about not taking any photos (Mana didn't wish to be photographed. Aww ^^;). It was announced in French, Japanese and English (haha and here I could pretend I didn't get it because none of the languages is my native one^^; Besides, in English the guy said 'No pitchers, don't take any pitchers'. I could be like 'Pitchers? I don't see any pitchers around here and I certainly won't take any. I just want to take a photo fo Mana XD' but I didn't ne...). Then, when everybody was already very excited, they showed us a sort of film/document about Mana and his history. Whenever he himself was on the screen, the people (me included ^^) screamed and applauded. Then it went into a more Moi dix Mois direction and they showed pieces of their concerts. What surprised me was that there was more shots of Juka than Mana (which is ok because I <3 Juka).

But the film eventually came to an end.

They pulled out 3 chairs on the stage (well, initially they pulled 6 and I thought that with 6 Juka and Kazuno would be there also, but they took back the extra 3 chairs. Dunno why.) and we were all very very '@___@!!!'.

Again, no pitchers etc (and I felt almost like a criminal because I had a camera in my bag but wasn't planning to use it)

Anyway, then the guy came out and said 'I give you Mana!'. Ominous music started playing and we were all dying from anticipation and all.

And then... And then... Mana really did come out!!!

So obviously everyone went crazy. 'It's Mana! Omg, it's really him! I can't believe there's a real live Mana just in front of me @__@!!!' (<-that was me).

God, he looked fantastic (he was wearing his standard m10m outfit - the half skirt, pants and platforms. And THE hair). Even more beautiful than in the magazines. And he was real T-T

So he came out and did a set of bows, the usual Mana-style. His movements and gestures were really really freakingawesomecool <3. Then he went to the center (hoho, just in front of Astarise-chan~ ), wrapped his arms around himself (I've always wondered if that's some kind of unconscious showing his insecurity...) and waited. Awww. I was all @_______@ (<-that is the best way to describe the feeling).

Then came out his translator (the second one o_O;) and the first guy said it's time to ask Mana questions!

The people were shy at first (who wouldn't be shy when Mana gave him the glare^^;). I didn't really have a good question prepared because the only thing that came to my mind was 'How tall is Juka?' and that would be a really dumb one XP

So people asked him questions in French, the first guy translated them to Japanese for Mana who nodded and without any time to think (weird...) whispered (covering his mouth, of course. But I did manage to catch a glimpse of his open mouth XD') the answers into the second one's ear who translated them to French again. Some people asked in English so the process was even more complicated then. And here is me, with a rather poor understanding of French attempting to write in English. So the fidelity and credibility of the whole thing is... really... messed up ^^;;;

Later Mana moved to sit in the chair and crossed his legs. I'll try to briefly list the more important (not all) facts that he 'said' :

- The hair spray he uses is SuperHold V05 (or SuperHard... am not sure here). Awww ^_^

- There is a high possibility of a Moi-Meme-Moitie boutique being opened in Paris *jumps up and down*

- And (this one's important) there is also a high possibility of Malice Mizer coming back together *holds breath* O__O!!!

- He is staying in Paris for two weeks for a photoshoot^^

- He can't yet reveal who Shdow X is *grits teeth*

- There is a possibility of a European tour (of m10m, I guess)

- Mana of course understands French (then why all the translators, huh?!)

- He doesn't speak because his voice is not music and he wants to express himself through the music (A well known fact. The person who asked him that was quite rude and blunt 'Why did you stop speaking?' *shrugs*)

There was also something about the connection between Kami and the lack of official drummer (well, Tohru's official now, ne?) in Moi dix Mois but I didn't really get the answer because the French-speaking guy was slurring -_-

And in the background there were new Moi dix Mois songs played (fron Nocturnal Opera). Instead of paying more attention, I often found myself listening to them. I can tell now that there is a lot of pop things -_-. But Vizard was awesome (I've only heard the live version before).

Ahhh and finally it came to an end. Mana stood up and started the whole bowing/waving thing again. God, did I love his gestures. Really really impressive. His whole person was hellishly impressive ^^
Anyway, the most important thing is now:
We were all too excited to notice the fact that Mana took the microphone and *holds breath* he spoke.

OMFG, MANA SPOKE!!!
HE REALLY DID!

He said 'merci' and 'je vous aime' *DIES*! Omgomgomgomgomg. Just then, everyone died, not only me. God, we were luckier than the Japanese fans! To hear Mana speak and in another language too! Now, I've heard his voice on some mp3s so I know how it sounds like and that was it! the REAL MANA! And he spoke. And I heard him. And saw him T_____T

He then left the stage and we all screamed our lungs out from all the excitement. Wow. I'll never forget this.

You know, normally, before, I didn't consider myself a Mana fan. I just liked him and thought his music was awesome and his visit in Paris coincided with Mine. But now... after seeing him live...I FREAKING LOVE THE MAN T_________T

After we left the room I talked with some kind people who planned to give a sort of fan book to Mana (with fanarts etc) and they allowed me to contribute.
You know what I did?
I had a cameo of him with me (something told me to take it with me that morning. I <3 that something), THIS ONE, and I put it into the book *^__^*. I was then photographed and the photo was glued above the cameo. I wrote 'For Mana from Astarise' (cheesy, I know) and drew an arrow pointing to me on the photo (I was with other people on it). Surprisingly, I came out quite well - I was holding the cameo anyway, so the arrow wasn't necessary but ah hell.

I'm so happy *^_^*

And later they managed to give him the book. It all makes me well really WAFFy. Like 'aaaaawwww~~~~!' When I was making that cameo I couldn't even imagine that one day I could actually give it to the real Mana. I'm really feeling fucking WAFFy now XDDDDDD!!

Ahh, but it feels good to be loved by a jrocker like Mana. Because, when he said 'je vous aime', I was obviously among the 'vous' >DDDDD'
But I didn't really love back him then... So because I couldn't reciprocate his feelings I decided to give him the cameo. Ironic thing is, NOW, after seeing him, I do love him back ;_;
(<- me not being serious here)

So then I went to see what the convention offered to buy :3 I found a stand with M10M, MM, Plastic Tree and Psycho le Cemu merchandise and had a really hard time choosing (ahahah, I'm glad I'm not a PlC fan - they had really cute stuff). I would buy the cds anyway. I didn't want posters, badges and stickers because those I could make myself. A M10M bag was cool but the price was... well, let's not mention it here ._. So finally I bought a Moi dix Mois phone strap because it was extremely cool. It was 17 euros though -______-; Eh but it was worth the price. It's black with a silver 'Moi dix Mois' written and has a silver m10m logo (that 11-angled... thing) attached. Mmmmm. I immediately attached it to my keitai and along with the already existing things it looks very cool although a bit too gothy for me^^;
With the strap I got an awesome Malice Mizer plastic bag. Yeah, I know I'm writing about a plastic bag but it's the coolest and most chic plastic bag I've seen. It's black and the MM text is gold (meh, the description is sucky). I won't use it though - it's too cool :3

Hm I also bought some diru postcards (Kaoru <3) and that's it -_-; It was an anime convention after all...

But the people! Ah, all the people were so cool (<-I'm aware or my overusing of the word). I felt that I finally fit in with my appearance there (I was wearing The Shirt (made by me) which is black and has tons of black lace AND a jabot (to which I pinned Kyo-chan), black pants and platforms).
But appearance away, all the people I talked with were nice and friendly and gave me a really positive impression. I loved the whole con. I loved the people. I LOVED MANA!!! I still do ;_;

Hmmm... so he said he's here for 2 weeks, huh?
Now~ where would Mana have his photoshoot... Notre Dame or Bel Air XD?
Ok, I'm sooo going to stalk both places. Or just prowl Paris in hope of finding him.
*joins the crowd of fangirls*
Mana-sama, I love you now! I want to tell you this!
*leaves the Internet cafe to search around for Mana*
T______________________T

Astarise enlightened the world @ 16:56 p.m.

Friday, July 2, 2004
♪ Moi dix Mois - Dialogue Symphonie

Am not going to use this thing for a while (a long while). For updates please visit my lovely LJ-kun (nyah, because it's easier and faster to write there. And it has an automatic spellcheck. For me it's a <3 because I love and respect the English language^^)

Ja ne.

-stuff-
Alrighty! I'm leving in 3 hours *^_^*. Obviously I'm very happy. Also, right now I'm reading the last chapters of Death Note. Yes, scanlations. I've said it so many times that I hate the very idea of scanlations but it hit me that I will buy the manga anyway (for my sister) so I could at least read it translated now. And I love it. L! I'm very surprised to discover that it's all ambitious and intelligent (kind of rare thing in manga). Anyway, omg, Mana on Sunday *dies* !!!!!11
-/stuff-

Astarise enlightened the world @ 08:51 a.m.

Sunday, June 27, 2004
♪ ムック - この線と空

��Um... it's a bit addicting, you know. I did another dress up yesterday. This time as a uh, movie star *dies*. Anyway, here's what my stereotypical movie star look consists of:
- Big black sunglasses, not the Matrix kind (*check*)
- Long wavy blonde hair (*check* go go my hair :D)
- Big transparent scarf around the neck that billows dramatically on the wind (*check*)
- Red lipstick (*check*)
- Simple business suit in pastel colors consisting of a jacket and a knee-long skirt (*partial check coz all I have is blaq*)
- Stilettos (*check* but low-heeled in my case)
- Gloves (*check* XD)
Whee. But the society is stupid and nobody asked me for autographs >_< .Just kidding. Hm but I think I looked more like a rich businesswoman in her 30s x_x;

I watched Beautifool's Fest (the second part only)! Happy desu. D'espairsRay = cool as always. Daigo Stardust would really suck were it not for the fanservice and Miyavi (and the fanservice *with* Miyavi :D). Ahh, and I finally got to see メリー live. Um and as for the Gara striptease and other things I'd say he was trying to be more than Kyo ^^; Too bad there were so few shots of Tetsu though. But ムック were the coolest (obviously). Tatsurou's outfit = ♥. Mmmm. Very happy now, I am.

Another idea of mine: I'm starting a pineapple diet *cue thunders in the background*! Er, no reason actually, except that I like pineapples^^; So I bought 23 of them and plan not to eat anything else until I run out of them~. Don't think I'm some diet and fitness-obsessed person though. Have I ever been on a diet yet? Uhmm, actually NO (笑). I only hope they won't rot - I think I bought too many for one time...

I also plant to use '(笑)' instead of 'lol' now. Because it's so much cuter. And if anyone wants to copy the idea, the symbols for the kanji are: & # 3 1 5 0 5 ; (without the spaces of course).

Ahh, it's so mean. Theoretically I don't have classes anymore but it looks like I'll have show up at school every day until the end (July 1st) for various reasons *groans*. I don wanna T^T. Apart from the obvious (laziness) I also don't want to meet this one girl from my group. Not like there's enmity between us, nono (I don't have enemies :D I think...). It's because she always STARES at me. Continually. I'm beginning to be sick of it. Ok, so people stare at me normally, but she just does it a bit excessively. She's sooo underestimating my peripheral vision and thinks I don't notice her staring. Unghrstfhg it's so annoying. I won't go and tell her to stop because then she'd say that it's only me and my narcissism imagining things, she is like that. I keep telling myself that she only does it because I look unaveragely and she just thinks about various fashion ideas. I hope I'm right. I don't like it though. I sooo don't like it >_<

Astarise enlightened the world @ 01:28 p.m.

Thursday, June 24, 2004
♪ K�zi - Honey Vanity

��Mana is pwetty. Like a woodland fairy XD'
I love these spur-of-the-moment layouts. But meh, three hours of my life have just gone by. Which is not ok because I'm all hectic/in a hurry lately. I realized (kinda late) I have only a week and a half before I go. And I have a lot of things to do until then. Including exams (one of which I had yesterday and it didn't go well but I don't care because those who fail it now can take it again next week. Yay, セカンド・チャンス!). Oi, how am I going to make it? But I don't have any nasty things to do (except for the exams XD). Basically I have a ton of clothes to sew (to change them). And of course, being me, I thought that because I can make things I should make a whole lot of them (presents & such). And now I have a week and a half to accomplish it all @___@!
(Of course in the meantime, I indulge myself in pointless fanatrizing and other things like this or this XD)

That song is evil. Yes, evil. Gah, what am I listening to x_X? *puts it on repeat* x___x

Haha, on slsk I found this one person who has a 'fanservice' image folder *cough and I promptly downloaded it all cough*. And I found an interesting thing there (among others :3). Ok, I knew this one of Juka and Kaya (t.A.B.u *dies*) before (bwah, Juka looks hot even in a schoolgirl uniform. He does.), but this? ヤバイ indeed, lol. And Juka looks like he's taller than Kaya (on the first one). No, wait, comparisons between the heights of jrockers should not be made because they all probably have platforms. No, wait again, should they wear platforms with such kind of clothes *wonders*? Eh. I should somehow catch Mana backstage (uh... backconferenceroom... thing?) and instead of molesting him (like some people suggest), ask him how tall Juka is XD

-edit-
Horaemon & Kazunobita! *dies*
-/edit-

Anyway. I did a little cosplay today myself. Ok, more of a 'dress up' than 'cosplay' actually. I dressed up as... a normal kid XD! Fun. I borrowed a pair of sporty shoes (comfy!) and blue jeans from my sister (we share the same size, woo!), took a loose white t-shirt with some random print on it and put my hair into a simple ponytail (before straightening them completely). Ahahah. And then I went grocery shopping with my money in the pocket (omg, pockets! *is not used to them*). And I felt like a freak and like everyone stared at me (they didn't). ...this shows actually how much of a freak I am normally and gave me a lot to think about^^;

Astarise enlightened the world @ 02:09 p.m.

Thursday, June 17, 2004
♪ The Piass - [Setsudan]... [Kairaku]

��Today's exam was fun. Actually, for me, they all are fun XD.

( Because I cheat )

This semester I was smarter. You see, we are allowed to use dictionaries when we write essays. I never bring mine because I find it a bit degrading - I am able to write a historical essay without a dictionary, thankyouverymuch. But I realized the truth behind the whole thing. Cheating. So today I used a new method - between the pages in the dictionary I pasted little pieces of paper filled with information. And during the exam I simply pretended I read the dictionary. Mwah, I rule. Funny thing is, I wasn't the only one like this. Half of the people had their dictionaries with additional information^^;

But umh, I had an accident. Sort of. In the middle of writing I suddenly felt something like an ant biting me in the back. An ANT. And I'm sure it was an ant because I know how their bites feel like. WTF was an ant doing UNDER MY SHIRT during the exam O_O?! So I became kinda paranoid. Wouldn't you? Not only it bit me, it was also on me. I didn't feel it moving though. So great. I couldn't go to the bathroom because I'd have to go through a row of 10 people and generally make a big mess and people would think I have some problems or something. So I just sat there and tried not to think there's a freaking GHOST ANT on my back. Aghghh. You go and try to write an essay in conditions like that. But I somehow finished and then I ran to the bathroom (and because I ran, people surely thought I had problems) and searched through all my clothes but the phantom ant was not theeerrreeeeee x_____X;;
I'm not thinking about this anymore, I'm not I'm not I'm not-gbwahh *freaks out anyway*

I'm ok now^^;

I'm in loooove with Aushvitz. Yes, it's love *_*. I need to have their cds or I'll die. I know only 8 of their songs (suppose that's all they have?) and ALL of them are incredibly great ^_^

I've invented a cool thing. Reading Paradise Kiss (Isabella <3) makes you do that. It's like hmmm I wonder if someone wanting to cosplay Arashi would go that far and pierce his/her face--- and a brilliant thought came. So I invented this. When you put it on your lips it looks like real and mighty FREAKY. And being me, I just had to play a prank on my mom:

Me: Oh look mom how brave I am! I've just pierced my lip with a safety pin! It hurts a bit now but I want to wear it nonetheless :D
Mom: O_O! *spazzes*
Me: Oh, you don't like it? I can take it off then... *pulls it off so that it looks like she's tearing her lip with it*
Mom: @_@~~~~ *is about to faint*

I'm evil, I know. But I love my fake lip rings and piercings and I love to fool people with them. They alllllways fell for it. Even my mom who is supposed to know me ^^;

Hm, I wonder how many music videos to I'm too sexy I've seen. At least a dozen^^; It's a sort of classic, isn't it? The song fits almost everything. But today I think I watched the best video of them all. It was with Dir en Grey XDDD Oh man, but it was so funny. It was made from the mix of their clips, videos and some lives. And it's hilarious when you already knew them all before.
Voice: I'm too sexy for my shirt~
Kyo: *rips off his shirt*
XD

Astarise enlightened the world @ 10:10 p.m.