enlightenment v.26 Amber

Sunday, May 2, 2004
ŻMASK - Sekira Noirooze

Ha haa!! The last part of my previous entry was to be taken seriously! In other words, go here to see my Yukke plushie <3

Anyway. Today I visited my garden (uhhh skdlfjawf it's not exactly a garden but I don't know how else to call it. A small place my family owns in the suburbs of the city - consisting of a garden and a house (but the house is unlivable - extremely tiny, ugly, obscure and full of spiders T-T;). It's surrounded by similar things but people don't live there, they just spend some time there and grow plants. There. An explanation^^;) and had a lot of fun. I should go there more often and oh I will, I willll~!
It's so beautiful there~ All the trees are in the apex of their blossoming (especially cherries) *_*
I checked how my plants are doing after winter (my two lavender bushes <3), spend about an hour watching the life of an anthill (ants are cool), fell asleep in the sun (on my front fortunately so I won't be tanned much) but woke up when I got bitten in the elbow by an ant (one of 'em cool ants too >.<) and was all happy because of the surrounding nature. Because I practically spent half a year without any contact with it. Sad. So I was extremely genki. And like a squirrel after hibernation I was just bursting with energy. So I allowed myself to forget about all this ladylike facade I've lately put myself into, and just genkied around. Because it's a Sagittarius' true nature to be genki XD
I changed into some shorts and a small top and decided to screw it all because I needed to exercise~! So I started with running (running is fun - until you get tired >_>) but got tired too soon as I was running too fast^^;
So then I took my (I need to come up with a better name for it) zanbatou-chan (it's a 180cm long heavy wooden bat, btw >3) and practiced swinging it (ok, at this point I'm sure everyone is 'wtf o_O?' but I tell you it's fun! You just don't understand! It really is cool <3). And ahhh how I love it. Really. I decided to do it every week <3
I need to check out some kendo sites to see some forms of something since I know nothing about things like that. I invented some moves myself though, and it's all wonderful. It's not just swinging the bat around (which is troublesome because I need to watch out not to scythe down flying butterflylies~), it's fighting *_*! Everywhere in the movies/books whenever some guy is practicing/fighting with a sword there is stuff about 'emptying your mind' and 'concentration', ne? But I tell you it's true. After about an hour I don't feel the heaviness anymore and my mind is all nicely '~~~~~~'. A very good form of meditation too, as freaky as it looks^^;
Anyway, fun as it's been, I know now suffering awaits me. Because since last July I've hardly moved. So I was NOT prepared for such sudden dose of physical activity.
Who thinks I'll have an everythingache tomorrow?
All: *raise their hands*
^^;;;;;;
Nooo, I DON'T WANT TO HAVE AN EVERYTHINGACHE!! I don't want to go to sleep because I'll wake up with it! No, wait, but I want to sleep because I'm damn tired. I DON'T WANT TO WAKE UP THEN! I mean, I do, but without the ache @_@
Ubuaaa T____T

Astarise enlightened the world @ 10:31 p.m.

Friday, April 30, 2004
ŻCali≠Gari - Erotopia

I miss reading Harry Potter slash. It's been over half a year and I'm so out of it - I don't even know if book 6 comes out this year or not o_O;

Ohoho, a test result with layout-matching colors~!
Tatsurou. You're not in Kagerou at all! You are Daisuke's from from MUCC!

Tatsurou. You're not in Kagerou at all! You are Daisuke's from from MUCC!

You're... Tatsurou of MUCC!?
Which member of kagerou are you?
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...I did not cheat x_X; But the part about a 'school boy bassist' being a pet of choice made me all 'eh? Mukku deshou??' and wow I was right ^_^

Speaking of the said bassist, call me late/slow but omg this pic I haven't seen yet. Yukke-san, what have they done to you?! *dies of cuteness and goes off to make a Yukke plushie*

Astarise enlightened the world @ 08:16 p.m.

Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Żムック - 1979

*yaaaaaawns* Oh I'm so lazy lately. I don't even have the power to use my computer, let alone to blog >_>

Anyway, fun: my whole city is paralyzed. War-like, only without the feeling of dread. There's a sort of EU economical イベント taking place and everyone is talking about it because they're obsessed about its security. The city has been divided into zones depending on the proximity to the イベント's place. Next to which is a park and next to the park is my apaato so I live pretty close XD. And everything is blue with police (so many of them) and helicopters are flying around every now and then. There are also going to be some serious demonstrations marching right under my windows (I only hope it won't be in the morning otherwise I'll throw stones at them for disturbing my sleep < /kidding>) so, like I said, everything is paralyzed.
Thus I can skip school >D! Surprisingly enough, my classes are not cancelled but they said 'if you can't make it, we'll understand V_V', So of course I'm not even trying to leave home but will say I had major difficulties with getting to school due to my location. Fun, really.

So practically, I have over a week off. Major yayness~ I guess I'll get down to sewing then.
Hm, also, I realized I tend to fangirl over clothes lately. Kowai o_O;. Well that's because of my huge fangirlish potential. It needs to be used on something - otherwise I'm all '-____-'. So lately it's been GetBackers and Akabane (done with), then MUCC (still is <3) although I don't write much about them (a shame) and now I also fangirl about clothes~

I'm getting boring, am I not? At least I have that impression T-T;
Anyway, I'm off to make a short black EGLish neck tie trimmed with white lace and with a crown pained on it *_*! Ha! (btw, I'm dying of too many ideas for cute neckties, chokers and collars. I need to draw them all someday otherwise I might just forget them @_@~)

Astarise enlightened the world @ 07:50 p.m.

Thursday, April 22, 2004
ŻAushvitz - ほむらび

Buaaa, someone please ban me from browsing Japanese fashion sites T___T It's awful. I think it got me addicted. I browse and browse, save tons of images and then my heart bleeds because I know I can't have them (oh ha, I'd have to be 160cm tall -_-).
Just as a side note, from here I'd wear 90% of these things <3 <3 <3
But I have an idea! I mean, of course theoretically *I* could sew them myself but that would require 1) patience 2) training my sewing skills (a lot) 3) patience. Eh. So I thought of a solution: I'd need to have a lot of money (of course -.-;), find a good tailor who'd measure me perfectly and then bring him/her the pictures of the clothes I want and tadaa, everyone would be happy. Only *looks into her purse*, haha, money I say? XD'

Anyway. I write too much about fashion lately - I'll try to control myself now *nodnod*.

I started downloading midis. Oh boy, can they be fun or what. Like DeG's Zan sounds just freaky and all bleh. I like the midi version of Dialogue Symphonie though...

Oh and speaking of. Man, I don't draw! Like, completely! Ok, I do other artistic things (as silly as that sounds^^;) but I don't draw simple 2D things. Buaaa. Don't know why - I just don't feel like it.
I make scribbles though. But they're very scribblish and not serious (am I ever serious? hah hah-- ok don't answer that -.-). Um soo~~ I thought I'd show what I scribbled today on French. Every lesson we read a piece of some book in French and then we discuss the vocabulary and grammar in there and stuff like that. Now we're doing Little Prince. And there are drawings in the book. So when I get my photocopy of a chapter, I always draw stuff on those drawings.
Mana ^^;

This time, I made Little Prince himself into some kind of Gothic Aristocrat. And then he reminded me of Klaha. So I added a flying Mana, a moon with Gackt on it ('cause he's obsessed about the moon), Juka & Kazuno and some bats to make it all gothic. Behold, my masterpiece. Yes, I know I know XD. I'll go and hide somewhere now~

Astarise enlightened the world @ 09:24 p.m.

Monday, April 19, 2004
Żムック - 商業思想狂時代考偲曲

I was about to write a big rant thingy agreeing with Your feelings about anime and that I think I've grown up from it because I'm not 'squee, anime, squee' anymore and that I wouldn't mind changing that back into the fangirl mode but there's nothing interesting now and even though I still watch some anime I treat it more like a normal, non-squee thing and don't get excited, and that considering I've used the term 'grow up from anime' is it possible to grow up from Jrock (because I don't want to), but it appears that I will have to write some things about anime anyway.
Phew. Was that a complex sentence or what. Kinda nonsensical too XD'

I'm adding Isabella from Paradise Kiss to my bishlist ^_^. Because he rules and I really like some of his outfits (some parts of them anyway).
Also, is it weird of me to think 'eww, there's too much het in ParaKisu'? Because I tend to think like that. It's all yaoi's fault! >_<

I watched Le Portrait de Petit Cossette (btw, shouldn't it be 'petite' o_O?). Darn, but it was confusing. I'd risk saying it was more confusing than Evangelion. End of Evangelion even (although maybe with the latter it would be too much). Cool thing though and I want to watch more.

And, as we have beautiful spring with trees blossoming already, I'm traditionally going to go somewhere and find a cherry tree to sit under and reread all my X/1999 manga. ^___^. Wow, this is going to be my third year that I'm doing this. A shame only that since last spring there was only one 1 X volume that I've bought. And that there probably won't be anymore of them...

That's it for the anime part. RL? Ohoho, guess what. The guide exam - I'm going to write it next year. Because I failed it XDDD Fyuun~ actually I'm not sad or anything. I've been expecting this because I was aware of the level of my knowledge.
You see, the problem is I can't study. And I don't. Ha, everyone says they don't study too, but with me this is extreme. I'm so happy to have chosen a college where one can laze around all semester, cheat on the finals and pass it all (that's what I do :P). Really the only times I open my books or read my notes are when I'm in school. I hate homework. Even if I do have any, I write the stuff in school during the breaks. Never at home. Childish, I know XP
Also, my problem is that even when I want to start studying something, whenever I open a book I don't read it. I stare at it blankly and my mind floats somewhere and encourages my imagination to come up with anything that is not connected with the book. In other words, to say I have a short attention span would be an understatement.
I only say the things like 'ooh, I will study' or 'ooh, I should study' and that's all. The funny thing is, I have an excellent memory and no problems with remembering things. *bangs her head on the desk* You know what I'm going to say now? I really need no study. XDD

I also need to stop writing as shopping awaits me. A normal Astarise-style shopping. Oh hoho, that's my list for today:
- Fabric paint - black and white.
- A big spool of thin copper wire (I really do have serious reasons for it, believe or not).
- My wonderful plastic/clay thingy (modelina) - big pack of black and white plus a small one of red.
- 2x2 meters of thin non-stretchy black velvet (that is if I find any to my liking *is picky*).
- A spool of black ribbon.
- A small can of silver enamel.
- A box of pins (I tend to run out of pins because I lose them everywhere).
- A box of cdrs.
- A box of strawberry ice cream XD

Review time!
Live & Backstage with Janne da Arc.mov (also called MUCC & Yasu playing guitar). Ok. DON'T download this one. Unless you're a JdA fan (which I am not). The file name is so misleading~ One would expect to be a lot of MUCC there and in fact the whole 33MBs look like this: StylishWave comment guy: blah blah, here's the band dkjvcbgwkjb playing *band is being shown for 3 seconds* and here's bfbgbfbs *band is being shown for 3 seconds* and here's MUCC *MUCC plays for 3 seconds (Orugooru <3)* and HERE we have JdA *rest of the program is devoted to them*. Fascinating, really ~_~

*runs off happily in search of items listed above* :D~

Astarise enlightened the world @ 02:50 p.m.

Thursday, April 15, 2004
ŻVidoll - Karakuri Romance

Kyoness! An extremely hasty yet nice (*cough* modesty~) layout. Made in awful conditions. In other words, I am curretly sitting in front of the school computer. Today I'm supposed to sit like this for 6 (!) hours (only 1 more left), so being bored as hell I decided to work on a half finished layout image I had wisely uploaded to my site earlier this morning. Fortunately all the major photoshoppings I have finished at home as this computer is supplied with an extremely lame graphic program (which I hate). Ahhh it's so cruel that I'm wasting (hm, well actually I have classes now, but I count it as a waste of time^^;) so much time here. At home I could at least be downloading something...

As for now, I shall indulge myself by filling in this random survey I found somewhere:

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"Es gibt einen Vortrag." (my German book ~_~)

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
I won't sretch out any arms because I'd hit my classmates.

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Buahah, you kidding me? I'm so proud of having thrown my tv set into the basement a long time ago.

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is:
11 45

5: Now look at the clock, what time is it?
12 15 (-.-;)

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?:
I have my discman with me, currently playing D'espairsRay's Gothic.

7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?
This morning, as I went to school...

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
Misc ljs.

9: What are you wearing?
My egoistic cameo XD Along with a typical me suit: white bouttoned up shirt with high collar trimmed with lace and having a lot of white lace around the cuffs, black jacket thing, black pants tucked into high black boots < /ega>

10: Did you dream last night?
OMG, I had this reaaally weird dream: it featured Fuuma and Kamui (X! I almost forgot about its existence x-x) and Kamui was in some sort of big laboratory jar filled with green liquid and had wires sticking out of him and then Fuuma came (into the jar wth?) and with an evil smirk threatened to cut off all the wires and Kamui was like 'nooooooo' ... and then I woke up -_-

11: When did you last laugh?
This morning when I was singing some Lareine songs with my sister.

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?:
Nothing - plain boring white.

13: Seen anything weird lately?:
I wasn't late today >D

14: What do you think of this quiz?:
At least it's not an average survey.

15: What is the last film you saw?:
Lost in Translation.

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?:
Japan! *cough* I mean a ticket to Japan~

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
When I was born, my eyes were violet. After some time they mutated into my current greyish color. Wahh I want the old color back~~~!

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?:
Made all people vegetarians.

19: Do you like to dance?:
Nope.

20: George Bush:
Baka da.

21a: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
Arashi.

21b: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:
Amon.

22: Would you ever consider living abroad?:
DUH. Let's say I don't even CONSIDER living where I live for a long time.

-edit-
Mehhh, people don't believe me. When I say it's Kyo it IS Kyo. Picture taken from Lavender no Heya, and more precisely, from here. Ha X3
Kyo has many faces, you know...

Astarise enlightened the world @ 12:22 p.m.

Tuesday, April 13, 2004
ŻVogus Image - 閉鎖病棟Ｓ

Yup, I am definitely on a Vogus Image high *dances around*. It's great because their vocalist is one of those with a bit lower voice than most. And I love listening to voices like that. Not like, let's say, Jyui. Naw, but then again, I like Jyui and I like the way sings. I mean ... *cough* I like the way he moans/pants XD. One of Vidoll's big advantages XDDD
Hey, I like things like that :P That's why Kurutta Kajitsu and Kyoujin are my two favorite MUCC songs~ Well, it's them along with Zutazuta, Hana, Ware Arubeki Basho, Futashin no Koe, Shishite Katamari, Zetsubou and Daikirai. And along with Itai Tegami, Yakeato, Kisetsu ga Kimi Dake o Kaeru, Danzetsu, Ranchuu, Homurauta, Nageki Tori to Doukebito, Roberto's Theme, Hakanakutomo, Hai,---
Ok, I'll stop now -.-;

I'm sorry for being so slow with comments/replying to comments but I just, eh... am like that, nya^^;

An announcement to all poorando people: there's Aicon 2004 in October. And I'm going >D. I'm not sure whom to cosplay yet... so many ideas. But unless a major change in my interests happens, I'm going to cosplay ~~my current layout boi~~ Tatsurou. Because I wuv him and I wuv his makeup~ Ahhh I can already see the frightened faces of people who'll see me like that >D~
Only, damn, I really need a bowler hat. Mou~ I hope I'll manage to obtain one before the con...

Speaking of hats, I need a new one anyway XD! I already have 6 serious black hats (and each of them is different) but it doesn't mean I can't have another one...
It's all Akabane's fault! He's the one who's triggered this hat liking of mine^^;;

I also badly need a digicam. I'm tired of abusing my scanner with scanning 3D things. Wait, when was the last time I scanned something 2D? Gah I DON'T REMEMBER x-x. Awfulness.
Btw, shameless plug: on my LiveJournal-kun there is a lot of Made by Astarise objects/things/ideas so go there. < /shamelessness>

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Astarise enlightened the world @ 08:58 p.m.

Wednesday, April 7, 2004
ŻVogus Image - 渦

Annndd she's back again~! With the uh... usual randomness^^:

Yay, it rains. On my way home instead of using the umbrella, I opted for getting totally soaked (because I <3 rain). Only I had forgotten about having makeup (not waterproof) on and as a result my sister refused to let me in because she got scared when she saw a black-faced monster T_T. Fortunately I had the key.

Vogus Image ROCKS! Yeah. I so needed to say this.

Hm. I'm pondering sewing some lace to my Akabane coat. Because as much as I love its Akabaness (Akabaneness? Akabanesity? XD), it's just so plain~ and bland~. I really dislike things with plain sleeves/cuffs. And it's only the cuffs that I'm pondering. And it's only black lace that I'm pondering. But then again, it wouldn't be an Akabane coat anymore... Argh! Such a ジレンマ (dilemma) @_@!

Speaking of clothes. Hm. I could argue about the sleeves being

too short and the lack of (black) gloves though...

Hm. I could argue about the sleeves being

too short and the lack of (black) gloves though...

You know that doki doki feeling when you see a thing and you know that's it? Yeah? Well I thought my heart would skip a beat when I saw this (found it randomly, don't even remember where ._.). Omg, this is a freaking PERFECTION *_*
Really, I sometimes think I was born 100 years too late *sigh*
I dress similarly to this everyday, but in there's a lot of business suit style mixed with it. Need to change this. Need to dress in a more erm, radical way. Yosha!
Btw, I did some fashion surfing and found myself in love with this site. Most of it anyway. Just look at this jabot. Astarise <3 jabots. Or this one. I don't have a jabot of that kind yet. Need to make one because it's just too cool (and too easy to make). Or this blouse (though I'd wear it with something black, not red *shrugs*).
Lalala, life is wonderful and I'm being so shallow...

Also~ I've come to a conclusion that I DISLIKE browsing websites that aren't Japan-related. Like completely unJapanese. I'm not saying they're bad or anything *points up* but they're just so different and lacking that special something, ne. They're a bit sad...

Anyway. I finally *finally* got to know how much I weigh. After about 5 years of living in ignorance. Yay. It's much less than I've been thinking, actually. So being Jrockerishly skinny for the summer seems even realistic *_*
Btw, I also noticed how my body is proportionate in its own weird way:
1 - The number of kilograms I weigh equals the number of centimeters in my waist.
2 - My shoe size equals my clothing size.
I rule.

Look! Look! I got this at my first try too!!!!1111one

You are a GRAMMAR GOD!
If your mission in life is not already to preserve the English tongue, it should be. Congratulations and thank you!
How grammatically sound are you?
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Heh, well studying this damn philology pays in a way, I guess. I love grammar tests. Love love love OMG I SO LOVE WRITING GRAMMAR TESTS WAHHH!! XD'
I only wish that it all would somehow be reflected in my blogging (which is still very imperfect...) ;_;

As for MUCC, I got Expect Rush II [photoshoot].mpg. Finally. Actually, I think it's worth mentioning because it's quite rare. By 'rare' I mean *I* don't see it often (as opposed to Expert Rush Interview, also very properly named Idiots. I adore it XD). Anyway, the clip is very short and, well, shows them during a photoshoot. In one shot Tatsurou made a very scary face expression, omgkowaikowaidesu etc.
I also have some Asa Made Nama things, but they're not complete yet >_< (so many of them~ so elusive~)

Astarise enlightened the world @ 09:40 p.m.