My blog is silly. Not stupid but just silly. My blogging is silly. That does not mean I myself am silly^^;. Looking through my entries I notice how I have developed this particular (silly) style of writing that just won't go away regardless of what I write about. Maybe it's because I can't angst here. It's not that I'm a totally angstless person, though I usually do consider myself so, it's because I just don't feel the need to write about my real problems on the blog. And that has highly contributed to my style of writing, which, I must add, sometimes surprises me in its silliness. Eh, anyway.

Rant ahead! I'm not in the best of moods right now because I still feel disturbed by reading this one fanfic a few hours ago. Now don't get me wrong - it's very hard to really gross me out or make me feel disturbed. I usually just laugh at things like that. This fic though was not at all gross in this sense of meaning. The pairing also was not one of the wrong ones. What disturbed me was the way the angst in it was presented. It was one big heavy load of angst but it wasn't like in normal fics (I have nothing against normal or even heavy angst in general) (at least I think so) where there is more focus on words and feelings. No no, this one here had just plain action. And the action was irrational. Originally, the two characters (both of which I like very much) are good friends, some yaoi hints are between them alright, but there's absolutely no place for the inexplicable hatred like in this fic. At one point one of them simply (<- there's little/no focus on their feelings/motives) decides to kill another. I thought he wouldn't do this so I kept on reading. But he did.
Bah, I'm not usually sad at deathfics. I almost never feel seriously disturbed and I've read some reeeeeally awful things in my life. But this fic was just evil. I really don't know what was the writer's concept there. Just sick and irrational angst.
Bah, my words here are insufficient to write about it. I'll stop then. And go look through my gallery of images of the murdered one. He's not really dead, Astarise, he's not ;_;

Brighter side: I made a new layout for my LiveJournal! I don't do this normally (advertise my layouts^^;) but I'm particularly fond of this one. Especially of the colors: black and dark violet mixed with pale and dark olive. Mmmm. Ok, I'm actually in love with the colors there^^V And it also features Kozi because I thought it would be a nice idea to have both my Pitas and LJ layouts sharing the same theme.

Oh, and kill me for this. It's one of my really lame jokes. It's so lame that it even surprises me. But I'll die if I don't post it anywhere. After reading this you'll be sure to say '-_-; ... Astarise, that was just SO dumb *more sweatdropping*' but I don't really care (some MUCC knowledge needed): ^^;