lazertag
25.06.02
09:15 p.m.
today i went lazertaging wif eric. it was lots of fun but it was tiring. there wasn't any air conditioning where we went = after ourtime was up in the tag thing we asked the guy wat our scores were..haha i whooped erics ass ho ho ho..the score was something like 350 to -100 ho ho ho XD but he beat me 2 out of 2 games in air hockey ^___^;; then we got a pop and watched tv until his mum came to pic us up. i kinda sad cause eric ish leaving tomorrow..and he wont be back until after the fourth -___-; and this time i wont even be able to talk to him on the puter T__T cause there is no puter where he going T___T. shini left..hes gone..and i don know if he ish going to come back..maybe he is still there he just..just doesnt' talk to me no more..i feel so alone..o wait i feel dat NE ways..but still now its even more..i want him to come back..i dont dream much NE more..i used to dream every night..the last time i dreamed i had a nightmare..it was the most horrible thing to have going in mah mind..and i even woke up a bunch and fell back a sleep..and it came back..over and over *dies* it was horrible. lately the pain in mah chest has been back..almost everyday. i have even more too. its like mah hole body hurts everyday. i need some asprin right now -___-; gah pain. i had to mow the lawn tonight too. i wrote a song..sorta while i was mowing..i do that a lot cause i can talk to mah self and no1 will bother me..and no1 can hear me either haha. i listening to pink..Just like a Pill. i like that song. i really really like Avril Lavigne. mah two fave by her are Skater Boy and Complicated. i ordered some stuff off of sasuga online but i havent gotten mah stuff yet T___T i sent out mah money order but i no know if they have gotten it yet. i hope so..i want mah japanese manga T____T mew mew i luff mah kittie ^____^ she ish sooooo cute. she ooold hehe..she to lazy to do NEthing. mah kittie has the cutest meow..mah fave ish when she wants to go outside..and we don let her out and stuff..its so funny..and her lonly meow ish funny but it can get annoying after a while..hmm..i just keep blabing on and on and no1 really cares about this stuff
mubies
24.06.02
01:23 a.m.
today me, eric and meggers went to da mubies. we saw lilo and stitch. of course i cried a million times -___-;; after da mubie was ober we took pictures in one of dose out your pic on a sticker ting. first time we did it, it was me, meg, and eric..and da second time it was jus me and eric. den wes had to go. i at meggers house now. we watching TB and playing aroung on da puter. i wanted to be toshiya sooo bad dis year for da anime con. but i tink i gonna make it easy and be Daisuke from DN Angel ^__^
da trip
21.06.02
05:54 p.m.
the trip started and we had already forgoten da cell phone..so we had to turn around wike two mins from da house. me, mum, dad, mah grandparents, mah aunt, mah uncle and mah cuzzies all drove to kansas city in a line @__#..in da first car..me, mum and dad..in da second..gram and gramps and da rest in da thrid.
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well two days of shopping @___# da first night mum didnt hab her medication..so she couldnt sleep..and she kept meh up -.o but da second night she had it cause we got it transfered or somptin wike dat @__# mah cuzzies went back home today. gah i mish bnches o people @__# meggers i gots somptin for you ^__^ i hope you wike it
trip
19.06.02
09:12 a.m.
well we are going to got out o town for about 2-3 days. i write when i gets back.
lets not fight, lets all make love togeather -=Maze=-
17.06.02
11:03 a.m.
yay! yesterday eric gots home from his dads. i hope i get to shii him soon. he left on Sunday da uh..9th and came back yesterday da 16 T___T dat was looong time ^__^ but he back now yay! i wanna go ober to his house but i no tink mum would let me..we was prolly jus gonna watch a mubie or somptin..we want to shii each other..dat wat sux bout summer..in school i would be able to shii him every day.. gah mah cuzzies are in town till wed..o fun..hah. well i prolly hab to do shit wif em. i can't wait until homecoming ^__^ i don hab money to buy a new dress so i gonna wear mah brides maids dress..NE ways eric didn't shii it yet ^__^ and wes plan on going together. i not a bery good dancer but i still wike to go to dances NE ways day hab good drinks dare and people to talk to and stuff..and hours wif eric ^__^ gah mah chest has been acking up..x___X pain.. well eric i tink ish going to call me soon..but i tink i jus call him hehe..well if i tink of stuff to write...i will write later..
how i got drunk off non alchol stuff i no know @___#
16.06.02
01:59 p.m.
last night was pretty fun. to many pictures tho..i hate getting mah pic taken. i was pretty crazy after four bottles of dat sparkling white grape stuff. dis matt kid who ish wike one o mah old friends(i met him awhile back) and on accident he burned mah hand wif a bell @__# i not hurt too bad tho..nothing i habent felt before.. but towards da end mah body was throught habing fun but i wasn't..and i got super depressed..i started crying and shit and i didn't want matt to shii so i was trying to get away from him and he was trying to find out wat was wrong but i didn't want him too shii..we got home about 1:00..i fell asleep in mah dress around 2:00 am. i had to gets up dis morning cause every1 was coming for brunch. some of dem are still here. well i hab to go shii em and stuff..@___#
too sezzy for you
14.06.02
11:54 p.m.
well i didnt get to go mini golfing or bowling. well we had a bunch of stuff to do. den when we went out to da car mah sister couldnt find da keys so we had to wait for her to go back in da mall and find em. den i started feeling really sick. and den dey was all going to din din and i was not up to it so i didnt go. well right now i talking to eric..i mish him..he at his dads right now so i don get too shii him..and i mish shaun too cause he staying at his friends for wike eber..tho i not on much..but still..i mish meggers to but i get to shii her tomorrow ^___~, ne, ne, meg? heh heh..yea
dont touch junk boy
14.06.02
02:38 p.m.
i gots mah nails done and we had lunch. we are going to go mini golfing soon. den i get to go bowling wof mah bro. tomorrow ish da wedding @___#
balh
13.06.02
04:47 p.m.
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people..too many..and dares more too come
13.06.02
03:36
mah house smells different..its weird i don like it..too many people are screwing up the scent of mah house >_> i hate it T___T but there ish a good ting ^__^ mah brother ish here YAY!i so happy T___T i only get to see him once a year *cries* cause he lifs too far away T__T i've been listening to eminem and brak today @___# all day.. i kinda want to talk ta Shaun and Zelly but neither ob dem are on T________T i need to buy something..i don know why..@___# i strange..maybe a ring..i luff rings..i am a big jewerly person. @_______#there are these pants dat i want(baggie, swish, swish, bondage pants) loooong name @___# but dats wat i call em @__# but day $50.00 x________X if i had $50.00 i would get dem cause i don kno if mum would get dem cause she ish bery bery picky about wat i wear T__T i wanna wear wat i wanna wear..but nuuuuuu mum wont let me. to bad dat at da wedding there will be cops..cause da place dat we are at ish making us hab dem so we wont hab minors drinking..damn. cause i would deffantly be one ob dose minors drinking XD but i no wanna be drunk in front of mah parents =/ dat would be a bad ting
people..too many
13.06.02
02:16 p.m.
people who we hab no seen in soooooo many year hab come for da wedding and stuff. but there are so many people right now AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
stuff...
13.06.02
01:48 p.m.
you know Zelly insead of asking so many questions why dont you jus read mah od? cause dat answers a few, ne? well today ish the reheasal dinner..i don wanna go but you know i kinda hafta @___# grrr..well i feel like crap as always. you kno i don tink mum wants to accept dat i have depression and i need prozac of some other form of da happy pill..cause i know i need it..but i kno mum no gonna gets it for me..o well.. i jus hab to get used to feeling like dis..
mental age @_______#
13.06.02
01:42 p.m.
well i took it again and..well you knw how sometimes you have more dan one answer and you can't pic jus one so i tookies it again and lookies wat i got @______#
21 I act like I'm 21.
This test was brought to you by Mel - mostly....
mental age
13.06.02
11:37 a.m.
i took a quizzie and it was too see what you mental age was..and i got..
19 I act like I'm 19.
This test was brought to you by BLX - Cheap laughs....
i too tired to feel anything better than shit..but thats prolly wat i would feel wike if i was awake all da way...
13.06.02
11:10 a.m.
well the night before last i was doing..not so good...well i burned mah arm 20 times but there were only 4 really bad ones. but its ok now. gah i still feel like crap..o well.
falls down an endless tunnel of darkness..
11.06.02
08:05 p.m.
i don understand..what the fuck is wrong wif me..i feel all wrong..i keep crying for no reason..i need to break something and roll in it. gah i can't take it AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
this ish for you shuan..and maybe if i can sneak a voice i will sing to you..maybe not dis song..@____#
11.06.02
4:11 p.m.
*sings* Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy brithday dear Shaun, Happy Birthday too you. have a good bithday. wish i could be there and i try my best to be on for you. talk to you later
goes to magick flower land..*POOF*
11.06.02
03:50 p.m.
*gets chased be an ebil magick flower* nya..well last night i spent da might at meggers and it was fun. we rented three mubies last night but we only gots to watch two, moulin rouge and interview with a vampire. i cried at bof. -____-;; well mah grandparents are here..hmm i wonder if we gonna go out for din din..i hungry @____#
me bum and me head
08.06.02
06:04 p.m.
well today i went skating wif jacklyn and rachel. we were skating and i almost skated into jacklyn so i tried to move but i lost mah balence and i fell on mah butt then i bounced back and hit mah head. gah i am tired but i am not allowed to sleep..mum says no..rachel says no..meg says no..and a buch of other people but i don feel like listing them. i gots a ring..but i can't let mum see it cause she'll say it looks like i promise ring and she no like me having thoes i don think..but o well for her. i gots it from Rachel...well i was going to pay her back..but she sed no <_< so i was like..ok.. yea it was fun..but mum sed i have to go see a doctor T________T i no wanna go
please dont take me to the pickle farm
07.06.02
10:57 a.m.
gah mah head hurts so bad. some butt called this morning while i was sleeping and mah parents werent home..and they hung up before i got there..tho it did kinda take me a while to get to the phone..but it was 8:00 in the morning T_______T mah room ish too organzied and clean o_#..Meg its like the pantry AAAAAAAAAAAAAA that was scary..i kinda gots used to it now..but its still scary. i had to mow the law this morning too. but i getting paid for it ^__^ well mum, me and dad are going to go gets me a new bed. i wanted a water bed or one that has a canipie but mum says no water bed and we prob can't afford a canipie bed. i hope mah dad finds a job here soon..cause i aint going no where. i'll lif in a box on the corner of da street..or i could always move in wif meggers..ne, meg? ^_______^ but i no think we going NE where for now. i hope not cause i wanna graduate from Valley. <_< i better graduate from there..gah i no wanna move. T_____T well so far we not so i really dont wanna think about moving..
stabs self wif a fork
06.06.02
11:09 p.m.
gah i really wish i had a fork to stab mahself with right now..i really need some1 right now..just so i can cry in their arms..well i have a pillow, ne? gah..mah chest hurts more than ever right now..pain..it kinda stopped for a while..but you know i think its a depression thing..and when that whole meg hates me thing came..i almost died right as i was reading it..and it started hurting..but now it just hurts i think cause i am confused and going out of mah mind..i've been sitting here..rocking back and forth..back and forth...crying.. grabing mah hair..mah head hurts..prob from pulling so hard on mah hair..pain..why me
i gots a 61 gah i sux at mini golf..
06.06.02
10:54 p.m.
well tonight me, dad. mum, and eric went mini golfing. dad won, mum gots secong and eric gots third..i gots last. o well i know i would haha. but it was fun ^__^ and after we went to get some ice cream and i had a banana split ^_________^ it was goooooooooood. then me and eric were in da backseat holding hands.
wed
06.06.02
11:33 a.m.
well yesterday was great ^__^ o just so you know, cause i didn't tell you, i am going out wiffers Eric. yesterday i had the normal bowling leauge and i did really REALLY good ^___^ i gots a 142, 189, 180 WOO! i nots the loner NE more. some guy whos i don know ish mah team mate and he ish pretty good. maybe i'll get better than 3rd place. thats the best i've done so far -__-; well Eric came and watched while we had leauge. i played greg and sean hahaha. then after me and Eric bowled three together it was fun. he just needs a little pratice and then i know he will be better ^_~ well i hope i gets to see you before you leave, Eric. T_______T i'll mishles you
huggles mah puter* T______T i mishled you
06.06.02
11:18 a.m.
as you can tell i have not been on for a while. T____T i didnt even do nuffin. but mumies sed no puter for ashie T______T gah well i've spent the last few days...cleaning..and cleaning o and talkin on the phone wif Eric. ^___^ well some people have told me that there has been a little comfusion about mah dates..i write them as month.day.year so i am not born on april 3, i am born on march 4.
locked in a dark room wif no air
02.06.02
10:41 a.m.
life ish crazy and i can't do anything aobut it cause i am so busy. mah sisters wedding ish two weeks away and her wedding shower ish today. gah its like melissa do this melissa do that. gah..and why did i have to be like the only one who can tie the stupid bows right. now i'll have to tie all thoes bows on all thoes bells..and i don wanna. Shaun thinks i am busy wif Eric...but T____T i havent seen him since we went bowling and to BKing. but i not..i have so much stuff to do and so little time to do it in. and mah brother ish coming soon and i have stuff to do before he comes..wait *cant remember when he comes but tomorrow rings a bell* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA o shit
Pen15
01/06/02
right after the one i did before
come join the Pen15 club every1!
its hot..bowling is fun
01/06/02
05:12 p.m.
well today i was going to go bowling by mah self but when i got there, greg and sean were there, so we bowled together. it was fun. i won one and sean won two..poor greg didn't win any. well i got mah application today for happy jeos and i will prob bring it back tonight cause i almost done wif it.
i hate broccoli but i hafta eat it
01/06/02
10:58 a.m.
well its been crazy. i've been so confuzzled..i don know what to do NE more T____T later today i am going bowling while mah dad ish across the street from the bowling alley. just so i can pratice and stuff. i hope there wont be many people there, cause i'll be by mah self and i dont wanna be there wif a lot of people there when i am by mah self. i dont know if i will still be the loner bowler or not. well Eric can do it..he just needs a ride and mum says thats a lot out of the way T___T but i no wanna be a loner while i bowling for leauge. o well we see what happeneds
noddles are yummy and i like cookies
31/05/02
03:54 p.m.
tis strange things happening..gah..i am hungry but i don feel like eating. i want to go swimming. i can't wait until next year YAY! valley. i have no idea what its going to be like..o well. meggers and i better have more classes together..well we in four of the same clubs o_O so i see her then, ne? ^^ fun hehe. next year i will get a car..i will. i hope to have a jod REALLY soon. i need one.. well i was going to put more...but now its 4:40..its almost been an hour...yea..so when i think of stuff then i write later..
the pen15 club
31/05/02
11:40 a.m.
yesterday was bunches of fun ^__^ me, greg and eric went bowling it was great. then we sat in there for lik e45 mins then we walked to buger king and me and eric gots crowns and were wearing em around. we were going to go swimming but i had somewhere to go. and we were going to do it like today or tomorrow but i got groundered fom doing anything for no reason...mum said she was in a bad mood..so i got grounded o_O; yup thats mum. so i cant go swimming until like next weekend..T__T o well. i sure they can wait for me ^^; last night i slet at meggers and we made this layout..if you got to mah arcives you can read mah entries for last night and i took the quizzes and put them in. and i not soft kiss NE more ^_~ i took it again and i was hard kiss ^^ i wanted to be french..o well -__-; well i think i have to mow the lawn and yard work again this weekend and clean mah room..bah
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