January 14 2007, Sunday
Music: Why Me - YUI
Koi for the Day: Red♥♥♥ asan ka?
Mirene’s Debut:
You know I love you and you’re not alone in facing the Sedex infected world.♥♥♥
First, I didn’t know what to do whether to go to Ron-jii and see him, Daddy and the rest then go to My or head to My’s debut immediately~ But due to the lack of time, I decided not to. Imagine, I had arrived the latest! For some strange reason, the invitation seemed to have walked away from my desk and spent an hour and a half looking for it around the house because the directions to where the debut was written in the damn paper! To no avail, my mother and I decided to leave anyway with assumptions to where the place was. Thankfully My called so it was a big relief.
It was not a full blown debut but rather a causal party for the guests. It seemed like luck was not on my side because the yummy pasta ran out when I arrived and I had trouble with the heels my mom told me to wear >__< Anyway, the food was great of course (with the message of the whole even saying: endless ice cream because it was held in Nestle Creamery)! And of course, my darlings and lovelies made the night even better~♥♥♥! I shared a table with Louanne and Elmo (my best friends), Kimi-okaasan and Lolo Cori . The Juniors’ Rat pack: Andrea, K-chan, Joyce, Cor and Bianca were there; Christina, Jamie, Melissa, Marian, Barbie were there along with My’s close friends in SPQC: Edz, Chatt, Lourdes and Frida. Karaoke was love as well~ HAHA~ We were so random at singing (Voltes 5, the Sailor Moon theme, Paulinian Hymn which I led XD and etc.)
THE INFLATABLE CASTLE~!♥♥♥ Haha XD It was too fun for words! I can’t even explain it until now~ Haha XD
Thanks My for the night~ There would be more happy-danger moments I assure you :D ♥♥♥
Time was not on my side. If there was enough time, I could’ve spent the night in Ron-jii’s house. It was unfortunate (despite Daddy’s bribe saying he’d buy plenty of ice cream for me if I could just visit him and the rest yesterday). BUT in all honesty I am not regretting it :) ♥♥♥
She went with the Revolution @ 2:00 p.m.
January 12 2006, Friday
Music: A Sorta Fairytale - Tori Amos
Koi for the Day: Red♥♥♥ asan ka?
To fill in me this ire and the feeling of “lacking” for them, I promised the GXA I would visit them today. And I did and it seemed like the gods smiled down to me with the opportunity that was our last subject was cancelled (our professor wasn’t there). Imagine my immense happiness when I heard that and I rushed immediately to Ron-jii’s house.
The Kids couldn’t come (apparently, stupidity and laziness or whatever hit them) and it was annoying. Obviously I can’t go tomorrow since I have classes in the morning and I have to attend a debut at night, so there. Junie and Layne made a WRONG move today; I was even looking forward seeing them again after more than a month of separation from them (yes, those were the days Christmas kicked in, as well as the week I was grounded).
I was with, of course, ojiisan/ “little” brother (he is way older than me but calls me his neechi) Ron-jii; Kuya Jett and Kuya Bernard, the best friends; and of course, my Daddy-Baby :D He was the first one I noticed when I entered Ron-jii’s house because he was saying “BABY! BABY! Long time no see!” XD And it was like a hugging session when we saw each other.
I GOT MY FIRE DECK! It’s my first EVER deck in Yu Gi Oh! (>o<) I’m EXTREMELY happy and excited at the possibilities but you know, still nervous because I REALLY think I don’t have what it takes to duel. LOL~ so much for self-confidence! HAHA~ A while ago I was able to defeat Ron-jii during a sparring battle (My life points remained as is while he went to 50~!) and it felt like, so amazing since there was satisfaction in the mere fact you dominated someone in a skill game. Of course, most of the credit goes to Daddy-Baby because he was beside me, helping me to think properly XD Ron-jii was my FIRST BLOOD.
Daddy-baby was so kind in lending me his Horuses :3 His best friends XD As well as Ron-jii who handed me down his "terrorist squad". Both of them were so proud; I need to tjink about "arson" and being a terrorist now. But what sucks is that I can’t visit them tomorrow because I was classes and by late afternoon I’ll be attending a debut :c Daddy-baby wants me to go tomorrow and so does the rest~ And it’s annoying because if Ron-jii and the rest knew my EndLess barkada, this won’t be a problem for me. Besides I need to spend time more time with the GXA, especially Daddy-baby~ He’s going to leave me and the rest T___T
All in all, it was a pretty nice day. It’s so KRUD that their house is far away from us. Oh yeah, Daddy-Baby is Tupe and I’m his “baby” cause I’m his. LOL. Hwee~!
and i'm so sad
like a good book
i can't put this day back
a sorta fairytale
with you
She went with the Revolution @ 12:00 a.m
January 7 2007, Sunday
Music: God Help Me -Emilie Autumn
Koi for the Day: The boy whose much WAFU than me
Today I promised not be vain, to remove the ‘I’s and let it be ‘you’s this time around. For the love of bleeding hearts and for those whose lovers’ remain in the Heart of Dreams and for that fixed reality they’ve created to keep alive, I shut my mouth for the wrong things to say, for accusations pointed at illusions and other obscure reasons that ran in my mind because of YOU.
If man’s lips would be as tender and frail as petal roses, I long to see you bit your lips and let it bleed (oh how easily you do so, dear prince). Oh no, not the kind of bleeding for mine chapped lips are nothing compared to your moist ones, darling. And yes, if your lips bled, gladly I’ll save those droplets and return them, branding mine against yours. They are new kinds of rubies and it would be something not superficial (no not jewellry; it is beyond), yet in a sense it may be as I would think I was adorned with treasures, treasures that you’ve given me.
Where are you now?
You know how little girls are impatient.
But then it's not your fault.
And when can I see you again? You command me without saying anything and yes, I won’t try to kill you.
I am COMPLETELY delusional now. Why? Because it's Sunday. And I won't try to expect. No, this is not dear Death Ember Eyes.
She went with the Revolution @ 11:25 pm
January 1 2007, Monday
Music: Wish - ARASHI
Koi for the Day: Red
It seemed that there was something other worldly as I stared on. The blue liquid held something within its murkiness and it revealed lips and eyes that tempted her. It spoke to me, its plump blue lips moving. The drink has entranced me and now has taken its toll on me as I stared at the margarita glass with the neon blue tinged liquid.
I was embraced. And things began to dawn once again; to matter when they should not. But I was hushed by the person who embraced me.
Black suit against crisp white shirts and a tie; anxiety reeked along with the scent of roses, bonbons, perfume and mint, the air between us. My breathing was not staggered despite the corset which was painfully laced up in my back but then the pain diminished.
And it was my turn to laugh at you, with your entrance.
“Nothing tastes as sweet as what I can't have” they say… Prom night was not over yet.
RED STAY AWAY FROM MY HEAD~! Yellow spoiled it all and now would that be a basis then for my thoughts, for my judgement? I was not scorned; just disappointed.
I watched Jhi try to sing “About a Girl” by Nirvana XD Hearing him sing in English is too adorable for words. Happy new year koi ♥♥♥ And yes random photo post today, for this year!
My aunt and uncle from Japan gave this to me since they know I like strawberries. It’s a thick box of FRAN Extra, which is somewhat POKCY-ish but it’s made by Meiji. It’s a complete love because when I opened the shiny red box (with strawberry designs on the sides) it was so fragrant. IT REEKED of bittersweet chocolate and strawberries♥♥♥. Its chocolate biscuits covered with pink strawberry cream (and traces of red strawberry pulp) and the red strawberry syrup which had bits of grinded chocolate mixed in them (>u<) gyuu~♥♥♥
And my new lovelies♥♥♥! The pretty hardbound book is titled: “The Witch’s Business” by Diana Wyne Jones and it was a Christmas gift given by one of my close friends. The genre goes to the type of fantasy adolescent type ones, such as the Artemis Fowl series by Eoin Colfer, as a good example. The other is “In the Flesh” by Clive Barker. Does the name ring any bell? Practically he’s one of the guys I look up to for expanding the horror-macabre genre for. He’s the guy who made THE Hellraiser novels and movie series (a personal favourite of mine) and that obscure book ABARAT. This book is part of his “Books of Blood” collection (horror fiction anthologies by him) which I’ve been trying to locate. I found one, luckily. This is volume 5 and I finished it for 2 days. I’ll give a book review next time. It gives me a new drive of some sort♥♥♥; you’ll probably see me lurking around bookstores trying to find remnants of his anthology. GAAAAAH~ ♥♥♥
And half of my bookshelf in my room. I’m only showing you this half because it’s the neat one. The other half is still questionable to present.
My journal♥♥♥! It was a gift for me, for no reason by a relative given to me last summer. It’s hardbound with a deep purple covering and lavender inner covers. The cover has a J on it, despite my name being R (my pet name is JOY). And it’s thick. It’s about to be fully used soon.
And look what I’ve been reading lately. Or rather studying :P (-__-|||)
Urks. I need sleep. I’ve been haunted by weird dreams lately. But then again when did my dreams become normal anyway?
She went with the Revolution @ 11:58 pm
December 31 2006, Sunday
Music: You and I Both - Jason Mraz
Koi for the Day: my favorite people
The year is ending and the year has been good to me. In some unconventional way, the ending of the year provides me with a sense of assurance and comfort in so many ways (perhaps my existence waiting for the end of the year is proof of my strength, having survived 16 paradoxical years).
And so far, this year has been the MOST EVENTFUL one of all.
1st: I wasn’t really an active kid at school or rather I didn’t CARE that much what was happening in the shadows of the administration or whatever activity. However the school fair this year is definitely one of the most fun things I got involved in. I know I didn’t make the whole thing successful by myself (heck no and I don’t really care if it really did) but I got to share a lot of my skills/working experience/patience/love with those people. The whole thing was worth exerting what you’re made up of and worth remembering.
2nd: My misadventures with Stef and Kat G. GYAR~ KATG~ Asan ka?
3rd: Il mio insegnante amato… Sì, era un sogno del mio, un sogno in qualche modo egoistico ed ambizioso di essere con lui ed accendere in qualche modo il suo interesse. Ma ricordando poi che ho diviso con lui, non mi potrei si lamentare. Ho tenuto che ha amato più. I meant a lot to me that he was generous with me, that he was able to share his busy time with me and that he recognizes me when I greet him. He was not my teacher in terms of classroom boundaries; but he was still my teacher and a great teacher I would remember. Und dies hat keine romantische Neigung oder was auch immer. I say this out of my immense respect towards him.
He’s kind, ever polite, he shows others the respect they deserve, he does not deny them of help, he’s smart and passionate of things he does. He’s a kind man and as mortals are, imperfect but for me he knows how to utilize what little he has to make things somehow perfect. Non lo dimenticherei; con le cose che me ha insegnato, rimangono con sappiamo che è con me in quella maniera.
I'll say it again: "I was glad to meet you".
4th: What senior high school-er could forget her won GRADUATION?! When Monse said those things and she sniffed and finally cried, it was an automatic disease that spread through the white clad graduates of 2006 and we found ourselves crying as well. I felt crap all at the same time and my heart wrenched because I know I’m leaving a great school, my friends and it would never be the same again.
5th: The thought that I passed high school and then lingering still within the campus because of yearbook responsibilities. The whole yearbook staff is LOVE.
6th: My classmates during senior year are LOVE as well.
7th: Our constant sleepovers at Abishan’s house XDD It was a summer where being a bum was a necessity after getting away from the stressed ridden life of senior year, your friends became something like a staple food like rice and happy evil was what kept you going for days.
8th: First day at the university. SERIOUSLY, I was in a bad mood. Not only was I paranoid of bullying upper class men and block mates who are shallow, mediocre and those that would bore me to death, I was generally nervous of what I would seem to them. It was not a “whatever may come” thing. It was a milestone in a weird kind of way and it told me: YOU’RE GROWING UP, YOU’RE GETTING OLD AND YOU ARE ENTERING SOME UGLY ALTERNATE DIMENSION. Besides, I WALKED IN HEELS DAMN IT! And freaking tight pencil cut WHITE SKIRTS! I thought it was the end for me. BACK THEN.
9th: My birthday, which I turned 16 and no body at my block knew about it. However, my blockmate Keith made an offer to our group of friends that day to treat us in Yellowcab for no apparent reason. So it felt like a birthday really, without them knowing it was in fact my birthday.
10th: The day I went out to meet with Ron-jii. That day was really an unplanned thing and his mother suddenly tagged with him inviting him to watch that Sam Milby movie thing. So he submitted to his request and left me in the care of his friends, which I met on the day itself: Kuya Sonny, Kuya Ralph, Kuya Gerald, Kuya Paulino, Kuya Eric and Rocky. It would be a start of fun moments with these people and if it wasn’t for this fateful day I wouldn’t have met Patty, Jilayne, June, Nikki, Jorrence and Kuya Tupe.
11th: The first time I went to Ron-jii’s house and it was “boys’ afternoon out” in his room again. Those people were scary HOWEVER they were really nice, polite and kind and all of them were gentlemen (?) XDD It was also the day the first tie I went to Rocky’s house and met his scary father.
12th: The first time I went to Quiapo and really went shopping at DV with Ron-jii and Rocky. LOL. There was a huge difference between shopping and looking from shopping and REALLY looking and analyzing. And of course the sun was merciless to us that time. It was also the day I first ate at Karate Kid and discovered it wonders, eating tofu steaks.
13th: It was the first time in years that I had a 3 hour phone conversation with (thanks to Ron-jii’s magical 30way system, we managed to talk with anyone we wanted and most of the time it was Rocky and Kuya Kel). And then the telephone became another necessity for me (and I say I was not a phone person).
14th: Louanne’s birthday. Why? Because it was my first time going at UP Bahay ng Alumni with 2 of my favourite people: Stef and Louanne. We toured the campus of ADMU, where Stef studies and walked along Katipunan and Louanne was generous to share her knowledge of where delicious and affordable decent food was located within the UP Campus.
15th: My first Ongaku Society event. It was when Louanne and I were running a lot along Tomas Morato finding that bar to watch gigs! XDD Srsly, the things we do for love.
16th: My first UP Ame Matsuri event, which was held at Bahay ng Alumi once again. It was practically a whole day spent with my favourite people. I’ll spare you all the details and to keep my mouth shut for several reasons.
And so the year would end. I find no problem with it because the year ends without me feeling really crappy about it and this year is worth looking back to. Despite the fact that somehow depression looms over me because of the mere fact that the permanent thing, which is change, would come once again, I’m happy.
I’m happy to let go of this year and let it pass because I know next year I’m still holding on to the people I held this year.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.
She went with the Revolution @ 2:50 p.m.
December 30 2006, Saturday
Music: Cocoon - Pierrot
Koi for the Day: Tadzio (an eternal fey boy)
By next year I would be 17.
I think I am acting well enough for my age and normal enough such as knowing what good and bad is and I am independent and I like the way how I learn by it. And besides, I like doing things by myself and I don’t whine (unless things really tick me off) and besides I don’t like people who whine and are helpless.
In short, I’m grounded. WHY?!
I got home at 10:30 p.m. after staying at Stef’s house and her family feeding me. I was late for a good reason! It would be bad enough to risk one the continuation of one of the most romantic and heart-breaking, artistic and inspiring films EVER~! It would be really bad that I leave when the film was not over and I’m going to be miserable and eventually the “feeling of the moment” is gone and the movie’s essence would no longer be enjoyed! IT’S "MORTE A VENEZIA" FOR GOD’S SAKES! THE LOVE MOVIE OF OUR LIVES~! We nearly ended up absolutely insane trying to figure out the symbolisms and the scenes—forward, simple and … WAH~ IT’S ART! GODS HELP US~!
Other than that Tadzio’s face made us whirl, scream, squeal, cry and whatever. I needed bonding time with her (it was a surprise visit).
It’s unfair. Stef even made her dad drive me back home.
I still need to go out with Stef and Katg and Louanne to watch Zsa Zsa Saturna. I still need to see Ron-jii, Rocky, Kuya Tupe, Patty, Kuya Kel and the others. I MISS THEM AND I NEED MY FRIENDS I would amange to survive somehow within the four walls of my room. Besides, I'm loaded with books to read.
She went with the Revolution @ 11:58 pm
December 29 2006, Friday
Music: the WORLD - Nightmare
Koi for the Day: princes from my tattered memory
Bathing in the ochre afternoon light made me taste the bittersweet feeling of loneliness, of deviance, of childhood nightmares.
Outwardly I was like other young girls in any form: my unkempt long hair then fell neatly, framing a then doll face, with my sun kissed limbs embraced by the itchy crisp white cloth that embraced my body that smelled something like warm, pungent and sweet all at once.
Inside, I thought like an adult because I didn’t need them; I didn’t need those who vomited mockery; I didn’t need those who reminded me of myself.
Of course, as any young sylph such as me, in the age of awkward puberty was careless.
Young girls give their hearts to the boys; I was no exception.
Back then I didn’t know what ‘pristine’ meant and my fancy was teased by the gods or the divine unknown for letting me to meet The Prince. I touched his face before and my fingers probed the sharp angles he made when he smiled and then handed the black pastel on my other hands, asking me to draw what I felt.
I felt suffocated, by the exchange of the air we both breathed, by the warmth in the distance between my small figure and his bent face. I branded him as my older brother, for restrictions and out of an immense respect I didn’t know how to control.
He taught me the basics: different shades of colours, to form complicated figures using the blunt no. 2 pencil I brought always with me; he let me sketch more just for fun and played with my hair as he spoke of the colours I needed to use to form appropriate shades. More splashes of color and feeling his calloused and bony hands against mine, in between an oil pastel, made me nauseous.
And then it stopped because the term stopped, and he was old as any senior high school-er could be; he was unstoppable, with big dreams and high IQ and I was but a 5th grader. And careless young grade school girls, with fleeting feelings of love and sadness did not understand the value of mementos that people leave behind and are, therefore, lost.
Today, the room where we last left off, was finally constructed, finished and became a stockroom in the old building of a former school. I saw the windows were blocked out by the plywood so the orange afternoon light could no longer enter.
I do not know what became of that paint-stained table where fervid passions of art came alive and where we sat to laugh. I miss his hands.
Yes, I have bad hand fetish. So, what does it say now? Anyway, the sad news is that my family’s not going to be here the day New Year comes, which is a sad thing. Well, technically it’s not supposed to be a sad thing since we’re going to spend it with the other half of the family. But then I just got used to the whole idea of spending the New Year with my immediate family and not having a whole she-bang about it. Not that I’m avoiding them or anything.
I’m depressed because our phone’s busted (when you call our house it’s ringing but on our side, there’s no dial tone) and it made the DSL crappier than usual though still relatively fast. I miss phone convos~ And I miss my friends :c I need to go out tomorrow to the mall to at least have a peace of mind somehow.
But other than that I’m depressed, for certain reasons. And no, not about typical love whatever. I’m writing more and more (on my paper journal that is) though I read less these days. I feel like my wits is flushing down the john. In that case I’ll probably be attending school on the 3rd somewhat dazed and neurotic. I need to visit someone. I need to be with THEM.
She went with the Revolution @ 12:00 am
December 28 2006, Thursday
Music: Powder Snow - Asian KungFu Generation
Koi for the Day: ken
| You Are the Very Gay Peppermint Patty! |
 As well as a "best friend" who loves to call her "sir" |
| Star Wars Horoscope for Gemini |
 You tend to be extremely curious, craving knowledge but sometimes having a short attention span. For the most part, you are charming and loveable. But at times, you can seem scattered and high-strung. Star wars character you are most like: Ewoks |
I just got back from Laguna yesterday, from my aunt’s house. A week of stuffing myself with food from different houses (I’ve been to Ally’s two days ago and the whole household was definitely generous of giving away food) CERTAINLY means NO GOOD. And having a "Bailey’s and Tequila night" added to the problem.
Since yesterday, I’ve been glued to the computer (other than missing it of course) because of S.O.S and Densha Otoko, two j-doramas I borrowed from my aunt. Finally after two years I guess, I was finally able to finish the whole S.O.S without having to listen to it in dubbed Taiwanese and figuring out what was happening without any subs. Densha Otoko on the other hand is a new dorama and it was definitely amusing since the lifestyle of the main character is similar to me and the group. It was like watching Genshiken Live Action, which is a cool idea (YEAH MAKE IT A LIVE ACTION YOU JAPANESE PRODUCERS~!) although we are still waiting for Genshiken Season 2.
I miss them, despite knowing them for a short time. It already feels like family, the same thing with the Endless barkada. And we (the GXA that is) are going to make a live action opening sequence for Genshiken XDD I shall pose as Kohsaka desu~! Although the next time I’ll be seeing them would be next year already.
People ask me how my Christmas has been. Okay, in all fairness and I always say there was plenty of food to stuff me whole. I was quite happy during the Christmas mass because I saw Megane-kun, after months and no sightings of Death Ember Eyes and the brother. But then again, I don’t really care for them at this time; Megane-kun was baffling I know. I even got insecure how much fairer he was and how red his lips were compared to mine. And here goes my somewhat vanity monologue once again. He looks frailer than me, but then he’s a man.
I can’t believe the year is ending; so far it has been the most eventful year for me compared to the 15 years. And it makes me sad and melancholic all over again and surprisingly sentimental. WAH, heck, I should stop (listening to GLAY’s Unity Roots and Family, Away album does not HELP!) before I cry.
I’ve fallen in love with everyone I met this year. Yeah, it is so CHEESE.
She went with the Revolution @ 12:09 p.m.
December 24 2006, Sunday
Music: Barefoot - ELLEGARDEN
Koi for the Day: RED NAMAN~!
Wah gising pa ako. Ang adik ko na sa Eternal Fighters Zero, Yu Gi Oh at Flash Flash Revolution. Hindi ko na ito mapigilan O__O At naninigas na ang daliri ko sa pagpindot sa keyboards. Ang tindi naman kasi ng mga combo sa EFZ eh. Hindi ko pa kabisado. Yung Guilty Gear pa O___O Pero practice lang naman kasi ngayon ko lang siya naumpisahan laruin. Nag dedelirio na rin ako. Nasobrahan rin siguro sa nosebleed attack (kanina pa kasi ako nag dadaydream kasi may napanaginipan ako ukol kay YELLOW at RED)
Si YELLOW~ Ermm~ Gusto ko na ayawan siya. LOL. Si RED, okay lang :3
Friday: Doon ako nakakita ng Kamen Rider na Rider na, di pa rin nakakapag Rider kick sa buong buhay niya XDD LOL. Kasi naman eh, yung ginawang WWE Superstar ng mga sira ulo ay wala ring binuga. Ang yabang ng dating, la pang kahit anong panalo (sus, yung kinukulubot na si Rick Flair di pa kinaya). Oh yeah, WWE PS2 game pala tong tinutukoy ko. Lolo's house as usual and it was a boys' day: Ron-jii, Jorrence, Kuya Kel, Kuya Tupe, Jett and Kuya Sonny. Drawing session din kasama si Ron-jii at Kuya Tupe ♥ Ang tagal ko nang hindi nakakapag drawing session na may kasama :)
Saturday: Dinner date with the people at Cainta. GODS, MUST BE FATS o___o
She joined the Revolution @ 1:32 am
December 21 2006, Thursday
Music: Jaded - Aerosmith
Koi for the Day: Yellow pa rin :)
I had nothing to do for a while:
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool~
I added the lyrics for my personal amusement
1. Opening Credits: Lying Is the Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off - Panic! At the Disco
"I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no, you know it will always just be me
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?"
> XD Haha. I'm certainly amused.
2. Waking Up: What are you waiting for? (Gwen Stefani cover) - Franz Ferdinand
Like an echo pedal, you're repeating yourself
Why are you standing in one place?
Born to blossom, bloom to perish"
> Okay~ I love this cover by Franz Ferdinand and honestly it's much cooler than the original one. Yeah, the days have been repeating themseleves lately. Err well, not that much these days.
3. First Day At School: Bang, Bang - Nancy Sinatra
"I was five and he was six
We rode on horses made of sticks
He wore black and I wore White
He would always win the fight
Bang, bang"
> Even at a wee age, my friends and I are already killing ourselves XD
4. Falling in Love: A Decade Under the Influence - Taking Back Sunday
"Sad, small, sure in porcelain
You're skin and bones, I'm a nervous wreck
I got a bad feeling about this (when it comes to this)
I got a bad feeling about this "
> WHUT? Haha. The impending doom that is a commitment XD
5. Fight Song: Smells Like Teen Spirit - Nirvana
"Load up on guns and bring your friends
It's fun to lose and to pretend
She's over bored and self assured
Oh no, I know a dirty word"
> How coincidentially appropriate XD Something tells me the scenrio would be like my gang against my enemies. It's a brawl, people.
6. Breaking Up: Mermaid - GLAY
"Come on ! Oh Yes Drive Me Mad"
> Yeyness~ One of my favorite songs :) It will drive me mad I guess but why do I seem so happy? XD Less emotional baggage?
7. Prom: Harbor - Vienna Teng
"sail your sea
meet your storm
all I want is to be your harbor
the light in me
will guide you home
all I want is to be your harbor"
> Unfortunately the past proms I have attended did not play this, one of the best love songs and my favorite :) Let's just imagine it would be a date. The chances are good because I seem to be with the one I do like. Aha~
8. Mental Breakdown: Gaudete - Mediaeval Baebes
"Ezechielis porta
Clausa pertransitur,
Unde lux est orta
Salus invenitur. "
>OH~! The songs of an other wordly female chorus singing Latin runs in my head XD And they tell me God would be there in my bouts of insanity (>O<)
9. Driving: Last Song - Gackt
"furitsuzuku kanashimi ha
masshiro na yuki ni kawaru
zutto sora wo miageteta
the sadness that continues to fall
changes to pure white snow
I kept looking to the sky "
> Is that how easily distracted I get when driving?! Heck!
10. Flashback: Which Backstreet Boy is Gay? - weird al yankovich
"But we don’t want to be mean,
Since now he’s a queen,
Don’t ask me, Which backstreet boy is gay?
Tell me who, (They’re saying that it’s AJ)
Tell me who, (They’re saying that it’s Howie)
Tell me who, I never wanna hear you say,
Which backstreet boy is gay?"
> Oh kaaay~ the days of the boy bands :D how I remember them well
11. Getting Back Together: Dear My ... - Janne De Arc
"Kyou wa tsukareta ne...demo doko ka ureshii sou da ne kikasete yo
Itsumo yori sukoshi yasashiku nareta jibun ni [TERE]nagara
Today was exhausting, wasn't it...but somewhere you seem happy...listen to me
Just a little more than usual, I'm feeling affectionate...while being awkward "
> haha how cute and appropriate :p
12. Wedding: Yubiwa - Maaya Sakamoto
"namida ga ato kara afuredashite
saigo no egao ga nijinde mienai no
ikanaide ikanaide koko ni ite
sora e hikari kakenukete-yuku
As my tears keep overflowing one after another,
I can’t see your last smile through their blur.
Please don’t go, please don’t go... Stay here.
Light bursts through the sky."
> It's telling me I'm gonna be emotional and asking ... to not leave me XD he's not gay so he has no reason to leave me for another :p
13. Paying the Dues : I Wanna Go to A Place - Rie Fu
"I wanna know if there could be any way
That there’s no fight, and I’m safe and sound with you"
> It narrates my futile attempts to escape from paying the dues! I HAVE NO MONEY! LEAVE ME ALONE!
14. The Night Before the War: White and Nerdy - Weird al yankovich
"I ain't got a gat, but I got a soldering gun (what?)
Happy Days is my favorite theme song
I could sure kick your butt in a game of ping pong
I'll ace any trivia quiz you bring on
I'm fluent in JavaScript as well as Klingon"
> XDD Yeah ping pong balls will fly into your face when I get to the war! And what is Klingon???
15 Final Battle: Another World - Gackt
"yasashii kao wo shite
anata ha nakanai de
waratta kao wo misete
'you don't need another words'
with a kind face,
don't you cry
show me a smile
'you need not say anything else'"
> the art of deception is my key to the win! yeahboi~
16. Moment of Triumph: How Death Comes - Mediaeval Baebes
And mine lippes blaken
And my muth grenet
And my spotel rennet
And my her risset
And my herte grisset
And mine hinden bivien
And mine fet stivien
Al to late, al to late
> I don't understand old english nevertheless how strangely approprieate :D I shall spoil you all and leave your lips black~ DIE!!! *evil laugh*
17. Death Scene: Waltz of the Snowflakes (Nutcracker Ballet Suite) - Tchaikovsky Peter Ilyich
>Wow~ I am imagining pretty things on the day I would die <3
18. Funeral Song: Out of my League - Stephen Speaks
"All the time that I've sat and stared
As she thoughtfully thumbs through her hair
And she purses her lips, bats her eyes
And she plays with me, sitting there slack jaw and nothing to say
Coz I love her with all that I am
And my voice shakes along with my hands
and she's all that I see and she's all that I need
And I'm out of my league once again"
> XD How strangely... sweet? For sure I'm out of your league since I'm up there, far away~
19. End Credits: Passive by A perfect Circle
"Dead as dead can be," the doctor tells me,
But I just can't believe him,
Ever the optimistic one, I'm sure of your ability to become my perfect enemy
So, wake up and face me,
Don't play dead cause maybe someday I will walk away and say,
"You disappoint me, Maybe you're better off this way"
> Is the song referring to me? Am I the dead one??? XDD Haha.
Playing Eternal Fighters Zero for more than an hour and Flash Flash Revolution does really bad things to your fingers T___T GAHHH~ I must get back to my artworks~! So far, I’ve been okay and better than ever. My friends are definitely one of the kind. ♥♥♥
She joined the Revolution @ 10:47 pm
December 20 2006, Wednesday
Music: The Only Difference Between Martyrdom and Suicide is Press Coverage - Panic! At The Disco
Koi for the Day: Yellow pa rin
I’m better now. The wagon of depression hit me last night with regards to what is happening with the world, or rather my world. Pondering on things that happen during the afternoon made me irritable because of the film strip of what’s been happening lately and that is somewhat directly pointed at my collegian life.
The issue is that I AM SICK and TRIED of the same mediocre thing everyday at school. SRSLY, I am. And what’s worse is that I have no control of those things that just make me sit back and watch the events roll on, like some bad chick flick. The thing to describe that is: ephemeral pleasure. I swear it is.
And not that I’m being cruel or anything (or perhaps I am) to a certain someone, but lately because of you and what I’m observing about you, I have a complicated view towards Love (as in the relationship thingy) and because of you it is so OVERRATED. And suddenly, I am finding myself more cynical since it seems like there is nothing else but THAT issue.
Gods, some people are really annoying because they can’t help themselves. I know I can be a sympathetic ear to your woes but please I’m seriously, SICK of it. I think I’ll snap when I hear things regarding that. And you bring your confusion and depression upon yourself so easily that it’s your fault that your in that state of “like-oh-my-god-I-dunno-what-to-do” shit.
Shallow laughter for nothing… It’s scary because it’s like being in a clone world of people with the same thing in them. Well, except for a few I guess. And that’s why I miss the Endless and the GXA.
And that’s why VARIETY exists! Variety is lacking this semester that’s why it’s getting me frustrated and mentally tired obsessing about it. I was afraid of this, which I’d fall into this crappy hole and state of “blandness” and … Never mind.
Today: MENTAL NOTE: If I’m going to any place, I should have an allotment of 1 hour travel time (I already know this but why the heck am I always ignoring this? Now I can’t do that). So it’s going to be like if we have to meet at 1, I should leave at 12 or even better, before 12. The weather pressed my patience and I was effin 45 minutes late because there was a bizarre shortage of FX going to Robinsons. I mean, srsly, WTF? And then there was the heavy traffic at Greenhills that nearly sent me gritting the leather seat of the bus because of frustration.Ron-jii got pissed, I know. I arrived around 3 and we were supposed to go to Jilayne’s house in Mandaluyong since her parents wanted to meet the whole barkada. But since some people were late (I included), their parents went out because they couldn’t wait. We ended up hanging in Ron-jii’s house instead. Today we were Ron-jii, Rocky, Jorrence and Patty. And Kuya Michael came in later. It sort of seemed like wrestlemania since Ron-jii was wrestling Jorrence XD Poor kid. He’s like our “little frail boy thing” XDD
Look! This is WOCKY, my little wabbit~! His real name is Wilhelm Leonard Cocteau :) Nyah, Rocky gave it to me a while ago ♥ :D It is his Christmas present for me and it was funny when he gave it since Jorrence and Ron-jii tried to killed him since Rocky didn’t gave them presents XD It was really sweet since it was unexpected (LOL~ If you knew him, he’s not the type to remember or even care of things like these) :D I named him WOCKY because he’s a WABBIT and Rocky gave it :D HAHA ASTIDGZ~
Love those guys so much no matter how cheesy it may sound. They’re definitely stress balls for me :D ♥
It’s a week of dates I guess:
-Thursday/ tomorrow: Date with Kimi, My, Elmo and the guys at Robinsons.
-Friday: Ron-jii’s house to meet with Kuya Tupe for his drawings :D
-Saturday: Cainta visit to Erika.
My brothers and me. Gods, really I am so much WAFU than them XD Srsly, I AM. We manage to smile despite our rooting frustration of the cliff hanger episode of DEATH NOTE and the first OVA of Hellsing.
I feel better obviously. Among other things :3
This may never start
Tearin' out my heart
I'd be your memory
Lost your sense of fear
Feelings disappear
Can I be your memory?
She went with the Revolution @ 10:00 pm
December 15 2006, Friday
Music: All the Things She Said - TATU
Koi for the Day: Yellow pa rin~ X3
HWEE~! Today is happy day because it’s our barkada’s Christmas party! (Well technically they’re my group of friends outside the HS friends and university friends). It was held at our headquarters: Ron-jii’s house! ♥
I was amused because we were definitely a big bunch—a really BIG bunch namely: Ron-jii, the kids (as they are collectively known: Nikki, Jilaine, June and Patty), Kuya Tupe, Kuya Kel the jersey devil, Ate Lobel, Kuya Gerald, Kuya Jett, Kuya Jeff, and Fajah Sonny. And that’s not all because there were late comers such as Kuya Bernard (who came with our food), Rocky, Ate Amy and Jorrence (hwee! The frail boy!)
HAHA~! It was pure CHAOS and Ron’s room was small (smaller than mine) that some of us had to remain at the living room while the rest went on with their YuGiOh Duel and playing Guilty Gear XDD It was really a simple dinner: spaghetti, menudo and biko and some drinks. Yeah, because you know, we were really after the company of each other (HAHA! KESO~!) ♥ :D
I gave my present (well it’s a present for the whole group in general since I didn’t have time to make individual ones) and I’m really glad they all liked it :D They said it was a really sweet touch since it was drawings of my fondest memories with all of them :D ♥♥♥ And those include:
- Ang pag-aadik namin sa SM Megamall (well most recent event was kasama ko si Ron-jii at Kuya Romel at ang kalokohan namin sa food court). Ang astig nga eh since they accompanied me shopping for clothes without any complaints!
- Nightly conversations with Ron-jii (the telephone became my best friend ever since) at ang pagtiyatiyaga niya sa akin at ang aking drama sa buhay habang ako ay naka high sa damo, sulphur or helium. (YEAH! When in dubt, turn to BOTANY~!)
- I met more happy people that I have fun hanging out with most recently: Ravage, Kuya Gerald, Kuya Sonny, Kuya Tupe, Patty, the kids etc.
- I met Rocky and my first DV-Quiapo trip with him and Ron-jii. And also the first time I went to SM Sta. Mesa and to his house. And also the most frequent 3 ways with him and Ron (the 3 of us are the Razor Trio).
- Kuya Michael! The Taguro-look-alike! XDD
- The days i spend in Ron-jii's house with them and so many others~! ♥♥♥
We let the kids watch Battle Royale I to give them a preview of what we’ll do to them if they really piss us off in the most wrong way XDD Well let their heads explode XDD Ate Amy, Nikki and Jilaine left around 7 p.m which was followed by Ate Lobel and then Patty and June (I love you Junie~ :D). We left the gaming addicts at Ron-jii’s room while we were at the living room (June, me, Kuya Gerald, Kuya Tupe, Ron-jii and Rocky) comfortable and having laugh trips~! Oh shit ang adeeek! And while Ron-jii and the rest accompanied the girls outside to go home, I got a fair share of bonding time with Kuya Tupe and his stories in the living room XD
I got home at around 9:20. We have such big plans in the coming dates XD and of course, we’re really looking forward to all of them.
NO PICTURES! >_< What a big BUMMER (Rocky didn’t bring his camera) and too bad Jill and Kuya Jason couldn’t make it~! Well there would be more next times and besides the Christmas vacations is a long one. And oh shit, Kuya Tupe let me borrow Death Note and Hellsing~!!! X3 Gyuu~ It really got me inspired to do his favour~ ♥♥♥ YEAH HYPER MODE ON!!!
I’m really happy today! :D NYEHEHEHE~ among other things XDD NYEHEHE. I love those guys so much~!!! ♥♥♥ And I'm smiling for other things that happened today ^___^ *kilig*
And gods, I still have so many other plans over the week including the baptism of my cousin (wherein I’m a godmother), date with Ate Ana and Chris’ 18th birthday~!!! And tomorrow, my mom and I are going to DV to shop for more clothes! Promise, it’s addicting once you see all of those clothes.
She went with the Revolution @ 10:15 pm
December 12 2006, Tuesday
Music: Rebound - Silent Sanctuary
Koi for the Day: Yellow
New layout people! :) And it's our exams! I really should be reviewing right now
She went with the Revolution @ 3:00 a.m
