December 11, 2008 | Thursday
Music: rich Girl - the Virgins
Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day:
★ NEW MOON MOVIE: A POSSIBLE MASSIVE FAIL? ★
Ugh. Some random news by the way (at least this is better than my rantings on today’s Biochem exams)… Apparently the studio in charge of Twilight’s sequel New Moon is seemingly going to make a crappy movie of what could be another blockbuster or yeah, well, an interesting movie. The main story here is that the studio is rushing the production of the sequel so it can catch up to the hype that going around Twilight and intending on to profit from it. UGH! And according to the rumor mill, the director of Twilight, Ms. Hardwicke, wasn’t fired as some might have heard but she passed taking the job of the sequel’s director since she thought the rushed production schedule just won’t do. And obviously, she saw it’ll be a disastrous one.
Another thing, the producers are planning to get Taylor Lautner off the team because they didn’t feel that he can carry the heftier role Jacob would have in the next film. And another comment about Lautner regarding the sequel: they didn’t feel that Lautner would carry out the same chemistry he’s going to have with Kirsten as it was between Kirsten and Rob. On Rob and Kirsten’s chemistry, it was fantastic and you could really feel some electricity there. Hmm, there are rumors about Kirsten and Rob… well, they’re getting along off-screen more than expected despite Kirsten having a boyfriend. That’s absolutely fine with me, since they do make a hot and interesting couple. And between Taylor and Kirsten, honestly, there’s little. Or Lautner needs to really get out whatever he has and show it. And that factor is vital for the sequel since the premise of New Moon is Bella is in love with Edward, he leaves then she falls in love with someone else and then the first guy appears. In this case, on screen chemistry is important to make the whole thing convincing… if not, all else FAILS. On that note, I hope they don’t replace the original cast (oh good god, NOT CARLISLE and JASPER!) because I actually think the original cast is strong and definitely had some good chemistry in between them.
They better not fuck this up no matter what, that’s all I’m saying. The only book I read in the whole series is New Moon and now, I’m armed with expectations. Seriously, if the studio is rushing the production and not even taking their time to put more effort in this, they’re going to be screwed. There’s going to be a massive outcry from all places in the world I tell you. I haven’t read all the books in the series and because of that, I’m counting on the visionary efforts of the people who’re going to make it live action! Do they even realize a crucial role they’re going to play? I'm sure the fan base agrees on waiting for a long time to ensure quality over quantity!
December 10, 2008 | Wednesday
Music: One Week of Danger - the Virgins
Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day:
★ Art Imitating Life (?) Anyway I love the Virgins! ★
She pressed my lips, she said this won't last long
But she's always avoiding falling in love
Yes, it's due to a life of a private affair
- A Private Affair, The virgins
... bwahaha *evillaughterechoesinthebackground* ANYWAY, I love the Virgins! They're an indie band from New York (my future home) and I happened to stumble upon them in Myspace. I'm very glad I did~ It's so ironic how they named themselves the Virgins when they're songs reek of 'make-outs' and sexy encounters or just basically the sound they make are so hot. Very, very cool band. Check them out here.
December 6, 2008 | Saturday
Music:
Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day:
★ R's Blubrs on Happiness Related to Things She Considers YUM ★
Photograph by the beautiful Nadya Lev, who’s beautiful as the photographs she makes. In my desktop, I have a folder filled with various kinds of fetish photography acquired from all over the internet, such as the one pictured above. They get the hype in me started and that I need for drawing. And this particular photograph I featured, called the Widow, just recently inspired me to jump into that idea of post-apocalyptic beauties and the idea of flagrant futurism that’s been buzzing in my head lately. The few drawings I’ve been dabbling upon have been the ‘playing safe sketches’ of mine that has laces, ribbons, animals, girls with doll eyes, tossed around the paper. And other than those, just mindless drawings of people I know. I haven’t had a chance to get back with myself and get all that crazy Revolution on paper. Things for me in this sense have been going nowhere. Thank you for people around the world and the power of the time we live in (STS lectures, much?). SRSLY, we aren’t stuck in this small box anymore. I personally view it as not being confined to a small box of my varied interests; a small cube of art, among many other things. The interweb surely has it going on despite the world being so srsly crazy. This way, I feel I’m so blessed, thank the gods. Thank you for being able to be visual, interweb audience of the flux of culture every now and then, here and there. But I have to say I love my comfort zone, located on the fringes of the tedious mainstream web and I’m so, so happy to stay there keeping myself satiated.
YEY for latex, PVC, leather and dystopian-ish tie ins in clothes! There’s something strangely engaging about them, other than being provocative. The constraining elements (manifested in the clothes or other accessories for the lack of clothing) give a very visceral and sensual impact on me. Pictures like this leave me imagining the wonderfully intense experience that it could bring to your senses—possible smells of sweat and high grade plastics mixing to be really nauseating and fascinating at the same time. Great stuff, great stuff!
ACRGHHHHH! A BEARBRICK EVANGELION! I WANT ONE NAO~! D: This makes me all the more excited to attend the annual Collectibles Convention on the 22th of this month. A while ago, I’ve been going around the malls (SM Megamall & Shnagri-La) mentally noting prospect buys. I’m going to spend some of my birthday money on collectibles and I’m firm on that decision. The Toy Convention earlier this year, I made a huge mistake of not bringing my birthday money and missing the chance of buying those McFarlane toys. Oh well, I’m aiming for purty toys. I see a Lelouch PVC model sitting on top of my desk… in a future not so far away 8D
December 6, 2008 | Saturday
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Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day:
★ TWENTEEN FOR CHIRS & CHRISTINE!★
Today is a very happy day! We celebrated Chris and Christine’s TWENTEEN birthday with a dinner at Tratorria’s Gourmet in Shang-ri La. It was yeyness today because yesterday I had my first stress breakdown for the second semester and that stupid FNCP thing that left me saying so many curses. But everything turned out okay for today at school and a very good way to end the day was dinner with fun people with awesome food. I’ll share some pictures of our food. We actually a lot but I didn’t manage to get pictures of them since we were laughing, eating and talking all at the same time.
Look it’s Red Snapper with shrimp and mashed potatoes with yummy sauce! :D
One of the two tiramisu cakes we had. Try their tiramisu! It’s really heaven especially when you feel the biscotti crumble in your mouth. The other cake we had was the cheesecake and it was a compliment courtesy of the restaurant since Chris and Christine were the celebrants.
Click to see a picture of us. Haha.
I’m excited this holiday season~ we’ve already sort of began to plan on our gimmicks these holiday season!
December 1, 2008 | Monday
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Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day:
★ Twilight: The Movie Aftermath ★
Okay, so I just finished watching Twilight earlier this afternoon. Overall, it was a good movie but I didn’t consider it in an “awesome” level kinda way. It was a fairly good movie and a decent adaptation of the book and I do like it. Though I have to say I expected a lot and I expected to like it more but it would do. For the scenes of Edward and Bella, I pretty much LOL-ed. Especially their ‘awkward’ scenes and I was kind of tense for RPatz if he could pull it off and actually embody that Edward Cullen everyone has their minds on. I have to say, the movie would’ve made a much more impact if there was more effort on acting. It was obvious, really. I’m not a fan of cheesy lines and those guys actually saying it in the movie, hmm… Delivering cheesy lines need a degree of ‘care’ since if you don’t do it well, it won’t have much of an effect and it’d be lame. Oh RPatz, I like you but when you said those lines it just didn’t work for me at all. Well, except the “you’re my brand of heroin” line. Sure, there were gushes here and there from the movie house but come on… it lacked sincerity we have to admit that.
I love KStew. Gods, she’s my newest girl crush. And I absolutely love the part when she and RPatz walk in the school lot while the rest of the students were eyeing them and they look such a pretty hot couple. Oh yeah, I actually love those mouth movements RPatz made and wearing those Ray Bans. GOD it felt so, so right! EHEM EHEM ANYWAAAAY… Bella in the book was more vulnerable and in a sense sort of needy but not in a very annoying kind of way. And KStew, wow… She gave Bella Swann another new dimension: being a tough, defiant girl. Well, KStew is actually boyish and had fierceness in her that kind off came across Bella’s character. I loved it though… I thought Bella would be more passive but noooo~ KStew had that aura about her in the character of Bella that despite the front of being confused and vulnerable in way, she had that in-control attitude and strength. I liked the angst KStew brought into Bella. I actually liked the dark feelings that the movie had; I think it was handled very well.
Other characters? I have to commend the casting for James and Victoria. Those actors had that quality in them that made them fitting to be the ferocious Nomadic vampires. They had this aura that clearly emitted something inimical. I have to say though, I wanted James to have a more cool ending. The actor really delivered on that fight scene (my favourite scene in the movie, fucking wicked) and it was rough, it was brutal, it was cool and the climax really built up from there. The fight scene was too short (my friend and I discussed that the producers were probably ‘restraining’ to do more violent scenes since the audience, there’ll be an expected attendees of viewers less than 13 year olds) and it could've been really the shit, if it was more… complex and minutes longer. Jacob just faded from the background with the other Cullens apprehending him and killing him away from the audience’s eyes. Hmm… The character I laughed at was actually Jasper. I actually think Jasper was very, very adorable looking with that stern face of his and that unruly blonde hair. RAWR~ I love hair like that and RPatz’s as well. Anyway, the actor who played Jasper gave a very funny expression. He looked shocked, confused, slightly annoyed and even choking with those big eyes that were intently staring. He look kinda petrified or had a pain in the tummy. SRSLY! Was it to express Jasper’s character as the Cullen who had the least control of his feeding desires? Hmm… BUT, I did love the chemistry between the actors playing Jasper and Alice. Very, very appropriate and there was a sign of love there and Alice, she was actually very cute but then I did think she’d be shorter.
Oh yes… DOCTOOOOORRR~ FCKMEH srsly and I could say a lot of inappropriate things regarding Peter Facinelli as Carlisle Cullen. I’d sure want to be adopted by the Cullens experience being petted on the head or being touched on the neck with affection by Carlisle. And that flashback scene with Carlisle and Edward, it fucking turned me on. I have to emphasize that: fucking turned me ON! I’d be Edward that time with Carlisle beside me, biting me. And when that doctor smiles… It was embarrassing because I was so noisy in my seat and the people around us were like noticing the small ruckus I made. God when he smiled. And that shit right there at the baseball scene. God when SMBH was playing in the background and because Carlisle resemble someone I love very much (and think of… things—sorry mattifoo~), it was the most RIGHT thing for me.
KStew looks so hot. Other people say she looks like Rumer Willis. It’s probably because of her jawline but no, Rumer Willis’ has a more prominent one and it's really not proportional to Rumer's face. And I’m strangely attracted to KStew and the whole attitude she’s giving. RPatz and her look great together and though they aren’t dating in real life, I’m guessing they’re good friends. I could imagine both of the getting drinks in some bar and getting pretty crazy.
I could say other things by the use of MUSE’s music in the movie. Am I happy? Not exactly. I was thinking that SMBH is going to be used for the make-out scene between Bella and Edward (it was hot, that scene but it’ll be hotter it was more appropriate music) but using it in that wicked baseball scene, it was ok. BUT I do have sentiments. Ugh. I could drabble on about it but that’s for another day and I HAVE Biochemistry that needs to be tackled first. I don’t want to go to school tomorrow!
November 27, 2008 | Thursday
Music: INSIDE OF YOU - ART-SCHOOL
Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day:
★ ART (i)S(ch)OOL! ★
Other than Veltpunch, I’ve found a new love~ Yes, new loves in R’s life keep depression and more gloominess away! Yey for moosic!(〜￣▽￣)〜 They’re called Art School and they’re from the indie J-music scene. They have this intensity in their songs but that doesn’t include those complicated guitar tricks (which I admit I also love, but once in while you need something more raw, with less layers and layers of detail). They have their own charm and I feel their sound isn’t ‘commercialized’. I have a crush on the vocals—the voice of the vocalist, yes. It’s not the perfect versatile voice that actually hits the high notes and it does crack a bit, but it’s really good. It’s like running my palms to the smooth cotton bed sheet on a cool day and how the cloudy day looks like when you’re with a baby faced teenage boy who smokes, way too early for his age and he smirks at you. I actually don’t know how to explain it but I get images inside of my head when I listen to him sing（*＾〜＾*） It’s pretty difficult rummaging through the web of J-music and actually finding something good these days. I’m was ecstatic to find an album of theirs and this was ILLMATIC BABY. It’s definitely catchy alternative rock—not in a pop-punk kind of way. They threw in a bit of electronic, synths, trippy-ness and a very touching ballad in there. It’s my first time listening to them and they impressed me. I’m working hard to rummage through some stuff of theirs online, if I’m lucky. Here’s one of their songs (which I love and have been playing at stressful Biochem classes), Illmatic Baby.
November 26, 2008 | Wednesday
Music: Illmatic Baby - ART-SCHOOL
Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day:
★ Vinyl Makes Me Happy ★
Things that make R happy and forget her life at the moment (stress, stress, tension, stress, depression~): TOYS! I love, love looking at them so much especially the new generation of vinyl toys coming out now. It’s in me to spend so much more on books and clothes than with other things like TOYS! I guess I should start having another separate piggy bank for my vinyl toy expenses. ME WANT THESE NAONAONAO!o(>< )o ｏ( ><)o
The whole Moofia set by Tokidoki! Yey for milk lovers!LOVE★⌒ヾ(￣〓￣ヾ)
And let’s not forget Carina and the kyoot Cactus Pups!
Σ(●ﾟдﾟ●) Look at this! I just saw this randomly on Google and god, how wicked is this Kubrick-style Alien micro toy?! See how sparkly and cute that is? This is probably the one I want the most out of all these
Tokidoki collabs with Devilrobots to produce these new line of vinyl robots~ I love the blue one
I covet these Mimobots! Are they even available here in Manila? Nyuu~ I’m thinking of buying another USB and I want these purty things as my USB!(*^^*)ﾎﾟｯ
CLICK to see them~ And of course, the DUNNY! Comes in so many, many various designs! I once saw a Dunny that was based on Abe Lincoln and I LUL-ed~ It was too cute!(*￣▽￣*)
LUUUK LUUUK LUUUUUK AT THEM~ I want all of them Gloomy Bears (￣▽￣*)~ woot woot
Picture taken from here. Polly Pockets—the ‘old-school’ ones than the versions that are coming out now. I think the new version of the Polly Pockets doesn’t suit the toy name anymore and they became, grander and larger. I love these things! I had one back in 4th grade, I think and it was hotel one that was shaped like a pencil case. I used to make ‘house extensions’ by using Legos. The play set isn’t with me now since I gave it away (I guess I shouldn’t have done that) and I really miss playing with it. I have to admit it was terribly cute and kept me behaved at home. It feels so nostalgic~(=^-^)
November 24, 2008 | Monday
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Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day:
★ ★
Thoughts for today: I’m probably like this because I miss Herr Lord STFN. If Lestat had his ideas of beings or materials that epitomizes a transcending Beauty on his Savage Garden, then I have my own only this time it’s physical absence has caused me total disregard of it’s existence anymore. It gets difficult trying to recapture something again, most especially if they’re ideas, memory, thought. They’re not enough. And if I had been some demon sent from the pits of hell, called by the blood of a mortal screaming for a pact, I’d gladly be that… (no, not a butler like my Sebby) maid (?) for my master (given that my master is that person).
Today has been pretty sabaw lately. I’m rather thankful our R.L.E has been productive (at last!) given that this is our last meeting before the prelim period and we just rushed so many things in 6 hours of lecture (and we still have topics that need to be discussed). Tedious hours of lecture just make me… cringe and twitch and loose it. The prof has been bitchy but he’s seriously good and demanded our undivided attention. After that period of undivided attention with nursing theories, terms, important things to remember and what knot, my head hurt. I barely could keep up with Asian Civ if it wasn’t for some random ideas coming to my head due to our prof. Our Asian Civ prof (in a very smart cardigan look) mentioned something about using people as your resources, as means of meeting your end despite your morals and values. I remember myself, my Lareighne, the Other Side of the Mirror. I remember Lelouch, that cunning warlock, that emperor (he’s not a fallen emperor you haterz!), that genius… I miss Lelouch. I feel like I could only actually consider myself worthy and actually good if my mind worked like his. I hate myself at this exact moment. I feel rather stupid and empty. I feel so dumb. I need something new; I need someone else that’s frustrating and refreshing at the same time. If it was so easy to translate myself in words, this ugly, ugly, mad longing and unhappiness. I would love to rage and wring someone in the neck and choke out of him his knowledge so I can have it for myself. I could probably kill someone for it if I could. So many things I would love to do as a relief and a liberation for this life right now.
November 19, 2008 | Wednesday
Music: Icky Thump - The White Stripes
Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day:
★ I'm the King's Bishop ★
Your result for The Chess Mess Test...
The King's Bishop
Congrats! Only 3-4% of the population score this!
To others, the King’s Bishop projects confidence. This can be mistaken for arrogance; but its source is easy to find. From an early age most of the King’s Bishops are specialized in their knowledge. When it comes to an area of expertise the King’s Bishop has several. They can know immediately if they can help you and how. They know what they know, but more importantly they know their limits.
This Bishop is a perfectionist. They will always attempt to improve upon anything of interest. They have an unusual independence of mind which frees them from authority, convention or sentiment. Anyone who is slacking will lose respect – and be made aware of this. The King’s Bishop can be secretive when making critical decisions. However they are even-handed and will recognize contributions others give.
This Bishop is highly ideal with their goals. They attempt to pursue high degree of quality in solutions and can be critical of ideas that compromise this quality. Because of their unwillingness to accept ‘good enough’ they can be unrealistic. They are at their best when they have time to think through a problem, at which point they may have a plan to solve the dilemma. The King's Bishop is an individual with a very analytical attitude. They are like the Queen's Rook, in that they prefer the ascetic quality of solitude. They are not as sociable as others, but are quite prepared to lead if they deem the current leadership as weak. They are thankfully pragmatic and logical individuals. They have very low tolerance for emotional rampaging or the spinning of 'truths'.
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★ So far ★
Finally things are turning out well at school but I’m still annoyed with some people. Monday started out pretty well and we were greeted by this professor, who’s actually considerate, responsible and gives us that kind of respect and approach that those n00b clinical instructors we had 2 weeks ago didn't do. The only thing that ticks me off is WHY NOW? We could have had a decent C.I two weeks ago and why is the school being so screwy in appointing the instructor when they perfectly know it’s the start of the 2nd semester (and honestly, students do think that it’s shit falling behind)?
I have another professor and it’s the first time I became a student of his and he’s… interesting. There’s something that’s going on in that elusive façade, something fun, something of a crazy—like me. And he knows THINGS—things that interest me as a student. I think my classmates find him rather stiff, boring and intimidating—which he actually is but when he started to talk, he’s pretty much ok but I guess the rest of the class’ perspective didn’t change much. Obviously, students are looking for instructors that have a vivacious quality in them that makes tedious subjects fun and worthwhile. For some people, he’s not close to that description. But I think he’s interesting and I do appreciate him. I find him rather funny—gawd, is watching an orgy a virtuous act, he asked. And strangely though, he reminds me of someone *sigh* These actions probably reflect my need of someone to feather with my ink with, a reason for my twilight shufflings on paper, books and inside my head. I’m being needy again, am I?
November 17, 2008 | Monday
Music: Club Foot - Kasabian
Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day:
★ What Would Riza be like if she was a BOY ★
I had such a fun dream btw, a few days ago. I was a BOY! Yes, I was a boy in my dream with short, shaggy hair with a fringe and it was dyed in a deep coppery color. I was in this photoshoot of sorts and looking at everyone else in that place, they were wearing steam punk inspired clothes. Steam-punk inspired clothes, of all clothes and I was wearing it too! There was a moment I walked towards a mirror and I fixed my short hair. I still looked pretty much the same but with a more angular shaped face and I was thinner than my body physique now and taller too. I had this leather cap on with goggles in it and I looked like a boy from the Victorian era with a dash of the future with clock works around my vest and my brass cuff pins and buttons resembling bolts. And there was this girl with me and from her looks, she was my kind of girl if I were to date girls and I’m not sure if we were a couple but she was in her steam-punk dress, with frills and a beautiful corset with machineries and ribbons and she kissed me. It was just WOW.
And it made me think: what would I be like if I was the opposite sex? If I was a boy, I would have deep black hair (but then I’d dye it to various colors and I would never grow my hair long) and I’d have tattoos on me—on my back and on my nape and I’d have a lot of ear piercings. I’d be taller than my height right now, thinner and stronger. I’d probably be paler. I'm that laid back kind of guy, who's quiet but has a lot to say. I don't have a lot of friends because I'm kind of reclusive but I really LOVE those close to my heart. In relationships, I would shun commitment, but have a lot of girls and probably drive them crazy because I’m more temperamental and in love with the world and leave them behind. I’d probably be a musician and if I had a band I’d be the one who writes the lyrics and play the bass. And I’d be into playing instruments more like the violin (electric and classical) and cello. I would often go at lives, gigs and meet girls (who look like baby dolls, nerdy, a bit crazy and have excellent fashion sense) and be a flirt and charming and drink a lot more than I do right now. I would probably shower girls with a lot of kisses.
I would still be a bookworm and I’d probably have more freedom to go to anywhere I want and stay out later than usual. I would still have a blog and a journal where I could probably write my conquests in and rant about ditzy girls. I’d be more into sports—probably swimming and try fencing as well. In my closet, I would have an extensive collection of cardigans, plaid shirts, skinny jeans, cardigans, vests, Oxford shoes, sneakers, leather boots and hats. I'd definitely be GEEKY & NERDY. I would have a part time job and probably would have taken Philosophy or Psychology and would have insomnia. I’d probably have a ref in my room and have a stack of good wine and tequila. I’d be more passionate about video games and I would still love anime but I’d have more figurines all over my room. I’d still DRAW and love art so much. And I’d probably be bisexual. HAH!
Would YOU date me or be my FRIEND, if that was the case?
And this is what I'd most likely wear CLICK ME
November 14, 2008 | Friday
Music: Taikai no Maitsuki - Veltpunch
Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day:
★ VELTPUNCH ★
I’m so fond of this j-music band I discovered through the anime Nabari no Ou. They’re called Veltpunch and they’re pretty much a huge band in the indie scene in Japan. And now the 3-member band made me fall in love with them! Hidenori Naganuma (guitar, vocals), Taisuke Endoh (drums, scream) and Aiko Nakajima (bass, vocals) comprise this band that delivers a melange of soothing, upbeat and tight sounds. Recently, they've added a new member to their band: Seiji Himeno who's in charge of the guitar and chorus. I’m so happy I came across them since when it comes to J-music, I tend to be a creature of habit and stick close to those I’ve tested and proven over the years and I rarely have interesting finds on J-music lately. And then came Veltpunch.
Almost everybody raves about “Crawl” and it’s indeed deserving of the rave because it sounds so fresh, melodic and catchy, if you need that upbeat hype. Though I try not to listen to it lately since I’ve been playing it constantly on repeat since Nabari was released and I’m afraid of getting tired of it. But it’s ok since I got to download some of their albums. Veltpunch’s question no.13 album is pretty wicked and I love it. It has… how do you, substance? I guess that’s the word to describe the overall feeling once you listen to their refreshing songs. I have it on my iPod and listen to it most of the time especially at school whenever I’m so bored and I want to let my mind wonder. I can’t help but sing along, but you know I try not to in public because some people might find it weird that I’m singing in some language they’re not familiar with. But they’re really good and I’m smitten by them. I’m pretty much into their use of multiple vocals. One of their songs in their ‘A Huge Mistake' album called Cheap Disco “13 steps” showcases a terrific combination of male screams and then countered by the smooth, sweet voice of Nakajima-san and then moving to a steady flow of Naganuma-san’s cool, melodic voice. Veltpunch has songs that really stand out like Teenage Dirty Punks from their ‘White Album’ (the song makes me really, really melancholic yet it’s comforting), my place from their ‘White Album’ (Nakajima-san has such a darling voice against that sharp guitar playing but it WORKS!) and Toriton—both the demo and the album version (an instant favourite though I was a little bothered with that “Ode to Joy” instrumental at first but then it started to grow on me).
I love that distinct sounds they have that I think displays perfect compliment and melding between the bass and the guitar and yet they maintain this dissonant quality (not sure if it’s the perfect word to use though) that makes them have an edge. I also notice there are some sudden shifts of the pace of the tone that’s quite unexpected but it still works and mostly lead to a pleasant feel. I really dig them a lot and I’m pretty excited to listen to their new album Paint your Life Gray, which is out now (you can buy CDs in CD Japan but I’ll try to look for some mp3s).
Here’s a sample of their songs and this one is called “ROOM” and I enjoy this since its upbeat, catchy and basically a feel good song. I love the bass line in this and the vocals fit it perfectly. I listen to this mostly whenever I’m walking along the road, probably in EDSA or in the San Juan area.
November 11, 2008 | Tuesday
Music: ROOM - Veltpunch
Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day:
★ Psychiatric Session: Part 2 ★
L.A Sentiments: You stand in front of the mirror and see me. It’s not always one-way, remember that because I see you too and lately, the feeling has been like when you’re really thirsty and rushed to the ref and drank milk and it tasted… sour. When the fuck did that happen to me? To us? A feeling that when you put visually is like blood dropping into water, the scattering thin trail of it looking like a tadpole and then all you see is that brown red liquid. Infected, heavy, misplaced in the pristine, regular life—your order of things, my order of things. But ironically, it is I you thrive on for life (being misplaced, being lovely while doing it, being happier with a different edge than most people) and you’re being a twat, overlooking me for a while. I fucking hate you, disregarding the whirlwind of chaos and fun that’s going to come about if you just let me be, be a less control freak that you are not. Preventing life flowing to your fingers so you can dance, cry, sing without being cautious, being realistic, remembering our limitations of being human—you make me sick. You can’t live this way, choking down yourself, barring things, you’ve lost a lot and being the spineless twat that you are can’t even making a single fucking effort to satisfy me. To spit out satisfaction and turn away. You spit on our love, darling.
A.H Sentiments: There’s an immense fear rising up ever since I started to associate hate with our love, and a name and everything that gravitates towards that person. The aching throb of our fingertips still come, a memory comes flashing in summer colors of green, gray, blue, yellow, pink and the purest of sunlight that were present on those days. Our love for big words was put to the test with things that we lovingly and diligently wrote on paper, chronicling a memory in order not to be forgotten, our goal of transcendence over time and a sea of people going to be buried as they are dead and no one talks about them anymore. You were a driving force like no other, a package gods happened to give that was a part of life I once never knew and now I still carry, with the things I’ve learned. I was ambitious; we were ambitious and days and nights past and what we could only have is the idea we play inside our brains so we can hear a person’s voice, so we can say in the farthest places in the world inside us how much we loved. Now, we cannot ever HATE what is to close, what is to end. We cannot purge something where we have been most happy. The fear stemming out from this shouldn’t be there as it’s always a part of you that you’ll remember surely and you’ll smile, we’ll smile. But now, there’s just this melancholy you can’t pluck out and it's ok, let me bask in this because this may never come again.
★ Quiz ★
Right now, you feel very trapped in your life. You often feel like there is no way out of your rut. Click HERE to see the rest of the quiz results.
And surprisingly, most of these are true for me at the moment *sigh*
★ Random: POLYVORE ★
HAH! New layout because I can! Anyway I just joined POLYVORE, which is an interesting site and it allows you to make a set of outfits 8D I tried to make my first set and I thought of this because I’m going to visit a friend over the weekend and this is something I’d most likely wear.
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November 9, 2008 | Sunday
Music: Sex Changes - Dresden Dolls
Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day: J. Irons
★ The Time for Divine Intervention in R’s Life ★
I immensely like our professor in Health Care lecture and she gave us this prayer that was for nursing students. After reading the prayer, it’s obvious that the prayer was designed to recite during our time of worse shit and desperation and self-destruction when worse comes to worse and when the going gets beyond tough this semester. I actually quite like the prayer and as a person who rarely prays seriously (and takes her dogma of her religion not so seriously) I’m actually motivated to pray. But seriously people, I never had this portentous feeling before—the Dark Days are definitely coming! This is serious and I’m honestly scared shitless but I’m also excited at the same time. I’ll share the prayer with you guys:
Lord, I know we go through this everyday but please give me knowledge as to why I actually wanted to go to nursing school. Lord, give me the strength to make it through those boring three hour lectures without falling asleep. Lord, please give me the patience to make it through out 12 hour clinical with instructors that just can’t give you the right answer and on the same note, give the nurses the ability to remember what it was like to be a student and give us a little more respect. Lord, give me the endurance to read all the assigned readings and be able to remember it when I am taking a test with four right answers. Lord, give my family and friends the ability to realize I really am on the edge of insanity. Finally, Lord, give me the vision to see that one day I will be a real nurse and I will never have to wear this ugly uniform again.
AMEN INDEED! This is so cool. It’s like, I’m the one who’s actually talking here! YEY for our professor! I think she would be able to make the semester productive for me.
★ love ★
God, look those creases and lines, deepened by age and god, those beautiful hands. They’re… fcking beautiful that it makes me ache a little, SRSLY. That smirk—he owns me like he owns a lot of people’s hearts across the globe without him knowing it. Jeremy Irons IS my Humbert Humbert! I’d run away with him, let him pick me up randomly if there was a chance like that and I’d be completely lost in him. He’s the balm to a certain frustration & the supplement for a kind of happiness I’m looking for *sigh* I actually don’t care about age when it comes to these things and with him, age really doesn’t matter. Wait—a really happy idea came across my mind: he’s perfect as the old Van Veen! TANGINANG YAN! If Ada or Ardor is going to be a movie—shit, I need to live to see that with HIM playing the elderly Van Veen! I think I just creamed at that idea. Just look at him in
this picture. If you’re going to be converted and prefer older men (like me), go with him.
November 7, 2008 | Friday
Music:Mr. Gravedigger - David Bowie
Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day:
★ The Definition of UNFORTUNATE ★
I have classes on Saturdays from 9 to 6 p.m. and so far, for the first week of school I’m feeling pretty much secured with my class which is a big relief of that stressed feeling and bouts of depression in my gut. I’m happy and as far as I’m concerned, I think facing this stressful and crucial semester with all kinds of happy and positivity (yes, yes—I’m driving away my sarcasm and cynicism... for now) in your perspective is important. Though I’m not expecting I’m going to be sane for the most part; I need that insanity and twitches here and there to survive in my own way. And would still rant of course and bring out profanity regarding really horrible days. And I’ll get by everyday doodles of my professors in the most unflattering and sick manner (curse them if they become buttholes too much). School is great, great, great but not in level with “Muse-fandom-awesome” kinda great. Have I made sense in the past few sentences? But anyway, yes I have classes on the weekend: Friday and Saturday, which is fine (surprisingly I took it well when I got my schedules) since the idea of making the most of my academic life is important. And then hours ago, the Gods Above and Below proved not to be on my side. This is what I looked like if you caught me in class:
As my good friend said when the news came: “THIS is the definition of unfortunate” and all I could think of is my weekends are screwed. And another look came to emphasize my feelings on the way to start a weekend:
It’s massive FAIL, people! I have to say this briefly, to say no more: I don’t like my professors. Fuck me V.N! I’d resurrect you from the dead to have you rather than them! And *manic laugh* I just LOVE MOTs!
★ Current Issue: Anti-Gay Legislation Passed ★
It seems like the anti-gay legislation passes in the U.S. I’m immensely disappointed to hear these results and though it may seem like this issue is in the U.S alone, it really goes way beyond that. The success of constitutional amendments written to deny two people who love each other equal rights and recognition under the law is depressing. Now, there’s a defeat in our human rights. The main argument is the validation of LOVE and it’s only a small part of the issue. Legally, marriage comes with legal rights and privileges that you don’t get, if not. See the constitutions/ legal laws of countries all over. I think the right to be able to sponsor your spouse a citizenship if they haven’t got it is included in that. We are gearing towards something new in our times and the future is coming in fast and I really think it’s about time to look past social prejudices and dubious moral obligations to uphold something (not just for the US but in the world) as fundamental to our world as equality and civil rights each one deserves.
★ INSOMNIA by Rose Lemberg ★
At sunset all my thoughts are meshed into a gray
anxiety of streets perused by light,
the future sputters, dies, it doesn't matter.
I wrap myself in cashmere scarves of breath
and button up the old incomprehension,
Walk out. Between the river in the alleyways
the beast of dreams rotates inside my silence,
the ancient sphinx rotates the universe.
And every night he calls me by the name,
The sounds are bolts that hold my bridges solid,
The sounds are bolts that fall away from me
Exposing hope. A step will take me through
To older skies, where weeds embrace all worries,
And music melts my sleep into the bone.
Caressed by time, I linger by that door,
Caressing time, I let the silence answer,
I let the silence reinterpret my regrets
And trap my thoughts inside its viscous amber,
And spill them easy all along the Milky Way.
His sandstone paws translate the night for me
into the city and its dreamy argot,
And it no longer matters to be free.
-she caught me~ i loff this poem
November 5, 2008 | Wednesday
Music:Miss lady - hitomi Takahashi
Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day: jwee~ :)
At dahil malapit na ang PASKO at trip ko lang mag-post ng ganito… Wala lang. BWAHAHA. Libre nga lang naman mangarap :P
★ My Wishlist ★
- MANALO SA LOTTO
- Mga accessories galing sa FRED FLARE tulad nito, nito, nito, nito
- Isang pair ng Converse All Star Hi White Rainbow IMAGE
- Isang pair ng Converse Rainbow Heart print IMAGE
- Creative Zen Vision LINK
- Damit galing kay Lauren Moshi kasi sobrang GANDA ng apparel nila~ CATALOGUE
- Magkaroon ng short sleeved jacket tulad nito: IMAGE
- Mga t-shirts sa GRANIPH
- Unlimited shopping spree na rin sa H.NAOTO at sa Hiromichi Nakano Children at BlueCross Girls IMAGE
- Plaid na pantalon tulad nito IMAGE
- Maganda na bag na pang-alis at pang-school na kamukha nito ,nito at nito.
- LAHAT ng graphics novels ni Neil Gaiman na wala ako
- Mga libro ni V. Nabokov na wala pa ako
- Shopping spree sa mga bookstore upang hanapin ang mga libro na gusto ko na di ko na maalala sa sobrang dami
- Maka-date si jwee~ XD
- PRIVATE JET
- BAGONG BAHAY
This is mainly the things I want NOW XD I still want a lot of things like anime figurines from Figma and a lot of clothes and stuff that satisfies the geek in me. So yeah, this wishlist would probably get updated. HAHA
November 3, 2008 | Monday
Music:Daft Punk is Playing at my House - LCD Soundsytem
Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day: jwee~ :)
★ Vania's Art ★
First of all, this man named Vania Z. makes my heart leap to extraordinary heights. His art is so LUSH that t makes me want to sleep with it! His art looks like what I feel most of the time and that’s all there is to it. He's one heck of a genius that I recently discovered~ He makes me feel blessed to have eyes(*￣▽￣*)
★ 2nd Sem officially started~ ★
(/・0・) HEY〜 First day of classes since the much loved sem break. It was obvious that the whole class’ minds were still suffering from the sweet comforts of the ‘relaxed’ atmosphere we came from （￣ー￣）MEH~ What do you expect anyway? We have a new set of clinical instructions, which I suspect are slave drivers and for one class there would be 5 clinical instructors handling it. So far we met our two professors—both lanky people and so far, a bore with not much enthusiasm or that extra hint of fun I wanted for a prof. It made me miss my former C.Is. Sure, I mean they were really strict but they had that humor and it was evident when you first look at them (with the exception of Ma’am Balasabas because she seemed like the strict, monster veteran C.I at first). I really, really like my section. They seem like my kind of people and besides, I’m with my friends! HAH! Now I won’t feel so emo about stressful days and the feeling of being so far, far from my people of comfort. YEY! (in some occasions though, I prefer the company of Setsuna F. Seiei’s adorable presence in my head to console me and make me feel CUTE BWAHAHA). I do have a PRETTY STRESSFUL schedule: I have classes from Monday to Saturday with dismissals ending from late afternoons to 6 pm. BOO~! But I can’t deny I’m pretty motivated by this challenge. Makes me look less like a slacker! HAH!
★ Blurbs ★
The film market here fails! I’m pertaining to those movie stores. I just don’t know or it’s just me because I have mostly an obscure taste (strangely to me, they’re the finer things in life). I’m not sure if I could turn to the internet for those sharing groups. I tend to hate streaming. I haven’t found the Cabinet of Doctor Caligari or Haxan (ach! I found one copy in the tiangge and I DIDN’T buy it!) yet and that movie by Mou Tun Fei (I forgot the title) but it tackled about the bizarre experiments that the Japanese performed on war victim across Asia… I don’t want to buy online, that’s for sure.
October 27, 2008 | Monday
Music:Siam Shade VIII B-Side Collection album - Siam Shade
Book: memnoch the Devil - A. rice | Koisuru for the day: jwee~ :)
★ I'm a MUSE-Y ★
Dearest Bells, Dommeh & Chwish
It’s awfully been quiet without new releases from you guys. No, no don’t get me wrong I still cream over those initial Muse-sounds you made during the Hullabaloo era (including your B-sides) to the epic hit that was BH&R. I don’t get tired of them and practically listen to them in the humid and boring environment where I’m stuck. I guess you heard about a hundred million times already how freaking awesome is your music and how it makes people like me feel the need to escape by getting on some space ship, UFO, whatever and drive off at full speed into space and probably drive into a supermassive blackhole for the sheer adrenaline and absolute ecstasy that it is… Or that’s just me. BUT ANYWAY, you get my drift with that. There has been some buzz and unrest regarding the condition of the three of you blokes. We could all just sigh and remember you fondly in our own way and be so CONSIDERATE by not demanding some new from you right away. I’m trying my best not to go cuckoo—not to submit to HYSTERIA, pretend to be some valiant Knight of someone, sing Stockholm Syndrome in an operatic voice and … GAAAH. I WANT TO SEE SOMETHING NEW FROM YOU GUYS! *snaps* Anything! Pictures, demos, crack vids, ANYTHING to keep this sort of dementia at bay. You know guys, you make me feel that state of Bliss and I’m Invincible, knowing you’re there and the three of you electrifies my life and you’ll never fade away… You still have me under this curse~ a Hoodoo CURSE! *sigh* I WANT IT NOOOOOOOOOW~ I FEEL MY HEART IMPLODEEEEEEE~!
P.S. Say Hello to Morgan. I hope he's fine~ And yeah~ Uh, just take your time with new stuff. This is just an outburst. I know you guys could do it :D – rz, a rabid fan
★ makes me go DOKIDOKI-suru yo~ ★
Just to say, meh beb is so cute. BWAHAHA. The cutest man in the world! HWEE~! Those amazingly puffed, fat cheeks and… GAH. I could go on and on about this.