April 23 2006 @ 1:44pm
Music: Sound of Glay talking in a Music Station Interview
Koi for the day: Jiro. Jiro. Jiro. Jiro!
"She was his and only his. It was a shame, he thought, that she couldn’t claim him as her own, even in the most sensible part of her mind. " - Addiction, Arisa Heilingest
Jiro let me eat your heart out. Please. 3 days of hunger and I'm not satisfied, even until this point. I just discovered it's been 4 years since he has been with me. Hah! I'm completely delusional and also meant that it's been 4 years since I've known GLAY. I shudder still at those lips and eyes and such coltish ways helped my inner child. And made half of my high school life focused to a goal, which is anything in relation to him and as if it would happen that I would go there and he, become the ultimate ownage... Mine alone.
And then someone comes along to distract me and then the person helped me discover another job I can pursue much later in life: a spy. Hah. No kidding, I swear.
The ferocity of my emotions eats me up. And it does until now. Emotional ulcer? Bah! (Riz, you're crazy!get a hold of yourelf!) Of fan girl love~ If you could just read the things I write on my journal (oh no, not this one, the hard bound paper one).
I'm not depressed. Heck, I'm not emo. I'm just feeling bummed for no reason just because I saw the X-rated 2004 Concert on YouTube again and that's the part where they sang Beautiful Dreamer and the orchestra and the lovely song blew me away as well as the smiling faces of the members, especially Teru's powerful singing voice and Jiro's head banging and his half-open mouth... and it made me think of how much I did not like him when I first saw Jiro. Haha. Benta. He even reminded me of Tatsuya Ueda. But no. Tatsuya Ueda is hot in his own silent, gentleman, rockstar way. This other one is defines the human jocularity of things. He is DELIRIUM. He is love. And it was just after watching the live, he grew on to me. Well, I did not expect this to be another missing-Jiro-post. And to think I made a list of 100 Reasons why I love Jiro. He deserves it anyway. It's not hard to like him. KYUU~ <3
I went to mass earlier and Wal was there. It was funny because yesteday I went to Megamall and I met him and Nerv while waiting for an FX. We talked for a while (Wal and me) because the other would not speak to me at all for reasons and technically, we are still not in speaking terms. Anyhow, since it's almost the fiesta here in our neighborhood, Wal invited me to watch a jamming session on that day and told me he was planning to get her as a drummer. Hah. It's been so long since I've heard and actually spoke her name after the unecessary throes of jealously over petty things a year ago. Okay. I will go there.
OMIGOSH! CONSTANTINE TONIGHT ON HBO~ TILDA SWINTON! She looks terribly handsome and attractive there! Haha. I am in love with her! XD She really really potrayed an angel there, an androgynous angel with her androgynous looks that makes me *shudder* in complete awe and love. She is the only person I can call androgynous! She fits the word perfectly! Gabriel... If Gabriel indeed looked like that... >_< Wohooo. I'm speechless... :DD
I KNEW I SHOULD'VE ASKED FOR A GLAY X-RATED CONCERT DVD and the GLAY LIVE IN USJ one!!! I watched it live, demmit! I WAS ONLY AN EFFIN TV AWAY FROM GLAY!!!! And then it just had to rain there in Japan as well as here so the connection was pretty hazy on the screen and DAMN! Save me from this. Take me to Japan right now!
April 21 2006 @ 11:25 pm
Music: Sugar Were Going Down - Fall Out Boy
Koi for the day: Jiro. Jiro. Jiro. Jiro!
Oooh You are hot, my dear! Jiro's hot in his own way and I really think he is :3 I want to bite Jiro~ I want to poke him and hug him so bad >_< Wah, I want to eat him alive because he's the most adorable and one of the most sexy people who walked the face of the earth! Why do you have to be that way? And he's MINE XDD
This is what Jiro's message said on the HAPPY SWING SPACE SITE. It has been translated and...
"After seeing a live the other day, on a crazy impulse I went home, picked up my guitar, and wrote a really cool song. We're also in the middle of having fun at the studio work everyday. I want to have a live soon!
Jiro peace"
Haha. You always have those crazy impulses and that's why I love you :3 ©©©©Hekhek. Yay! I also heard that GLAY is busy because they are indeed making new songs again, after a short break. Wohoo~ I can't wait! For now, do your best guys! Me and the rest of your fans will be waiting! 待ってるからな！！ Ganbatte kudasai! And please make sure you all get enough rest. 笑
JIRO殿！！大好きです！！
今、何してるんやろ？？？
JIRO殿かっわいい～！
Nee Jiro-sama, are you reading this? Hopefully you're okay and i love you! ©©©© And if GLAY disbands, I just don't know what to do. Heck, the jrock bands of the 90s are like... dissapearing! It worries me greatly. Psycho le Cemu is gone, so is Malice Mizer and Pierrot and Du le Quartz... HIDE even... X-Japan of course. Dir en Grey has been inactive lately so is Janne De Arc. I just don't know.
Wah, I'm so jealous .Quite obviously the fans in Japan who are able to go to such concerts have at least 50% chance to getting their stuff autographed by the artists. I saw one picture from a blog of a Japanese fan and it was one of GLAY's recent posters and wah... The members signed the posters and they even have a short message for the fan! I DIE T____T and the poster was practically framed and Jiro made a little drawing there though I'm not sure what it was. But wah.And I saw a picture of Jiro's guitar pick! T__T It was from a Japanese GLAY fan's blog and apparently she happened to be there in their Rock n Swindle concert... T__T SHEET.Lucky Japanese fans.
And you know what The Predator's poster said? HUNGRY GUYS EAT THE WORLD! WAHAHAHA XD Goodness... Oh yes, the Predators is a band composed of 3 members and one of them is JIRO! He's the bassist there and the band is one of his seperate projects.
Hwee~ I'm feeling quite fan girly last Sunday night. Squee~
When was the last time I watched Shokura? About A month ago I think. Damn... I've been missing quite a lot. Taiyou Ayukawa looks so nice now that he's grown WAY taller and he's more bish. The same goes for Hikaru Yaotome and Kota~ However I must admit I do miss the cuteness they had years ago.And KATTUN!!! Wah Jin and Ueda duet was HOT. Oooh... Ueda-sama *spazz* And Nakamaru-kun!!! Junno-kun! かっわいい～！
Oh, KATTUN debuted? Wah! Wahehehehe. おめでと ございます! XD More power to you guys!
It's been so long since I've raved like this. Hm... I guess I was too caught up with so many things.I had another weird dream. Haha. It involved me and the guy who play's Octavian in HBO's ROME. He's adorable and I like him playing he character of Octavian <3 And the weird thing was STFN was there. I'm starting to miss him again.
April 20 2006 @ 10:25 pm
Music: Country Road
Koi for the day: Seiji Amasawa
KYAA~ WHISPER OF THE HEART ROCKS!
Hayao Miyazaki has proven himself worthy again, with this lovely animated film about growing up and childhood love at it's best! It was so dream-like and real all at the same time! I always wanted to watch this and I was able to watch it yesterday special thanks to Bettina! *hug*
Shizuku is the main character in the story and Hayao Miyazaki’s portrayal of her as a young girl growing up is very realistic. The 15 year old girl is in her last year of junior high school and her anxiety and fear of not knowing what her future will be is clearly reflected through her awkwardness towards the topic itself when her family talks about it. But she is naturally a confident girl though her fears of exploring what else she could do holds her back. Her father works in a public library, thus developing her love for reading and that is all she wanted to do: to read more books. Because of this, she also notices something from the library card of every book she borrows: Amasawa Seji. She wonders who this character is since she noticed that every book she borrowed has already been borrowed by this boy.
And then during the school year she finally meets him:
He turns out to be one of the students of her batch and he is just like her: a bookworm. They become good friends through his grandfather and his antique shop and eventually developed a strong liking towards each other. Seiji decides to go to Italy to apprentice in a violin workshop there in preparation for his future studies as a violin maker. He’ll be gone for 2 months and promises Shizuku to return to her. Shizuku realizing that Seiji is looking for his future, she decides to look for her own as well and tests herself by making her own story in the span of 2 months just before Seiji arrives. She will see if she does indeed have the talent to fully realize what’s her future (according to her friends, she has a talent for writing because of her knack for literature).
She finishes the story in time and with the kind guidance of Seiji’s grandfather, Shizuku realizes she does have the talent but needs to be polished. She makes up her mind to study more and to enter a high school and write more. Seiji comes back the next day and more cuteness and sweetness arrives.
And after this, I realized Seiji Amasawa is the ultimate dream guy. He’s a bookworm, he makes violins and knows how to play one, and he’s intelligent, valiant and very personality-wise. And yeah, he’s a good-looking, just like all of Miyazaki’s leading men… KYAAAA… The movie was so sweet and lovely… What killed me was what Seiji told Shizuku. But then again, I will not spoil you all. Watch it XD It's the absolute cuteness.
Who’d want a boy like him? ME OF COURSE! XD Seiji is the whole package: he's intelligent, he likes books, he makes and knows how to play the violin and he's a complete bishounen. Too bad he's only an animated character XD But then who cares? It was too cute XD It was too much~ Seiji is really an avid reader but I guess what also motivated him to read was when he also started noticing a certain Shizuku is always borrows books.
This became an instant favourite. Teehee
April 14 2006 @ 1:45 pm
Music: Kodou - Dir En Grey
Koi for the day: Jiro
"No one dies a virgin. Life screws us all."
Funny quote. I just laughed my head off thinking, yeah, life DOES screws us all. And when it does, it leaves us with a frustrated exhilarating feeling that you can learn from. And just when everyone just wishes to get laid…
I’ve been reading my past hardbound journals and I just laughed because of pure embarrassment. My journals are SO black mail material, I wrote everything there. EVER SINGLE THING that goes on with my mind and most of them are the things you don’t want to know about me.
The times of giddiness of finding a potential boyfriend; ‘would-have-been’ relationships are pretty rough and annoying. I was rather glad of it too, because it would have been really stupid to spend your days with a loser who thought of you as a trophy. And then bitterness comes and you suddenly find your inner poet when you are depressed and find out that you can make such grotesque deaths and curses from it.
I learned from those things. And having a boyfriend would seal the deal of less freedom and too much fuss.
And then the embarrassing times, where a certain friend celebrated her birthday at the megamall food court where I used to hang. We didn’t care about everyone; we just ran chasing each other with a dollop of icing in hand to push it in one’s face, cheering and the patrons of the food court stared at us in awe, confusion and “WTF?”
But now, it changes….
I got a hair cut again. The moment I cut my hair after a few long years made me feel pretty good; the layers and the bangs that I always wanted… And people were tugging my hair, saying I look like an anime girl. Right. And now, it’s pretty much the same, only longer… Layers and more layers… I have thick hair so I wanted it to be thin so it can be less unruly. Then the whole bangs became a fad and everything else became a fad as well, like bohemian clothing. What is up with that? I used to like the whole bohemian clothing scene especially those people I feel like ‘artists’ and other deviants who walked at the Megastrip and Powerplant, with gorgeous skirts. And then it became a fad and looking at the clothes now, it just makes me groan having to see another batch of women wearing those things. Krinkle said it was hard to find clothes for us, because everything became a damn fad. Hopefully, Victorian style clothes won’t. Oh, Lolita minded girls like us…
My nails are back to being red, white and black. Last week they were blue and white >_< I enjoy painting my nails, the only way to show much liberation, other than piercing, tattoos and such.
My mom said I should spend a week or two in my friend’s house at Cainta. I’m still thinking about it… It would mean another night of drinks. I enjoy staying there, because there are a lot of us that are of my age there, which are my friend and her cousins. Hopefully, she wouldn’t throw a drunken fit unlike the last time. It was revolting and nauseating. Bleah.
Oscar Wilde is love. I have to bring back the book by Monday. Or it would be quite trivial to have my presence there when I really have no purpose there EXCEPT that.
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OMG! I RECEIVED BAD NEWS!!!!! This is so dissapointing. Damn.
PIERROT DISBANDS! The following has been taken from Centigrade-J
"OK, so. Kirito posted a heartfelt goodbye on his website. And by god, it makes me sad. I just got finished telling a friend that there’s no band I would miss if they broke up tomorrow. But I will miss PIERROT who gave me some of my favorite songs ever.
In Kirito’s letter, he takes responsibility for not being able to win back Aiji and Jun who no longer feel the passion for PIERROT. Kirito goes so far as to tell us that he was willing to suspend his solo activities if it meant he could have kept PIERROT together. But alas, nothing would change their minds. There’ll be no final concert, it’s just over.
Kirito says Kohta and Takeo will be sticking with him and making music in some new form, but folks, PIERROT’s DONE.
It really does sound like, there has been a falling out amongst them. A great differing of opinion. A shame that we couldn’t get at least a final album and tour. "
Damn. I like PIERROT! They have made one of the nicest songs with those lovely guitar riffs and ctachy melodies... Damn.
April 12 2006 @ 9:45 pm
Music: 4ever - The Veronicas
Koi for the day: Jiro
What is going on, on my birthday: JUNE 19?
June 19 is the 170th day of the year (171st in leap years) in the Gregorian Calendar, with 195 days remaining.
events 1846 - First baseball game under recognizable modern rules in Hoboken, New Jersey, United States. 1912 - The eight-hour work day is established in the United States. 1944 - The Battle of the Philippine Sea takes place.
Births 1301 - Prince Morikuni, Japanese shogun (d. 1333) 1507 - Annibale Caro, Italian poet (d. 1566) 1566 - King James I of England and VI of Scotland (d. 1625) 1623 - Blaise Pascal, French mathematician and philosopher (d. 1662) 1771 - Joseph Gergonne, French mathematician, logician 1792 - Gustav Schwab, German author (d. 1850) 1834 - Charles Spurgeon, English preacher (d. 1892) 1846 - Antonio Abetti, Italian astronomer (d. 1928) 1861 - José Rizal, Filipino poet and national hero (d. 1896)
Deaths 1937 - J. M. Barrie, Scottish author (b. 1860) - author of Peter Pan
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No wonder Cruel Intentions 3 wasn't "released" and even made a box office hit. Goodness, IT WAS B-O-R-I-N-G. It was shallow, it lacked drama, it lacked action, it definitely lacked romance or whatsoever and even comedy. It sucked. What a rip off. I thought it was rather interesting, as compared to the sequel Cruel Intentions 2: Manchester Prep... The 2 movies that followed the original basically sucked. Big time. And it proved that no one can match the lovely Ryan Philippe's potrayal of Sebastian Valmot as well as Sarah Michelle Gellar's Catherine Merteuil... It also makes me think how Ryan Philippe's whole dashing look reminds me of a future Artemis Fowl >_<
Eating too many sandwiches stuffed with sausage and TONS of mustard, leaves a really weird after taste in one's mouth. Or at least in my case. I didn't bother to eat dinner. So there. I didn't have breakfast and no dinner >_< I am getting really fast these days and my tummy... And for the past few days, I've been eating fish and veggies (with the saving power of oyster sauce) lately and I don't feel bloated that way.
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He smelled like apples… Fresh apples and it was the scent that she loved; the scent that enthralled her much when they would sleep with their bodies pressing on to each other and her face was on his broad chest and her hands locked with his.
“The understatement of the year would be to say I missed you,” he giggled. Yes, he was a male who giggled and in a very child-like manner at that.
“Too long but then, it wouldn’t matter. You’re here again,” Her hands were now placed on his. “What did she say this time?”
The heaviness of his sigh was evident and his embrace tightened. “Nothing. As always she was busy with her friends. I think she barely took notice of me when I said I will be leaving again for a few weeks,”
“You know she has her eyes on you my dear,”
“She does not… Love requires compromise dearest. Well, no matter. I’ll be here to help you again and most especially I want to be near you again,” His lips then kissed her neck and she bit her lip, avoiding letting a gasp a young girl would the first time she was touched intimately.
And that was what she wanted as well. To be near him no matter difficult and forbidden it seemed to be.
Go figure XD
April 08 2006 @ 10:38 pm
Music: You're all I Have - Snow Patrol
Koi for the day: STFN
As the days go on, the weather becomes hotter and everything seems to be slower. The slowness of everything comes to affect me finally just like how my reading pacing that become slower but I don't mind really. It makes me reflect more and praise Oscar Wilde's genius. Relatives from the US are coming tomorrow and for sure, we'll be busy, having so many dinners or lunches with the whole family. And as the days become much DULLER, I turn into the fictional world, drawing my characters. Hwee~ I was really happy last night because my character Leon turned out the way I wanted him to ©© . It was hard to draw him because he was based on someone I personally know and I want to keep the attributes of that person with in Leon. The same goes for Julian, who is based on Jiro ©. Yeah! It's hard to draw them because they belong to a world I only created in the story and it's set in a not-so-definite time where girls wear corsets and men wear those gentlemen suits and yet it's a modern as it could be. The school in that world is like the school in Utena XD
But then really, I'm not inspired to make a new art other than my characters. Goodness, sometimes I fear that I already lost all the will to write. You know, when I got something poetic or eventful in my head, then I just feel really lazy starting to write in on paper.I think writing on paper everything is every importatnt. It carries with it this certain old feel of the true essence of writing. I still keep on writing and drawing but not at the moment.
I'M EFFIN NOT INSPIRED! And when that happens, I write or I tend to notice so many things that are not really important *sigh*
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I think James Blunt is cute. So is John Johnson from Channel V's Man Hunt: The Search for the Male Model thing :) Damn. THERE'S NO STAR WORLD IN DESTINY CABLE >_< AND IT SUCKS! How can I watch Grey's Anatomy as well as the Desperate Housewives Marathon ? >_< That's terribly frustrating for me.
Hweeee :D Uber sexyah vampire-turned-"priests" and Abel Nightroad is a perfect example, are LOVE © and his twin brother Cain is HOT! I'm scouting for the Trinity Blood episodes >_< Ever since we had no DESTINY Cable for the 3rd time (I think) back then, that stopped my fandom for the anime temporarily and led to my TV-junkie depression because WOWOW JAPAN is the absolute TV life!. And TB is the also the ultimate bishie heaven.
April 05 2006 @ 11:38 pm
Music: Tokyo- YUI
Koi for the day: STFN
I nearly got fried under the sun while waiting for the LONGEST period of time for an FX going to Megamall earlier in the afternoon. DAMN. It was around 1:30 in the afternoon and I thought it was the end of the world that it seemed that there was no FX heading for Megamall that seemed to be passing my way. It sucked a lot. But thank God, there came one and I found refuge in the air conditioned atmosphere of the mall and the washroom.
Met up with Lolo Ronn. Kuya Micheal wasn't able to come because of sudden misunderstandings and thus, sent a proxy instead. Benta talaga. But it was okay to think to have a proxy for today since it wouldn't be as fun if you only have 2 people together right. Three's a party anyway. I met the proxy and he was Kuya Rogel. He was nice and I couldn't talk to him much because I don't warm up easily when meeting new people. I still failed miserably at Drumaniax. What is effing wrong with me and my hands. Ugh. It annoys me. And I need to learn how to strike much harder >_< We ate then they tagged along when I shopped for clothes. Then we went to the food court and I gasped as I saw how much it changed. The day was fun all in all though it would have been much fun because I was too distracted by something and I still was in the state of recovering from the flu.
And yeah, wearing black during the summer in the mall with MANY people isn't helpful at all. Damn. I need to buy a new shirt. And I decided to bring home a cake for everyone in the house so that they could have something nice to munch on, including me XD I dunno. I just felt like it. Lolo Ronn told me it was NICE and both him and Kuya Rogel would want to live in my house if that's the case.
I'd be broke by that time then. --------
YUI's "TOKYO" made me more "melo.dramatic" than I should really be *grin* People would think I'm really indifferent about everything that's happening but then again I'm really not. I just make things HAPPIER for me and I would like to think that it's the same with the people around me. I know I can be an un-feeling burden and nusiance and forgive me for being that way. You just have to trust me more on things :) I'm really contented for now and I'm not asking for anything more (well except anything related to my fandom)... I suddenly felt sad for no reason (I got depressed probably when I re-read my copy "The Kindly Ones" from the Sandman series) and throughout the night, I was looking for a reason why and then nothing. And then things just come right in my head and then realized how ungrateful I was.
It was my fault that I am uncomfortable being with her and her because I let just let time pass by, too quickly for the three of us then finally, we hated to admit it, we are no longer the same anymore. It's the same for him and for some others.
Smiling too much is bad. It makes you all too indifferent because you think it'll be alright and then you are left to watch everything slip away from you and you just don't care. Or then again... The things in my head are so screwed up right now.
---- I would like to think that I have lost you instead of prolonging this end for us.
It's the same way for me. You have no idea.
April 04 2006 @ 7:38 pm
Music: Bittersweet Symphony - The Verve
Koi for the day: STFN
My mother is forcing me to wear clothes I am not really fond of. She's asking me to wear one of those pink long skirts and tops, whose style is the same as those of the bohemian style fashion you see on the streets of Makati and Crossing. Oh no~ I don't want to be one of those 5 or 10 girls you see crossing the streets wearing exactly the same thing and the only difference is the color That's why I'm stuck with t-shirts and jeans because I can't find anything that's interesting enough for me really wear and LOVE. It sucks. And when I do find something that is interesting, it's either it's too expensive and I can never have it. And mostly, my wardrobe consists of mostly black and then white and then reds and blues and purple. But then I'm starting to outgrow all of the shirts I own.
And I don't normally wear a skirt unless I have fallen in love with it. I’m looking for the black, frilly, lacy skirt. Stef and I saw a very pretty pink skirt with a nice asymmetrical cut and black laces O_O and crap, it was really expensive!
But then again tomorrow I’m going to Megamall with Ronn and Michael. And we’re going to shop for my OWN clothes and nail polish! Wahahahaha XD And Lolo Ronn is giving me a "job" and I asked for a transaction. I do the job while he gives me any goodies that I want like Heaven's Coins VCDs to other J-doramas and anime series XD Ufufufufufu~ We agreed to do work at the food court, which is a place I missed since I haven't been attending any "Sabado Nights" at the Megamall food court lately.
That's NICE~
And there was this annoying certain grown-up who said to me that "Oh you're so grown up and all you can't think of is cartoons and weird books" (the cartoons she was referring to here was anime). And those are not weird books, mind you. Those are books written by the men of the world! Hello, I know Edgar Allan Poe's prose style and themes are not the pleasant ones but heck, just leave me alone >_< And then he smokes. And when I look at him, I see those ugly smoker's teeth and made me think, there is absolutely NO WAY I'm going smoke because I'm too vain for that >:) Wahahaha XD
STN AITAKUTE DESU~ with much love from moi <3<3 *hug* *hug*
Whee~ I'm off making dolls online! Aahahaha :D And if ever I'm not blogging here, visit my live journal because I tend to dump anything I think there and most are quizzes anyway. Tsssss :D
April 03 2006 @ 1:15 pm
Music: Yey!
Koi for the day: <3
Panicdoll!!!!!! <3~ Panicdoll on eBay is so expensive but WORTH it. But my money couldn't support it. Damn. I just remembered early last year when my parents finally allowed me to order from eBay because I had enough money at that time. But there wasn't anything good there that I really wanted (besides, my GLAY CDs just arrived so I'm happy). But NOW dammeeet! So many yummie stuff on eBay lately.
I have to go to a friend's house later to burn Enzai (which I will evetually throw away because of too much disturbing effects) and Boku No Seksuaru Harasmento *grin* Yay! I'm feeling much better now and I'll be going on Abish's house on Friday! Yeyey! More of our relatives from the states are coming to home and most of them will be staying in our house. My older sister is coming home and MUCH TO MY DISSAPOINTMENT she wasn't able to find a DVD of Lyne's 1997 "LOLITA" nor Stanley Kubrick's "LOLITA". Oh dammet. She perhaps went into those common stereo-type neighborhood video store where they don't sell things like those and several classic black and whites *sighs* WHO SHALL I ASK TO BUY ME THAT? I just realized it was Jeremy Irons who plays Humbert Humbert in the 97 version. Man, he's so thin! And I'm so glad that I got the first few copies of LOLITA last year. I mean, the covers of the LOLITA books are still the paperback editions but... urk, those are not the type of covers that would fit the novel. One looks like a chick-lit cover, that would mislead the buyer into categorizing the book into that genre.
HISTORIAN PAPERBACK IS AVAILABLE AND IS LESS THAN 300 php! Though the hardbound is so lovely. I must BUY~
I just went to school today. It was HAPPINESS~ <3 WAHAHAHA *insane laugh* And to think that I have lost you. Coffee and Oscar Wilde's Collection of Short Fiction will keep me company for the rest of the day.
I'm satisfied <3
Uh, guys? Help? Is THIS who I think it is? Kaoru from Dir En Grey with Jhiness? (love ur hair *__*)
April 02 2006 @ 8:15 pm
Music: Sugod by Sandwhich
Koi for the day: Jiro
To have Aaron Stanford be the star of your dreams during your late afternoon nap is certainly a wonderful thing and one may wish to sleep forever XD And to have him as your boyfriend in Slumberland is the best so far! And there he was, all in his Pyro-glory… The literal hotness of it all is overwhelming. I guess I just watched our DVD of X2 for the past few days too much and been downloading too much of his hot pictures. Oh~ I drool with much love~ I can’t wait to see him in X3. And he stars as this husband in the thriller movie ‘The Hills Have Eyes’ and he looks way old there. I am amazed on how he manages to look way young and way old~
I just realized something.
I have no dear Stephen anymore to call… Stephen XD This sucks. It’s like you name something and you begin to think it was even his real name and there’s a dominant moment for every time you call him that name. It sucks basically because I’ve grown obsessively attached. I just can get really ‘passionate’ at times to write pages of drug-induced poems all about this loving dear Stephen. And then I start talking fake French, discovering how many ways you can say the name Stephen and his REAL name. But he’s mine and mine alone. He’s Stephen for me and I’ll be there, in the corner of his cluttered mind, the same smiling constant reader for Stephen. No one will wave at him the same way I do (well of course) and no one will even DARE do what I started with him. I will be the first and the last and I will make sure I WILL BE THE ONLY LAST.
This is not Stephen King by the way nor a certain Kuya Stephen in the link section.
Saturday plans with Lolo Ronn are moved tentatively to Wednesday, where I hope I will be fine and healthy once again. Yay! PLDT fixed the network problems and I’ll be back to internet surfing once again. How long did it take? 2 weeks? I think or I haven’ noticed because I was semi-bed ridden for the days that went by excluding this one, where I was able to touch the lovely keyboards of my computer again. The weather is playing tricks again. IT’S SO HOT TODAY. But hopefully, I can withstand this torture and prevent further coughing and runny noses.
I know now what to ask from my aunt! GLAY’s 10th Anniversary Year Final “White Road” in the Tokyo Dome and if their DVD of GLAY 2006 at Budokan releases, I must have it. It’ just painful to think that there won’t be much of GLAY for now because of the complexity of things and that when I am to ready to go there, they won’t be there anymore. I am happy I have this GLAY memory with me and their music but being the unsatisfied human teenager that I am, I want more of them. I saw the recent picture of the GLAY 2006 live at Budokan and all of them look great!
Jiro-love smiles so nicely… He looks lovely out there and eternally ADORABLE.
In case you haven’t noticed, I am attracted to much older men. Let’s say, 20 years older than I? XD
March 26 2006 @ 6:05 pm
Music: Be My Last by Hikaru Utada
Koi for the day: Jiro
What happened last Thursday:
-Went to Enchanted Kingdom
- I rode the Space Shuttle twice
- I rode the Anchors Away 4 times
- We all rode the Rio Grande four times
- We all went to the Bump Cars 3 times
- I rode the Flying Fiesta like 5 times
- Rode the Log Jump once only XD
- Ferris Wheel ride was only once
- The Carousel Ride... hm... 3 times I think?
- Bitched about the bad pizza we ate... (literally thinand crispy crust which was much thinner than the quasedilla wrappings).
- Went to Starbucks before going home with Louanne and Abish - Slept
I went to Megamall with her and I realized that my only means for 'liberation' was nail polish and clothes because my course required me to be proper looking. So I can't really dye my hair but come to think of it, I guess I won't. I love my black hair. We found blue, solid yellow and cute shades of red (nail polish) when we were about to give up when our search only led us to the common colors. Ooooh... I like the blue one. I must buy a new white nail polish >_< And black as well. Must buy new clothes also. I'm strating to outgrow my clothes and urk, it's always the same thing I'm wearing. I'm getting bored with them. I need new t-shirts and blouse (I have plenty of laced tank tops here anyway). Must buy the books... O_O And a new batch of laces and ribbons for my shoes and hair. Achhhhh.... I'll be broke by the end of summer. My mom brought me chilled milk tea, which was really nice :)
Studying american lit and philo during the summer sin't as enjoyable as I thought it would be. At least my brain won't be dull once classes start.
[edit] I just noticed I've been updating mostly my livejournal most of the time when it's only meant for a quiz blog. Hm. I'm not leaving my pitas of course <3 The whole afternoon I was experiencing a massive headache as well as a nosebleed. Now, I just finished cleaning the plastic that covered my keyboard. My head still hurts a little bit though and perhaps I'll sleep early if there's nothing good on TV. I'm bored... Yesterday I was on the Phone talking to Lolo Ronn and Kuya Oni about stuff. We plan to go to SM this Saturday hopefully if I'm not lazy. Ah, the heat is really getting into to me. I need to wake up much earlier if I don't want to wake up with the ugly hot atmosphere. I never liked summer. My skin hurts a lot when I go out and yes, I burn... Probably would turn into ash... (leche talaga yang dugo ni Tatay Gackt eh).
Saang school kaya? Trinity College? Philippine Womens'? Makati Med? Ah, financial problems prohibits me to go to UST. But then again I'm okay with it. It doesn't matter what school (but then again it does as long as it fits my standards of a "decent school")... It's in the person and I'm willing to work hard if it means to graduate then study again any course that I like and work :) I don't mind the pain. I love to study anyway... I'm jhust worried I'd be forever a loner being the freak that I am. Well, that would be 90% true if I'm with the mediocre masa people. I just have standards and I have really bad superiority complex. And I anti-social tendencies. So what becomes of me? I want to meet new people but you know, it's not gfoing to be easy anyway... Sigh....
SAAAAN BA MAY MAGANDANG UKAY UKAY?
March 19 2006 @ 6:05 pm
Music: Way of Difference y GLAY
Koi for the day: XD
I can't believe I'm a high school graduate now O___O OMFG
Congratulations to me *pats own back* and to my loved batchmates :)
Graduation Pictures!
I cried at Monse's speech, especially the part when she started crying and then most of us in our row cried as well.
I love batch06. We are not the perfect nor the best. We are simply... Batch 06. The last of the Golden Era of SPCP. I love my friends :) You all know who you are and I will miss us being students in SPCP. I love you all and I will see you all very soon. Group B for Bibo, benta, bersatayl and best, thanks for the laughs! Wohoo~
I'm already missing the school >_< I was dissapointed actually. Promise breaker. But, I am relieved and happy to be able to survive and graduate :) Graduation songs from:
Maroon 5: Sunday Morning
GLAY: Beloved, Be With You, Sotsugyou Made, Ato Sukoshi (Just a Little Longer 'Til Graduation), Way of Difference
L'Arc~en~ciel: Driver's High, Jiyuu E no Shotai, New World
Dir En Grey: Aint Afraid to Die
Five for Fighting: 100 Years
XD Meron pa yan. Just can't think of a song right now.
I'm happy for myself. But a little disspaointed a while ago >_< Well anyway, off to face new heights!
Où vous étiez ? Oui, je prévois parce que vous êtes comptés être là-bas parce que vous faites partie des mentors qui sont très important à moi. Vous n'a pas d'idée combien il blesse pour moi, votre étudiant, vous avoir me voit que marche l'étape, recevoir mon diplôme et obtenir ma médaille et a mon nom appelé. Où vous étiez ? Il me blesse et je vous attendais avec impatience quand tout le monde a commencé entrer et quand je vois vous n'étiez pas là-bas, je m'ai dit vous seriez en retard. Mais alors, où vous étiez ?
“Je vous verrai dimanche alors” vous avez dit et alors j'ai dit bien sûr, je ferai le plus sans aucun doute vous voit et où vous étiez ? Vous avez cassé une autre promesse, juste comme le repos et cette fois, je n'ai pas profité de votre promesse cassée. Il blesse beaucoup en fait, ne pas vous avoir sur que le jour important.
Mais d'autre part, qui j'est d'avoir vous fait l'apparence pour moi ? Je ne comprends pas juste pourquoi que vous ne pouvez pas aller ce jour. Oui, je suis égoïste maintenant quand je dois considérer ce que pourrait être arrivé mais alors, c'était un une fois dans une chose à vie ! Vous n'êtes pas allumé mon jour de remise des diplômes et j'étais la blessure, si vous avez su seulement.
Je suis très déçu dans vous, mon cher. Je suis juste la blessure.
Music: Sound of Glay talking in a Music Station Interview
Koi for the day: Jiro. Jiro. Jiro. Jiro!
"She was his and only his. It was a shame, he thought, that she couldn’t claim him as her own, even in the most sensible part of her mind. " - Addiction, Arisa Heilingest
Jiro let me eat your heart out. Please. 3 days of hunger and I'm not satisfied, even until this point. I just discovered it's been 4 years since he has been with me. Hah! I'm completely delusional and also meant that it's been 4 years since I've known GLAY. I shudder still at those lips and eyes and such coltish ways helped my inner child. And made half of my high school life focused to a goal, which is anything in relation to him and as if it would happen that I would go there and he, become the ultimate ownage... Mine alone.
And then someone comes along to distract me and then the person helped me discover another job I can pursue much later in life: a spy. Hah. No kidding, I swear.
The ferocity of my emotions eats me up. And it does until now. Emotional ulcer? Bah! (Riz, you're crazy!get a hold of yourelf!) Of fan girl love~ If you could just read the things I write on my journal (oh no, not this one, the hard bound paper one).
I'm not depressed. Heck, I'm not emo. I'm just feeling bummed for no reason just because I saw the X-rated 2004 Concert on YouTube again and that's the part where they sang Beautiful Dreamer and the orchestra and the lovely song blew me away as well as the smiling faces of the members, especially Teru's powerful singing voice and Jiro's head banging and his half-open mouth... and it made me think of how much I did not like him when I first saw Jiro. Haha. Benta. He even reminded me of Tatsuya Ueda. But no. Tatsuya Ueda is hot in his own silent, gentleman, rockstar way. This other one is defines the human jocularity of things. He is DELIRIUM. He is love. And it was just after watching the live, he grew on to me. Well, I did not expect this to be another missing-Jiro-post. And to think I made a list of 100 Reasons why I love Jiro. He deserves it anyway. It's not hard to like him. KYUU~ <3
I went to mass earlier and Wal was there. It was funny because yesteday I went to Megamall and I met him and Nerv while waiting for an FX. We talked for a while (Wal and me) because the other would not speak to me at all for reasons and technically, we are still not in speaking terms. Anyhow, since it's almost the fiesta here in our neighborhood, Wal invited me to watch a jamming session on that day and told me he was planning to get her as a drummer. Hah. It's been so long since I've heard and actually spoke her name after the unecessary throes of jealously over petty things a year ago. Okay. I will go there.
OMIGOSH! CONSTANTINE TONIGHT ON HBO~ TILDA SWINTON! She looks terribly handsome and attractive there! Haha. I am in love with her! XD She really really potrayed an angel there, an androgynous angel with her androgynous looks that makes me *shudder* in complete awe and love. She is the only person I can call androgynous! She fits the word perfectly! Gabriel... If Gabriel indeed looked like that... >_< Wohooo. I'm speechless... :DD
I KNEW I SHOULD'VE ASKED FOR A GLAY X-RATED CONCERT DVD and the GLAY LIVE IN USJ one!!! I watched it live, demmit! I WAS ONLY AN EFFIN TV AWAY FROM GLAY!!!! And then it just had to rain there in Japan as well as here so the connection was pretty hazy on the screen and DAMN! Save me from this. Take me to Japan right now!
April 21 2006 @ 11:25 pm
Music: Sugar Were Going Down - Fall Out Boy
Koi for the day: Jiro. Jiro. Jiro. Jiro!
Oooh You are hot, my dear! Jiro's hot in his own way and I really think he is :3 I want to bite Jiro~ I want to poke him and hug him so bad >_< Wah, I want to eat him alive because he's the most adorable and one of the most sexy people who walked the face of the earth! Why do you have to be that way? And he's MINE XDD
This is what Jiro's message said on the HAPPY SWING SPACE SITE. It has been translated and...
"After seeing a live the other day, on a crazy impulse I went home, picked up my guitar, and wrote a really cool song. We're also in the middle of having fun at the studio work everyday. I want to have a live soon!
Jiro peace"
Haha. You always have those crazy impulses and that's why I love you :3 ©©©©Hekhek. Yay! I also heard that GLAY is busy because they are indeed making new songs again, after a short break. Wohoo~ I can't wait! For now, do your best guys! Me and the rest of your fans will be waiting! 待ってるからな！！ Ganbatte kudasai! And please make sure you all get enough rest. 笑
JIRO殿！！大好きです！！
今、何してるんやろ？？？
JIRO殿かっわいい～！
Nee Jiro-sama, are you reading this? Hopefully you're okay and i love you! ©©©© And if GLAY disbands, I just don't know what to do. Heck, the jrock bands of the 90s are like... dissapearing! It worries me greatly. Psycho le Cemu is gone, so is Malice Mizer and Pierrot and Du le Quartz... HIDE even... X-Japan of course. Dir en Grey has been inactive lately so is Janne De Arc. I just don't know.
Wah, I'm so jealous .Quite obviously the fans in Japan who are able to go to such concerts have at least 50% chance to getting their stuff autographed by the artists. I saw one picture from a blog of a Japanese fan and it was one of GLAY's recent posters and wah... The members signed the posters and they even have a short message for the fan! I DIE T____T and the poster was practically framed and Jiro made a little drawing there though I'm not sure what it was. But wah.And I saw a picture of Jiro's guitar pick! T__T It was from a Japanese GLAY fan's blog and apparently she happened to be there in their Rock n Swindle concert... T__T SHEET.Lucky Japanese fans.
And you know what The Predator's poster said? HUNGRY GUYS EAT THE WORLD! WAHAHAHA XD Goodness... Oh yes, the Predators is a band composed of 3 members and one of them is JIRO! He's the bassist there and the band is one of his seperate projects.
Hwee~ I'm feeling quite fan girly last Sunday night. Squee~
When was the last time I watched Shokura? About A month ago I think. Damn... I've been missing quite a lot. Taiyou Ayukawa looks so nice now that he's grown WAY taller and he's more bish. The same goes for Hikaru Yaotome and Kota~ However I must admit I do miss the cuteness they had years ago.And KATTUN!!! Wah Jin and Ueda duet was HOT. Oooh... Ueda-sama *spazz* And Nakamaru-kun!!! Junno-kun! かっわいい～！
Oh, KATTUN debuted? Wah! Wahehehehe. おめでと ございます! XD More power to you guys!
It's been so long since I've raved like this. Hm... I guess I was too caught up with so many things.I had another weird dream. Haha. It involved me and the guy who play's Octavian in HBO's ROME. He's adorable and I like him playing he character of Octavian <3 And the weird thing was STFN was there. I'm starting to miss him again.
April 20 2006 @ 10:25 pm
Music: Country Road
Koi for the day: Seiji Amasawa
KYAA~ WHISPER OF THE HEART ROCKS!
Hayao Miyazaki has proven himself worthy again, with this lovely animated film about growing up and childhood love at it's best! It was so dream-like and real all at the same time! I always wanted to watch this and I was able to watch it yesterday special thanks to Bettina! *hug*
Shizuku is the main character in the story and Hayao Miyazaki’s portrayal of her as a young girl growing up is very realistic. The 15 year old girl is in her last year of junior high school and her anxiety and fear of not knowing what her future will be is clearly reflected through her awkwardness towards the topic itself when her family talks about it. But she is naturally a confident girl though her fears of exploring what else she could do holds her back. Her father works in a public library, thus developing her love for reading and that is all she wanted to do: to read more books. Because of this, she also notices something from the library card of every book she borrows: Amasawa Seji. She wonders who this character is since she noticed that every book she borrowed has already been borrowed by this boy.
And then during the school year she finally meets him:
He turns out to be one of the students of her batch and he is just like her: a bookworm. They become good friends through his grandfather and his antique shop and eventually developed a strong liking towards each other. Seiji decides to go to Italy to apprentice in a violin workshop there in preparation for his future studies as a violin maker. He’ll be gone for 2 months and promises Shizuku to return to her. Shizuku realizing that Seiji is looking for his future, she decides to look for her own as well and tests herself by making her own story in the span of 2 months just before Seiji arrives. She will see if she does indeed have the talent to fully realize what’s her future (according to her friends, she has a talent for writing because of her knack for literature).
She finishes the story in time and with the kind guidance of Seiji’s grandfather, Shizuku realizes she does have the talent but needs to be polished. She makes up her mind to study more and to enter a high school and write more. Seiji comes back the next day and more cuteness and sweetness arrives.
And after this, I realized Seiji Amasawa is the ultimate dream guy. He’s a bookworm, he makes violins and knows how to play one, and he’s intelligent, valiant and very personality-wise. And yeah, he’s a good-looking, just like all of Miyazaki’s leading men… KYAAAA… The movie was so sweet and lovely… What killed me was what Seiji told Shizuku. But then again, I will not spoil you all. Watch it XD It's the absolute cuteness.
Who’d want a boy like him? ME OF COURSE! XD Seiji is the whole package: he's intelligent, he likes books, he makes and knows how to play the violin and he's a complete bishounen. Too bad he's only an animated character XD But then who cares? It was too cute XD It was too much~ Seiji is really an avid reader but I guess what also motivated him to read was when he also started noticing a certain Shizuku is always borrows books.
This became an instant favourite. Teehee
April 14 2006 @ 1:45 pm
Music: Kodou - Dir En Grey
Koi for the day: Jiro
"No one dies a virgin. Life screws us all."
Funny quote. I just laughed my head off thinking, yeah, life DOES screws us all. And when it does, it leaves us with a frustrated exhilarating feeling that you can learn from. And just when everyone just wishes to get laid…
I’ve been reading my past hardbound journals and I just laughed because of pure embarrassment. My journals are SO black mail material, I wrote everything there. EVER SINGLE THING that goes on with my mind and most of them are the things you don’t want to know about me.
The times of giddiness of finding a potential boyfriend; ‘would-have-been’ relationships are pretty rough and annoying. I was rather glad of it too, because it would have been really stupid to spend your days with a loser who thought of you as a trophy. And then bitterness comes and you suddenly find your inner poet when you are depressed and find out that you can make such grotesque deaths and curses from it.
I learned from those things. And having a boyfriend would seal the deal of less freedom and too much fuss.
And then the embarrassing times, where a certain friend celebrated her birthday at the megamall food court where I used to hang. We didn’t care about everyone; we just ran chasing each other with a dollop of icing in hand to push it in one’s face, cheering and the patrons of the food court stared at us in awe, confusion and “WTF?”
But now, it changes….
I got a hair cut again. The moment I cut my hair after a few long years made me feel pretty good; the layers and the bangs that I always wanted… And people were tugging my hair, saying I look like an anime girl. Right. And now, it’s pretty much the same, only longer… Layers and more layers… I have thick hair so I wanted it to be thin so it can be less unruly. Then the whole bangs became a fad and everything else became a fad as well, like bohemian clothing. What is up with that? I used to like the whole bohemian clothing scene especially those people I feel like ‘artists’ and other deviants who walked at the Megastrip and Powerplant, with gorgeous skirts. And then it became a fad and looking at the clothes now, it just makes me groan having to see another batch of women wearing those things. Krinkle said it was hard to find clothes for us, because everything became a damn fad. Hopefully, Victorian style clothes won’t. Oh, Lolita minded girls like us…
My nails are back to being red, white and black. Last week they were blue and white >_< I enjoy painting my nails, the only way to show much liberation, other than piercing, tattoos and such.
My mom said I should spend a week or two in my friend’s house at Cainta. I’m still thinking about it… It would mean another night of drinks. I enjoy staying there, because there are a lot of us that are of my age there, which are my friend and her cousins. Hopefully, she wouldn’t throw a drunken fit unlike the last time. It was revolting and nauseating. Bleah.
Oscar Wilde is love. I have to bring back the book by Monday. Or it would be quite trivial to have my presence there when I really have no purpose there EXCEPT that.
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OMG! I RECEIVED BAD NEWS!!!!! This is so dissapointing. Damn.
PIERROT DISBANDS! The following has been taken from Centigrade-J
"OK, so. Kirito posted a heartfelt goodbye on his website. And by god, it makes me sad. I just got finished telling a friend that there’s no band I would miss if they broke up tomorrow. But I will miss PIERROT who gave me some of my favorite songs ever.
In Kirito’s letter, he takes responsibility for not being able to win back Aiji and Jun who no longer feel the passion for PIERROT. Kirito goes so far as to tell us that he was willing to suspend his solo activities if it meant he could have kept PIERROT together. But alas, nothing would change their minds. There’ll be no final concert, it’s just over.
Kirito says Kohta and Takeo will be sticking with him and making music in some new form, but folks, PIERROT’s DONE.
It really does sound like, there has been a falling out amongst them. A great differing of opinion. A shame that we couldn’t get at least a final album and tour. "
Damn. I like PIERROT! They have made one of the nicest songs with those lovely guitar riffs and ctachy melodies... Damn.
April 12 2006 @ 9:45 pm
Music: 4ever - The Veronicas
Koi for the day: Jiro
What is going on, on my birthday: JUNE 19?
June 19 is the 170th day of the year (171st in leap years) in the Gregorian Calendar, with 195 days remaining.
events 1846 - First baseball game under recognizable modern rules in Hoboken, New Jersey, United States. 1912 - The eight-hour work day is established in the United States. 1944 - The Battle of the Philippine Sea takes place.
Births 1301 - Prince Morikuni, Japanese shogun (d. 1333) 1507 - Annibale Caro, Italian poet (d. 1566) 1566 - King James I of England and VI of Scotland (d. 1625) 1623 - Blaise Pascal, French mathematician and philosopher (d. 1662) 1771 - Joseph Gergonne, French mathematician, logician 1792 - Gustav Schwab, German author (d. 1850) 1834 - Charles Spurgeon, English preacher (d. 1892) 1846 - Antonio Abetti, Italian astronomer (d. 1928) 1861 - José Rizal, Filipino poet and national hero (d. 1896)
Deaths 1937 - J. M. Barrie, Scottish author (b. 1860) - author of Peter Pan
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No wonder Cruel Intentions 3 wasn't "released" and even made a box office hit. Goodness, IT WAS B-O-R-I-N-G. It was shallow, it lacked drama, it lacked action, it definitely lacked romance or whatsoever and even comedy. It sucked. What a rip off. I thought it was rather interesting, as compared to the sequel Cruel Intentions 2: Manchester Prep... The 2 movies that followed the original basically sucked. Big time. And it proved that no one can match the lovely Ryan Philippe's potrayal of Sebastian Valmot as well as Sarah Michelle Gellar's Catherine Merteuil... It also makes me think how Ryan Philippe's whole dashing look reminds me of a future Artemis Fowl >_<
Eating too many sandwiches stuffed with sausage and TONS of mustard, leaves a really weird after taste in one's mouth. Or at least in my case. I didn't bother to eat dinner. So there. I didn't have breakfast and no dinner >_< I am getting really fast these days and my tummy... And for the past few days, I've been eating fish and veggies (with the saving power of oyster sauce) lately and I don't feel bloated that way.
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He smelled like apples… Fresh apples and it was the scent that she loved; the scent that enthralled her much when they would sleep with their bodies pressing on to each other and her face was on his broad chest and her hands locked with his.
“The understatement of the year would be to say I missed you,” he giggled. Yes, he was a male who giggled and in a very child-like manner at that.
“Too long but then, it wouldn’t matter. You’re here again,” Her hands were now placed on his. “What did she say this time?”
The heaviness of his sigh was evident and his embrace tightened. “Nothing. As always she was busy with her friends. I think she barely took notice of me when I said I will be leaving again for a few weeks,”
“You know she has her eyes on you my dear,”
“She does not… Love requires compromise dearest. Well, no matter. I’ll be here to help you again and most especially I want to be near you again,” His lips then kissed her neck and she bit her lip, avoiding letting a gasp a young girl would the first time she was touched intimately.
And that was what she wanted as well. To be near him no matter difficult and forbidden it seemed to be.
Go figure XD
April 08 2006 @ 10:38 pm
Music: You're all I Have - Snow Patrol
Koi for the day: STFN
As the days go on, the weather becomes hotter and everything seems to be slower. The slowness of everything comes to affect me finally just like how my reading pacing that become slower but I don't mind really. It makes me reflect more and praise Oscar Wilde's genius. Relatives from the US are coming tomorrow and for sure, we'll be busy, having so many dinners or lunches with the whole family. And as the days become much DULLER, I turn into the fictional world, drawing my characters. Hwee~ I was really happy last night because my character Leon turned out the way I wanted him to ©© . It was hard to draw him because he was based on someone I personally know and I want to keep the attributes of that person with in Leon. The same goes for Julian, who is based on Jiro ©. Yeah! It's hard to draw them because they belong to a world I only created in the story and it's set in a not-so-definite time where girls wear corsets and men wear those gentlemen suits and yet it's a modern as it could be. The school in that world is like the school in Utena XD
But then really, I'm not inspired to make a new art other than my characters. Goodness, sometimes I fear that I already lost all the will to write. You know, when I got something poetic or eventful in my head, then I just feel really lazy starting to write in on paper.I think writing on paper everything is every importatnt. It carries with it this certain old feel of the true essence of writing. I still keep on writing and drawing but not at the moment.
I'M EFFIN NOT INSPIRED! And when that happens, I write or I tend to notice so many things that are not really important *sigh*
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I think James Blunt is cute. So is John Johnson from Channel V's Man Hunt: The Search for the Male Model thing :) Damn. THERE'S NO STAR WORLD IN DESTINY CABLE >_< AND IT SUCKS! How can I watch Grey's Anatomy as well as the Desperate Housewives Marathon ? >_< That's terribly frustrating for me.
Hweeee :D Uber sexyah vampire-turned-"priests" and Abel Nightroad is a perfect example, are LOVE © and his twin brother Cain is HOT! I'm scouting for the Trinity Blood episodes >_< Ever since we had no DESTINY Cable for the 3rd time (I think) back then, that stopped my fandom for the anime temporarily and led to my TV-junkie depression because WOWOW JAPAN is the absolute TV life!. And TB is the also the ultimate bishie heaven.
April 05 2006 @ 11:38 pm
Music: Tokyo- YUI
Koi for the day: STFN
I nearly got fried under the sun while waiting for the LONGEST period of time for an FX going to Megamall earlier in the afternoon. DAMN. It was around 1:30 in the afternoon and I thought it was the end of the world that it seemed that there was no FX heading for Megamall that seemed to be passing my way. It sucked a lot. But thank God, there came one and I found refuge in the air conditioned atmosphere of the mall and the washroom.
Met up with Lolo Ronn. Kuya Micheal wasn't able to come because of sudden misunderstandings and thus, sent a proxy instead. Benta talaga. But it was okay to think to have a proxy for today since it wouldn't be as fun if you only have 2 people together right. Three's a party anyway. I met the proxy and he was Kuya Rogel. He was nice and I couldn't talk to him much because I don't warm up easily when meeting new people. I still failed miserably at Drumaniax. What is effing wrong with me and my hands. Ugh. It annoys me. And I need to learn how to strike much harder >_< We ate then they tagged along when I shopped for clothes. Then we went to the food court and I gasped as I saw how much it changed. The day was fun all in all though it would have been much fun because I was too distracted by something and I still was in the state of recovering from the flu.
And yeah, wearing black during the summer in the mall with MANY people isn't helpful at all. Damn. I need to buy a new shirt. And I decided to bring home a cake for everyone in the house so that they could have something nice to munch on, including me XD I dunno. I just felt like it. Lolo Ronn told me it was NICE and both him and Kuya Rogel would want to live in my house if that's the case.
I'd be broke by that time then. --------
YUI's "TOKYO" made me more "melo.dramatic" than I should really be *grin* People would think I'm really indifferent about everything that's happening but then again I'm really not. I just make things HAPPIER for me and I would like to think that it's the same with the people around me. I know I can be an un-feeling burden and nusiance and forgive me for being that way. You just have to trust me more on things :) I'm really contented for now and I'm not asking for anything more (well except anything related to my fandom)... I suddenly felt sad for no reason (I got depressed probably when I re-read my copy "The Kindly Ones" from the Sandman series) and throughout the night, I was looking for a reason why and then nothing. And then things just come right in my head and then realized how ungrateful I was.
It was my fault that I am uncomfortable being with her and her because I let just let time pass by, too quickly for the three of us then finally, we hated to admit it, we are no longer the same anymore. It's the same for him and for some others.
Smiling too much is bad. It makes you all too indifferent because you think it'll be alright and then you are left to watch everything slip away from you and you just don't care. Or then again... The things in my head are so screwed up right now.
---- I would like to think that I have lost you instead of prolonging this end for us.
It's the same way for me. You have no idea.
April 04 2006 @ 7:38 pm
Music: Bittersweet Symphony - The Verve
Koi for the day: STFN
My mother is forcing me to wear clothes I am not really fond of. She's asking me to wear one of those pink long skirts and tops, whose style is the same as those of the bohemian style fashion you see on the streets of Makati and Crossing. Oh no~ I don't want to be one of those 5 or 10 girls you see crossing the streets wearing exactly the same thing and the only difference is the color That's why I'm stuck with t-shirts and jeans because I can't find anything that's interesting enough for me really wear and LOVE. It sucks. And when I do find something that is interesting, it's either it's too expensive and I can never have it. And mostly, my wardrobe consists of mostly black and then white and then reds and blues and purple. But then I'm starting to outgrow all of the shirts I own.
And I don't normally wear a skirt unless I have fallen in love with it. I’m looking for the black, frilly, lacy skirt. Stef and I saw a very pretty pink skirt with a nice asymmetrical cut and black laces O_O and crap, it was really expensive!
But then again tomorrow I’m going to Megamall with Ronn and Michael. And we’re going to shop for my OWN clothes and nail polish! Wahahahaha XD And Lolo Ronn is giving me a "job" and I asked for a transaction. I do the job while he gives me any goodies that I want like Heaven's Coins VCDs to other J-doramas and anime series XD Ufufufufufu~ We agreed to do work at the food court, which is a place I missed since I haven't been attending any "Sabado Nights" at the Megamall food court lately.
That's NICE~
And there was this annoying certain grown-up who said to me that "Oh you're so grown up and all you can't think of is cartoons and weird books" (the cartoons she was referring to here was anime). And those are not weird books, mind you. Those are books written by the men of the world! Hello, I know Edgar Allan Poe's prose style and themes are not the pleasant ones but heck, just leave me alone >_< And then he smokes. And when I look at him, I see those ugly smoker's teeth and made me think, there is absolutely NO WAY I'm going smoke because I'm too vain for that >:) Wahahaha XD
STN AITAKUTE DESU~ with much love from moi <3<3 *hug* *hug*
Whee~ I'm off making dolls online! Aahahaha :D And if ever I'm not blogging here, visit my live journal because I tend to dump anything I think there and most are quizzes anyway. Tsssss :D
April 03 2006 @ 1:15 pm
Music: Yey!
Koi for the day: <3
Panicdoll!!!!!! <3~ Panicdoll on eBay is so expensive but WORTH it. But my money couldn't support it. Damn. I just remembered early last year when my parents finally allowed me to order from eBay because I had enough money at that time. But there wasn't anything good there that I really wanted (besides, my GLAY CDs just arrived so I'm happy). But NOW dammeeet! So many yummie stuff on eBay lately.
I have to go to a friend's house later to burn Enzai (which I will evetually throw away because of too much disturbing effects) and Boku No Seksuaru Harasmento *grin* Yay! I'm feeling much better now and I'll be going on Abish's house on Friday! Yeyey! More of our relatives from the states are coming to home and most of them will be staying in our house. My older sister is coming home and MUCH TO MY DISSAPOINTMENT she wasn't able to find a DVD of Lyne's 1997 "LOLITA" nor Stanley Kubrick's "LOLITA". Oh dammet. She perhaps went into those common stereo-type neighborhood video store where they don't sell things like those and several classic black and whites *sighs* WHO SHALL I ASK TO BUY ME THAT? I just realized it was Jeremy Irons who plays Humbert Humbert in the 97 version. Man, he's so thin! And I'm so glad that I got the first few copies of LOLITA last year. I mean, the covers of the LOLITA books are still the paperback editions but... urk, those are not the type of covers that would fit the novel. One looks like a chick-lit cover, that would mislead the buyer into categorizing the book into that genre.
HISTORIAN PAPERBACK IS AVAILABLE AND IS LESS THAN 300 php! Though the hardbound is so lovely. I must BUY~
I just went to school today. It was HAPPINESS~ <3 WAHAHAHA *insane laugh* And to think that I have lost you. Coffee and Oscar Wilde's Collection of Short Fiction will keep me company for the rest of the day.
I'm satisfied <3
Uh, guys? Help? Is THIS who I think it is? Kaoru from Dir En Grey with Jhiness? (love ur hair *__*)April 02 2006 @ 8:15 pm
Music: Sugod by Sandwhich
Koi for the day: Jiro
To have Aaron Stanford be the star of your dreams during your late afternoon nap is certainly a wonderful thing and one may wish to sleep forever XD And to have him as your boyfriend in Slumberland is the best so far! And there he was, all in his Pyro-glory… The literal hotness of it all is overwhelming. I guess I just watched our DVD of X2 for the past few days too much and been downloading too much of his hot pictures. Oh~ I drool with much love~ I can’t wait to see him in X3. And he stars as this husband in the thriller movie ‘The Hills Have Eyes’ and he looks way old there. I am amazed on how he manages to look way young and way old~
I just realized something.
I have no dear Stephen anymore to call… Stephen XD This sucks. It’s like you name something and you begin to think it was even his real name and there’s a dominant moment for every time you call him that name. It sucks basically because I’ve grown obsessively attached. I just can get really ‘passionate’ at times to write pages of drug-induced poems all about this loving dear Stephen. And then I start talking fake French, discovering how many ways you can say the name Stephen and his REAL name. But he’s mine and mine alone. He’s Stephen for me and I’ll be there, in the corner of his cluttered mind, the same smiling constant reader for Stephen. No one will wave at him the same way I do (well of course) and no one will even DARE do what I started with him. I will be the first and the last and I will make sure I WILL BE THE ONLY LAST.
This is not Stephen King by the way nor a certain Kuya Stephen in the link section.
Saturday plans with Lolo Ronn are moved tentatively to Wednesday, where I hope I will be fine and healthy once again. Yay! PLDT fixed the network problems and I’ll be back to internet surfing once again. How long did it take? 2 weeks? I think or I haven’ noticed because I was semi-bed ridden for the days that went by excluding this one, where I was able to touch the lovely keyboards of my computer again. The weather is playing tricks again. IT’S SO HOT TODAY. But hopefully, I can withstand this torture and prevent further coughing and runny noses.
I know now what to ask from my aunt! GLAY’s 10th Anniversary Year Final “White Road” in the Tokyo Dome and if their DVD of GLAY 2006 at Budokan releases, I must have it. It’ just painful to think that there won’t be much of GLAY for now because of the complexity of things and that when I am to ready to go there, they won’t be there anymore. I am happy I have this GLAY memory with me and their music but being the unsatisfied human teenager that I am, I want more of them. I saw the recent picture of the GLAY 2006 live at Budokan and all of them look great!
Jiro-love smiles so nicely… He looks lovely out there and eternally ADORABLE.
In case you haven’t noticed, I am attracted to much older men. Let’s say, 20 years older than I? XD
March 26 2006 @ 6:05 pm
Music: Be My Last by Hikaru Utada
Koi for the day: Jiro
What happened last Thursday:
-Went to Enchanted Kingdom
- I rode the Space Shuttle twice
- I rode the Anchors Away 4 times
- We all rode the Rio Grande four times
- We all went to the Bump Cars 3 times
- I rode the Flying Fiesta like 5 times
- Rode the Log Jump once only XD
- Ferris Wheel ride was only once
- The Carousel Ride... hm... 3 times I think?
- Bitched about the bad pizza we ate... (literally thinand crispy crust which was much thinner than the quasedilla wrappings).
- Went to Starbucks before going home with Louanne and Abish - Slept
I went to Megamall with her and I realized that my only means for 'liberation' was nail polish and clothes because my course required me to be proper looking. So I can't really dye my hair but come to think of it, I guess I won't. I love my black hair. We found blue, solid yellow and cute shades of red (nail polish) when we were about to give up when our search only led us to the common colors. Ooooh... I like the blue one. I must buy a new white nail polish >_< And black as well. Must buy new clothes also. I'm strating to outgrow my clothes and urk, it's always the same thing I'm wearing. I'm getting bored with them. I need new t-shirts and blouse (I have plenty of laced tank tops here anyway). Must buy the books... O_O And a new batch of laces and ribbons for my shoes and hair. Achhhhh.... I'll be broke by the end of summer. My mom brought me chilled milk tea, which was really nice :)
Studying american lit and philo during the summer sin't as enjoyable as I thought it would be. At least my brain won't be dull once classes start.
[edit] I just noticed I've been updating mostly my livejournal most of the time when it's only meant for a quiz blog. Hm. I'm not leaving my pitas of course <3 The whole afternoon I was experiencing a massive headache as well as a nosebleed. Now, I just finished cleaning the plastic that covered my keyboard. My head still hurts a little bit though and perhaps I'll sleep early if there's nothing good on TV. I'm bored... Yesterday I was on the Phone talking to Lolo Ronn and Kuya Oni about stuff. We plan to go to SM this Saturday hopefully if I'm not lazy. Ah, the heat is really getting into to me. I need to wake up much earlier if I don't want to wake up with the ugly hot atmosphere. I never liked summer. My skin hurts a lot when I go out and yes, I burn... Probably would turn into ash... (leche talaga yang dugo ni Tatay Gackt eh).
Saang school kaya? Trinity College? Philippine Womens'? Makati Med? Ah, financial problems prohibits me to go to UST. But then again I'm okay with it. It doesn't matter what school (but then again it does as long as it fits my standards of a "decent school")... It's in the person and I'm willing to work hard if it means to graduate then study again any course that I like and work :) I don't mind the pain. I love to study anyway... I'm jhust worried I'd be forever a loner being the freak that I am. Well, that would be 90% true if I'm with the mediocre masa people. I just have standards and I have really bad superiority complex. And I anti-social tendencies. So what becomes of me? I want to meet new people but you know, it's not gfoing to be easy anyway... Sigh....
SAAAAN BA MAY MAGANDANG UKAY UKAY?
March 19 2006 @ 6:05 pm
Music: Way of Difference y GLAY
Koi for the day: XD
I can't believe I'm a high school graduate now O___O OMFG
Congratulations to me *pats own back* and to my loved batchmates :)
Graduation Pictures!
I cried at Monse's speech, especially the part when she started crying and then most of us in our row cried as well.
I love batch06. We are not the perfect nor the best. We are simply... Batch 06. The last of the Golden Era of SPCP. I love my friends :) You all know who you are and I will miss us being students in SPCP. I love you all and I will see you all very soon. Group B for Bibo, benta, bersatayl and best, thanks for the laughs! Wohoo~
I'm already missing the school >_< I was dissapointed actually. Promise breaker. But, I am relieved and happy to be able to survive and graduate :) Graduation songs from:
Maroon 5: Sunday Morning
GLAY: Beloved, Be With You, Sotsugyou Made, Ato Sukoshi (Just a Little Longer 'Til Graduation), Way of Difference
L'Arc~en~ciel: Driver's High, Jiyuu E no Shotai, New World
Dir En Grey: Aint Afraid to Die
Five for Fighting: 100 Years
XD Meron pa yan. Just can't think of a song right now.
I'm happy for myself. But a little disspaointed a while ago >_< Well anyway, off to face new heights!
Où vous étiez ? Oui, je prévois parce que vous êtes comptés être là-bas parce que vous faites partie des mentors qui sont très important à moi. Vous n'a pas d'idée combien il blesse pour moi, votre étudiant, vous avoir me voit que marche l'étape, recevoir mon diplôme et obtenir ma médaille et a mon nom appelé. Où vous étiez ? Il me blesse et je vous attendais avec impatience quand tout le monde a commencé entrer et quand je vois vous n'étiez pas là-bas, je m'ai dit vous seriez en retard. Mais alors, où vous étiez ?
“Je vous verrai dimanche alors” vous avez dit et alors j'ai dit bien sûr, je ferai le plus sans aucun doute vous voit et où vous étiez ? Vous avez cassé une autre promesse, juste comme le repos et cette fois, je n'ai pas profité de votre promesse cassée. Il blesse beaucoup en fait, ne pas vous avoir sur que le jour important.
Mais d'autre part, qui j'est d'avoir vous fait l'apparence pour moi ? Je ne comprends pas juste pourquoi que vous ne pouvez pas aller ce jour. Oui, je suis égoïste maintenant quand je dois considérer ce que pourrait être arrivé mais alors, c'était un une fois dans une chose à vie ! Vous n'êtes pas allumé mon jour de remise des diplômes et j'étais la blessure, si vous avez su seulement.
Je suis très déçu dans vous, mon cher. Je suis juste la blessure.
