//Blah
I got back from vacation last night. It was alright I suppose. We spent twelve bloody hours fishing and since I don't fish there was nothing for me to do except read and write, and I just couldn't write this week. I managed a few pages, but nothing special. A guy who was fishing killed this tiny fish on the dock and it made me feel sad.
So I stayed up till 3 last night, had a fight with Colin, did some other pointless junk then woke up at eleven.
I feel awful today. I have no idea. I have to go and buy a sundress tonight for my trip to B.C. But my mum says she going to give me money to buy some more books for the trip. I should ask ask for the Enter the Haggis CD instead maybe. I dunno.
Speaking of B.C., I'm feeling rather nervous about it all. I spend the first week with my mum's sister and her family. To put it into perspective, their son beat their dog and my aunt is horribly strict towards me and my sister, but lax towards her children.
I spent the next week with my mum's brother and his wife. They are the nicest people in the world. They always remember my birthday (Which none of my other relatives remembered, none of them even called to wish me a Happy Birthday) But I just found out my he is going in for cancer treatment the week after we leave. It's all rather upsetting for me. I've had someone close to me die every year fro the past two years. I'd hate something to happen to my uncle.
Speaking of death, it seems most vacations I go on these past few years have had something to do with death or sickness. My trip to Algonquin was because someone was dying on my dad's side of the family so we couldn't go visit someone who was taking care of them. And my mum got sick while we were gone with this wierd infection thing and now she's getting tested for diabetes. Everyone remembers my trip to Alberta for the funeral and 'to get to know my grandmother' (she's in a nursing home and I know there's something my parents aren't telling me) And now I just found out about my uncle going in for cancer treatment and my parents told me the real reason I'm going to B.C. is in case I never see him again.
It sucks.
Plus I am completely stressed out. Even though it's summer. I have to get myself packed, get everyone to know I won't be on my RPGs, and I have to write FWATF. I shouldn't be stressed about writing it, but I really want to finish it so I can edit it and all that junk. I want to actually have some stuff published before I am out of high school. My parents really don't believe in my writing. They just smile and nod about it.
Man I make it sound like I'm some whiny physco. I apologize. XD I can imagine Nami's face right now.

//It's Not Going Good

One: Hasn't slept
Two: Accidentaly threw my sister's hamster across the room (yes it was an accident, she put it on my shoudler and it thought it was her hand so I pushed it away)
Three: Just realised I have 2 days to do laundry and make t-shirts for my trip
Four: Has a line from a song from sister act stuck in my head
Five: Had extreme racial comment thrown at me and my country
As you can see, not good day. I'm leaving on Tuesday to go camping until Friday, then I am leaving on the 21st until the 6th of August.

//Quiz

Imagination

What Kanji word best suits you?
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//Books!

Book Worm Meter for Lauren

Shut In 93% . . 7% Out Of The House Intellectual 95% . . 5% Moron High Attention Span 95% . . 5% Low Attention Span Bookitude 96% . . 4% Book Burner Book Worm 94.75% . . 5.25% Bug Stomper

Take your bookworm readings.

Like I didn't know that already. Ok, since the trip to New Brunswick got cancelled due to family illness, we are heading down to Algonquin, which is just as good, and just got better, when feeling guilty my father told me I could bring the laptop with us.

Now why would a natur loving person such as myself want to bring a laptop to Algonquin Park? Well my sister and father like to go fishing. Me being the animal-lover I am and not having patience, do not. They intend to go fishing ALOT while we are there, and I only have a few books left I haven't read and I can only write for an hour or two before my hand needs a break. Hence the laptop.

Yay for techonology

//Konfusion
Because I am bored, I shall relate the tale of how I managed to find Lauren's blog. Well I had downloaded the X opening theme off Kazaa (don't give me any bad looks, I'm gonna buy the CD) and sometimes people put their webbies or stuff in the information box. So I was looking at the information for the song and it had the link http://renchan.pitas.com. Still being bored, I went to her site. The end.

I need a new bag. My writing folder takes up almost all the space in my old one. Heh.

//Lyrics
I keep listening to the midi and the lyrics of this very wonderful song with lyrics written by:
Lauren! Who is not me but a very nice person who is not me. My ssiter tried to give Thomas a bath while I was sleeping, because she knows I wouldn't let her if I was awake. Poor baby, he looks like a POODLE. For everyone in Ottawa, read the newpaper today. There's the saddest article about children in Africa. No wonder George Bush is planning a trip to possibly help Congo, because of unpopularity after the war in Iraq. Talked to Colin last night and got him slightly pissed off I believe. We were having a deep conversation (which involved us trying to make the other person look stupid) and then I had to get the PC right away because Jacqueline wanted to get on.

//Madness Accelerated
Heh. I just remembered that Colin asked to used the lyrics of Through the Looking Glass that I wrote and I never found out when he was gonna sing it. Heh. I bet he got tired of them, or his band did something wierd ot them. Oh well. I still feel quite proud of the untitle Tersa Poem thing, but I wanna know what Becky thinks of it first. In world news: George Bush is going to be visiting Africa, which it quite a change from what he was doing, because now he has expressed that he wants to help Africa. I for don't like him anyways, but I want to know exactly what he intends to do. I'll just borrow my dad's Economist from it later. I have like 5 copies of it in my room XD. But I don't think he minds he borrowing them. (and then keeping them after) I wrote a bit of For We Are The Fae earlier, but not much. I stopped right at the climax of a fight because Thomas cat wanted something to eat

//Melody's Line

I'm a Wind Spiriti
Well nothign new here. My mother has seemingly returned to normal, but I'm still I bit upset about it. Iwona was upset about her hair this morning, because it used to be so long and now it's quite short. My hair is non poofy, which is really scary. Anyways, I'm gonna go and hopefully buy some pocky today, since I only have the funny tasting kind left. Heh. I thought of a great new story last night, but I have like 15 others to finish fist.

//Hell and Back
I've been through Hell this morning and 've only been up for three hours. My mother starting yelling at me because I forgot to do a chore (because something serious happened to one of my friends so I was talking with her) and I told her why and she yelled back at me: Then how come you weren't there for your sister when she felt like that? (side story: My sister became friends with some friends of mine in a grade below me. She hung out with them alot and then they had a fight and I don't knwo exactly what happened but I told them I wasn't going to take sides, since it was a fight between my sister and some of my friends. Unfortunately, my sister and my mother and father all don't agree with what I did and blame me for the fact that she has no friends. I wish I coudl do something about it, but I don't know alot of people in the younger grades and I am in a different sector of school all day long) So I got really upset and started crying a bit, because ti really hurt me and then she started yelling about the house and stuff and threatenting me with being grounded and then she wanted to talk about the hosue and stuff and how we never do anything (even though we do) and I wanted to leave because I didn't want to get into another confrontation and then she started yelling, then she apologized for what she said earlier and hugged me, but the damage is done. But I better stop feeling sorry for myself. There are alot of people with worse things

//esoterical
Well unless Riikou gets on the internet, Ed's page won't be up yet. Gomen Ed-san! In other news, Sorata dies in X/1999 anime. Like we didn't know that was gonna happen *rolls eyes* But the question is what will happen in the manga. I think Arashi gonna go join the Dragons of Earth. But one of them is defenetly gonna die. It's CLAMP after all XD I finished the fanfic thing for Riikou. Since the only thig I'm semi good at this character studies, I did a monologue thing. I sent it to her about an hour ago. I hope she likes it. Now I have the Hinoto thing to finish, which won't take long if I actually work hard at it, and Pictures, which is gonna take longer. Unless I make it alot shorter. And For We Are The Fae is still being worked on as usua. I made up a whole bunch of new Fae characters. Enma is my favorite Elder Fae person now. I don't know why. It's gonna take at least.... a long time to finish FWATF, not that anyone cares.

//Prelude
Well it's my first entry. It took me a little while to get the gist of putting up a layout, but I managed to get it sorted out. Sort of. Anyways, saw X/1999 the Tv series ep 1 and have to admit, it's ALOT better than the movie. Now I just have to fork out 20 something dollars for the manga. Lol, oh how I wish I has lots of books published right now. I'm broke, as usual. My mum owes me 20 bucks, so I'll be lucky if I can the first manga off the internet for 15-20 bucks. Then I have to buy the other 20 odd manga books when they come out. Which will make me even broker (geez for someone who wants to become an writer, I can't even stick to normal words.)that is, if I can ever get the money for mangas *groan*

Legend Behind the Name


Arami-tama is part of a Shinto philosophy.According to this philosophy,there are four spirits(shikon) in one's heart/soul.Nigimi-tama(harmony),Kushimi-tama(miracles),Sakimi-tama(love)and Arami-tama(valour). A soul in which these four aspects are combined is called a Naohi(true spirit).If the owner of the soul commits an evil deed,the souls become unbalanced,becoming a Magatsuhi(twisted spirit)For Inu Yasha fans out there, this philisophy is behind the Shikon no Tama.