Friday, October 25, 2002
no news is good news

I don't know what to type.

So I won't.

I'm sorry he just left at 07:36 p.m.

Friday, October 25, 2002
add finatum

p.s. yes my space baris broken,no i am not upset anymore and no that was not about anyone

I'm sorry he just left at 12:41 a.m.

Friday, October 25, 2002
Rant 102

(N.b. slightly drunk tired rant...)

Pieces of my life feed back to me in abbrivaited note from,the facts not the feelings that went with them,and the commentary. It's not that i really care. It just the principle, im not even sure who i was really upset with, i just was.

It's mylife not anyone elses

back-quotes from ages ago, referencedwith up and coming, news just breaking. Itsnot that anything happens to anyone else. Hypocritical. I wish they new how what i felt before passing their judgement, I've never been that vocalwith anything much.

The gossip,my gossipstill comes back to me.This isnt really the first time.

I just kinda thought it waspersonal, i dont feel like a joke about stuff between Us its moreserious than that. I dont think othersundertsand that it hurts sometimes, god emotional or what, damn my rhetoric,

Books, newpaper clippings, Magasines,ourinsight into my life,gossip, back and foprth.

Ireallydont know who i was upset with, thinking about it.Experience?of me? Maybe i just over-reacted,i guess we were just having a laugh at Our expense. Instant apology, just add water,3 mins ,forgiveness. It may work like that for some people, I never say 'I'm sorry' or @Iforgiveyou' to me there words,i can say them, i can try to sound like i mean them, but i dont. Guilt spiral,comescrashing. Everyone feelsvitimised sorry for themselves and forme,sorrysorrysorry. I didnt want an apology it means nothing tome, maybe it was just a respect thing,something so intimate,ajoke., blah,blah,blah.

Thefoirst time wasok,that wasnt even true. This was, i didnt even say anything and im victimesed and the accuser. ITs my fault .... Iturn off in the occasions,peopledont like it, they feelguitly they realise what thyve done and they,they,they feelbadfpor me being insulted.

I didnt get it.

Jerry springergroup hug, say the magicwords

God this i a rant

blah blah bhlala. Maybe i wish we couldall grow up. Myi see things above them, maybe im still stuck below.'Copulating'what sort of a wordis that,to describeit? It means nothing.

I'm in love.

I'm sorry he just left at 12:23 a.m.

Tuesday, July 30, 2002
Surprise Surprise

I miss your hair
I miss your eyes (counting crows-not my ever so slightly depressed 'poetry')

Not that i am, well depressed. Just...empty, unless im occuipied im thinking about her, and every day has about 13 hours from 11-12, thats a lot of time to fill. So the remainder is taken up with general soppy teen movie moping (yes MO-ping) and pining, that and writing her letters (cue:awww). I just,,just feel empty, like im just sitting there wasting time, This is my life and its ending on minute at a time, yeah how dramtic? Not really, its like Extreme bordem, where you cant even be bothered to be bored, wierdest is calling her, its feels like shes just up the road, but as soon as we hang up shes four thousand five hundred miles away (what would i change if i could?-another CC quote),

I know, life like terrible, giggle, i no i have it easy, i know im like the 'optimist', i have great family, i have just come home from a holiday to america, i get all my cds free, free! But cant i just be arogant for a week and have my little strop? hmmm, I shud really kick myself out of this slump, i plan to buy never winter nights, finish FFX&golden sun, and then build my web site with richard. the problem? non of that is happening right now and as soon as i finish typing im gonna start missing her again, so the RPG's should provide some nice escapism, better than drinking/drug ne?hehehehe,

I'm sorry he just left at 08:04 p.m.

Saturday, July 20, 2002
Hey now the chemical in the clouds

Hopefully youve all just gone to joes and read a comprehensible guide to our time in florida. So im jst writing for the sake of writing. Its wet,its hot,and i get to see nat for the first time in about a week only to haveher ripped from me.....yes well im allowes to be over dramtic no?.....for another 2 weeks.then by the time she gets back home, im off to reding for three days. Mheh...absense makes thehert grow larger no?....or whatever. neways this keyboard is reallyreally getting to e now allobg withthe iped out musak, and as i rush more and more my wrinting is ben g mrma and more un readable and if that bloody chesire kat asks me to click the screen again while im in the middle of typing ill scream. Im also de-hydrated and the que 4 drinks is as long as most major attratctions.

In summary; Its hot and wet and im thirsty miss nat and havin a great time Seeya

I'm sorry he just left at 09:10 p.m.

Wednesday, July 10, 2002
Cause I'm leaving on a Jet plane

Im away for two weeks escaping this so called english summer in florida. Hope y'all dont miss me too much, i try to blog if ever i get the chance. Have a good time without me. and buh-bye

I'm sorry he just left at 11:26 p.m.

Sunday, July 7, 2002
you can fill me up full of bullet holes

I read this a while, talk about rips down memory lane, its almost, but not really, a year old now. Acient history. Still have all her letters hanging around somewhere.God, what was i think at them time,But yeah its worth a re-read, if only for the sheer comic genius of "I found Jesus" Kirsteen, claiming that "Love thy neighbour" is the 11th commadment.

giggle, I watched almost famous, i want to be that movie. Its up there on a coolness par with fight club and momento.I'm off To Florida in a bit, thurdays @ 7am to be more preicse, and until then im really busy. Tomrorow im riting nat a ton of letters so she can read them while im away (cue: awwwwwwwwwww), then off to a party somewhere in london with her, tuesday i pack, then off to Vicky Aid 2002 (dont ask, nat'd kill me for calling it that i bet) till late. Then wednessday im currently right now planning a trip to see minortiy report with joe ect...., followed by a family meal, more emergancy packing, and a early night, Thurs, i taken up by an 8 hour flight and more jet lag than i think i can handle. then it 2 weeks of sun sand sea and diznee (tm), which shud be made uber cool by having some money to spend out there, and having joe out there at the same time, and we're gonna meet up a few times out there, itll be so nifty.

And with that i run of things i can/haveto/wantto/say

P.S. You Rock My World

I'm sorry he just left at 11:12 p.m.

Sunday, July 7, 2002
1000 people like me with the same name

Me an richard want to get our web site up and running, trouble is, im going away for 2 weeks in florida, he's away for the hole month next monday, i dont see it happening anytime soon. Anyways thats hopefully where my blog will live after we buy some real web space, and start semi-seriously thinking about running a web page. Until then, I should really make a new layout to keep myself intersted in visting my own page....I have no...artist/compurterist talent tho....well none to match you or you. But i would like to think that when i puit my mind to it (Not like now when im half asleep, have NO idea what the hell im going on about have no sense of grammer; speeling or simble grasep of da Inglish langwich). My life this holidays has been seeing nat, playing FFXandCiv3 and seeing and talking into the early hours of the nite with Joe........who you should all go read, for the brilliant abusive blog.....followed by the swift,over formal apology, voice my views would only stir up trouble now wouldnt it? And you now me, im nice. Drops subject. I havnt Seen Sara or Rhian for so long. Which, now i come to think about it sucks. I dont know why i havnt, i could blame the GCSE monster, but thats..well just blaming. So I make my resolve and promise to see you two again afta i get back from Diznee (Tm), and sorry Sar andRhi (sudden ab. mood)and i cant see you turs day, but im kinda on a plane then, but have fun poking fun and joes new "John Carter-esque" jewlry and have fun on my behalf...and dont let joe drink....well without hiding all vauble possions/coats. (Giggle).

And with that vague rambilng ill let you go away and down other more exciitng things with your precious little time. and following with what looks like the new in the, seen first here, a random quote from somewhere obsure.

I know its not your thing to care, I know its cool to be so bored

I'm sorry he just left at 12:13 a.m.

Wednesday, July 3, 2002
Ph-Zow

I could lie

I could lie and say i've been really busy

I could even try to lie with a realy good excuse...like....a holiday...or a life threating illnes...or i broke both my wrist fighting of ninjas who where trying to kill my family.

But those of you who are particualy on the ball would of already noted that, i would infact be lieing. Well done, have a brownie point. Where have i been this last month, yes 4th of june last entry?? (Cries my one rhtorical reader....dont flatter yourself) Nowhere infact. The exams came and went as slowly as they had crept up on us over the two year, there done and dusted and no matter how many family friends or grandparents ask, i really *do not* no how i did, if i did, well i would of lost a month of my summer, and that would suck. I dont not care how i have done, well atleast not for the next month, i cant do **anything**. So thats what ive been doing...nothing. I bought FFX, shame on you those who are confused by the ancroymn, and well done if you can plough through my spelling. It has absorb most of the hours between 11 (the time i wake up, and 3, the time i realise ive been playing a computer game for god knows how many hours...solid....and then have lunch) Its a horrible game, in the best sort of way, its a life leaching blood sucking game. I repeat, in the best possible way, I *am* tidus. sad isnt it....? But its just so huge, and with voice acting, ooooh.

Anyways, I have a few Real things going on in my life, but apart from that im great, which could be one of the reasons there was no post, after all they *do* say bad news makes good news, and I pride myself with a burning sense of optimism,because right now, i really do have it great.

I'm sorry he just left at 11:30 p.m.

Tuesday, June 4, 2002
As for now

...This 5 day weekend has just been crazy. It's involved 3 nights of drinking right to my 'limit' while staying up past 12. 2 mornings of getting up @ 7 only to then be thrown around on various roller coasters,revision, a street party acompanied by talking to lots of people i've never met/havnt talked to for 3 years, my first real arguement with natalie, and did i mention a whole lot of drinking. I really am to general out of it all to rite anything up. Until later

I'm sorry he just left at 07:15 p.m.

Tuesday, May 28, 2002

I'm a Nothing!

Which Enemy of the Christian Church Are You?
A(nother) Robert and Tim Creation

I'm sorry he just left at 11:29 a.m.

Monday, May 27, 2002
She will always be the only thing,
that comes between me and the awful sting

I am tired. It such a mental chore, its such a drag and i am stuck with three more years of "this". Havent really been feeling that great. I have a cold that hasnt gone away for at least a week now. And english lit. Gave me a head ache. 2moro consistes of more exams and the day after and the day after.

I'm away in alton showers for bank holiday weekend. Which will hopefully be the pick up i need. Roller costers. An absolotly amazing hotel and of course free drinks (paid for by my parents after a few rounds). But everything just seems grey and drab. Even in this sun shine. I'm Seeing Her less and less and I can't take it sometimes.

Meh. What do i mean? Yes of course i can handle it all. It's hardly a tradagy. I'm just terminally bored. I cannot wait until the summer. no school, out most nites, Reading!. It just seems far far far away. To quote Joe "My life is an obsticle course". It's half ten

Good nite

I'm sorry he just left at 10:23 p.m.

Sunday, May 19, 2002
There's something in the woodshed

And I can hear it breathing -

"Well, there goes the hole plan of blogging more often, neh.There is much substance to this entry, i went to see episode two, which was extremely enteraining in some points, eye watering hysterical in others (Yoda in sword fight?Politcally correct queen of naboo and various Jedis?Samuel jakson really doing nothing exept do that really serious looking face?Senator JarJar??Natalie portman having three huge gouges in her back, which do not hurt, at all, but convinetly remove half of shirt, who then falls out of near exploding air ship on sand dune below,and is fine) Not nit-picking at all, and very very dull in the bits between.

Yes i just revied a movie, boring or what ? Ick i shudnt use this rhetoric so much im sure its really annoying right ? ((Pun intended)) I should soooooo revise my virgil but i really dont think i can cram to much, there are a few bits i dont know so well which will of course come up in the actual GCSE juuuuuust to spite me. Damn you.

So i should sleep.meh...... Oh i shud social blog....hmmm Rhian just signed your book. I know, its late but hay.
And depite Sara's Stinging spiteful comments about me on her blog XP (N.B. I did blog, i will text you, and natalie was totaaly free on saturday so nur nur nur XP) but yeah it really hass ben too long since we've gone out/talked. We shud do something during the hols, out in london somewhere? I need to buy some cheap grungy clothes for reading, im sure it would be amusing to watch me try on hoodies, no?
And of course Joe, who despite having his computer stolen by the evil 'corparation' is blogging more regualrly than me, im not sure why im social blogging you as i'll see you 2moro XP, but hey, the more the merrier.

And thats about the only three people who might actaully read my blog, i shud really work on the hole socialisng with the comuniy link swapping thing, but hey.

Good luck

Good night"

Its such an eerie feeling, Darling.

I'm sorry he just left at 09:36 p.m.

Monday, May 13, 2002
Pablo honey

I couldnt sleep last nite, i could sleep with the "air" album on, the first one with kelly watch the stars on. Thats some serve insomnism (did i just make that word up), seriously the air album, by kelly watch the stars in mormmaly asleep, i listened to it twice. I resorted to open all my bedroom windows and drinking 2 glass of water. It see i sleep better when frezing cold and full of water. Figures. I wasnt even thinking about exams. Not even the sort of thinking hwere you think about not thinking about something then kick yourself for even thinking about thinking about it. I think it was just niggling at my sub-conciously. Figures.

So i decide that maybe a blog entry will provide some much needed closure to my day so i can fall asleep. Well. Dug out all the radiohead ablum i own....when i say i own i mean my dad owns but our music tastes are almost identical so my cds are his cds and visa versa. Been spending precius revisoon time working out what my fav. album/song is.....it is sooo hard. high and dry or no surpises, best video award going to just. Have you seeeeen the video, it is awe inspiring really. So radiohead played in the background to my latin reviioson fun funfun fun.

Edging around the exams, what else ? Reading, no not as in the books, reading festival. Me simon simon and ahran are alll gonna go, well me and ahran have orderd our tickets, i cant wait, 4 days of camping music and alcohol. Fun, i really cannot wait to get them all over and done with. It almost feels like these 16 years are going soley towards them. 16 years!!!! if i had a calculator i'd work out how many days of my life have been spent working up to this day...............5840....roughly, so yeah. Reading. Two days ago was my and nats 6th months, yeah i know 6 months! Feels like ive known her all my life, had to cut back on the hole walking up to her house everyday, becuase of the hole exam thing, which did suck quite a large bit, but i'm gonna see her soooooo much over the hols, just nobody mention the five weeks where we're both away on holiday, or ill hurt them, its far away....so ...er...doesnt exist. Well ive had enugh of sleep depreived ranting, i'll probbaly make this a regular feature during all these yuky exams, its a good stress relief......... nite

I'm sorry he just left at 10:31 p.m.

Sunday, April 28, 2002
Super stars in my own private movie.

My pc died.

Then Bt cancelled my net

Joe still hasnt got his pc back

My fone broke on the way home

I have G.C.S.E's in less then two weeks

I havnt done as much work as i could of.

I am great.

I'm sorry he just left at 10:25 p.m.

Thursday, April 18, 2002
the eternal optamist?

I did plan to have a new layout up today, and really start posting. Then my computer killed itself. It falls over on the boot up every single time, like it's scared what will happen if it dares to load windows. I could bore you with the number of ways ive tried to fix it.

Last resort, restore factory settings with disc that i amd only 70% exists. The catch ? I lose every last byte of my data.

Natch

Infact today has been on of those days, and dare say it i came home depressed, i had 6 lessons today. In four of them i had tests, in the other one i was told my french is terrible and must come in at lunch time as some vague sort of punishment, crushing any thoughts of me finsishing my dt project. And my pc is dead. And i did two hours revison, and nobody asked me how i was all that time, all i really needed was a 'how are you' and i could of got everything off my chest, but i didnt want to just start whining at people. It annoys me too at school with people like ahran, who i do like, i cant really be deep. i havnt talked to joe foooor ageees, and i really could do with that.

Irony: Joe finnaly gets he's pc back and working just as mine dies.

well yes.

I'm sorry he just left at 09:39 p.m.

Thursday, April 4, 2002
And you thought youd be getting an entry

Well no, your not. I am still alive, and have been revising. I have had the wierdest dreams, I might go seek profesional help. go read Joe.

I'm sorry he just left at 10:54 p.m.

Sunday, March 31, 2002

I'm sorry he just left at 04:15 p.m.

Wednesday, March 27, 2002

I'll start blogging properly 2moro when the holidays start.

I lie.

Damn

Download 'saves the day:at your funeral'

I'm sorry he just left at 10:18 p.m.

Tuesday, March 26, 2002

This song will become the anthem of your underground. You're two floors down getting high in the back room. If I flooded out your house, do you think you'd make it out, or would you burn up before the water filled your lungs? And at your funeral I will sing the requiem. I'd offer you my hand but it would hurt too much to watch you die. And you can bet when we mourn the death of you that night that they'll lay me on the dinner table and I will be the pig with the apple in my mouth, the food that celebrates your end.

I'm sorry he just left at 10:48 p.m.

Tuesday, March 19, 2002
silent in the dark

And im sure, if there is a god. Not 'the god', a god. He found it hysterical that the only day i have ever...ever been late. Was today. I bet he pointed and laughed for all of the hour i sat....all of the hour i stood, waiting for the train.

I got to the station at 7:50

I got to school at 9:10 10 minites after my GCSE french oral started.

Heelarious

I bought a rip off £1.20 red bull, hoping it would wake me up.

It gave me a head ache

And then the train came

I wasnt panicking, as such. I got it ,rescheduled and had it at 10. It went well. Not really well. Well...ok. Take that fate. Sods law they call it?

I want to :
re read sophie world, i never got to the end.
Listen to soulwax
Listen to electric soft parade, my new favorite band
Finish the two towers and start return of the king, then the simarillion.
Go out and have a party
Tell people everything i shudnt
Confirm or deny rumours before they become something more than me
eat less food from the lun
get far away from any exam pressure
make a website

I'm sorry he just left at 10:38 p.m.

Monday, March 18, 2002

i was so worked up. This french started to get me. And then she called, and everything seem to calm down. I am fine now. I say bring it on. I say get it over with, I say why bother panicking all it does is waste time.

I am going to sleep.

I'm sorry he just left at 09:39 p.m.

Sunday, March 17, 2002

Consider the fact that
Maybe you've been brainwashed too
Many will tell you otherwise
I bet you trust your bank
Just wait until it tanks
Your parents had it planned
We're almost like them?
Fun, racist professional sports
Management gets the real rewards
Multi-national owned evening news
If we believe we're fools
You watch 4.5 hours of t.v a day
And we should listen to what you say?
Opinions on life and the world
You eat at the Hard Rock abroad and disrespect your girl
Sexism is so ingrained
that women get the blame
Is it smug middle-class satisfaction you peddle?
Better hope your car don't break down in the Ghetto
Rich companies lobby best
Use their products, prepare to lose a breast
Why your sick mother's health insurance got
"Accidentally" cancelled is no mystery
Somebody's paying the government a lot
To have access to everybody's medical history
Greedy banks bought all the farms
Chemical food, aren't our lives charmed
Teenagers baited, their money spent
With credit cards at twenty percent
Too broke to worry about the loan
Their funkin turning off your phone
And politics, a fucking joke
Right and left; they're both a hoax
Just hope the "international" markets don't crash!
Rock 'n' Roll! Some truth? Alas!
Careerist cowards sucking ass
Is real investigative reporting dead?
Of course, but keep watching your CNN
The glitz, the glamor, all jokes aside
If a sponsor pays enough, they'd turn a blind eye
On third world genocide
"Bro, don't get heavy, the bills are paid!"
Twice a week (missionary style) we all get laid
Middle management goes first, you're out on your ass
Most ignorance is bred at home
Good Christian families? then why condone
Petty hatred of anythng different or new
The fat girl hung herself in June
No love at home, they thought she was strong
Her classmates made her up her own song
"Piggy Peggy ate everyone's pie"
"The kids moved on," one teacher cried
The kids switched targets
The week after she died
Well? human nature won't change much
Unless we make a shameful bunch
Of those we see so glaringly
Who show hate, ignorance, and hypocracy
Don't be a coward - make a stand!
Get in their face - act like a ham
Let people know it's not PC
To be greedy and judgemental under the guise of religion and democracy
Get loud and stand up every time
If you even give a fuck about mankind
Cuz if human nature don't evolve soon
Don't kid yourself, you're fucking doomed!
Don't run away from change and growth
Let's start right now, "I take the oath!"
But first accept one simple truth
That maybe you've been brainwashed too

I'm sorry he just left at 10:35 p.m.

Friday, March 15, 2002

(Non entry-wait till tomorrow)

I'm sorry he just left at 11:02 p.m.

Thursday, March 14, 2002
P.S.

yawn, metal gear solid 2 is still not here, i am going to have to hurt someone if it isnt here by tomorow. todays been a roller coaster, revision, dads birthday, singer, tests, french orals, natalie and lots of eels music.....and haven, just found their album and now love them,

Good night

I'm sorry he just left at 10:13 p.m.

Wednesday, March 13, 2002

I am going to do for A-level

English lit
Thearte studies
Geography
Politics

Discuss.

I'm sorry he just left at 08:07 p.m.

Wednesday, March 13, 2002
my thoughts compressed

Yawn, i was doing chemistry revision. Nat isnt here...metal gear solid 2 has been lost somehwere between the big amazon factory and my door, natch. I've played on my ps2 from bout 5-6:30 and now im doing chemistry reviosn for a big testy on friday....Beam. And i have a french oral next tues. Bleh, and have to finish my DT project in...er....12 days.

Everything comes crashing together.

I'm in here now and actually starting to really do some work.

I'm sorry he just left at 07:18 p.m.

Tuesday, March 12, 2002
What is this note ?

Go read Joe , pay special atteniton to the "This tedium still hasn't lifted. We're doing past papers in Chemistry and Physics and soon to be doing the same in Biology." and "What I want right now, is to go on exam leave. Tomorrow. I don't want to go to school anymore. I want to revise. There is no time to revise when normal homework and schoolwork is currently also being given." sections

Then apply them to me.

School is a drag, a huge one. I almost want to get all the gcse over with, what i really want is my a levels, no science no maths, essay wriitng thearte studying Intresting work. Science dull dull dull dull dull dull dull dull dull dull dull dull . Dont you eeeeven dare ask me about my maths course work...BBBAAABD n! BABCCBDA (slap) thats driving me well to bordem. I actaully did chemisty and frecnch revison...scary.

I'm sorry he just left at 09:10 p.m.

Monday, March 11, 2002
All i can do, is get right back to you.

I havnt been blogging

The doesnt mean nothing has been happening, just i havnbt felt/wanted to blog. I mite get back intot the swing of things, infact i think i will now...mebbe.

Gosh darnit, (looks at viewers from other side of thick glass) does any body actully read this thing ? Bleh, i still want to do this big site with simon would be a laugh, but bleh. We filled a yought full of salt today, it tasted like every so slightly chewy sea water with a hint of chocolate. Mark ate two spoonfulls for 50p, was the funniest thing i have seen since...er...last wednessday infact. Hmmm, another story.

And all of the words, you said i was the one at least i mean what i say

Sorry l;yric moment. I'm hot and cold at the same time and where is metal gear 2 ???, i rodered it yeeeaaars ago..well last last sunday and it isnt here! sob, i wannna play it i wanna play it....Bratish moment. So whats been up with me? I've had rumours started and flung arouns school, fun when people use my life for gossip, not in a bad way. Strange sentimental feeling that I am disscused. I hvnt been out with my friends for ages, everyone cant really be bothered to organise much, this weekend tho, this weekend i should go out with joe and tom and peeps, a cheap chinese complete with cheap chinese bear and a movie, maybe toms house afterwwods to get drunk. beam, hvtn done that for a while, meh. I still need to buy my first lottery ticket...

Rhian I'm not too sure about a layout how about something bright, wires in a computer? a plane with the wind going past it? those rollign hills from windows XP ? some random ideas meh.

I sleep now.

I'm sorry he just left at 10:13 p.m.

Tuesday, March 5, 2002
and you will know us by the trail of the dead

I could do an edited version of the events of the past few weeks, or a piece on the nature of rumours, or just rant about how much fun civ3 is.

But no

Talk later

I'm sorry he just left at 04:51 p.m.

Wednesday, February 27, 2002

I have a big green A4 book, im thinking of using it as a diary... Then again maybe not. I cant put absolutly *everything* up here. Its more a generrrrrrral collection of my thoughts. I dont want to get too pacific....Xp

Dammit.. I need to talk to Simon, where is he? Darnit.

I'm sorry he just left at 10:21 p.m.

Monday, February 25, 2002
perfect blue buildings

Wasn't that bad, school drags on and on and on, but i had the A-level english and thearte study lectures, which were a highlight between texts from nat.

My internet seems to hate me, 3 times its disconnected me ;_;....been listening to radiohead all nite, and rushing my geog. i hjave to do it by 2moro, im out wiht nat again;

I know , im addicted dammit. Feeling creative still want to make new site, though established i have no artisic talents.....well that coupled with lack of musical telent.

Telent?...........(Yes i have nothing to say to day) Go read Joes 2 letters,,,, there far more entertianing

So nur

I'm sorry he just left at 10:38 p.m.

Sunday, February 24, 2002

Weeell.

Today i made put up and took down a layout, twasnt anything compared to this beaty, simon convinced me, he called it tragic.....*sob*. Oh and Rhian whats the addy for the divider bars thingie i lost it ;_;

In other news, normal blogging starts tomoro, as i head back to school.

And I put my party photos on the net, go look at them Now i took fotos of the fotos with my digi cam hence the desk around them, back focus/aim and quailty. till 2moro

I'm sorry he just left at 10:51 p.m.

Friday, February 22, 2002

wow

That last post was awfully poetic for being drunk. My brand new PS2 has filled the huge gap left in my life by the lack of school/nat. Which is nice otherwise i really would have nothing at all to do. Im not posting, no reason. I didnt even go on about the duologes but im gonna try to get the photos of my party on the net... which'll be nice..

I'm sorry he just left at 02:46 p.m.

Monday, February 18, 2002

of course me joe and natalie feel like if we could touch it our hands would go straight through and joe said it was un real. A sort of feeling that your sure on nothing exept that fact that it couldnt of happened. I know how he felt. i woke up in cancun to an empty room and wondered who had vomited all over my bad. And why my head hurt. Im tired and i cant sleep, of stop sneezing.

Well that ends my birthday. a year older. And strangely it something i wont quite forget. Strange.

Joe and nat got picked up and the exact smae time and i just sat here for a while...

I'm sure Joe will do an account.

I will wake up 2moro.

I'm sorry he just left at 12:28 a.m.

Tuesday, February 12, 2002
and me...

I arcived.

Rhian managed to insult my lazyness,writings and intelligence in a compact five lines......

Of course not that im....insulted or anything;

Sob....Of course doubled with the fact that i just generally havnt been me for a while.!N.B. People can stop reading now the rest is going to be bloddy impossible! you see spider man on t.v. and just before he's attack his spider senses tingle. Ever wondered what that feeling would be like? The sudden feeling that maybe something is crawling up behind you? Odd, i feel that if anything bad did happen it would bounce off me again...this migth be the sudden realisation that i have to chose my A-levels, or the fact that these duologes are coming up. Its a contrast at least, an unpleasant one. Vunerable? Somethings are getting to me more then they should, and i cannt think of any examples. Theres no-one at school, well a bit over half are year are in school, but my latin class has about 8 out of 18.

I feel that somehow half term will make it better, i feel like i have to get out somewhere. Maybe im tired because ive been out so often with nat.

I read memoirs of a dangerous alien. Its a kids book, i read it in a day. Its also one of my favorite books ever. Theres something great about it.....

I have to do far too mcuh work, and i need a week off. i feel like my birthday is coming up and nothing is happening. Maybe.....no. I have to plan a party, i dont want anything big. About 8 of us. We're gonna dress smart drink martinis and hire a french movie. But i cannot be bother to organise it for my birthday. I want half term to plan it......

!!N.B. R-L people read, so far my guestlist for my party is

Tom
Joe
Hollie
(the ever delightfull XP ) Rhian
Mark
Sara
Nat
Rich
And me....

I'm sorry he just left at 08:15 p.m.