Friday, February 2, 2007 10:01 p.m.

during lunch break today, i cabbed down to arab street to buy for suraya and myself the best nasi padang in town.
and also to trawl through haji lane for a bit. :)

malorie, julius, jiaying, sabrina and weiyan came to visit this week...
hope you guys enjoyed the chocolate!
i love my job, i do i do.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007 04:19 a.m.

my body clock is beyond repair but all the better because i've a decent excuse to become totally reliant on far coast coffee this way.
:) by far the yummiest.




and of course, teh bing which miss izuka (the ikebono lady) buys us regularly.

hmmm, 2 more weeks to go and i already miss my job.
it's inertia of the mind.

Sunday, January 28, 2007 09:34 p.m.

BEST WEEKEND EVER!!!

army book-outs, lip-smacking mocha, st nicks '03'04 class gathering, karaoke crazy, full-attendance sleepover, late-night cruise down to thomson, mango-pomelo iceblended, meaningful conversation quote unquote janice, pokepokepoker (i finally won something!), tiong bahru teochew mui and a 10-hour marathon nap.

this weekend peaks my moodchart at an 8.

and happy 19th birthday charmie!

Tuesday, January 23, 2007 11:40 p.m.

from weiyan's flickr.




we sleep, we read trashy things, we eat...
and that's life.

good day at the chocolate shop;
one more week to payday.
fasterfaster.

Saturday, January 20, 2007 01:36 a.m.



let's talk finances;
living beyond my means the past month has left me with a 2-digit sum in my bank account - must be the mad-ass shopping sprees...
already today i lost 20 dollars in poker but thank god for shuwei's car because the cab fare would've cost me a morning's dose of caffeine.

with starbucks, coffeebean and spinelli's just across the road and gloria jean and mccafe around the corner, i can safely say that i could probably tell you where to get the best vanilla latte or cappucino etc etc.
i need these things to prevent me from hibernating by the heat-emitting fridge motor, so there you go, that explains where a good portion of my paycheck goes.

blahblahkabbalah.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007 11:57 p.m.

and everything around her is a silver pool of light





she fills up every corner like she's born in black and white
makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
what you heard
she likes to leave you hanging on a word

Sunday, January 14, 2007 07:01 a.m.

wow after like 10 million years i finally saw 9 of my favourite people all in one day please tell me what are the odds of that.

old photos.



lunch was at marmalade pantry with jan charm chow shuwei tanny during my break followed by mos with tanny sarah sab trish and mich.
throbbing toes and dishevelled shoes from all that dancing;
the white eyeliner refuses to come off.

i think i'm going to sleep now.

Saturday, January 13, 2007 01:52 a.m.

just got back from supper with shuwei, tanny, charm and chow;
i say we patronize icebox and ice monster more often or at least before they get driven out of business.
seriously, i'm worried that they're making subnormal profits and will eventually close down.

or maybe i should start worrying about myself.
my bank account is dwindling and i swear i'm going to hit 3-digits soon enough.
today evening, sab and i went impromptu shopping at haji lane and i went way over budget pseudo-bargain shopping but oh well what's new.

work tomorrow.
sigh.

Thursday, January 11, 2007 09:20 a.m.

one of our crazyyy sleepovers.




and a rare study session at gardens...



work's in an hour but i'm still dead tired from last night.
anyway we had the weirdest customers yesterday;
pardon me but my words are becoming increasingly littered with unnecessary apologies.

rude caucasian lady.
she: do you have change for a fifty?
me: i'm sorry ma'am, we can't open the cash register without a purchase.
she: fine, get me a dollar's worth of chocolate.
me: i'm sorry but the cheapest would be a truffle and they cost about 4 to 5 dollars each.
she: that's fucking ridiculous!

following her, our last customer for the day was su's female stalker who bought over 150 grams of chocolate and finished the whole bag all at once.
i couldn't stop staring.

okay i'm off.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007 01:42 a.m.

i have this nagging feeling that the handphone salesman who attended to me today quoted the wrong price for the sgh-d900 model i eventually bought and that he shortchanged himself, charging me much lesser than the standard market price...
uh oh, is this me bring gullible and paranoid or did the poor guy really make a mistake that he now has to make up for?

Saturday, January 6, 2007 02:01 a.m.

dries van noten granny boots.

Friday, January 5, 2007 01:40 a.m.

i love my job;
only problem is that it's got me seriously hooked on starbucks, expensive lunches and morning cab rides (for when i'm late for work, which encompasses every single day really) - very unhealthy habits for the pocket.

today was an "authentically asian" dinner and drinks at indochine with the girls before sarah leaves for hongkong tomorrow.
there's no guilt being out midweek on a school night anymore (cheap thrill but feels good all the same).
for now though i'd better be off;
got to wake up early for fridge cleaning day - bleargh.

below is a song played on loop which i memorised in the shop.

michelle, ma belle.
these are words that go together well,
my michelle.

michelle, ma belle.
sont des mots qui vont très bien ensemble,
très bien ensemble.

i love you, i love you, i love you.
that's all i want to say.
until i find a way
i will say the only words i know that
you'll understand.

Thursday, January 4, 2007 03:51 a.m.

so someone asked, "why don't you talk about things more in-depth in your blog - like your thoughts and feelings as opposed to the day's happenings?"
and i said, "because i don't feel comfortable baring my heart (or mind, for that matter) - hardly ever in person and much less online."

thought about it for a while and decided that hey i'll give it a shot, because therapeutic or not, i write for myself and am therefore held accountable to only one.

a little reflection;
2006 saw me in good hands with no emotional rollercoaster rides (thankfully) and yet infinitely more highs than lows.
those who know me well would've heard of my theory about the snowball emotion in which every new year brings with it a new and as yet unfelt emotion wont to be experienced on top of the emotional spectrum from years before.
basically it's an accumulation of feelings that expand our emotional range and only gets increasingly wide in its vacillations.
for me that new experience would have to be the feelings of utter and complete inadequacy, incompetence and incapacitation.
i know they look like synonyms for each other but they're actually very disparate feelings with individual events of their own (not least the 'a' levels during which i felt like an incompetent idiot every one of those dreary mugging days).
i definitely hadn't felt as helpless before - including times on the hockey pitch (and bench) and in the classroom.
on the other hand, i also felt true friendship, real family love and genuine kindness - the stuff you save for your grandkids' bedtime stories or heartwarming soap opera scripts (if ever i do write one) - so in a way the highs do outnumber the lows.
either way, with every new experience felt is an expansion of our emotional range, and that's my definition of growing as a person.

so the theory dictates that this year will be more emotional for me than ever before, and will be so for the rest of my life.
i'm slightly afraid of what 2007 heralds and of course hope that its a new uplifting feeling more so than a despondent one.
there are so many possibilities, not least the feeling of loneliness which i've never experienced to such great a depth as to add to my emotional spectrum (what with my sheltered life including friends who have grown up with me and never left my side), so maybe with everyone flying off or moving away to college and university, that feeling of loneliness will now be a very real possibility.
well, let's hope not.

okay if you've read up till here i'm sincerely amazed.
i come up with so many balmy theories and concepts that i really should share more of them to get 'em off my mind...
alrighty, i'm off to bed.

Thursday, January 4, 2007 01:01 a.m.

edit: finally bought a pair of superfine jeans and i just might get a second pair tomorrow.
things to do during lunch break. :)

just got back from shuwei's place where we baked cookies and played more poker;
all i can say is that my luck gets worse everytime.
why why why?

Wednesday, January 3, 2007 02:37 a.m.

over dinner and latenight coffee with herngliang and weiyan today i realised that i really don't wanna grow up;
on the other hand i'll be getting my paycheck this weekend and that in itself is a milestone especially since i requested for daddy to stop giving me an allowance from this week onwards.

imagine that - karina rejecting money - i swear i saw a stunned look and then the hint of a secret smile on his face.

Tuesday, January 2, 2007 04:46 a.m.

heralding 2007;
a special birthday (janice i miss you, come back from london!),
good food (merrySURPRISE + island creamery),
awesome company (shuwei tanny chow charm mich sarah sab),
singalong songs (screaming "does that make me crazy..." in the home theatre),
great fun (poker + spades + mahjong),
and big laughs (like shuwei reversing into the driveway and backing right into her brother's car).

finally sat down to the music of one i've been hearing so much about and i do agree that charles lim was pretty awesome from what little i heard him sing at the gig on sunday.

my body clock's gone haywire and i happen to be working tomorrow.
but anyway, happy new year everyone!