Monday, December 16, 2002
04:44 p.m.

Well after a day of moving around campus and downtown. I finally have time to sit down. Took my last final today. Not so sure about what the result would be like, but for me in taking tests. It's always that end. After moving around the campus went downtown and saw my counselor. That was a strange moment. Came back up to campus and saw a minor car accident. It was a little too weird so I only walked passed it, feeling a little numb. It started to snow again today. Tap left. Going to be going back to the city tomorrow.

Monday, December 16, 2002
08:17 a.m.

I'm going to be so dead later that this is just stupid. I mean....come on....what person could sleep at 3-something in the morning and then wake up at 7-something? Life is not fair. That means I only got around 3-4 hours of sleep today. Well...that doesn't bode well with things the way they're going. Well, I could sleep on the bus back to the city tomorrow...but then I would have to bring a pillow back or something. Shit.

Sunday, December 15, 2002
09:48 p.m.

Well...long time no write... I just don't know what to say...added to the fact of real life time constraints...god college is ending now... tomorrow's my last final and I'm just so bummed out that it's not even funny. I just feel so depressed about my final.

I'm already in a very sorry shape from last week. Last week I completed four finals. Took the College Writing Test which counts as a Comp final last week....didn't do so well. Then on Thurs spent a day completing three finals, my Math, History and INTD. Also...didn't do so good on those tests. The reason why I'm feeling this, I went through two finals in 15 minutes each. When I complete tests, with this ease, it leaves me a bad feeling of doing something wrong. I'm getting depressed just thinking about it....and now with this attitude about my Geog final tomorrow..it's enough to make me choke.

Well in this semester...I could clearly sit back and reflect as I realized what this first semester as a College Student would mean to me. As brief as it might be...thanks to that freaking unexpected break, that the content woudl be thankfully and hopefully closed for good.

I met many many people this semester, made a few friends and mostly gave some of them impressions that I'm a very hyper, scary and not so serious person. This is something that I didn't want to see happen. Because I know once again...this is turning to be like HS once more.

I find that it's very hard to find that niche of comfort I had in HS with the anime club as a comfort area. Because been missing my friends back home. What I find comfortable was mostly staying by myself and playing Kingdom Hearts as well as getting into the fandom of reading Buffy/Spike fiction. Mari...moved... Now a college friend of mine. I will be calling her Tap is taking a leave of absence to go back to living with her parents for a while.

I've realized that this could be a very lonely existence. And look now this reflective thoughts have started to make me feel depressed. Oh shit... well it's going to be something to go and talk with to the shrink about. It's a experience to try and adjust to college. I just hope next semester won't be like this one.

Also this is going to be my last time writing in this thing....until next semester begins. My home doesn't have a computer. I gave the computer at home to my sister. Hence no computer and internet. Not unless I go bug some friends for computer usage.

Now for some lighter and maybe hopeful note. Just the other day... I've decided to tackle on a minor in Geography. So now my majors are Philosphy, Sociology with a concentration in Pre-professional and now a minor. From my group blog as well...I'm transporting this....

My New Year's resolution...

• Next semester try harder in doing well.
• Work on not procrastinating.
• Try not to use that much money/Save money.
• Try and get A or B's in my classes.
• Prove to people that it's okay to take an 18 hour schedule and still come out okay.
• Stay in touch with friends...who moved.
• Learn Japanese and stick with learning the material.

Thursday, December 12, 2002
10:52 p.m.

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