Friday, August 9, 2002 - 1:53 AM
Well...still hanging in there, was hanging out listening to the a freestyle rap that several people in the dorm was making out. I enjoyed it immensely, because it struck me as deep inside where everything I like is just broken down and behind facade.

Lately however, with me being in college and all... it just seems to me, that I'm trying to leave my past self, of being a unstudious person behind.

Listening to the rap, was something that I though that I'll never enjoy. Mainly because I was influenced by the fact that there is nothing in the song content, but sex and drugs. However, I find that I love to hear the song: Changes sang by the deceased Tupac....and with Oneonta, being a school where there must be great responsibility in being able to suceed.

I only wish and hope that I won't fall behind the changes that are happening and being able to comprehend that one must be the truest of open minds in the logical sense in order of survival.

Thursday, August 8, 2002 - 11:30 PM
Oh my god.... I had the a pretty good surprise today.... well Summer Academy had ended and we had a farewell banquet at Morris Center...

The food was really nice...real food...not Wilsbach hall's food...ick...

So, everything was fine. I sat with RLC and we talked and ate. When the ceramony to individually hand out the certificates of completion came up. It went alphabetically, so I knew that I was second to last person to get my certificate. (People who know me know what my real last name is; sooo...)

When I was my name was called, everyone I think...meaning everyone gave me a standing ovation in honor of me. I was sooo surprised...I wanted to cry, but I was too shock to cry... there was no tears...only sheer surprise.

So, I graciously went and got my certificate. After the individual recognition finished, came the resident hall's own certificates. I was very surpised also, when I won the Most Popular Female certificate that I was...like OMG.... >_< ....

I got two awards and now I'm leaving tommorrow that I really want to cry...

I'm going to be staying in Wilbur and as to what I said to Mina earlier about discussing Oneonta's characteristics for entertainment...that shall have to be discussed later... when I'm not rushing off somewhere else... ttul... ^ ~ Ciao....

Thursday, August 8, 2002
I'm leaving soon...! Yay....

Yesterday, I had the talent show and that was a good thing.I messed up on my song, but the fashion show and my hosting, everyone liked.

Also, RLC came up early to get me! He wanted to see the talent show and so there he was. His opinion of the talent show was that it was alright. He was offended tho, because there was a burping segment ^ ^().

Plus, my hair is now in corn rows! Yesterday the girls had wanted to do my hair in that fashion and man did it hurt, but I did it...yesterday I've also made a inference that not all people in this program are that bad, it's just for me to accept the fact that they're the person that they are.....

The other day, I had watched the movie in my English and Study Skills class, A Beautiful Mind with Rusell Crowe and I loved it! It was an excellent piece. RLC's been wanting to go to the theaters to watch it when it was in the theater's, but never made it...so I got to watch it before him!

Yesterday, I've also made a decision on a likely college major. I decided on Philosophy and perhaps in time, a dual major or minor. Because this time, I've made my decision that in years ahead, I will try to first get my Bachelors, then go on to getting my masters and finally I would really like to achieve PH.D status. High expections right? All I hope is that I won't burn myself out in the process....

College is such a time when one could just enjoy and learn things before finding a career. The last step before truly becoming a grown person.

Some people may pick on me now for being strange or dumb or even arrogant, but that's who I am and all I need to do now, is to work on being proud of myself and accept that I'm the person that I am. That I won't be killing myself in the process of fulfilling what mom's expectations of me.

Too serious right? Maybe so, but I'll be leaving it off now... ^ ~

First some quiz results...!

Awww... I miss my cat... >_<

take the non-offensive quiz.
and go to mewing.net. laura = great.

take the cher test.
and go to mewing.net. because laura isn't cher.