Monday, March 31, 2003
09:42 p.m.

Weather Conditions:Cold
Speakers Blaring:King of Glory/Treasure in Heaven-Third Day/Burlap to Cashmere
Feeling:Anxious, confused and Sick.

Heather said that in prayer, one could emotionally throw up on God and not have to spend time cleaning. I seem to have that problem. I'm having a hard time with personal things...and I hope with prayers that my problems will resolve, becasue I know that God will provide.

I'm getting sick again...I truly hate chest congestion colds. But now what to do...read my psych txt book or read the Bible?

I've identified my biggest grip as this computer in front of my face....but it is with ridget discipline that I must control this grip.

Monday, March 31, 2003
05:22 p.m.

Weather Conditions:Windy
Speakers Blaring:Wind-Naruto OST
Feeling:Mixture of feelings.

Well...don't know much to say...only that I'm getting sick. Nothing really much to say about except that this is a very dusty site...

Thursday, March 27, 2003
11:26 p.m.

Weather Conditions:Cool spring weather
Speakers Blaring: You Will Never Walk Alone-Point of Grace
Feeling:Content, feelings of Joy.

I sorta let this page...just sit here...while I muddle over some things. Something important happened to me tonight...something that I hope would remain consistent. I've been having worries over school recently, but I guess if I just take my time and not get so stressed then I could get a lot of things done......that and I need to gain more of a confidence...but all things aside.... something significant happened today in CA..... I've verbally accepted God as the sacrfice for my sins. I just never thought I'll be accepted, but with God's grace...and forgivness....it's always going to be a new day and renewal of spirits for me....his servant....

Tuesday, March 18, 2003
09:09 p.m.

Weather Conditions:Cool
Speakers Blaring:God of All-Twila Paris
Feeling:Edgy.

Well...today in school was okay. It was a regular Tuesday I think....some of my classes didn't have much students. Apparently a lot of people were very hung over from yesterday. Oh well....the weather's very nice...reminds me of last summer....

Monday, March 17, 2003
12:04 p.m.

Weather Conditions:Sunny
Speakers Blaring:God of All-Twila Paris
Feeling:Relaxed, Introspective.

What a day....I forgot to mention in the previous blog entry how lovely the day is...! Spring is definitely coming and I'm loving the realization of that. Yesterday we had 61 degrees and today we're having 60 degrees. The snow's melting and there's a flood warning advistory, but I'm glad! The weather probably would change for the worst...but it's also good sign that Spring is coming....with Winter trying to stay in place. Oh how excited I am...for when Spring breaks out!

Today's also St. Patrick's Day, I didn't realize it, but apprently this is a holiday where people go out full scale on getting drunk. That's not something good, but then again that's the sinfulness of people and it's something that is an individual's choice.

These past few days I've been in very good moods because I've been doing much soul searching. I've been affirming with myself that I'm not perfect, but I could honestly say that I desire God's forgivness.

Everyone has a different meaning for what they say or stand for, this is a sociological mask that everyone would struggle with. Personally I realize that I have these masks and that it's a hard thing to realize because I've been struggling by myself. Everyone has their problems and I'm having my own struggles in afirming people to trust and what not to trust....I just hope that my resolve for trust in God and Jesus would stay as strong.

I've already realized that my own personality, choices and doubts have already set me up for a long road of struggle, but this is a personal relationship that I long to have.

Saturday, March 15, 2003
10:51 p.m.

On a not so stressful.... note. This past Tuesday, I went to Albany and went protesting against the proposed tuition hike.

Saturday, March 15, 2003
09:00 p.m.

Weather Conditions:Cool
Speakers Blaring:Rocks-Hound Dog
Feeling:Relaxed.

After a stressful week in college... the week's over for now. I'm falling behind in all my classes....however.... I'm still working on trying to catch up with all my work, so I believe that it can't be that bad.

However got to say something nice occured yesterday and today. Some people may call it a waste of time and a tiny part of me may also agree, but I had gone on a Christian Overnight Women's Retreat, regarding on issues of identity in God's eyes.

I who had a lot of school work to do....didn't really want to go, but I had promised to go, but I went and I discovered that I had a nice time. The retreat I think really is strenghthing my faith on being a Christian. There was a lot of soul searching in this retreat that was very reflective for me.

Being up here at SUCCO is definitly out of my comfort zone. So with a yearning to mending battered beliefs, I joined up with the Christian Club: Campus Ambasssadors and it's been a very good experience for me. I hope that with my growing faith in God, then the world wouldn't look so bleak and gray for me.