Saturday, May 10, 2003
03:55 a.m.

Gosh...and golly...I don't know how much more entries I could even write from my own computer before I store this thing for next semester. However, that's not to say that I'm not at all...a little glad for the break from this monstrosity of a contraption.

I'm done with finals....I think I did the best I could on them, despite the fact that I didn't really study much. My Psyc final was suppose to have 100 questions, but the exam was missing about 30 questions, due to a misprint of the copy machine. Not to sure how I did on that exam. Not going to even comment on my Anth final, since it's pretty much the same thing.

The other day just before Thursday's Phil final for me, the night earlier: I didn't sleep at all.

I worry about what the summer would be have for me. I dislike completely what's going to happen for me this summer. It's very nice in being able to go on a plane to another country for the first time, but I worry about work opportunities this summer. It is because of the duration that I can't work as I had hoped for. I hate this disruption. I truly dislike it, but I can't help but just wish that my family will have time to bond.

Being that I'm away from home and in another city. I don't get to spend as much time with my sister and mother. I miss them....but whenever I go back. I realized with growing sadness. The responsibilities that come with life. This is getting kinda depressing for me, since every single time I think that I go home.

I feel more and more obligated to try and help my mother out. In areas of finance and then to have this gaining feeling of independence lost. It's very hard...for the fact it would seem that time stood still for me as the routines of like I'm still in high school come back to haunt me. Happy as they are.

In this world....one can sometimes fall prey to being too cynical. I fall into those situations and it's not a healthy process...but then again...who's to say that life's fair in all aspects.

Sounding a little dark am I? Well....apologies.....but then again. I'm just in one of my moods...added to the very fact that I've spent the last few hours considering upon the fact of should I get Animatrix or not....that is on the fact that it's one of the line of Matrix.

Saw several previews....and the artwork's very impressive, along with the fact that the story line is fantastic. But that's also to say that I'm once again plague with the bad depressive thoughts. I hate seeing the images of Animatrix, but I couldn't help myself, thinking whether or not should I get it....because I had just ordered on the internet, Matrix Revisited dvd.

Been doing that a lot lately...Amazon....has it's pros/cons. First Ebay and now this. Mom's going to not be happy.

Matrix's second movie is coming out next Thursday. Kermit says he's going to get Animatrix when it comes out in stores.

I don't know whether or not I should or should not.....shouldn't be spending that much money anyway. God what am I going to do over the summer.....

Thursday, May 8, 2003
06:17 p.m.

I'm so pissed off! Damn the fridge company to hell!

Saturday, May 3, 2003
08:01 p.m.

Weather Conditions:Warm and cool Spring day.
Speakers Blaring:Nothing
Feeling:Weird.

Well...today...I finished my Philosophy paper...still have my psychology paper to do. Getting more and more antsy as the time to leave comes up tho. Gosh....I really need to get a job...but this summer is going to be plain weird....