Friday, February 21, 2003
11:19 p.m.

Weather Conditions:Cold?
Speakers Blaring:Beauty Within Us-Ghost in the Shell: Stand Alone Complex OST
Feeling:Tired.

The day passed by with some regularity. I went to my Psyc test today. Not sure how I did on it, but I'll just have to wait until I know the results.

It felt strange and also a little sad once more, that I saw people leaving. I know that, this is only for a break. But it's still sad for me. I wonder if I'll always have this feeling tho. The campus felt so empty....

But then what is the point? I want to be a part of everything and yet there's times when I don't want any part of society. That's sorta sad.

I didn't get the RA position, but I'm working now on other things. So I guess it's okay...there's still plenty of other chances...

I'm leaving tomorrow....and going on a break...so this will probably be the last you'll hear from me in a short while.

Friday, February 21, 2003
11:30 a.m.

Weather Conditions:Nice
Speakers Blaring:Delicious-Petshop of Horror OST
Feeling:Fine.

The week sort of went fast. There was that unexpected snow day on Monday....but the weather's great outside now. Of course tomorrow. I'm going to be kicked out of the dorm for the start of a Mid-Winter Recess. I could leave now...but I'm thinking why stress it.... Still have yet to start packing, but I think that I should start packing soon. Still have things to do...like working and a committee meeting.

My roomate's boyfriend got a job as an RA at Hulbert...I'm not sure of my chances to being an RA because my RD have yet to get the results yet for this hall...so I'm still waiting. I'm not really counting on getting the job now tho. Oh well....

Sunday, February 16, 2003
03:32 p.m.

Weather Conditions:Very Cold
Speakers Blaring: Nothing
Feeling:Sick/Tired.

I just had my Group Processing Day and that went okay. Becuase as much people did say that they had fun. I had felt a little sick. I'm not sure whether I did alright, but time will tell whether I got the position or not.

Sunday, February 16, 2003
01:21 a.m.

Weather Conditions:Cold
Speakers Blaring: Nothing
Feeling:Tired.

Well had a pretty good Saturday evening. Went to the CME late Chinese New Year Event, which wasn't that good. Then went to bowling which was quite pleasant. Turns out that I'm a pretty okay bowler. Played two games and went from being the worst bowler in the first game to the best bowler in the second. In the first round I think that I had the ending score of 21 and at the second game 99.

Have the second RA interview tomorrow so... :-b

Friday, February 14, 2003
02:14 p.m.

Weather Conditions:Cool
Speakers Blaring:Nothing
Feeling:Okay.

Okay...I was very worried the other day. Went out and dropped my keys, of course I found it, but then again the other day...went and just about think that I would be very broke the next time I go home.... :-<

Time's passing fast and I'm wondering how will I do in my classes...I don't feel that stressed about my classes, but I just have a tinge of worries.

Friday, February 14, 2003
02:10 p.m.

Weather Conditions:Cool
Speakers Blaring:Nothing
Feeling:Okay.

Just finished the first interview for being an RA, let's just hope I didn't make a bad impression as I feared. So I'm sorta having my fingers crossed.

Otherwise, I'm just feeling a little tipsy... not alcoholic tipsy, but just fatigue tipsy. I got back to my dorm yesterday late and woke up this morning a little late....hence... but that's okay I guess. I'm going to be going to church later for a dinner and movie...so that's my idea of a Valentine's Day. Let's just hope that Bob's there tonight, so that I actually got someone to go back to the dorm with. Still have to lend him Xtreme Legends

Wednesday, February 12, 2003
08:32 a.m.

Weather Conditions:Still Snowing and very hard too!
Speakers Blaring:Nothing
Feeling:Tired.

It seems as if the entire campus is like a ghost town in this type of weather. It's snowing and it's snowing very hard too. Visablilty was very poor on the road, you couldn't even see familiar landscapes. I'm getting a bit over my cold, but my roomate's now sick, the whole campus seesm to be affected, I wonder if it's the utensils. The dinning halls don't really clean them so well, so whenever I go to eat, I'm like ewwww. I do pick the cleanest out of the bunch tho. Also It's going to be -10 tomorrow.

Monday, February 10, 2003
11:29 p.m.

Weather Conditions:Snowing
Speakers Blaring:All the Way-Final Fantasy X Vocal Collection
Feeling:Sick.

I just heard a really good lecture this night. The speaker was a man named TJ Leyden and his topic was Turning Against the Hate. His lecture was about an hour or so, but what he said made me once again think of myself in detail. This is only about the so-unteepth time I've been trying this. I try to find myself and it always results in me realizing again how imperfect that I could be as a human. How once again I must strive to reach something meaningful. But then I forget, and the whole cycle starts over again. I'll get the idea someday or maybe never. That idea is a little disheartening, but doesn't mean I'll stop.

It may seem to most of my friends that I'm having a hard time in college. But it just seems like I am, because whenever I write about what's happening to me. I focus on the bad things or depending on my mood what I am feeling at that moment.

Life is turmoulous in the aspect that one must be brave to face the world. This is something I'm trying to work upon to face. How one must work the matrix and as Plato would say..... writing is worst thing in world. Writing doesn't provide the truth, for there is always a hidden meaning behind the words.

Humans use writing to record a memory, but the brain is faster then the fingers, hence one can never get everything that they're thinking on paper. That's not possible. So, here I am...trying to record poignent feelings of mine. Hence...what's in words I say?

I'm trying to now think of a suitable life motto for myself to truly up hold upon and I also have a Philosophy quiz tomorrow that I've barely studied for.