tuesday.december.28.2004
just how busy am i?

you can tell by the stuff i post. and now for another survey.. (thanks coley)

Seven things in your room:
1. godzilla videogame sticker
2. australian flag
3. a crate full of yarn
4. bobby pins everywhere!
5. ukelele lamp
6. shoes in their original boxes
7. CHOCOCAT!

Top seven things you say most:
1. "geeez"
2. "shuuuuudddduuuuuppp"
3. "look at the boh-deee!"
4. "aww kitty"
5. "seriously"
6. "fatty"
7. "whut up mang"

Do You:
Smoke? bleh, no.
Do drugs? nope.
Read the news paper? i do whenever i have one around
Pray? sometimes
Have a Job? it's all about the Z!
Attend Church? yes, occassionally.

Have you ever:
Been in love? yes, and i still am.
Gone skinny dipping? i don't think so.
Had surgery? nope.
Swam in the dark? yes. it's more fun in a jacuzzi.
Been to a Bonfire? yup. pretty.
Got Drunk? back in the day... haha.
Ran away from home? nope.
Played strip poker? i would if i was any good.
Gotten beaten up? does it count when you wrestle with your older brothers?
Beaten someone up? let's just say i know how to defend myself.
Been on stage? Oh yea.
Slept outdoors? yep.
Pulled an all nighter? yeah, a few times.
Been on radio/tv? yes, both.
Been in a mosh-pit? haha, yeah.
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? of course

Cologne/Perfume? on me, issey miyake. on him... well, he always smells good! mmmmhmmm..

In the last 24 Hours have you...
Cried? kind of.
Bought something? lunch and some paintings for my brother
Gotten sick? no.
Sang? ohhh yeah.
Been kissed? no, but i will in the next 24 hours.
Felt stupid? haha, all the time.
Talked to an ex? nope.
Talked to someone you have a crush on? just his voicemail.
Missed someone? of course!
Hugged someone? yep. my brother.
Sex with someone? ....

monday.december.27.2004
take a chance you stupid ho.

why is it now
the time i need you the most
you let me down
and for get how a close
friend is supposed to act,
usually there to watch my back,
when you can't even phone
or visit me at home.
i suppose it'd take too much of your time
to call me, even after nine,
since we know those minutes marked free
are all too underserving,
especially for me.
it's been quite the challenge,
this friendship we've shared,
i'm sure it doesn't keep you up
and i bet you hardly care.
but is it pathetic that i actually care?
to promise you no matter what happens
i'll always be there?
for you to cry to
when he crushes your dreams?
or to give you a ride home
when everyone decides to leave?
i don't know why you've decided
to put me through such pain,
when all i've done is return
the friendship you once gave.
welcome back to the place you deem home
you'll notice when you step through the door
you're left all alone
so throw your heavy bags on the floor
and call those other people in which you care more.
i'll still be here
but with a different goal in life:
to stop waiting around
for those that cause me strife.
right now i know
you're the cause of it all
so remember that when
i decide to let you fall.

sunday.december.19.2004
ahh, winter break.

i'm snagging this off of miss rosie's site.

Ten Random Things About Me:
1. Chococat is my favorite Sanrio character.
2. I get attached to pens, pencils, or markers if I like the way they write.
3. I still get nervous before a performance.
4. I know how to sew.
5. I enjoy wrapping presents.
6. I bite my nails when I'm nervous or stressed.
7. I have a Planter's Peanuts logo sleeping bag.
8. I won an award for writing a composition in Spanish.
9. I rewrite notes from my classes if I think they look ugly. (as nerdy as that sounds, it helps me remember!)
10. I own a typewriter.

Nine Places I've Visited:
1. Saigon
2. Manila
3. Beijing
4. Reno
5. Applegate :)
6. Anchorage
7. Taipei
8. Shanghai
9. Lake Tahoe

Eight Things I Want To Do Before I Die:
1. Write reviews for a magazine as a career.
2. Japan and Europe.
3. Read my poetry at an open mic night.
4. Sing in a musical.
5. Knit a beenie.
6. Snowboard.
7. Learn a wind/brass instrument.
8. Go back to AUSTRALIA!

Seven Things To Win My Heart:
1. A superb cook
2. Humor
3. A love/understanding/open-mind for/of/towards music.
4. Cat lover!
5. Good hygiene habits - PLEASE.
6. Creativity.
7. CULTURAL DIVERSITY!!

Six Things I Believe In:
1. God.
2. Everyone has a soulmate.
3. Cats and dogs have their own heaven.
4. Practice makes perfect.
5. Honesty is the best policy.
6. What goes around, comes around.

Five Things I'm Afraid Of:
1. Insects/spiders/worms - BLECH.
2. Failing
3. Losing a close family member or friend.
4. Getting into a car accident.
5. Losing any of my musical abilities.

Four Favorite Items in My Room
1. A portrait my brother drew of me when I was little
2. Chococat plush with a scarf
3. Ukelele lamp
4. Vietnamese panels from my mom representing the four seasons.

Three Things I Do Every Day:
1. Call Johnny.
2. Listen to the morning traffic and weather reports.
3. Use chapstick.

Two Things I'm Trying Not To Do Right Now:
1. Bite my nails.
2. Think about waking up early.

One Person I Want To See Right Now:
1. Who do you think?? THE BOYFRIEND!

thursday.december.16.2004
boyfriend day.

finally had a day off from everything to kick back and spend time with the boyfriend. we squeezed in some good times before we headed to the winchester mystery house. ohh my goodness. i've lived in san jose since i was six and this was the first time i've ever been there. SOOOO amazing. sarah winchester was SUCH a smart lady. it's such a shame that she went so crazy... and so lonely. to even imagine how much more beautiful the authentic house was is just incredible. i had so much fun... especially because it was only fatty and i with our tour guide. he was too funny. after that, we headed to pasta pomodoro for some good grub. then it was back to fatty's to kick back. we watched saved! i don't know... i didn't think it was all that great. it was funny... and i give macauly and his lady in the movie kudos for that. but i think mainly why i didn't find it the greatest movie ever is because i grew up with christian morals and a christian background and the movie really exaggerates the whole christian influence in a person's life. like, christian rock and christians trying to be more in touch with pop culture. i don't know what it is about that. i think it's just weird for me because i know people that are on that pop culture side of christianity, while at the same time, my close relatives are VERY traditional with religion. i mean, i think i have like three or four male relatives that are ministers. but anyway, before i get into a whole discussion about religion, i need to finish studying for my last two finals tomorrow. thank goodness it's going to be over!!! i could not wait for this semester to come to a close. geezus.

thursday.december.02.2004
bored from a to z

A - age: 20
B - band listening to right now: the cranberries
C - crush: johnny fizzle
D - Dad's name: manolo
E - easiest person to talk to: my crush
F - favorite band at the moment: death cab for cutie
G - gummy bears or gummy worms: gummy worms, especially the dual colored ones!
H - hometown: exmouth
I - instrument: today it was the xylos!
K - kids: OF COURSE!!
L - longest car ride ever: coming home from reno.. cause we stopped in sacramento
M - Mom's name: nham
N - number of siblings: 2 older brothers
O - one wish: AUSTRALIA!
P - phobia[s]: the deep and dark parts of the ocean
Q - favorite quote: "Hey step into my office" "Why?" "'Cause you're fuckin' fired!!"
R - reason to smile: fatty cat!
S - song you sang last: hats off to larry by del shannon
T - time you wake up: LATE everyday!
U - unknown fact about me: i used to collect stamps
V - vegetable you hate: ampalaya
W - worst habit(s): nail biting
X - x-rays you've had: teeth
Y - yummy food: fat kids love everything!
Z - zodiac sign: virgo

saturday.november.27.2004
*tweet* beat fresno state!

too bad we LOST hard. seventeen seconds into the game, and fresno already scored a touchdown. from then on, we rolled our eyes and knew it was going to be one of "those" games. it doesn't help either that i think i'm getting sick. i rested for a bit, and feel better, but man... i totally thought i was going to collapse at the game. especially because i was getting that feeling like my joints were aching, not to mention it was SOOO cold, and i was getting the chills on top of the cold weather.

i've come to some realizations not too long ago. the first is that i'm getting close to transferring. too bad the question that remains unanswered is where i'm going to go. when i graduated from high school, i had my heart set on going to socal. but now, i don't know if i want to. in my experience, people change, it seems more expensive, and it's just far. but then again, i'm going to dread living at home. what am i talking about?? i ALREADY dread it and HAVE been. geezus. anyway, another thing that ties into the whole school thing is how expensive it's becoming to go to a CSU or a UC. i'm over here complaining about how community college has upped their prices to $26 a unit, from the $11 it was when i started, when just the other day, we were talking about how SJSU's tuition is like in the thousands. ohhh geeez. money surely is the root of all that kills.

second realization is how people change. it's a bitch. and sometimes those that change, change into bitches. i understand everyone has a busy life - i do. that's not what i'm complaining about. it's the keeping in touch, and basically being "there" for those you consider friends that people change when they leave. i wonder why... the world works in mysterious ways, and i must say this is a good one to ponder about. but no more about this wonderful subject, it's putting me in a bad mood.

well after sitting here for a few minutes, thinking of what else i need to get off my chest, i've come to the conclusion of two things: i'm tired and i'm hungry. so good night all and eat fat.

sunday.november.07.2004
RENO rhymes with KENO!

my weekend was soo fun! on friday, i went to reno with the marching band. johnny drove up, and coincidentally met us at a rest stop! aww, boyfriend. fun bus ride. our poor bus driver! haha. he must have been so annoyed with all of us laughing, singing, big booty, etc. heheh. had some good times at circus circus that night with the crew. ate at a buffet, played games, won stuff, watched the circus acts. poor colleenanator wasn't feeling good and had to spend the evening in bed. lucky girl got ELEVEN hours of sleep. haha. when we got back to the hotel, we had more good times. went to albertson's, drank, kicked it, watched some mtv, as well as monica playing the sims.

the next day, we slept in hella late. ate breakfast at mel's diner. kicked it with chica at albertson's. chilled again, more tv again. gussied up for the gig. loaded the busses. off to UNR. HELLLLA cold game. but we had so much fun! AND the chica and i got a picture with UNR's hella sick mascot, Alfie. the team lost, but we played an okay show. it was SOOOOO cold. after losing the feeling in my toes, ears, fingers, and nose, we loaded up the bus and went back to the hotel. dinner at mel's. warmed up with some drinks. more mtv. chica and i headed around in search of our other friends. after crashing one 'party' and being shut out of two rooms, we ran into the boys of 1128. chilled. then we somehow came up with this brilliant idea for a college kids circus circus game. it involved chica's weather ball and the a/c unit. i am proud to announce, i was the official first winner of the game! hahaha. heck yeah! one thing led to another, and the game evolved into larger, heavier, pointier items and the a/c unit. let's just say we got really into the game, and the security guy had to come up and tell us to simmer down. hahahaha. it was soo classic, though. before we died of laughter, chica and i headed our separate ways and said good night. spent some quality time with the boyfriend. ahh...

headed back to san jose today. stopped off at a rest stop and had some play time in the snow with boyfriend. attempted to build a snow man. had a snow fight. our next stops were in applegate and sacramento. fun times with johnny's relatives. toured around downtown sacramento, viewed jen's new place, cruised the fab forties, drove by old town and sac state. FUN times. before we knew it, the sun had set and we were on our way back home. now i'm here, and i'm soooo tired. in some ways, i'm sad to be back home. chica and i were talking about how it's like we never left. but then again, i wouldn't have wanted to stay any longer in reno. ugh. i'm glad san jose is nothing like that. hahaha. i now understand why reno 911 offends people from reno... but it shouldn't. we'll just leave it at that. ugh, i need to do laundry, and homework, and get sleep. boo for school tomorrow. yay for being in a state that cares about your lungs. however, now that i think about it, reno's second hand smoke is like the equivalent to our horrible city smog. hmm.. i guess it's really like i never left then!

monday.november.01.2004
the leaves begin to fall.

for halloween, i dressed up as an old school tennis player. racket, tube socks, wristband and all! quite fun. went to the halloween party with boyfriend. fun stuff! hahaha. the boyfriend will agree that he had a super awesome halloween. *wink*
after writing the last entry, which was an original poem, i've started considering reading my poems at readings and such. i'm having the stage fright feelings, and lots of it comes because of the fact that they're sincerely from me. i think they're good, and i've had nothing but positive feedback... so why not? i shouldn't care, right? hopefully, the love is there.
leaving to reno this weekend. i'm way excited. as sad as this sounds, i've never been to another state. i've been totally out of the country so many times, but just did the california thing. so sad. i'm anxious about reno. we're playing a show i really enjoy too, so that makes it even more worthwhile.

friday.october.29.2004
and if you complain, you'll meet an army of me.

people change whether you like it or not,
and sometimes they hold on to habits you forgot.
there's a chance they turn out better than before,
but in my life, i've only come across those i now wish to ignore.
you try to hold on to the memories of the past
but just like life, it is precious and does not last.
i wish things were back to when we first met,
but i realize they are images i will eventually forget.
we have ventured on our separate ways
and seen first-hand
how things with us will never be the same.
you have changed
and so have i,
so good luck with all that you encounter in life.
goodbye.

monday.october.25.2004
the tummy that won't settle.

so about a week ago, i had some food poisoning. i thought it would've been gone by now, but i actually threw up a little last night. and i'm having a KILLER stomach ache. i honoestly think it's still left overs from last week... or i have a bug or something. ugh. the shitty thing is that i have no free time to get it checked. i'm either at school, work, or marching band.

i'm dreading school more and more. i don't know why... i guess i'm just getting the whole procrastination thing going on again. i keep telling myself to kick the habit, but it's so hard to break old habits. especially procrastination. i have also come to the realization that i really don't like lecture classes. those are the ones i usually have a hard time with since we do NOTHING in there. nothing but sit and listen to a teacher. in this particular class i'm talking about, we don't even need to take notes. the teacher GIVES it to us. i hate classes like that. they feel so half-ass. i like classes where we get homework, and teachers actually have assignments to do in class. i'm not much of the group work person either. sometimes i feel like group work is another half ass thing - especially in college.

friday.october.15.2004
food posioning.

thinking up the list of what it probably was...
black tea lemonade
gyoza with gyoza sauce
yakisoba
chili cheese fries
cheese bread steak sandwich
bottomless fries with ranch
tortilla soup

dammit. i'm all torn up. i had to call into work, and now i'm stuck at home drinking pediatric electrolyte that tastes like regurgitated bubble gum combined with shit. i think my tummy is feeling worse now that i've taken it. bleh.

tuesday.october.12.2004
whatcha' want?!

what a wonderful day!

art history exam today. i studied my ass off, and i'm pretty confident in my results. the exam was pretty much straight forward, just like how the teacher explained it would be. i'm a bit anxious to get my test back now! haha.

played with the boyfriend after school. went to the art museum and had SOO much fun. ohhh geez. everyone HAS to go. the current exhibits are GREAT! i totally loved robert schwartz's stuff. SOO detailed. and i'm proud to say that i have the same pencil he used in all his sketches! that's right! i have a famous pencil. i also enjoyed yoshitomo nara's stuff. i was even MORE excited to see a picture of astro boy in the museum.

went to the brothers' softball game. they played really well. both my brothers hit really well today! i'm so proud of them! heheh. after their nice win, we kicked back to watch the next game, then headed home.

dinner at my house. lots of kickin' it at my house. johnny and i gobbled up the rest of my HELLA GOOD ice cream! MMM HMM! more kickin' it. took him home. and now i'm sitting here, TOTALLY lagging on music theory homework. ah geez.

ps. thank you for a wonderful day fatty! i had SOOOOO much fun today. I LOVE YOU!!

saturday.october.09.2004
big BOOTY!!

didn't get sleep till four in the am. i was totally stuck on the sims 2. oh geez! too much craziness... and fun. then johnny came over two hours later to drop off something for alain. then i tried to get more sleep, but i had to call abel, who wasn't even awake. then i fell back asleep, and my parents woke me up. i finally woke up and popped out of bed around eleven. played the sims AGAIN. i am soo addicted. somehow detached myself from the computer, gussied up, then the chica picked me up for rehearsal.

rehearsal was rehearsal. the weather was nice. played big booty with the pit folk. then i endulged in fatness with the chica at ranchito. MMM. came home. simmed it up AGAIN. good lord.

drove to cupertino high for the exhibition. played more big booty, some shiggity shiggity oom papa, hide-n-seek, freeze tag, marco polo, and kerplunk! that's how much time we had in between arrival and performance. my hottie boyfriend came to support us on... well mainly me! haha. and he also did a terrific job of helping as the pit crew. in fact, he was one of the few that actually DID something. but we won't get into that. the show was pretty good. FATTTY crowd tonight. according to johnny, we were like rockstars to them. haha i hope that's true, and i hope they weren't disappointed with our show. i, on the other hand, knew i could've done stuff better, but hey, life goes on. i'll get over it and do it better the next time. that's all i can do, right?

spent time with the boyfriend. ate like fatties. watched some MAD tv. hahaha. too much good stuff... and GOOD stuff.

monday.october.04.2004
the day that needed to end.

it actually started last night when i stayed up totally stressing about finishing music theory homework and studying for a hardcore history of fashion design exam. so i didn't get to bed till really late...

in which i woke up all drained monday morning. arrived at my theory class, totally trying to finish the remaining exercises i had. halfway through the class with me worrying what the hell i'm going to do because i don't want to turn it in late, the teacher announces that it'll be due wednesday with additional work. WHEW. in a way, yeah it's more work, but at least i'll be able to turn it in on time. one GOOD thing happened in theory: we had our first quizzes returned and i did surprisingly really well!

next was the dreaded history of fashion design exam. ohhh geez. the girls and i were totally trying to quiz each other as much as we could, and we realized we didn't know anything! totally blew the exam. i have NO idea how our teacher expected us to remember all that information. we were supposed to know all the costumes from ancient mesopotamian times all the way to the northern renaissance times. GEEEZUS.

after school, i picked up johnny and we headed to eat. so i must stress the fact that i HATE cash only restaurants. i absolutely think they are the most INCONVENIENT places... especially in these days when people NEVER carry cash - only plastic. so the whole time i'm telling johnny that we don't need to drop by the bank because i have enough cash. when it comes time to pay, i realize i'm like two bucks short. we look toward the atm machine they have in the restaurant, but it's BROKEN. so johnny says "let me grab some change from my car." but I drove, not him! so i run to my car, totally scrounging around for change. i come back in with handfuls of change, and i see johnny holding a single dollar, folded in a heart. it was a heart i folded for him when we first started dating. poo. so we used the heart, as well as all my stinky change.

next, we stopped by milpitas to pickup my new glasses! I LOVE THEM!!

band. at the school. so that meant johnny had to drop me off. watched the video of our show. wasn't too bad. our trailer got stuck in the mud. with the help of some strapping young drummers, we were able to push it out, thankfully. learned some new music. irritated at the SAME people as usual during rehearsal. some girl took pictures of me and asked for my info. i gave it to her, thinking it was the funniest thing because i don't really go to san jose state! haha. oh well. waited for johnny to pick me up so i could get my car and go to work, but i waited... and waited... and waited. johnny for some reason didn't hear his alarm, and missed waking up in time to pick me up. so i was waiting for a while outside. ohh my goodness, it was FREEZING!

i ended up being late to work. now, work was another story. i'm not going to go into that right now, but let's just say i'm not having a blast at work, like i used to. anyway, there was a long ass meeting that would never end. all these new things going on with the holidays. we're hiring - let me know if you want to apply. blah blah.

saturday.september.18.2004
put that shit in your mom!

one of the longest days i've had in a while.

it actually started last night when the boyfriend, les, brother, and i went to sinjin's for poker night. i rode on his motorcycle, and had fun, until i almost fell off. oh geez. i was soooo scared after that. we attempted to watch kill bill 2 over all the laughing, shuffling of cards, and belching. we didn't get home till two in the am, and my brother was so drizzunk that i had to drive home.

woke up around sixish to sevenish. carpooled with the chica, matt, and benny to morning practice. practice was kind of eh since we don't have any new music to learn, and much of what we DO need to work on is ensemble stuff with the drumline. had some good times with my pit tho! well, for the most part. ate lunch in the vega van. chilled and had my girl to girl time with the chica (ooh la la. haha).

showtime. uh, let's just say the pit did well during the drum solo. mind you, there are only two groups that play duing the solo, the pit being one. saw boys II men up close and personal singing the national anthem. took HELLA pictures of them with moni's camera. went to the stands. did the water bitch thing. watched morgan state's blah blah blah marching band during halftime. i must say that they look good with what they do. all the dance moves, and getting the crowd into their show. but musically, they don't compare to the spartans. we spotted probably the only white guy out of the whole band. it was like playing 'where's waldo?' haha. WON the game.

to celebrate, chica and i ate like savages at the olive garden. it was totally worth the one hour wait. it was actually hilarious because we received our buzzers and went to big five in the same plaza. we were on our shoe mission for the chica, when the buzzer thing started ringing. we were like 'damn, that's hella quick.' so we ran over there with our hopes up and everything. but when we gave the buzzer to the hostess, she told us it only rang because we were out of range. WHAT THE HELL! so we waited again. it finally buzzed, and we got our grub on! between the two of us: three baskets of bread, two bowls of salad, three servings of the unlimited pasta dealio, two refills on soda, and water. DAMN. we seriously had to sit and digest for 15 minutes. geez, it was GREAT.

thursday.september.16.2004
itchies, bug bites, and benny benassi.

had one of the strangest days.

school. complimented on my hair by my buddy in art history, which actually really made me feel better since i haven't been too great lately. art history eh, especially with my crazy deaf teacher. stopped by borders on the way home. visited johnny at work. home. chilled with alain. and mom. and grandma.

the chica picked me up, rode park and ride to state to get ready for the big ol' rally. i'm so proud of the chica - she had her letter published in the spartan daily!!! a GREAT letter, indeed. if you want to read it, let me know. it's goooood stuff. anyway, the 'rally' dealio was eh. i was getting eaten by the bugs in the grass. then there was lameness with the whole dancers NOT affiliated with the band (because OUR dancers are SO much more kick ass than the amatuers). and more lameness with the radio announcer guy telling 'jokes' when he was really stalling for morgan state to show up. they arrived. played their stuff. quite impressive, yes. especially since up here in 'The North,' we don't have big show bands like down yonder in 'The South.' the whole drum-off thing was called off because they took forever to arrive, hence there was no more time. poo. then we celebrated with satisfactory food, but A+ soda, and more lameness serving the satisfactory food.

i know i'm sounding way too apathetic about this, but i think i was getting way too irritated with everything and everyone today. i was seriously feeling like my personal space was being violated. every freakin time i tried to move away from the potential reason for discomfort, it seemed to get closer than the last time. take a freakin' hint! today was just the wrong day for any of it, and i'm surprised i didn't blow up.

chica and i killed our sorrows in some ranchito. always a good answer to problems. FOOD. it never lets you down. met the boy and his family at happy house. went to his place after. played THE SIMS 2!!!!!! ahhhhh! way tooooo awesome.

one of the most random things: johnny hit an oppossum on the way to my house. ew! so sad, but oppossums are ew.

happy brithday, miranda!

tuesday.september.14.2004
oops.

woke up. took the boyfriend to get his car fixed. had a nice morning, spending quality time together. 'forgot' to go to class. had breakfast. watched porky's. slept in with boyfriend. then off to work.

i've been feeling so physically lousy since last weekend. it started off with allergies, and i think it's developing into a cold. or something of the sort. i'm not really having coughs or anything, but i'm just constantly congested. with boogers. and lots of it! my co-worker thinks it could be a sinus infection, which would NOT be good. lesley and johnny seem to think i just need rest. the sad thing is, i have no time to rest. i have no time to get sick either. i think i just need loving.

sunday.september.12.2004
new hair part two.

so i have new hair again. i did another rusk hair model gig, and this time i was the demonstration model. i'm excited because they want me to model again in january. and the big-time rusk lady gave me a hug, which was exciting. hehe. i felt so special! my hair is 'classic bob' length now, which isn't much different from how short my hair was in high school. i'm happy with my hair. pictures to come!

thursday.september.02.2004
for suzanne and her lesbian shoes.

started school yesterday. crazy stuff. i'm a little intimidated right now, but hopefully it's just the back to school jitters. music theory is feeling a bit... confusing. fashion design looks tedious with LOTS of reading. art history seems boring. and then there's marching band. but yay for the first two days back. i'm still alive and well. hungry, but that's normal.

had a blast for my birthday in so cal. drove with abel, lesley, and the boy to anaheim. chilled lots. SHOPPED lots. endulged in food even MORE than i shopped. went to magic mountain for the first time in my life and it was bomb. there were a few set backs, like the heat and long lines, but it was all worth it. with all the waiting we did while at the park (and with anything and everything we did down there), we had some fun. like waiting for this jerk-off to get to the top of the ride to rat him out for cutting in front of us, or the boys that were punking each other that abel and johnny had a blast watching. ahhh yes. had del taco. mmm. GREAT weekend. thanks guys! i love you all.

stressful and frustrating day at work today. as is almost EVERY day. i knew it wasn't going to be my day when i cut my finger with my own fingernail. how the hell does that happen??! i don't know how, but i DO know it's possible. cause my clumsy ass did it. i cut it to the point where it was bleeding. and it stung like crazy when i cleaned it. bleh.

playing at stanford this saturday. come visit me. feed me food that i'm not allowed to eat in my marching band uniform. keep me company in the stands while me and my freakin awesome section plays water bitches to the rest of the band. gotta love the pit.

sunday.august.22.2004
learn to embrace your fatness.

i have been quite the busy bee since band started. all i'm doing is going to work, then going to band. wet. lather. rinse. repeat. at least the kids in my section seem pretty spiffy. i'm excited about that. AND they can read music AND rhythms. ohh geez. for the past two years, it was a MIRACLE if the auxilary person could hit on counts two and four. or if they even knew what two and four meant! now we have someone that used to march drums! AND she's a girl! golly gee, i feel so spoiled. i'll be balanced once colleen's there. ahh, i've missed her. my pit girlfriend. haha. ooh la la.

i have a new bed. put it together with my dad. such a fun project. i can't wait to move more stuff around. i hope i'll still have the time (and the motivation) to makeover my closet. that's going to take a good piece of my free time. can't wait to see how the words 'free time' work into my upcoming school schedule. i seriously have my life planned till december. happy? sad? i'm split down the middle.

taking a road trip to magic mountain for my birthday. i'm really super duper excited about everything except the heat. too bad magic mountain doesn't have water slides... or do they? hmm. i guess i'll just have to wait till the weekend to find out, eh?

i love my boyfriend!!!

thursday.august.19.2004
this just in...

johnny and i are the TIGHTEST COUPLE EVER! haha.

i love you, fatty face!

tuesday.august.10.2004
le update.

**i have new hair! on monday, i was a hair model for rusk. it was really fun to have some fab hair stylist work on my hair. all for free!! plus, i scored some HOT styling stuff. yeah!

**i finished knitting my first scarf! i'm so proud of myself. it was kind of a pain casting off, since suzanne helped me thru our buddy instant messenger, but i think i pretty much handled it. i can't wait to start another scarf! oooh, and i think i want some new needles! ahh, another one of the angela's fun hobbies.

**took my mom to valley fair in the van. ahh yes, the van. it was nice to spend time with her. i then took her to my work for the first time. hehe, she got to meet all my co-workers and took a look around the store. we even scored another one of teresa's HUGE homegrown zucchinis (did i spell that right??)

**just got home from abel's softball game. they were on fire tonight, even with two subs. haha. but really, it was a fun game. abel wants me to join their team maybe next season or something, but i'm nervous. they all play so well, and i've never really played softball (competitively). i think he's gonna take me to the cages, and we'll see from there. i haven't hit a ball in FOREVER.

**I'M STILL SO VERY MUCH IN LOVE WITH JOHNNY!!!

friday.july.30.2004
celebrating the holidays in the summer.

i hope i'm not the only one, but i listen to holiday and christmas music pretty much anytime of the year BESIDES the holidays. totally random, i know.

yesterday, johnny and i took another trip to raging waters. we were SO savage! we didn't feel like paying the five bucks to rent a locker, so we left everything (EVERYTHING!) in the car, and just took our season passes (that are conveniently waterproof), and the car key (which we roped up around johnny's neck). haha. it worked out spectacularly. looks like the ongoing trend for the rest of summer.
today was MY blood bath at the water park. i went on shotgun falls and somehow smacked my face in a weird way against the water, and now i have a red mark that's right in that spot between your eyes. it actually stings too! incident number two took place at our most favorite ride, dragon's den. we were messing around, trying to make the tube spin around, and we somehow got stuck between the part that shoots you out of the dragon's den. with all the water pressure shooting at you, we were forcefully flipped over, and i smacked the back of my head right against some part of the ride. then johnny and i got shot out, he hit his back, and i banged my knee and my shoulder somewhere along the adventure out of that ride. now i have a pretty multi-colored bruise on my knee. we decided to just beach for a while.
went back to johnny's. ate spaghetti with his parents, then settled in for a movie. we ended up watching the butterfly effect. such a crazy movie. really depressing. the really crazy thing that i just found out is we watched the director's cut, not the original one shown in theaters. i heard the version we watched was less optimistic and without the somewhat happy ending in the theater version. hmm. i liked it though.
after the movie, johnny and i went to streetlight records, then to santana row. ate at our favorite restaurant, yankee pier. aww, our bartender friend was there. chatted it up with her, grubbed, watched some fun commercials on espn, and had dessert! mmm. went to borders for a little, then headed home.

ahh, so tired.

thursday.july.29.2004
the pictures are up!

click on colleenanator's site for pictures of our day at raging waters.

wednesday.july.28.2004
take me out tonight because i want to see people and i want to see light.

yesterday was one of the funnest days during this whole summer! fatty, colleenanator, white boy, and i went to raging waters! whee! well, we went to the taqueria to grab some grub, then we headed to the park. it was a pretty nice sunny day, a little windy, but good sunshine. we rode in the toilet bowl, took crazy pictures, climbed the log and alligator, saw the infamous '0 feet 0 inches, No Diving' sign, rode the pink slide (damn the pink slide!), played in the wave pool of pee, saw a beached kid, and attempted sardines with our locker. TONS of fun. after that, we went back to the same taqueria to grub then thrifty's ice cream for dessert. pardon the dust.
went to my brother's softball game with fatty at night. grubbed like a mofo AGAIN. my brother's team was SOO off the hook last night, despite some drunk slut moves. hehe. went up to the clubhouse and played two games of pool with my fatty. intense games. accck.
today i'm off to no good, i guess. i have the day off which is GREAT because we have some really hardcore important people coming into our store, PLUS it's our truck day. whew! don't know how i got outta THAT one! hehe. probably going to grub with my lover boy before he heads to work.

one last thing before i go...
thanks to colleen and patrick for coming with johnny and i to raging waters!! hope you kids had fun! i know white boy did! he even has the battle scars. haha, BLOOD BATH!

friday.july.23.2004
a thought for your mom...

(brought to you by colleenanator):

"I'll never forget how you broke my heart, and you will never forget how I found someone to fix it."

thursday.july.22.2004
afternoon delight.

whew. finally a day off to compile all of the happenings in my life this past week.

all my family has been here for the past week and a half. they basically came to celebrate my grandpa's 90th birthday. crazy, huh? and my grandpa still walks and can semi-hear you, and he can still see. so i guess he's in okay shape for his age. yay for grandpa.
i've been with my cousins mostly. our bratty cousins came to town too, but they were here for a shorter amount of time before they flew back to wisconsin. my 'cooler' cousins flew today to florida, where their dad is from. i can't believe how big they are now. the last time i saw them was in the philippines, and i was fifteen. such a long time ago. they'll be in florida for a year, then everyone, except for my cousin elisabeth, is going back to the philippines. she's staying in florida for school. so i'm definitely going to try to visit them. aww, i miss them already. they're so great! i love them!! and i'm so glad that the boys LOVE johnny. haha. BALUUUT!
johnny and i went to raging waters to get our season passes. whee! i'm excited. hehe. when we were in line to buy them, i just wanted to go in already. so far, this summer has been pretty kick ass, and i know raging waters should make it even better! yeah!

wednesday.july.14.2004
my days off.

here's the update on my two consecutive (sp??) days off.

spent yesterday with my cousins from the philippines. they are SOOO great. i totally miss them. i wish they could be in california, or at least the states more. they'll be in florida for a year before all but one of them goes back. my cousin elisabeth is staying here in the states for college, but she'll be in florida. that's okay... someone new to visit for a trip! hehe. anyway, we just spent the day at great mall since they've already been to valley fair, ate lunch at chili's, and showed them around santana row. by then we were kind of tired, and headed back to my house. my dad asked them about the barangay (kinda like barrio, or neighborhood) back in the philippines since they're living in the same house he grew up in. by the time he was done, we headed over to abel's softball game. so much fun with the kids. haha. alain actually got out of the house, and johnny met us there. after 'we' won, we dropped the kids off at my aunt's in milpitas, and stayed for dinner. after grubbin, i dropped my brother off at home, then headed to johnny's to spend some quality time together. hehe. AWWWW, my fatty boyfriend.

today hasn't been so successful. my OTHER cousins from wisconsin flew in last night, so i think the PI kids were chillin with them. they're all up in my aunt's house in milpitas anyway. i was supposed to get a call from elisabeth to hang out, but nothing all day. hmm... i went to johnny's earlier in the day to play mario kart with him. it's FUN. SUPER DUPER FUN! hahah. i'm not hooked YET... so i think that's a good thing. i took him to work, headed to target, then came back home. michelle called me, so we ran an errand for her, then grabbed some hello dessert. GOOOOOD MANGO MOOO! haha. it was so great catching up with her. we were mostly talking about how it's weird how people change and who you end up keeping in touch with when you all disperse. crazy. i'm glad she's one person i still talk to from high school. and we both LOVE chococat!! yeah!
now i'm just waiting for the boy to call so i can pick him up. awww... picking my lover up at work! haha. so cute.

saturday.july.10.2004
who's that girl? - the eurythmics

work at ten in the am. not too bad. i like working the early shifts, even though it's a pain in the ass for me to wake up when it's still morning. made more than one thousand dollars in sales today, which i was VERY proud of. dropped by to see my hot boyfriend. *haha, what was his name, fats? scooby? hmm..* headed to jamba juice to visit the colleenanator and grab some drinks for the family. awww, i saw my colleenanator hard at work. *teardrop* when i arrived home, my brother and i sat down to play some video games. OLD SKOOL games. my brother made himself all hooked on gyruss, while i had my fun with circus charlie. FUN stuff.
last night, after work i headed to my aunt's house up in milpitas to see my cousins. oh my gosh! my cousin that's only fourteen is about six feet, two inches - at least! he's SOOO tall. his brother that's fifteen is only an inch shorter. and their sister, who's seventeen, is abel's height. CRAZY. it was really nice seeing them again. i'm glad they're here. i think i'm taking them out on tuesday, then we're going to abel's game. hopefully, things work out.
after our family shindig, i headed to another shindig at monica's house. for some reason, everyone was surprised that i made my unannounced appearance. hehe. but it was really nice seeing everyone!
yay. and i have a day off tomorrow. yay for days off. i think i'm going to dreadfully head to the mall tomorrow morning to grab my manager a birthday present. we're having this little get-together on monday, and i know what type of stuff to get her, just not sure what exactly. ah me. it's time for laundry. haha. didn't mean to rhyme.

thursday.july.08.2004
nintendo and ukelele.

amazing. i actually woke up before noon, but only because my brother called and needed me to stop by the dealership to bring a car part and his lunch. what are little sisters for?!
the rest of my afternoon was rather dull. i did accomplish a few things, like finish watching the complete series of my so-called life that my johnny bought for me last month. GREAT series. i can't believe it ended how it did. so many questions that i long to have answered, but never will. ah me. after that, i finished reading the notebook. great book. i didn't get as emotional, though, as i did when i saw the movie. i recommend both. you probably would want to read the book first, then catch the flick.
speaking of flicks, johnny and i watched the day after tomorrow. CRAZY movie. sooo intense. i enjoyed it. it's trippy because they show what happens to downtown los angeles, and we were JUST there. a bunch of the buildings filmed were ones we saw with our own eyes. such a trip.
anyway, much of my day was spent at home. leslie and i headed to long's, had some fun girl time, then came back to my house for dinner. after, the two of us ventured for boba for the family. fun fun! i'm surprised they don't know us over there yet. we always go in together and buy a 'grip' of drinks. tee hee. i practiced piano, then violin today. i miss playing. i need some new music to practice to. any suggestions? let me know, ho!