monday.june.02.2003
breast enhancers - that's okay. but BUTT enhancers?!

i was at work today, and i found out not too long ago that we carry those little jelly breast enhancers that you stick in your bra, and it pushes you up one cup size. i remember the first time i discovered them, i was totally playing with them. anyway, when i was working cashier, i had some guy come up to me and ask the strangest question. he asked about butt enhancers. i thought that was incredible because i had never thought about girls with small asses wanting BIGGER asses. sheesh, i would've rented out mine to her if i could've.
anyway, i'm tired. work was never ending. i was head cashier to an endless line. then i ended up closing the entire 'very sexy' room. ohhh my lord, that room is the shittiest room because all the stuff is lacy and fancy, and it just takes more time to straighten out. i actually saw these umm... i guess i'll use the word 'unique'... unique panties in that same room. they basically look like g-strings. but the string that goes around the crotch area is actually strung with pearls. so it looks like a pearl necklace goes up your butthole and chocha. it's pretty... kinky. and i honestly don't see why ANYONE sane would want to wear that. it look sooo painful, rather than sexy.
i feel so terrible because i totally scared johnny! we were hanging out late last night, and i like to turn my phone to silent. well anyway, i forgot it was on silent throughout the whole night, and johnny was totally trying to get a hold of me. he seriously thought something bad happened, and he was freaking out. he called everyone, and even went by my house - all in all, it was just chaos. finally, i woke up and answered his call. ohhh man, you don't know HOW bad i felt - and still feel. so i went to spend some time with him today. it was great. we cuddled up in the scorching heat and watched some spongebob marathon. ahh yeah!

friday.may.30.2003
sometimes water tastes like lemonade.

::yesterday::
johnny called me at the crack of dawn to say good morning. i went back to sleep, and he woke me up again later in the morning. haha, what a great boyfriend. it was time for me to get up, so i did. prettied myself up and headed to his house. we had fantastic quality time together, which is always something i love. after that, we went to valley fair so i could talk to my manager about my upcoming summer schedule. went back to his house, fell asleep to harry potter and the chamber of secrets. johnny napped for a little, twitched a few times that scared the heck out of me, then it was time for me to head home. showered and got ready for the show. picked up rosie, stopped by the store to grab some munchies and agua, then headed to downtown campbell.
the show at the gaslighter last night was so freakin awesome! the return, a band from ventura, were SOOOOOOO good! the lead singer really has an awesome voice. it was sucky because the bass player's string broke, and johnny lent him his own while he repaired the string. then the lead singer's strap kept on coming undone, and johnny was a nice guy and ran up to help him fix it during their set. hehe. funny stuff. ahh, my boyfriend the hero. the other left played a really great show too. rosie went with me, and we had such a blast. i'm glad she had a good time, especially since it was her first time seeing the other left, and meeting johnny. once again, i felt like an old woman at the show. there were a bunch of high school kiddies hanging out there, and it was just really funny because rosie and i would 'reminisce' about stuff from high school, as if it was a LONG time ago. hehe. after the show, rosie, johnny, and i went to taco bravo for some good ass grub. it actually really tore me up by the time i got home, but i was okay in the end.
later at night, johnny and i went to mekenna's house to chill with the rest of the kids. by the time we got there, sammy and mekenna had already fallen asleep on the floor, sara and adrian were getting comfy on the couch, and morgan was totally just chillin in his own little world. we watched the shawshank redemption for a while before johnny drove me home. kissed my hunny good night, and found my way to dreamland.
::today::
woke up pretty late. went to my poopie face boyfriend's, helped him unload stuff from the car, dropped by the bank, then went to the mall - again. had to go back into work and give them a concrete schedule for summer. chilled on a bench inside the mall, which was awesome because i've never really done that before. walked around the mall, grabbed some grub with my mall discount, then rolled out. went back to johnny's for a little. on my way home, i stopped by long's, the bank, and kinko's. i have a few awesome pictures from a party at adrian's house that i wish i could post up here, but my scanner isn't compatible with my computer. boo!

wednesday.may.28.2003
you can't get pregnant from making out.

even though school has let out, i still find myself busy as hell with no time to update this. strange, eh?
::tuesday::
a nice busy day in which i accomplished a bunch of things before seven in the evening. woke up around ten and tuned in to dj sloan's show on kscu, 'rockin' blocks - blocks that rock.' showered, and by the time i was done, sloan announced that she had to stay underground for another three hours - resulting in a FIVE HOUR radio show. i threw on some clothes and headed to johnny's. he drove us to the radio station, and we headed down into the underground to help out our buddy in need. it was so fun! i got to read some psa's over the air (yeah!) and i answered the phone calls. in the meantime, johnny was picking out cd's and songs he wanted to hear, as well as the ones requested by listeners. sloan's buddy shawn called, and i think i'm going deaf because i could've sworn he said his name was tron. anyway, the three of us survived the show, and it was time to grub. johnny and i went to togo's and dined in. we headed back to his house to chill for a little. then i ended up driving us to valley fair to return stuff at macy's and my store. for some reason, i was tricked into buying pants that are camel toe targets. hmph! we went to fry's to get my boy an application, then we stopped by mission valley ford to scope out the vans. found nothing, went to fill up my car, then we dropped by long's to get my mom two binders. dropped off johnny, then headed home. made the best salad in the world for dinner, then mommy came home and sent me back to long's to exchange the binder. grr. by the time i got home, again, it was time to eat and chill. way late in the evening, johnny came by and picked me up. we headed back to his house, watched edward scissorhands with a bunch others already plopped on his couch. we spent our quality time in the car outside my house. ahhh yeah. such a productive day.
::today::
woke up late. picked up rosie and headed to great mall. had a really awesome time shopping and catching up with her. bought bread, a dress, and a beanie. went to johnny's and watched this really interesting thing about gambling on the big screen. changed, and left for work. i was actually on time, and i didn't have to throw down for parking. worked like a freakin maniac. opened up two credit cards in a row. finished the panty tables of one room by myself in about thirty or so minutes. my great boyfriend called to make sure i was okay since i hadn't called him and it was getting late. aww, i love my boyfriend so much. he's truly the greatest. went to see him after work, watched this really funny as debate thing with two pretty dumb people on jay leno, had a can of sprite, then headed home. ate dinner, talked to my mom, and here i am. got the schedule for the musical from monica. HARDCORE SCHEDULE! eeeep. i need to talk to the managers at work about it, and also because i can start working mornings and days. damn, summer is going to be crazy. fun, but busy busy busy!

sunday.may.25.2003
**cakes loves fatty**

didn't get home till around six or seven in the am. spent time with my honey. we went to adrian's for his brother's birthday celebration. damn, people were SOOOOOO tow up at his house. it was really kool because teresa was totally talking to johnny and me, and how she thinks it's great that we're happy... and all that lovey dovey stuff. hehe. i don't feel like getting all mushy, but i'm sure you get the idea. when we went back to johnny's, we ended up watching never-ending episodes of cribs, and weird ass commercials. go yaffa!
woke up around ten to clean the bathroom. i was pretty embarassed when i walked out into the kitchen looking hella janky right after i woke up. haha. my hair, as wlel as my face, were just a mess. ate some bomb ass food. i love it when we have house parties. my parents always get the best to feed all of us fatties!
my sweet love took me to work. he traded some of his games to get wario ware. damn, that game is SOOOOOO tight. it's really addicting too. it makes me long for a gameboy advanced sp. ahem ahem... my birthday is in august. thanks guys and gals! *snicker snicker*
work was work. i was pretty much on the register all day. i saw mister chuck there with his lady buying panties. hehe, he was pretty surprised when he found out that i was actually working, and not shopping. opened some credit cards today. one of my managers kissed my ass for that too. hahaha. that's right... she kissed my big fat ass - with words of praise, of course! i bounced before they would've kept me for my on-call shift.
went back to johnny's, ate pizza, and chilled with the boys. we started watching equilibrium. that movie is really tight. in some ways, it reminds me of fahrenheit 451; it has a similar concept. anyway, the movie was really good. i fell asleep for a little bit here and there, but i still picked up on the story line.
johnny's parents came home from their little weekend trip down south. they brought me back a really cute strawberry shortcake shirt! yayeee! you know, i think it's so great that his parents always take trips. i wish my parents would get out of the house like that. i think they need trips. they need to relax and have some fun away from home. maybe my brothers and i could send them on a trip somewhere over the summer or for their anniversary. mmhmm.

friday.may.23.2003
a whole bunch of nothing.

woke up late and realized i needed to call in to see if i was to go in for work. and indeed, i did. i was about ten minutes late, which is normal for me. bad bad bad. made the managers happy. realized that one of my buddies is transferring to the salinas victoria's secret for the summer. damn, and today was actually the last day for one of my other friends who is leaving forever!!! *sob sob* yeah, i noticed all the cool people are leaving. looks like i should leave too! hahaha.
spent time with my sweet boyfriend. his parents left him all by himself this weekend!! ohhh no! looks like it's angela to the rescue! wheee! we watched his cat punk the dog. hahaha. it was really funny because i've never really seen a dog and cat play together in the yard. awww, i love cats. they're great. i swear, if i don't get married and have a family of my own, i'm going to be that weird old lady that lives with a billion cats all by her lonesome. sigh.

thursday.may.22.2003
a day full of new experiences.

did one load of laundry early in the morning. it's getting so hot that i've gotta wash and dry before the weather heats up the garage.
helped my great boyfriend wash his car in the morning. did the windows and the interior with my kick ass sprays. heck yeah! we made his car nice and pretty.
we decided to spend the day in san francisco. we journeyed down to fisherman's warf and pier 39. grabbed some chowder in a bowl, and some KICK ass french fries. mmm... just thinking about them makes me hungry again. we had a nice walk around the area... watched that guy scare people behind the random bush, as well as the silver dude, looked in the exotic instrument store, and had quite an adventure looking for a bathroom for my overactive bladder. i fell asleep for a little on the way home. my poor, lonely boyfriend driving by himself. i would've driven for him if he wanted, but he's a tough guy. *wink wink*
met up with miss reisa at independence to watch the jazz concert. it was pretty good! i had fun. reisa and i chilled with michelle and athena too. gosh, i feel like i graduated a gazillion years ago. crazy stuff.
johnny and i went to alexa's party tonight. it was fun. hehe, alexa kept on saying how we're the greatest couple and stuffs - cause it's true! haha, but seriously, she was so drunk! i drank a little, and i started drinking something patrick made for me, but it was way too strong. i'm such a lightweight now. johnny and i were just chillin, talking, having fun with a few people at the party. then all of a sudden, some guy totally vomits all over the place, and also on us two. it was so disgusting. johnny and i thought it was pepsi or coke, and someone just spilled it. but no. it was barf. nice and warm. we scrammed to the bathroom and washed everything off as best as we could. ew.
had a nice car ride home with my honey baby. by the way, there was another 'experiment' that went on. ahhh yeah. hehe. i am so in love with johnny. i just needed to let everyone know. he's the greatest boyfriend in the entire galaxy and he treats me so well. i always wonder why i didn't meet him earlier. but everything happens for a reason, and i'm just happy that he's mine. and that i'm his.

wednesday.may.21.2003
reload this, ho.

woke up early. spent time with my mom. took her to the target that was rebuilt where montgomery wards used to be since she hasn't seen it yet. it was so great! for once, i've actually had a lot of fun shopping with my mom. that hardly ever happens. ohh! and i even used my air conditioner, which also never happens.
went to the movies with my extremely hot boyfriend. we watched the matrix reloaded. tight ass movie. i liked it a lot. ohhh yeah, and johnny started poking fun at this one part in the movie. i can't really say which part it was, but it's only because i get emotional during movies! according to my wonderful boyfriend, the BEST part of the whole movie was the beginning when they show the previews! hehe. awwww, johnny's such a cutie!
went to school and sold back some of my books. got about $75 back, but unfortunately, it's not mine. i have to pay my mom back for kinda going crazy with my cell phone. the bill is off the wall, and i guess i just learn lessons the hard way. like the lesson about money, and the value of a dollar. yup.
i'm really urked because i want to go to alexa's party so badly, especially because i know it'll be fun, and that i'm DONE with school until the fall, but i'm probably working tomorrow night! i can't believe my great luck. this entire week i've been on call. i worked on monday and haven't worked since. all the days off were spent with johnny or at home... and on the day that i have something planned with a buddy i haven't seen in so long, and won't be seeing in a while, i'm scheduled to go in! i seriously had a person to cover me all planned out, but i guess she didn't realize she has a final when she would be covering for me. damn. well, i guess i'll have to call around and see who i can get to go in for me at the last minute. damn work.

tuesday.may.20.2003
my brother, the old man.

gosh. i can't believe my brother is already 31!! he's so old! we went shopping today and i ended up buying him candy as a present. whee! go cavities and sugar! hehe. amazingly, my family had some bomb ass food tonight, as well as a cake, in celebration of my brother's elderly-ness. yup. i probably just made up my own word there. *snicker snicker*
anyway, it's official, boys and girls. the anhela is finished with school for the semester! yayeee. i had my finals yesterday today. ohhh man were they hardcore! i'm just hoping for decent grades in all those classes, and that i get lots of scrilla back for the damn books i had to buy. but we all know that both of those are unlikely hopes that'll come true! hehehe. i honestly can't believe how fast everything went by. i know i'm going to be saying this all the time, but i really need to put in more effort and focus into school next semester. it might be hard because i'll be occupied with marching band and my job(?).
bah. work is still work. i want to leave. but it's difficult to find a job, as most of us know, so i'm kind of obligated to keep my current one. i want to get two jobs for the summer time. we'll see how that works though, cause i know that'll be super duper hardcore.
spent time with my extremely special boyfriend today. poor guy is sick! and now he has this weird hickie thing under his bottom lip. haha, i swear i didn't do it! we were eating at antipasto's and i guess it seemed like a fun idea to suck on the bottle cap. a little too long, i guess, because now my baby has a nice purple/reddish half-circle under his lip. it almost looks like a shadow from far away. funnnny stuff. gosh, the boy is already sick, and now he's got this funky thing under his lip! it's okay - i still love him no matter what! :)

monday.may.12.2003
monday madness!

stressin like a mothafuka. what more do i need to say? went to school. fell asleep for a little during english. we're watching 'the pawnbroker' because we just finished the novel. it's a pretty well written book. very realistic tooo. i love the cinematography of the movie. it's filmed with such awesome techniques. received my research paper back. i'm so proud of myself! i procrastinated till the day before it was due, and earned a B. what's even more great is that i get a week to revise the essay to bump up my grade if i choose to. but my attitude towards school has not changed at all. i still hate it. especially because finals are coming up. and all of them are going to seriously kick my ass hardcore!
fell asleep watching edward scissorhands today in johnny's room. got all sweaty under his covers because the sun was actually shining high today! the weather was so perfect. hmmmm.. got all sweaty, even though we were on the floor *wink*, then decided it was time to get out of the house. went to great mall, bought a beanie for me, and another drive thru records dvd for my hunny pie... since SOMEONE decided to let another person borrow the dvd he originally bought. it's okay. me buying him the dvd makes it all that more special! hehe.
sat and talked with his mom and aunt for a while. fun stuff. in fact, we were totally talking about my whole situation with my parents being so overprotective. we also got into the whole culture thing when it comes to dating. i think that all other cultures have some type of unwritten rules when a boy decides he wants to go out with a girl. hehe. yeah, ask johnny about those unwritten rules. he knows ALL about them!!!
talked to miss mio tonight. GOOOOOOOD stuff. hehe it was hilarious because both of us were talking about our wonderful mexican boyfriends... and at the same time, we said, "those damn mexican boys!" it was really really funny since it was a complete coincidence. hehehe. basically, we got the chance to catch up, since we hardly get to do that what with our busy schedules and all. oh! there's even a chance i might transfer to long beach for the summer and work at the cerritos branch. i still need to look into that, but we'll see. that'd be tight! then i could stay with my mio!!! wheeeeee!!!!!!!

saturday.may.10.2003
no thanks.

what a great day. woke up pretty well rested, and called into work to see if i could come in an hour earlier and leave an hour earlier. because my managers love me so very much (yeah right), they were kool with letting that slide. work went okay. my wonderful sweet boyfriend dropped me off so we could head off to the audio karate show later in the evening.
work was hectic. we had to wear those stupid headsets/radio thingies. i hate those stupid devices; they get in the way of your every move. ugh. it's not advisable for clumsy people, like me. johnny came to pick me up, and because i'm a fatty, he knew to bring me a homemade burrito. mmmm. dropped by the gas station, then headed to the o-town for a tight ass show. didn't get lost on the way there, thank goodness. dude, you don't wanna get lost in oakland.
the show was groovy. the boys from audio karate remembered johnny from the santa cruz show, so the whole night, we were all mingling. the guys are so nice! really fun kids to talk to. the other bands that played were pretty tight. ohhh man, check this out... when audio karate was on stage, this chick in the front passed out! and she hella knocked her head on the ground. johnny and i were just like 'OHHHHHHHH SHIT.' very scary stuff. i think she's okay, so that's good. the merch guy for audio karate also hooked me and my honey up with some stickers and posters. heck yeah. he either really liked johnny, or he was just too drunk to be coherent.
got lost on the way home. we found ourselves on our way to berkley and so on. johnny and i were so confused when we saw that there were SO many cars on the freeway at midnight on a saturday! seriously, it looked like the kind of traffic you see during rush hour. then we came to a complete stop somewhere on the road because of some accident. i fell asleep for a while, then i think johnny got lost again getting home. hehehe. it's okay though because we both made it home swell.
received a tight package and letter from mucaca rosie! yayeee! she sent me a really kool sweater from USC. ahhhhh yeah. very very VERY good stuff. :)

thursday.may.08.2003
and in the night, i could be helpless - sleeping without you.

there are NOT enough hours in the day to get things done. i'm sure most people can agree with me when i say that. life has pretty much been routine. school (on the days i go! eeep!), work (bleh!), and the boy (yee haw!).
the days are winding down, and school is almost over. thank goodness. i'm such a retard and didn't realize that i could have registered for summer courses already! argh. i thought my priority registration date wasn't until next week! bah. i'm still unsure of what i'll be taking. probably something to keep me out of trouble in the summer time. i need to study hardcore for these shitty finals coming up. in fact, i should start crackin the books!
i'm tired of work. there are times that i hate it with all the passion in the world, and i sooo want to quit. but there are other times that i'm glad i've been working there for a while now, and have acquired SO many more skills than some other employees. for example, i hate being a sales person. so when they need me, i can always be a cashier, since i know how to rub the registers the right way. ah yeah. hehe. lately, there have been many new people, so i've been cashiering more, which is great in my opinion. we'll see what happens. my parents are starting to get pissy about my work schedule though. and they're starting to stress me out about it. sometimes i wonder if they realize i'm actually saving them money by having my own job. my family is in tough financial situations right now, and this job is allowing me to buy whatever i need with my OWN money. that way, they can use their money for much more important necessities. strange how you value money much more when you are forced into a situation that takes your money away.
johnny and i are doing wonderful. he truly is one of the few things in my life that make me happy. i can't even begin to describe all the emotions i feel when i'm with him, or even just knowing that he's mine. that's right, ladies - ALL MINE! muwahahaha! it all works out since the feelings are mutual. we spent all day together - that is, until i had work. fell asleep with him for a while, then headed for some grub. watched x-men two. it was SOOOOOOO tight. i think i need to watch the first one again. i watched it so long ago, i forgot some of the stuff that happened. but anyway, i guess my man and i are going shopping tomorrow for our wonderful madres. whoo hoo! go last minute shopping for mother's day! crap, i think work is gonna be horrible tomorrow and saturday. and how great is it that i have to work both days! yayeee! panties and bras rock on!

saturday.may.04.2003
they thought blue prints were too sad, so they made them yellow.

haven't been able to update daily. not much has happened, so no worries. hehe, it's not like my life is incredibly filled with excitement and suspense. but i'm perfectly content with the way life is rollin' right now.
thursday::
went to school and watched american me in my criminal justice class. ugh. i can't stand to watch movies where people get raped. it makes me cringe. i know that movie is reality, but i don't like movies like that. it's sooooo real that it hurts. ate at peggy sue's with my honey. didn't have to work, thank goodness. spent the night at johnny's. ahhhh yeah.
friday::
went home, showered up, then headed to dorsa elementary to help with their cinco de mayo celebration. i did facepainting for little kids!! i was nervous because i'm not a great artist at all, and it was definetly my first time painting on little kids. johnny kept me company for a while, when he wasn't busy eating tortilla chips off the floor. haha. i'm kidding. but it was fun. too bad it was raining - i'm sure it would've been great if it wasn't raining. later on in the evening, reisa and i left to frisco to see the show featuring mishap, sputterdoll, and the other left. it was pretty tight. all the bands rocked. reisa and i left for san jose in the crazy ass rain. i fell asleep, leaving poor reisa to drive and listen to my crummy music! hahah. just kidding, she loved every note and beat of it! muwahaha. went to visit johnny later on in the night, and ended up falling asleep for a little. watched some saved by the bell, perfect strangers, and tales from the crypt. too bad i was hella tired. it was fun, nonetheless.
today::
went to work. almost had to kick some girl's ass for trying to take my parking space. but me being hardcore and all scared her and her weak ass eclipse away from my space! work wasn't too bad until i got upset with one of my managers. actually, she was the one that got mad with me, and it pissed me off so much because it wasn't like i did anything wrong. i'm really in the mood to quit. i just don't like the bullshit that the managers put all us other workers through. anyway, i picked up my measely little check, met up with johnny and adrian outside the store, then drove to johnny's house. we ran to save mart, then to his aunt's house for dinner. ohh man, dinner was great! i met my babe's grandma! she's so cute! hehehe, and she likes me!!! whoo hooO!

wednesday.april.30.2003
what's the dealio?

these past few weeks have been too crazy for me. i'm usually able to find some time to squeeze in a brief update here and there, but i've seriously had no free time. nothing much has changed. the end of the semester is winding down, and i still don't go to my sociology class. i REALLLY need to go. i think there are only about four more class meetings before the final exam. oh yeah, and i have this fat ass packet of journals to finish for that class. i hate going because all my teacher does is go over everything in the book. and it's not like it's any easier listening in class than it is to read the chapters. i'm still unsure of my average in that class. we've taken two midterms and i have no clue what i got on my last midterm. school is starting to kick my ass - hardcore. i really need to focus on finishing up this semester with good vibes - and hopefully i'll get good grades. hehe.
i'm really starting to hate work. my managers are a bunch of idiots that contradict themselves with almost every decision. i'm seriously thinking about quitting. i can't take anymore of the bullshit they give me. i started talking to my dad about it, and he says that if they're making me unhappy, then i should find a new job. surprisingly, he didn't say that i don't need to work. it's funny how things change. almost a year ago, my parents would do anything to keep me from getting a job. but seeing as how my family is in this huge financial crisis, every penny helps.
anyway, other than school and work, life is going great. i got a haircut shorter than i usually cut it. it's really short! i can't even tie it up in a pony tail, nor can i tie it half up or half down. hehe. i'm such a girl.
my boyfriend is the greatest in the world. hehe i just had to let you guys and gals know that. you won't believe how much in love i am with him. ohh man, and his family is completely awesome too! i'm surprised they don't kick me out when it's dinner time, or whenever i fall asleep on the couch! haha. i can honestly say i've never felt this way about anyone ever. i hope it doesn't seem like i'm bragging or anything about how incredible this part of my life is, but it's just the feeling i get whenever i think about it. unexplainable. i think that for every person in this universe, there is someone out there that is meant to make them happy and giddy, and sensitized to all different emotions one wouldn't feel by himself. i think when you're in love, and get that love returned, life isn't as tough as it usually seems. johnny rocks my world!

tuesday.april.22.2003
let's go to work.

spent the entire day with the boy! yeah! ^_^ woke up early and i knew that school was going to be really pointless, so why should i go? instead, i headed over to johnny's house. cuddled as we watched stanley and some other great shows on television. i don't remember in order what we did, but all of it was wonderful. we basically ran all around town to different stores that had gameboy games, watched porn, got fat at red lobster, then headed to grab some aloha pineapple at jamba juice. the best part of the day was when i learned the true meaning of head of the class. ahhhhh yeah. called in for work because the cramps were seriously killing me. i ended up crashing out on my baby's couch for a while, snores and drool included. later in the night, i stayed at johnny's while he headed off to benny's for a band meeting. his parents came home and totally didn't know i was there. hehehe, it was actually kind of funny because they thought i was weird to stay home and write my paper instead of hang out with the boys. his mommy made me a nice cup of tea and we sat and talked about lots of stuff, mainly about school. got home, tried to work on the paper again, but ended up getting super duper tired. once again, the anhela almost fell asleep on the computer! hehehe. o_O

monday.april.21.2003
i think i made it to wally world today!

made it in time for school. math was a drag, as usual. talked to my new buddy gary about the starting line. he went to the show in frisco and he said it was alright. i'm sure the crowd was much rowdier than here at santa clara university. hehe, we started talking about how fruity kenny is! he's still my hero and all, but yeah... dunno if he IS, but he acts pretty gay. it's okay if he is gay, though. no matter what, i still have johnny to be my all-time hero! whoo hoo! anyway, i didn't go to english. i realized i was supposed to write two more pages for my research paper, and i knew i wasn't going to have it done in time for class. so the better decision was just to ditch it. eh, we aren't doing anything super duper important anyway. just discussing sample essays. blah blah blah. headed to spend time with johnny. cuddled over the television, which was GREAT. it was sooooooooooooo incredibly great. i can't even begin to describe how amazing it was. ahhhh. it's been a lonely week and today put things back to normal. drove the boy and myself around town. picked up pictures at longs, then brought him to westgate shopping center, where he's never been, so that was fun. grubbed at panda express, then went to eb games across the street. wow. i've never spent so much time in a video game store! it was seriously so much fun because the workers really knew what they were talking about, and they were kool. they had so many old school games, and my baby even picked up some. i think i really want to get a gameboy advanced sp. it's pretty tight. gotta save my pennies for that one!! hehe. spent more time at his house. johnny's nephew was there! awww, and he was holding my hand! hehehe. he is toooooooo cute!

sunday.april.20.2003
happy easter!

woke up early and went with abel to church. saw my aunts and some family friends and such. eh. i guess it's been a while since i've been to church, or at least since they've seen me. stopped by kentucky fried chicken to grab some grub for the family. amazingly, i ran into gerrardo and angel working! heheh. it was really funny because we went through the drive-thru and we were all surprised to see each other. fun stuff. re-organized some pictures in a photo album. my mom wants me to rearrange all the pictures in my photo album because the adhesive stuff is all janky, so it's not holding pictures in anymore. journeyed to the mall with alain in search of a wallet for him. i swear he is SOOO picky about stuff. we circled the mall and almost didn't find a wallet. we ended up going back to zumiez i think... or was it pacsun? eh. whatever, he got his damn wallet.
the latter part of my day was the best ever! johnny tricked me into thinking he wasn't coming home till tuesday, which got me really sad because i've been missing him so much everyday since he left. he called me and told me to that i needed to stop by his house to watch the dog for a little. so i head on over there, thinking i'm about to spend some girl to girl time with miss brandy. but who answers the door?? MY JOHNNY!!!!!!!!! ohhh man. i was totally not expecting to see him! you don't know HOW much that rocked my world. so i spent as much time as i could with my honey baby. i got some pretty tight stuff back from good ol' mexico: an avacado/lady, a keychain, tight ass shorts and a tank, and a BEAUTIFUL bracelet!
later in the night, it was back to routine telephone time with my baby. a very... intense conversation. some tears were shed, and there was much confusion. but to keep things short, everything ended fine.
onward to another crummy monday... x_X

saturday.april.19.2003
put your mouth on my bloody knees.

long day of boredom.
arrived on time for work. played the hermit by hiding myself in the fitting room for most of my shift. it was great. oh yeah, note to self: i hate working retail. it requires too much interacting with the public, and sometimes, needy customers don't quite hit the spot.
dropped by gina's to chill for a little. i thought i was supposed to take benny home, but a bunch of confusion and junk went on with the couple - as usual - and i drove a lonely drive to my humble abode. it actually really bothered me, especially since i was there amongst all the awkwardness floating in the air. but i guess with some people, friends just come last in the list of importance. whatever - i wonder why i even bother sometimes.
geezus, i can't wait till johnny gets home. the only people that i find never flake out on me are the two people i love outside of my family - the boy and my bestest girlfriend. i notice that i'm only really happy when one of them, or both, are around. i guess they're really the only two that understand me inside and out. it really bites because at this exact moment in my life, neither of them are here to offer a shoulder to cry on. friendships are strange. you think you know a person so well, especially because you've known them for a really long time. but you seriously don't see the real them until they fuck you over. i've experienced that way too much in life, and i'm tired of it. i've decided i'm tooo vulnerable. but i'm sure it's my own fault. ah well, just another one of the many things to add on my list of vulnerabilities. as if the list wasn't long enough already...
anyway, the rest of my day consisted of watching boxing, taking a nap, laughing at my brothers struggling to beat super street fighter (on super nes), searching for food, and watching silence of the lambs. great night, huh??

friday.april.18.2003
good bye milk ads!

late, late, LATE last night, i went to benny's house to chill. hehe, and because he had food! whoo hoO! my house NEVER has food - this evening was no different. watched some spider solitaire, porn on his computer, and saturday night live. yup - you heard me right, kids. saturday night live on a friday night! what has this world come to??! o_O
woke up super duper late, which felt really nice. took all the milk ads off my walls. i'm not used to how it makes my room look so empty! dropped off some film to be developed, went by the bank, and filled up my car with gas. ohh man, there was this stupid asian guy in a truck right next to me that kept on staring! and he kept on trying to keep up with me, or try to race me on the streets!! people are so retarded!
got to work early, for once. bought a sweater at macy's, and i think the guy did something wrong. i'm pretty sure i was supposed to get some credit back since i had a gift certificate, but he didn't give me anything. i was studying the receipt, and i was a little confused cause i think i'm supposed to get credit back. if anything, i can go back tomorrow after work and get the credit back. work was freakin crazy today. sooooooo many go backs at the end of the night! my new buddy, tara, and i had to clean out this fat ass bin of merchandise. oH! nastiest part of today: we were putting away underwear, and another bra specialist, jenny, comes in and says that she forgot that a customer tried on about six pairs of panties on her BARE skin. and it was the panties we had JUST sorted out. ewwwwwwww.. tara and i totally ran to wash our hands. you see, when someone does that, we damage them out because that's just freakin nasty.
anyway, i arrived home to a house with some food - for once in this lifetime. but because my brother alain can be the biggest asshole in the world sometimes, he ate all the rice and left me one spoonful! NO RICE!!! i'm asian! how the hell are you going to tell me i'm going to eat WITHOUT rice?! grr.. oh well, i guess it's good that i didn't eat a lot. i'm turning into a fatty! x_X

thursday.april.17.2003
you can have the best of me.

what a day! traveled in the ugly weather to school. took my quiz for administration of justice, returned some library books, and studied in the computer lab. met up with mio for some boba. we went to the new place in valley fair. good boba and drinks - high price. jammed back to school for my sociology midterm. some of the kids i talk to in that class were surprised to actually see me. i've practically given up in that stupid class. i'm pretty sure i really bombed that midterm, but we'll see. i thought the same way about the last midterm, especially because i used the same 'strategy,' but i surpsingly got a B. hehehe.
talked to my baby for a while. yayeeee! he's coming back home in a matter of days! i'm so excited!!!!!!
headed home, reisa came by, grabbed something small to fill our tummies, then headed to the show. it was so great because i got to talk to kenny a little bit and get a picture with him before the show! hehe supposedly he remembers when johnny asked him to sign my poster. got right up to the front of the stage! heck yeah! shafter opened and they were pretty kool. the lead singer reminded reisa and i of tyson from all american rejects, mixed with nick bustamante's sideburns. haha. the starting line was up next, and they seriously kicked booty! i think the last time i saw them live was in santa cruz. WAY long time ago. matt gave me a guitar pick, and it actually says TSL on it. hehe, all the girlies were jealous! *snicker snicker* umm... no use for a name was up next. they didn't play one of the two songs i knew, so i was a little disappointed, but they still made me get sweaty. and last, but not least, sum 41 brought down the house. it was a little weird because even though the crowd was going wild, i wasn't feeling it too much with sum 41. reisa and i were talking about it, and i guess we just didn't like that they were TOOO hardcore for us, or because we were just hella tired from the starting line. i seriously haven't gotten so into a show as i did tonight. it was groovy. i even have the bruises to prove it!

tuesday.april.15.2003
just a few drags to go.

school was pointless. rushed like hell to make it on time for my intro to criminal justice class, but class only lasted like fifteen minutes long. we received our quizzes from last week back, and i missed one answer. as we were going over answers in class, i realized my test was actually mismarked, but i honestly didn't want to make a big deal out of ONE point. i know it could possibly help me, but eh. i'm not in serious danger of failing that class. i scrammed over to the kscu radio station and kicked it for a little with virginia on her radio show. i met a few other dj's too. on my drive to somewhere other than school, i learned the hard way that smoking a cigar while driving really isn't the smartest idea. haha. whooO! go anhela! in short, i had to drop by save mart, and now my car smells like coronado cherry. mmm. i decided to chill with the psuedo mexican himself. that's right, kids, i hung out at benny's house. chilled for a while with mekenna, played towers and lost SOOOOOO badly, watched the boys play timesplitters, grabbed food at jack in the box, then chilled for a bit more. mio came by to say hello and stuffs. at six, mio and i journeyed to her house for dinner with her mom and steve. YUMMMMMMMY dinner. it was super nice. watched tv after we stuffed our fatty asses, yelled at benny on the phone, and saw DAN from road rules season five: northern trail. now my day has come to an end, and it's time to start dreaming of my he-man. o_O

monday.april.14.2003
i miss the one and only fuzz!

school sucks. surprisingly, i'm understanding math. that's seriously a once in a lifetime thing because i really despise that subject with all the passion in the world. i honestly don't understand how i'm going to use statistics in everyday life. but for now, i'll deal with it. sigh. headed to english for a fun day of reviewing how to write killer thesis statements. ohhh yes. getting all warmed up for the damn research paper.
after school, i headed around the pruneyard plaza, then journeyed off to miss reisa's house. good times. hung out for a bit, talked about anything and everything. we ended up going to tapioca express on monterey road. haha, it was so janky because they didn't accept atm cards, so we had to buy something at the liquor store in order to get cash back. whoo, reisa bought me some cigars. heheh, hit me up if you wanna smoke! hahahaha.
after the fun with reisa, i headed off to more fun with mio. i drove us to valley fair, shopped around, then by the time were were finished, it was time for her to get back home to meet her daddy. omg, i don't know if it's just me, but i get TOTAL road rage. i know mio does too.. actually, i know reisa does too. okay, besides us, it's crazy! i don't think it's me, but people piss me off so much when i drive! ohhh and the worst is when they STARE!!! makes me want to just scream in their face. damn, if they want, just take a freakin' picture. it'll last longer. x_X
on to a much, much happier note, my baby called me! whoo hooO! that just made my night SOOOOOOOO much better. i was starting to worry about why i haven't heard from him in a while, but i guess all their phones are janky and once they reach land, he'll be able to call more often. i'm excited for him because things seem to be going well and he's having fun. yayeee for my baby!! ^_^

sunday.april.13.2003
here's my heart, i'll let you break it.

late for work, as usual. i hate work, as usual. my manager actually made my sensitive ass cry. i wasn't having a good day and she was totally up my ass about everything. i guess she could sense i wasn't in the greatest mood, so she approached me about that. instead of laying off when i told her that i didn't want to talk about it, she persistently badgered me. i really don't like it when people do that, especially if they don't personally know me and my issues. i don't feel comfortable spilling my guts to strangers, like some people do.
after work, i met up with mio and baba at pizza california. mmmm... a good old fashioned dinner at the pizza place with mio and her mommy. good times. we went to pick up some YELLOW bananas for mio's mom, filled up our tanks, and headed to grab some pearl tea. first we went to q cup, but those punk asses didn't have any more pearls! what's the point of going to get pearl tea when they're out of pearls. hmph. we then headed to this place called bubble. it's a cute place, but the people there are jerks. this one chick that was making the drinks got all pissy when mio asked for pearls in her drink. talk about rude! anyway, we had a fun night of hanging out. too bad we couldn't get our traditional meal at q cup. hmm... we have the rest of the week. x_X hehe.
my baby's ship set sail to mexico. sigh. he's probably already there having a spectacular time. but it's okay because i know he loves me and he misses me just as much as i love and miss him! yup yup. o_O
boys and girls, be careful with credit cards! my brother accidentally dropped his card, or misplaced it, and someone picked it up! apparently, the thieves charged three hundred big ones at safeway on his card. luckily, the credit card company called my brother after that charge was made, and verified if he made that charge. they were able to cancel that charge and cancel the card, so he couldn't get robbed of his hard-earned money. damn. i'm glad that i always check for id whenever people use their credit cards to purchase stuff at work. it's a crazy, crazy world we live in.

saturday.april.12.2003
missing you more than you can imagine.

i'm pretty out of it. johnny gave me a wake up call to say hi let me know he already left for los angeles. after trying to travel in the horrid rain, i arrived late to work for a 'stupendous' shift today. whoo. my baby called me AT WORK to tell me that he safely arrived in los angeles. awwww, what a total sweetheart. apparently, my cell phone is working like shit right now. after work, i went to benny's to chill for a while. we came to my house so i could change out of work clothes and then headed to catch a flick. watched anger management. funny stuff. anyway, i'm totally having trouble typing tonight, for some odd reason, so i think it's time to hit the road. have a good night, kiddos! i know i will as i drift off to sleep thinking about my special poopie face... o_O

wednesday.april.09.2003
avril equals april.

school was... school. almost fell asleep in math. my teacher calls me angie. hmph. headed to the library and ran into connor from english. both of us didn't really read the five gazillion pages that were assigned for homework, so we were there trying to get it done by 12:30pm. i finished, fortunately, and fell asleep for a little bit. smart me fell asleep on the sleeve of my sweater, so i woke up with lines all over my face. haha. walking to english, i was suddenly startled when i heard my name called across the distance. none other than miss mallory. we chit-chatted for a while... about her online boyfriends, and a certain kid we know who is an "online pimp that scores online bitches." ah yeah, that's all you need to know! after a fun filled hour and some odd minutes of english, i headed to spend time with johnny. watched the jerk with steve martin. ohh man, that's probably the best movie ever! haha. i really liked it. ryan and blondie... uh, i mean daniel stopped by. blondie raped spongebob. poor spongebob. *sob sob, whimper whimper* ran around town to get food. i was falling asleep on the couch and i started drooling. when johnny woke me up, i think the first thing i said was, "oh my gosh, i'm drooling!" haha. go anhela!

monday.april.07.2003
i want you here by my side.

back to stinky school on a stinky monday. woke up feeling really crummy, especially because i had a really difficult time getting to bed. damn daylight savings time. bah. why doesn't the earth revolve in an even number of days so we don't need to set the clocks twice a year?? life is full of imperfections. just gotta live with them, right? o_O
spent time with my boy afterschool. mmm hmm! *snicker snicker* johnny knows what i'm talking about! *wink wink* played some yahoo towers and watched the fuzz play counterstrike. when benny and sammy came over for practice, i made a trip to pick up pizzas at little caesars. hehe. mmmm... i've been craving pizzas for a while, but i haven't gotten any till today. and you can bet it tasted SOOOOO delicious!
johnny and i headed out later that evening to guitar showcase. fun stuff, as always. on the way to japan town, we saw these two cars on the freeway, both that had major road rage. it was pretty crazy. car numero dos kept on tailgating numero uno. i wonder what happened in the end.. o_O johnny and i wanted to check out these really nice apartments near where danny doo lives in japan town, but i think the offices were all closed. they are pretty awesome from the outside - i'm getting excited to see what's in store for the interior. gosh, it makes me want to move out even more than i already do! ohh man, i have tons of feelings on that matter, but i'll save that bedtime story for another night.

saturday.april.05.2003
climbing up on solsbury hill.

i've experienced a milestone in my life today. yup, that's right - i had my first migraine. or at least that's what it felt like. i was literally crying because my head was just pounding with pain! i'm feeling a little bit better, luckily. after a really long nap, i've still got a small headache. i'm sure my eyes are a little puffy from the tears. x_X
worked today. it started off like any normal saturday - slow business and me running late for work. but towards the end of my shift, it started getting so hectic that i had to help out in the fitting room. i swear, the bra specialist and i were running for bras and helping out customers in the rooms. and to add on to the stress, my manager was totally getting on everyone's ass about EVERYTHING! i really hope she's not working with me tomorrow. damn, and i need to buy panties too. i never want to stick around after work to go shop in the store because i KNOW she's going to try and keep me to stay a few more gazillion hours.
my fattie little cousin came to visit me today! awwwww. he's so big now! i'm pretty sure you've seen his fattie picture in my wallet, or i told you his incident with seeing cow shit. hahaha. but i was surprised because he was very respectful, seeing as how i'm supposed to be his aunt... or second cousin, once removed or some junk like that. bah! shana and i would always try to figure out all that geneology junk. still confused.
anyway, change your clocks. it's time to spring forward. damn time change... i was barely getting used to the fall back time and now we gotta spring forward. dammit.

monday.march.31.2003
time weaves ribbons of memories.

and here we are, facing another monday. bleh. it was back to school for me, and surprisingly, i made it to school with time to spare. traded stories about the break with my buddy in statistics. it's insane how wealthy her family is. seven or eight children, living in saratoga, with enough money to own a beach house in santa cruz. hmm.. anyway, statistics went by slower than it ever has. found out i'm averaging a B in that class, which ain't too shabby! heheh. english was cancelled, so i headed over to johnny's. fell asleep for a few hours in my baby's bed. the whole time, he was taking care of his grandparents, but he came by for a little to visit me. ah yeah!! fun times. when he went back to take his grandparents out, i fell back to sleep. i had a weird dream about spoons, drooled all over the pillows, and farted under the covers. muwahaha. i'm kidding. all except the flatulence part is true. later on, my baby came home, and we watched the ring. crazy stuff. i thought it was okay, but it was pretty freaky. gina ended up calling johnny after we finished the movie, attempting to freak him out by saying, "seven days." x_X
after we ate dinner with his parents, the two of us hit up great mall, valley fair, streetlight records, and tower records. the boy bought some stuff, and we left. whooO! i had a fun filled day, especially because most of it was with my sweetheart! xoxo

sunday.march.30.2003
too happy being in love with you.

it's been a while since i've had the chance to update this. my spring break has slowly, yet unfortunately, come to an end. much of it consisted of spending time with the boy, hanging out with miranda, working, and going out.
friday night, johnny and i went to the outdoor show outside of border's bookstore. we saw kevin's band. (as spongebob would say : hi kevin! hehe), stuck in tomorrow, and a few other bands i didn't get the names to. it was fun! saw a few familiar faces, including kumalo! that's right, boys and girls! the black guy with the crazy hair! haha. it was mad fun, though. johnny and i grabbed some in n out and dined in his car. mmm... i feel like such a fatty whenever i think about food. hehe.
yesterday, i had work pretty much all day. i was a little upset because my manager decided to have a "talk" with me. she's pretty chill, and i like that she's not constantly on my ass about everything. but i don't know why she was acting so differently yesterday. maybe it's the increase in the amount of sunshine we're getting in sunny san hoe right now, but still... ugh, whatever. i'm not letting it get to me. after work, i drove home at about 80 mph (if only i was about 8 mph faster, i could've gone back to the future!), showered, then headed off to johnny's. we then drove to independence to watch Grease. it wasn't too bad. i think the biggest let-down for me was that i've seen the movie WAY too much, so i probably expected a bunch more than the on-stage musical could offer. saw a bunch of the kiddies still at independence. nonetheless, fun fun. a bunch of us were trying to plan out something to do after, but it completely fell through because no one wanted to make concrete plans. i think miranda, kurt, and eric headed off to kurt's or miranda's house. matt and his girlie went bowling or went home. johnny and i hung out with benny and gina for a while, then we went to iguana's. i kept mooching off of benny and gina's bomb ass nachos. hehe. after that, we dropped off the duo, and headed to johnny's. mmm hmm. GOOOOOOOOD stuff. *wink wink*
now here i am, awake at eleven in the am! i actually woke up for an eight am meeting. bah. we're launching a new bra again, so check it out if you're interested. whooo.. go victoria's secret! x_X

wednesday.march.26.2003
rootbeer swirl vs. burgundy cherry!

woke up in the afternoon more tired than i've been in a while. after being stuck in the house practically all day, cleaning my room, cooking rice, and playing super nes, i headed over to johnny's house. we ended up having a few wrestling matches. haha. tooo much fun! as we hit the road off to no place in particular, johnny spontaneously suggested we go to santa cruz and buy a soda. agreeing, and not really having a choice, we were off through turns and bends. our hearts led us to marianne's ice cream. best ice cream ever!!! after savoring every last lick of ice cream, as well as every last crunch of the cone, we went back home. arrived home to find my brothers playing street fighter 2 on super nes. abel took a trip to LA this past weekend for a softball tournament, and he went to disneyland too. he bought me a really awesome Mulan picture frame. i found a tight picture of abel and me when we still lived in australia. so we'll see how that looks in the frame. :)

tuesday.march.25.2003
dreaming only of you.

all in all, i've had a wholesome day.
slept in till the early afternoon, by which time my mom was already making dinner. helped her with that. after i showered and prettied myself up, i jammed on over to independence to drop off wings and pick up tickets. coincidentally, i ran into benny and ended up helping him haul his set to the theater. being the social butterfly i am, i stayed much longer than i intended. i also was talked into helping chris take his keyboard and amp to the theater. my lord, carrying that keyboard was like carrying a coffin! it was sooooo damn heavy.
left for the bank, then headed to johnny's. we roamed around the mall and ate like fatties before we trailed off to see oLd scHoOL. ohh man, that movie is pretty funny! a lot of what happens is unexpected, and i think that's what also makes it enjoyable.
after dinner, i brought my guitar to miranda's and we rocked out for a little bit. we watched tv with her mommy, caught up with the girl talk, bought boba at a new place in the asian square of mc carthy ranch, ate tempura, and listened to some ABBA. ahh... :)